This is my New song for those that give a shit: kzfaq.info/get/bejne/qLt_qM5nt7uYpWQ.html

Its been 13 years since my attempt, and seeing his pain after all these years makes me glad that I failed.

Ren put this comment into his community section: "Suicide does eliminate the possibility that things will get worse, but it also eliminates all possibility that things could ever get better. I was in a situation that seemed impossible to climb out. I climbed out. I would have never given myself that option if I choose to opt out of living. Is my life easy now? No, not close, am I glad to be alive? every day. Is life good? Yes. Did I believe life could be good back then? mostly no, but I carried on and gave myself that chance."

Ren's heavy breathing at the transition represents him being out of breath from running as fast as he could to the bridge after he got a call that his best friend Joe was going to jump. It's so heartbreaking that he was a few minutes too late 😢RIP Joe Hughes. As always great reaction even though this is such a hard subject that has unfortunately touched too many of our lives. I've lost 12 family and friends to suicide and like Ren my best friend Chris took his life after finding out his wife was cheating on him. I was spending all my time with him to help him get through just like he was there for me after my wife unfortunately overdosed and died. One day though I didn't sleep at his house because I had to take care of some things at my apartment and we were going fishing the next day but I accidentally slept in. When I got to his house he wasn't there but left a note thanking me and he was going to sail off into oblivion. When I got to the park where he kept his boat it wasn't in the slip where he kept it. I saw it in the distance where we would usually put the anchor down and fish. I called 911 and they had harbor police go check the boat. He wasn't on it. But when they went to pull up the anchor it was unusually heavy. Chris had attached himself to it to make sure there was no way he could back out and he went down with it. That day, July 21st 2005 will always haunt ne. To this day I blame myself even though everyone including his mom tells me its not my fault. They say he would have found a way to go even if I attached myself him. But the pain, hurt and helplessness I still feel to this day is the reason why I'm still here because I've wanted to erase myself a few times but all the emotions I feel after losing him, as well as other family and friends prevents me from doing it. I would never want them to feel the way I have. It's so heartbreaking. We never met but I love you my brother. And anyone else that reads this I love you too. We've all been involuntarily thrown into this existence while also being blessed and cursed with over thinking brains that get overwhelmed with fellings and emotions. We're nothing more than a bunch of imperfect beings stuck on a spinning ball of mud that's hurdling through space. Be kind to one another and most importantly be kind to yourselves.

Hey Anthony, He really let us in on this one. Next level raw and respecting his lyric meant we couldn't turn away or hide. Definitely one to watch with your best bud man. I joined Ren on his live chat a few hours after it dropped and he was concerned how it impacted his fans. He was in really good spirits and two of his mates, master film maker Sam being one of them joined the chat. Everyone was having a much needed laugh. Take care man

I honestly can’t say what was more heartbreaking in this particular reaction- the song that had me crying for two days in a row now, or watching you obviously struggling to get through. I could feel your pain. All the best to you, Ren and everyone who has lost someone through suicide.

Thank you Anthony I was in a dark place till a few of my fellow brothers soldiers took there life from ptsd and the pain I still feel stopped me and made me get the help I needed I was close to saving my friend Ben but he had moved house weeks before and never told us 💔

Beautiful yet Heartbreaking 💔 Thank you,R.I.P Joe Hughes ❤

You’re not “supposed” to say the word suicide, like a true artist and human, Ren has shared his art and pain and breaks that cruel taboo, the chorus “suicide, suicide, suicide”. Blessings upon him

This is a rough one. I thought it was brutal, it was beautiful and most importantly it was important! Just the fact that he repeats the word Suicide so many times - because it's a subject we have to deal with. That he uses the first 2 verses to tell about how he himself has thought about it; but that it was like there was never "the right time" - Also from there move on to what it did to him that his friend Joe committed suicide. It makes an enormously painful impression. I love Ren and I found this track his most brutal, but also his most vulnerable. I love the lyrics and I love the visual expression. Thanks for just letting it play out. And also that you share your own thoughts and experiences. Glad you didn't complete. ❤

Anthonys voice is a gift. You have a dark and confident voice. It makes me feel safe. Good night, a soothing voice to fall asleep to. In a positive way. ❤

I'm glad you're here too brother, and I'm glad I'm here as well. It really hits home for me. Here's what I was thinking if anyone's like me and wants to share this or listen again...1. Get a best friend or loved one and listen together; 2. cry as much as you need to; 3. accept that hug afterwards and remember that feeling; 4. Lastly, listen to Power together. I mean, even if that doesn't solve anything, can any of those things be bad? Appreciate ya brother.

Thank you brother for reacting to this one. And thank you for being so honest and real and from the heart! We love and appreciate you bro! Keep being you ❤️❤️❤️

Thank you for reviewing this one. It is not an easy ride.👍🦇

Ren did not make the decision for the warning, he thinks it's a bit silly (he did a two and a half hour Twitch stream yesterday talking about the song). This is such a hard song to listen to. I almost didn't watch this reaction, as it hasn't gotten easier to listen to/watch. Masterful as ever, but man is the emotion raw. I have yet to not choke up at the end and I've listened to/watched it a dozen times. Yet I keep watching and listening, sharing in reactors' emotions and feeling my own, time and again.

I'm sorry that you have personal experiences of this pain. It would be nice to see your friend react to this, if it is healthy for him to watch it, as I think the two of you would have an important conversation about it. It feels like all of yt is opening up about their struggles and reminding each other that life is precious and worth holding onto even if it feels impossible. Thank you for holding on. For staying. And for being someone your daughters know will sit with them in the dark until it gets light again. ❤

I’ve never had any suicidal ideology.. but I’ve lost family and friends to it over my years on this planet. I hope this video helps those who perhaps have thought about it.. or who are currently thinking about it, see how devastating it is for those who love them and are left behind wondering - ‘what if’. It’s clear that REN has been and still is suffering ‘what if’.. and it’s likely having a negative impact on his ability to heal from the Lyme’s disease. Grieving the loss of a loved one who passes naturally is one thing… grieving losing a dear friend or family member to suicide is something else all together. I cry every time I watch this.. and I sincerely hope it helps even one person decide to NOT take that final step…..

In 2017, my boyfriend at the time and I were discussing cancer and death. He said that he watched everything his grandfather went through with pancreatic cancer. He said that he wasn't to go through what his grandfather did if he ever got it. Well, low and behold, he was diagnosed with pancreatic cancer. A week later, while his mother was in the hospital, he OD and passed away at home. They found him 3 days later. He is still missed

First of all I love this song and the video on so many levels. For me the first part of the video looks at all the reasons someone might be feeling when contemplating suicide. The gray and blurry background, the disjointed and disturbing images of REN. It all works to create a feeling of being alone in a very bleak and harsh vision of the self and the world….it feels disconnected and hopeless. The words he raps are all pain and anguish and yet despite all of this he knows that there may only be darkness and nothingness when you fall through the cracks to the other side….so it’s never the right time for suicide. In the second part of the video the background is much lighter but the face and words REN speaks are all about the hurt and guilt suicide creates for those who are left behind. Not only dose he miss his friend but he also misses the part of his life and himself that died with his brother. The take away message for me; no matter how painful and hard life is their is always the possibility for things to get better….life is fragile but as long as there is life their is hope. If your are having suicidal thoughts hold on, reach out for help and support. As a nurse and as someone dealing with depression I know that the mental health sector needs reform. We need to get away from the almost total reliance on pharmaceuticals. More holistic ways of helping people are desperately needed. Suicide, we don’t like to think about it or talk about it. In todays world we are told we cannot even use the word anymore, as if that helps…this is absurd! If we can’t discuss it we cannot help ourselves or anyone else. REN we are so glad you learned how to dance with your demons. You are so courageous and a much needed voice for our times. We love you for opening up your heart and your mind to us. Big ups to you for sharing your genius, your creativity and musical artistry you’re such a breath of fresh air. We love you for choosing life ✌🏼🫶🏼🙏🏽

Thank you for doing this. I too have personal experience with this. The quote that seemed to help me a lot was, "its a permanent solution to temporary problems. This life is short and sometimes brutal, sometimes beautiful, but you may leave your troubles behind and force them onto the ones you love and left behind." There is help available and life does get better when you learn how to accept and cope with it. Learning to serve others and get joy from their happiness instead of focusing on our own life helped me

I agree, this one is tough. The first part was from Ren’s perspective as he confronts the darkness that he faced during his illness. A fever dream vibe is a good way of describing the AI generated animation, and the ending feels like he just woke up as he confronts the loss of his friend. In addition to Sick Boi, the other thing you may be thinking of was the short video clip he did of his part in the remix of venbee’s Gutter. That’s likely when they filmed the walking sequences through Calgary that the filmmaker/animator used for the video. The last part about his friend Joe Hughes was recorded and added only recently, after he talked about that night at the bridge with Knox Hill. It had been 10 years, but he hadn’t spoken or opened up much about what happened. When a friend called Ren and told him that Joe was on the bridge saying his goodbyes, Ren ran as fast as he could. He was the first one to the bridge, but just minutes too late 😿 The weight of that has been crushing him. Ren felt the song was incomplete. I think talking again about Joe helped him confront the pain, loss, guilt and blame he’s been holding onto all these years. So he recorded the ending raw and it flowed out. He needed to let it go. So it was a last minute addition , but I’m glad he did. Hopefully this will give him some closure and peace. Ren also raised some donations for the RNLI in Anglesey Wales who led the search and rescue efforts as part of the release of this song. He will present them with a check when he heads back to the UK to record a video for Money Game 3. This song and those donations will save lives ❤ As for whether to share this and do a reaction of it with your friend, it’s clear that this one his you on a deeply personal level, so I would only do it if you want to have that conversation with him. Take care of yourself!

Man, I never used to comment in the comment section. The discovery of Ren has opened me up in countless ways. It’s crazy. I’ve never been one to glamorize people. Not an awe struck type person. But Ren leaves me in awe. His talent and creativity is obvious to anyone. But to tackle a subject like this?! And to do it in this fashion…kudos to him, man. He did one hell of a job. I’ve personally been affected by this subject. I found my closest friend, whom I was living with at the time, dead from a self inflicted gunshot wound to the head. I’ve often wondered “what if”. It’s had a significant impact on my life. I hope this song helps people that are struggling. I believe it can and has. Thank you for gathering the courage to share your thoughts and experience with us. I enjoyed your reaction, and recognize it must have been difficult. And I DO think it’s worth sharing with your friend. That’s exactly the whole point. Is opening up the conversation. At least that’s the way I see it anyway.

It's a hard one 💙 it's beautiful & painful, had me in tears since it dropped, my sister succeeded so brings back painful memories & also had those thoughts 💙 well done on doing this one ❣️

A beautifully measured reaction. Loved how you closed your eyes and really listened. Thank you.

(Yes, I would love to see your friends reaction to this song) Absolutely a heartbreaking yet beautiful song, 🦋🦋Rest in peaceful dreams Joe Hughes🦋🦋I myself have had my thoughts and at times still do, it is why people such as Ren who gives me the moments I need to focus past my voices. Much love to you Anthony🦋🦋

You always have so much to say about the songs that it was weird to see you so quiet after listening to this one, it's obvious it hit you hard (like it did all of ud I'd say) and you were struggling to get your words out. Thank you for reacting to this one and yes show it to your best friend please, I love his reactions as much as yours haha sending you lots of love man

So beautiful and so gut-wrenching at the same time. For anyone interested, Ren did a Twitch because he was worried about everyone after seeing some of the reactions. I felt a lot better after watching it ❤

This is, quite possibly, Ren's most poignant work! Kudos to Ren for bringing awareness to this important topic and kudos to you for reacting to it! So happy you chose life with all its hardship and beauty! Much love and respect ❤going to listen to your song now😊

They sent a poet. His name is Ren

Good job, your one of my favourite reactors. You always add some perspective and sensitivity.

I'm one of those people you talk of whos been there and continue to be there. If been suffering with depression since i left school, over 20 years now. the last 3 months ive been super fuckin close numerous times and of course i cant explain it all here etc. The truth is each day is a fuckin struggle and that struggle takes a part of me away every day. I'm not sure how much there is left to fade away like that. I'm glad im still here to witness Ren and his message, To witness the people hes touched, To read the tales ppl leave in the comments of all the vids. It give me a little hope that maybe tomorrow wont be another struggle.

You are not alone, so many of us had to take a deep breath before watching this, it just cuts so close to the quick for some of us. Thank you for being vulnerable and sharing this reaction with us. Sending you love, man

When this song came out I listened to it a few times as I resonated it through my own personal struggles, then my cousin ( more like my little brother growing up died) at the beginning of the year and I haven't listened to this song again since untill now. The line when he mentions his childhood jumped too was to raw for me. However this is a beautiful yet deeply emotional song and I wanted to listen to it again and now through your reaction I can listen to it again. ( felt like I wasn't listening to it alone). Ren is a rare one for how powerful this song is and how it resonates, thankyou for theese reactions as always. I hope you where ok after recording this reaction and didn't resurface too much trauma for you.

A lovely reaction man. This needs to be talked about we are losing our young people mainly boys at an increasing, rate banning this is not only madness it is mind control.Think of all the people affected by someones suicide and how alone they must feel because people don’t want to talk about it because it is taboo Where is freedom of speach now???

He highlights both sides and the pain of the one left behind hopefully will give pause for thought.

Thanks for the honest and touching reaction my man. Yes it would be interesting to see your friend react to it. In the end Ren's song will surely help a lot of people in different ways: those who have dark thoughts may hopefully decide to change their ways and those with the survivor guilt may realize that they are not alone and use Ren's song as a catalyst for their emotions. Peace!

ive been waiting for this react all night im not going lie refreshing my youtube hahaha amzing react man big up you mate

Rens pain, many years after Joe's suicide, can still feel so fresh to him. It just needs a small reminder, then bam, your hearts been stabbed again. Please, this shows you that the pain doesn't end if you commit suicide. This is the pain of one friend, over 10 years later. There's also the pain for parents, siblings, family, which will never end for any of them. This is because of love for that person, the unreplaceable hole left behind. I get it, that you don't want to be a "burden', but think of the burden you would put onto others. ❤❤❤❤❤RIP Joe, my brother Mike and all others. Please, for once, let's get these numbers Down. 🙏 xx

It's definitely a tough one, and I've yet to see a reactor be anything less than respectful of the content and visibly moved by it. My 'almost' attempt was over a decade ago, and I'm thankful I had my two kids to keep me from doingwhat I believed I wanted to do. The mind really does play tricks on you, and it's bloody hard to even get out of bed some days. I'm glad I didn't give in. I've since had another child to bless me in my 40's, and to think he might never have existed makes me cringe. I'm glad you stayed around too, and have two beautiful daughters to love and BE loved. Life is precious, for every single person on this planet. We all need to remember that, even during our darkest times. ❤

REN never ceases to amaze. What a powerful song. Incredible.

Sending loving hugs to all

We are glad that you are here too ❤❤❤❤ Thanks ❤

This one hit hard on many levels, thank you Ray for reacting and sharing 🙏

Love your appreciation for music and the way you address certain content,it's a rare visual to be able to see, specially in these reactions.... Thanks for your vids my friend

I am glad you are here to Anthony. I don't know you personally but in whatever ways you have now inixtricably beein woven into my life (and all others who join in with watching your reactions) which shows you just a glimmer of the impact of even one light going out before it's time. Hold on tight and don't listen to the lies we all can tell ourselves. You said on very important point. It is only for a moment.

i appreciate your candor. i'm glad you spoke on the people left behind.

Thank you Anthony, for this and yes, I would like to see Kane react to this with you❤

Brilliant reaction. This was heartbreaking but important. Thankyou. Please continue to do more reactions to Rens work. Sending love from the UK 💕

I needed to come back to this and add another comment. I love your friend Caine so much, Anthony. I can tell a lot about a person by the quality of their friends. You both reflect so well on each other. And i love the respect and affection you show to each other. Caine thinks and feels deeply about the music, while you take a more technical view. My reaction is also emotional. I have hearing issues all of my life, and as i get older, my brain is losing the ability to process what i do hear. So i react to sound,emotion,rhythm, and cadence. Then i read the lyrics so i can connect the dots. I would love to hear his thoughtful comments on this song if you help him through it. Thanks to both of you for supporting Ren.

Very humbling reflection, thank you and many blessings 🙏🦉❤️🐊👍

Man that was deep...Ren is amazing....love your reactions...thanks

So very raw and heart wrenching!

This one is so good, especially knowing the story with John. I’m glad that Ren is covering these heavy topics and starting conversations that need to happen.

I am glad you did this reaction, even though it was difficult. This subject NEEDS to be talked about. I have a feeling this was also therapeutic to Ren. There is something special about freedom of expression. There is a release… a weight lifted off your shoulders when you get what is inside you out. I would love to see the reaction from your friend. Hugs.

Will save this 1 for later,rushing about but props for covering a amazing important track by the main man 💚💪🏻

thank you for reacting to this one ❤️ sending big love from the UK ❤ Ren is starting a movement of love ❤️

I think every person needs to see this for themselves and for family friends or even strangers. Awareness is awareness he’s trending with this which tells me people are listen I hope this gets pushed in the algorithm hard he released this right at his ascension when people are listening to him the most he took a chance and I want to see him soar with this one rip to his friend and his childhood love u ren I will see u in person someday and when I do I’m gonna give u the toghtest hug I’ve ever given. As an empath I felt everything and I cry everytime but I will continue to watch to push the algorithm more.

He's rawness is sublime. So vulnerable and authentic.

Thank you for your honest reaction. Another video on the subject worth checking it in my humble opinion is 'Scroobius Pip - Magicians assistant' - he underlines the notion that all those left behind will be in pain.

Man, you are always so real... Will be always returning to your channel..❤

I can feel how real this was to you and really appreciate your vulnerability. Peace my friend.

Thank you for doing this one Anthony, very tough subject. Much love, and have a great day! PS - love when you and Caine get together!

Suicide doesn't really take away your pain, it just gives it to the people around you...

This being human and navigating life s a glorious and terrifying ride...and having others who understand us is comforting. Rens honesty helps us to unearth our pain and speak and heal xx

ALL the feels. Much love

Thank you for being honest and vulnerable!!

God bless you, Anthony! We are glad you are here. To anyone reading this, I know it doesn't always feel like it, but you are loved beyond measure, please remember that.❤❤❤

Thank you for reacting to Ren's newest incredibly deep & impactful song/video. Also, thank you for being so open & honest about your own struggles! You're definitely not alone. 🤗 I've been on both sides of this traumatic experience myself. Far too many of us can relate. I'm super grateful to Ren for being so brave, honest & vulnerable through his musical art. His ability to create such deep emotional connections with all of us (RENegades) who've been Blessed to have found him & his phenomenal music opens so many doors for extremely important, in-depth conversations to happen! Conversations that might not happen otherwise! That, in and of itself, is a true gift IMHO. 💙 YOU, Anthony Ray, are also reaching/helping others by being unapologetically you! Thank you for all you do! You're very much appreciated. 😊 Lots of love & light to you and yours!

Thanks, Anthony. Your girls are lucky girls, and we’re all glad you’re here. Yes, react with your friend and speak some more Dutch. ❤

Right here with you AR 👊👊 a strong man knows who he is. It’s not a weakness to show emotion, we should empathise with those you need help and acknowledge that together we are stronger. Life can throw us some rough times - let’s not do it alone brothers! And sisters of course

Ray, the first part of the song was written awhile back but he did not record it because he felt it was not complete. It is about his own struggles. When he did his interview with Knox, the topic came up and he talked at length about what happened with Joe. After that, i guess because it all came back up and because Joe's birthday was June 1st, he sat down and just let that spoken word part pour out of him. He recorded it as it came from him, without his usual attempts to make it perfect. As raw as it gets. Hopefully this will "purge" him of the guilt he feels.

Appreciate your reaction to tough topics such as this! Sorry for your own personal struggles, you got big love on this channel bro!!!❤🙏

I absolutely love your reactions and words of wisdom.

Thank you for recording this, even though it was difficult. It's been so beautiful to see SO MANY people (especially men) opening up about the darkness in their hearts. It's part of the human condition and we need to talk about it more!

There is so much hurt & pain Ren (ALL of us) has to get passed to reach what we hope is peace inside ourselves.. This is Ren's therapy, his outlet.. What Ren becomes when he reaches the other side of what his past made him ?.. The Future is bright for Ren - Not in his music and the wealth that comes with it but IN himself.

Context and story to this song: "Today I want to write something beautiful and eloquent but I’ve been staring at my computer screen for the past 10 minutes blankly. So I’ll just write. Today, the 1st of June is my friend Joe’s birthday. I first met Joe when I was 8 years old, my friend Josh said I had to meet this guy, so we both walked over to his, it took about 10 minutes from my house. I was greeted by this kid covered head to toe in freckles, he grinned at us, climbed onto the back of his sofa and screamed “Swanton Bomb!” then front flipped off the top and landed right onto his back on a stone floor. He lay still for a moment, twitched a few times, then got up, grinned at us, brushed himself off, and did it again. This was Joe. He’d do anything to make people laugh. He ended up becoming one of my best friends. He was there when we stole our first cigarettes out of his mums pack, way too young. He was there when I had my first kiss, with a girl twice my size on the back of the 42 bus. He was there when I first got so drunk I threw up in the woods after drinking as much white lightning Cider as we could. I was there when he did his first backflip on skates, and saw him do a 720 off of the pier cave, that moment became legendary. Joe was the funny one in our friend group, he’d make us laugh till it hurt. No one had a bad word to say about him. It was impossible not to like him. Usually we put celebrities, athletes and actors on pedestals, turn them into role models and admire them from a far. The person I admired was Joe. Him and Sagar knew every word to the songs id write, we’d get drunk at parties and they’d be singing along as loud as they could. It gave me a lot of confidence back then. On Christmas Eve 2010 I was sitting in a pub with Joe, he’d been feeling low after a couple of consecutive break ups. He tried to check himself into a mental health outpatient facility a few weeks earlier but they turned him away because he didn’t have an appointment. He turned to me and said that sometimes he wished he could just walk into the sea and keep walking. He said it in a kind of half joking throw away comment type of way, then took a sip of his drink, walked over to the juke box and put Dig by Incubus on. If I knew that was the last time I’d see Joe id have hugged him, told him how much I loved him, how much I looked up to him, how much we all loved him, and I wouldn’t have left that pub. I didn’t know that, so I finished my drink, said happy Christmas and left. Two nights after Christmas I got woken up by a phone call at 3am, it was my friend Ella. She told me Joe was on the Menai Bridge, a large suspension bridge connecting the main land to the isle of Anglesey where we lived. He’d been on the phone to her in tears saying goodbye. He told her to tell everyone he loved them. I pulled on my clothes as fast as I could and started running toward the bridge. It was up a hill. I lived about a ten minute walk away, I could run it in five. As I ran I started dialling then redialing his number. The line was busy, which was a good sign, it meant he was still on the phone to someone. As I got about halfway, the busy tone changed. It told me the line was out of service. I got a sinking feeling and picked up my speed. I arrived to the bridge minutes after I left my house. It was deafeningly quiet. I was the first person to arrive. I got there probably about 2 minutes too late. Joe’s body was never found. Initially we refused to believe he was gone. The coastguard came out that night, with boats, and helicopters. Me and my friends spent the next 10 days putting up missing posters everywhere we could, walking up and down beaches with flashlights, getting about 3 hours sleep a night. When you’re walking up and down a beach with a torch when its dark everything looks like a body. We still haven’t found Joe. As his birthday came around, I wrote a song, freckled angels, a song I dedicated to Joe which I sang in front of his friends and family. A charity football match was put on for him, raising money for the RNLI where I won two bottles of wine in a raffle, I drank them both as quickly as I could, naturally, turned to my friend and probably slurred something along the lines of “This is the last time I ever drink” That was 12 years ago, I haven’t touched a drop of alcohol since. My first ever album I named Freckled Angels in tribute of one of the best people I ever knew. Skip forward some years. I’d been sitting on this song I wrote a few years ago. It always felt a little incomplete. It was going to be my next release, but I was dreading it because of this feeling of incompletion. I decided, very last minute, to do something about it. I sat by my piano, and the rest of the song fell out of me. I hadn’t thought about Joe in a little while, and the song initially wasn’t going to be about him, but the words all fell out of me. I wrote and recorded a whole 2 minutes extra, recording each part as I wrote it. Tears spewing out of my eyes pretty much the whole time, and decided not to do my usual thing of perfecting each line, I just recorded every line as it came. "

U know what I love about you man,? fact that u are so real , u are not pathetic,, u don t show off. Your perception and understanding of things are so thoughtful . You made me emotional. Brother you are a great man! Saw one of your little girls in one your vids, she s a sweet heart. Take care

Thank you, Anthony, for braving us through this one.

Thank you so much. I am glad that you did this.

Thank you for a very heartfelt reaction .

beautiful, sad song; great reaction. Yes, Kane should react to this one. We're glad you're here too.

I appreciate you doing this one, even though it's not easy. I don't feel like saying much, but I needed to hear what you said about 'traumatizing your loved ones for life' 💯❤

Anthony, I’m truly sorry if you ever had these feelings. I’ve watched this video so many times, with different reactors. And it’s amazing the different interpretations. REN’s message is so important, now more than ever. Life can be hard sometimes, but you work at . Your beautiful little girls have an amazing Dad . Love Great Grandma ❤️❤️👵🏼

On a Twitch stream Ren said that losing someone is hard because time doesn't heal the wound. Time stretches out the time in between the feelings, but they come back just as strong regardless of when. He hadn't thought about his friend Joe for a long time prior to his interview with Knox Hill. His discussion with Knox prompted him to write the final verse for this song.

Of course man I/we want to see your best friend (and I still don’t know how to spell his name… Caine???) to react to this song Thank you so much for this Anthony, thank you for being real, thank you for sharing REN Take care Daz Australia

My daughter attempted suicide her 10th grade in high school like everyone else this song just hits those wounds. I am so thankful she failed but it brought home how fragile we each are.

You have a beautiful speaking voice, and thanks for your honest human reaction.

I’m glad that you’re here too 🥹❣️ I see you beyond just putting on a show/reaction. You matter as a person. I know there’s a lot more emotion and pain that you’re feeling and trying to hold it together. It breaks my heart. I think there’s a lot more to your story than we know and I hope you can experience healing and know you matter. I wish I had better words to express this. 🫂🥺💙☮️

Thank you for giving a compassionate reaction❤

Glad you are here! Glad we are here..Let's keep it that way

I think its important you show him, As men we sometime forget we have feelings too, and its ok to show them. The second part he actually wrote after his interview with Know Hill.. They dove pretty deep into the loss of Joe (Ren's dude) SO HE FELT INSPIRED... Yes show your boy , and as you two listen to it, remember how lucky you two are you have each other... My best friend also jumped... it's life changing and you never get over it.

Our voice in the night. Thanks

Ren left us speechless in this song

Yes! Thank you, Ray!

The grief in the face of a suicide - so painful.

Thank you Anthony and thank you Ren .

Oh no when he rap about his best friends made me crying and chills .😢😢😢😢😢😢

Thank you Anthony. I cry every reaction but it is such a poweful song. Lots of love to everyone and please if you are in a dark place please reach out for help.

Bless you and thank you.

Very cathartic song for some reason