taking a break

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In which John discusses depression, hope, and why he's taking a break from vlogbrothers for the first time in many years.
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@heathertaylor16 14 күн бұрын

No one questioned Hank's duties changing when he was sick and needed his job to be his health. RIght now, let your health be your job. We love you. We will love you quietly through this, and we will love you loudly when you come back.

@paris4503 14 күн бұрын

@JoannaVolavka 14 күн бұрын

+ this

@MinurielLai 14 күн бұрын

@second0banana 14 күн бұрын

@emily_byars 14 күн бұрын

@catherinecase1142 14 күн бұрын

This video is such a testament to how adept at lying depression is. From my perspective, it is SO obvious that John’s work is a net positive for the world, but if depression can make him doubt that, no wonder it convinces the rest of us sometimes too. John, I pray this time of quiet allows you to hear the tune without the words soon. We’re so grateful for you and all you do.

@kevinwells9751 14 күн бұрын

Yeah mental illness doesn't care about your status or wealth, it will find a way to tear you down

@Amanda-xb7cf 14 күн бұрын

@threecatsdancing 14 күн бұрын

👏👏👏

@isaackvasager9957 14 күн бұрын

@sarahgrin 14 күн бұрын

+++

@YouTube 10 күн бұрын

wishing you the best john ❤

@saltiestsiren 5 күн бұрын

take care of ur mental health too, youtube

@hyunsungjung4941 Күн бұрын

@@saltiestsirenlmao

@AdenMcIsaac 23 сағат бұрын

YT!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

@susannebrorby5992 13 күн бұрын

Fill your bucket with clean water and drink long and deep, John. 17 years is a long time in a career, and an ETERNITY for the internet. Your work has brought public awareness to how pervasive, yet treatable TB is in underdeveloped/underserved parts of the world, and so many of us connect deeply with your books. Your candor is refreshing and POSITIVE. I have no doubt that Nerdfighteria will be holding you up and ready to support you no matter what you end up doing.

@adamaris1760 11 күн бұрын

@ArnoutRossenaar 3 күн бұрын

Yes this is true Nerdfighteria is valuable

@sharks2571 14 күн бұрын

Take all the time you need John! Sending love

@DragonsOfDream 14 күн бұрын

@anna-karing2053 14 күн бұрын

@littleloezie 14 күн бұрын

@Rkt206 14 күн бұрын

@lynnaschaefer 14 күн бұрын

@matthewharrington9723 13 күн бұрын

Thanks John Green for all the buckets of clean water you've given me.

@SaukaKumagae 13 күн бұрын

@itsjoereed 12 күн бұрын

@LindaengelustrupBlogspot 12 күн бұрын

@kakashiwithoutmask 12 күн бұрын

+ Couldn't agree more. John's words have saved me from dehydration more than once

@kakashiwithoutmask 12 күн бұрын

+ Couldn't agree more. John's words have saved me from dehydration more than once

@cluckerino 12 күн бұрын

Heal well, Internet Dad You know we'll be here when you're ready, whether that's August, or whenever

@Carrie25 12 күн бұрын

“No simple story can ever be true, and there is no simpler story than ‘nothing means anything.’” 🔥

@JoshGammon 14 күн бұрын

"Despair is a lie. Hopelessness is a lie." - Thank you, John.

@Nerdnotwashere 14 күн бұрын

@DavidPlass 13 күн бұрын

@themasstermwahahahah 13 күн бұрын

@LindaengelustrupBlogspot 12 күн бұрын

@zacotero9243 14 күн бұрын

As an occupant of a world that almost lost Hank Green, I can verify that the world also desperately needs John Green. So I implore you to take whatever steps you deem necessary to preserve John Green. We'll be here when you get back.

@villageshaman6932 14 күн бұрын

An excellent way to put it.

@ClaymorTerorist 14 күн бұрын

@yvonneellefson 13 күн бұрын

The Green brothers need to stick around for the inevitable Nobel Peace Prize they will be awarded.

@nzbozza 13 күн бұрын

Oh god I don't need to cry right now

@woodfur00 13 күн бұрын

@TheAshleyClements 13 күн бұрын

I am so grateful anytime someone I admire speaks openly about their mental health struggles. Like so much of John's work, it makes me feel less alone. You are helping others, lighting a path, even by taking a break and prioritizing your mental health. I am equally moved by the compassion and wisdom in the comments. Vlogbrothers raised nerdfighteria right.

@nerdyarlequinz 12 күн бұрын

Anyone else feel like we were on the beach of that toxic lake and John gave the buckets of water directly to us? Also sandwiches and sunscreen?

@curlzOdoom 4 күн бұрын

@RainaRamsay Күн бұрын

100%

@antimonyparanoia 14 күн бұрын

John, you aren't dumping a bucket of clean water into the toxic lake, you are saving star fish. The number of sea stars that wash ashore may look insurmountable but tossing even one back into the ocean is still saving a life, it matters to that one i hope your break lets you refresh and come back twice as strong, we will all be waiting for you sincerely, one little sea star

@snowybowietheadventurecollie 14 күн бұрын

@PotatoChicken-gg1ju 14 күн бұрын

I second this as another fellow sea star ❤

@sarahnewton2267 14 күн бұрын

If I could like this comment a million times I would

@K8tieR6 14 күн бұрын

@rhrh8089 14 күн бұрын

That's so sweet ❤

@sandhillfarmer1 14 күн бұрын

“Everything great feels illusory and everything terrible feels utterly true.” - holy cow this resonates. It’s hard to not just accept what seems true

@kevinwells9751 14 күн бұрын

I'm lucky to not deal with depression but my wife does and I often feel like my duty is to remind her of the good things and remind her that before long those things will feel real again and that the despair will pass

@susanlynch1966 14 күн бұрын

It's uncanny, those are the thoughts that I have regularly, but John expressed them so much better than I could.

@isaackvasager9957 14 күн бұрын

@mymusicfixx 14 күн бұрын

@Enjoyurble 14 күн бұрын

Real

@chai4768 13 күн бұрын

I love you, John. In a non-parasocial way, in the way I love the books that changed my life. You have changed my way of thinking, my outlook on people, and helped me balance my own personal emotional ecosystem. I've been watching vlogbrothers since middle school, and your voices have been a constant reminder of what is important. The water is not poisonous, it never has been. I hope your rest helps you, I hope it is truly rest. Thank you. Thank you. Thank you.

@Willyazaa 12 күн бұрын

Love you John, this break is well deserved and I hope there will be reminders of that while you are taking time. If and when you’re ready, we’ll be excited to keep fighting the good fight with you.

@gusberg2147 14 күн бұрын

“I don’t know if this is helping anyone.” It’s been helping me a lot for the past 15 years. ❤ Take the time you need, John.

@Poppamunz 14 күн бұрын

@yayforfood100 14 күн бұрын

john and hank have been making videos for most of my life. i've been watching them for more than half. helped? yea they've helped. they are both hugely influential in my life

@maike__- 14 күн бұрын

@gabedavis3294 14 күн бұрын

Amen.

@rmdodsonbills 14 күн бұрын

I routinely read the comments. I *know* this is helping people. Every video helps someone. Probably a bunch of someones who don't make their own comments but feel the same as the ones who do.

@hayleywatson9136 14 күн бұрын

Take all the time you need, John. In the river I used to go to as a kid, people would make a ring of stones around an area of shallow water to help that area be warmer. You are not dumping clean water into bad water, you and Hank built an area where the water was better, our own ring of stones in the river. The river keeps flowing, but it doesn't move the stones. Nerdfighteria will be here when you're ready, because we're here.

@emilytopham5069 14 күн бұрын

because we're here because we're here. +

@neweyesable 14 күн бұрын

@CircleThinker 14 күн бұрын

This is absolutely beautiful

@zolacnomiko 14 күн бұрын

+++

@TheVanishedMan1 14 күн бұрын

This comment said what I was coming to the comments to say but much more elegantly

@ashleygarla1198 12 күн бұрын

You are cared for so deeply, John. Have a restful July.

@Linda-bq7eq 13 күн бұрын

I’ve been watching from the shadows all these years. You make me proud to be a human. You give me hope for the future. So many hugs, John. I’ll be watching still. All respect. ❤

@rileymurray7437 14 күн бұрын

John just delivered a concise and damning indictment of depression and meaninglessness before the world, **while suffering through part of his brain feeding him the very same lies from depression.** That’s so fucking metal.

@laurenmawe3678 13 күн бұрын

@CappyRed 13 күн бұрын

🤘

@shiannelove 13 күн бұрын

@SwanandPhoenixSong 13 күн бұрын

Yes! I’ve had depression since being a pre-teen, but didn’t recognize it until I was NINETEEN. 🎓 Found out it was intertwined with anxiety over the next 5 yrs. Started college again and studied from then, on thru the pandemic and then 2 yrs. more. 📖 Now I’m taking a break due to a CVST (stroke) 🧠💥at age 27. ❤‍🩹Today is one yr. later and I’ll be turning 29 next month. 💖Even though I am much improved, there’s still more 💚growing to do. 💛To John (& Hank), I’ve had your videos and books as part of my support system over the last dozen years, and I encourage you 🙏 to take all the time you need, and give yourself the same comfort 🛌that I found from you in my past struggles and continuing growth.🪴🫶🌅

@shiannelove 13 күн бұрын

@@SwanandPhoenixSong +

@TheDragonOfWhi 14 күн бұрын

There is a hospital in the world because of John. No matter what depress says; there is one more hospital in the world.

@RandomPerson8908 13 күн бұрын

You give us so much. Hearing this from an internet stranger may not help all that much, but you are loved and valued. I hope the time away gives you everything you need it to.

@troyhuckendubler6397 13 күн бұрын

Get well soon John. You and your brother are a light in the darkness for me quite often. I hope you find your way to the top of the well in time. That first breath above water will feel glorious.

@himynameisnickolas 14 күн бұрын

“Even despair eventually exhausts itself” You won’t feel this way forever and when you are ready, we will still be here, ready.

@sn0wflake 13 күн бұрын

I wish I could frame this comment. Thank you for saying this.

@poetryandpurpose 13 күн бұрын

well put!

@shiannelove 13 күн бұрын

@SwanandPhoenixSong 13 күн бұрын

@RainaRamsay Күн бұрын

That's a phrase I should get embroidered on a throw pillow

@calvinball1 14 күн бұрын

I can't tell you how many times I've told people the good news from Vlogbrothers - Infant mortality has declined over time. - Many people are banding together to cure the world's most deadly disease even though it mostly impacts poor people. - Companies cab be wildly successful even if they are non profit. - Treating people with compassion can be a road to success - It's OK to be silly while doing important work. And some of these things sometimes absolutely change a person's world-view. News and social media absolutely want us to believe that the world only gets worse, and the only thing we can do about it is come back later and get shocked about it again. It's so important to have the reality of good news and community have real voices.

@Nino-xp5df 14 күн бұрын

@marcusdagostino6208 14 күн бұрын

@rachaelknudsen8801 14 күн бұрын

@zoeolsson5683 14 күн бұрын

@curtishansenmusic 14 күн бұрын

@sofialozano2910 9 күн бұрын

Rest, John. Your work, your thoughts and who you are and represent are a balm and an inspiration to many of us. AND, you don’t have to be or produce or symbolize anything to be worthy. Go rest, and sleep and be with family and friends. We are a grateful for you.

@sarahsouthcott1163 13 күн бұрын

The anthropocene reviewed was one of the only things that gave me a sense of perspective and flickers of awe when I was in the very dark place. You're so right that any voice telling you your work doesn't matter is a liar. Wishing you hope and peace and flickers of awe this July.

@kristiknight7586 10 күн бұрын

@crateycoo 7 күн бұрын

@courtneyperry7659 2 күн бұрын

I've literally bought a copy for 2 people experiencing depression because of how soothing I find reading it when I'm having a hard time feeling hopeful. ❤

@chashahjohnson 14 күн бұрын

Here is what I'll say: I didn't get out my depression only because of Vlogbrothers, but your work in particular, John, kept me afloat while I did the extremely difficult work you're doing now and that you've done before. You will make it through this, and I hope come back to us, but if you aren't able to, we will support and love you from afar in whatever ways feel good for you. I'm so so so thankful for the Green brothers, and glad that you're setting a good example for me and all the other mentally ill mofos out there. Take care of yourself above the world.

@BijickY 14 күн бұрын

Thank you for this message! ❤

@missingshoefilms 14 күн бұрын

@dragonharris5465 14 күн бұрын

My thoughts exactly!

@OneTraveller 14 күн бұрын

@jshwagner 14 күн бұрын

@beziimusic 14 күн бұрын

"No simple story is true, and there is no simpler story than 'nothing means anything'", I really love that

@windythepuffin7787 14 күн бұрын

I had to replay that part, it's so meaningful to me

@grannypeacock 14 күн бұрын

All these decades since I've graduated high school and I finally have words to explain why even then I knew that the nihilists who thought they were deep were really just intellectually lazy

@LaneV49 13 күн бұрын

John, your words have given me hope & the courage to ask for help. Thank you.

@JakeBroe 13 күн бұрын

Your stuff helps me, John. It has been helping since I started watching you guys in 2009. If you ever need to take time off, then I support you and want to see you taking care of yourself and your family. But you should never doubt your positive impact on the world and the millions of people who watch your videos and receive knowledge and positivity. This channel has been a constant and felt like a home to me the last 15 years. I love you guys!

@felesnocis 14 күн бұрын

I think John is setting a great example of what self care during depression can look like. It’s valuable for us younger nerdfighters to see that.

@Nino-xp5df 14 күн бұрын

@ethank5059 14 күн бұрын

Also there are inevitably going to be ups and downs over a lifetime and Vlogbrothers has been going strong for 17 years. If John or Hank (or both) needs to take a month, or two or three or 12 off for their own health then that's okay. All the nerdfighters that matter would rather have a mentally healthy John than force him to destroy his own happiness for us.

@K8tieR6 14 күн бұрын

@erikrick 14 күн бұрын

Also for us older nerd fighters.

@yvettevandermolen2455 14 күн бұрын

We oldsters need it too.

@oliviamcdougall4361 13 күн бұрын

One thing that helps many of my clients is the mantra “You’ve survived 100% of your bad days.” Please take care, we are rooting for you

@dustinandrews89019 13 күн бұрын

Some of them only just...

@SendaiWolf206 13 күн бұрын

@jacquelineharro7550 13 күн бұрын

Thank you for modeling honoring your mental health John. We love you and want you to do whatever is best for you! We will be here in August, excited to hear from you 😊

@brandonspears2028 13 күн бұрын

Thanks for being part of our human experience, John! We love you ❤

@At0micAllison 14 күн бұрын

John- your contributions to the unsavory waters are like messages in bottles. You are under no obligation to continue writing & sending them forth, but please know that they are so much more than the mere volume they occupy. Your messages are thoughtful and inspiring, and I would wager a guess that they drive others to think and inspire as well. (I know this has been true for me.) Please prioritize the healing of your soul; you deserve happiness and fulfillment. That is all.

@sys_tem_ 14 күн бұрын

@jacforswear18 14 күн бұрын

@maike__- 14 күн бұрын

Beautifully said! +

@appleoyellow 14 күн бұрын

@caitlindonovanwest9192 14 күн бұрын

Wow, fantastically said. +1000

@Skibbityboo0580 14 күн бұрын

"Hope sings the tune without words, and never stops...at all" I want to scream this at my brain too, John.

@Nerdnotwashere 14 күн бұрын

@sour7lemons 13 күн бұрын

snaps for Emily Dickinson

@squirrel5809 13 күн бұрын

I feel like sometimes it stops though. And those are the times we really need to do the most self care.

@SwanandPhoenixSong 13 күн бұрын

@GarnetReign 13 күн бұрын

+ ❤❤❤

@michdelish 12 күн бұрын

John, the things you make are not buckets of clean water in a toxic lake. They are a filter which cleans the polluted air that passes through it and makes it a little bit easier to breathe. Take as long and as frequent breaks as you need to and know we are grateful for you.

@RainaRamsay Күн бұрын

Yeah, the thing about Vlogbrothers videos is, when I feel stuck on an issue that's in the news or whatever, and I don't know what to think because it's complicated, and I don't know how to resolve this apparently black-and-white figure-ground binary perspective .... usually, the next Tuesday, John has a video that gives me a better way to think about it, that incorporates both sides, and all the complexity, into a perspective that makes it possible to move forward. And then I'm able to take that perspective, and apply it to other things, and de-toxify lots of parts of my life because of that 4 minutes with John.

@ihopethisnameisfree 13 күн бұрын

Thanks for talking with us from the bottom of the well, John. I hope your time away is healing in all the ways you need. Take your time, take care, and we’ll keep the lights on for you.

@quintingell 14 күн бұрын

part of DFTBA is remembering to love yourself. take your time; we'll be here if/when you decide to return

@MinurielLai 14 күн бұрын

@At0micAllison 14 күн бұрын

DFTB Love Yourself

@Nino-xp5df 14 күн бұрын

@snowybowietheadventurecollie 14 күн бұрын

+ my favorite thing that DFTBA stands for is Dont Forget To Breathe Amigo, sometimes we just need to take time and space to ourselves to breathe. Sometimes we need time to ourselves, breaks to prevent burnout and all that. DFTBA means a lot of things but to me it first and foremost means don't forget to take care of yourself as you have to take care of yourself to be awesome and care for others

@Nerdnotwashere 14 күн бұрын

@linsle 14 күн бұрын

John, the Anthropocene Reviewed saved my life last year. My two children would thank you if they were old enough to know what was really going on with Mommy. Hearing your voice speak the truths of Sycamore trees, truths that live inside my skull, will continue to be a lifeline for me while I forever feel trapped in the game my mind plays. It tethers me to those small hands in mine and reminds me what the point is. Thank you. Thank you. Thank you. Thank you. Thank you. Those two words will never be enough.

@honestexistence 12 күн бұрын

Hey John, in the very small possibility that you will see this comment, I love you for the parts of you, including your struggles, that I see in myself. It's not much, but it's yours, along with my hope that you keep walking forward even when you can't feel your legs. Remember there is no "should feel", only what is right now and that it will change.

@geoffzolkos8843 13 күн бұрын

Your words are a great help to me, John. I can only imagine just how many other people feel the same.

@amyberger9559 14 күн бұрын

Thank you for taking care of yourself, John! We love you!

@treehuggr089 14 күн бұрын

Classic John, making me cry at 10am on a Tuesday through sheer earnestness and belief in hope even in the face of hopelessness and despair. Hope isn't a lie; it is a practical tool that we need to get through life. John, your work has helped me be less despairing, and I hope you benefit from a well-deserved break from the Internet. We'll be here when you get back.

@sys_tem_ 14 күн бұрын

@maike__- 14 күн бұрын

@felesnocis 14 күн бұрын

@Butterinyourear 13 күн бұрын

When despair comes at me like that, I remind myself that John Green exists. And a world with a John Green in it can never be pointless. I hate depression for doing that to you. Thank you for everything you do, John.

@adamaris1760 11 күн бұрын

@librigirl 12 күн бұрын

John, I'm glad you're taking the time you need. If you need more, take more. You are appreciate and valued and your community has your back. Your work has brought so much good into this world. You know how to persevere. Keep on truckin. I'll be holding space and praying for you.

@Vincewood90 14 күн бұрын

The poem about the candle burning at both ends is very pretty and we really do love the light, but we also care about the candle. Thank you for taking the time you need.

@MinurielLai 14 күн бұрын

@sofie.h 14 күн бұрын

@rachaelknudsen8801 14 күн бұрын

@emmafoley8987 14 күн бұрын

@curtishansenmusic 14 күн бұрын

+++

@cloakedoblivion22 14 күн бұрын

We’re here because we’re here! We’re here because we’re here! We’re here because we’re here!

@laurenmawe3678 13 күн бұрын

@GaraksApprentice 13 күн бұрын

@SwanandPhoenixSong 13 күн бұрын

@Getsimpson 13 күн бұрын

This brought tears to my eyes. Thank you stranger

@SarahKlein-nf1ti 13 күн бұрын

John, you are incredible! Thank you for all the love and kindness you've given us, let us give some of it back to you. Take all you need

@logandavis7584 13 күн бұрын

Take your time John. We will be elated whenever you feel comfortable returning. You and your brother inspire me in so many ways, and I will forever be thankful for you both.

@Mebb93 14 күн бұрын

John, I’m not the one to usually comment in videos, but I just wanted you to know that the world is definitely better with you (and all the thing you do) in it! Take as much time as you need! Sending you lots of love from Brazil! 💚💛

@suchitrasridhar5313 14 күн бұрын

@lydiaschneider9489 14 күн бұрын

@FrostedJr 14 күн бұрын

@notErid 14 күн бұрын

@triciac.5078 14 күн бұрын

Thank you John, for sharing your struggles. Don’t feel bad for taking a break. You deserve it.

@kellermark 20 сағат бұрын

John, I have never commented on a youtube video before. I have been closely following you and Hank for at least 7 years now. Without reservation, your content is and has been a guiding light through whatever might have been in front of me. Thank you. I hope you find your guiding light in the coming days.

@lionu11 12 күн бұрын

John Green, I can say with confidence that you have literally saved lives. You owe nothing to us, yet you have given up so much of yourself. I'm sure this comment will only act as a meager drop in the bucket of thousands in support of your wellbeing, but it seems pessimistic to say it doesn't matter. I hope you feel loved, and I hope you can learn to love yourself again. You are a wonder of a human, and you deserve to know it.

@relsionnach6540 13 күн бұрын

In the words of John’s therapist “Everything will end, including this.” That little line from a Vlogbrothers video has stuck with me. Sometimes I say it out loud, sometimes just in my head. But even went I say it with sarcastic intent after a moment I start to feel the reassurance. I hope this month away is good to you John ♥️

@geeksdo1tbetter 13 күн бұрын

We won't always feel this way!!!

@shewriteswithstyle 14 күн бұрын

John, I just got diagnosed with OCD and wanted to share my deepest thanks for taking on the cost of sharing pieces of yourself to help others like me. Sending you love with a new level of empathy and also tremendous pride in you for taking this time away.

@AndiNewtonian 14 күн бұрын

Sending you love and support from another person with OCD. (((((HUGS)))))

@notErid 14 күн бұрын

@K8tieR6 14 күн бұрын

@curtishansenmusic 14 күн бұрын

@DragonoftheRust 14 күн бұрын

@corgicuttie 13 күн бұрын

Take the time you need. We love you and want a happy, healthy John 😊

@RobsRacingMotoVLOG 4 минут бұрын

Thank you for all the clean water you’ve given me. And good for you for saying “no thanks”. That in of itself is inspiring.

@RemizZ 14 күн бұрын

John, I know your brain won't let you hear it, but I still have to emphasize that in the last 2 years, you and Hank did more good for this world than ever before. - You brought TB to the forefront of so many of us that had no idea it even still existed - You helped raise millions of dollars to improve the lives of people in Sierra Leone, and don't even think that the lives already saved aren't at least partially your doing, because they are! People who were doomed to die are alive because of you! And no, stop thinking "that was all Hank", because it wasn't! You are a serious force for good in this world and if we had more people like you and Hank, we would live in a better world. I hope you can recover quickly!

@shiannelove 12 күн бұрын

@tinfang-warble 14 күн бұрын

John, you probably won't see this, but earlier this month I picked up *The Anthropocene Reviewed* while flying home from a work trip. The other thing I picked up on that trip was COVID, which made me quarantine for 10 days in an Airbnb away from my 5-month old baby and my partner who had, while i was out of commission, surgery to remove cancer. I didn't have energy to do much while I was sick, but in the few hours a day that I was awake, I read your book. Its relentless hopefulness helped me make it through the worst two weeks of my life so far. Take care of yourself, take the time you need, and thank you.

@nunyabiz- 14 күн бұрын

Thx for your great comment & best wishes to your entire family! 💛

@b3ndavies 14 күн бұрын

Wishing you and yours all the happiness you deserve, friend 💜

@bethanyfield6035 14 күн бұрын

Best wishes to you and your family ❤

@michaelmicek 13 күн бұрын

Wow

@regi3756 13 күн бұрын

I just finished reading “Turtles All the Way Down” and I resonated with Aza. Thank you for you! Take care of yourself! Hugs!

@haleykendall3021 13 күн бұрын

Thank you John ❤ You're right-- no simple story is true. We're all here because we're here... and some of us are still here because of you and your contributions to our world. Please take all the time you need.

@PictoKat 14 күн бұрын

I'm a crash course kid. I was homeschooled in high-school and crash course opened up learning pathways to me that still inspire me to this day. I've just graduated from my second masters degree. I will always be indebted to the acts of good you've put into the world and I hope my story can lighten a bit of the load you carry.

@ericeilersen 14 күн бұрын

Spreading a message of hope while you're in the well is selfless on a truly unbelievable level. Take all the time you need, John, You are very, very loved.

@AmandaComeauCreates 14 күн бұрын

Literally making me cry listening to him say what he needs to hear himself. We love you John please hang in there

@mayrose7116 12 күн бұрын

I'm so glad you're taking care of yourself. You are NOT worthless; your work is not worthless

@ryenheart6221 12 күн бұрын

My favorite mantra, which I adapted from something John once said: “May we be justified in our hope and in community through hardship” John, thank you for this reminder, and I wish you lighter days and strength through your present darkness.

@Pingviinimursu 14 күн бұрын

A whole month? For yourself? Hell yeah, John! Way to go! Take care of yourself, ok? You deserve love, even (and especially) from yourself. I'm so glad to hear you're taking care of yourself ❤

@ericvaninwegen6384 14 күн бұрын

We often say "take care" as another way to say goodbye. But, especially now, John, please take care (with you and for you).

@jacquileather1329 12 күн бұрын

We support you John, take care of yourself 🤎

@peoforsgren7411 12 күн бұрын

John, you and other people’s ”clean water” efforts are seen by millions sometimes billions of us. I HOPE you someday get to see the effect when we pitch in and help fix society. Things often seem impossible until they suddenly are not. Rest well.

@ahhgrrvated 14 күн бұрын

Bruh. "It feels like all the nerves are on the outside of my body." This is a mood.

@Kazemba 14 күн бұрын

It really is

@michaelmicek 13 күн бұрын

@jadedcatlady 14 күн бұрын

Oh, John. We love you. You have no idea how many lives you have affected in a positive, helpful, honest way, not only with your wonderful work but also with your willingness to be honest about your mental health and the way your brain lies to you. ❤️💔

@wonderbonni5563 12 күн бұрын

Your work and videos have always brought light to the darkest places in my life. You always remind me that there is hope and beauty in humanity. I have recently recovered after spending months in hospital for depression. Please know that taking the time to focus on your wellbeing and stability is not selfish, it is a necessity. Continuing to push yourself forward and keep working when you are already at the bottom of the well does nothing but dig a deeper hole. This community loves you John and will support you in whatever you need to do to help your recovery

@PuissantPike 13 күн бұрын

We love you John! Truly and tremendously. We'll see you whenever you're ready 😊

@PandeeParty 14 күн бұрын

This is a great reminder that being successful does not magically make your mental health issues go away. Sometimes I tell myself, "Once I reach this one goal, I'll finally be okay." The goalposts just keep moving, though. I'm sure if you told an 18-year-old John Green that he would one day have a successful writing career with one of the best selling books of all time, movies made from his books, a beautiful family, and a long history of incredible charity work, he'd be like, "Wait? What?? That's amazing! Surely that means I'm happy and everything is great." But... the goalposts just keep moving, and they always will. I gotta remind myself that no achievement is suddenly going to turn me into a happy person because life doesn't work that way.

@ethank5059 14 күн бұрын

This is very true. Often times the more you want something and the more you fantasize about it the less meaningful it is when you finally get it. Humans are unfortunately hardwired to never really have "enough" and to overemphasize "this is what I wish I had" rather than being content with what they do have or seeing the positives. We're all like this to some extent (negativity bias is very real) but this is amplified by an order of magnitude with depression.

@nlyddbyd 14 күн бұрын

In the spirit in which vlogbrothers has been delivered over the past 17 years, where sometimes John and Hank don't know if the work was worth it, it has ALWAYS been worth it. And this video may have been the most effective one of all.

@marthapasatiempo3672 14 күн бұрын

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@mapykaksim 13 күн бұрын

You aren't alone, John. We love you. Thank you for all you have done, are doing and will do. Take all the time you need, we'll be here when you're ready to come back.

@ashlynharrison3170 7 күн бұрын

Even from the bottom of the well, John is working so hard to give us some clean water. John, take all the time you need. We hope to see you back in August, but we understand that healing is not linear and that may not be enough time for you. You've given so much to this community and the world, and even if your brain won't let you believe it, we'll continue to believe it for you❤🖖

@MysterySteve 13 күн бұрын

"Despair is a lie" and "Hopelessness is a lie" are probably the four most important words I've heard recently, especially for my own life. What a simple message, yet incredibly profound

@et_edits 14 күн бұрын

"it feels like all of my nerves are on the outside of my body" is such a great way of putting words to something i have felt so often i am so gratefull for this phrase. I hope the break helps you John, you have helped me in your announcement of it.

@stevenmusante4681 13 күн бұрын

Suffering from depression for 15 years and it’s great to see such an honest and genuine description of what many of us deal with. The toxicity of the internet will never rival the voice in my head that jumps through hoops to be sympathetic towards others. Your work matters in more ways you could have ever intended or imagined possible on your best days. I hope a few weeks to yourself helps you feel better.

@aterrell25 12 сағат бұрын

Your work matters. Take all the time you need to hear this and believe it. ❤❤❤

@samanthaw.861 14 күн бұрын

It’s okay to not be okay, John. Big hugs ❤️

@Nerdnotwashere 14 күн бұрын

@yourforbiddenfruit 14 күн бұрын

As a kind professor said to me when I was going through an objectively tough time… “I can’t fix things for you but i wish that I could and if I had a magic wand, I would.” Despair is like water. Some days it laps at your heels and other days, you wade through it at waist height. You go about your day but now you notice when it’s rising. Rising until you get used to keeping your chin up to stop yourself from drowning. I’ve been at the bottom of that ocean too. Take your time John and build your life raft. The tides will change again and there’s calm on the horizon.

@geeksdo1tbetter 13 күн бұрын

All tides change!!!!

@gordonause6956 13 күн бұрын

1000%. Well said.

@kashiichan 13 күн бұрын

@hedwardd 12 күн бұрын

As someone who has a long history of depression, you're dead on in describing how everything good seems illusory and everything bad feels certain. The content you and your brother make brings so much joy so many many people. That said, you've already enough and then some. Take all the time you need and do what's best for you

@electriccandles 5 сағат бұрын

For what it's worth your work has helped me through so many bad mental health times.

@bcfblack 14 күн бұрын

Depression says what it will, and so will I: You matter to me. I am grateful to live in a world with you and your work. Your books, the pod, brotherhood 2.0, and the vlog as it stands today have all been great companions to me for the last 17 years. You have cracked me open and held me together when I needed it, and offered me comfort and joy in days of fairweather. Thank you. Thank you. Good luck in July. I hope things improve. We'll be in your corner no matter what.

@Nerdnotwashere 14 күн бұрын

@marthapasatiempo3672 14 күн бұрын

+++

@mommys-lil-tortlet 13 күн бұрын

Thank you for taking a break John. Thank you. Clean your own lake, love your family, love every part of being alive. Plant some peas in your garden. I think of the peas in your garden so often. We're here. We're going to stick around. You mean so much to use all. Enjoy July and sing that tune. We will be here in August.

@NikBY 12 күн бұрын

Exactly. I'm not crying, you're crying. No, actually, I am crying, and that's okay too.

@adamaris1760 11 күн бұрын

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@coralee5628 11 күн бұрын

YES! Thank you so much, John, for taking care of yourself and for being honest about your needs. I actually think that videos like this one are one of the most important things you do for this community and for the world. Lately at my office job, when I have needed to take a day off for mental health reasons, I've been making a point to phrase it that way, saying to my team "I need a mental health day today" as opposed saying that I'm sick. I'm doing this because it is CRUCIAL that we eliminate stigma around mental health needs, and using our example to change norms is one of the best ways we can do that. Your openness about your mental health over the years is one of the things that helped me feel comfortable doing this. To see you now say "I need a mental health month" on a public platform with such honesty and care - it's very powerful, John. I hope that taking this break helps you, but regardless of what it does for you, it has already helped me and many others more than you know.

@BorcishHorde 12 күн бұрын

Ohhhh man ❤ my heart goes out to you! You are LOVED! I wish one day to be able to shake your hand and thank you in person- because I admire you and your work SO much.

@Grato537 12 күн бұрын

Thanks so much for sharing this. I am so grateful for all the stuff you've put into the world. To say it back: "Hope sings the tune without the words and never stops at all." I (and I'm sure many others) will be praying for you and will be happy to see you whenever you're back.

@andrineslife 14 күн бұрын

I'm sure self-care bunny would be proud of you for taking care of yourself. Thank you for reminding the rest of us to do the same ❤

@avelkm 13 күн бұрын

John, from a random person in Ukraine who struggles with depression and anxiety for the last 8 years - I love you. You and Hank are two people who inspire me the most and support me in my darkest times. Please rest as long as you need to feel better! You matter, and everything you do makes a world a better place! ❤❤❤

@shiannelove 12 күн бұрын

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@happyguy5165 10 күн бұрын

God bless you and my thoughts go to you, thank you also for your kind words here 💙

@sarahprunierlaw9147 9 күн бұрын

Hope things get better for you too Avelkm!

@tvcaplan 8 күн бұрын

Stay safe and courage for your bad days!

@destinyhomes-gi9yo 13 күн бұрын

If you only knew how important it is for me to see you hold onto hope so doggedly when i want so badly to believe hope is pointless. Thank you for sharing so honestly with us. It helps. 💯

@cellolotus8077 13 күн бұрын

Thank you for sharing this. Please take all the time you need. Sending love.

@chashahjohnson 14 күн бұрын

I'm glad you're taking care of yourself!

@Nerdnotwashere 14 күн бұрын

@JemRochelle 14 күн бұрын

I know this won't magically make the depression any quieter, but your talking about OCD has absolutely been life-changing for those of us also struggling with OCD. I started getting help through NOCD because of a KZfaq ad I saw for them, and ERP therapy has absolutely changed my life. I hope the next month helps you find what you need 💖

@Nerdnotwashere 14 күн бұрын

@kiyahforever 14 күн бұрын

OCD Nerdfighters unite!

@erinmac4750 12 күн бұрын

Dyslexic nerdfighters with OCD untie! 🍀✊💜

@benmatthews3732 13 күн бұрын

You are awesome, and will never know how you have changed lives, including mine. Please take good care of yourself, whatever that requires. We will be here when you feel like sharing again. 🙏 namaste