Fentanyl Addict interview-Colin

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Soft White Underbelly

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Soft White Underbelly interview and portrait of Colin, a fentanyl addict living on Skid Row.
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@sierramcalister4094
@sierramcalister4094 2 жыл бұрын
Colin is now officially home with his family.
@mattyp7582
@mattyp7582 2 жыл бұрын
Outstanding!
@katelynahern8074
@katelynahern8074 2 жыл бұрын
Yay!!!!!!!!!!
@alliet808
@alliet808 2 жыл бұрын
Good news ♥️
@ninapearman
@ninapearman 2 жыл бұрын
Good job!
@jcorral126
@jcorral126 2 жыл бұрын
🙏
@MikaelaMorgan459
@MikaelaMorgan459 2 жыл бұрын
Colin has been missing for months. I can't believe this is how we found him. Colin, please come home. Your life is worth living.
@erickiyoshiphillips2323
@erickiyoshiphillips2323 Жыл бұрын
I'm glad he has people who care for him enough to contact him on KZfaq. Alot of people's family don't care anymore or the individual did to much damage to then that they cut ties
@jay1k466
@jay1k466 2 жыл бұрын
This is my friend’s older brother. He’s been missing for months now, so I’m glad he’s not dead. I hope we can get him back home here. We miss you Colin just please come home bro
@blackeagle6268
@blackeagle6268 2 жыл бұрын
🙏❤️🙏
@gisselmontero2304
@gisselmontero2304 2 жыл бұрын
He seems like a nice guy... take him back home please away from the devil
@BadBoybBubby
@BadBoybBubby 2 жыл бұрын
He needs to be whilling to help him self. He seems his on the right track his just on the wrong road.
@gisselmontero2304
@gisselmontero2304 2 жыл бұрын
@@BadBoybBubby indeed
@gerardacey5124
@gerardacey5124 2 жыл бұрын
Damn... its a small world isn't it.. my prayers go out to him and his family
@CaroleMora22
@CaroleMora22 Жыл бұрын
It is amazing to come across this video and learn that this young man was found through this video and is now home with his family. This is proof that this channel is having a huge impact, even if one person's life and health are recovered, this is huge. And, no doubt, many more of them have benefitted from these interviews.
@LaurenFaulkner
@LaurenFaulkner 2 жыл бұрын
I used to work with Colin.. I remember him leaving to go back to Louisiana to see his son. He's been a missing person for some time now. His family has utilized every last resource in an attempt to find him. It's hard to see him like this but I'm so incredibly happy he's still on this earth with us. Stay with us Colin ❤️
@meghanwaterman9173
@meghanwaterman9173 2 жыл бұрын
Please contact his family right away!
@LaurenFaulkner
@LaurenFaulkner 2 жыл бұрын
@@meghanwaterman9173 they are aware! They found this video before I did.
@kingcame3777
@kingcame3777 2 жыл бұрын
Way to break confidentiality
@LaurenFaulkner
@LaurenFaulkner 2 жыл бұрын
@@kingcame3777 who?
@James-ck4bg
@James-ck4bg 2 жыл бұрын
With all respect, but I don't think it's your task to share what Colin's family is going through or whether he was missing or not. It's a very personal matter and Colin should share what he wants to share. Even if you know more than you should, it's the loyalty which makes you not share it with the whole world without Colin's permission. Now it feels like some sort of privacy violation or snitching. I hope you can understand what I mean here. Colin comes off as pretty shame sensitive. Let him share the chapters he wants to share. The rest is none of our business.
@MizugamezaSempai
@MizugamezaSempai 2 жыл бұрын
Update! Colin has made contact with a friend and Colin’s brother is planning to pick him up, bring him back to his home, and get him help!
@suntzu9037
@suntzu9037 2 жыл бұрын
I was homeless and on heroin and i kicked it. You can do it bro. I did, you can too. I used suboxone. Bought them on the street instead of dope and stayed on them until i didn't care about heroin anymore. Then weened down off the subs until eventually i stopped them too. This was a couple years ago and i have zero interest in ever touching heroin again. The longer you go without it, the less you care about it. At this point I can't even believe i was ever on heroin.
@pthemac5179
@pthemac5179 Жыл бұрын
Excellent job bro! That's great
@prestachio9601
@prestachio9601 2 жыл бұрын
Fuck abusive parents man, I feel so awful for people who are brought up this way because it’s not their choice. It’s luck of the draw really. Praying for this man, hope he finds his way and has a brighter future.
@janicejacome
@janicejacome 2 жыл бұрын
Mark should get an award. THIS is what we should show in school! .. Yes,it is hurts that draws us in. and 👌 FUCK ABUSIVE PARENTS 👌
@petakucas7389
@petakucas7389 2 жыл бұрын
Abusive and neglecting parents are the root of all adult choices you make later in life weather it be good or bad. Parents SHIT ME! I always wanted to be that bird that grew and flew the nest! never to return to see there faces again. !!!
@megan807
@megan807 2 жыл бұрын
Legit can’t stand them. I have no idea why they have kids and they usually have multiple kids and just abuse all of them. Ugh, they are the worst kind of people 😡
@niazqayyum1828
@niazqayyum1828 2 жыл бұрын
@@petakucas7389 you can heal with spiritual healing start with chajras and aura keylontic science
@cdroberts5890
@cdroberts5890 2 жыл бұрын
This is my brother in law!! We have been looking everywhere for him for months! Colin, please call Chase, Dana, Caroline, Cat, Matt, Casey, Casey, Cameron, me, anyone! We love you so much and have been worried sick for months!!!! Please, can anyone help us?!?!? This is a miracle, Colin!!!
@marylougeorge9890
@marylougeorge9890 2 жыл бұрын
@soft white underbelly...
@jessd7281
@jessd7281 2 жыл бұрын
@SoftWhiteUnderbelly anyway that Colin can get reconnected with his family?
@reedermh
@reedermh 2 жыл бұрын
@@jessd7281 He is being reconnected. There was a post on TigerDroppings (an LSU fan site) on the O-T Lounge (a miscellaneous type board) from his brother. Another poster saw this video and contacted him.
@bourdeaux35
@bourdeaux35 2 жыл бұрын
He left for a reason, unless somethings changed during the months of him being gone, then you’re just re introducing him to the abuse he was running from.
@kristamehr7211
@kristamehr7211 2 жыл бұрын
I think I’ve watched every episode and out of all of the interviews I believe Colin has the highest probability of turning things around. Smart, articulate and capable. Good luck Colin. You can be great.
@cookiecarpenter7795
@cookiecarpenter7795 2 жыл бұрын
Colin is currently a missing person. This is the first we have seen of him in MONTHS. We all in Louisiana are praying this was taking recently and he truly is alive.
@joefelice5062
@joefelice5062 2 жыл бұрын
Based on the comments, it sounds like he has a huge support system ready to help. That is one of the best predictors of success in recovery - hopefully he is fighting and letting those people help him.
@bey976
@bey976 2 жыл бұрын
@@cookiecarpenter7795 hey - did the family ever find him. It's been on my mind, I had to come back to then video
@sierramcalister4094
@sierramcalister4094 2 жыл бұрын
This is my sisters ex!!! His family has been looking for him for months!
@embott1
@embott1 2 жыл бұрын
Oh you sweet boy. I lost a friend a couple months ago…to fentanyl specifically. I just wanna…hug him
@marylougeorge9890
@marylougeorge9890 2 жыл бұрын
I'm sorry for your loss.💔
@embott1
@embott1 2 жыл бұрын
@@marylougeorge9890 thank you.
@marylougeorge9890
@marylougeorge9890 2 жыл бұрын
@@embott1 ♥️
@pickleforknwiggles634
@pickleforknwiggles634 2 жыл бұрын
I hope Colin reads these comments and sees how much humanity and hope there is left in this world. Good luck buddy.
@charlottewillis9582
@charlottewillis9582 2 жыл бұрын
👍
@marylougeorge9890
@marylougeorge9890 2 жыл бұрын
Amen.👍❤️
@colindunham5717
@colindunham5717 2 жыл бұрын
I read them, have read most of them.
@pickleforknwiggles634
@pickleforknwiggles634 2 жыл бұрын
@@colindunham5717 How you doing buddy?
@marylougeorge9890
@marylougeorge9890 2 жыл бұрын
@@colindunham5717 Take all the love and good wishes to heart.❤️❤️❤️
@marcymorales8214
@marcymorales8214 2 жыл бұрын
This man is so genuine. Imagine the man he could be in this world living a sober life! Some people will never learn/change or even want it but, some just need to be rescued and shown there is purpose! Not that he’s better than any other, I feel for this man 😔
@carter_1
@carter_1 2 жыл бұрын
Some end up being the best counselors for the next generation struggling.
@sunsetstormx
@sunsetstormx 2 жыл бұрын
@@johnm3907 Huh??
@graciechris1104
@graciechris1104 2 жыл бұрын
It's not too late! You could turn your whole life around and when your son is grown and finds you for himself he'll be the proudest man ever that you achieved it. Please don't give up 🙏
@gisselmontero2304
@gisselmontero2304 2 жыл бұрын
You can do it.. please get clean 🙏
@SHARIFHAMZASTUDIO
@SHARIFHAMZASTUDIO 2 жыл бұрын
Holy crap, this has been the one interview on this channel that totally got me deep... I went through similar struggles with my kids, now they live with me and I'm so blessed. Colin, you need to get well for your son. Even if you won't see him for another 10 years. When he shows up, you need to be ready.
@tinawindham6958
@tinawindham6958 2 жыл бұрын
You are so right. I was thinking he needs pictures and face chats or letters from his son. Huge motivation. Esp a teenager and young adult that would be awesome.when his son is 13,14,15 he can see his dad, IF he is clean🙏✌️
@gunsmokegaloreyt6840
@gunsmokegaloreyt6840 Жыл бұрын
Uuvvvvvuvvvuvvvvvvvvv vc
@kaycollins7684
@kaycollins7684 2 жыл бұрын
This guy is so intelligent and so sweet he deserves so much more then he has gotten out of this life, I wish him all the best! Love yourself Colin.
@AmadRaven
@AmadRaven 2 жыл бұрын
You're very self-aware, Colin. Not many people are. Throughout childhood, a lack of nurturing and abandonment is awful, but when you're a child, you just live through it, not knowing any better. You have a good inherent nature, strength, and humility. I pray that you will find the adequate resources to support you. I know lots of people will be praying for you.
@charlottewillis9582
@charlottewillis9582 2 жыл бұрын
I enjoyed your uplifting comment✌️
@msamazinggrace1918
@msamazinggrace1918 2 жыл бұрын
Me too! 💯 👍❤ 🙌.
@threeminuteshate
@threeminuteshate Жыл бұрын
There’s a phrase in the AA handbook that both Colin and I both know: “self-awareness will not save us.” It’s wild. My best friend was an alcoholic/addict. I saw him struggling hard. You think that would be enough to make me say keep on the straight and narrow, but unfortunately it’s not. Colin, as long as you’re alive there is hope.
@jennifermccain6062
@jennifermccain6062 Жыл бұрын
I wish we could get an update on Colin. It is so wonderful that his family found him and he has support. I hope they surround him with love so his soul can heal. He seems like a really nice guy that just made some mistakes. I wish him the best. Keep your head up Colin!
@katelynwhyte750
@katelynwhyte750 Жыл бұрын
I searched him on Facebook and it appears active. He looks like he’s doing well! The change in his appearance is also significant.
@NothinLikeBatonRouge
@NothinLikeBatonRouge 10 ай бұрын
COLIN IS DOING GREAT!
@killyourego1983
@killyourego1983 10 ай бұрын
@@NothinLikeBatonRouge tell hi and lot of love from random guy on interentt !!!wish him all the best
@crazydee1955
@crazydee1955 2 жыл бұрын
That is so sad. He seems so sweet. I hate to see him suffer like that.
@cookiecarpenter7795
@cookiecarpenter7795 2 жыл бұрын
Colin is currently a missing person. This is the first we have seen of him in MONTHS. We all in Louisiana are praying this was taking recently and he truly is alive. COLIN!!! You are missed so very much. Let us know you’re okay. 😭
@sunsetstormx
@sunsetstormx 2 жыл бұрын
LORD please reunite this family!
@janicejacome
@janicejacome 2 жыл бұрын
He is a genuine man in agony. 🙏🏼Wish us all peace.
@augustwest5487
@augustwest5487 2 жыл бұрын
Well he did say in the video where he is staying.
@cocochels4795
@cocochels4795 2 жыл бұрын
@@augustwest5487 literarily lol the exact location
@bourdeaux35
@bourdeaux35 2 жыл бұрын
Fix the reason why he ran away or he’ll run away again.
@emilywynstra
@emilywynstra 2 жыл бұрын
He has shown SO much resiliency and character throughout his immense troubles. I admire his strength and honesty. Praying he will get blessings and a new life with his son that he deserves 💕
@francescaebba
@francescaebba 2 жыл бұрын
This channel is really doing big things...important things. My hoodie came in today and I can't wait for someone to ask about it. I hope to turn many people onto here. More than happy to support all this channel has to offer. Thanks for your dedication Mark!
@albertagrown
@albertagrown 2 жыл бұрын
I can't believe the number of people in the comments that are his friends/ family that have commented! I've NEVER seen this on any other video. He is so loved and missed! Seeing the pinned comment, letting us know that he's home is awesome!! 💞
@vinnie302
@vinnie302 2 жыл бұрын
My brother was shooting H and robbing people by gun point 7 years ago. He spent time in prison. He’s now 5 years clean and has a family. It can be done. I type this with the same quasi death wish you have. I’m an alcoholic.
@kimk8890
@kimk8890 2 жыл бұрын
Colin, your heart is incredible huge for your son! Never give up, he needs you as you need him. Don't beat yourself up for lost time. Give yourself the gift of getting clean. You will be a better you for you, and him! Blessings from Colorado!
@marylougeorge9890
@marylougeorge9890 2 жыл бұрын
👍👏👏👏❤️
@jessd7281
@jessd7281 2 жыл бұрын
First, I just want to thank Mark, for helping share people’s stories who otherwise might not have a voice. I do think it’s great therapy for those addicted or struggle with mental health to talk through their life and get to tell their story. I have watched many interviews, and while I wish all could get the help they need, I especially wish it for Colin. I feel that he doesn’t understand his own worth, and he (like all) is capable of turning his life around. What I have found also knowing an addict, is they really, really need to want to change. No one else can stop what they put into their body, stop how they spend their money, stop how they live their life. After a while, I’m sure it gets comfortable having a routine, even on Skid Row. Colin- you deserve so much better than this. If you want to make the change, I believe in you, I know you can do it. The world doesn’t own you, you can come out on top. Lots of love ❤️
@marylougeorge9890
@marylougeorge9890 2 жыл бұрын
♥️♥️♥️
@boddaboom77
@boddaboom77 2 жыл бұрын
I'm part of a college football message board and Colin's brother posted back in September about him being missing and asking for other posters to be on the lookout. Well, another poster happened to see this video and now Colin is on his way back to Louisiana to a rehab facility and has accepted the help offered to him by his brother. Hopefully Colin makes the most of this second opportunity at life. It's been a wild ride to follow the story over there.
@noahkaufmann8903
@noahkaufmann8903 2 жыл бұрын
I used to be addicted to Xanax coke and percs I've now been sober since 2018/2019 I'm 24 the road to recovery is in your hands 💯💯🖤
@marylougeorge9890
@marylougeorge9890 2 жыл бұрын
Congratulations!!!👍😀👏❤️
@dogmomofive7011
@dogmomofive7011 2 жыл бұрын
Child abuse is the problem that leads to pretty much every other problem in society. If we could eliminate it things would be totally different.
@megan807
@megan807 2 жыл бұрын
Yes! It’s pretty much never fails when mark asks about their childhood. It’s always terrible and unfathomable. It makes me so mad and so sad at the same time. I mean Of course these people are trying to numb the pain of life.
@karenmilward3682
@karenmilward3682 2 жыл бұрын
I feel so bad for this guy. Breaks my heart . Really nice guy, some times we don’t know how lucky we are. God bless you, really hope you find happiness and reunite with your son.🇬🇧
@becky3410
@becky3410 2 жыл бұрын
Colin really touched my heart! He is one of the men who want to me part of his sons life and would do anything to be there, but he was pushed away! I can’t stand it when parents act so selfish and don’t care about the children and their feelings, or how it might scar them! It breaks my heart! I hope Colin can get some help, thank goodness for Mark! Colin is hurting and he needs help. I wish you the best Colin ♥️
@marylougeorge9890
@marylougeorge9890 2 жыл бұрын
It's abuse to keep children from their parents. Unless, it's in the best interest of the child's well-being. It's also abuse to speak negatively of the absent parent as that parent is Half of who they are = whatever negative words are said about the parent, the child accepts as half of their identity.
@Noah-sr1hc
@Noah-sr1hc 2 жыл бұрын
Your a real ass person Becky !
@nikbartnik
@nikbartnik 2 жыл бұрын
Such a charismatic, honest, humble, and sweet guy. Despite all the suffering he has went through he still looks healthy and young for his age. Seems very sharp and intelligent, too. I sincerely hope that he decides to get help. Again, listening to his autobiography, it becomes apparent that it's not the substances which are solely responsible for the situation of most addicts. It's rather their upbringing, traumatic expierences, and mental health. Unfortunately, this is passed down from generation to generation until someone breaks the cycle. Our society as a whole and politicians in particular tend to argue that it's only the substances that are responsible for the suffering of so many. It's not. It's just easier to explain in such a simple manner, it works great for an election campagain. All over the world - look at Duterte, for example. I wish in the future we will shift our focus and stop stigmatizing people who suffer from addiction of any kind. Nonetheless, I hope you can break the cycle, Colin! Wishing you all the best!
@megan807
@megan807 2 жыл бұрын
It always breaks my heart. I remember learning in nursing school about childhood trauma and it being passed down for generations and cycles needing to be broken, etc., and even saw some very rough things while working as a nurse. But I truly didn’t realize how closely addiction and trauma were correlated. These videos are so eye opening and heartbreaking. It makes me look at everyone in a child-like state and just cry for the horrible things these people have had to endure. It’s just unthinkable and I know I’m just beyond blessed for the way I grew up. Sorry to take over your comment, but yours just stuck out to me and I just agree so much with you. So much could be different in this world if we didn’t have people birthing kids and putting them through hell, and then them not knowing any differently and repeating the cycle over and over. I hate it SO much. 😪
@megan807
@megan807 2 жыл бұрын
And yes, I hate to hear people high up blame a million other things on drug addiction besides the main issues causing it. You never hear them talk about trauma or helping with mental health. Never! The percentage of people who truly getting on IV drugs because of becoming addicted after getting a legitimate prescription from a physician is very low. And pain patients are being punished so badly right now and not able to get proper treatment because the government thinks all the fentanyl on the streets is from pills from the dr. I seriously can’t even. 🤦🏼‍♀️
@Fefe559
@Fefe559 2 жыл бұрын
What kind of help do u suggest
@Fefe559
@Fefe559 2 жыл бұрын
@@megan807 not true my husband died 100% his addiction was prescribed by Dr - all medically prescribed- he would have had a better chance if he using heroine in my opinion
@lostfound8112
@lostfound8112 2 жыл бұрын
I really like this guy. I'd be proud to have him as a friend. He's had some spectacular bad things happen to him yet you can STILL see the potential when he talks. Colin if you read this you CAN get clean and sort your life out. I am clean 1 year now...not chasing next high is gone...sooooo freeing. Do it man
@marylougeorge9890
@marylougeorge9890 2 жыл бұрын
Congratulations on your sobriety!!!😀👍👏👏👏♥️
@gisselmontero2304
@gisselmontero2304 2 жыл бұрын
Keep it 💯 up.. congratulations
@Danielle80826
@Danielle80826 2 жыл бұрын
Love this one Mark! Love how articulate he is and self aware of his own actions. God I wish him strength to pull out of this addiction
@pitsmittengurrl5249
@pitsmittengurrl5249 Жыл бұрын
I've watched a lot of mark's interviews and browsed through the comments. Not one single video has had the number of people thankful that their family member is back home as this one. Very cool. I hope you are reunited with your son. I'm glad you went home. Hope you're doing well 💗.
@HellaGabriella187
@HellaGabriella187 2 жыл бұрын
This one hit me hard, coming from an alcohol and drug induced abusive childhood myself. I hope he finds his way, he doesn't realize he has potential. My heart goes out to him...
@charlottewillis9582
@charlottewillis9582 2 жыл бұрын
👍
@marylougeorge9890
@marylougeorge9890 2 жыл бұрын
Yes. He seems to have had things happen out of his control all his life. I pray he'll see this and accept and act on what he has control of.🙏❤️
@broerie
@broerie 2 жыл бұрын
This man has given up on life. Heartbreaking.
@Highlander1432
@Highlander1432 2 жыл бұрын
Single dads out there can relate to this abusive deranged treatment we have received from our baby mommas and their mothers. I was older and more settled than this young man so I was able to afford the $15k of retainer fees to obtain access to my son. Prayers go out to this young man and all the young men like him.
@pestlund
@pestlund Жыл бұрын
I have experienced this as well. False battery charges, jail, more
@annakorovchenko4524
@annakorovchenko4524 2 жыл бұрын
what a beautiful boy, i've been watching a lot of the fentanyl user videos and it breaks my heart every time; it's horrible what addiction does to people. this is the only time i cried watching an interview by sbu, it just rlly hit. he really has so much potential and the purest heart. i pray he makes it out alive
@yoyoglock4
@yoyoglock4 2 жыл бұрын
I hope this man can get his life back on track. There are veterans groups that can help him get clean and back on track. He may even be young enough to re-enlist if he gets clean again (and he left the Coast Guard on good terms). Wishing you the best Colin. You can do this! Be the man that your son deserves as a father. He will be 18 in a few years and out from under his mother's thumb. Get ready to be there for him. 😎
@masterofsnatch1645
@masterofsnatch1645 2 жыл бұрын
Merry Christmas, Colin I truly hope you get well and feel better. There's always hope of a better future stay strong. And I truly wish you a speedy recovery God bless
@taylormccloskey1847
@taylormccloskey1847 2 жыл бұрын
I love this channel so much it brings insight on addiction, and not only that but insight on how broken homes affect people. I feel so deeply for Colin... I want him to succeed in his life and get sober!
@JessieLGordon
@JessieLGordon 2 жыл бұрын
I’ve watched so many of these and this one really got to me. My heart breaks for this man.
@ahad800
@ahad800 2 жыл бұрын
Mark I admire your videos, Always enjoying my time watching them and reading the comments 💙 . Now I’m studying so I’ll save this in my playlist for the time I take a break . Keep it Up Mark .
@mwlera4765
@mwlera4765 Жыл бұрын
“ My dad WAS the pulpit.” I felt that. I know what that sentence meant.
@BroMark1611
@BroMark1611 2 жыл бұрын
Similar first ten years with first son. Had to let him go out of my heart a bit so I could stay alive without him being the reason. Drugs and alcohol continued, but I never allowed a reason for doing them. Went another five plus years before cleaning up to sobriety and my life took off like a rocket. Still lost wives and children, but I was fully aware of every moment and that counts for not having stuff in your head creeping up on you. Being straight is the underlying fact to facing life and dealing with it. I was 40 when I got clean. Colin doesn't have to wait till then.
@bryan123483
@bryan123483 2 жыл бұрын
Assuming he gets to 40. Most heroin or fentanyl addicts don't sadly. That's why this problem is such an urgent one.
@BroMark1611
@BroMark1611 2 жыл бұрын
@@bryan123483 I was 40 when I got clean. Colin doesn't have to wait till then.
@bryan123483
@bryan123483 2 жыл бұрын
@@BroMark1611 Oh I totally agree. I think as long you're breathing you have an opportunity to get clean. I was just pointing out that a lot of addicts aren't going to have that chance. With every shot of heroin or fentanyl there is a big risk that it will be their last. My little brother accidentally overdosed and died when he was 33. It's urgent that these people get help as quickly as possible. It's not always going to happen that way but every day that goes by is a day closer to their last.
@BroMark1611
@BroMark1611 2 жыл бұрын
@@bryan123483 So sorry for the loss of your little brother. We are losing far too many every day. God bless.
@bryan123483
@bryan123483 2 жыл бұрын
@@BroMark1611 Thank you so much. I think often times it's just as hard or harder emotionally for the family of addicts. I've been on both sides and honestly both are just so hard. We definitely are losing fat too many people.
@simplysyndilou6768
@simplysyndilou6768 2 жыл бұрын
Just get it done young man. Make your Son Proud....leave the hurt behind and find peace. Hugs from Toronto Ontario xo
@brittanyleblanc910
@brittanyleblanc910 2 жыл бұрын
Colin, my heart is breaking for you. You have had a long, hard road. I’m so very sorry. You can get out of this, meeting Mark is a blessing for some ppl and you seem smart enough to realize the blessing this could be for you. I’m sending you love and light and strength.
@kyla6538
@kyla6538 2 жыл бұрын
Colin you are clearly so intelligent and still think straight. You can get out of this life, stop telling yourself you're ok with this, stop convincing yourself that this life is freeing. You know you are telling yourself that so you can cope. You are only 33 you can still clean up find a nice lady and have a life you want. Colin come on man you clearly could do anything you want, your life is worth it. There is someone out there who deserves your love and partnership. God it kills me seeing such a bright young man piss his life away. You're too smart for this life. When you are ready get yourself into a rehab and get yourself right. I pray this moment happens soon.
@hardknockfitness1336
@hardknockfitness1336 2 жыл бұрын
When he said that he was stealing out of anger.. I remember being on the streets and doing the same thing, God I’m so grateful to live a completely different and happy life. Seeing this man truly saddens me but at the same time makes me grateful to not be in his shoes, may God bless him and his family.
@BuddhatheRockstar
@BuddhatheRockstar 2 жыл бұрын
I heard a great quote today and it immediately made me think of Mark . " Don't be judgemental, be curious" Colin I hope you can make some changes to get closer to your son. He will be an adult and need you in his life.
@chloedelatorre2519
@chloedelatorre2519 2 жыл бұрын
This guy is so nice to listen to.. his heart is so big. He's way more than what he looks like. He's even handsome. I hope the best for him. I hope his family finds him. 🙏
@benjaminredacted4472
@benjaminredacted4472 2 жыл бұрын
Good to hear hear he is with family! Colin has a good heart, you could feel its radiance all throughout his interview. I don't personally know Colin...but I'm pulling for ya bro
@tristarperfecta1061
@tristarperfecta1061 2 жыл бұрын
I totally understand his fear of being stabbed. It was my biggest fear when I lived like him until it actually happened. It is extremely painful to recover from. The stabbing itself isn't the worst part.
@Drake23x23
@Drake23x23 2 жыл бұрын
This breaks my heart man, I can relate with him all too well. I pray he gets his son back and life back together.
@ETN_123
@ETN_123 2 жыл бұрын
I've noticed most of these people share the same thing in common. Lack of strong family dynamic. Family is so important. Even with both parents family dynamic can suffer.
@diewilde13
@diewilde13 2 жыл бұрын
Freedom is just another word for nothing left to lose…
@monicabroussard840
@monicabroussard840 2 жыл бұрын
I love janis Joplin too !❤
@NothinLikeBatonRouge
@NothinLikeBatonRouge 10 ай бұрын
YOU SAVED MY BOYS LIFE, MARK! THANK YOU SO MUCH!
@billiejoemerick7564
@billiejoemerick7564 8 ай бұрын
Who are you
@diannh2894
@diannh2894 2 жыл бұрын
Colin, our stories are similar. I use to love the freedom of being homeless and doing whatever tf I literally wanted. Sleep eat get money get high, etc. I loved the freedom of getting out of the rat race. I was an addict for eleven years. I lived on the streets, never thought I'd make it, quit school, and definitely didn't have plans for the future besides dying somewhere in an alley. But one day I just quit everything. It was the hardest thing I've ever done. But it is fucking worth it dude. I promise you it's worth it. If you ever need anything, comment and I'll give you my email and I'll send my number. You can do it, I promise you, you're worth it.
@KJVkatie77
@KJVkatie77 2 жыл бұрын
I work in mental health and what I find truly fascinating, is how people get so angry at the abusive parents who "caused" an addicts problems, but they also think that person should be involved in their own child's life...? It just confuses me. How can we be so hypocritical with our judgement. How do we know that the parents of the addict didn't have an awful life too...? Aren't they a victim in their own right? We don't know their story. I just think we should be more aware of that fact.
@monicabroussard840
@monicabroussard840 2 жыл бұрын
Yes its a cycle and i hope its a cycle he can break for his sake and the sake of his son
@skyking228
@skyking228 2 жыл бұрын
I'd like to learn more about the parents of the abusive parents and try to see where all this gets started in a family. My guess is that the abusive behaviour goes back several generations and will no doubt continue indefinitely. Always interesting, thanks!
@carlforpresidentanthony4574
@carlforpresidentanthony4574 2 жыл бұрын
Piss rolls down hill fam, abuse Sadly has more legacy than the Rockefellers 🤒🤕 its passed down
@megan807
@megan807 2 жыл бұрын
It usually just goes from generation to generation and that’s all they ever see and know. Sometimes, it’s broken and a new generation comes about, but most of the time, that is not the case. It’s awful.
@Fefe559
@Fefe559 2 жыл бұрын
Exactly !!! The damage they do!! Especially sexual abuse. Soul destroying soul murder
@_EightySix
@_EightySix 2 жыл бұрын
This one is super close to me, he served 6 years in the service, is intelligent and well spoken and is like he said "so close to death" or something like that. He's my same age and I just got out of the service after 12 years. I can't imagine being in his shoes but it's not hard to get there. I hope he pulls through. I was addicted to opiates but it was before my service. Once an addict, always an addict. These videos are most certainly a cautionary tale.
@johnnahyde634
@johnnahyde634 2 жыл бұрын
Colin, We love you and are so grateful to see you. -Aunt J
@Lizabethmoore-ow6mw
@Lizabethmoore-ow6mw 11 ай бұрын
Imagine how handsome this guy will be when he's sober. And bright.
@rpcdude
@rpcdude 2 жыл бұрын
He’s an addict. More than likely his kid’s mother didn’t want her son around him because he’s unpredictable. I feel bad for him, but he needs to get clean if he wants his kid.
@drebiz2344
@drebiz2344 2 жыл бұрын
If there is one person that has been interviewed on this site that I wanna help….. it’s this dude. Just wanna clean him up and give him a job.
@sox666nitro6
@sox666nitro6 2 жыл бұрын
So glad to hear the latest update on Colin !! Sometimes alcohol & drugs numb pain within, maybe why I feel the way I feel sometimes by abusing alcohol, 🥲 & try to forget & hide emotions….. But hey another great story from SOFT WHITE UNDERBELLY
@marisoldiaz2832
@marisoldiaz2832 2 жыл бұрын
Good Morning Mark!!! Thanks for bringing awareness to mental health!!!
@charlottewillis9582
@charlottewillis9582 2 жыл бұрын
👍
@marylougeorge9890
@marylougeorge9890 2 жыл бұрын
Amen!👍👏
@Ariel-ck9he
@Ariel-ck9he 2 жыл бұрын
Do it for your son, Colin!! It will mean so much to him to know he was your inspiration to survive.
@fransantiago2152
@fransantiago2152 2 жыл бұрын
WHAT A WONDERFUL HUMAN BEING!!!! Im so glad he is with his family again...God Bless!!
@jackiehiaring7805
@jackiehiaring7805 2 жыл бұрын
I've been following this channel for over a year now it breaks my heart; with what people have gone through. I know that they are paid for their interviews but sometimes it concerns me that they are dredging up all the pain again. Then find their drug of choice to Medicate all over again. I realize it's so beneficial they just people just want to talk t their story out. Just heartbreaking Personally I've had a difficult life but of course nothing is severe as most of these . I have had a lot of therapy throughout my life and it was always so difficult to face everything that happened. I hope you can get they more help it the want to accept it. Colin please get well. keep a few minutes of hope, faith, or joy everyday. You deserve more. You are not a lost cause!❤️
@fukemnukem1525
@fukemnukem1525 2 жыл бұрын
This man's channel is absolutely amazing. So much therapeutic value in getting lost in his work and seeing what life "could be like".....and what to be grateful for when you think things are bad in your life.
@kamilleturner556
@kamilleturner556 2 жыл бұрын
Good luck to you Colin, don't give up on yourself, you have a lot of potential and a lot to live for.
@livingintheforest3963
@livingintheforest3963 2 жыл бұрын
This is such a great guy I really hope he makes it out of this what an intelligent person with such honest and pure conversation. I really hope he makes it!
@KAITLYN100390
@KAITLYN100390 2 жыл бұрын
I have so much hope for this man. I pray he pulls through these tough times and makes it out on top. Nothing is impossible ❤️
@DetroitFettyghost
@DetroitFettyghost 2 жыл бұрын
Seems like a great person. Been thru alot alot, seems to be one who punished himself do to his traumatic past (instead of acting out and taking it out on others) I'm the exact same way. And hr From Baton Rouge, always wanted to go down to see New Orleans and Baton Rouge, get some real Cajun cooking ❤️ Please take brother. It really hurt when you choked up about your kid. It's okay dude, you can cry.
@Gram72534
@Gram72534 2 жыл бұрын
good morning brother!!!!!!!
@amaliadonastorg4173
@amaliadonastorg4173 2 жыл бұрын
Hi, how are you doing up in Detroit at this time of year? Staying warm? Prayers brother 🙏
@mariaa.5829
@mariaa.5829 2 жыл бұрын
What do you mean "please take brother." Well, T of/from Detroit, do travel to New Orleans for delicious cuisine.
@monicabroussard840
@monicabroussard840 2 жыл бұрын
I am from Lafayette Louisiana. We havr Excellent food. I encourage you to visit ! Happy holidays
@megan807
@megan807 2 жыл бұрын
@@mariaa.5829 I think they probably meant to say “please take care brother” or something along those lines.
@amygrove9635
@amygrove9635 Жыл бұрын
I'm so glad he is home and hope he is doing well. This was heartbreaking.
@marinamarazzo5889
@marinamarazzo5889 2 жыл бұрын
so much love to you, colin. I hope you cave. in addiction we're so removed from how close we are to death that we truly believe "my tolerance is so high I can't even overdose on fentanyl". I hear you man, I felt the same. it took me a long time of being clean to really accept how much I flirted with death. the darkness keeps you from seeing. hope you make it towards the light. you're a smart, young guy. your son is going to come looking for you, you could have the rest of your life together.
@anchovy9405
@anchovy9405 2 жыл бұрын
💔💔💔❤️heartbreaking … I hope somehow things can change for the better. Thank you for sharing your story❤️
@goffredoify
@goffredoify 2 жыл бұрын
Mark you already do more than anyone else. You pay for the interview, you give them a safe place where they can share and release some of their pain. I know for a fact that when you see potential you'll be the first one to invest in them. It seems mental health and struggle it's the desease of 21st Century. He's a sweet kid like so many alike. Either we r gonna provide them with free drugs, so they can focus on their life, or they are gonna struggle, if lucky they'll eventually get clean. I was one of these lost souls, it took me 35 yrs to get clean. Obviously my heart goes to these people.
@vinnie302
@vinnie302 2 жыл бұрын
Jesus told us to confess our sins to one another, Mark listened.
@marylougeorge9890
@marylougeorge9890 2 жыл бұрын
@@vinnie302 ♥️♥️♥️
@marylougeorge9890
@marylougeorge9890 2 жыл бұрын
Well done on your sobriety and continuing to be compassionate.❤️👏
@goffredoify
@goffredoify 2 жыл бұрын
@@marylougeorge9890 thank you, I appreciated your comment. I've been watching all sorts of channels from those places where people are struggling the most. Such as AML films from Kensington, "602 Lost in Phoenix" ; "Tales from the streets" also from Phoenix; of course Mark here, etc. There is a generation of young kids wich is in the process of been wiped out in front of our own very eyes; it's happening "live" in streaming, and not much it's been done.....very sad 😔... so much potential out there waisted. Having been there myself I know exactly how they're feeling and what's a day out there for them. Something needs to be done.. politicians and legislators, can't just keep ignoring this issue. Covid was just the cherry on the cake.
@marylougeorge9890
@marylougeorge9890 2 жыл бұрын
@@goffredoify If it's not happening in their yards, politicians and legislators don't care. That's true with all of society's problems. That's why we have to share what we've learned and help the needy.
@EliGerris
@EliGerris 10 ай бұрын
Such a gentle soul. I wish I could hug him. I wish all the best for you, Colin ❤
@D-Rizzle653
@D-Rizzle653 2 жыл бұрын
This guy seems like a cool dude and a smart guy as well..he’s got a good heart..he would be someone I would like to chill with when I was in that same situation..
@mediname1000
@mediname1000 Жыл бұрын
Wow, my heart hurts for Colin. Praying you made it back home. Would love to hear and update.
@connorcrosby3025
@connorcrosby3025 2 жыл бұрын
Hope he's found and has a peace of mind. I can hear how much he wants to succeed in his voice. Never give up bro.
@FreeAgentsMarketing
@FreeAgentsMarketing 2 жыл бұрын
Colin!! Dude we love you. Come home. I haven’t watch this video yet but I just saw you on it.
@magahnstanga1866
@magahnstanga1866 2 жыл бұрын
He talks about your family being his family ❤️
@FreeAgentsMarketing
@FreeAgentsMarketing 2 жыл бұрын
@@magahnstanga1866 yeah I’ve watched it since I’ve found it. We’re still doing what we can to get him back since he went missing. This was a hell of a boon honestly
@TiffanyMaryJean
@TiffanyMaryJean 2 жыл бұрын
Have you been able to get in contact with him? He’s so intelligent and seems so self aware.
@808stateofmind2
@808stateofmind2 2 жыл бұрын
Big love to the community and people not giving up on Colin and keeping love and acceptance and open arms. True support, you guys are fucking awesome
@RNFORLAW
@RNFORLAW 2 жыл бұрын
Amazes me how many people on skid row are not even from California. BTW, this channel is amazing Mark.......keep up the great work. ALL of these people are in my prayers.
@wormsnake1
@wormsnake1 2 жыл бұрын
Colin if by any remote miracle you read this message please hang in there man. You are intelligent, articulate, sensitive and handsome. You got so much going for you that a lot of people will never have. I know it must be difficult but you can’t let your family background destroy the rest of your life. My thoughts go out to your childhood situation because you had no choice but even now, although at a low ebb you “still do”. I have real hope for you and I mean that genuinely pal. You express yourself so well. One day I could easily see you making a great counsellor or an advocate to young people, so that they avoid the pitfalls and taking a similar path to yours. There is a way out and it’s waiting for you when “you’re ready”’. Thank you for your honesty and sharing the truth of your life. The bravery of your vulnerability is admirable. It’s a painful story but like I said. “I believe it’s not the end of your story”. You matter and you got so much to give and to still offer life. Don’t let the numbness and the daily grind win the day…DON’T!! Inside your heart you know what you need to do. You know where you need to go. It’s written in your heart and conscience. If that’s going to rehab, speaking to someone, forgiving your past, then DO IT!!….I know you can do it. I too am a father and I had to fight for my son. It’s not been easy. I can relate to you, I can see in your eyes and hear in your voice how much you love your boy. I know that’s the case. Nothing works out as we planned or indeed hoped at times but your son will one day come looking for you. I believe this. You will always be “your son’s father”. Never forget that because no one can take that away from you. Theres still something to “aim for. That love you still clearly have for him is “never lost or wasted”…never. I can see that from over 6,000 miles away. I don’t want this video to be your final epitaph okay. To one day be clean and in contact with your son in “some way”’ is still a possibility. It might not be perfect but it would change yours and your son’s life. In your beating heart and inner soul you know you can “never give up on that”…NEVER!! Lots of love, be brave and remember your not alone in the struggle. Wishing you well from Liverpool England. ❤️🙏.x
@cy-o7506
@cy-o7506 Жыл бұрын
Yes.
@carissahowell
@carissahowell 2 жыл бұрын
Colin, you seem like such a down to earth, insightful and intelligent young man. You have so much unmet potential. I understand your pain in not seeing your baby boy. My deepest hope for you is that you're able to obtain sobriety and recovery and be put in touch with legal advocacy to help you sue for visitation rights to your son and that you are able to reestablish a healthy relationship with him.
@marylougeorge9890
@marylougeorge9890 2 жыл бұрын
Yes. There are organizations which help fathers
@dianaharmon4914
@dianaharmon4914 2 жыл бұрын
This guy…I hadn’t even heard him speak yet and my heart was aching. His eyes, you can tell he’s not lost yet. I wish I could save you all. Come to Vermont Colin!!
@MEL2theJ
@MEL2theJ Жыл бұрын
Thank you for the interview Colin and SWU
@Waltham1892
@Waltham1892 2 жыл бұрын
Addicts wander around in constant confusion about why their lives are as screwed up as they are. I got into a car crash (I wasn't paying attention to the road because I was shooting up while driving). My stuff got stolen (Because I was high for days and finally crashed where all the thieves hang out). My ex and her family don't want me around (I'm such a hardened addict Fentanyl doesn't even touch me). Just. Connect. The. Dots.
@greenie75
@greenie75 2 жыл бұрын
He knows... he is aware. I didn't sense that he was embracing 'victimhood', but he is definitely accepting his fate as a drug addict rather than making moves to overcome it.
@Waltham1892
@Waltham1892 2 жыл бұрын
@@greenie75 Accepting your fate as a drug addict is to accept your own death. To accept that being a drug addict has consequences is more productive.
@niazqayyum1828
@niazqayyum1828 2 жыл бұрын
Are you spiritual spiritual healing woth the aura and chakras help
@xXlaurXx
@xXlaurXx 2 жыл бұрын
Just remember that there's another side to this story. Why did his son's mother decide to distance herself? She must've had a good reason.
@vonderloo3184
@vonderloo3184 2 жыл бұрын
I was just thinking that. He mustve been an addict for a very long time. Said he didnt shoot heroin, then he did. I feel he keeps relapsing and she has had it. I think his therapist was wrong saying that she has all the power. It is him & his addiction. He lays blame on her & that therapist just fucked him up. It is his screwing around with addiction and losing all responsibility. I walked away from a meth addict 30 yrs ago with a 19 month old toddler. He still does meth.
@baddoopey
@baddoopey 2 жыл бұрын
Would you want a guy like this in your kids life?
@marylougeorge9890
@marylougeorge9890 2 жыл бұрын
My ex sister-in-law was a nut. We didn't want to deal with her because she would have caused our nieces hell on earth and not allowed us to see them.
@philinn4788
@philinn4788 2 жыл бұрын
why doesnt anyone say this when its time to hear the father side of the story
@reganterry9758
@reganterry9758 2 жыл бұрын
He wasn’t like that when she took his son away…. Her family is wealthy, they didn’t want to associate with him because he was from the wrong side of the tracks… he fought in court to prove his paternity and she blocked him every way she could, her family pressured her to distance herself and she did, he was NOT on drugs when he lost his son initially
@kristinvanschyndel1508
@kristinvanschyndel1508 2 жыл бұрын
I have watched so many of your videos and I have never ever saw much hope. This man needs to get clean. He has so much potential, my heart is aching for him. How can we help???
@stacy4995
@stacy4995 2 жыл бұрын
I had a pain pill addiction for 15 years. I didn’t see my daughter for 12 years since she was 8. I got to a very bad place in life. Every time I thought of her I would use a lot more nit to feel the pain of not seeing her and not being there for her. I never stopped loving her. I was very lucky and never got in trouble with the law I should have. I finally went to treatment and straighten out my life. You have to want it or it won’t work. I tried many times and failed. I have my own business now and I’m having my first Christmas with my 21 year old daughter this year. I’m grateful for my brother for being there for me. If you can Colin go home it’s not to late. Please be safe your family knows your alive and not missing anymore. You are loved and wanted
@briannasilva8071
@briannasilva8071 2 жыл бұрын
His parents failed him. Point blank. He’s given up. I hope he sees that reason again. 🧡
@Armpits
@Armpits 2 жыл бұрын
Cute
@dylanalleman
@dylanalleman 2 жыл бұрын
As a Baton Rouge guy, i have a lot of respect for this guy. Keep pushin homie.
@musicislove90
@musicislove90 2 жыл бұрын
I'm so happy to find out he's been reunited with his family. If there is ever a chance to follow up with him, please do. I hope he's getting all the help and support that he needs. 💙
@hmead2810
@hmead2810 2 жыл бұрын
You got this! wishing you all the best from from across the world. Sending so many best wishes
@fiona9912
@fiona9912 2 жыл бұрын
If there ever was a person that could be brought back it’s Colin. I wish nothing but positivity for Colin so he can break the chain and be with his son.
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