I don't have any disorder but I can relate a bit. I'm an introvert. When I've been around people for too long, I'm starting to lose focus and just be inside of my head. Social activities requires efforts that needs a lot of energy. when I'm finally alone, all of the tiredness just gone. Everything physically and mentally get replenishes.

Yeah same I'm 27 and as I get older it's getting worse and after each kid lol. It's hard for me to like other parent's or to even see old friends, I'm not going to lie I have to put up a front so I don't seem so depressing.. Extremely draining when I go out to even see family outside my home. So I try not to go out, the pandemic is a blessing and a curse.

I understand

I have OCD too and I have a big thing about being a private person and not having too many friends and I have a limit on family visits before I go off and need some alone time. My body literally can feel the emotions of others to where i have to get away from everyone to find my own feelings and meditate calm so my body doesn't get stressed if there is too much energy from others or vibes. It's called empathy, people on the spectrum are born with it. I also have aspergers which is high functioning autism and add which is why being made to pay attention to others too long and not being in my own world or space...really bothers me naturally, like my body is responding to my add, if I am around people too long and don't get a break. my OCD shoots sky high up in the air and it's a nightmare for me inside while I am smiling and walking on egg shells around others to please them hoping I don't offend anyone, although it too depends on if I am with a comfortable good friend and good energy who I can trust and be myself around when technically they are emotionally connected to my emotions inside my head or a toxic person who wants my attention and I have to get away from so that stuff doesn't go inside me emotionally and set off my OCD. I get compulsions like repetitive actions which I call "over checking an action you do" and repeat it till you are convinced you did it right, up to maybe 10 times or more before you can make yourself stop and also I get unwanted thoughts that repeat in my brain and don't go away all because of being overstimulated from stress from others which triggers this OCD. My condition is bad and I used to have it much worse until I learned to set boundories and levels I allowed into my life from others so I could keep my mind sane. The less well say annoying people the better. Just a few friends or family is fine with me when life is adventurous enough. You've gotta be strong for your sanity and your happiness.

My sister stole my identity and now we have a court ordered no contact order. :)

@@babybirdsammi6506 That is terrible. So sorry that happened to you.

My little sister and i had this type of bond before she started taking medication for epilepsy. The meds changed her personality and now she's really distant. She doesn't want hugs and she doesn't wanna talk. I still feel like my little sister from a few years ago is dead...

@@babybirdsammi6506 Such a horrible thing.. Wish you all the best!

@@marsendee I am so sorry that you’re going through. It must be so painful for you. I also feel terrible for your sister and her condition that is robbing both of you of the loving bond that you all once shared. Sending prayers and hugs for a miracle. I hope you have family that you can speak with about this and that will listen with understanding and empathy as well. 💜💜

Our parents are absolutely amazing, and we are so grateful that they have taken our issues seriously. they are truly admirable, and I want to be just like them when I am a parent one day!

@@amberworley5703 What is OCD? Is that the BIOLOGICAL NEW CHRONIC REPROGRAMING OF THE SLOW HARD PSYCHICAL TELEPATHY who are CHEMICALS IN THE GENETIC DNKA who is the NEW SPIRITUAL PSYCHOLOGICAL NEUTRAL EVOLUTION UNCHANGING WAY OF THE YOUR EMOTIVE NATURAL HACKING TO your REAL SCARIEST future?🤔🤔🤔🤔Is the biological genetical OCD ,slow hard infinite neutral evolution OF THE REAL FUTURE NATURAL REACTIVE TELEPATHY???🙄🙄🙄🙄Then WHY is the OCD CHRONIC BRAIN SLOW GARD UNCHANGING DISORDER,when mabye OCD is the INFINITE EVOLUTIONAL REPROGRAMING OF THE MULTIDIMENSIONAL GENETICAL NATURE in the Human's bio phys dna?😌😌😌😌

@@amberworley5703you are a remarkable young woman! You and your sister. Your musical talent is also quite impressive!

4 is my number as well xx

@dachshunds channel Wow. Compulsions and intrusive thoughts are extremely hard to ignore, by their very nature. It’s very difficult to explain to someone who hasn’t experienced. You wouldn’t believe some of the compulsions we fight to ignore... Its a legitimate mental illness.

​@dachshunds channel hey! thanks for asking so politley! i understand your point but here are some reasons why this voice is hard to ignore. first of all people with ocd are considered neurodivergent, not just anyone gets ocd only a certain type of person can and this is why its harder for some people to control this voice also, this means that most of us with ocd have actual ly and will actually have it our whole lives! ive been having thoughts like these before i even knew what ocd was so they were already normalized in my head. my second point is that actually most of us do ignore these thoughts a lot of the time i have my ocd under control and i cant actually remember the last time i have listened to a thought people with ocd really do fight to the bitter end to ignore these but sometimes it gets too much. also there are different types pf thpughts eg. if your brain was telling you if you dont do this your friend will die youd probably just do it right? a lot of the time our brains genuinley convince us this stuff is going to happen and that fate is in our hands and as much as id like to fight those thoughts if ive been made to think that something is all down to me then i just feel like i need to do it and that flicking a light switch a few times etc is better than this really bad thing that my brain is telling me will happen. sometimes my brain might tell me im contaminated eg this has been here and touch this thats been there and youve touched this etc and i feel if i dont scrub my hands im contaminated with whatever germ ithink its touched, this is very hard to ignore as ive convinced myself im contaminated germy etc if i dont wash my hands. or sometimes its just if i dont do something ill be thinking about it for hours and i cantdo anything else until ive sorted it eg the number thing. hope this helped

4 and five are mine (i am not diagnosed and i am not self diagnosting)

its definitely not fun to live with and im sorry you have to explain it so often we definitely both test eachothers ocd and push the limits but I get what you mean at the end of the day I have someone who gets it and I hope you find that person but you are so strong

Born with it? Are we?

@@wxfflecones1127 yeah. I didn't know till my psychiatrists told me. My mom has it, my baby sister has it, my moms mom had it and her sister. Not all ocd is genetic though

@@sierrahjmartinez6703 oh wow i didnt realise that your we're born with it and also im sorry that you and your family have to go through it too but atleast you have eachother i wish you the best

Sierrah j Martinez I can so relate!!! I get the same thing from some family!!! My parents continually ask me the same stupid questions when they know I have OCD. It's so frustrating and I have. to live with them since I am on SSI. .I also have a genious sister who is good at everything she does which drives me crazy and lets you know it. She has tried to fix me for years with precise logic and common sense of what normal people do and put down my OCD problems even in front of my nieces and nephews as children to discourage my need to do my patterns but I never gave in since she didn't know that the world was full of different and normal people everywhere who all deserved that same amount of respect for who they are. when OCD is real!!! So it is ok to be different, our minds are the way they are but with the right diet, they can be amazing at things that the normal people could never do. I am gifted in all areas of creativity and can feel peoples emotions when I am around them since I also have aspergers which is high functioning autism that makes me empythetic and I also have ADD. But none of it stops me from keeping my dignity in making myself better even with OCD. Sorry my message is so long but I have a lot to share from my experience having OCD and tips I have done that help to keep it at bay if you need any info. I also practice daily so when people are around me, I can hide my patterns I need to do ....where I can ....and have some dignity. It's true that it's so not right that people have to go through this. Since I know as one of them, I like to help others like me wherever I can and pass info on things I have done. Here's a short story of me first. . I will tell my Mom that my skin hurts from touching a liquid or soup if I get something on my skin that needs to be cleaned off and she never feels anything most of the time if she tries it and thinks it's my OCD talking. No...our bodies skin is... different. everybody has a different body and needs different treatment. My sisters have done things to me too and I get embarrassed all the time and gotten intimidated to be around them too long because of it but a lot of them are on the spectrum and have OCD in different ways so ....I get to tell them, it's not just me..... I've learned so much about turning things around and also finding ways to make my OCD habbits useful in a practical way both for doing ....around people... and for crisis situations that normal people wouldn't even know how to do or think of. Some of my friends have been very astounded in the past on how I take emergencies so much lighter than them, since I am a walking emergency trainer for myself. For example, with covid season, I have gone with a plan I've been using for years as "my normal", carrying wipes around when I leave the house so I never have to worry about...germs, using sanitizer spray I now do too for time I normally should use one,, like a problem with mice, which I had in my bedroom at the time, yes I am alive and still sane! I servived by googling solutions to overwhelming situations ...;like that....and broke things down into steps, peace by peace to bring the victory home. I learned to make my tasks smaller before the OCD compulsions start coming like with my laundry. Do what you can mentally handle with the amount of clothes. If you have too many, get ride of things instead of hording. (grin) Things like that. And around people do things that show you are way smarter then you let on. Do your OCD therapy and work plan homework to balance how long to perfom one task before you mind takes over and tells you what to do. That's what has helped me. Knowledge is power is my motto whenever you are met with a health condition or mental health condition you cannot control, do some self research and find your own conclusions that can turn things around and make you feel good about yourself, that is one of the steps they tell you to do in keeping OCD at bay, is to have a good self image with yourself. Do some therapy with your mind like meditation for example. I do that and I also hike around nature. Look up forest bathing which is huge for helping to get rid of mental illness. Make you your priority and make others take you seriously. You are just as worthy of respect as a normal person. One of my other sisters has OCD and is a Mom and works but she is a spitfire good looking Woman who is not completely controlled by her condition since she has a lot of things she has to do and be available for to survive. She has a great self image and disapplines her mind non stop so her OCD is under her thumb not the other way around. She is very high to support respect for others including people like us. You could join an awareness group that supports people with OCD. and also get ideas of what they do that helps the patterns to be not needed. The thing I've ran into is, if i am inputing too much of one thing into my mind and am not excersizing or balancing what I let into myslef no matter what it is...that patterns or compulsions or whatever version of OCD that forms..comes. I have done a ton of research on my end including food for OCD and what not to eat if you have OCD. It's all been a good journey and it is my pleasure to share this info with you. Hope this encourages you. I still get stuck in my patterns at times but that is usually if I am like I said not taking care of my body and balancing my time with different things. Self disappline on your own daily is a huge healer for OCD habbits but the key is that it has to be you and you looking awesome to yourself. So you listen. I am much stronger than I was when I was younger. A good balance with your food excersize and every day life choices is the key to stopping OCD. Lots of self disappline. Not from others, from you. Your body and mind are your project to fix. You are your own coach. What you put into you mentally, fisically and spiritually effect your performance and behaviors. This is how I got better. With my little niece V who has more OCD than me,....we do this. With V she likes patterns of doing the same thing in order every time she visits and we have special times together. So....we try this now, don't do too much of one task. No addiction to doing the same thing in order every time. Change and doing other things too are good, no patterns. disappline change. Love change, .embrace change. Change is exciting. of course I don't completely tell her this, we just do it and make it fun. Her Mom loves it.

haha we definitely do feed off eachother (not meaning to) but we are super close which is why that happens and we both help eachother through it all. shes the reason I'm in a good place today.

Too late. I think that is exactly what happened.

awww im sorry its definitely not easy and it isn't always perfect but you are so strong. I hope you are doing well

she does this everyday and there are sometimes quite funny ones too.

I'm bipolar, and I do that tapping too. I do it on my collarbones, and it's very soothing.

Actually, stimming is different... often not thought about. A person rocks, flaps/moves hands or arms, taps or moves or wiggles fingers, moves or taps the legs/feet, wiggles, things like that. I know as I was born autistic (also developed bipolar, anxiety as toddler, have mild OCD, and now more mental/physical issues)

Yes I noticed that too! I tend to tap my collarbones and the top of my head but other stims as well

Amen! Moving out made me go bonkers with my control issues and anxiety but opening up to my husband and talking to him has helped him understand and in turn, he's helped me with a lot.of my issues. Slowly getting better with a lot of things but it'll always be a struggle. 33, GAD, OCD and depression. It's awesome to have others you feel you can connect to. Makes you feel less odd

I'm 29 and have been realizing only in the last couple years that 1. There is help for OCD and 2. Just how much it has affected/controlled my day to day life. I remember it getting bad around 8 years old and I just...didn't know kind of that it was something that I could get help with, if that makes sense. When I started seeing a psychiatrist when I was 15 it was for ptsd and then I just sort of didn't know I could also ask for help with OCD? Idk obviously ocd isn't very logical so maybe it stands to reason the response/thoughts around help are also not logical lol Anyway I didn't know about exposure response therapy until last year and haven't been able to afford it but only JUST last week found out "oh hey I may not have ocd itself but moreso Tourettic OCD" and I've been going back and forth between being "oh holy crap it all has a name- finally!" and "holy crap this is...wtf...it's not what I thought it was for all these years?!" I always thought these physical compulsions were just...part of ocd. That when I talked to/heard others talking about their symptoms and the ones that I experience with needing to re-do how my feet/hands touch things, NEEDING to blink or breathe a certain way if I read or say certain words, etc was just like a "given"/obvious part of ocd so no one else ever mentioned it? Again the logic isn't, well, logical 😂 but hey I've only started really researching the last year or so. Anyway idk if any of this is really relatable to you but I saw the "29" and read a bit and being 29 myself figured I'd share some of my story in case it helps you or anyone else feel a bit less alone or overwhelmed. Brains are weird but amazing and we are all badass! 💜

@@sempressfi I only realized I wasn’t crazy once, and showing our age here, MTV aired the show, “True Life” and had an OCD episode. I was identical to those people! I knew I had OCD, but didn’t know all the irrational stuff that I was going through, was part of it. The hands/feet having to feel a certain way when touching something is me 100%. Omg. The amount of times I have to go back and “correct” it, followed by making it even and doing the same with the other foot/hand!? Ah!!! Haha An obstacle I doubt I’ll ever get past. Even things like putting socks on is so hard. Socks are identical, but I can’t figure out which should go on which foot, and if I make the wrong choice, I could get really sick, die, or have a generally terrible day. Like. How do you explain to someone without OCD? I’ve never had therapy for it, and I always refuse it. I had to have therapy for suspecting conversion disorder, and my OCD came up, but I told her I love my ocd, because it makes me who I am. I am a perfectionist, I’m clean, orderly, and organized to the max, and a have an outstanding work performance because of it. I feel like it protects me too (like. Imagine crossing a street. I’m going to look both ways five times, and then the entire time I’m crossing) I’m fortunate to have managed it on my own over the years, and love who I am because of it! I could honestly list more pros to OCD than cons. Perspective is key☺️

I'm very grateful my family is undertaking it took time it wasn't always like this its been a longggggg road and a learning experience for all of us but we hope that sharing our story helps others.

awww thank you so much. I'm glad you enjoyed and we love you too

Me as well!

he deals with it pretty well and is a huge part of the journey. just being filmed and on tv wasn't really something he wanted to do but him and my mum from my perspective do often agree or have a similar mindset on the situation

Awwe thank you, we definitely try to work as a team, and my dad is a HUGGGEEE part of my journey, and we wish we could've shown that a bit more, but it just wouldn't work out!

I'm glad you enjoyed and it was cool to share our experiences with mental health tho its different for everyone its nice knowing that people are feeling less alone. xx

I hope she heals❤️

I can be that sister 🙌🏾

awww its definitely nice having someone to help you through but you are so strong and nice you and your mum are close I hope you are doing well.

thank you so much and it definitely isn't easy but we are both at a point where its just life and you roll with it someday aren't good but we make the most of the good ones and remember them and support eachother on the bad days. I hope you are doing well and you are doing amazing

awww thank you its taken time to get her but its made it worth it being able to be happier and even help others go through a similar situation. I hope you have and amazing day and thanks for the lovely comment

thank you so much I hope your daughter is doing better now as to managing her mental health. its definitely a journey seeing what works and how to make it better but always come out stronger for it

@@ellarobinson9059 🙏💞

The best medicine - it has helped us on more occasions than I can count.

awhh thats great to hear, thank you!

Here I am again. ^^ Let‘s see how long I can keep this comment chain going. :D

@@Omenie_ HAHA love it, so glad you are still enjoying this!

Whoops, I‘m back again! :) Happy Summer 2023!

Yep, its called exposure therapy. Some of my behaviours have been completely diminished by using this strategy! others though, have been so severe that there seems to be no end to them!

it was definitely a struggle managing that one but when my ocd was bad ambers wasn't and now hers is bad mines not as bad and I think part of me getting better was every now and again those pushed did help.

the joys of mental illnesses. hope you are doing well and good job xx

Same here :)

Thank you Liz zy. Just because I haven't as yet, doesn't mean I haven't wanted to! I am human, and it's not always easy....

hi Liz zy . Amber's dad here. I hope things get better there with your mum, there's a lot for everyone to understand and generally accept so not easy for anyone. Sometimes people just want to avoid the issue because too hard to face. Hope you have other people you can talk with in the meantime.

@@tararobinson747 Hi Tara, I hope you and your family are doing well. I am touched by Amber's story. I am wishing you the best! Also, I would like to know what therapy Amber has been attending? Thank you so much. Take care.

@@kentalquino8239 I underwent a therapy called CBT (cognitive behavioural therapy), 1-2 times a week for a few years, where they focused on teaching me strategies for OCD and anxiety behaviours

thank you so much, Amber. You are indeed a brave person! Good luck on your journey and continue to bring joy to your loved ones. :)

yes it is an original song that Ally (my extremely talented best friend) and I wrote together!

@@amberworley5703 Well. You guys are really talented. When are you going to put it out on some platform? Please share the music. People will definitely appreciate it. Best of luck to both of you :)

@@amberworley5703 I had a bad day today and this video made me feel better. You are so inspiring and would be such a cool, fun friend to have. Keep being you, you’re amazing and beautiful. Also, I agree, the song that you and your friend wrote is so so good, and I wish I could listen to the full thing!

@@amberworley5703 Then who is the man's voice? Is it uploaded anywhere so we can listen to it - it's beautiful x

@@amberworley5703 beautiful song

Yes, it is a tic disorder, very similar to Tourettes.

haha yes I do

Cope up*

hi! so sorry for the very late response! I guess over the years I have learnt to cope by using multiple different strategies. There have been countless challenges that I have had to overcome, but have learnt to be grateful for those, as in hindsight i have learnt that those challenges have ultimately taught me so many things, and given some fabulous opportunities. I was in therapy for a few years where i was taught certain strategies to overcome some anxiety and OCD behaviours, but the biggest (and yet still to this day the most challenging - but most helpful) way to cope in the long run has been exposure therapy. (where i challenge and front up to my OCD behaviours, and after time, learning to be more rational, and not catastrophising . Hope this helps! thanks for watching :)

thank you for your response, Amber. I highly appreciate it. I am glad to know that you are handling yourself well. I may not experience your struggles, but I can see how much you are loved by the people who surround you. Continue to grow as a beautiful person. Take care always :)

Indeed. Thank you Tessa !

thank you so much we definitely have moments but we know we have to be there for eachother and it has brought us closer together.

Watching someone go through this is NOT beautiful.

​@@TheWendable I meant the video, the edition of it and care they have with this family, made me cry

@@Supertaaaaam um...yes I get you now ...it was poignant.

if your son does have it at least he'll have someone that understands him and he's not facing his journey alone. best wishes

@@julesworley7749 yess indeed.. wen he do his work, he keeps erasing it until he 'gets it right'.. I watch him suffer... I jus tell him don't worry about it, it looks good, let it be, etc.. he looks at me like noooo its not right. It's a struggle.. and thnk u!

ye s a m e

most can I mean tics will just come out with whatever but no at this point I dont think she's had any secrets come out and sometimes even if something was said you can often kinda just be like oh its a tic

I know for myself i am an extremely good secret keeper (part of my OCD and anxiety is actually surrounding keeping trust with others!. Due to this I have never ticced someone else's secrets, but I sure have let out a few of my own secrets!

Anyway! Apart from all that - this was a great documentary. I really feel for the whole family. Despite your struggles, you seem to be doing really well. Wish you the best of luck on your journeys!

I think they wrote it together

Yep, that is an original of me and Ally!

they are easy to pick up from others and they have been to camp together aswell as watching her videos

LILLLLYYYYY ilyyyyy

Hi there lily and amber, I'm new here