Why am I not the first choice...?( a sad slowed playlist) - kzfaq.info/get/bejne/sNajiNphrLadqIE.html

“Sleep isn't just a sleep anymore its an escape from reality.”

“We gotta respect our pillow for catching our tears when nobody does”

Room: I'll close the door so people won't see you crying Mirror: don't worry I know your true self Shower: I won't Make fun of your voice Pillows: It's okay I'll be here when you cry Teddys: I don't care if you hate me you can hug me when you're sad Light: I'll make it dark so you can sleep TV: I hope I calm you down while watching videos Mind: I'm great at keeping secrets Songs: I'll distract you while You thinking something that makes you sad Blanket: Hug me if you're sad Food: Eat! Eat! Stop starving yourself Fan: I hope you'll be okay I am here always so you won't feel hot AND THEN PEOPLE SAYS< NO ONE CARES ABOUT US~ LOVE YOURSELF 🖤

When you can't feel the difference between happiness and sadness anymore

To the person who's crying right now. Let's just cry as long as we want then stand up and fight again

"Not happy, not sad just empty" ~Mr.lonely

For the 1% of people who are reading this , I wish you all the best in life.

Your bed won't judge you, your pillow will catch your tears, your blanket will hug and protect you and the darkness will hide you from the people who hurt you Music is the language of love, happiness, sadness, pain, understanding and much more. The universal language that everyone understands. Don't forget to love yourself, because no one is going to do it better than you

Am I the only one who makes a false reality in their head with people who love them and uses that to disconnect from this reality because it isn’t what I want in life. I’m incredibly grateful for everything I have and I do have a pretty good life but it isn’t what I feel is right for me. I want to be able to laugh with my friends over a reality we just shifted to and I want to be able to live an extraordinary life full of magic and visiting those in the books I’ve read and the movies I’ve watched. And I want to be able to do that with my group of friends that exist in a different reality. So thank you for this playlist because it makes me feel closer to them. That might sound stupid to some people but I don’t really care, it’s what makes me happy because life is starting to feel the same, everyday is repeating the one before it.

My dad said to not talk to strangers "But dad, these strangers are the ones who comfort me when I need you."

My family doesn’t understand how stressful it is to explain what’s going on in my head when I can’t even explain it myself

❤100 reasons to stay alive:❤ 1. to make your parents proud 2. to conquer your fears 3. to see your family again 4. to see your favourite artist live 5. to listen to music again 6. to experience a new culture 7. to make new friends 8. to inspire 9. to have your own children 10. to adopt your own pet 11. to make yourself proud 12. to meet your idols 13. to laugh until you cry 14. to feel tears of happiness 15. to eat your favourite food 16. to see your siblings grow 17. to pass school 18. to get tattoo 19. to smile until your cheeks hurt 20. to meet your internet friends 21. to find someone who loves you like you deserve 22. to eat ice cream on a hot day 23. to drink hot chocolate on a cold day 24. to see untouched snow in the morning 25. to see a sunset that sets the sky on fire 26. to see stars light up the sky 27. to read a book that changes your life 28. to see the flowers in the spring 29. to see the leaves change from green to brown 30. to travel abroad 31. to learn a new language 32. to learn to draw 33. to tell others your story in the hopes of helping them 34. Starting to learn new language youve Always dreamed speaking in (Japanese, Spanish, Korean etc) 35. Cute cats and dogs 36. Singing as loud as you want and can 37. Trampolines. 38. Ice cream. 39. Dancing- hip hop, ballet, etc 40. Cloud watching 41. Taking a shower and then sleeping in clean sheets. 42. Receiving thoughtful gifts. 43. "I saw this and thought of you." 44. The feeling you get when someone you love says, "I love you." 45. The relief you feel after crying. 46. Sunshine. 47. The feeling you get when someone is listening to you/giving you their full attention. 48. Your future wedding. 49. Your favorite candy bar. 50. New clothes. 51. Witty puns. 52. Really good bread. 53. Holding your child in your arms for the first 54. Completing a milestone (aka going to college, time.graduating college, getting married, getting your dream job.) 55. The kind of dreams where you wake up and can't stop smiling. 56. The smell before and after it rains 57. The sound of rain against a rooftop. 58. The feeling you get when you're dancing. 59. The person (or people) that mean the most to you. Stay alive for them. 60. Trying out new recipes. 61. The feeling you get when your favorite song comes on the radio. 62. The rush you get when you step onto a stage. 63. You have to share your voice and talents and knowledge with the world because they are so valuable. 64.Breakfast in bed. 65. Getting a middle seat in the movie theater. 66. Breakfast for dinner (because it's so much better at night than in the morning). 67. Pray (if you arent religious, you can start now!!) 68. Forgiveness. 69. Water balloon fights. 70. New books by your favorite authors. 71. Fireflies. 72. Birthdays. 73. Realizing that someone loves you. 74. Spending the day with someone you 85. Being wrapped up in a warm bed. 86. Someone's skin against yours. 87. Holding hands. 88. The kind of hugs when you can feel a weight being lifted off your shoulders. The kind of hug where your breath syncs with the other person's, and you feel like the only two people in the world. 89. Singing off key with your best friends. 90. Road trips 91. Spontaneous adventures. 92. The feeling of sand beneath your toes. 93. The feeling when the first ocean wave rolls up and envelops your toes and ankles and knees. 94. Thunderstorms. 95. Your first (or hundredth) trip to Disneyland. 96. The taste of your favorite food. 97. The child-like feeling you get on Christmas morning. 98. The day when everything finally goes your way. 99. Compliments and praise. 100. to look on this moment in 10 years time and realise you did it. Jesus loves you

I listened to this at 5am at school(no one was there) and the aura around felt so different. It felt so lonely and depressing and dark, but at the same time, It was peaceful and at home.

“Life isn’t fun without a struggle in it, but some struggles lead to tragic endings.”

Tbh, it’s hard to open up anymore, bc it’s like nobody listens anyway. Feeling unheard is the worst feeling when all you want is someone to care enough to listen to you, when you are always the one who listens to them..

Crying doesn't mean you are weak... It means you are strong for long...

deep (kinda depressing) thoughts " I don't want a best friend, because if I make a friend my best friend, it'll just hurt more when they leave."

i once heard someone say something that went something along the lines of, "when are we going to acknowledge that maybe we're not just depressed, we just live in a fucked up society and are reacting as we normally should?"

These comment sections under these playlist are always the most heartwarming thing. Thanks to everyone commenting here. The pain wont stay you got this and btw its not your fault and never only yours always remember that.

to the person reading this, It’s been hard for you, I know, and it makes me sad that you don’t see yourself in the way I see you. Sometimes they are things in life that cause us to lose ourselves, and the way you have is so unimaginable painful. I miss your smile, the way your eyes light up the whole room just by the sound of your laughter. I miss the way you accepted the way you look in the mirror without cursing yourself out about how ugly you look. I miss the way you didn’t think of yourself as a failure because everyone makes mistakes, we all have flaws and we all aren’t perfect. It’s painful to see that no one around you seems to see the pain through your eyes, but, stranger, I do, I see how heavy your heart is and how comforting the sadness for you might be, how afraid your heart is of happiness because it disappears in the end, right? You don’t know how much impact you have in this world and it’s sad to see that your demons fight against you and want to take over you. Because you do make a change, it’s something so simple and little that brightens up someone’s whole world, it can be a small smile from your lips, the way you look at things you’re passionate about, the way you make yourself eat even though it’s been hard for you lately, the way you zoom out and go in your own world, you brighten up my world by reading this, it means a lot to me that you’re here, existing, but I don’t want you to just exist, you deserve to feel alive. You deserve to get up in the morning and feel good about yourself. You deserve to feel something- to feel every damn second alive in this lifetime. It’s heartbreaking that you think you’re not capable of being loved because you are, I love you through all my words and I hope you let it happen in your heart. Love is scary, I know, maybe your heart had been broken once and since then you wanted to be rather numb than feel ever again, it hurts me how you punish yourself, does it not deserve love? Because YOU DO deserve love, please forgive yourself, it’s not your fault that the demons want to take over your beautiful heart. You’re not a bad person for distancing yourself from others, but you deserve someone to talk to, you deserve someone to listen. I am listening, you can tell me what’s wrong. It’s everything, isn’t it? There’s something pulling your heartstrings on the ground and no one seems to understand how misunderstood you feel, it’s heartbreaking to know that I am behind the screen and can’t give you a hug, that’s why I will give you a big warm virtual hug and send you lots of love :). You matter. You are worthy. You are loved. You deserve good things. You deserve someone to listen. You deserve to eat and drink. You deserve to feel good and alive. You deserve to smile. You deserve a hug. You deserve to be all the things you want to be because you deserve to have and feel good things happening to you and have a fulfilled life. I know I might not know you personally but I care about you so much, I write this because I want you to stay here with me, I want you to hold on a little longer because you matter so much to me, because I will not let you give up on yourself. I want you to see that you should not give up on yourself because you DESERVE GOOD THINGS. I want you to look back on the time when you were a kid, you didn’t give up when you tried to swim for the first time, you didn’t give up when you tried to walk for the first time and fell, you never gave up on yourself, you always kept on pushing forwards, so why can’t you now? I know it’s tiring, your mentally tired, but don't your younger self deserve good things? look back at your eyes that used to be full of hope, look back on those dreams. Don’t let yourself fall, you deserve better. We will both fight, I will fight for you. I won’t let those demons get to you. You can hold on to me, I won’t let you down :). Whenever you feel lonely, then look at the sky, I always look at it and think about you. Yes, you, because it makes me happy that there’s someone looking right back, maybe we can’t see each other but I can feel your presence here with me and that’s enough for me because I am glad your heart is beating and you’re still fighting. You’re so much stronger thank you think, you didn’t leave your spot on this earth even if you wanted to, you belong here, even though it doesn’t feel like it when you don’t feel like belonging then build your own home here, put all your love in it and dreams. Think of you as a star when you feel alone, you shine because your heart is good, no matter what mistake you made, no matter about the past you had, you’re one of the stars that shine bright in the universe because you’re heart is beautiful, that’s why the demons in your mind want to have it. As one of the stars you see other stars, maybe they have felt the same way as you do at some point in their life, but they lighten up the universe with each other’s presence. You’re a star for me, maybe you don’t see it yourself but I can see it, you’re beautiful from inside and out, your body is beautiful the way it is. You make me happy by reading this, you make me feel something by your presence, and when you can make me feel that way then you also make other people feel that way about you too. I hope you stay for yourself and don’t let your story get written by others but by yourself, it’s your story, not theirs. As you can see, I say a lot of “I hope” because I have hope for you even if you don’t have it for yourself, I see hope in you even though you might want to give up. That’s why I hope you won’t see the world in darkness and will see it colorful again, I hope I will give you a glimpse of hope and make the world you see a bit colorful for today. My favorite color is yellow, and I hope the next time you see the color yellow you will think about my words. If someone left you then don’t blame yourself, don’t think you weren’t enough, don’t lower yourself for someone who couldn’t see the awesomeness in you. If you lost someone I am so sorry for your loss, they want you happy, I hope you don’t feel guilty or regret because you were there, you spend enough time with them, they want you to be happy. They are in a good and safe place now. If someone broke your heart then I am so sorry that they couldn’t see the way you look so beautiful because of the heart you have. Anyone who gets to be with you doesn’t know how fucking lucky he/ she/ they are :). If you aren’t accepted at home or in general then I am so sorry that you have to deal with someone/ something you shouldn’t be ashamed of, I accept you and support you, I accept you as a human being no matter what race, religion, nationality, skin color, or sexuality you have. You’re safe here with me :). You’re not useless, you’re not a burden to anyone. You’re not a problem, you’re human and your feelings are valid. You’re not being dramatic. Please don’t starve yourself, you deserve food and to drink, I know it’s hard. It hurts to see that you’re in so much pain :( you deserve so much man, don’t let your emotions control you. Don’t let them get the best of you. I am sorry no one is noticing, I wish /hope I could take your pain away for today or even for a moment while you’re reading this. If no one told you, I am so proud of you, you’re reading this and it’s enough for me to be proud of you because you’re here and that’s all that matters to me. If it’s the night for you, go to sleep, I know it’s hard to fall asleep right now but you deserve a good sleep. If you have nightmares, please, don’t let them fight you. If it’s the day for you, don’t start it with such sad music, I know it’s impossible to have a good day with such a mindset but take baby steps, start by drinking two cups of water every day in the morning, and so on. You will start building little healthy habits. If it’s the evening for you, you’re probably overwhelmed and stressed, I want you to know it’s okay to feel the way you feel. You don’t need to be scared, of course, you’re overwhelmed or stressed, I mean who wouldn’t? But it’s important to know that when you feel that way you should do a little self-care, such as taking a bath for example? You deserve to feel at ease and relaxed. And if you are somewhere in between I hope you know that you’re so strong for breathing despite the pain, I know you will make it :) I believe in you. All I want for you is to stay here, I really mean all my words, even if there is a lot of unsaid things I want to tell u and my text is getting longer and longer, I want you here. I hope one day your smile will become a genuine one where you don’t need to fake it anymore because I can’t say this enough, you deserve a good smile and to feel alive. You’re worth more than every fucking cent in this world. You can let go for today, I got you, you can cry your heart out as much as you want, but don’t let it tear you down and let your emotions control you by giving up. Crying is not a weakness. If you still feel alone I dedicate you to a song as your friend. “Dusk till Dawn- Zayn feat. Sia (I prefer the slow version)” I hope you can think of me and will remind yourself of my words, I will for sure think of you. In case no one told you and you’re unsure yourself, you’re a good person and I am so happy you’re here. I hope this is enough to stay today, tomorrow will be a new day, a new start, let go now. Enough with beating yourself up for today, okay? Life for those who couldn’t smile for those who forgot what a genuine smile is, love like there’s no other, hug-like it's your last one. If you read all of it, until tomorrow my friend :) have a good day and a great year.

"If tears had colors, then pillow would have been a colorful canvas"

"If only our generation was happier,then the others...."

I am tired but can't sleep I am frustrated my attitude shows it I am sad but no one sees it I talk to myself to keep the silence away I am slowly fading to a blur Poem by me just now Thanks for reading it.

VENT: "Parents always try and reassure you when you break down, when they "think" your spirits are low, when they think you're having a hard time, because they think they know you the most, because they think they know everything about you.....but really it's the opposite.....they're the ones that destroy you, they're the ones that are breaking you down, they're the ones that lower your confidence, yelling at you, comparing you to others, to themselves when they were younger! But the real question is are they you? Were they born in the 2000's? Have they gone through the things of being yelled at because of their low grades? Have they gone through the things of being neglected because their sibling is doing better than them? Have they ever been comforted back just as much as they've comforted their sibling? Have they ever had a hand to hold onto when they needed it the most? Well I don't think so. Because I've never had the hand that reached out to me when I needed it the most. I never had that reassuring hug, that told me I was safe. I never had the sincere comfort of staying in a safe place. I never went a day without sibling neglegence. I had never been reassured or praised that I did a good job at school. I never got the "good job" or "I'm proud of you" praise, I got the "ok" or the "Keep it up or you'll be grounded." Sure you can get me "some" of the things I want, but you can't give me the reassurance of being their for me, you can't give me the attention, praise, or memories we could've made together over the years, you can't give it to me because it's all in the past, and you can't go back to the past once a second of it becomes the past. So no, you can't buy my attention, no you can't buy my love, and no you can't buy my time."

Vent: I can't take this anymore. I really can't. I don't wanna die, I would never be able to kill myself.I just don't wanna exist. I wanna runaway somewhere where this pain doesn't exist. The responsibilities and choices I'm supposed to make is crushing me. I know I'm not even an adult yet, and people say If you can't withhold the responsibilities as a child how are you gonna do that as an adult? I don't know. I don't...know. It's crazy how I've barely started living and already want everything to stop. Why is our generation like this? Nobody understands..Nobody. whenever I muster up the courage to open up to my parents instead of listening they cut me off and start yelling about how they provide me with so much and I'm still complaining. Well, mom, dad. I'm sorry. I'm sorry I'm not the perfect child you want and I'm just misusing whatever you do for me. I'm sorry. I'm so sorry that I can't get the good grades like any other kids. I'm sorry that I can't talk openly to others because I'm fucking shy. I'm sorry I stay locked up in my room all day. I don't know what to do. I'm sorry. thats all I can say. I'm sorry for being the pathetic kid that I am.

"Why do you listen to music so much?" because songs like these exist.

I'm proud of everyone that's going through something and is still fighting, you're brave and so strong. If you need a shoulder to cry on or someone to hold you while you let all the frustration out, I'll be here to listen and comfort you as best as I can, it may not be much but it's what I can offer! So smile because you're gonna get through this and prove everyone wrong! Believe in yourself, I know I do and you'll do amazing things!!! ❤

it really sucks. life jsut sucks at this point. so much has happened already and im not even an adult yet. for example, i met a guy on a summer camp. i thought i was straight and i still hope i am but i kinda cauth feelings towards him, and now im confused, 24/7 distracted, scared and anxious. and thats the easiest thing that has happened to me. i jsut sometimes wish i could start everything over you know. not only im sick of the way im living my life, but the fact i am even still living it you know. and i wanna change, oh trust me i do. but its really hard and frustratitng for me. its just a really slow progress and its killing me from the inside, tearing me apart. and here i am, listening to this playlist, and hoping that expressing my feelings might help, like i didnt know it wont. well, i wish you all better lives than oyu have now, and keep on fighting bcs one day the battle WILL be over, no matter if lost, or won...

0:00 when the party's over - billie eilish 3:46 medicine - daughter 8:45 apocalypse - cigarettes after sex 14:14 summertime sadness - lana del rey 19:08 slow dancing in the dark - joji 23:12 daddy issues - the neighbourhood 28:01 runaway - aurora 32:34 mr. sandman - syml 36:28 surrender - natalie taylor 40:02 this is home - cavetown I hope I got them all correct ;)

They say that age matures you…. But in fact it’s pain. Pain matures you these people who have been through it all are the most mature.

When pain really hits you hard, you get to the point where you pray that everything is just a dream, so that when you wake up, all your pain will be gone.

"I cant look in the mirror anymore without feeling ugly".....that sentance made me shed tears from how relateble it is....i know im not the only one but still...deep..

pov: at some point your loneliness filled you up so much that not even music can help you out, nor can sleeping or crying.

look at you, you are alive, you breath, you go on even if it feels impossible. I am proud of you!

If your reading this please, please be proud of yourself because I'm proud of you all I want is for you to wake up in the morning and have a good day and if anyone bullies you. Don't listen to them your perfect the way you are some people get jealous but they wish they where you. Please be safe everyone 😢😢❤❤

"Sometimes a good cry is just what you need to release all the hurt you have built up inside." I found this quote and this is so me.

I read a post in Reddit where it says ' what's the point of working on yourself if you don't have anyone to celebrate with?' That hits hard

Pain change my character Pain change my story Pain change my memory Pain change my history And pain change me from carrying to madness

it's incredible how much love people show on the internet then in real life. I learn a lot these past months, I got to experience my first love this summer, it was the best time in my entire life when I was with her. I also learn what true heartbreak feels like, I feel so empty, I have no hope for my future, I feel tired all the time, I do a lot of stupid shit to try make me feel the slightes bit of feeling I got from her but nothing works. I keep telling myself to let go but I just can't! I never felt this kinda love for anyone, just her...she's not "just an broken girl" she's my broken girl who I can't live without. Even tho i'm sure she forgot or moved on from me and treated me like shit the last weeks, I still love her because I were just as broken before she meet me, she fixed it, so I wanted to fix her's too, but it wasn't enough what I did for her. My selfastem is at my lowest right now but I still fighting to prove her wrong, I still trying to climb up that hole she threw me back in. I will never give up to achieve my dreams, my goals in life. Things will get better, I believe in myself, I will show everyone that left me! Keep going kings, Never forget who your mission is.

Sleep can’t Evan fix this kind of tired anymore

My teacher, " sure we adults had our hard times in our generations, but you guys face much bigger challenges this year where this virus started, people dying, protests, killing/murdering/suicides, and much more. It's just crazy how us adults jobs were to make new generations better then ours not making them worse. Why cant we just live in peace with no war, death, and sadness"

"I don't need friends they disappoint me."

I found this song in 2017 after my first heartbreak when I was 15. I cried listening to it downloaded onto an MP3 player app on my phone, because at the time many of the songs on Sheep's channel were not on spotify. I listened to it while sitting alone at school dances, or wandering around, or sitting in the library or hallway trying to eat lunch as quietly as possible. I listened to it after getting diagnosed with a chronic condition and losing many friends because they thought I was weird or contagious due to the symptoms. I listened to it after I thought I loved somebody for the first time in 2018, and I saw him slowly drift away over 3 years and felt unlovable and unworthy. I listened to it after I sat alone for the first hour of homecoming because none of my friends bothered to tell me they would be late or where they were. I listened to it when I felt alone and cried on the bathroom floor. I listened to it when I ended up not being able to attend college in 2020 and transferred out of what I thought would be my dream career. I listened to it when I felt angry, or depressed, or worthless. Lately, things have changed. I am almost 20 now and haven't listened to this in a while. I now have an incredible best friend, who truly cares about me and I consider a platonic soulmate, who I feel completely comfortable with. My condition is improving with age, diet and physical work and has become very manageable; although it still flares up when I am sick or tired. I have late nights laughing and enjoying myself with my friends, and I'm in a program that will allow me to travel the world and follow my dreams. I found someone who wants to travel the world with me someday and thinks I'm the greatest thing since sliced bread. I even have a solid freelance gig going on the side doing what I love. Sometimes life has to break you before it puts you back together the way you were supposed to be. Every time I listened to this, I kept telling myself things would get better, but I didn't really believe it. Something about this song was calming and comforting enough that it gave me a space of quiet when I was feeling those terribly intense emotions, and the loneliness of being a teenager. I took those moments to rest, accept the comfort the song gave me, and show some compassion to myself. I listened to this again today and while life certainly isn't perfect, it does get better. It ABSOLUTELY does. And by the time it gets better, you will be stronger, and compassionate enough to yourself to accept the happiness in your life. I hope if you feel those emotions too, this song will offer you a bit of quiet. It truly is a masterpiece. I listened to it today, and it still gave me that quiet, but now to be proud of what I made it through :) Never give up friends!

sad song isn't just song, it helps us express our feelings alone with the song

Sometimes, there are moments when you want to scream at a top of a mountain, cry yourself to sleep in the embrace of someone you love, or float down some stream towards the ocean. But instead of giving in to your impulses you just smile and shove the pain down your throat, hiding your feelings from those you care about. If you feel this way, I just want to say that you aren't alone. There are people who have felt the same pain you have, the same heartache, and broken feelings you have. We got through it. It's time to let go of that regret that keeps you up at night, it's time to stop doubting your self-worth, and it's time to let someone help you carry the load. Sending warm internet hugs to you all in hopes that your day gets better, even if it is just a little! :)

this isnt music only for sad people but also for people that had something die inside of them that ended there humanity and made them something they didnt want to be but now are

Hey there, I know you may be hurting And trying to hide emotions to not show that your weak, But you aren't weak when you cry just know you've been strong too long and need to let it out It's been too long I think mental scars are saddest of them all because no one will ever see them and no one will care And I'll be here to help you reheal so feel free to talk to me And btw look at you! Your still here! I'm so proud of you standing and breathing you made it so long in life I'm super proud of you!! Keep doing what you love and care for -love you♡♡

Take a deep breath. Relax and love yourself. You got this💗

I can never find the words to vent about how I feel, but this playlist expresses all my emotions.

Who ever may read this and is feeling just the slightest bit down, please know you are amazing. You are perfect in every moment and situation you find yourself in. I promise you are enough. You are not a burden to anyone I can assure you that. I know it's hard, It's so so hard But rest assured you will make it into a better life eventually. I'm not saying it will be soon but it will happen. No matter who you are or what you believe in, the bad situation or situations you are in right now will pass. I am so proud of you. So so proud. Please take care of yourself who ever you are because someone cares about you, and thats me. I care about you. Good luck out there superstar. Good luck.

i don't want much for myself , i just want the person reading this to be healthy , happy and loved . wishing you a good day 🧚🏻‍♀❤

Allah will reward anyone who doesnt commit suicide or self harm, keep going He is proud!

Sometimes I feel like sleeping for a long time and not waking up

"Depression is like living in a body trying to survive yet being trapped with a mind that is dying." 'You were one of the most hardest lessons I learned."

The last time I truly felt happy was when I was a child. There was innocence at the time-untainted by the cruel and harsh reality of the world. Now all I feel is numb. A chilly sort of iciness which settles into you slowly. Soon enough you begin faking smiles Faking pain Faking everything Because truly you don’t feel anything And that’s the scariest of all

To all the people out there still fighting I love yous all and I’m so proud of you I know how yous are all feeling life’s so fucken tough but we are men so we’ve gotta stay strong and push ourselves through life’s struggles

Found this in my recommendation while my mom and her husband argue about divorce on Christmas morning Ngl these are the only way I can express emotions, so thank you for the amazing playlist

It feels like... it feels like our generation is catching the fall out for the lack of love that was given to the generation before us. We're like the remaining nuclear fall out of Hiroshima. I don't think we ever had a chance if I'm being honest. It was like our generation was set on a path from the moment the generation before us. We're soldiers fighting a war that wasn't meant to be ours but was postponed and passed down to us grew old. Our parents, tethering weight to our ankles and letting it drag us down into the depths of what should have been their emotions but turned into ours. We never stood a chance.

this playlist is like a therapy for me :( my pilllow is right now my best friend :) i hate the feeling when youre smiling but inside you could die

To everyone who is doing homework, leave the chat, breathe slowly, take a sip of water, and focus To everyone who is trying to sleep, leave the chat, grab a blanket, and get the rest you deserve. To everyone who is feeling sad, grab a snack, get some water, get a blanket, and write down your thoughts. when you're done, lay down, and get some rest, no matter the time. To everyone who is drawing, you got this. you're art is amazing. keep your head up (or down, depends on where your paper is) and remember that you matter.

To anyone who may read this.. You did it, you made it to 2022 when you never thought you would. And for that, I’m so very proud of you! You’ve come so far, and I’m so so glad your still here fighting your battle. I know things get hard, and you just feel like giving up, or you already gave up. But things will eventually get better, now I’m not saying they’ll magically get better over the next few days/months/ even years. Things like this can take time hun, so allow life to take its time, things will be okay in the end, I promise. I love you, and I’m so glad your still here!! You never deserved all this pain and hurt, and I’m so sorry for whatever you’ve had to endure. You’ll get through this though!! You may not feel like anyone cares about you, so if you feel that way please know that I do. I may be a stranger, but I honestly do care about you! I want you to live a happy life, and be able to do whatever you always dreamed of doing as a child! I believe in you and love you sweetie! You got this!!

It's comforting knowing that the music understands it all.

Hey if your reading this, just remember that this pain is temporary and will not last forever, and while your going through it your not alone we are all in this together doing the best we can, I'm proud of you for still being here fighting everyday, cus it's really not easy but you still strong enough to not give up, know that I care about you and I'm glad your here, your feelings are valid and I believe you'll get to a better place with time. I hope this helps, you don't have to accept my comment or like it but I just did it for the people who needs it. Remember to drink water get some rest and check on your loved ones❤️.

We fell apart. She was my moon. She made me feel as if life and it’s problems didn’t exist. She was the love of my life. Different face, different place, they can’t replace you. You touched a part of my heart I wouldn’t let anyone else touch. I miss the way you taste and I can’t seem to get you off my lips. As much as I try to get the memory of you to fade to numb the pain I shouldn’t you were the core memories I made, the true pain I felt, the growth I needed. If you ever see this I will always love you. Days, weeks, months, years, it gets better.. yes? The pain is so real I can’t feel anything else.

Pain can change you in a good way or in a bad way.

If it can make anyone smile: My first language is french and so my video suggestions are both in english and french. Sometimes I mix both in my head. It also happens that "pain" is bread in french (and so a natural word to come in my mind). Basically I clicked here because I thought it said "POV bread changes you" and it sounded funny. oups The songs are still great and the vibe is so soothing, it feels like a big breath while crying

Life is not just a waste of your time. I know you are not okey. I know you are having some very bad moments right now. I know you are facing a lot of hardships. I know you are feeling there aren't any hopes left for you. I know you are feeling that you are not enough and nobody cares. I know that because I also feel all those things. Sometimes Its okey to cry. Its okey to focus only on yourself. It is okey to be on your room all day. But you know what. We have only one life. Get up try to face your thoughts. Don't let them break you. Its difficult but you can do it. You can destroy them. Enjoy your life. Enjoy the gift that god chose to send you. Its okey to break sometimes. But after that get up and show to the world that you are a real fighter who doesn't be afraid of some little difficulties demon sends. You ve got this man i know that. Your family, your friends and god know that for sure. So don't let them down and show them what you deserve ❤️

the most amazing thing for me were the opening sentences. If you were one of the people who reflected listening to these songs, know that.. I love you, and that no matter how far we may be in this moment, you are not alone, I am with you. I'm proud of you, of your progress. I ask that you don't try to be someone you're not. You are perfect in your own way. I love you!!

I think the reason why we listen to slowed songs is to slow reality down and process....everything. but it still doesn't feel real.

Pov: you’re walking in New York and you stop at a little cafe. You get a coffee and a pastry and sit down, you look over and see someone looking at you, you think * wow they’re really pretty/handsome .. they look really nice * they smile and wave for you to come sit with them. You two talk for an hour and they say “do you want to go shopping with me?” You say “of course!!” And you both head to go shopping. They buy you a cute stuffed animal! It’s so cute and it reminds you of them:) they say “you look stunning..” and you say “oh wow .. thank you! You do as well” *you both blush* you both walk towards your hotel because it’s getting late. When you finally arrive they say “will we meet again?..” you say “I don’t know.. but tonights been the best day ever .. spending the day with the person of my dreams..

Dear stranger, if you are reading this, I love you, you matter and you are important. Just never give up, okay? I believe in you, I don't know you but I want you to believe it that am with you, I know you are tired, but don't give up, I know that we will get through this together, don't overthink, see the positive sides and work on that, love yourself and talk to yourself sometime trust me you will feel better, am always there for you, sending virtual hugs to all who never give up, I am so proud of you, sleep with a smile, love to all.

Honestly at this point where i can understand everything, my constant thinking has got me questioning if whether the feeling i have rn is pain, although teens my age call it 'depression' ive never really been into using that term whenever i felt something unpleasant or wrecking, i had multiple uneasy and unexpected situations and i just shrugged it off although it impacts quite alot in my living, i can just say one thing if ever someone out there is having a hard time coping up with something, in this world of perception, we are indulge of constant change so whenever you feel scared of things changing and turning for the worse always think that no victory can be won without a battle, things changing doesn't make u anyless of a person, no pain is merely enough to make an amazing human like you cry and surrender to the depths of pain, everybody here deserves a raise!

Everything will be okay. I promise 🤍

It means a lot when the darkness is where you feel safe ..

In a Fentanyl Coma: I saw these Playlists as physical theatres. Where ppl could visit and sit-in together, listen together, cry together, heal together, share and meet... Kinda like a physical world of the comment section...heh. Oddly, I never went inside the theater though... I only stood outside, I was sobbing. But then all of a sudden kept receiving the warmest hugs from those also in tears both departing and arriving. This continued throughout until the end of the playlist. And I was ok with not entering because I could still hear the music throughout... Plus I couldn't walk away, everyone's hugs were the most understanding I have never received before... What a trip. I honestly think this was the one and only, most-beautiful, healing, touching comatic (comaddict) dream that this murderous drug has and will ever offer me. - I'M NOT AT ALL CONDONING OR TRYING TO GLORIFY MY USE OF THIS. SIMPLY SHARING AN HONEST EXPERIENCE I JUST HAD. TRULY, I HATE MYSELF FOR STILL BEING UNDER IT'S SPELL AND WANT MORE THAN LIFE ITSELF TO QUIT IT... IT'S TAKEN SO MANY OF MY FRIENDS, AND NEARLY ME AN UNMENTIONABLE AMOUNT OF TIMES. MONK109 ~LOVe from San Francisco

There’s five minutes until 2022 and I’m just sitting alone on my couch reading listening to this. I’m spending my last moments of 2021 reading and listening to a sad playlist 🙂

_"Keep your head up,don't let the crown fall off,king."_ I'll remember this person,for my whole life,hopefully I'll make it out of 2021 alive. Have a nice day/night everyone,keep your head up,king or queen or royalty. :)

Finally I found where all the Emos are hiding. GO OUT SIDE PEOPLE! LIVE LIFE!! YOU ONLY GET ONE!! And that's something to live for.

I feel like I'm gonna live with this sadness for the rest of my life. It has effected me so much I don't think it's ever gonna go away...

with headphones on, lying in the middle of the night, listening to the silent rain, reflecting on all I have to be, not knowing why or how, no choices. Why are we trying to be perfect? Can't I go back to the time when I laughed with my only friend, without worrying about a silent fight over space? Don't mind me, I'm just another empty person who's been beaten and continues to be beaten by life, learning to hit.

the fact half of these songs were my friends favorite songs makes me want to cry. Thank you for the playlist though.

it's our generation because nature is preparing us for whatever we are bringing upon ourselves in the far or near future....

No one notices your tears.. No one notices your pain... No one notices your sadness.. Everyone notices your mistakes... And i am ^ this too

Doesnt feel like a new year, This depression will never go away, these feelings of self harm will never go away, this world is just so shit and garbage. I hate it all. I just want to be at peace and be happy once again. Nobody understands how i feel when i explain it to them.

“Sleep isn’t just a sleep anymore. It’s an escape from reality” they said. I say It is an escape until your dreams becomes nightmares. So sleep doesn’t give you the peace you’re looking for anymore and you become very lonely. You just realize your home doesn’t make you feel how it used to make you feel. You realize your family are just strangers to you now. You realize your friends are your secret enemies. Finally you just realize that you are not that bright person you used to be. You are now just a big deep dark hole now that you’ve realized and saw the hurtful truth right? I have been through all this but I didn’t give up. So my nightmares turn into beautiful dreams again. My home felt like home again. My family and I broke the code of silence and talked to each other so I stopped expecting them to understand how it feels because they can’t understand what they didn’t went through. Now they just listen and give me what I want. Friends that’ve become my enemies? I kicked them out of my life. I become the bright person I’ve used to be again. Don’t worry what I’ve been through is still in my memory and it won’t go away. But I’ve learned to live with it. Cry for them fight for them and stand strong for them. Because when it all started I was just a 5 years old girl so I have to fight for her. Because she deserves the best. I filled that hole with a big cover of joy. Joy of little things. I’m taking the babysteps. Healing is a long journey i know but that outcome in the end? That’s what is worth for fighting so DO NOT GIVE UP. It’ll be a lot of good things in live they just waiting for you to heal for the next chapter of your life☺️ I love you if no one does❤️‍🔥✨

When u fell in love with your pain because pain has it’s own ecstasy 🖤

Our generation is broken because we see what is happening in the world and it makes us realise we can't fix it because the people who caused it won't let it be fixed they just make it worse😢

My pain is due to missing someone that isn’t even real. Who relates?

Listening to this while writing a book about my childhood trauma is 🔥

Everything is a deep sigh. Can't even differentiate emotional and physical pain while suffering both at the same time. Everything doesn't fall into the line. But there's always left myself to blame. When it comes to forgiving it's really hard to forgive yourself.

Come to me, all you who are weary and burdened, and I will give you rest. Take my yoke upon you and learn from me, for I am gentle and humble in heart, and you will find rest for your souls. For my yoke is easy and my burden is light. Matthew 11: 28-30

sorry for the following rant. just expression a personal issue i have. feel free to skip past this. what’s the limit to forgiving a parent? what’s the limit to allowing someone all of your heart to break? when is enough? when is it okay to say you don’t want to feel the pain anymore? i was raised with a narcissist father who’s very expression of any feeling deeper than momentary joy was to tear everyone around him apart. i was a little girl, barely in preschool when i watched my dad throw my cat against the wall before turning to yell at me about letting her get out of my grasp. i was a little girl when i tied the notice between my dad only treating me kindly when my mom offered herself to him. like it was payment for being a good father. like it wouldn’t ingrain itself into my head like a seed. i was a little older when i had to listen to my dad scream on top of his lungs threats to kill my brother simply because my brother didn’t fully understand what my dad barely explained. i was a little older when i was being groomed by a family member living under the same house and although my parents have admitted to knowing what he was doing they never made him stop or leave. i may not have understood what it meant then, but i known it’s effects in my life every day. there is so much more i could say. there is so many repressed memories or memories i can’t even express for fear i’ll be seen as sensitive. me and my brother lived so many years like this. in the grasp of our own personal bully. a bully who threatens us when we express distaste or explain we aren’t comfortable with something. now my brother is living somewhere else and everytime he calls home my dad complains about my brothers disinterest or upset feelings towards my father. or complains when i call him out of anything that he’s too proud to admit shouldn’t have ever been said or done. he thinks that we are the issues, that we are the ones ruining and picking him out. i feel sympathy for he’s still my father but a part of me feels that this was the course of his own actions. he doesn’t know how hard me and my brother had to fight every single day of our lives to remind ourselves that we were worth something. i watched my brother, the kindest man i have ever known, have to pull himself together time and time again and be a good person still after everything. i may be able to forgive my father, for the sake of my conscious, but i feel there is a point of no-return that he has crossed years ago. a point to where there is a line in the sand drawn that he can’t follow me across. he can be a father, but he will never be the man who raised me into the person i’m trying to be. i had to do that myself.

because the people who have been through the the most pain are the strongest kinds of people

dear stranger. - even thought we may be worlds apart. different backgrounds. familys. jobs. schools. we are here. we made it another year. it doesnt matter where you come from. because you can get where your going. do not let people hold you back. prove them wrong. welcome 2023 with hope. take it. make the choice to never take a second for granted. people dont wait for you. dont wait for them. you have the choice to take initiative. so from a stranger to another goodluck and mabey we will meet in life and never know it. but that can only happen if you don’t give up. i hope to see you soon :) - from a stranger to another

Its such a weird feeling listening to this, as when I use to it use to depress me, where as now it feels like a part of my heart is lost and open. Not so closed, just wants to explore and grow and be strong asf. I wanna be that massive guy who still is around for everyone and just smashes through shit like its nothing, comes back from shit you don't understand how he managed to come back from.

Sometimes, life will kick you around, but sooner or later, you realize you’re not just a survivor. You’re a warrior, and you’re stronger than anything life throws your way. Give yourself another day, another chance. You will find your courage eventually. Don’t give up on yourself just yet. ♥️

Imagine being nice and pure to everyone, who sees the world in a beautiful way and is ready to help people, who's really talented too. But then someone dies, people start taking advantage of you, you get overwhelming responsibilities, and get hated by people for being kind, you feel like a failure, and then.. after endless nights of crying, you turn into a cold hearted charismatic Leader, who can never appreciate anything. I killed that part of me.. and i miss him so much.

This year has been the worst for me. on the nights everyone looked forward to and was meant to be the most fun, was the worst time of my life. I had to cover all of my emotions with a smile, and since then its always been like that. my smile is never real

I woke up this morning like every other morning, tired and feeling like crap, like maybe 3 or 4 hours of sleep, not wanting to go into work. Got dressed and was ready to leave, my mom approached me and said to have a great day at work per usual...but she stopped me and said "i hope you know im proud of you, i dont know if i say that enough." I almost burst into a crying fit right there on the spot. I didnt know i needed something like that till i got it, with how the worlds been and my job constantly giving me problems, the words im "proud of you" meant more than she could ever imagine. If anyones reading this know that someone cares about you and they are proud to know you. Know that theres always someone who, no matter what, loves you to the moon and back.