Edit: RIP Byron If you are struggling with depression or suicidal thoughts, PLEASE talk to someone. You are not alone and you can get through this. In honour of Reckful, please keep moving forward. Edit2: I felt the need to say a few words about Reckful regarding this documentary as well as apologize about my unfair portrayal of Mitch Jones kzfaq.info/get/bejne/e6uea9ucu9PeiGw.html

I'm glad you made this video so his legacy will never be forgotten RIP Reckful

Rest in peace Reckful, content creation wouldn't be as it is now without you ❤🙌❤

"What do you do when a champion falls? You pick up his sword and you fight" - Dr. K RIP Reckful

I feel bad for his dad, the losses he has had to go through, unimaginable.

I didn't know him, did not see any of his streams, did not know who he was until today and still I watched the whole thing to try to understand why this happened to him. Thank you for this video.

There is no way his father is a healthy person today, no matter who you are, losing not one but two sons to suicide must absolutely break and hollow a man out completely.

I never knew reckful. Watching this made me like the guy and was looking forward to watching his content...and that I did not expect that. R.I.P I can only imagine what his family is going through especially his father 😞

Damn I just sat here for an hour and a half and watched this without even knowing who recktful was and that was beautiful

i feel so much for his parents right now.... they have lost 2 sons to suicide. i cant cant even imagine. Rest In Peace Byron, thank you for everything. you will be missed

I cried, smiled, had continuous laughter with this man I followed his passion, his career, everything, all online and somehow he feels like a friend, always by his side :) edit: I can't believe he died... surreal, rest easy bro

I've been a father for 4 months now.... and the part where Byron read his dad's book really got to me, had me crying for that poor man and his family, hope I can be a good father to my baby girl and protect her of this hostile world. Ty very much for all your work Slush, I only knew Reckful from a few twitch clips and videos but this was amazing to watch

That "hell yeah" soundbite made that situation less dark

The loss of a brother, of a son...it was so difficult to hear Reckful talk about that. It seems to me like that inescapable void of depression and sorrow almost drove Reckful to his own end, but out of that darkness came the shining light of his career and ambitions. Difficulty on that level changes people. Its up to us how we face it. Keep moving forward. I know how hard you’ve been working on this and how important this video has been to your own life Sam, Im so glad you finally get to share it with the world. I think Reckful would like it too.

the best documentary about a streamer/twitch-personality I have ever seen! Saw it on Nymn's stream and the whole chat was clapping in the end!

You dont want to die, You just want the pain to go away - RIP Reckful, Be at peace now bro

Damn that clip of him reading the passage from his dads book is hard to get through, especially knowing what happened after.

I feel so bad for his dad, losing two sons to suicide. It must be heartbreaking.

RIP reckful, that passage at 1:09:20 by his father makes me so so so sad :( To have another son gone I can't imagine what will happen to him and his mind

Killed me when he was reading his fathers book about the experience and emotions his father was going through post his brothers suicide. That is fucking brutal, hearth twistingly brutal.

I honestly didn't know much about Reckful before his death. I feel like its almost insulting to him to check him out only now, but this documentary was amazing. It left me in tears by the end. Again, I don't know him, but he seemed like an honest, genuine, kind person. I hope that his family is doing alright dealing with this. RIP Bryon.

Can’t believe this is real. Went through severe depression and when I felt like trying to get better I used to watch his streams. He helped me so much. I am devastated he didn’t deserve this, he was such a beautiful soul, he just needed our help. Rest In Peace Byron. 💔

Excellent video Slush. Engaging narrative and it's clear you put time, effort, and heart into the content. You painted a colorful picture with plenty of detail to relate to Byron.

I didn't know anything about Reckful, i just got randomly reccomended into a clip of his last moments on stream and this video followed straight after. The part where he tells HealthyGamer that he was feeling great hit me so hard. I had a similar experience to this specific point, where a few months before i got the closest to taking my life i actually was the happiest i ever remember being. Watching he say he was feeling great, knowing how it ended, the words in my mind were just "The peak before the fall". I wanted to understand what happened to him, but i didn't expect to start crying while watching this video. Sorry for venting out about my own experience like this, just felt like here is the only place this thoughts can have any context.

I think a lot people will watch this in the later half of 2020 after Byron's passing, and think that Slush, or someone else, should make a new version of this looking at his death as well, since this video was made 3 months before it. In my opinion, this video's timing and content will forever be the perfect culmination of Byron's story that we were allowed to see from him. Yes he passed away soon after this video, but I think this video not having his ending is how it should be. We shouldn't fixate on his death. We should discus it and learn from it, but not watch it as we watched his life. This video honor's the life he lived more than an updated video showing his death.

It breaks my heart that his parents have now lost two of their three sons in suicides... god the pain. If only I can give a hug to them.

Thank you so much for doing this video. I sadly never heard of him before. Started to watch this video just to get an idea of him but couldn't stop till the end. What a person. Gone way too soon. RIP Byron. Sending all the prayers and love to his family and friends. So sad!

My older brother just recently killed himself. It's been 4 months. Every day I think about the situation...what I could of done to make him better. My anger and rage has become worse than ever...I snap on everything. I don't want to see the rest of my family. In fact I'd be alright with not seeing them anymore. Their all just abunch of bullshit. I've become reclusive. Like a spider.

I don't even know him and i'm crying, Rest in Peace Byron, wish i could've gotten to know you more than i do now. You will be missed

Finally finished it. I don't even watch Reckful, but damn this was such a good watch.

I was an old viewer of his stuff I watched him from the goblins vs gnomes update to hearthstone all the way to the game of Jones and a little bit of the travelling stuff, watching this made me want to tweet out to him to tell him how much of an amazing and inspiring person he really was. I feel like there’s a hole in my chest knowing he’s passed away. Rest In Peace Byron, you reminded me to live my life to the fullest back then and I’ll take that lesson again now

one of the biggest reasons I stream, is because it honestly helps my depression, wether i have 1 viewer or no viewers in a day the fact sharing something i do with potentially anybody and everyone who wants to come see makes me feel better. honestly i never seen one Reckful stream but i heard about him and his struggles.... I have thought about some stuff. however sometimes you just don't realize how much your missed or impact people until its too late, and then you dont have a chance to see it!

I had a friend of mine who killed himself. He was obviously at the lowest point of his life and felt that he had no other choice so that's what he did. He wanted to escape his own mind. The weight of his thoughts became to much for him to bear. It wore him down year after year and day after day until one day last year he had enough and he took his life in a room all by himself. The ripple effect that his death created was huge. It affected everyone who knew him. It changed people's lives forever. I often wonder if was able to have a preview of the aftermath his death created if he would have made a different choice that morning. If he could have seen how many people cared about him maybe it would have been enough to stop him from pulling that trigger. I wear a bracelet with his name on it every day. This bracelet and memories are all that myself and a lot of others have left of him. I know that the struggles of depression are real. I have experienced them myself and continue to do so, but my hope is that someone who is going through a similar struggle reads this and realizes how many people do care about you. And if they were to lose you it would destroy them in ways that you cannot imagine. It isn't worth it and there is always an alternative. Talk to someone and don't try and take it all on by yourself and bottle it all up inside because it will eat you alive. RIP Byron. I never personally met you, but you had a positive impact on thousands of people who watched you.

In my 21 years of life, Reckful's death has been the only "celebrity" death ever that has made me cry my eyes out and caused me to be completely incapacitated with grief. And I never even met the guy. His stream taught me a lot and without a doubt thousands of other people too. He will always be remembered we will miss you Byron. RIP. I miss him already

watching this reminded me of all the tough times and good times watching his streams got me through. all throughout middle school, high school, and now college. i've spent hundred if not thousands of hours watching his stream and then falling asleep to them. Thank you Byron i miss you. thank you

Thank you so much for putting in the time and effort of making this video. Had me in tears multiple times.

Never have i really cared about a celebritys death. But this was heartbreaking.. Especially having seen this documentary a few months before. Scenes from when Reckful is reading straight out of his Fathers book, talking about Byron's brothers suicide, kept playing in my mind as I was processing Byron's passing.. Absolutely fucking sobbing when I think of all the things he's done, good and bad, and now he's just gone. The one thing that keeps me at bay is that I know that he is happy now, he is finally free from his demons. I think a lot of us who have watched Reckful for a long time felt really close to him without actually knowing him. Rest in peace, Reckful. I will re-watch this documentary in honor of you.

One of the best youtube videos i've ever watched.

Damn, the way Reckful acts towards his EX-GF reminds me of myself. i did something similar to my ex of 5 years. 3 years later and there isn't a day i dont regret my decicions. eventhough he was depressed and he commited suicide, there was an aspect of self destruction. and that aspect of your personality is hard for people to handle, since it is up to you to control it. that being said, i know exactly what he is going through, it is like looking in a mirror seeing this video... Rest in peace, not alot of people will understand what you endured but you are no longer in pain. . .

I've been watching Byron since 2010 and you did an excellent job of showing his life unfold through streaming. His death has left so many of us with a piece of our hearts gone. I hope he knew the impact he had on all of us, and how much he helped those of us going through rough times of our own. Rest easy, Reckful. The world will not forget you.

He is someone I cried with laughed with and just had a lot of memories with. Sad to see someone with such an impact go and never really being able to find peace with himself. Rest in Peace Byron You touched many of our lives.

I've never heard of this guy before but today my Twitter TL was just spammed about what happened... That's why I came onto this video... the whole story made soo speechless... especially since I knew the end before.... RIP Byron

This was incredible, Slush. Stunning and brilliantly written and narrated. Your storytelling got me hooked from the jump and got me to tear up a couple times. Well done. 10/10 ! First time viewer and now, longtime fan.

Man, I fucking cried by the end. This guy seemed insanely real, highs and lows, good times and painful mistakes. Wish he'd stuck around, sounds like he was a positive influence on the world. Feel awful for his father too, hope that guy is okay. Christ the pain he must be going through. R.I.P Byron.

1:21:02 "i think you are talking about being alone i think you are talking about being abandoned................." i heard about reckful before but never watched him because i was not interested in the games he played .but after watching this video and reading something about his story i can see how much i can relate to him. I was abandoned by my father when i was 6 years old and because of that i suffered a terrible trauma that lasted many years and made me fall into a huge depression and three suicide attempts.I had nobody and i felt abandoned and alone, i loved my father so much when i was a kid and sometimes i wondered what did i do wrong? , why did this have to happen to me? .Eventually i realized the problem was me and i had to fight against these negative feelings , and i did it and prevailed. now i feel better and even though i had some negative thoughts , they are not as serious as before. I am sorry to hear about what happened to Reckful , that mental battle was too hard for him . living with depression is the worst thing ever . Rip Reckful .

Damn that ending was so hopeful, yet here we are.

This was a really good way to honor him. Reckful was an amazing guy. Excellent video.

Thank you very much for this high quality documentary, I didn't know this person and I didn't know how much he has done for the world and went through. I'm really sad that there are people like him and suffer so much because of unchangeable events. I also fought depression for long time, but my problems are nowhere near what Byron and his family had to go through. I hope all the people with this kind of struggle can find happiness. Rest in peace Byron, I know even in afterlife you must struggle, stay strong. I hope your family will recover from the loss.

I grew up watching Byron, and listening to him read his dad's book crushed my soul. Edit: RIP Byron, you will never know how many people cared about you man.

@1:09:00 when Bryon reads his dads passage about his brothers suicide is heart breaking.... rip to both of them, i hope they have no more pain

It's so strange this feeling... I have been a fan of his videos for many many years. I did not saw a single stream of him on Twitch or i ever met him in person but some weeks ago i saw this video of him and Dr.K and i started to follow Reckful's news in order to see if he was doing better on his depression. Days later.... With an overwelming feeling and great sadness received the news of his suicide and i am great affected for this since then... and i know he's not gonna read this, but i need to put this out cuz people need to know how great he was and that he was doing of this world a better place. Rest in Peace, Champion. You will be for ever remembered.

Thank you. This was so good, and I really live the fact that you focused on only his life. struggles and all but LIFE. I had heard of Reckful, but honestly didn't know anything about him until I watched this. Amazing work

Opening this video i was just curious as i heard before that nickname "Reckful" and i use twitch from time to time so i know a little bit of popular streamers, but i never saw any of his streams, so i thought maybe it would be an interesting video and holy shit i did find the holy grail of youtube. I want to thank you for this rollercoaster of emotions i felt, for all the work, effort and time you put into creating this masterpiece documentary film. The edit, the music choice, the narration, you just nailed everything. The production of this video is so freaking high. Thank you, mr. Slush. Keep on doing the good work and i'll see you at 1m subs.

Hold up, let me get the popcorn. Edit: Didn't know much about Reckful before this, the way you unravelled his story was totally captivating. Great video!

Getting all the info, merging it together, planning it correctly, narrating it flawlessly. The work it must have taken. I enjoyed it and thank you.

"If there is one thing we can take away from Reckful it is to keep moving forward!" Uh oh...

I was recently feeling very lonely due to my lack of social skills, I'm not able to socialize well with people in real life so I barely have any friends and the ones that I have I'm not very close to. And then a couple of days ago on the day of the everland stress test I found it on steam and started playing, I fell in love with it and as soon as it finished I started looking up everything about the creator etc. And now seeing this video and the interview with that psychologist I'm simply in tears. I didn't now anything about reckful before this, but for me he's a hero.

I’ve never had any kind of “celebrity” death tear me up like this. I feel like I’ve grown up with reckful, watched him from day 1 being into the wow pvp community, followed him the whole way, and have personally struggled with a lot of the same issues Byron did. He Truly just felt like another one of my friends, and someone who I feel like everyone felt like they knew intimately because he put a lot of himself out there for others, and was always himself never fake or just using a streaming personality just Byron. Hell I remember being the one to tell him in mop that pet battle leveling is broken right now, and that’s how he went and leveled his Dk Aquaniqua. The crowning achievement of my world of Warcraft career was getting my ass absolutely farmed by him in mop and I absolutely loved every second of it RIP to an absolute legend Byron “reckful” Bernstein you will be sorely missed.

This is so well made. Thank you Slush for making this.

I Really appreciate this video because I felt that you handled the dark aspects of the story well and helped me understand him and even myself even a bit more. I've been seriously struggling with my depression since as long as I can remember and it I've also been very open about it. I've felt really alone and bad about myself the majority of my life and I'm really glad that there's people like him who don't want others to feel alone and want to connect others. It's so sad that he's gone and I didn't even know him. Just knowing that he had a similar type of internal struggle and that he wanted to help others is enough for me to care about him deeply.

Long time reckful viewer but I had never heard that exert from his fathers book. I've never cried so hard.

i never really watched his streams, and i was never really into this person but the fact that he is dead hits me like a rock. I cant stop thinking about him, his dead and the person he was. I know that he is in a better place now Rest in peace Byron. We will always remember you

thank you so much for this video. I miss reckful so much. I used to watch him a lot... he was an amazing dude!

Amazing video. Sat down for a quick break, watched the whole thing. Excellent work.

Fantastic video for real. Used to watch Reckful loads back in the day and loved this throwback!

Just stumbled upon this guy a few days ago, I wish he'd still be here. Rest in peace.

I really found a liking to watching him, hear stories about him and so much more... It was not long ago that I discovered Reckful so I do not know many many things. There is truly a lot to say. I really do not know what words to choose but for sure I wish for him that he'll rest in peace. Honestly what a time we live in.. events such as this became way too common :( Fantastic work on the video.

I've followed Reckful since early 2013, I remember most of these but I stopped watching him for 1 or 2 years, so it's nice to have a recap while I was gone, so thank you, you did an excelent job!

I really didn't see that ending coming. Amazing work you did, and a very special message and example of life that more people should see. Wonderful video, man.

I too lost my brother to suicide, so guys if you're feeling depressed or like no one out there understands you please know that there are people out there who do care and that no matter what you're going through it's not the end of the world rest in peace reckful you will be missed brother

Heartbreaking, I’ve never cried for somebody I never met before but he was so special for many of us because like Slush said, he was authentic. Thank you for all the many memories I made on your streams, thank you for the support you gave me without even knowing me or even talked to me once. The world lost a light, paradise is only more enlightened.

Fly high Byron... I’ve been battling depression for so long now. Most likely was the true reason my wife left 13 years ago and took my girls. Fast forward some years later and I’m hardly recognizable and for a short time lived on the street. There is even a man that my wife let in my children’s life who is now in prison for doing unspeakable things to them. I don’t know if I’m getting better. Fast forward to now and I’m just coming off the best year since 2007. Then Covid hits and my great job is gone. You see when you are so hurt that you actually lose your memory for periods of time just to defend yourself cause it’s own conflicts with people who care in your life. You push them away. It would be nice if at the bottom you think to call someone. But it hurts so bad to speak it out load. I didn’t know of Byron til today. I feel somehow connected to him though. This vid was a great way for me to not only get to know who he is but also to cry a little for him then for me. Also inspired me to type what I’m sure I will regret. Stay strong everyone. You are not alone. Peace, love and try not to give up. I haven’t yet. But the struggle is so terrifyingly real.☯️☮️❤️

What an amazing documentary, as a long time viewer of Byron this video really brought back some good memories. Can't wait to see what your next video will be!

this is giving me goosebumps now, man it hurts that he is gone :/ i watched so many streams and had lots of fun watching his irl streams. rest in piece byron

Amazing video Slush good job. Its really hard to watch but its also inspiring. RIP Byron much love

Brilliantly done. I've been following Byron since around when he started in 2012 so seeing it all summarized like this is fascinating. Also that Nicolas Jaar Space Is Only Noise record is awesome

i've never in my entire life seen such a great doc about a person. hats off to you Slush! Amazing work, consider me a new fan.

Not gonna lie, shed a few tears when I heard the him telling the story his father wrote.

Amazing video, so much we can learn from it. Thank you for explaining this so carefully and respectfully

This was so good! i have been a fan of Byron for years, I have loved to be a part of his life, i think alot of us see Byron as a friend when things maybe was hard and you could just log on to twitch and hang out with him. I could relate to so much about his brothers death and depression, about needing to feel fullfilled. Because my dad took his own life when i was at a young age and finding meaning in life when he could just leave me and it so easily hasn't always been so easy, but Byrons streams have always been there to cheer me up. So thank you Byron for being there, you have changed alot of peoples lifes over the years for just being you

I never realized how much I could relate to a Twitch streamer. The ending sequence hit a little too close to home. Thank you for sharing this with us, and Reckful, you have gained a fan. Best of luck to you both.

Just finished watching this on break at work. Last 20 minutes really hurt. Crying. R.i.p you have made the world a better place Byron

Reckful was by far my most favorite streamer. Just a really intelligent, funny person. It's a shame that his mind just was tortured by depression. Rest in Peace Byron.

Knowing Reckful from his stream since 2014, (his Japan streams were one of the best content I've experienced on Twitch.) But damn this hits me way harder than I imagined, especially because some of the stuff I can relate to. The passage out of his fathers book his the hardest, after leaving your family behind, the sorrow they go through, the emptiness they feel. I'm just glad there's a video like this that really explains the kind of person he was (from an outside perspective) I hope Byron can rest easy now and his family / friends get all the support they need. A sad day for all of us!

5:30 that's the Snow tribe music from Kameo: Elements of Power! one of my favorite games, underrated af. pleasant surprise hearing it

Thank you so much for this video Slush, I had gotten on WoW and my guild was telling me to go to the Cathedral Square in StormWind. As soon as I did I tried to figure out what was going on, as soon as I heard about ReckFul I had gone to twitch, youtube, and google trying to get information and saw this video after watching a bit of twitch on ReckFul's channel. Thank you so much for this video and the history. It has helped me a lot to learn about ReckFul, I wish I had known about him sooner. R.I.P Reckful (Byron) You will be missed.. and loved.

I certainly wasn't the most active Reckful viewer, I only found him when he first picked up hearthstone, and he was definitely up there as one of the top two or three streamers I watched most on twitch, even holding that place still. I always enjoyed his stream every time I tuned in, no matter what game he was play (or lack there of). The loss of Reckful is truly, truly, saddening, he was inspiring in more ways than I could ever even list. He was one of the most relatable, truthful, open, and down to earth streamers ever. And he never lost touch with who he was or what he loved the whole time. Rest in peace, you deserve every loving thought and memory we all shared with you. I wish I could say more still, but words are still hard about this. I, and the world, will miss Byron

Feels so weird knowing ill never see one of his streams again. im empty inside right now. i hope reckful is now at peace. If you feel alone please talk to someone.. even if you think its stupid and that people will not understand you. someone will always listen. feel free to msg me if you need to.

"I love Reckful, he feels like a brother to me, even though i never met him irl" so true !!! .more than 15 years!

“Feeling limitless” that’s the first sign of a manic bipolar upswing, the greater the upswing the greater the fall

This was really good. Thank you for making this.

this is excellent work, i thouroughly enjoyed it. could see u followed reckfuls life closely and cared as much as many others do.

What a greatly put up documentary on a guy who inspired me to become a streamer, like a lot others out there, years ago. It is so complete, many moments I myself forgot about his development as a streamer... The up & downs of a guy who always gave himself entirly to his stream, with only few limitations. Such a likable guy who really is easy to relate to on a lot of things. Makes me want to have a beer with him and discuss about gaming, investment, or his crazy breakup stories even though it's quite public already :D FeelsGoodMan.

slush this is such a great vid!!! I only knew reckful for his irl streams and depression. dude his crying made me cry...... that shit just slapped me across the face. hurts so much more since i know more of his life now from this vid. and the fact that he's gone pisses me tf off..... idk why man, i feel so weird for being so emotional for a guy i dont even know or been what he's been through.. thank you so much for this video. i wouldve never known if it wasnt for u. Makes things more clear and easier to cope with

Thank you for this documentary. I honestly never knew of him until I heard of his death, and the more I learned of him the more it really hit home. In February 2000, I lost my best friend and go-to gaming buddy to suicide and like many other people who have experienced this was left with so many questions and scars. My heart goes out to his family, friends and community.

He was gone to soon R.I.P Reckful

I watched this back when you first published it and I cried. I came back and watched it after finding out about his death and this helped me stop crying and find closure for my favorite streamer. He will forever live in our hearts and will never be forgotten... Btw love the support right now from the WoW community for Byron!! and thank you slush for creating this!! Long live Byron's legacy! RIP Byron

this was beautiful. thank you man. byron is a legend! will always think good things when someone mentions his name

I am watching this a couple of times each Year, always crying as soon as i see or hear Byron... Byrons stream was a safeplace for me. He was the reason i became i better person. What happened to byron just shows how cruel this world is. Thank you byron, for everything you did and still do even if you are not here with us anymore. i will always miss you.

I've just watched this today. Thanks for putting this together. RIP Byron