Real Doctor Reacts to THIS IS GOING TO HURT // Episode 3

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I continue to relive my time as an Obs & Gynae junior doctor in the NHS by breaking down episode 3 of This Is Going To Hurt starring Ben Whishaw, and based on the book by Adam Kay...,
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TIMESTAMPS
00:00 Welcome!
00:25 Helping in emergencies
00:52 Coping mechanisms
01:31 Wet paint = VIP visitor
02:27 Emergency alarms
02:57 Hi-tech soundproof curtains
03:21 Uterine prolapse
04:16 Domestic abuse in pregnancy
06:21 Placentophagy
07:02 Dealing with mistakes
07:39 Patient opening up to Dr Shruti
08:52 Mistaken Placentophagy
10:41 Cardiac Arrest call
11:37 DNACPR order
12:33 Confirming death
13:58 Story telling through a terrible stethoscope
14:20 Aggressive patients
14:56 Patient autonomy
15:30 Links to Woman's Aid and Refuge in video description
15:48 THANK YOU SO MUCH for watching this to the end!
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@DrHopeSickNotes 2 жыл бұрын

For advice and information on domestic abuse: www.womensaid.org.uk www.refuge.org.uk

@hunterG60k 2 жыл бұрын

I'd like to add a comment on DV/DA, as a survivor myself. One of the things that gets brought up when discussing this topic is "Why don't they leave when they have the chance?" or "Why do they defend their partners?". The reason is because they don't believe they will be able to get away for good. If there's any chance that they escape attempt won't succeed and they end up back in the hands of the abuser then their life will be made even worse for making the attempt. One of the tactics of abusers is to isolate people from their support network so that they believe they have no one who cares about them or who would help them. Usually people who know the abuser won't suspect anything because these people are manipulative and clever, they'll be on their best behaviour around others. That's the only thing I found slightly unrealistic about the story line, otherwise it was very good. Abuse victims will make all the excuses under the sun for the behaviour of their abuser but the words have been put there, if they didn't defend it they'd be punished for that.

@vg7735 2 жыл бұрын

@@hunterG60k What about where kids are involved. Why do some victims choose to have kids with someone abusing them? Why do some parents not do everything in their power to protect their kids and take them away from being abused or witnessing abuse? That is what I don't get.

@hunterG60k 2 жыл бұрын

@@vg7735 This is something that I've struggled to get my head around in the past. Personally I think this would be the point where I had to get out, the alarm bells would ring too loud. But you never really know what you'll do until you're in that situation. I was lucky, some people have no support and may never have had any. I can only assume that they are so traumatised as to be in pure survival mode and unable to comprehend the consequences of exposing their children to it. I try to be as generous as I can to victims. We should be asking how can abusers bring children into such an environment, or treat children the way they do.

@fevre_dream8542 2 жыл бұрын

@@vg7735 Sometimes, they don't get much of a choice when it comes to having kids with an abuser. There is a large component of psychological/emotional/financial control in a lot of abuse cases, and as mentioned in this video almost 30% of these DV cases _begin_ when pregnant. Those DV cases that begin before pregnancy often have a large sexual abuse component too. As far as protecting or removing children from the situation, it was made abundantly clear to my mother that if she fled with us kids she would be hunted down (by her abuser) and every one of us would be killed. The risks of running (having her children killed) outweighed the risks of staying (being beaten and manipulated). It's not as easy a decision as you're making it out to be, and I think you're _highly_ underestimating how deeply and thoroughly an abuser undermines every aspect of a victim's life subtly and over time. Once you realize you're in it, it's often too late. Without significant evidence, the police aren't going to protect you. There are always going to be times at which you or your children are not protected from the abuser you ran from. There's a good chance that the abuser has control over your finances, your (and your children's) legal documents, and has cut you off from any source of aid. Yes, you can get out; but people who look in from the outside and go "Well, I just don't know why they didn't get out sooner" have _no_ idea the choices that have to be made.

@sylviagreybe672 2 жыл бұрын

Yay I really love watching your reactions to this series. It is truly fantastic. I worked in the NHS in London for 9 years and this programme is the most accurate depiction of real life in the NHS I've ever seen. Can't wait for your next reaction.

@DrHopeSickNotes 2 жыл бұрын

Agreed they definitely did their research

@andonel 2 жыл бұрын

This show seems to bring a lot of key moments that really make me appreciate the medical field and its staff even more. Although, you’ve already teaching this for a while now, Dr. Hope, so I’m not surprised ;) thank you.

@DrHopeSickNotes 2 жыл бұрын

Thanks Ando!

@aaliyahpatel2819 2 жыл бұрын

“This show doesn’t get any flipping easier does it?”- oh you have no idea... can’t wait to watch your reactions for the next few episodes

@Nat-qj6cr 2 жыл бұрын

the next few episodes are very intense

@katiehettinger7857 2 жыл бұрын

Like many life changing decisions, leaving an abusive relationship is a process and coming to point where one chooses to embrace the uncertainty that seeking a safer life often takes time.

@curtismckenley8706 2 жыл бұрын

People keep forgetting this is set in early 2000s. Where mental health is not a concern as it is now days .

@mahalabradford6094 2 жыл бұрын

Couldn't agree more

@LordMarvin1993 3 ай бұрын

I think even now people don't grasp the sheer scale of the mental health epidemic going on right now

@andieatlanta62 2 жыл бұрын

- it's crazy the amount of realism in this show. I don't think I've seen a show closer to modern hospital workings and that fact that it doesn't hold any punches with its episodes is also brilliantly eye-opening. Loving your take on the episodes!

@EllaChinois 2 жыл бұрын

I like Shruti's character. It's heartbreaking to see the tragic turn of her story though.

@oxoelfoxo 2 жыл бұрын

oh no! what happened to her?

@Liorte1973 2 жыл бұрын

@@oxoelfoxo spoilers. It is tragic though.

@stillwaitingforgreatapocalypse Жыл бұрын

@@oxoelfoxo commited suicide after burnout

@Snailryder 11 ай бұрын

Her character is made up, just FYI

@johnhagans2190 4 ай бұрын

@@Snailrydercheck your stats on medical professional suicides in the UK.

@sallywood3304 2 жыл бұрын

Having worked within the ICU environment for many years I can only agree with your very clear analysis of the show. My medical mates tend to agree the show is true to life, and dare I say death!

@AyresAY 2 жыл бұрын

So happy you keep doing more episodes! Really, really insightful commentary about a wonderful(ly acted) show. Would absolutely be wonderful if you did more (the whole series preferably :)). I'm especially curious about your reaction to the final episode of the series.

@ZED2.0 2 жыл бұрын

I think Adam summed it up nicely at the end of the video, you'd go private for routine procedures/minor ops. The NHS is more equipped to handle emergencies because emergencies are going on all the time.

@oldschoolm8 2 жыл бұрын

I’m really enjoying your take on such an amazing show. Its interesting to hear real perspective and experiences relating to it. For all the barbed jokes, pitch black humour, tragedy and outright cynicism in some scenes, it’s also bloody hilarious, sweet and very emotional too.

@vladimirimp 2 жыл бұрын

Dr Hope - I love your channel (found it in 2020 as we hit the first lockdown) and want to say that 'This is Going to Hurt' was one of the most incredible shows I ever saw, and your response videos to it are fantastic and given even more fascinating insight. Thank you. Please, please, please keep going. The series has way more to give and I can't wait to hear your response to some of the events ahead. Thank you.

@DrHopeSickNotes 2 жыл бұрын

Thanks so much for supporting the channel

@LongdownConker 2 жыл бұрын

I love watching your detailed reactions to this show. Thank you for taking the time to do them and I look forward to the next one 😊

@JS-lu1uq 2 жыл бұрын

Keep up the great work sir. Love your kindness and sensitivity in explaining these medical shows

@sheilathepotter6636 2 жыл бұрын

I am so happy the review of episode 3 dropped! I have been checking for it almost daily. 😄 Thank you Dr Hope for a fab review. Please do more!

@nicolevangellecom6405 2 жыл бұрын

Love your reactions on this show. It makes me wanna see this whole series. I like how you explain/compare things in these episodes from your own experiences. Now i really wanna watch this show!

@ThreadBomb 2 жыл бұрын

This show has turned out to be a great launch point for discussion of real life in the NHS. I hope we'll see more of these videos.

@alexclimbs9 2 жыл бұрын

really enjoying this series, thanks so much for doing them!

@eloiseparker2418 2 жыл бұрын

Thank you so much for continuing your reactions to this show - I loved the book and show and your commentary from experiencing being a junior doctor in the NHS yourself is so interesting. Please keep doing the whole show - these are my favourite videos of yours

@wol_ves 2 жыл бұрын

Definitely would love to see your reactions to future episodes of this show. Thank you again Dr Hope!

@susanhud3704 2 жыл бұрын

Please continue to review this series, so interesting hearing your views and explanations x

@chiarardn2401 2 жыл бұрын

Just discovered this channel and I think it's amazing! Can't wait to watch your reactions to the other episodes of the show!

@NicksGotBeef 2 жыл бұрын

Thanks for another great reaction vid. I’m just loving this series. About one of the hardest watches I’ve seen in a long time. I honestly don’t know how you guys do it.

@bulbouspiranha758 2 жыл бұрын

Another awesome breakdown. Loving this series so far, and your insight really adds something to it, looking forward to the next one :D

@Abhi-wl5yt 2 жыл бұрын

I really have great respect for Doctors. These reaction videos show us how difficult situations can be in your day to day life. Really appreciate you sharing it with us!

@ash44roberts 2 жыл бұрын

Really enjoyed your analysis of the first three episodes. Having watched all seven myself, can’t wait to see your reaction as the series plays out…

@Kiran.Morjaria 2 жыл бұрын

Yes! Loving your reaction to the series, I just finished my reaction to episode 5 and I’m looking forward to checking out the final few

@lolapkh 2 жыл бұрын

Thanks for the great reaction video. Tho whole series is excellent and thought provoking for sure. I look forward to your next video 😊

@sebastianquinn1530 2 жыл бұрын

I loved this show. It’s given me more appreciation for the role people do in hospitals. Definitely keep posting the videos.

@ballinjosh03 2 жыл бұрын

Amazing video and an amazing look at situations most probably don't think about outside of physical health issues in a hospital.

@MattFern81 2 жыл бұрын

Loved this series & loving our reactions vids also. Entertaining & informative. Thank you dude. X

@DmitryKandiner 2 жыл бұрын

Thank you, doctor! I always enjoy watching your videos and hear your explainations.

@kathymchugh689 2 жыл бұрын

Thank you SO much for reacting to this show! I live in the USA so can't watch it here. I've really enjoyed your videos! Thank you SO much!!

@gazwalton 2 жыл бұрын

please continue these videos I loved this series but your perspective is great!

@mindral1289 2 жыл бұрын

I would absolutely love to keep seeing your reactions to the show!

@57778 2 жыл бұрын

Nice, just found your videos a few hours ago, read the book and its nice to see a breakdown of it

@iselldreams 2 жыл бұрын

I loved the book and I wasn't disappointed with the telly show. I don't work in the NHS but I have spent a lot of time in hospitals. The NHS staff are amazing and do a very hard job. Well done Dr Hope 💕

@darriendastar3941 2 жыл бұрын

This was an amazing series. There were times when it was an absolute emotional gut-punch - there were so many things (good and bad) that I just didn't see coming. So, yes please. I'd love to see more of your reactions to it.

@Roneish1996 2 жыл бұрын

Because of your previous videos on this show I watched the entire series. Great show.

@AR-zr1om 2 жыл бұрын

This is such a great show, medicine mixed with the humour of afterlife. Genius

@candywoodgate1269 2 жыл бұрын

I always enjoy and value your take on anything, cells at work, House, this is going to hurt. Please continue xx

@Richardincancale 2 жыл бұрын

Amazing empathy Dr Hope!

@Brainlizard 2 жыл бұрын

Brilliant reaction. This series is the most real depiction of the everyday life in the nhs, and i really seldom watch hospital dramas because of the exaggerations of it. Well done to the team who made this series. And yes i worked in the NHS and i know how it feels like

@tammyhines1585 2 жыл бұрын

Thank you for a great reaction. I had a training on domestic abuse yesterday. I liked the both you and the show covered this very impotant topic.

@tammyhines1585 2 жыл бұрын

Sorry, shoul say important.

@missjaninemorgan 2 жыл бұрын

I love your reactions to this brilliant series. Please keep it up :)

@n.rlanos1093 2 жыл бұрын

If you hadnt done these videos, I would not have seen this brilliant show. Thank you!

@jonathanfitzharris4196 2 жыл бұрын

Enjoying your reactions! Honestly was gripped with this show. Ben is just

@michelle9596 2 жыл бұрын

Loving your reactions!!❤

@lorenzodocx4021 2 жыл бұрын

I already binged the series and boy did it do something to me (i'm a med student). Very emotional

@ZED2.0 2 жыл бұрын

😬 hope you're okay, it is very emotional

@lorenzodocx4021 2 жыл бұрын

@@ZED2.0 yeah i'm okay now thx!

@dantedoomsday 2 жыл бұрын

looking forward to more episodes of this series

@lafregaste 2 жыл бұрын

Having worked as an interpreter for hospitals and the police I have witnessed many times that situation. Unfortunately abuse victims rarely speak up, it's hard and painful sometimes, because you really want to help them, but you can break the boundaries of your job, and you have to respect their decisions as well.

@rosiehelendalesecondlifevlog 2 жыл бұрын

Loved watching this series, the ending was so emotional and sad too

@QUARTERMASTEREMI6 2 жыл бұрын

Brilliant as always Dr Ed and it looks like someone got a haircut and shave! ☺️

@davidsphere 2 жыл бұрын

I enjoyed all three of your reviews and will watch the series.

@joanhoffman3702 2 жыл бұрын

I’d love to see more videos like this.

@isis-daisy3384 2 жыл бұрын

Yes! Love love loved this show. The book was amazing too. Bit daunting as a med student tho 😅

@avanazy 2 жыл бұрын

Really interesting insights, thank you for sharing

@wongd12 2 жыл бұрын

This is an excellent dramatisation of Adams life. I found it compelling viewing. He has not rewritten his character to be a paragon of virtue. Very warts an all story telling. Excellent break of the 4th wall to let us in to his inner thoughts. I'm left with complete admiration for NHS staff and wanting to do something constructive, but not sure what would be meaningful (the clapping during covid19 seems particularly useless)

@deborahmackenzie1935 2 жыл бұрын

Couldn’t agree more

@applesolon993 2 жыл бұрын

Yay!! Part 3! BTW you do have the same hair, Doc 😆

@jorenaut6660 2 жыл бұрын

Yes! More like this please!

@cws480 2 жыл бұрын

Nice work, Doc. Good video.

@michaelmay5453 2 жыл бұрын

Where I'm from even if the patient is reluctant to report it the hospital has to and in this case the case against him involves a third party. Also, we would NOT let the son stay with either parent unless the mother and father agrees to living at separate locations, usually monitored by an ankle monitor until trial starts. We've had far too many "accidents" happening after we spotted this type of abuse so we changed our laws.

@bunnerkins Жыл бұрын

I went to a grand rounds presentation that was all about new guidelines for physicians that are called on for emergencies on flights. The physician giving the presentation warned that there is probably a much higher chance that you will be recognized as a physician than you might appreciate (especially as emerg docs), and that getting found out for doing that can be a shitty situation.

@jema.flores 2 жыл бұрын

Yei I'm early! ☘️ They better make a series 2.

@hellogoodbyeandallinbetween 2 жыл бұрын

I love that you referenced the iconic Jackie Weaver 😂

@musikate1147 2 жыл бұрын

great review - thanks Ed

@deborahhope3484 2 жыл бұрын

The curtain being soundproof rings true unfortunately for me just before a kidney biopsy the nurse the other side of it saying I've never assisted on one before I'm really nervous😳

@deborahmackenzie1935 2 жыл бұрын

OMG

@ZED2.0 2 жыл бұрын

Oh dear, hope it went okay!

@deborahhope3484 2 жыл бұрын

@@ZED2.0 well not particularly she had to move the equipment to the other side of bed didn't unplug it and pulled the heavily pregnant doctor onto me plus dr said I had to lie on that side for so many hours half way through nurse insisted I had to alternate so turned me despite me saying what I had been told just settled dr came back told me I had to get back on the other side 😂🙄 just one of a few incidents during that stay thankfully just one or two people of a fantastic otherwise team

@ZED2.0 2 жыл бұрын

@@deborahhope3484 😬😬

@KeepCaffeinated 2 жыл бұрын

God, I remember having to consent, then perform a PR examination on a patient; unfortunately they were very deaf, and we were in a four bedded room with those flimsy curtains... can confirm they are not soundproof. No one in the room would meet my eye for at least the next hour

@maltesetony9030 Жыл бұрын

Excellent review of a great series!

@lizrochester80 2 жыл бұрын

I wish there was a video explanation like this one for DNARs, I’ve seen so many people (myself included) struggling to have that conversation.

@shorea27 2 жыл бұрын

Oh good Lord I was eating lunch when the placenta/blood clot eating scene came up 🤢😂🤮

@OzeFlipper 5 ай бұрын

Hahahaha

@gdaymates431 2 жыл бұрын

Please keep recording your thoughts on this series. It's such an important show.

@TrevaQ 2 жыл бұрын

Great job, keep going.

@francesT5877 2 жыл бұрын

I loved the book and I think the show though very much a different beast is good. Fun watching these though don’t eat during them, which goes for the show too. Dr. Hope is obviously one of the very nice doctors, I haven’t seen many health care professionals but I’ve had my share of rude ones and condescending ones basically there are all kinds. I’ve also had great ones who cleaned me up after my appendix ruptured all over. I’ll remember my surgeon and anesthesiologist for the rest of my life. I think they have the Dr. Kay character voice a lot of things that he probably kept to himself irl? It’s clear watching him that Adam Kay is very intelligent. He knows when arguing with a mad person is a waste of breath.

@veggiesupreme3556 2 жыл бұрын

I really like the show but it does deviate from the book almost entirely

@shaggycan 2 жыл бұрын

8:00 literally the check list of denial. I don't know about the curriculum these days, but learning about signs of an abusive relationship should be taught right along with sex ed. It's every bit as important.

@misterkevinoh 2 жыл бұрын

Thanks dr hope!

@ellenmeilee 2 жыл бұрын

Would happily watch Dr Ed react to the drying of paint 🤩

@BrushQuill 2 жыл бұрын

This was a great series and your reviews are brilliant. Please keep watching I want to know your thoughts on the end of the series!!!

@ArtyMartyD Жыл бұрын

I really hope this show lights a fire in people suffering from domestic abuse. Just talking to someone about it and what happens can go a long way to help. Don't let your abuser decide what is and isn't okay, regardless of who they are.

@lullustration5775 11 ай бұрын

I live in the Netherlands and here they can hold you if they suspect abuse. My mom fell off her bike and hit her head on the curb a week before she had a scheduled endoscopy. By that time her face was all black and blue so she was not allowed to go home with my dad until after they had both been interviewed extensively and they were absolutely sure he didn't hit her. They also held me when I broke my ankle on a bouncy castle when I was 8 because my "x-rays didn't match my age" or something and they thought I was stolen so my parents had to provide pictures and my birth certificate

@ryanc473 2 жыл бұрын

Huh, weird, at my hospital it seems like wet paint is just sorta a normal thing. I swear every other month there's signs all over the place warning of wet paint (and of course the halls smelling of wet paint). The walls are painted a basic beige over the incredibly normal appearing undercoat of basic beige. Honestly, I have no idea why the walls get painted as much and as often as they do, but I swear the walls have to be like 75% paint and only about 25% wall at this point.

@emmawilding886 2 жыл бұрын

once i saw a death was confirmed by the on call rheumatologist but then it was the day shift cardiologist who did the 2nd check 2 hours later and actually filled out the death certificate. always thought that wouldve felt a bit weird. to legally sign off someones death not having been present when they died and only hearing what happend second hand

@alijoc 2 жыл бұрын

Unrelated, but nice haircut Dr Hope! :D

@lanasartlife 2 жыл бұрын

Why do I enjoy watching you watch this show that I don't even really want to watch?

@Amalthea11 2 жыл бұрын

Exactly, I don't even have the option to watch it but love seeing him reacting to it 😄

@ZED2.0 2 жыл бұрын

This series hits too close to home sometimes 😣 It's so accurately depicted

@infernosierra 2 жыл бұрын

ay, new haircut lookin' mighty fresh.

@gamerrex953 2 жыл бұрын

Yes yess love this show too i have a question are the medical scene on the 100 tv show are correct and can you seal a wound or cut with heat trearted knife that they do in the 100

@valdenay7264 2 жыл бұрын

1- is that you playing the outro music? 2- I've enjoyed watching you reacting amd breaking down this series. I like following along because I had zero idea that your uterus could collapse (new fear unlocked lol)

@Kiran.Morjaria 2 жыл бұрын

Also, fresh trim!

@vanessawilde8389 2 жыл бұрын

Great to have your comments

@Katielovegood44 2 жыл бұрын

The labour wade near me got a paint job as the queens great grand daughter would be born there. I was in labour there myself a month after her... and can confirm

@theradgegadgie6352 8 ай бұрын

I do not understand how DNR is ever in a patient's best interests (unless they specifically ask for it) - for example: an elderly woman with an aortic aneurysm. Yes, there's a 99% chance that defibrilation or CPR will burst the damn thing, and even in the lucky 1% they come round in absolute shit state, but how is it really better to just let them bloody die‽ If this seems oddly precise for a medical Muggle, it's because I'm describing my mother. Or was describing her, as she was allowed to die about a fortnight ago.

@BadAtYoutube 2 жыл бұрын

Doctor Hope should react to Perfect Surgeon, which is a manhwa (Korean manga or basically a colored comic) about a guy who gets an AI to help him without spoiling too much. It has a lot of medical terminology that I had no idea about when I read through it. But, since it's a read-through and not a video reaction content, it might be hard.

@Snailryder 11 ай бұрын

The woman being abused was a major deviation from the real anecdote...in the book, it was actually the kid who put the stickers on when they went toilet together

@stevedriscoll6296 2 жыл бұрын

Where can I watch this show?

@joyfisher8008 2 жыл бұрын

Watching your face as you viewed sections of the show, I hope it isn't awakening nightmares or PTSD for you.

@tonyfranklin6191 2 жыл бұрын

“Nobody” 2021 film should keep you busy! 80 plus fatalities!!!, Includes a tracheotomy on a bus

@IloveNavaMau 2 жыл бұрын

Please do more

@joshchu 2 жыл бұрын

If I tattooed "DNR if *certain life changing mutilation also occurred*" on my chest, would that be legally recognized??

@aliciaclark7264 2 жыл бұрын

In short, no. A DNR must be requested and signed by a doctor. I believe you must be confirmed to be of sound mind. And the DNR needs to be filed. A DNR can be rescinded if you change your mind but a tattoo cant, so doctors can't be sure that its relevant to your current circumstances. There was a case of a young man who got DNR tattooed on him as a drunken dare and then everytime he went into hospital he had to explain he wasnt actually DNR. Its cases like this where validity comes into play. Also theres no guarantee that DNR doesnt stand for Daniel Neil Roberts (for example) or another loved ones name. Therefore most of the time its completely ignored. If you are thinking of getting DNR tattooed on you, my advice would be dont.

@joshchu 2 жыл бұрын

@@aliciaclark7264 thank a lot for amount of efforts to answer a drunk question, it's just, I've lost some physical privilege already. it just occur to me if even something happens again and turns the situation worse, can one make a pre-decision to just gone with the easy way.

@Jaakkoism Жыл бұрын

Its difficult to end or get out of domestic abuse, they are someone you have built a life with massively in any situation. You dont necessarily start with it being abusive or sometimes the methods of abuse cause difficulties in realising it or pulling away from it. Specially after being able to talk about it, maybe for the first or even generally, you want to go back to something that feels normal, safe because you know how to act and what to expect, so you go back. A lot of overlapping with the language of addiction to, where something is just for now, while something is going on, until something gets better, its not permanent. The positive is each yime these things happen, each moment talking about it or confiding or getting space,is one step closer to leaving it behind forever, for getting past the difficulties and getting away from the active inflicting of pain and trauma, both emotional and physical. Then you get to live again, it takes so much time to heal these wounds, and be able to be a person again, its difficult, but its wasier without the cause of the pain. Sorry for the long comment, went on a thing.