“you can’t be at the destination and on the way at the same time.” !!!!

I'm 27 and the level of calmness I feel about my life right now is insane. I used to be so extreme. I no longer drink as much, I'm with a partner who respects and supports me, and I'm working hard enough to get me where I want to be, but still perfectly content with where I am. I'm not Muslim, but I have been consistently drawn to Islam since I was around 20. I always come back to te Quran. I always come back to videos like these for wisdom and calmness. Recitations are usually how I fall asleep. I think my heart is telling me it's almost time. Or maybe that's Allah telling me it's almost time. I'm not sure, but I'm just happy.

I just wanna preface this by saying that this is absolutely not how this vid was supposed to go but it's how it went & that too has been a theme of my 20s. anyway, love u

being in your 20s is such a revolutionary experience because i feel like for the first time, I am in charge-- of emotions, decisions; and I dictate outcomes i want out of knowledge of who i am. I know I haven't lived long enough to know myself. but in your 20s, you start to recognize the girl in the mirror and that feels so incredible. part of the revolutionary experience is learning to resist parts of yourself that can be inhibiting. it takes a while to unlearn years of self-doubt. you have to parse through voices that are both yours and the voices of others. on top of this, as someone born Muslim, I begin to choose Islam more and more, and take ownership of my faith, which is also liberating. my islam finally becomes mine. and it overall feels very special to be navigating my 20s!!! thank you shahd, these thoughts were beautiful and so so relevant

I enjoy your content is like a scrapbook journal each entry is digestible and curated with intentionally vs just aesthetics. Very calm and pleasing.

The part about how you journal is so relatable. Something that has helped me is having my main journal, where I let the two voices exists but try to emphasis on wiser reflections, but i also use the journal feature on notion to thought dump the less wise/insecure voice. She just wants to exist and im learning that letting her exist does not mean she’ll get more power over me. It helps me actively choose the wiser voice instead of guilting myself into being mature by suppressing the less wise one. Everyone has these aspects of themselves and remembering this helps me disengage my identity from my insecure self. At some point, i used to only journal when i felt like my ‘higher self’ but when i reread the entries i recognized a lack of authenticity and vulnerability in what i expressed. I knew at the time my inner dialogue was not reflective of what i was writing, i was just willing myself to believe the wisdom - ultimately it’s much more complex. My goal this ramadan is to emphasize on heart purification to help strengthen my wiser self.

The wiser voice is aligned with your values, and the other voice is natural response to pain/discomfort (sometimes against our values). The self is the one that is noticing these thoughts happening, that is separate from both.

I’m your type of person and it makes me so happy to hear there are other people out there with similar thinking. Ramadan Kareem 🫶🏼

plsss longer vlogs

10:42 I love that you mentioned how being in those extremes is horrible for your cortisol levels. I defenitley see that you are much more calm. and it takes one to know one. Once I started becoming more aware of how my thoughts were greatly influencing y cortisol levels, I took a huuuge step back and started looking into ways I could calm myself. things like turning back to the sunnah, having a more positive outlook on life, observing my mother (who to me is the queen of chill and elegance) and seeing how she navigates through life, I realized calm is my nature, its in my genes but I begin to unravel when I stray from it. controling your mind and feeding it only good has been a game changer. I like to tell myself its my birthright to be calm and at peace like the women in my lineage and to embody the simplicity and beauty of my predecessors. life is not supposed to be chaotic and in the moments that it is this where you turn to your religion and just be patient, poised and resiliant. this is one quality ive come to love from my friends and relatives who have grown up outside of the west. they have this discipline that is so inspiring. it akes me think they were meant to be in my life so that I could learn from them so that I can become my best self. and I was meant to be in their life to bring them joy and carefree. we all need a balance of these two aspects. the discipline of patience in itself makes you impenetrable and pairing it with gratitude and the remembrance of Allah makes you unbeatable

I love how real and raw you are. You’re such an inspiration. Happy international women’s day beautiful

Your content is so refreshing and peaceful I love this! Allahumma Barik.

clicked so fast ! so happy you started posted again . In’sha’Allah you continue cus we love these vids !!

definitely my fav creator this month! الله يعطيك العافية يارب

Capturing the mundane things in the most exciting way and the snippets of inspirational words, love it!

Thia video is my safe space, thank you for creating again! I resonate so much

I love this video so much! Such genuity and a reminder that is needed! ❤

love love this! thanks for being true to yourself. you are an inspiration, Shahd! Hope you have a blessed Ramadan

Man to reach this level of calm and peace is something that seems so unattainable right now 😢 I'm pushing 30 soon and all i want is this !! But what I want and what's reality is so far off from one another all I can do is just take deep breaths, say a prayer and keep moving 😞 Lovely video as always Shahd, thanks for that! 🤍

Just when I needed something to watch!💃💃💃

Love love love this - love having you back

loved this! the new content is AMAZING!

Shadh this is so relatable on much deeper level ❤thank you for sharing your journey with us

I’m loving these weekly vlogs 💖

That made so much sense. Trust me you are exactly where you are supposed to be. You will look back on where you are now and say wow, I’ve really grown. Just keep asking questions, reflecting and exploring. Know there is no end until the end 🙌🏽✨

I really needed this today.

Love this and love you Shahd!!!!!❤❤❤❤

I am so glad you are back!!!

I swear I have an entire council in my head of different voices that alternate between being the primary drivers of my life. And you can never quite pinpoint when they were born into your consciousness or whether it is really 'your' voice or the personification of a collective of outside influences. Or just the critical voices your parents lol. But I also wonder if thinking so much about what our voices are is also a form of intellectualizing ourselves. The need to properly contextualize and package our emotions appropriately so that we can be properly understood. I wonder if social media played a role in that, we have to properly title, format edit and immaculately present ourselves appropriately in order to be heard and find our audiences. I feel like for me personally, I have done that in real life too. I used to not speak much unless I had my logic completely prepared. No emotions were processed or expressed to others. That's why I like the way your video ended. You just let it be as it is.

Love this Shahd!!!❤️❤️❤️

I love that you no longer participate in the race of catching up with life,praying i liberate myself to my own pace as well

I can definitely relate to your ramblings, like I'd think you were reading my mind. So very comforting to have someone else voice these things, so I feel a little more connected and on the right path xx

I️ needed to hear this, thank you!

Omg I just love her ❤️❤️❤️

It wasn’t unhinged, it made perfect sense 🤍

Wow @shahd I hope you know how beautiful and necessary what you’re doing here is! Maybe you have an idea of where you want this to go, maybe you don’t. But either way thank you for showing up ❤

Oh Shahd, I can't articulate how much I've missed watching your videos over the years.

So calm and Authentic. Masha Allah ❤

Allahumma barik.

I get your thoughts so well omg.

Intellectualizing emotions can actually get you so far if you are able to connect the dots. One specific emotion felt during a precise moment when intellectualized can help you resurface past events( with the help of some critical thinking techniques) and lead you to deal with issues at hand with better understanding of where your feelings are coming from.

This is a piece of art 🥹❤️ love it keep it up

the Ted talk was gooodd!!!!!! 😂😂😂😂

Wow Shahd please share more of your thoughts , I loved this ❤

this might be my fav video of yours. Really spoke to me. Fomo has made me waste so much time, still is. And what you described is exactly why I can't journal regularly, I'll do it once a few months in an angry/emotional moment but can't do it regularly cuz it really is just me intelectualizing everything and not doing a damn thing to change my life over and over again. Like it always remind me that I actually have no problems being self aware and that I really understand myself and yet my behavior hasn't changed in a decade, I just end up hating myself in the moment.

I love how the videos are getting longer with seconds ❤

❤Welcome back 😍I love your videos very much I love you too You are my source of inspiration, Shahd ❤

Thank you for the realness ❤

I love this new youtube of yours

6:20 absolutely!

Love your videos! Thank you for sharing!

Back here again love this so much

Shahd I'm so happy to see you back on here ☺Welcome back ✨

You are so beautiful and peaceful, you can't even imagine hw much I lv your kind of person

journaling brings out a vulnerability that we find comfort in, but the levels of self-awareness it makes us reach can deter us from diving deeper. i've always been one to know exactly how and why i got myself into a situation, and i journal the entire process from start to end, yet wonder how it's possible my emotions are still as extreme every time when i find myself in the same scenarios over and over again. there's a predictability that maybe in some way we want to stay in touch with. because we might just want the insight, without wanting to put it to use. i guess we have all the answers, and just keep coming up with new questions for ouselves.

i love listening to you !! If you made podcast i would listen 24/7

Okay so this vlog looks like a fairytale,very calm and interesting Mashallah ❤🥰keep it up xx

I can't wait for more videos

I’m in love with this particular content. So motivated and inspirational

The fear of missing out is useless!

You're vidoes are very soothing. I also totally get the two voices thing- for me one of the voices is like my hurt self and the other is my higher self.

new fav youtuber eyugh

what a beautiful video!

If you and I were friends we’d drive each other crazy with our thought processes and analogies.😆 My life outside my house passes by observing, I barely speak unless necessary. However, when I feel safe and comfortable I can’t stop talking, and question everything, but then answer myself lol. I can’t comprehend how I can have such different personalities, actually I’m the same within but my expression depending on environment is such a contrast. It was really refreshing watching your video x

Gurl! Love the video but loving more your prayer mat, where is it from? wish you the most soul healing Ramadan ever

Thank you for sharing your thoughts ❤

Salam aleyki ! Thank you for sharing your thought w/ us ! I love this more profound type of content. Take care❤

love you❤

My pace is my pace ❤

Yes!

I just found your channel and wow you are so beautiful. Your thoughts are beautiful, your words are beautiful, your expression is beautiful.

Shahd you really need to start a podcast honestly I would love to hear you speak

Shahd comparing herself to the obnoxious tv character had me on the floor, I did not expect that

Hello from Ethiopia ✋ love your channel❤

Longer vlogs please!❤️🥹

Ma sha Allah. Like the hijab❤

Do I know nothing or do I know everything... Wow!!!

It's the inner voice that you need to deal with and don't tell anyone about it and don't follow the Nagative that comes with it Shukran

omg please start a podcast!!! i would listen to it 24/7🫶🏻🫶🏻🤍

You are very mature for ur age ❤. We love u for ET 🇪🇹

That’s exactly how I feel about my twenties I am so extreeeeme 😅

where is the ring with the coins from!!!!!!

Thank you for sharing this amazing thought which I found it describes my twenties tooo 🎉❤ how old are you 😊

Love you ...from Uganda

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When you say work, what do you do?

I don't know why you think what you said was unhinged; this is my internal dialogue. Oh well, If I'm wrong, then I guess we both sound unhinged.

i clicked so quick what?!

Listening to your gut is valid unless you have anxiety or mental illness in which case your gut can be your worst enemy and, a lot of the times, completely irrational

Loving your content

8:30 !!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Your videos are top tier ما شاء الله

I love you walhi sis dont go again please i miss you shada ❤❤❤❤❤❤❤❤❤❤❤❤❤❤❤❤❤❤❤❤❤❤❤❤❤❤❤❤❤❤❤❤❤❤❤❤❤❤❤❤❤❤

I miss u girl ❤ i would rsndomly come here search ypur name 😢

00:48 2023?

Please keep up the consistency you truly have a gift with this 🤍