“I sometimes wonder who I’d be if I didn’t think my thoughts. Maybe I’d be free.” Oh June, this brought tears to my eyes. Keep doing your thing. You’re an amazing cook and I absolutely love watching your videos. I had no idea that you had struggled with disordered eating in your past. Thank you so much for being brave and sharing your journey with us. I threw together a cake just like you did and tried it with tahini on top. It turned out great and I’m excited to continue playing around with different ingredients. It’s very easy to get bogged down in measuring everything which often makes us not want to take the time to do stuff. Your method of experimentation is very freeing. ❤️

I feel like Aaron really balances out June in a good way. He’s really gentle and encouraging and I really enjoy their interactions.

Thank you for your honesty. I just wanted to mention that I too heard there is no recovery from disordered eating; only management. I heard that for the 21 years I had anorexia. The longer I had it, the more "lost cause" was used in reference to me. Eight years ago I finally had the insurance and progressive enough work environment to go inpatient. Then PHP. Then outpatient. The road to recovery was not a straight line, but I made it. I am recovered. I am free. It is ABSOLUTELY possible. The idea of a life where I'd have to manage an eating disorder forever is intolerable. And it's not necessary. I wish you peace on your journey and that you might find recovery one day as well.

This video is a well-packaged testament to how much you have developed as a storyteller/film editor alongside the art of cooking. To longtime viewers, this work also continues to illustrate the impressive level of introspection that you've shown since the early days of your live streams. By continuing to have the courage to say things that most of us would have left unsaid, and immortalizing those thoughts online where you can become a target for someone else's projection, your straightforward sincerity is not only a breath of fresh air to those in a situation similar to yours, but also a public presence to draw strength from, enabling all of us to look inward and remember that we are not alone in our struggles. This film undoubtedly took a lot of effort to edit, and you did a fine job with this latest form of self-expression. Stay brave, and keep tackling the world.

I love how Fred is always willing to give a first sniff but is like “Alas, not mush”. I agree that a vacation is so much better when you slow down.

I have been an "essential"/frontline worker during COVID and honestly, the slow cooking tasks like peeling/seeding, etc has been my therapy. My anxiety has gotten a lot worse and I have found so much solace in my kitchen. Its the time my brain turns off and I can just breathe and focus on the task in front of me. Totally relate and your content has been a refuge for me. Thanks for being you!

June, this is even nicer to watch than the delish videos, because it is more real and honest. Thanks for your openness and honesty. I wouldn't have the courage to open up about such intimate and personal topics in the internet public! (Even if you do it for your own therapy, it can really help people out there, just to show that they're not alone with these problems!) Also you just seem to be a very nice human person and I cook exactly the way you do, I really get it!! Greetings from Germany

the thing you said about never really being able to really recover from an eating disorder but instead just managing it for the rest of your life hit me really hard. i feel like every day is a struggle just to fight those thoughts

As someone that is so ashamed of my disordered eating, it is truly so emotional to hear June talk about her journey and entanglement with such humility. Thank you June for being you, your thoughts, good or exhausting makes you so real. I needed this video! Thank you!!!

I haven't even fully watched yet, and I could not stop myself anymore from commenting. This video is hitting extremely deep, digging emotions I never thought I had so intense. I'm feeling extremely emotional and vulnerable while watching this, and thank you for that. I also would like to add that I love this slow paced content, After such a hectic and stressful day, this is extremely relaxing. And even though it is slow, it is far from being boring or monotonous. I love it and I appreciate you a lot. Thank you, June!

I started watching your videos during the peak of my disordered eating. It’s oddly comforting to know that someone with such a fascination and enthusiasm towards food can also have a bad relationship with food. My eating habits destroyed my hunger and satiation cues as well as my gut health and you’ve really motivated me to rebuild them. So thank you June, for endless reasons we love you.

Your small stream of consciousness about time while picking out the pumpkin seeds, was really beautiful and soothing, thank you for reminding me my time should be mine and I shouldn’t judge it.

I love also seeing what Fred eats in a week.

Fred has such an expressive face I love himmmmmmmmm.

I credit you with my adding apples and oatmeal and beans back into my diet. Life is too short to deny myself delicious nutritious food. Thank you June.

You have the perfect partner. His descriptions of food is the same as yours :) Makes me happy. There's so much joy when you two eat together. Congrats on coming such a long way with your eating.

You are So Right , June when it comes to Eating Disorders. Im so encouraged by you and your choices of your cooking. I weighed 310 and now weigh 211 lbs less. I gate to say that the Modeling/Fashion community gas impeded on NY and that has impressed the ability of being accepted. Tasting life , via You, gas been amazing for me. I gave lost 15 lbs this last 6 weeks because of you, June. You have shown me dietary things to eat. I LOVE YOU SO MUCH!

Thank you so much for speaking openly about your struggles with disordered eating. It’s so refreshing hearing someone else going through the same exact thing❤️🥺 love you and your videos so much June xoxo

As a native of the Carolinas, those "grapes" grow EVERYWHERE around me, including in my backyard! It's so funny to hear them called grapes because everyone here just knows them as Muscadines, pronounced musk-uh-dine (dine rhymes with 'wine', not dean 😊). There is also a green variety (which I personally prefer) that are called Scuppernongs, pronounced scup-er-nogg (so 'cup' with an 'S' in front of it; er as in 'her'; and nogg like in 'eggnog' or 'noggin'). Both are delicious and grow on vines all over the Carolinas! They're HIGHLY underrated so I'm so happy to see that someone with as much culinary expertise as June loves them so much! If you've never had them before the skins can be a bit bitter and they do have a few seeds inside, but they are absolutely worth trying at least once in your life! Not to mention the fact that they are often turned into some really delicious Muscadine wine 🥰

As someone who thinks about everything, the worst part is that I'm never really able to enjoy things as they are. I have never gone out to a restaurant and just had what i wanted without thinking about if i deserve it or what it's gonna do to my body. To just be is a wonderful thing and it sounds like you spent some time doing that and and that's a wonderful way to spend your vacation.

For someone who struggled with anxiety and a lot of guilt related to food, I thank you to talk about this. The openness just made me feel like I am not alone. I am recovering from social and anxiety and unhealthy behavior related to food and I think talking about all of it without shame made such a difference in my life. I wish you all the best in your journey

I honestly had no idea this video would have the impact on me that it did when I started it. I love watching/listening to your videos while I work. Love watching them. Love your style, love you skill and talent. The honesty and how you described what eating is to you. Guilt/shame turn into anger. I am right there with you. Opposite end of the spectrum though. I am excessively over weight. I think food is my singular coping mechanism. You have encouraged me to do better. For myself. Thank you

This may be the best video of you I've seen, be it on Delish or the lives. There's so much to love: your vulnerability, openness and honesty is admirable and appreciated, and your editing rocks. Seeing what you eat in a week and hearing your thoughts on food and life was the high point. Thank you for being you and sharing yourself with us.

I struggle with binging and food rewarding. I'm still working on it so I definitely don't have it cracked. The trouble with replacing food rewards is that they are so easy and instant comforts. Lately I've been trying to ensure I carve out proper me time (reading, tiny gardening, running) its still an experiment but the more I make sure I'm preserving my identity the less I need the extra comfort when things go sideways. Construction zone.

June, you have come such a long way! We're so proud of you! You're right, fuck societal expectations and so true about doing what makes you happy. The best thing you can do is to be confident. I like to trick people by appearing to be confident (even if I'm ugly) and leaving people guessing why the eff am I so confident in myself!

I thoroughly enjoyed this trash cooking vid. For me, I refer to it as "refrigerator cooking"- open the fridge and make something. I too have jars of stuff- like the liquid left over from cooking something else :)! You are a gifted storyteller.Even though you shared some deeply personal thoughts, I also felt like you were relaxed this week on your staycation... being able to do what you wanted, when you wanted. I hope it was satisfying. I can also relate to turning to food for comfort, punishment, shame...eating all my feelings, and trying to fill a hole that ultimately cannot be filled, and the resulting physical discomfort afterwards. I've been working with a BetterHelp therapist for a couple of months and she has been so helpful. I didn't turn to therapy for disordered eating, but she immediately zoned in on issues which manifested in the disordered eating, and other things. I appreciate and am grateful for your authenticity and what you share in your vids, and I wish you success in working through whats bringing you down. It's too big a burden to keep carrying all those feelings, and conditioning that was imposed upon you growing up- time to dump it. I finally feel I'm on a path that will allow me to do that. It's not easy offloading a lifetime of stuff and breaking the cycle of ruminating and self sabotage, but I'm happy with the progress. I know it's saving my life.

Thank you for your candid thoughts on your ED. I'm currently relapsing hard in my anorexia and even though i still probably have months or years left in this relapse, watching this helped me today.

I had an eating disorder for 2 years and I know what caused it: my controlling, judgy, negative Dad when I was in high school. I felt like I couldn't win with him----I felt frustrated and the only control I had in my household was not eating. My dad would get so angry about how skinny I got and would try to punish me for not eating, though it didn't work. I loved that I could piss him off---the one way to retaliate. (I didn't know that then...) As soon as I left for college, I didn't starve myself anymore. I ate what I wanted in reasonable portions. Now I travel around the world just to eat the amazing food! I hope that you can find some peace with your eating disorder-----and it looks like your getting better each day! Keep up with your videos----you are so genuine and motivating, thank you!

Tw: Disordered Eating Your content always makes me smile and feel real. I end up sitting here and watching the video the whole way thru, and learning how to cook different foods along the way. I have a binge eating disorder that I've struggled with since childhood, I know it originates from food scarcity my family experienced in poverty. I think you helped me realize that my eating disorder never really truly went away, even though I think I'm getting better at managing it. I used to eat bags of candy by myself, and now I'll have a few pieces of candy and put it away or just grab a piece or two here and there. My weight isn't very healthy and I'm trying to get to a place where it is, but doctors never really helped by telling me being overweight is causing health problems. The fear of illness only makes the disordered eating more severe at times. We really do need better help for disordered eating. I'm really proud of everything you do June. :)

I’m glad to see how someone actually eats and not a front for the camera, this channel has honestly helped me a lot spiritually and knowing others are like me and it’s okay. The comment section is always nice too I love finding this channel

June, I deeply understand everything you mentioned regarding your thoughts surrounding food from the nutrition, the guilt, the reward, and the pleasure. It is possible to get out of that cycle. In my experience, it’s the restriction (guilt associated thoughts) surrounding food that result in the desire to overeat “safer” foods, only perpetuating the cycle. Something that helped me to improve this complicated relationship with food is viewing food as both fuel that your body needs, which can help to remove the emotional aspect of it, but also as something that contributes to so many positive shared experiences with others to remove any guilt surrounding it. You are so talented and inspiring! Having to face your struggles daily is exhausting, but your talent is truly such a gift and I’ve learned so much from you!

The thing in the quince is where a worm used to live most likely. They dig into the fruit and eat/lounge in there for a bit. You’re good to eat around it. Thank you for publicly speaking about your eating disorder, I knew there was something but would never pry into it. It takes courage to keep fighting so keep doing it, we appreciate you.

Thank you for being open and honest about your relationship with food. As a long time “closet” binge and purger, I think it’s really nice to hear your thoughts in a non aggressive “follow my tips to FIX YOURSELF” way. It gives me hope & helps me believe that the baby steps count. PS: I bet Fred is really grateful for you and Aaron. He seems well loved and taken care of 💕

Thank you for always being so vulnerable and genuine. I find your videos so calming because I relate so strongly to much of what you share. As someone who deactivated my eating disorder many years ago now, I truly appreciate how honest this what I eat in a week video was. Wishing you continued growth and more little moments of joy💫🦋

I live alone and sometimes feel lonely but don't want to be with people. I listened and cooked as you talked and cooked. The loneliness went away. I had the same homey feeling as when I'm cooking with my sisters: chattiness that turns to intimacy that turns to silence that turns to chattiness. I am not going to comment on your personal worries, but know you were heard and not judged.

I'm from Poland and in our national cuisine there's these cabbage rolls called gołąbki (lit. pigeons) and it's filled with like minced meat and rice and stuff (and usually covered with tomato sauce) so those rolls you've made towards the end really reminded me of that

Thank you so much for making these kinds of videos, you've been teaching me how to cook for the past year and the knowledge I've gleaned from these videos is invaluable! With the lives, they are so comforting. Helps to make me feel less alone. I actually wanted to do the dishes but needed a little motivation so I figured I'd pull up one of your lives to watch and saw this video Thank you for being yourself, and open and honest. Its so refreshing, I love you as you are June, I hope you enjoy your trip!

Thanks for sharing and for helping some of us not feel alone in the struggle. I've become more aware of how others have difficulty with gaining access to resources, and through that, I've had the privilege to volunteer and give to others. But it's gotten to a point of neglecting myself at an unsustainable rate. As much as I'm trying to learn to be more proactive in caring for the people around me, I realized that if I'm going to value people, I need to learn how to value myself too. Every individual in a community is important and deserves to be valued, including yourself. If I'm learning about the importance of making nutritious food more accessible to others in my community, I need to also give my body nutritious food too. This is sort of the mindset that's helped me keep going.

June, you are a treasure. Thank you for sharing your thoughts, struggles and musings with us. Yes, we do have muscadine grapes growing here in NC, I have some seeds saved to plant next year! The green variety are called scuppernongs.

Since you like the part of the rice that sticks to the pot (we call it pegao in PR), to reheat it and get more of it, take a pan and heat the rice up in there. No oil needed but if you add a little, you'll get the crispiness faster. So delicious!!

I'm loving this quality Fred content.

“Maybe I’d be free…” I felt that so deeply, June. I’m a constant prisoner in my own mind/thoughts, as well… much more than I care to admit, really. You are loved. You are amazing. And, you deserve to enjoy the necessities of life 🥺❤️

i really find your screen-mediated presence soothing. watched all your videos on delish, have been watching your streams after the fact. been majorly depressed this week, so thank you for all of these. hoping to catch a live eventually. i like fred and aaron a lot too :) i'm disabled and cooking takes so much energy for me, but your budget eats are so creative and i've found they're the only thing that inspire me to cook.

I always enjoy the out of the box variety your content has! Thank you for your vulnerability about your eating disorder. I learn so much from you beyond cooking like creativity, using what you have, and new uses for different ingredients.

Is that little jam jar next to Fred's eatin' plate his only water "bowl?" I remember a while ago you said you wanted him to drink more, and I found out something about my own cat that might be helpful! My cat wouldn't eat all his food/drink all his water, and he would also drop a lot of food on the ground and eat it from there, rather than the bowl. Turns out, cats have a LOT more success with consuming things in a wide, shallow dish because anything that can/could touch their whiskers gives them "whisker fatigue," either through irritation while touching the edges or fatigue while basically flexing the whiskers the whole time they're trying to keep them from touching the edge (this was also causing him to vomit like... daily.). Anyway, my cat's had a MUCH better time ever since I switched his bowls out for something more suitable! I went for something raised as well to help reduce the vomiting and it's worked a trick. Hope this helps anyone reading it that didn't know this was a thing! Because I didn't, and feel a bit guilty I never thought about why his eating habits were so unusual and inconsistent.

watching your relationship with food is so inspirational. I tell myself all the time that I've "healed" from my eating disorder even though I still clearly feel those roots in my daily life. This often leads to guilt or a different kind of pressure on myself. So hearing from someone still exploring and accepting their body-food relationship post "healing" was really comforting. It truly is a battle that stays for life, but life is also filled with constant evolution! Food really makes life 100000x more exciting : ) thanks June

Wow. June I’ve always adored you. But I’ve loved getting to see a more deeper serious side of you discussing food and body issues and depression and shame. It’s something we all suffer from or can at least relate to on one way or another I think, but not something we talk about enough. We all just internalize it and spend way too much time in our own heads. I applaud you for being so open and can relate so so much and you make me feel not so alone or crazy! Love you shit tons June, and the food was amazing, as always! You’ve made me venture out and try some new concoctions that I normally never would have. Thankful I got to watch this the last almost hour and a half! It brightened my day a ton!

This is by far and away the best video I’ve ever seen in regards to discussing heathy/unhealthy food thoughts and how every person’s experience is unique. What a beautiful video. Thank you so much for sharing your experiences with us. I always appreciate your videos, but this was my favorite.

Anxiety sucks ♥️ I’m with you on that. My racing thoughts usually start from the moment I wake up until the moment I got to sleep. So I get it♥️♥️

June, sending hugs and kisses. I also use food for comfort, but no one associates being overweight with an eating disorder. They are just disgusted with having to be in the same space as you. You can't miss look on their faces. They try so hard to back away from you, as if I had something that's contagious. I love catsup as you do. I also love what you do and that you share with us. You are so amazing, thank you. C Cashsews are my favorite nut, also. I have about 8 bags in the freezer. Never know when you just might need a cashew or two. Girl, you are way too hard on yourself. I for one are glad you are you. What you said about shame and food, hits home. What are you listening to?

Best by and expired by is not the same thing and some people don’t know the difference. If it’s says best by you can still use it but it’s telling you that the quality may not be at its best. I like the fact that you are able to incorporate things into your meals that maybe past the best by date. So often people waste food by throwing it away because it has exceeded its best by date. There are tutorials on KZfaq that teaches people the difference between best by and expiration dates as well as how to properly read labels. There are weight and measurements conversion tables too. I love KZfaq it teaches so much. Love your videos.

I love your openness on food issues. I grew up in the '70's/'80s and had food out on my plate and then asked " Are you really going to eat all that?" I love your ability to be candid. I had to have weight loss by pass surgery due to all the health causes I developed. I almost died and I had to start over. I found you just as I am beginning to figure out food. I love your creativity to help you to be willing to eat. I have lost 218 lbs from my surgery and still have 40 to go to get to the goal. I love your ability to do so much gluten free and vegetarian because my stomach can't process meat much now. Some days I can but you have given me hope. I love you Gurl!!!!!!

Thanks for sharing your story! Every word hit so close to home. Everyday, it lingers, having to make decisions on if I should or shouldn’t eat it. But I make the decision, eat the food, and the world doesn’t end like it used to feel as though it would. And no, authority telling you that you must eat doesn’t heal. 100% agree. I felt that statement so hard. For the longest time in my ED I thought there was no way I could die. Then almost out of nowhere, I was to the point of dying. All of a sudden I had to sit to shower. All of a sudden I was perpetually cold even in summer. That’s when I truly realized I could die. And that I didn’t want to. Thank you again for sharing. Helps me, who is in recovery, feel not so alone with the fact that it hadn’t gone away, and I still struggle with the thoughts even if my body is doing better and it’s been a few years now.

I love this so much. It's great to see your life and what you eat without the confines of what Delish has you do. I also really appreciate you talking so openly about your issues with food. I've definitely been there and I agree that it's something that never really leaves completely, we just get better at managing it. I'm brittle type 1 diabetic and my parents were more than a little abusive growing up, so I wasn't allowed to eat bread, pasta, fruit, anything with a high carb/sugar content or any sweets at all, and was punished when my blood sugars were bad. To this day (I'll be 39 in a couple weeks and haven lived with my parents for over twenty years) I still have an aversion to eating those things for the fear that not only will I be punished and have food locked away from me, but that those foods will inherently make my diabetes worse and that I'll die from eating them. The shit we retain from what we're told when young is really hard to let go of, even if it doesn't make sense to any rational human. As for using food as a reward, I did that for so long and started to realize it was becoming a bad coping mechanism. I can't say I never do it anymore, but I try not to have food as a specific goal for getting through something stressful. Instead, I just promise myself that I can rest a little after a long/anxious day and play Mahjong on my computer or watch KZfaq without worrying. Doesn't always work, but it helps! Thanks again for the video, everything you made looked great. I'm definitely going to try to recreate the soup/stew thing! Oh, and Fred was super adorable in this, I love his zoomies and his box time. You're an awesome person, June, and you really have come a long way

I am highly allergic to alot of things so I always have to cook for myself. My colleagues just do not understand why I would cook everyday for myself and why I even cook more than once a day. Over time I learnd to enjoy cooking and it is more like therapy and me-time, than an annoying chore. And I think it is better quality me-time than sitting in front of a TV or so. By the way, I love all your content. You are so amazing 💖

Let me tell you something. In the passed two weeks I have been through literally more trauma than I can even begin to process so I'm just really down and finding out today that you had a personal channel with awesome content is like. The one shred of serotonin that I've gotten in like. A really long time. And I just appreciate that you are here and just thank you. I love your videos. You and your guy make me (and my kid. She loves your videos too lol) smile so much. ✌❤

Girl your pumpkin seed segment was almost as introspective as a good trip. ✌🏻

I'm living for that cheese crisp moment. I love your videos, both with delish and outside of delish. It was eye opening to hear you speak about your anxieties, because I tune in to you to calm mine, especially before bed. I am grateful for you. Thank you for always sharing.

This was so beautiful. Thank you so much for being vulnerable and sharing this with everyone. As someone who's spent most of their adult life recovering from an ED, I really related to your struggle.

writing this while crying, i think (oops) the thinking is the thing that frees us... specially being sumerged in a society, as you well said, were everyone is running after who knows what (money) and doesn’t take the time to think things through. thinking and trying to understand things is the best! we just can’t let the bad thoughts overpower the good :) lots of love from argentina💘💘

I think Aaron understands your Asian decent/recipes. He gets that you have things that we don't normally eat in the U.S. but in N.Y. you get so much more .

Your videos bring joy to a lot of people. You’re such an inspiration!

I’ve never heard anyone describe how I feel about food out loud. What you said about reward and distraction, so true. Telling yourself it’s ok only to feel defeat and regret afterward. That’s me almost everyday. Your introspection over guilt turned into anger at others gave me so much to think about. Thank you.

on the eating disorder,,,,,, being that im alone in this life.... food is only thing that gives me immediate comfort.... being that i have health issues,,, not good for me. but its what i have

This was a beautiful film. So soothing and interesting. I love Fred and how you and Aaron care for him.

Yes, those spots in the quince are definitely bugs. It's the damage from worms or earwigs nesting and eating through the fruit. Most of the apples from our garden have them. A real bonus is seeing live earwigs crawl out of the apple after you've picked it!

I wasn’t expecting the deepens in this video but I sincerely appreciate it specially right now when in my life I’m finally facing my eating disorder and emphasizing the work with my mental health with therapy. The thoughts you’ve shared are an incredibly relief that gives me a sense of empathy and hope, and a solid reminder that I’m not alone. Thank you for this 🙏🏻

You are such a magical unicorn June. I can listen to you for hours. Thank you for sharing your journey. You are helping so many people. 🙏🏼

This is like therapy for my eating disorder. Thank you June, I needed this

Hi June! As someone who has had an eating disorder, I just wanted to say that while the disorder definitely keeps slumbering somewhere in the background, for me it did get a lot better. The negative thoughts about food and my body have faded slowly over the years, and now I feel free most of the time. I really wish you the same! Lots of love!

Oh my goodness this video was so amazing and completely resonated with me. It’s interesting because I’ve always watched your joy for food and admired that relationship, I did not ever consider that you may have also been having some kind of internal struggle. I have had a long history with disordered eating and only now in my 30’s after becoming a mother and needing to provide meals for my children, am I starting to see food more for its indented function, for nutrition and sustenance. I still enjoy eating and have moments of using it for comfort but I feel that overall my eating habits have become a lot less erratic and more focussed on eating a little more intuitively with an emphasis on balance. Thankyou for being so candid, I think it’s something that makes others more willing to look inwardly when they hear about someone else’s similar struggles.

Omg Fred yelled and I thought it was one of my cats. I literally shouted "what do you need?" across my house 🤦🏾‍♀️

I really loved this video. I haven't been able to catch any of the livestreams because work/life so it's new to me. I also had a different set of expectations, I guess from seeing other "everything I eat in a week" vids. But this is something else. You used to say you only live stream because you didn't want to have to edit stuff. Here, it's a kind of stream of consciousness but not really, since it's been edited. But the overlay of your thoughts over whatever else is happening in the kitchen is wonderful. Would love to see more of this.

June's testimony about her ED is do powerful. Thank you so much for sharing that with us

June you are young enough to be my daughter, but I have learned so much from watching you and listening to your heartfelt, wise, and always entertaining talks as well as your fabulous cooking techniques and tips. You make me love myself more and be able to forgive myself for much of what I’ve regretted or judged myself harshly for over the many years. You are a beautiful, intelligent, multi-talented , loving, caring, and well rounded person. Love your fostering of the animals and your cat baby Fred❤️. Don’t look back except to remember where you’ve come from. And always look towards the future and where you are headed. All the best to you hon. 🥰. PS: yes muscadines (musk-uh-dines) (Long i like dining) are a NC specialty that many people adore or abhor. I am in the latter group lol. They truly do smell like a “wino” to me. And I hate that huge seed. But they are expensive now and harder to find where as they used to grow wild everywhere here. But glad you enjoy.

I never thought of Muscadines as a grape. Growing up in Georgia I used to see them on vines everywhere. And wine made from it is this ridiculously delicious muscatoesq thing! I also wanna say that I am always comforted when I watch your videos. You are such an important person to this world. I feel like you are a friend because you are so honest about your life and your struggles. I hope you can one day understand how amazing you are. I wish the same for me too!

I am absolutely in love with Fred. He's purrrr-fectly rumpled disguntled

Over this last crazy year and a half, I discovered your videos. I shamelessly binge watch every one. They have brought me joy, knowledge, culinary curiosity and many smiles and laughter. These last 2 videos I have watched with Fred, brought me happy tears. His clipped ear tells me much of what Fred's past may have been like. Thank you for bringing this adorable rescue into your home and loving him so well. Thank you for sharing your talent with us, and sharing your vulnerable truths too. Keep being true to the beautiful truth of you.

I listen because of your poetic spirit. The food is just the vehicle for the fascinating take you have on situations, food and your own delightful spirit. Your use of language is truly lovely, inspiring and a great comfort. You are developing a new art form. Some odd combination of food, expertise, invention, mystery, and the poetic spirit. Your inventive self is a great inspiration to me. Thank you. We shall persist.

I love your introspections, June! You're not alone in how you think

I also struggle with disordered eating, and it was only made worse when I realised I'd gained a bit of weight since I moved out of my dad's house (I don't own a scale). I've also been thinking about my gender in a different way and wondering if I'd prefer to be non-binary. Plus I've always struggled with coming to terms with my sexuality (queer). There are so many things that are made difficult because of societal norms. I wish every day that we were all free in the purest sense of the word. I learned about the panopticon at university and sadly think that it is a very accurate description of modern society. Thank you for this video and for sharing your thoughts.

You don't even know how much your videos help me. Just listening to you talk and what you're saying is so much like what I go through. Thank you so much for sharing your life and helping your viewers.

I love you so much June! Thank you for sharing your challenges, I would have never known that you go through so much on the daily yet still make such joyous content for us all the time. You are supremely epic xxx

You are amazing June , have been watching you since delish and will continue to support you ! Amazing content creator and we are all so proud of you !!!

The peaceful energy of this video, beautiful editing, the amazing soundscape created such a beautiful video experience. Thank you!!

On tough days, I allow myself to binge all the Netflix I want, reach out to a friend to talk about it (usually by text), and spend extra cuddle time with my dog :)

I am a young aspiring female chef who also struggles with disordered eating. Thank you June for being so open and sharing this part of your life with us. You are incredibly inspiring to me you don't pretend to have it all together you show us where your at today. Don't stop being yourself June 💕

June. You and your videos are truly my comfort. I could watch you talk, do, or eat anything and everything. Thank you for sharing about your experiences w food and your intricate thoughts. You are so incredible and I will watch you forever. If these videos helped you, feel free to upload more bc I’ll watch and re watch endlessly!!!!

When you said "maybe I think too much, I do wonder sometimes who you'd be if I didn't think my thoughts, maybe I'd be free." That just hit me. I am thinking the same thing every other day. Last year I have been diagnosed with leukaemia and now I am in remission, but since then I have terrible anxiety about having some other form of cancer or other serious illnesses or my closest people having it and it's taking over my life. I am constantly thinking about different kind of illnesses, researching them, matching my symptoms to them and I just wish this never happened to me...

As a fellow human with a long history of food issues, this video was so relatable and made me love you even more. I also have to say that I love the way you let Fred smell your food, even if it's not something he personally wants to eat. It's honestly pretty great enrichment for cats to get to smell all the smells, mine love to do it too, and they love to watch me cook. Fred probably loves how toasty the kitchen gets when you're cooking too!

I am so glad I found your video's June! Please don't ever change who you are.❤ When we lived in Mexico we would eat the mango skin, not an expert or anything but haven't died yet.👍

This is one of my favorite videos of yours... And I love a lot of them. The more I see of you, the more I genuinely admire who you are.

Your candid discussion of eating disorders really hit home for me. In my experience, at least, you are absolutely correct: it never goes away, it just gets better managed. I still get feelings of guilt when eating certain foods, but at least now I can eat them and enjoy them in the moment rather than restrict/forbid myself from eating them in the first place. Ten years after the worst of it, I still have bad days. We just have to do what we can do get through them, and having people like you talking openly about your experience honestly helps so much.

June, I think you are amazing! Love watching you cook! You are such an inspiration! We love you!

June ,this video resonated so much with me.I`ve battled with DE for years (the only time i let myself "free" ,was when i was carrying one of my babies ,they needed the nutrition).Even though i`ve grown and changed ,it`s true what you say ,it never really leaves you.I`m so glad you have Aaron ,he seems to support you and help alot in your struggles.Alot of people with Ed`s love watching ,cooking and feeding others.I don`t totally understand why ,but i know it`s always been true with me.I hope someday i`ll be completely free of this battle.If you`re overweight ,most people empathise and help with your struggles.If you appear skinny ,the stock answer is just eat!We know it`s not that easy.I`m honestly loving your channel ,and will definitely be trying some of your foods.Take care of you June , with love from someone who understands.xo

1:31:51 *Codling moth damage* The adult moths are 10-15 mm long and lay tiny pinhead eggs. The larvae enter the fruit through the sides, stem, or calyx end. The larvae can cause one or more holes in the fruit that are plugged with frass (excrement). As the fruit matures, a syrupy substance may exude from the holes.

June, I'm not a tv person, but you are addicting. you are enchanting and so very intelligent. I love your videos. I am 64 yrs.old. LOL

We all think too much when it comes to us accepting ourselves and food when we feel in our subconscious mind controls us. My therapist tells me we are to "Eat to live, not Live to Eat". I'm so proud of you.

“We all want to be intriguingly smokey…”. That’s was awesome. 😂

June is so WHOLESOME!!!! Love the videos June. Thank You!