As someone who was unfortunate to have to deal with the suicide of my brother at the start of the year I will take my hat off to the officers that attended. From the moment the arrived to the moment they left they was 100% professional. They seem to have put all emotion to the side and carry out their respective jobs without hesitation. If this video can save just 1 life that’s 1 more person that a family can still live with and friends can make memories with. Please if you are struggling please please get help.

The moment you’re standing there - the wrong side of the bridge’s railings.. everything is muted. It’s pure silence apart from that internal hum. It’s like your brain goes in to shock and thinks “shit, I’ve gone too far here”.. it just stops everything. There are no feelings, no concept of how your loved ones will cope.. it’s nothingness. Thankfully I was so zoned out with what I planned to do that I didn’t hear people running towards me. As I let go my hoodie got snagged on a bar and within a second or so I was pulled back over and pinned to the floor by those people running.. Initially I felt anger but then a wave of intense relief I was still alive.. I got the help I needed and now 4 years later, I don’t recognise that person on the wrong side of that bridge’s railings. Thankyou for talking so candidly about mental health issues. Hopefully one day it will be the norm in this country.

We lost a mate 4 years ago who was a Police dog-handler (PC1066). Everyone who knew him was devastated and he's missed like crazy. Male suicide is now the biggest killer of men, so thanks for speaking out about the subject.

Such a harrowing subject, I don’t think anyone really wants to end their life, they simply want and end to the pain they are feeling 💔🖤

True story I went to a lake to end my life I was sat next to the water eating a sandwich a goose came up to me n sat with me we shared food and talked I now feed him 3 times a week he now eats from my hand and is a clumpsy impatient soul

I had never thought a lot about suicide until I worked with the police on the scene. As a trauma counsellor confronted with the issue of suicide. It hit hard, and I struggled with my emotions, mainly for the family and friends left behind. I do not judge those that take their own lives, but I grieve for the hopelessness that they must have felt at the time. 😢

I'm really struggling with my metal health right now. This has hit home big time. Exspecally the part where u said a lot of these people don't have anyone they can talk to. But u did manage to put a smile on my face when u said u gave that guy a hug.I no I shouldn't but I feel like a right gimp for this comment .....

I lost my dad to suicide and a few friends over the years, I’m only 21. I’ve had a couple of attempts and I’m so glad I’m still here, getting the help I need . I remember being bear hugged by one of the police officers at 16 after being found on the motorway. I feel awful to this day but there are people willing to risk their life for someone they don’t even know.

Had a near miss with a family member. The most harrowing night of my life, but years of working through everything with the person involved has made me strong enough to cope with anything.

Thankyou for doing this video Ben. Luckily for me when I sank into depression 5 years ago someone I worked with saw what was going on , told my boss and I was given the help before it got to that point. I'll never be able to thank them enough. I used to be mentally strong so never needed to talk stuff out. Now I do , I will talk about my dealings with this to anyone who asks , I will usually get upset but its such a massive massive help. My issue im working through now is I was trying to be who I was again and not being who I am now and getting on with life. Its weird when the very thing that usually tells you whats wrong malfunctions eh. if you ever find yourself in Edinburgh id love to buy you a beer and have a chat.

I'm 54, I've wanted out since I was 13, mental health is so different, People like me have caused yours

Ben yet again you make a profoundly important video. I work as a therapist and lost a client to suicide and it profoundly affected me because I was trying to help her. It's such a horrible thing. It's painful for everyone. A think our society is a big part of the problem. Often people say "talk to a professional" and yes that can help but what really helps is changing the pressures on people in our society - which is more stressful than ever with a lot of pressure added by sick social media algorithms.

Thank you for this video. I’ve been in this dark situation twice. 2nd time round I had counselling. Even now I have those dark days, but I know the signs, and I’m able to pull myself out of it. Depression is an awful thing. I always say, once you’ve suffered from it, you never fully recover from it, you just know how to deal with it. Obviously, some people are unable to. There isn’t a problem in the world that can’t be sorted by talking to someone. It’s just so unbelievably sad that some people don’t see that as an option 😢😢

Got a lot of respect for you Ben, the worlds a better place with you in it.

Thanks for posting this Ben 💚.

Keep the good work up Ben

Amazing work Ben 👍🏻

Thanks Ben for this! It’s really hard sometimes but we can all pull through! ❤

Mate,I’m lost for words 😢 Great video as always 👍

Important subject. I appreciate this and all you've done to help out. Watching stars out on the moors sounds lovely, and almost kind of sacred in the context you mention.

Sad sad carry-on, much appreciate you sharing this Mr Pearson, thank you.

Bloody hell Ben, you've witnessed the result of utter despair. Stay strong mate.

Massive respect for this 👍Suicides and attempts are such a difficult thing to talk about, thank you for helping to raise awareness and showing people that it's alright to chat about this stuff, Especially as a northern lad, more of us need to open up

Thank you for doing this video Ben, I've seen multiple suicide attempts as a medic myself and its always hard to process what you're actually seeing, it's nice to see a video with someone else's outlook who understands.

You did a proper job helping the poor people who needed you at some point Ben, thank you for your service, one last point ben I m sure you have said in a few of your pod`s all you need to do is talk to someone and thats never a truer word fella.

This is one of a few channels I watch every new upload, only just put video on as I'm writing this and I know it'll be worth the watch!

Heart felt video thanks again

Ben you truly are a wonderful person. Your compassion is genuine and heartfelt, I can’t imagine what you have seen during your career. I have suffered from depression and listening to you talking does me a power of good. Keep up the great work you do. Thank you and God bless you ❤x

You really are doing so much good with your work You'll never know it but there's a real chance that someone watches this video and it may just pull them back from doing some thing and instead may get the help they need I've given you comments before on your videos I was a bobby until I was injured I'm now with the NHS working in community mental health so I really appreciate how important you talking about your experiences will help you as well as helping others Keep going fella

I'm watching this and fighting back the tears. Just good to remind yourself that other people know what you're feeling. I've struggled on and off over the years, and it's the good times that come that give me a little more strength to keep fighting on. I have a bag with three things hidden in my house in case I reach that last moment of not wanting to have to fight to be happy anymore. I have no plans to get the bag any time soon, but it feels like a tiny relief to know it is there. I'm working hard on remaking myself into a happier person so that I can throw it in the bin. I'm more open, and the world is less judgemental about mental health. People like Ben and other people I've had in my life have been wonderful and have let a little light into the dark, stuffy room that feels like my head. Much love to everyone out there who is going through a bad time. We can get through it! We don't quit so easily! 😊

I lost one of my oldest school mates a few weeks ago to suicide. He was one of the kindness gentle people you could ever meet. That makes it all the more tragic because i wish the world was full of people like him.

Well said Ben - that's all I'm prepared to say x

thank you for the chat🤗 😎👌

Thanks Ben. Your videos certainly give me 'food for thought' the topics you cover, your experiences are things that most people wouldnt even imagine exist. I wonder why there is a 'warning' at the start of the video. This kind of discussion needs to be had by all in an open and truthful forum. These issues are becoming more prevalent in todays society and burying heads in the sand can only lead to more heartache. Keep up the great work.

I know someone who has had numerous suicide attempts bridge jumps attepted hanging saved by someone else just in time yet to talk to the person you would never know they have done it. Ben with regard to the gentleman with the gun It's no wonder people like your good self have ptsd yet another brilliant vlog on the darkerside of the force ♥

Was nearly me in 2018. So glad I went home instead.

You are a very good videographer.❤

The police need people with the compassion you have Ben… the sad irony is that’s it’s that compassion that can bring you down, you can only carry so much weight, emotionally speaking. I work with children and young adults with a range of neurological and psychological issues, some of whom have been through unimaginable abuse and many who have spent their entire lives in foster care, with no roots. It weighs heavy on me sometimes and I had a breakdown earlier this year (following the death of my best friend from cancer, it all got a bit too much to deal with).

As someone who's suffers with mental health. You don't think about what professionals go through. This opens my eyes a little bit. But also fighting the demons in my head is difficult

That was a powerful one, Ben, thank you for sharing your thoughts. I've never felt like committing suicide, although I've come close in the past. To be honest, I don't think I actually could, I'd be too scared of buggering it up and ending up paralysed for life.

Must have been hard for you doing this particular cast knowing what you personally have been through Be well everyone

I was a senior nurse in psychiatric liaison for many years, I also worked alongside the police for a few months on secondment. There are many people I helped get past crisis point, but I still remember each person who sadly ended their lives and I was the last person they saw, it never leaves you

Another great video Ben and a really important subject that often gets overlooked is those that have completed suicide and those that are found before or during an attempt. When you were serving did you find it harder to deal with the things that people had done to themselves or the things that people had done to another?

I went to that Bridge. I had the note survived with out announcement . After Keef Fkont of prodigy fame took his aswell o opened up finally. Great video Ben . Greetings from an ' ex crim' in the Netherlands 🇳🇱 first .dude..just loving/living his life with out the over policing in the 🇬🇧 .

i’ve been struggling with my mental health for the last 7 years. i’m 21 now and in a really dark place, thoughts are there. the services we have aren’t adequate

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My son hung himself on the 31st December 2017. Most of my family had gathered at my house for a party. His partner and kids was already with us and we was waiting for my son to finish his sleep after an early start for work. Hard as it was on family & friends to cope with, I am forever grateful to the paramedics who rushed to his house and tried their best to save him. I am also grateful to the female police officer who came to my house and made sure everyone was ok. At the time no one thinks of how hard it must be for the emergency workers to deal with.

Thanks for sharing. Just lost a 19 yr old who jumped from a high rise. Been a hard two weeks so far x

I hate that saying "if they are going to do it they'll just do it" for people who are suicidal and the thoughts have become so intense that you want to die, reaching out for that help might be the last rational moment they have. After hearing that saying the next time they attempt they might not reach out. It's almost as toxic as telling a man to "man up"

The past 5 years the amount of suicide threat calls each month have exploded. So many people out there are just broken. Please reach out for help if you need it.

I've lost a few friends to suicide, no note left and they hadn't reached out to anyone, just done it. Absolutely gut wrenching

Really appreciate the videos you do. What sticks out most is the ripples of the consequences of peoples actions. Often the negative impact of someone’s actions can have an impact on other people and the future path they take in ways you can never tell. Best thing is to talk things through and try to remember the sun is always shining above those clouds. It might just take some time to see it again.

Suicide is absolutely heartbreaking. Myself from a traveller community will tell you many of us don’t talk. And people from my community have one of the highest rates of suicides in the country. Anyone who is struggling it’s hard to tell them that someone somewhere loves them. I for one absolutely wish i could change the world for the sort of stuff. And my heart goes out to people like this that had to see it first hand. Your not ending the pain your passing it on..

Il never be convinced u lads am lasses are hero's

Ben u r a abuslote credit and I agree with you well said

I only dealt with the police once and that was for advice on trying to get off the streets. I had been told to go there by the Sussex County Hospital after trying to take my life and the officer on the desk said they couldn't help and the hospital should stop telling people they can! Fast forward a few years and a long story short, I gave up on trying to find support and that actually helped as I now accept I only have me and nobody else.

People that slag of the Police want to try dealing with this for a few shifts.

Could you do a video on tips for rookies, please? I'm in training currently, going on shift in December and don't want to mess up!

I have had a family member do it way back in 2007 and when he was trying the officers in north wales kinda just brushed it all off and didn’t actually take in to account how he was feeling

dealt with a few one unders (struck by train) so hard to see and deal with.

been in that position with another engineer we found a scaffholder that had hung himself, what really botherd me is the big wigs wouldnt let us get him down and made us leave the area because we was adamant about it, not like there was any chance to save him at that point everything was perfectly still, it was clear too much time had passed for that but there is no golden hour to show respect he didnt need to be left there any longer. later found out it was over a woman leaving him she dropped it on him while he was at work and if thats not bad enough he told her that he was going do it and she done nothing about it... im really not for hitting woman but i would slap her soul into another dimension, i worked on that scaffholding for weeks

My best mate took his own life in 2020 whilst out serving in Estonia. I always think to myself 'should've I done more to see warning signs or should've I talked to him about what was going on back home' always beating myself up I couldn't do anything about it. SPEAK OUT THERE IS HELP OUT THERE!

Hi Ben. Thanks for all your work. For me life is hard. I do get help but I do struggle with the negative suicide thoughts.

I work security in the a shopping Mall, you’d be surprised how many times with been called to the toilets with people having slit their wrists. Or have jumped off the car park.

I’ve arrived first as a member of public to a suicide. It will forever stay with me.

I've just about finished my successful application for Polige Scotland a d can honestly.sau this type.of job is what I'm most anxious about having to deal with as like you said you never know what the person has / is going through and no case will ever need the same.... Amy tips or advice how for anybody like me who will probably be dealing with with these types calls to best handle these incidents Ben?

Is there a specific division in the Police for mental health officers. I'm currently doing a mental health first aid course and I'm planning on taking the qualification into the police. To be first on scene to situations where an individual wants to take their own life.

I’ve stood on scammonden bridge, fully intending to take my life, To this day I don’t have memories between walking up to the railing and being halfway over, to then being back in my car and driving away. I don’t know what stopped me but I’m glad it did.

HMP……14yrs……Dealt with hundreds of these, each one different, each one deeply personal, each one…….fucking shit…….fucking sad…….fucking bollox……just talk to me mate, I’m here for you…….xx

My brother commented suicide when I was 10 that was 11 years ago now. I will never understand why he did what he did. It’s destroyed my mother and she will never recover from it

I think one of the hardest elements of this must be attending child/teen suicides and having to communicate with the families. My school peer group had a spate of 3 suicides within 6 months at 16/17 yrs old including my best friend. Devastating for all involved but must have been awful for attending officers. I am forever grateful for the professional job they did though x

I've messaged you on Instagram for help Ben and I hope you reply. I find your videos comforting to listen too when I'm not thinking straight or just generally struggling. I'm really struggling right now, the part where you talk about people not having anyone to talk to really hit home for me and I broke down into tears when you talked about how you hugged the guy with the knife. I appreciate how you talk so openly about mental health and suicide and I particularly like your rucksack analogy. I hope you see this comment and my message on Instagram

Ask for help. Ask again. And keep asking for help until you get it.

Element around um Ben ? An aura like an echo of they're feelings ?

Have you ever had to deal with someone attempting suicide by cop? It's more common in a the states I think.

no its not strange being a registered nurse i speak to my dead patients as if they were still living , i even talk about the weather outside , everything i am performing to them , its the children which hurt me ! i talk about games about brothers sisters mums dads all sorts i think it helps me deal with the pain !

Having to deal with the DWP when your suicidal is the most humiliating, demoralising experience. If I were to say I have an incurable condition that could kill me at any moment. You might think, holy shit! What is it? I have depression. Tell that to the DWP and they'll just say, No. No you don't. I don't believe you. You can dress yourself and touch your head, your fit for work.

The police do a fantastic job on a daily basis

My dad took his life

Could you do a video about men being abused by women and faking sexual assaults n rape?

With the way things are now, I honestly don't get why we can't just make suicide clinics legal in the UK, like they do in Scandinavia. Honestly, it makes a lot of sense a lot of days.

As sad as suicide is, especially in the rates in young men, is it really the polices job to solve it? Just shows the lack of real mental health services in the UK is horrific. Police nowadays are paramilitary social workers, no wonder the crime solving rate is 6% (down from 14%) shocking

One of the police women that attended my mum's suicide was overheard by a friend discussing it and the state she was in at the school gates in the village we all lived in. I was totally heartbroken to begin with but this really disgusted me. I often wish I'd spoken up and taken her to task but I just didn't have the energy at the time!!

I'd be interested to know what kind of training, if any, you recieve as an officer to deal with mental health crisis you respond to? I imagine it's zero. In truth, the Police shouldn't be dealing with mental health crisis unless there's a threat to the public. The NHS and mental health teams should be dealing with it. But I know they are also stretched and the Police are the constant fallback option for basically everything nowadays.

Audio is awful....All muffled and deep bass....

No disrespect, but I thought you had metal health issues. I watch your videos to help understand, however, videos like this don't help.

I lost one of my best mates to suicide 5 months ago me and him could relate on so many levels I even had the police ring me last year in April when a member of public reported him to the police and they spoke to his his mum and sectioned him the police officer I spoke to over the phone was very understanding when I told him he had mental health issues.He was the happiest person you could ever meet RIP Sam there isn't day I don't think of you.

As someone who has BPD amd PTSD, I've attempted suicide 9 times. The 2nd last time my best friend found me, no heartbeat, phoned an ambulance and luckily they were at my address in 3 mins. The last time i tried, i must have phoned an ambulance after taking 202 tablets (i don't remember anything that day or for 2 days afterwards. All i ask is please, please please talk to someone if you feel this way. For the frontline workers like Ben, the NHS etc it's horrific to deal with and for the family and friends you'll lrave behind it's incredibly upsetting. Please seek help. If i can find a path through my shit, you can too. Love and hugs for you all.

Asking for help is one thing. Getting it is quite the other. I had an appointment with my GP this morning and he took me off the happy pills (Citalopram). I told him they were doing absolutely nothing for me at all. He said it's probably because of the alcohol. Going forward, I should focus on my counselling regarding the alcohol and when I've got that sorted, we can try the happy pills again. The alcohol is my happy pill. They say it's the alcohol making me depressed. I know it's the depression that's making me go to the alcohol (and it works). This is not the first time I've been through this. I know exactly where it is going. I don't feel suicidal or that. That ship sailed a long time ago. I don't even bang my head off the proverbial brick wall anymore. There is no point, I've become numb to it all. I'll give it another month or 2 and the circle will be completed (again). The good news is, on the next cycle, I'll give even less fucks than I did this one. I think they are trying to make me find depression boring and I'll eventually give up and move on to something else. Personally, I don't think that strategy will work, but they are the experts after all. What do I know?

Depression is a nutrient deficiency. Or hormonal.