Thought this story might be relevant especially during these crazy times. This was a part of my life that a few people knew about and quite honestly never liked talking about it. But hope some of you may find it helpful.

You really don’t understand how emotional this video makes me feel. Because I’m a mom, I feel so freaking proud of you like you are my son lol. You are using your platform for good. I’m chinese and mental illness is super taboo so I applaud you for talking about a difficult subject. Please open the door more to talk about Mental health. People look up to you the way you look up to your friend. You are honouring him by talking about it. I hope you feel a sense of relief, it’s so so so important and we shouldn’t be afraid to talk about it. The more people talk about it, the more lives are saved. Thank you so so much Mikey.

Bruh, this is the most motivating wagyu steak eating video i've ever seen

I had a breakdown during my last semester of college. Many of the things that happened to you also happened to me. my depression was so bad I couldn't function. I was not going to class and was very behind on my schoolwork. However I had very nice professors who let me make up the work. I started to see the school therapist. My mom would drive an hour to see me three times a week. She would sit next to me and make me get out of bed and do my school work. She would call me in the morning to make sure I got out of bed and went to class. I barely made it. I would have dropped out but I was lucky to have my mom and many other people who kept me going.

I was crying halfway through your video. I battled depression for 61 years now and these times are especially trying, but I eat dinner with you every day and want to thank you for your wonderful videos and for your openness discussing this subject. You always cheer me up!

I think this video explains why I admire Mike so much. He's been through a lot, he's survived a lot, but he's also human. He has low points, he has times where he feels like he can't make it. But he pulls through because he eventually found a way. And he's growing as a person and is being the best that he can be. When he brought up the idea of not talking to his parents about personal issues, that struck a cord in me. I'm Vietnamese, and my relationship with my parents isn't really personal either. But if he got through it, he inspires me to be better too. Thank you being you, Mike. And to the person reading this, you've got this. The darkest night is always before the brighter dawn!

Damn this was deep. One of the best vids he ever made. Depression is real.

This helps alot i hope more people see this that are struggling with depression

You know it was a tough moment in Mike's life has he tells his story when he's sitting next to Wagyu and barely eating any. o,.o

“Treat yourself like someone you love.” That line is absolutely true. Always love yourself and take care of yourself. You’ll only blossom if you take care of yourself ❤️ Take care everyone and Mikey! Thank you for all your wonderful videos and encouraging words! ❤️

Thank you brother. I'm not Asian but I struggle with what you spoke on. Lost 2 friends to suicide. Depression is real. Hard to think and type right now. Looking at this channel differently now.

I am a longgggg time watcher of this channel. Never in a million years did I think that I would watch a video like this on this channel. This video is exactly what I didn’t know I needed to see. I had a mental breakdown two years ago. I am finally getting back to myself again. You are so right. My biggest enemy was myself. I didn’t except help. I didn’t want to seem weak or vulnerable. When I finally accepted the help and turned to prayer, the darkness that had been surrounding me started to lift. Anywho, thanks for this video. I am so glad it exists.

"Treat yourself like someone you love" Say it louder for the people in the back man! it's so important!

It is refreshing from someone who is like a happy pill everyday to acknowledge the dark side of your past and the reality of depression,

Mikey, i was also battling with crippling depression during my senior year. i started to cut off any relationship that i had at that point and isolated myself for more than two years. i lost my will to live. Finally it was so heavy and i opened up to my mom. yes you are correct, one should seek help and do not isolate themselves. i wish everyone who is going through this will see the bright side. thank you again Mikey. Finding your channel is one the best things happened for me. Cheers !!!

This video has literally made me a blubbering mess 🙈 I'm in the middle of my own dark time but lately I'm trying to find any kind of light I can so I can move forward. And recently those light moments seem to be coming to me without me trying. And I'm so grateful for them. This video is one ❤

Was almost in tears during this as I am struggling with depression right now and I do need to seek help for it so thanks.

I'm proud of you Mike for opening up telling us your story. It sure is a better world with you in it. Thank you.🥀✌🤗

Thank you Mikey for sharing your experience with depression. It has helped me a lot because I am going through similar something and experiencing things in that order. I really appreciate your sincerity and openness about personal feelings and struggles. You are truly a wonderful person. Thank you again and many loves from Canada!

Probably one of my favorite videos from you. As an Asian American that grew up with Asian immigrant parents, I totally relate to your struggles with mental health. Growing up, I never knew that I was suffering from mental health issues because we just dealt with it. Only after going through a traumatic experience as an adult, I realized that it was an issue, and I needed professional help. I am so much better now, and my relationship with my loved ones is so much better. Of course, it’s definitely an uphill battle everyday, but working on it every day is better than letting it take over. So glad to hear that you found a way to deal with it, and I hope you find positivity every day. Looking forward to your next video!

"I'm an excellent hypnotist!" Ah, so THAT'S why I can't stop watching your videos! :D

Being an Asian in an Asian household, I understand what Mike went through.

I'm so sorry about your friend, and all his loved ones. I'm so sorry for all you've been through. And I'm super happy you found your way, and had support in getting back to life. And I'm so thankful you are sharing so others can see it is ok to talk about. That's wonderful of you. 🤗

Thank you mike. I needed to hear this. I was recently diagnosed with depression after having my third child and I have been struggling so hard and feeling so guilty. I’ve felt like a failure as a mom I’m now on medication and seeing a therapist once a month and moving forward, but it greatly helped to hear that someone I look up to so much has struggled with the same demons and over cake them as well. Much love to you from my family. My daughters and I love your show and it encourages them to try new things 😊

It happened to me last year, I was so depressed that I was contemplating going ahead with suicide because i could not take it anymore, but then my cousin and the rest of my family came and realised I was not in a good state of mind (btw I was working as well back then), it took me a while to get back to my normal state (with the help of my mother), I agree with you bro, do not self-isolate trust me it eats at you like a savage wolf and it is difficult to take that pain for so long, always go and seek help.

Mike makes me so happy when I see him get excited about food. I can`t imagine this dude with depression. If I could get him all the Wagyu steak in the world, I would. The beginning of this video made my day just by him getting excited over food. After hearing his story, just wow. This man is so inspiring.

when I was 20-21 and still living at home, my parents and siblings would ask if I was depressed and it would make me so angry. being first gen asian american and having traditional parents, I also didn't have that emotional relationship with them. I dropped out of school and was working 12 hour days, 5 days a week and sometimes on the weekend. most of my friends were having a blast in college and creating the next chapter in their lives. some were even getting engaged and having kids. I felt like the world was passing me by. out of spite I left my home state thinking a new location would help but it didn't. it made it worse because I didnt have support system. I came back home that same year and fell right back into my hole but this time I rented an apartment so I could feel a sense of satisfaction. I continued to work long hours at the same job but at least I was going to my own place which made it a little better. and I was only 20 minutes from my parents. I continued this for a little while but finding ways to distract myself from my own thoughts. I would constantly ask myself "why is this happening", "why am I like this" but it eventually got better. fast forward to 24 I moved again. but this time with my cousin. I was bouncing from job to job, going out drinking all the time and gambling at the casino and again I fell right back into it. life just became so overwhelming and I had no idea what I was doing or what I wanted. I remember just laying on my bedroom floor crying. came back home yet again and decided to make some changes. I couldnt keep living life this way and waiting for something to happen. I had to be that part on my own. I moved into my brothers basement and got a job cooking. which is something I love to do and I also love to eat. within a year I was promoted 3 times and eventually to sous chef and each time I was given a raise. they even paid for me to get safeserv certified. I was even in a relationship with a girl I met at the restaurant but it didn't work out and it as a learning curve. I'm 27 now been living alone for an entire year and still battle with depression but I seize it before I let it consume me. things can always be worse but its how you react to the situations. you have to go through life and battle the ups and downs to really learn about yourself and you have to be open about your feelings or things will never change. I can say with 100 percent certainty that I understand myself more now than I have ever before.

Thank you for being so open and honest. This gives me the courage to be more open.

man i felt it really hard when he said most asians can’t talk to their parents on a personal level

When I was 20, I went through this horrible depression and I tried to take my life. I had a similar relationship with my family (although I'm not Asian). I decided to go to a behavioral health facility. I started medication after that. I ended up getting into an abusive relationship, which made me feel worse, but out of it, I figured out that I had bipolar 2. I was a junior in college during that time (getting a degree in psychology ironically), but it helped to figure out what was going on with myself and bring it up to my psychiatrist. I walked the stage in December. It took me 5 years to get my bachelor's too. And everyday I am so happy that I wasn't able to kill myself. And that I was brave enough to get out of an abusive relationship. I'm still working through PTSD, but I've been stable for years because of medication. I'm 24. Never thought I'd get this far. Now I'm looking at jobs in a behavioral health facility and I'm gonna go to grad school for research in psychology. Thank you for sharing your story, Mike. This is so important.

Thank you for being this vulnerable and sharing your story. There are many cultures that do not take mental health seriously.;That dismisses depression, telling those experiencing it that it’ll go away. I’m sure your story, like your videos, will go a long way to helping someone. I’ve had a pretty tough day and this video has helped me so thanks again. I hope you got a chance to enjoy all your beef.

Thank you for opening up and being so honest about what you’ve gone through. It lets us know that we are not alone when it comes to struggling with anxiety, depression, or anything that hurts our mental health. Thank you.

Thank you for highlighting this mental health issue that seems so taboo to so many people. I am currently in a state of depression, have been for a while now, there are good days and there are bad ones as you say, remembering that the sun will rise does give us something to look forward too. Glad you're doing better and stay positive Mikey.

Thank you for this video. I have been severely depressed for most of my high school years and my entire adult life. I'm 26 now, a lot more emotionally intelligent and high-functioning than I was back then, but I'm still severely depressed. Your story really resonated with me in many ways. I was also the guy that couldn't make himself go to classes in college, it was such a chore, and doing anything that didn't immediately contribute to my mood was something I didn't do. What I did instead was hang out with friends. I didn't drop any classes, I would have a full day of 3 to 5 classes and not go to any of them. It was hard to get people to understand that even though on the surface I was laughing and joking and having a good time, underneath I was barely clinging to life. I would spend nights alone in my apartment just dreading everything, up until the wee hours of the morning just in pain. I never finished college, I wasted 6 years of my life and a lot of money, and have no degree to show for it. It's one of my biggest regrets. But I did learn something. You can't do this alone. If not for the friends (who I now consider family) that helped me along the way, I wouldn't have made it. The first time I dropped out temporarily, my friends were visibly angry with me, because I hadn't been upfront with my feelings. They were mad because had I expressed even a little bit of my problems, they would've done everything in their power to help me. And when I ultimately decided to return, they did just that. Unfortunately I still didn't finish due to some grief related issues, but I only made it this far with help. Thank you for bringing light to that fact. If anyone reads this and are suffering from some of the same things, please don't hesitate to seek help. Be it professional help or just talking through your feelings with those you love and trust, it really does help. And being alone with your depression is probably one of the worst things you can do. Someone loves you, and would do anything to help you through it. So do the same for yourself.

This one went to a place I wasn’t expecting, but greatly appreciated🙏🏽

We appreciate you, Mike. You've actually helped my depression. Thank you.

Incredibly important video, thanks Mike. "No man is an island". To be vulnerable, ask for help, and open up shows so much self-awareness and emotional strength.

hey mikey, been a long time viewer but today's video was the first time i wanted to comment something. thank you so much for opening up about your experience with depression, its really brave tbh. what you were saying about finding the counselling services unhelpful and frustrating was exactly like my experience as well. in all honesty im still working on it. but i also remember talking to the counselling service looking for answers and explanations, like why i was feeling the way i do and how to fix it, and getting frustrated and pushed even further down that hole when i didn't get an instant cure. as you said, its not like that, i had to admit things about myself first and TALK to people if i wanted to begin to pull myself out of this, and its something i'm still trying to do more. thanks again for talking about what can be such an isolating feeling. side note that wagyu beef is BOSSSsss xx keep safe bro

Mike, WOW Its the BEST KZfaq you’re ever did. You took my breath away. Thank you

Thank u for sharing ur story. I didnt realize I had the same mentality of "I'll conquer it myself, I just want to be told the answer." We need more asians to talk about MH issues. Thank you so much!!!

Thank you for sharing your story with us❤️ I’ve had a friend of mine take her own life as well and she was truly one of the happiest people I know and knowing that the happiest people can be the most suffering is a harsh reality. But people like you who seek help and reflect on what’s going on in your life make the world a better place. Thank you for your words and being so honest ❤️

Its True!! I went through some heavy Depression for a long time. Key Point is like you said. Never ever isolate and think you can win this on your own. And your are more than those thoughts and feelings. And there is people who loves you dearly! I had to love and respect myself and believe and mediate and to start talking and asking for help. It does help. You are worthy to be loved and cared for. Thanx for reminding me Mike. Have a great time. And stay strong all!! Be blessed

Mikey, thank you for sharing your story. Your videos have gotten me through some of my darkest moments, and have brought a little happiness to my depressed days on the couch. I am so grateful for your positivity and your channel!

Thank you so much for talking about your struggles, your depression. I've had to deal with all my life, Italians don't think about getting help either. The virus has been hard b/c of the social separation and I live alone. Your videos have been a breath of fresh air to watch, and we learn something to

Honestly, Mike? With all due respect, I can't imagine you being depressed about anything; your videos are so cheerful and so upbeat and funny, I can't imagine that at all. I don't feel so bad now hearing you talk about this, since I've experienced my share (and sometimes still do) of depression, and it's no fun. I've even had suicidal thoughts a couple times in the last 13 years or so. I'm glad you are over it and feeling better, now, and my life wouldn't be the same without you as my foodie guru (as I lovingly refer to you). Thank you for sharing your experience, and it makes me admire you all the more for it.

Mike, thank you SO MUCH for sharing your story with us! Having been on both sides of that fence like you (always the helper, refusing help when needing), it's always so uplifting when people share their stories. I'm a lot like you, always thinking I'm so strong willed, and then one year I started having huge anxiety attacks, out of nowhere... I toughed them out for a while, hiding them from my loved ones, even my wife. When it became too strong to hide, I was worried she would think I was pathetic and weak. Instead, she was so understanding, and helped me seek out help. It still happens, but now I know how to better deal with them thanks to the help I got. Much love and take care!

This channel is literally the best thing that happened to me

Mikey, your videos literally helped me through my darkest depressive episode. At one point my depression was so bad I would lock myself inside my room and rarely leave and basically sleep all day and all night. It felt like I was in a deep psychosis. I am healthy now and your videos were and still are a shining light that helped me get back on my feet when I was so down. Thank you so much for sharing your story! I really look up to you and watching your videos is always such a joy because they are so lighthearted and positive. Thank you for the awesome content and thank you for caring about your fans! ❤️

This is so relevant. I tried to take my life last year and I still struggle with those feelings of depression. While it’s always a pleasure to watch one of your videos, people need to hear these things. Thank you. ❤️

This is one of the best videos I've ever seen on KZfaq.

Thank you for sharing your story, Mikey. I know a lot of people out there, especially now, are struggling with similar things. It’s nice to hear from people who have such large platforms talking about such important issues

Thank you Mike. As someone who has struggled with mental illness for years, all you said resonated with me. Reaching out is SO IMPORTANT! And encouraging those who are reaching out is ALWAYS helpful. Thank you for sharing your truth! ❤️🙂

Love you man. Stay strong and stay safe. Your vids have always brigtened my days when that dark cloud is over me. There is only one person in life that can make you happy and that is yourself, love yourself and the bonus person will come along. If you come to the UK id love to say thank you in person and sort you out with some good UK food.

Mikey, I love how passionate you are about food, about life, about getting well. You are an awesome human being. Don't ever forget that and be well.

Anyone else watch this video constantly for their mental health? I can't afford a counselor but I've been spiraling since April 24th and this and my 2 young daughters have been the only thing that kept me going. This gives me so much hope and motivation. As a newly single mother and someone who was tossed out of everything that she knew and learning to start over with her babies, this was everything.

Thank you so much for sharing your experience with depression and for talking about mental health. You have no idea how much it means to a lot of folks who watch your videos for that small spark of joy in an otherwise dark day.

My scariest moment was when I realised I had everything I needed to be happy, but still wasn’t. That took a lot to get out of. But all good now !! 😁😁

I'm having a lot of issues with anxiety right now, I might look into the meditation you were talking about. Thank you for talking about mental health, it's always important to know you're not alone in these issues and it's okay to get help ❤️

There's so much kindness in you that people feel strong and motivated by this specific content. Of course you put a lot of hard work in everything you've done around here, but this video in particular is very special!! Thank you so much for the person you are, I really love this content

Thank you so much for this. It's a daily struggle sometimes. I needed these reminders.

I relate to your past Mike, I'm in a situation where I am at times, feeling miserable, or rather lost as I am in college. Whether it's due to having little friends or just not being confident in myself, your story gave me a new outlook on how I could change for the better

Thank you for sharing your story with us, I am a person who doesn't open up easily and by that I mean I never do, here is a story that I'll share... one thing that keeps me up every night is the fact me and my gf broke up and yes I miss what we had, when we broke up I felt like I lost a second family (love her family and her) and that part is now lost forever, I wish we could've continued that relationship not just cause of the family but what we had was very special to me and still is.

You are such a blessing to those of us whose lives have been touched by depression. I’m so honored to hear you tell your story and be so open and honest about this very important subject. My brother suffers from depression and it’s so heartbreaking to see him go from his highs to lows. I appreciate your testimony, as I’m sure everyone else does. You are a light in this world, and the world would be so much dimmer if you weren’t here. Blessings and love💜

25:05 stood out to me a lot since my mom always tells me even today that i need to be strong to get through anything, when at the end of the day, you are only human and we experience the lows in life to appreciate the highs. the "stay positive all the time!" mentality these days is actually really damaging because people will have high expectations of themselves for not feeling "up" there all the time - when in reality, that's not how humans work. more on my experience... i'm an asian american female and i appreciate this video a lot, it opens up on mental illness since it is still a big problem in our culture and am not sure why there are dislikes on an important topic. 15 years ago, i had depression through high school and felt the severe effects in my sophomore year to the point where i started skipping school since i didn't feel well. my parents brought me to the nearby hospital and i told the hospital staff i felt like killing myself. was admitted into a mental facility for 3 months (it felt longer to me since everything felt like a haze), outpatient therapy for 6 months, continued with medication for maybe 1-2 years until i said i didn't want to rely on it anymore. years later, i realized that at the time i didn't want to kill myself, i just wanted to get away from everything and i didn't know how to put it into wording since depression really bogged down my mind. i am doing much better now as i learned more about myself and learned how to cope with depression and anxiety, i still have my down days since we're all in quarantine, but i found that it helped me a lot to focus on what makes me happy, to work on myself as a person, and actively avoid the constant negative news on social media and from those around me. i hope anyone who is reading this is learning more about themselves on a deeper level during this quarantine and to remember that it's always more than okay to seek professional help. it's okay to be human and it's okay to feel down, but do try to reach out for help to not stay in the dark for too long.

I'm glad to hear that from a person I thought was never unhappy that way. And more people should hear about this problem and that is not something to be ashamed of. Thank you Mike.

Damn Mike, what you have said there is truly inspirational. Thankyou for sharing your story and putting what is usually an indescribable destructive monster for most people into words. You’re 100% right!.. it’s “OKAY” to let someone else care and take some weight off your shoulders. It’s “OKAY” to open up and share your pain folks. It’s even better discussing your struggles over some tasty food. Nice Vid Mike 👍🏼

Hi Mike, thank you so much for your beautiful share. I’ve grappled with depression for most of my life, and I completely resonate with your experience of growing up Asian in America and not having my despair validated. I eventually worked in the therapy / transformational world (excavating for my salvation in all forms possible), and nothing works as well as sharing my inner experience with people who help me feel safer in the world. I am very grateful for you and sending you love in your corner of the world.

You are so amazing!!! I am actually one of those people who sent you a message about my anxiety AND YOU REPLIED TO ME. And now you have a video talking about mental health and your experience dealing with it. This really means a lot, Mike. To all of us. Thank you! This is one of my favorite videos of you. Stay safe!!!

20:30 - Mike: "I'm an excellent hypnotist!" Viewers, in unison: "WE WILL SUBSCRIBE TO YOUR CHANNEL. WE WILL TAP THE BELL ICON. WE WILL WATCH YOUR VIDEOS. AGAIN AND AGAIN AND AGAIN..."

This is probably the best video you‘ve ever made - respect Mike! Love you!

What a great commentary on the trials of depression. I can really relate to this being a westerner with Asian family relatives and can see how difficult it is for them to deal with depression. I think that their suppression of personal feelings, including depression, comes from the hard lives many have lived and it acts as a barrier to keep persevering in those tough circumstances. When things get easier they still have that barrier that prevents them from accepting that they are struggling with depression. I'm glad to see that you've posted this to help others to accept that they can be having trouble and that it's not something that they alone have to deal with. It's painful to see others keep their struggles to themselves.

Thank you so much for your sharing your story and personal experiences. Although I am not someone who is dealing with depression, that doesn’t mean I don’t have my fair share of mental obstacles. You always seemed so bubbly, fun, social, and just like a ray of sunshine in all of your videos and I would’ve never expected someone as friendly and happy as you to have suffered from depression at some point. Everything you said applies to not just people with depression but to any human being. You’re such a brave and uplifting soul and please keep doing you, you’re freaking awesome Mike. Thank you again.

I am an RN in California and I am very certain that this video saved at least one life!! Thank you Mike!😃👍🏽🙏🏽 We all love and appreciate you so much!!😘

In my early years I grew up in a Chinese house and that was enough to influence me up until the age of 13, that 'we don't cry', 'we don't show weakness'. I think this video is amazing and as a wife of a man who is bi polar I thank you for being brave in your story. you are the first asian that I have seen to talk about mental health issues and I thank you for that. little boys/girls will have watched this and said to themselves, "he's the same colour as me and he has said its ok to have mental health issues'. by you doing this video you have already saved lives, wether it is today or in 10 years time, you have saved lives. well done and thank you. xxx

Thank you so much for sharing! We are here for you and thank you because a lot of us are struggling with the same and it's hard to help someone else with depression if you are dealing with the same! Sometimes I forgot about my depression and help the ones I love but then my depression gets bigger and I stop helping and all of us get worse and well I don't know what to do sometimes but definitely watching your videos help. Thank you so much!!!!

Thank you for sharing your story. From someone who suffers now again with depression I appreciate you sharing your story. You are helping so many people in so many ways. I hope you continue to find what makes you happy!

Thank you so much for this video. My youngest son passed away last week And I've been so lost. I can't work eat or do anything. But this video helped me so much. More than you know. Thank you Mikey you help out so much

i'm so glad that you found your way out of the darkness mike. thank you for bringing so much joy to people through your videos. HUGS

This video made me feel so validated and seen. I did the same thing - my senior year, I got crazy depressed and stopped going to class and dropped most of my classes. I'm still working up to going back full-time but knowing I'm not the only one out there makes me feel so much more confident in going back!

"Treat yourself like someone you love." Love this! Your videos always bring so much happiness, and today you inspire us by sharing your vulnerabilities. Thanks for sharing this Mikey.

This made me emotional. I've been depressed for over a year now and all I can manage to do is work, because I have to (thanks capitalism). But I hate my job and the way my life is now, and I'm so fake/masking my sadness. I feel so trapped and don't know what to do. Nearly all my passion for my hobbies and life in general is gone. I've cut off so many people without explanation. I've booked a therapy session, never tried it before, but you're right that I don't think I can get out of this alone. Thank you for sharing such a personal thing.

Thank you for sharing your experience with mental health struggles. It's helpful to know that someone as awesome as you still had struggles too.

I can not express how proud and thankful I am for you talking about your depressiv episode! And I full understand that this was very difficult for you but please rest assured that you've done something amazing by opening up to your audience! Sending lots of love.

I applaud you! I love watching you on your food quest and the enthusiasm you pour on to the screen with food or the restaurant establishment you are dining. Watching you makes me want to go to Tokyo, Korea, China or wherever you are and eat some of that food. You make it sound soooo good. But today’s video I was in awe of you for being so forthcoming and sharing a part of your life that I figure is very personal, with the hope and joy of possible helping one person. You are my hero for what you did and said. THANK YOU.

*“Holy cow” -Mickey Chen, May 2020* Couldn’t be better said.

This video need to show to everyone who's going through depression

It is so wonderful to know you are doing well and spreading awareness about Depression. As a south Asian, i have been going through the same and only recently seeking professional help. I know the feeling when is gets too much everything seems tooo much to deal with. Its been better and I am looking forward to all the good times. Honestly Mike, your videos have been soo helpful, and watching you enjoy food literally gives me joy. I know i love food and its so nice to see someone enjoy is as much as I do!

I was humgry before the video but now im str8 crying 😭. Thank you soo much for this video man stay blessed 🙏

Thank you. I just recently had an intervention. I have been depressed for many years and it did get worse and people noticed. I have been talking about it with professionals. I will be 70 on my next birthday and I finally get it. I had taken care of my daughter for a few years who suffered with depression so you think I would have learned a few things and when she passed I was left with no purpose because I never thought about me, only her. But now 6 years later I see light and not as much darkness. I would have never harmed myself because I also have a son who loves me and I wouldn't do that to him. Your honesty really touched me and for that I am grateful. Your channel is awesome so keep up the good work.

I love story time! I will put this on my watch later list because my fiancé might be getting annoyed at how much I watch your videos these days. My wedding was supposed to be this Saturday so this is a bit of a depressing week. I hope this video can cheer me up!

Thanks so much for talking about this mike. Stoked you had the confidence to speak so publicly about this and bring awareness to mental health. Really needed to hear this right now too. Big love mike!

MIKEY!! Ive been a sub to most of your channels and watch you travel/eat on a consistent bases! THIS VID however, is my favorite! You are so vulnerable and speak the truth! Thank you for speaking on mental health and sharing your story!

Awwww I hope you can overcome your depression and you have helped me through mine thank you so much

Wow, Mike, this conversation is so necessary. Thank you

This video as always is amazing! I'm so glad you shared something so deeply personal, I'll admit I cried my eyes out! Also that steak...omg no words

I'm happy that you got through it. Very generous of you to open up and share. It took me years to realize I was in depression and years to seek medical help. Eventually did, took years to plateau. Thank God I got relief.

Wow Mike, I have never seen anyone express their feelings like this, you have brought tears to my eyes. Bless you I felt everything you said to my core 😊🙏

I also live my life mostly as a minority, I'm Chinese, ppl did not treat chinese well where I live, my dad pass away when I'm 12, my mom hate me, my relatives also hate me, completely different behavior when my dad was alive, broke me, but as time goes on. This is not a good thing, but I started to resent all ppl around me, my mom, my relatives, they are saying a lot of horrible things about me treating me like a garbage, but then I don't know what happen to me, I think something that hit me makes me hate them so much, I learned to live alone, I only see ppl as a tools for my own success, I study so hard I got government pays for my college, I went from a really bad student to the best one in my field, driven by my hatred, in my mind it was "One day I will rise so high at the top and I will get my revenge, and trample upon all your life". Today I got a amazing job, pays well, but what I realize is that what help me back then was not my hatred alone, it was 2 of my friends that are so kind to me it melt away my hatred, or else I would have either burn myself out or kill myself.

Thank you, thank you so much for opening up! I have been feeling this way for a year now and that's the first time ive even said that. Being a single mumma of 5 i feel like I have to always be strong. I cried watching you talk about your experience, not from sadness but hope. You just gave me hope that i will be okay. I will find my happiness again. Thank you 🙏🙏💜

Hey Mike I really enjoyed your story. “Model of happiness”.. I went through that too. Keep your stories coming... it’s like having a conversation with you!