'I think the saddest people always try their hardest to make people happy because they know what it's like to feel absolutely worthless and they don't want anyone else to feel like that.' - Robin Williams

You are officialy my favorite actor. Its so good that a famous actor like you stepping up and talk about psykological disorders ❤

I'm diagnosed with bipolar disorder and in 3 of my depressive episodes I made attempts on my life. I was tired of cycling from mania into depression (ontop of a lot of trauma) over and over again. But when I was in another depressive episode a few years back, I had this realization that came over me: we're closer to jesus when we're suffering. I still get episodes, but if jesus could bear the cross for us, I can bear depression.

Mental health is definitely exhausting. Always good to hear success stories

I've been suffering from Depression for sometime now. I've been seeing a therapist. Even though I have some things going on in my life, I have to fight the sadness that torments me at night, trying to convince me to end it. The morning comes and I found the spiritual strength to go on. I found myself going back to Church and listening more. It's a spiritual battle, but I'm determined to win. And its good to know I'm not alone. I will say this. Never focus on the people who don't like you. That gives them power over you. Thank you for posting this Alan Ritchson. It means everything for you to share this. God Bless. 🙂

Thank you for sharing your struggles and victory.

I never thought someone like you could talk to us so personal. Thank you. Needed this. Makes me wonder about how Jesus is closest to us than we think.

it's wild to hear someone I view as physically gifted & talented had a suicidal period in their life.

We just finished first two seasons of Reacher! Praise the Lord he accepted Jesus!! This just made my day!! Hallelujah 🎶

I’m hurting so bad . Been hurting myself . Burdening others. I need to hear this now . Thank you , Alan . Our God is a suffering God . And we are with Him . Amen

We are in training. No pain no gain. Praise God for the struggle that gives us the strength to serve others on His behalf. “We also glory in our sufferings, because we know that suffering produces perseverance; perseverance, character; and character, hope. And hope does not put us to shame, because God’s love has been poured out into our hearts through the Holy Spirit, who has been given to us.” (Romans 5:3-5)

It’s so important to share the truth. Those of us who suffer from depression need to hear this. The breakdown of suffering. I’m exhausted in all fairness. Raising children alone is not easy. Inflation and crime on the rise, has literally affected my health. It’s time to seek God and counseling. This program just helped me hold on. Thank you so much. 🙏🏽

Thank you Alan for being to honest and open about your journey. I have my highs and lows with depression and keep trying to focus on my family which gives me a reason for living. The minute the dark thoughts come I have to recognize them for what they are and do my best to replace those thoughts with faith and remembering my purpose here. Families are eternal and they, along with Christ, give me the strength to overcome. Thanks for what all you're doing to help so many including myself.

I listened to this today on the way to driving my daughter to daycare, after I was done I cried, I cried more then I have since the day I almost took my life five years ago, I have battled with depression and anxiety on my own since I was 8 years old and I even believe that my family would be better off with me gone, after listening to your podcast earlier this year I finally went to a therapist and got help, this last month has been the hardest of my life with me barely scraping by and going without eating just so my wife and daughter could be fed, I broke after my daughter birthday last week and I hate myself for thinking they be better with me dead, after listening to this my eyes were open and I can’t thank you enough for giving me the courage and impacting my life

Alan, I just came across your channel and I absolutely love it. I want to thank you for being obedient to the Lord’s calling and putting out this content. More men should be so transparent and honest with life’s challenges. I attribute this also to the difference in peace when we work within our own power, and when we rely on Gods strength.

We are enjoying Reacher-so excited to find that you love Jesus! ❤ Proud of your vulnerability and so happy for your victories in this area! Your testimony and courage in sharing in this way is going to help so many people. Keep being brave in sharing truth and your faith journey! Praying for God to protect and bless you in this ministry!

Thank you brother for sharing. I know that is not in anyway easy. Thank you again.

I just discovered this channel, it's what i was looking for and needed, thank you Alan, you are definitely my favorite actor

Bless you brother, keep fighting the good fight.. I’m praying for you and your family daily, You are a lamp set high on a hill!! Keep seeking the kingdom of God.❤❤❤❤

Happy Sunday, Alan. Thank you again for your transparency and vulnerability. I want to stand on my tiptoes and give you an enormous hug. You're right, there's a suffering that sucks the life out of you that we have to recognize as a big ol' danger sign. And then there are the troubles that come from being on the right track, but his yoke is easy and his burden light. God sends us the weighty stuff to make us stronger, but 300lbs suddenly on your chest squeezes the life out of you. Nowhere online are you free from attacks, are you? Keep thinking and writing and sharing, my friend. For us, for you, for him. You're a good guy. I will never not support you. Take care of yourself. Tracy🐝

I do not believe in the supernatural but I do believe in the goodness and strength that lives in the human heart and you sir, are showing exactly what that looks like. God or not, your bravery in sharing your experience is my take away here. Thank you for living with such an open heart.

I absolutely love your content. Thank you. So happy to see an actor like you sharing Christian things like this. ❤ Keep up the good work! 👍 Glory to God in the highest. On a side note, we can all offer any of our suffering to God, together with Jesus' suffering, for the conversion of sinners, for the sick and dying, etc.

Every single day I wake up and think my corner of the world would be better off without me. I force myself to work out, get manic, feel like I'm on top of the world, have a decent day and then at night I lie down and the thoughts come rushing back and it all coalesce when I wake up again. "I'm a piece of shit, I should just end it" and stuff like that. The weirdest part to me is that... I've never harmed anyone other than myself. I've always tried my hardest to be good and helpful to those around me... but for some reason, I just can't be good to myself. It's a god damn vicious cycle and I wonder how long until I finally break and get the guts or desperation to take the final plunge. Your video really helps. Thank you sir. I wish I could believe made up middle eastern folklore and find a way out of it, but my brain just won't allow me.

My daughter took her own life and I can see her having the attitude about herself and life that you described here, despite it obviously not being the case at all.

I just watched your interviews on Inside Of You Clips, and I went through the exact same thing xmas 2022. I was at a point where I was debating why I was here, what good did I bring and why should I be here. Thinking what way would be simpler, quicker and in a way, the cleanest way to go with causing my wife too much hassles for her to deal with. I completely shut down, stayed in bed for days and only getting up when my wife got home at first, but then even that was too hard... So I thought putting myself in front of a truck and it was a hard and dark time... very dark time. I opened up to God again because I let go for a long time, but I felt like even he wasn't listening to my cries of help at that moment. I was Lucky my wife was there and didn't give up on me, talked with me, made me slowly open up and got me to see a doctor. So yeah, I feel that hearing you mention this dark time you went through, kinda helps... because, and please don't take this is a bad way, but if someone like Alan Ritchson can feel this way, then anyone can feel this way and sometimes come out of it. I'm still searching for my reason right now and can't seem to hear or feel God's presence... I ask, i've asked him to take control and lead where I need to be to become who I am supposed to be... It isn't easy.

When I heard your story on Inside of You w/ Michael Rosenbaum. Such a powerful story and the beauty of how open you are, and how you’ve become. It’s inspiring. Much love to anyone listening. #hawkforever

I have never been depressed or suicidal. I am very thankful for that. I think much of that depends on my career success and Faith. Even when I was out of a job I believed the next great job was around and corner and it was. The suffering I've endured is multiple failed back surgeries which has resulted in chronic pain which has put me in a wheelchair at times. The 10 leg surgeries also took their toll as well as the multiple implants. The last implant was a spinal cord stimulator which has been a godsend. Faith, above all, reminds me that one day it will all be gone and I won't suffer again.

Thank you for making this video! Really spoke to something I was dealing with earlier today. May God continue to bless you and your family!

this video appeared on my feed just when I needed to hear these words from someone. Thank you.

Luv this guy ! He’s so transparent!! It’s incredibly hard to put one foot in front of the other when suffering depression! People say “ just do it “ and that’s the worst thing to hear !

I am glad you have sorted out your problems so you can function so well. The face doesn’t tell the story in most cases. The inner person can suffer and the face looks great. I am so glad you are ok now. You will always have your issues but you can handle it. You are someone I would always want on my side if an issue that was important to me. You are huge and intimidating but I think you are a sweet and caring man. That’s what’s important to me.

This video really hit me hard. For years i get spells of depression and have imagined what i would do or even if it would be good for the family for me to sacrifice myself to ease our stressers. At the heaviest moments when i couldnt walk any further my wife always picks me up. God send her to me and we are blessings to each other and shift the weight back and forth. I pray everyone finds someone to help them through hard times be it a friend, family member or even someone sitting next to them on a bench. If you as, God will send help.

Thank you so much for sharing your story! May GOD continue to bless you and your family brother!

Without being long winded about it. I was drawn to this video somehow. I really needed to hear this today. Thanks for taking the time to help others.

Alan ran away from his restrictive parents, who put him to daiy mass. His testimony, now we hear, tells me that his religious parents raised him right. They deserve praise and honor.

Everyone should take 13 mins and watch this. I love Alan so much and am so grateful that God saved him from suicide and his mental health struggle to be who he is today.. He’s such a needed voice in the world in these days. Alan playing Reacher is a divine appointment for Lee Child and those Alan works with and those who love Reacher. If i could spend time with anyone in the world it would be him.

This brought tears to my eyes. I know what he is saying intimately - thank you Alan

Blessings!! Hope you and your family have a very Happy Thanksgiving!!

I see the comment below me. I saw a quote once from Robin Williams that said.. 'I always thought the worst thing in the world was BEING alone.. It's NOT, it's being surrounded by people who make you feel alone." That was over a year ago when I was separated from my wife. It stuck with me. You are one of my favorite actors. This KZfaq post struck a nerve, in a good way. May God Bless you (And that is coming from someone that is almost 100 percent Agnostic).

Reading the Bible daily just one page at least has truly changed my life for the better. Brought me out of a dark place. Now Ilive by the motto, "no bible, no breakfast!" I that is thanks to listening to Ray Comfort witnessing to people on KZfaq and leading to my purchase of an evidence based study bible from Living Waters ministry. God is good! Much love to all ❤❤

Love you brother! Thank you for sharing this.

Praise be to God for you brother Alan! 🙏

Thank you for the truth you speak & the boldness you have! You are an amazing role model having a phenomenal impact on young men who so desperately need it in this confusing world! You are showing them how to be real man and serve Christ! Praying for Gods blessings over the platform He has given you & thank you for the impact you have made on my 24 year old son! ❤

I'm feeling that way. Getting divorced after 24 years. One of my three worst nightmares. Being honest my marriage hasn't been perfect. We had fertility issues for 10 years. God finally gave us 2 kids (without fertility drugs). Then my wife had cancer. After her cancer I dropped dead from blood clots in my heart. And now divorce after all this. I don't understand. Everything is dark. I see no light.

Yeah those kind of thoughts plague me daily. Last 2 days I was battling depression and suicidal thoughts so hard that I had 2 days of headache and a vein popped in my eye making it bloody. I feel a bit better today. It is helpful to learn that person of such renown and success like you Alan is not immune to those kind of thoughts and that we have to turn to the Lord for help. God bless you for sharing your thoughts and experience on this channel. It does help others around the globe.

Love this dude even more now

A life made solely about yourself is an empty one. We are social animals, we exist for each other.

God bless you Alan, and thank you for sharing.

💚🐑 I believe this to be true & everyone has a calling & you found yours

You are so, so brave. Thank you!

Oh brother, thank you for preaching, Amen.

I wanted to do the world a favor like you described when I was a preteen. Praise God I failed. It has crossed my mind occasionally over the years while I was enduring highly stressful heart wrenching situations. The Lord has been faithful to give me one thought to change my direction. I'll keep you in my prayers brother. Thank you for your honesty and full disclosure. I pray that God will continue to bless you.

My mans the total package, looks..heart..teddy bear but can be a grizzly bear..dealt with adversity, persevered & showed the greatest super power a human can have..sharing compassion & being an example of resilience. One of the only ppl I truly respect in Hollywood, keep up the good work my man & continue to spread the message while maintaining your authenticity!! ❤❤❤

Alan, what a delight to hear from your heart . . . and to even get some snippets of sound theology coming from your lips. God bless you dear brother.

Thank you so much, I needed this! God bless

This explains Robin Williams so well

Thank you for everything , Alan . I am returning to ministry tomorrow . Praise the Lord . Psalm 103

Reacher the Preacher! I coined that phrase while I was watching the series on Amazon and this video confirms it. It’s like that role was made specifically for Alan. One thing is for sure, when this man is standing in the pulpit I’ll be cheering him on in the congregation! ❤️🙏❤️

Thank You for you words. 🙏🏼❤️

This video came to me at one of the lowest points of my life. Thank you so much for sharing.

I’ve wanted to die so many times and yes it would be a benefit for me to leave this place! Brother you are an inspiration of hope! The world is such a better place because you’re in it! You make a difference!

I'm just finding out of this channel today. Never knew this about him. I am dealing with the same kind of depression.

Praise be to our glorious God.. so glad he opened your eyes

ALAN IS BEATIFUL IN SO MANY WAYS.....I ADMIRE HIM.....HE GIVES ME COMFORT WHEN I HEAR HIM SPEAK....GOD BLESS HIM ALWAYS !!!

Thank you so much for your courage to be real and your faith witness. This is very inspirational. Jesus is my anchor.

God bless you, my brother in Christ. Been following you for enough time to know of your suffering and your tests. Sometimes I ask if it is God testing us, or is just the difficulties of the world, and how the world is, and God gives us strength to grow and evolve and understand that the world is not that important for us.

Beautiful way to describe this

Been a fan since blood drive Alan! Wouldn't exactly call myself a Christian in the traditional sense but I do read the good book and was pleasently surprised to see you're so spiritually minded and a seeker too. Love these instachurches, and I'm sad to see you get some hate for your compassionate approach to all this. This material world is certainly not the answer. Never stop! Bless.

Why do I feel like... everything you just said... is literally what I'm going through right now? At least, for the part where you mention about enemies and suffering. I really want my friend back, and I can't get her back. I can't because she refuses all contact with me when I try to make amends, have some closure and move on. So, the default option is to let it go. And that, I'm struggling with greatly. Every time I try to let go, it clings back onto me. I want it go away so I can focus on greater things. And another struggle, I wasted 8 years with someone. Yeah, I'm still young for a 27 year old, but that's time I can't get back. I just wonder why my ex-partner won't tell me why we needed to separate. And he can't give me an answer for it. We're just... strangers now. We may say we're friends now but... I feel like we're just strangers again. And here I am, feeling like I just floating though time once again. My friend circle has reduced to what feels almost nothing since COVID hit. And none of them died to it. It's just the mentality tore us apart. Maybe in some capacity, we all did kill ourselves. But not me. Don't ever put me in the void, unless I put myself there.

Thanks for being you we love your work we all need your faith and love of God and family ❤

Thank you🙏 very thoughtful I could listen to an hour as you explain our faith journey, you talk in simply understood terms. This world is becoming very unstable and divisive. We are all worthy of the love of God because he made us and Loves everyone of us. Just let his Love in. God Bless you Alan a particular hard week and you have made a peaceful place in the turmoil 🙏

Such a Chad, such an inspiration. Keep peaching🙌

Absolutely love you brother in Christ. I’ve been in those dark places too. I am not ashamed. Like you, by God’s grace, I made it out and I will forever praise my King, Jesus of Nazareth, for delivering me. Like you, it made me reorient my life. I now realize what a gift it was. If you ever get to the Bay Area let me know. I teach a Christian theology class to a group of men at San Quentin. They would love to hear your story, Breaker of Chains. They will very deeply identify with that name. Thank you for your courage brother. May God continue to bless you and your family. Keep going!

God bless you and your wife. I disagree with some of your thoughts but my brother in Christ. I'm so thankful you're here at the same time as me. I listen to you and I agree with so much of what you say and I listen as a student and I disagree as peer. In the end I hope to see you in the Kingdom of Heaven as a brother. You are loved and your loving care to others is shown. Please for so many please keep up the work the God as asked of you. Thank you.

Thank you so true alan 🙏🙏🙏

May I add a "disclaimer"? Alan Ritchson is sharing his personal story but he is not a health care professional. If you are thinking of harming yourself or someone else, get help from a doctor, counselor, minister. Don't just look for advice on KZfaq and try to figure it out yourself. There are a LOT of tools that are combined to attain wellness. Do NOT try to tough it out on your own. Talk to someone. Anyone. And accept help. The best thing you can do for your loved ones is give them a Heathy You. Don't give up. Take good care of yourself, friend. 🙏 🐝Tracy (Nor am I a professional, but I am here.)

I’ve been really depressed these last couple weeks I’m scared of myself and what I’ll do I’m too ashamed and embarrassed to talk to anyone cuz I feel weak and a burden

kind of you to share your story! I'm sure you had to breakthrough some kinda wall for publishing this. I know that you know that this will help many. with not just temporary effects but eternal effects! worth it! cheers

Thank you Alan. I am not a believer in God but your honesty is so refreshing and encouraging.

I “live” with bipolar 1 every single day and I’ve spent time in a Psych unit because I was suicidal. I still struggle with those thoughts off and on, thank God for my emotional support dog. He has been the one thing that has saved my life more times than I care to admit.

Our heart's are restless until they rest in you Jesus. St. Augustine

Man, I could be you. Thank you. I’m over 50, career military and have had the same questions. Thankfully, Jesus answered it for me as He did for you. You are doing great work here. Please keep doing these!

Thank you for sharing your heart. Thank you for sharing your emotions. That you for your courage. Hug. ❤to your heart.

I’m spiritual person, but I’ve been running from it for a few months now and been behaving like someone I don’t even know. Been sober for a few years and declared yesterday that I was going to do something very stupid. I’m gonna ask for help today. Thank you

I cried in the middle of this video.

Very well said 😊

IVE battled suicide thoughts jr.high /high school......married with kids, hospitalized, made me realize what a gift life was.since then bad things have happened, but not thinking that way anymore.IM trusting GOD,fully.recent financial trouble would have sent me over....but giving it to GOD.Sometimes fear may creep in but not for long....just keep pushing.

RIP, Jason David Frank.

Thank you.

Physical and mental pain too, chronic pain can be a really difficult thing to live with ❤

Trials make us stronger

Great video!

Stay strong & stay on your path despite the naysayers & critics.

keep up the good work man dont let the light fade, being strong smart and faithful amidst lawless power ridden muck in Hollywood must be difficult. I haven't personally been to church in 3 years but I am a professional gravekeep and pray there. (and when im maintaining the churches) We run a small outfit, me, my father, some friends as hired help and my two cousins who are 40 but have the mental capacity of 15 year olds (not joking). With that being said ive seen and had to react to some really nasty things. Some people just are so mean nowadays like its the norm, out of zero knowledge of subjects in context. I have also personally walked that tether too many times to probably legally list. Over money, over substances, over love, over women i thought would have mutual respect and not take pleasure out of toying with emotions. It took me hitting bedrock physically and figuratively simultaneously and seeing my infant twin nieces say my name to end it. God was there every step of the way, he didnt care if i was doing more good than bad. God was there to stop me from doing worse. Regardless of his name in whatever tongue one speaks, or whether it be jesus or any other of his sons or emissaries. I hope that burden gets lighter or your shoulders continue to get broader brother.

I didn't realize you are a Christian. Keep letting God's light shine through you brother!

As a Muslim I can agree on some parts you talked about Like how god likes to test us to see the true material we made of its going to bring you down crush you and make you think so loudly ( WHY IS THAT HAPPENING TO ME ) but always remember to trust god he always has your best interest Thanks for the vid btw I truly enjoyed it

To keep it short. I was not a practicing religious person. But an event NDE occurred, and it essentially ended my career. 25 yrs I put into it. But I went into a 6 yr fall from one oubliette thinking I was strong enough to climb out I would only fall and break into a deeper one till all I thought about was how to end it. Then I realized that when I fell down the stairs while I was panicked and thinking in a flow state how not to die. A calm male voice said to me "Stephanie close ypur mouth." I did and because I did I hit landing on my toothed instead of my jaw which would have broken and probably broke my neck or trachea. Instead I walked away with bad concussion and a could of bruises. It really was a miracle. But the point is, when I went through those yra. Soany bad things happened and I was powerless to stop any of it. Or even cope. But then it occurred to me when I fell that voice wasn't mine. And when I fell through that last oubliette hitting rock bottom I knew without a doubt that it was the Holy Trinity that spoke to me that day and caught me as I fell to what was rock bottom for me. After all the things that happened I found the Trinity waiting for me and no one can convince me that it wasn't the Voice of Jesus or perhaps God, the holy spirit or my guardian angel speaking to me while I was falling. And then the real miracle came when all the things that had happened to me during those dark years were meant to. Because it cleared the path for me to understand it was God and while there is more the point is. I knew that one of the greatest gifts God and Jesus gives the world is time. Time to find him. I heard his voice yet it took me 6 yrs! And while I was a fence rider for soo long with joy I jumped into Our Lord's waiting arms. I know I have a lot of work still but 6 yrs of what I thought was pain was nothing when I know what Jesus went through for us. What God knew when he sent Jesus here knowing his fate. And the things I thought were terrible ended up being unrealized messages. And I am so grateful to see people who are unafraid like you to discuss things cause it makes me want to stand up and shout for those who are not on the road to eternity. I know it's not an easy journey I embarked on to repent to forgive those who hurt me. To give up to God my struggles so he knows I trust in his plan. I do pray for His patience. And thank him for the mercy of time, so I can make myself the best version i can be so he will know me when I face him. Thank you for sharing your story sorry I did mean to keeping short but when you hear the Voice of Jesus, it isn't a story it is the truth as is He. So anyone who reads this. Don't give up. I had many times. And everything The Trinity picked me up dusted me off and put me back on my feet even when I didn't know. But now I do. And I am awake to the Glory of God and what I do now no matter if I fail is for him for he would rather you try and fail, but trust in him that you and I will succeed simply by trusting in God and lett8ng the Holy spirit be the beacon that no matter how dark it seems. They will find you. And I pray when that happens to anyone on the fence or on the other side seperate from God will be given the same chance I was because it truly changed me. I had a God shaped hole in my heart and soul and now I feel complete. Even rotten days I am grateful for another chance to gwt closer to God and build my relationship with the Trinity. And be who He wants me to be. Ok I will ahit up now. God I pray that those who don't know you let their eyes be opened and let their hearts be filled so they can understand Your love. Alan thanks for this platform and inspiration. Even those who believe need reminding. May the All mighty his son and his spirit guide us all to him. ❤

when you get a taste of true darkness you will always gravitate to the light

"believing it would be a gift..." frightening how dead on that actually is...

Good man