You are not alone. I heard this the other day on King radio Seattle and was transfixed, had to look it up here.

I'm all alone in this comment section, after listening to maybe the most substantive and brilliant performance of maybe the most brilliant tone poem ever written. As an artist who has performed this epic piece, I can say I was still moved by the incredible performance of Mr. Ralske and Mr. Kim during the Epilogue. What a wonderful project, bravi to all

absolutely amazing performance! bravo to all involved! incredible playing all round! 👏

Started to read Death on a Down Beat and it mentions that the conductor was shot whilst the orchestra was playing this so I decided to listen

"A hero's life" Strauss said it was autobiographical.