The devil would always try to make you kill your self because he knew God would take YOU and make you who you are today .. This is beautiful. God bless🤍

as a 17-year-old girl I really relate to you, the lust, the p0rn, the stealing, the suicide the drinking the fighting with family. It's all just so awful, I'm trying to strengthen my relationship with Jesus, learning about the lord, and all he's done for us, I've cut out the stealing and drinking, and I'm going to cut out all the sin in my life, and put him first. Amen

i honestly cried watching this because we have such similar stories. right now i’m 14 and i already have so much going on. i always fight with my mom, i argue with most of my family, i feel empty most of the time, i’ve had a few attempts, self harm, lust etc. and watching this made me want to get closer with god. i’ve downloaded the bible app recently and i try to read a few pages everyday, and try to stay committed because i really want to be healed.

Wow , this is truly beautiful . I’m 19 and I struggled with porn for YEARS ever since I was a kid just like you said . A few days ago I cut all of it out , threw away all the vibrators i had and promised I’d never go back . I also started smoking about 2-3 years ago EVERY SINGLE DAY straight. At first it was a good feeling but after a while I started getting intrusive thoughts but I still kept doing it because it was like a routine . A few days ago I also said I was done smoking , but I still had my cart and would hit it from time to time but today I felt like enough was enough . I just can’t do any of it anymore , all my old habits were slowly turning me into a person I never wanted to be . I struggle with intrusive thought horribly , I remember the first day it happened . I was 9, going through a lot ..moving around , seeing my mom in an unhappy relationship . I turn 20 soon and I pray that God delivers me from all I’ve been through and things I’ve done that are sins . I’ve never really been close with God , I’ve always tried but something always stopped me . I cried my heart out today on the floor, asking God to forgive me and accept me . I don’t ever want to go back , I truly want to be a better woman . Thank you for this , this meant everything to me .

Such a beautiful testimony. You have such a light in your eyes because of the Holy Spirit. Honestly our testimonies are very similar. I was saved and baptized in 2012 after doing three hits of acid and ending up in a mental hospital. God saved me from staying in that crazy acid trip yet I still went back to the world 😢 It wasn’t until this February I got back on my Christ walk. Ever since I’ve been fully submitted to the Lord just this year alone I’m almost finished reading the whole Bible (267 days in), I moved out of my rat infested apartment, my husband and I got married, He got baptized, I haven’t been obsessing over being a content creator, I threw my doll collection out, my promiscuous clothing and shoes got tossed 🚮 I threw away expensive makeup 🚮🚮 Thousands of dollars in the trash but anything can go if it becomes an idol. I also stopped wearing wigs and have been getting my real hair done. The biggest blessing is my husband, kids and myself just moved in to our new home after we stayed with my mother in law for like 7 months 😭🙌🏾 God is so good and He truly is faithful 🩷

I FEEL LIKE GOD WANTED ME TO SEE THIS I CRIED AT THE END AND AFTER I FELT GOD'S PRESENCE AND I KNEW I NEEDED TO GET CLOSE TO JESUS MAY GOD BLESS Y'ALL HAVE A GOOD DAY 🙏

I grew up Christian but I also grew up very traumatized and never in my 22 years of living have I heard a testimony that I could relate so much to ever in my life. I want to get closer with God but feel so much shame but your words have reminded that God loves me no matter what, that even I’m broken he’ll fix me, if I’m dirty he’ll wash me, if I don’t have anything to offer him he will still want me. God is sooo Good, you are doing the lords work with spreading his gospel through your testimony, thank you and God bless you and Everyone reading this!

me and my friends in like 2019 loved u, I watched ur KZfaq and ur TikToks. When u first we’re saved by Jesus I still followed u but I was lukewarm and summer 2023 Jesus saved me 💕

im very young, not even out of highschool, and im struggling with the same sin you mentioned. pornography, sexual sin, deceitfulness and lies, i know what im doing is wrong bwcause i know the word of God but i feel extremely stuck, ill turn to God one day and the next im back in sin, your testimony truly touched me snd gave me a sense of hope i thank God in advance for what he’s going to do in my life

The way I accidentally tapped on your video while searching something unholy😭I relate to almost everything you talked about and I'm only 17

I am speechless. This testimony was godsent. I just turned 15 and this was very relatable. Very relatable and I'm surprised that many other young girls relate to this. Now I know that I am not alone. Thank you very much. Thank God for it. Thank sir, Jehovah and Jesus, His son.

Lately I have felt a shift in my life. Ever since I was a child, I have had an addiction for lust and I've felt so disgusted by it and I would always relapse and throughout my life, I have been so lukewarm. Recently, I have seen many people turning to Christ which inspired me to do the same because I grew up in a religious family and I want to do better and I want to do things that are able to please the Lord.

Very relatable, porn, self harm, no present father or too abusive when present, bullying at school. Many attempts just before 15 including many pills. Told no one. Just went to sleep while my heart was going crazy. Bad relationship with my mom. i started abusing alcohol and addicted to raves and festivals at just 13. Im in my 20s and only now have found God. My Savior. 🙏🏻💜

You wanting to get baptized when you were young was your way of accepting the Holy Spirit. Then the Holy Spirit continued to be inside you because you felt conviction even though you were choosing to still continue to live in the world. By God’s love and His almighty grip on you, you are here today. Welcome home sister! I love you and thank you for your testimony 🩷🙏🏾

I have such a similar story. Everything you said I was like dang so did I. I did that too, I said that too. I’m 32 and I’m finding god. Still new to everything. But I went to church this past Sunday and cried with my mom and told her I forgive her. God is great! May he continue to bless you! ❤🙏🏼

What’s kind of funny is the video length is 41:10 and my favorite verse in the Bible is Isaiah 41:10

I’ve watched you all those years in admiration (i wasnt saved either) not knowing what you were going through… its crazy how we hide so much behind a screen. But it shows that no matter who we fool we cant fool God!!! You are new, sanctified, made holy and now your are His!!!!

Just when the devil thought he bagged you. Urgh, Jesus loved us even at our filthiest, such wonderful love! Thank you for obeying and sharing sis🤍

This girl has been through the unimaginable. God saved her through that. This is so beautiful 💓✝️

After you been in the dark for so long there is just something about the light of Gods presence. God can take addicts and teach them how we worship. ☀️✨🔥

I used to follow you, I was never a fan or a constant watcher but sometimes you showed up on my fy page, when I saw that you accepted Jesus Christ I was sooo happy for u like I've known you irl and you were my best friend for years lol😂 I'm so happy for you and I'm so excited to see more of your journey! your testimony is really strong, GOD IS GOOD🫶🙏

im 16 and i hope you know how much this video spoke to me. i really really want to be closer with jesus. im not ready to even mention what i have gone through publicly but thank you

hey rubee im 19 and yesterday i gave my life to christ my life started going downhill to the point where i had to chose between life or death. I remember you in 2020 on tiktok and seeing how much God blessed your life has encourage me to keep going on this journey i struggled with some of the same stuff as you and currently im trying to break a soul tie if you see this keep me in your prayer

I’m 16 years now and when heard what you watch 🌽 at a young age it kinda reminded me of my past and my presents. I am kinda dealing with sexual perversion. I didn’t even know it was demons I am fighting. I did kinda think It was maybe from the marine world. But I am grateful for what you shared. I have also dealt with child hood trauma. I just to play house with cousins and my moms friend children and when I think about it. When I remember I cry and I am angry at myself for allowing because me now would have done everything to protect younger me. I do thank God I am still a virgin but I did mastur bated and I have ungodly sexual desires. I was lukewarming with God. So thank you a lot 🙏🏾

It's all Glory to God ❤

i was crying through this whole video,,, especially the end. beautiful testimony i can relate in many ways… 💗 God bless you,, and i am so proud of you making it through. THANK YOU JESUS !!!!!!

I love your testimony.. I can relate so much. I’m just 13 and omg I self harmed,suicidal, I had depression and rebellious. I used to talk back to my parents, I also wanted to die bc I felt like I wasn’t needed, I was the glass child I had a bad relationship with my mom and I have cuts and scars on my arms, face, and hands and now looking back I cry bc of how much I hurt myself. I felt empty but the most crazy thing is that I was born Christian. People notice how rude and cold I was. No emotions toward people. Especially my only brother, I broke his heart in a small age. I was rejected by my parents, family, and friends and my brother having all that attention and I rejected him so much and I hurt him. But on April 11, 2024 1 day before my birthday I was free I went through liberation and all that was gone and I was so happy bc I know God free me. And I had a bf and he was catholic and yea but God spoke to me saying he was bringing me down bc I had the gift of language and I had to stop bc God wants to use me. I did but I was hurt doing it but ik it was for Good and now I am going to get closer to God and follow him and carry my own cross. I am healing and I want anyone else reading this I want you to know God is amazing he Loves you no matter what. Follow God and never look back. GOD BLESS YALL❤

The fact that I used to save pictures of your old self on pinterest and idolize them a few years back and now when I am on my own journey of repentance and deepening my relationship with the LORD and find this testimony of you! ✝️ 🙏🏼 Praise the LORD 🙏🏼 ✝️

Im turning 23 this month , our testimonies are so similar it’s crazy. It’s comforting knowing I’m not the only one, it’s been hard not having anyone to relate who also is a believer and my age. God is healing me and blessing me with your testimony. I used to watch you growing up and seeing us both grow in the faith is inspiring 💌 keep it up!!

this blessed my life so much, I’m 13 and was saved a couple months ago. What’s upsetting is I struggle with most likely 80% of what you mentioned maybe just in the last year. This really spoke to me that there is hope. Thank you for being someone I can look up to as I grow my faith in the lord. I pray that you continue and grow in abundance of faith. Amen

This video was so good to me. I can relate to feeling broken and unloved at a very young age. I was also a child that went back and forth between families. I started mastu@$&& at the age of 11, and was exposed to so many inappropriate things. I thank God that I had enough family care to not have fell in the rabbit hole of alcohol and drugs. I’m 19 now, and I’ve given my life to the lord. I still have a lot to learn and a lot to do, but it will all be worth it. Thank you God!!! Amen!!! ✝️🙏🏽💕

girlll i remember your old videos years ago with your bright hair colors!! it’s so beautiful the way that God has changed your life for the better. i love that you found Jesus and that you have a relationship with Him now. i am so so proud of you and i am sending you so much love.

I’m about to turn 20 years in 5 months. Your story touched me so much because we have similar story, because I found porn at the age of 7 years old, started doing new age witchcraft when I was 14. Was very depressed and suicidal when I was 11 years till now. I dropped out of last year. I cut off all my friends. I was going crazy. But God save me, and now I’m starting to grow my relationship and start to trust him. Glory Be to God❤️

As a 14 year old, i've never related to something so much in my life. I feel myself going down a deeper hole that is hard to climv out of. I'm trying to get closet to God but it just seems so hard. But something in me deep down wants me to try. And i honestly don't even know where to start. I can't even find the motivation to go to church anymore. I struggle to get interested with my religion and it upsets me, but what upsets me even more is how I don't know what to do about it. I know god knows and I try to tell him about it and i just cry. But I can't get myself to try to my full potential anymore. But im very proud of how far you've gotten. Great job.

I have been following u for the longest time.. I use to really love your style and content before when i was living in the world aswell. Your testimony is very similar to mine. And i got called by the Lord around the same time as u. I thank the Lord for saving me and loving me through it all

Idk why, but hearing that someone dealt with that same depth and level of perversion...gosh its such a shameful place to be...but it was somehow comforting to hesr that i wasnt the only one :( and that truly its this spirit that takes you farther then you ever thought youd go, especially at such a young age...Glad to have been delivered from that. Your testimony is filled with hope, and your life will blossom for thr glory of God, and he has more joy and bright plans for you. ❤❤

I battled and still is battling a lot of the same demons! But yah will deliver me through it all! Thank you for sharing your testimony and encouraging others to cry out to him! Bless you

I went through almost the same as you. I was verbally abused at home by my stepdad and I argued with my mum. Went to school to be bullied all day. I was never happy. Suicidal thoughts started running through my head. Nothing or no one helped. I moved out to live alone. After a few months my mum’s and I relationship started to get better. But we still argued a LOT. I never had friends. I never went to parties/clubs/concerts none of that. I’m still virgin today at 18. After I found God my whole life flipped for the better. More stuff happened to me but I don’t wanna say everything. I’m just happy you and me found Jesus when we did. I wish for more teens and all humans to find Jesus. God really does love us all 💕✝️

You go girl! I am on my walk with God at the age of 14 and speaking from experience it is not easy! But you definitely keep me going : ) keep doing your thing!

Your testimony has touched me. I feel the purity and love in your spirit now and how passionate you are talking about God. I too had a similar past stealing out my mom's purse, lying, being exposed to porn at a young age which made me hypersexual and with a perverted spirit, and crying so much. I was personally touched by God at 19 and my mom was praying and praying for me for a change in my life cus she was fed up with my behaviors. Since then I pray everyday, I'm now 21, some days are harder than others, but I know my purpose and everyday have an underlying feeling of purpose, love, growth, and knowing that everything is gonna be ok. We truly serve an almighty God and the fact that we get stronger through God everyday is my motivation to keep going and make satan mad 😊 Thank u for your beautiful testimony

Just yesterday I had decided to follow God on my own way, by reading the Bible’s taking notes watching Christian videos and we’ll your video touched my heart! I just felt so close to you and to God because I realized that I’m not the only one going through bad things and that there are people who know what it’s like and feel that pain too! And I just wanna thank you because you just helped me feel a less ashamed of my sins! God bless you Rubee!❤❤

THIS TESTIMONY REALLY TOUCHED MY HEART AND I FELT TRULY THE HOLY SPIRIT WAS SPEAKING THROUGH YOU!! THANK YOU SO MUCH FOR SHARING YOUR TESTIMONY AND GOD BLESS U ALL!!

Look for yourself, and you will find in the long run only hatred, loneliness, despair, rage, ruin and decay. But look for Christ and you will find Him and in Him everything else thrown in. 💌

Your testimony is very beautiful & truly inspiring... i am 23 years old, just like you & im finding it very hard to manage my relationship with God and my relationship with the world. God has been calling out to me for years & I just keep finding myself hot & cold with my faith. As of lately Ive been starting to feel more conviction which I can actually say im happy about because I know God is speaking to me & I can actually hear him again. The problem is I dont have self control in certain situations, because I myself do not have the power to do it..which pulls me back into cycles that my heart truly doesnt want to be in anymore. Because i know life isnt promised & we are certainly living in the last days, I want to be more serious about my faith & representing the Lord Jesus in everything i do because he is so good & has shown me so much grace and mercy even when I don't deserve it. Thank you for your testimony, I needed to hear it, I pray God starts to surround me with more spirits like yours.. God Bless You, Amen❤️🙏🏽

You’re one of people who actually pushed me to get closer with our Father, i'm 15 now, and know more about God than I ever thought I could. I can relate to porn, the lust, sexual trauma.. It's hard to believe that he can forgive me/ all of us from all the sin that we've done.

I’ve seen this pop up multiple times but never wanted to click on it, but it was the first video that showed up so I was like “Okay God, You probably want me to watch this 😂” Glad to have you in the Kingdom and how He saved you! 💕🙏🏾

I also got addicted to this and now I still pray to God so that he should give me the strength to not fall in the same sin.

As a 24yr old young man I truly and deeply appreciate this message for real GOD really be trying to help us I also battled with things similar myself so much shame guilt etc… draining my soul literally but sometimes we let the devil in and mess things up in our lives because the lack of wisdom and knowledge of GOD I pray you keep going and spread the message Shalom sis 🤲🏾🙏🏾♾️🩵 MAY YAH bless you thank you for this seriously

You’ve gone through so much. Hallelujah that you are saved!

Oh praise be to God!!!!!!!!!!! As a convert from paganism to Catholicism, I am so incredibly happy for you and I resonate with you, my sister. You're an inspiration to me, especially since you were so public before your conversion, and I sometimes feel very scared that my past will come back to haunt me, and I lament having ever not been Christian. The bravery that you have to share your testimony comforts me and inspires me to do the same. I also converted to Christianity at 22

I watched your whole testimony on the way from mom house to my dad house I paused for a little bit I was unpacking but now it’s 12:28pm I have school in a couple hours but your testimony i can relate a lot with the homosexual at a young age and pornography as well and feeling worthless because of the devil i just want to let you know that your testimony really helped me as well as others ❤

Wow ruby this is beautiful I used to watch u when split dye was popular and to see how much u grown and what u really was going through is absolutely amazing. I lost both my older brother within a year n half and now I’m the only child. This touched my heart and gave me hope. Thank you

Even though I'm still 14 years old, so young, I'm so happy for you that you found peace and gave your life to God. This truly touched my heart. Amen🤧🙏❤

This really spoke to me. I’ve spent so much of my life carrying this weight and baggage. I would be so hard on myself and never satisfied with what I could do. I would always think why can’t I be better? Why can’t I look like her? I’ve come to the realization that there is nothing in this world that can satisfy your soul. I’ve been looking in the world for satisfaction instead of looking for God. I related to your experience on so many levels. Thank you so much for sharing your story.

This whole testimony really touched me as I’m young myself trying to start my own personal relationship with God. I repented today and now know that God will be following me and guiding me in my journey God bless!

Amen!!!!!! This is going to touch so many people. I found your page shortly after filming my own testimony video a couple weeks ago, and was literally going through the same spiritual warfare, self doubt, shame, etc. Sis this is important work for the Kingdom, so the enemy is going to try anything he can to make you doubt your purpose and your new walk. But we prevail in the name of Jesus 💕 The Lord is going to work through you in ways you never could have imagined, and He will give back to you all that was lost + more. I'm excited to have found you and am looking forward to watching you bloom in Christ. Much love x

I'm 17, I go to this christian school and I listened to a sermon last Thursday (Thursdays are the weekly chapel day at our school) and the teacher up there preaching was speaking about how God blesses those poor in spirit. That God blesses those who know and understand they are sinners (the term sinner is often seen offensive, none wants to think about themselves as a sinner. However since we are decedents of Adam and Eve we are born to be sinful or sinners. So technically its not a personal term rather the consequence of the fall of man.) He went on saying that we try to find our identity in what we do, what we look like, our relationships, our achievements, our hobbies, etc. At one point he said something on the lines of "You try to get good grades and that makes you feel purposeful, but then when your A goes to a B, a C, or an F you become anxious and upset. You may think you're upset because school is important and so on, but there's often a piece of yourself that you loose when something like that happens because you have unknowingly attached your identity to this thing that you believe gives you purpose. But it's not until you live through Him--and give the glory to him-- that your life finally has purpose because you're doing what you were actually created to do." Long story short I went and talked to this teacher after chapel and I literally cried in front of him 😀and after I left talking to him I went to the bathroom and started bawling my eyes out. I was so overwhelmed by the love I felt from God and this idea of being poor in spirit has made me feel so purposeful. I am still trying to let go of things I attach to my identity such as appearance and friends but I feel every time I let something go, it is hard at first , but I have never felt so free and confident in myself, and that's all from God.

GIRLLL I remember seeing you videos and abt 2021-2022 and now I’ve seen your whole testimony and how we’ve both changed from me being a fan of you(along with my own issues) to born again, it’s incredible, I can see God glowing in you girl❤

Thank you so much for this testimony. i’m only 16 now but when i was younger I would watch your old videos and enjoyed your page but this video has taught me that you never know what’s going on in someone else’s life. I still struggle now, even though i’m building my relationship with God, i struggle a lot with lust, judging others and my self image. I am constantly wishing to look like other people and just wish i looked pretty but God is helping me. I try to think more positively instead of judging other people as I used to and it’s just so peaceful. Constantly putting other people down won’t make me feel better. I still lust which i feel very shameful abt but i trust God will help me to get through these temptations. It really makes me feel like I am not meant to be Christian and not even meant to inherit the Kingdom but I know that’s just the devil and that God loves me. I thank God for allowing me to come this far and allowing me to grow and learn. I struggled with depression as well and was cutting, wanted to kill myself, overdosing but i just had a limit. I was scared of killing myself. Even though I never really realised it, I knew the Lord was above and it just felt wrong. I felt like there might be more in my life. Although my past is not the best, I try not to hate the past because if i never went through what I went through I doubt I would’ve found God. After the storm there’s a rainbow and this is my journey on that rainbow, finding what God has for me. Thank you for this video. God bless everyone 🩷

i am not kidding… watching this felt like i was hearing my own life story. thank you so much for sharing this and showing no matter how far off you are.. GOD WILL BRING YOU BACK!🩷

jesus has used your story to reach us in such a beautiful way! it’s so wonderful seeing how he’s worked in other peoples lives and just reminds me how loving our father is ❤ he can turn anything traumatic or painful into a testimony to show of his grace and power, we’re never too far gone for Jesus

Love you sister in Christ ❤️. I’m glad to hear and see you doing well!

i remember watching you in 2019-20 and i looked up to you so much, time passed and i found you again and this is so beautiful, i cant believe all that was happening to you behind the scenes and im so sorry, but i am so so glad you found Jesus and he changed you for the best. God is amazing💝

This is so beautiful Rubee. I am someone who has grown up in church and grown up knowing God and I am so fortunate to have had all of these resources from the beginning. I'm 14 and I go back and forth from periods of being lukewarm and periods of being the "best Christian ever." I love Jesus and I am proud of it. I struggle with the sin of secular music a lot so I deleted all of my bad Spotify playlists and I deleted TikTok to get away from the secular music. I am trying to stay away from being lukewarm as much as possible and your strong testimony has shown me that I CAN DO IT!! You are so strong Rubee and God is so proud of you. I am so proud of you.

I kept seeing your testimony pop up but Ive been ignoring it for weeks but by the Grace of God I finally watched it and Im so grateful to have heard it. I understand what you're going through and I just want to let you know your testimony touched me. Jesus is so Good. God is so good. Continue to keep the hope of God in you and the faith of Our Lord will heal you through everything. Bless you & Bless the Prince of Peace

May the Lord continue to guide you into truth and built firmly on the strong foundation of Christ away from strange voices. 🔥🔥🔥🔥

This makes me think about how we take our faith for granted. God bless You

everyday we make a decision to deny ourselves for him❤️thank you for this beautiful testimony✝️🙏

I have no words. I’ve been dealing with those same sins you were when I was maybe younger than you were. I feel so seen. Thank you for sharing this testimony. God is so good

Watching this because I am too trying to explore my spiritual journey. Mine has been a very scary and rocky one, so I’m hoping this brings me some more guidance

Hi Rubee. First thing I’ll say is thank you for sharing your testimony. I’m sure a lot of people will be healed with what they’ve heard and delivered from what you’ve shared. The second thing I’ll say is the butterfly at the end of the video transformation. Which is what you went through when you and Jesus met in the middle. I’d also a sign from God to me as well to boldly come before him and in the presence of other’s without shrinking or trying to hide who I am and who I serve “Jesus”. Thanks again for sharing and may God continue to show you favor, blessings ands creative miracles in your life. In Jesus name. Amen. 🤍

Thank you...thank you so sooo much for sharing your testimony with us. I cried nearly at the end and I started to pray and to say sorry to Jesus because I was really far gone from him. But your video helped me and reach my heart ❤❤ I trully repented this time and even thought I forgot what to do while being a Christian I'll do it with God ❤

Thank God He brought you out & is using you as a vessel now. This really touched me in many different ways. I’m struggling with a lot right now myself, but seeing this lets me know God will never leave me nor forsake me. Keep sharing your testimony to others & spreading the love of Jesus.

everyone is commenting about them feeling smth and im here not feeling anything...i js wanna feel God

I'm 18 yrs old and your testimony really blessed me 🙏 if only people knew half of the stuff us young people go through

Girl this is a testimony!! It takes a lot to tell your story but your obedience to God is allowing your story to spread his love!💗 Definitely doesn’t make us feel alone

I admired your courage. And what God has done with you is just incredible. I haven't experienced this much in my life so if God did all this for you, he can do it for me too.

you don’t understand how much this video has opened my eyes. i immediately got emotional and started crying to God. he is so good, he has saved me from the worst parts of my life and has brought so many blessings into my life. thank you for sharing your testimony, absolutely beautiful 🤎

this definitely touched my heart Rubee. i have tears in my eyes. ive been subscribing/following you ever since you started. you were such an inspiration to me back then just because of your physical appearence but youre an even bigger inspiration to me now considering all youve been through. i only found God this year and it has not been easy on this walk. but to see my favourite social media influencer share her testimony was definitely a sign that im not alone and that God loves me. this is a blessing. you are a blessing Rubee! i love you sm. thank you for sharing this beautiful testimony. Jesus loves you all! have a blessed day

I also used to be depressed during my high school years for similar reasons. God really is so merciful and powerful, ain’t nobody a lost cause for Him ☝🏼❤️

I relate to you as well with the p0rn, lust, stealing, lying, suicidal doing drugs to the point of psychosis, I was destroying my spirit and who I once was. My childhood effected me more than I thought and I saw it as a burden rather than room to heal. I went through physical and mental abuse, and I was sexually assaulted at the age of 13. I used to listen to nihilistic music, really depressing songs. I did all of this alone and backed myself into my own depressing corner. God had so much mercy on my soul because he knew my true purpose and what I can actually contribute to this world, he’s healing me and when I look back at who I was it doesn’t even feel like me, it’s all a blur. I’m just so thankful for your testimony because it’s super relatable.

He is so so good! Mannnnn! I almost cried listening to your testimony. It’s absolutely beautiful.🙏🏽 May God continue to bless you!♥️

This was beautiful!! I’ve had a lot of very similar life experiences and ties to the world I’ve been trying to get out from underneath. You reminded me that GOD IS FAITHFUL and have given me hope that I can do so it through example. I have no doubt the lord led me to your page.Tears… thank you

Love you rubee. I’ve watched you since I was middle school, you’re inspiring! You and I are making this new walk with God together. Thank you for posting this💗

I’m crying right now anyone else?❤

Rubee, this is the first time I've watched any of your videos. This video came up on my recommendations. Praise the Lord that you are saved! I look forward to meeting you in eternity with God ❤. I've been seeing more and more people coming to Jesus and its such an encouragement to my spirit.

this was amazing, it literally made me cry. i really resonated with some of the stuff you went through and i’m happy to hear that it’s possible to get through it. i hope you are blessed through ur testimony

I am going through the same and I am stuck. My mom has never been there for me emotionally and I crave that love and affection. This video really stood out for me and I am so grateful to have watched it.

Please keep sharing your testimony and your story. I’ve never related to a testimony as much as I have with yours and it’s very inspiring and I can only imagine how many other people are positively impacted and inspired by hearing someone as beautiful as you to have gone through so much and find God through that💕

I’m so happy for you and your beautiful journey!! I followed you for a while and it was lovely to see how you’ve blossomed into who you are now! I too have been creating a life in Christ and am beyond happy to see others doing the same💗

So happy to see you doing well Ruby 🩷 I know your testimony is going to be so eye opening for many! I pray that everyone that comes across this video will be touched by God’s love and know his grace and seek him. God keep blessing you! 🫶🏼🥰

Thank you for sharing your testimony ❤️ I followed you somewhere in there along the way for your “old” content. I too have literally been *there* and done *that* (minus musicaly & going viral) and am now seeking the way and the truth through Jesus. It’s beyond words how blessed this feels, from the edm scene to Christ! It’s been a rollercoaster girl but I’m holding on too! ❤️❤️❤️

I watched this video before church this morning and the whole time I was at church I was thanking God for your testimony. I relate so much to so many parts of your testimony and I was thanking God that he put it on your heart to share, to let me and so many others know that we’re not alone in the dirtiness of our past. Thank you for your obedience in sharing, I’m so happy to have you in the body of Christ!

What a beautiful testimony! Praise God for his MERCY towards us

Amen, so glad you found Jesus at such a young age. I have a similar testimony. I used to pray for temporary things like to be more pretty or to find a boyfriend. Now I just pray for faith and to not turn back to the ways of the world. It’s a difficult journey but we got this!

No is seriously teared up watching this video because this testimony was so beautiful and your happiness just got me emotional ❤❤I’m so overjoyed for you!

i started crying during this video. You are so brave to open up this much. This was so inspirational!

Thank you Rubee for sharing your testimony. What a powerful, loving and amazing God we have. May The Lord continue to use you, and touch the hearts of those who are going through similar times as you have. I love you my dear sister in Christ ❤

Dont ever feel bad or regret for posting this. I relate to this in so many ways, we love you for you. Always.

Rubee, I am so glad you shared this. I couldn’t help but get emotional hearing all of this and I am so glad to hear you are saved. The glow in your eyes and on your face, that glow is from God and his spirit. You have a purpose here, whether that is small or big, and you inspire people daily on their walk with the Lord. May God continue to bless you day by day, you are so loved and forgiven.