I really don't understand how every damn person that has ever served in any war are not taken care of for the rest of their damn lives. Baffling.

This started at 100mph and just escalated...damn. "I don't know if I'm finished hurting yet." Easily one of the most intense quote I've heard in a while.

As a therapist, no matter how many lived experiences I hear from my clients, I will sit in awe.. Awe of the strength, resilience and grit people have to survive….and yet, they cannot see it, nor value themselves in anyway! Grey, thank you for sharing, it’s always a privilege to hear another persons story. You have value, you have meaning, and you are more than the things that you have done and more than what has been done to you! We are rooting for you Grey ❤

The silence was so powerful.

That long silence conveyed a thousand words.

Grey sees no value in himself, but I see a man that even with all the pain weighing down on him, still manages to be a captivating speaker. I can totally see him getting better and being a motivational speaker for other veterans down on their luck. Mark, please find help for Grey. Veterans that are watching this video and that can help him, please do so!

I'm not sure how you captured the essence of a human talking to themselves, but that's how this felt for me. The vulnerability that Grey allowed us access to is humbling. This might just be your best footage, Mark. Thank you for your service, sir.

The silent pauses in this interview were deafening. Thank you Mark. Grey you deserve better.

As a 26-year veteran, that did NOT experience combat, this interview should be required viewing for all Americans. Our current system is designed to create a poor, impoverished, poorly educated, underserved population with limited or no access to healthcare or stable housing. These circumstances exist, in part, to create a lucrative, backdoor, recruitment system for this all-volunteer military.

Before I started watching this channel, I judged people very unfairly. I think Mark has done a great thing with this channel. Also makes me realize Im one of the lucky ones and am really counting my blessings.

This dude is really good at telling his story. Mark didn’t even have to say a word.

This man is a lot stronger than he thinks he is. 💔

People don’t understand how gross war really is. This guy does.

Hey Grey, the largest lesson I have learned in my recovery was to stop blaming and beating myself up!!! Whether or not it's well deserved the guilt is irrelevant. Because it does you absolutely no good and you can't possibly move forward until you forgive yourself!!!! Please brother, you have suffered long enough!!! Good luck I will be rooting for you!!!!

This was one of your best ones Mark.

Get him together with Hutch, Nick, and Taylor, the other military brother's. Please, Mark. Will you consider this? God, bless you, Grey. You are loved

Wow!!! I salute this Marine!!! I am Army Veteran 26 years 1988-2014. 4 Combat tours 2 Iraq and 2 Afghanistan. I was a mechanic. Suffering from PTSD. "It is what i am now" Grey.

My heart broke listening to Grey's story. As a mother of 3 in the military I have saw the change in my children after deployment. Grey is in desperate need for housing and therapy. Our country needs to do better for our veterans. Thank you for your service✨️🙏🏾✨️🇺🇸✨️ 39:58

Man I wish I was rich. This is one of the first people I would help. That was one of the most powerful stories I have heard. Stay strong Soldier and please accept any help that comes your way. Respect.

Marks listening to him,letting the man talk on his own was compassion showing his professional ethical listening

A sad story. But man… this guy is an amazing story teller. His voice, his cadence, and how he pauses; the space he leaves. It’s captivating. He could make career with that kind of talent.

One of the best interviews yet

"I've lost more of mine Marine comrades since I've been home than I did in war" ....

I hope and pray that one day you interview this man again and his life has turned around. 😢 heartbreaking.

This dude was in fallujah, not just that but op phantom fury. Some of the bloodiest battles ever seen since vietnam. Fallujah was miserable even for SOF and this guy was conventional. This dude has seen things and then some. Fighting with the bare minimal. Hard SOB, been there done that wanted more. But at what cost. Respect. These warfighters need to have there story told.

This man is deeply depressed, he needs to forgive himself and only then will he be free.

One of the most humbling interviews, leaves a pit in my throat.

Grey you are very powerful. You have the potential to help others, even civilians, get through trauma. You HAVE TO get clean brother and start the process of not blaming yourself. You gotta get your ass out of them streets and be a positive role model to all of us. We need you brother 🫵🏽 we need you.

I have been watching your interviews since the beginning. Veteran Grey was the most moving storyteller of all your interviewees. The silent moments were as revealing as the words. War should be an exception to the rule and never normalized.❤❤

I’ve listened to so many heartbreaking interviews on this channel, but for me Grey’s was the most impactful of them all. I appreciate that Mark just let him speak, and didn’t intrude on the silences. My heart breaks to hear and know your suffering, Grey. I am so sorry. I hope you read all of us listeners’ comments because they are filled with the love, forgiveness, and appreciation that you deserve. You have so much wisdom and strength to offer the world, especially to other men who are struggling to cope with their experiences fighting in the wars that our government created. Please do not lose all hope!

Im a veteran too. The VA isn't giving this man the help he needs. Maybe they can't, his trauma is from his entire life not just the military. Mark, I hope you can find this poor man some help. Praying for a positive update one day.

You can hear the pain in his voice

"I don't know if I'm capable of doing something different." "I did everything I could to not be happy." Those words tell me this is a man is so badly broken, because he *cares.* He went back to get his GED. There are millions of men like him with no one telling him as a child that he was loved...that he mattered. Yet he decided...on his own...to get his GED. When he speaks, every word is about how badly he feels. How much he questions his every thought and every feeling, as if to say, "Am I allowed to have them? Say them? Talk about them? Did I do enough to deserve this moment to share them?" I have never heard anyone be so honest, let alone a marine. I will never forget you Grey. Not ever.

This was perhaps your most compelling, heartbreaking interview ever. Grey’s silence was as loud as his words and his pain palpable💔 He is a beautiful man inside and out and I wish he could see that.Wherever you are Grey I wish you peace, joy, healing and send you much love xx♥️ and please stay🥹

The minute he said he lost his wife at the beginning, I knew I was in for a story. Bro has been through alot.

I just cried and cried. Blessings to this man. I hope he finds peace.

They talk about "old souls"... this man is so haunting it verges on the supernatural. If you told me his soul began as a Roman Centurion, I would believe it. Unforgettable.

Mark, instead of wasting money on dudes like Rebecca, I hope you can help this man.

This is the most difficult video i ave seen on this site . This man lives with pain

I hope he finds peace. My heart hurts for this man. God bless him

I've watched a lot of these, there a handful, 3 or 4 that are truly standouts, this is one of those.

Brother. You have my respect.

Gary your honesty took my breath away. My husband is a veteran from the Viet Nam war era and has never spoken a word about what he did in his 2 term combat era. we’ve been married 54 years so he was just a kid when I met him and just back from war. The trauma and nightmares still haunt him. Nothing but respect and love for you Gary. I pray you can get some real help. You are a lovely man and deserve to have a beautiful life. I’m pulling for you! ❤️

Mad respect for staying with us, much love!

The longest silence after saying " I found out I dont really like me". 😢 i knownthat feeling.

i felt that introduction

My late dad was a gunny sgt. on a B-17 during WWII. He only told me one story about his experiences in the Pacific, which involved someone's accumulated beer rations being stored in the bombay and then dropped over Japan. He wasn't some flyboy who never saw who & what was being bombed. He was probably an atomic vet, but he never inquired about it because of the bureaucracy of the VA. That and the Great Depression made a huge imprint on his mind, spirit and soul. Take care, Grey. I'm so glad you feel that you can tell your story.

Write my friend, all of it , you are a great storyteller, intelligent , great voice . so much more than just a soldier. I was glued to the screen. I shit you not, you have something to offer this world, i hope you can see that. All the best .

I see a lot of this in my practice. The Department of Veterans Affairs does not do enough. They promise lifetime care to Veterans, however, that care is lacking and full of gaps. Veterans walk in needed intense therapy and they are given medication and sent on their way. Medication may help, but therapy must be a huge part of the equation. I thank all of our Veterans for their sacrifices and services. They deserve more!

There is no joy left in his soul. I haven't seen anyone that sad in a long time.

The military industrial complex destroyed my father’s life. To hear Grey describe so clearly, his pain, helps me understand what my father would never talk about as a Marine in Vietnam. Thank you and please don’t be afraid to heal. Grey, you’re a good egg. I know you’re tired. Let Mark and his team help you. You deserve to be happy.

One of the most vulnerable, raw conversations on war and life that I have ever watched. I hope this soldier finds healing and redemption.

I see a man who needs a damn good cry and a lot of hugs and love. Wishing you all the very best Grey

Grey, that little boy you think about every day is you. 💜

I hope you find some peace within one day. In a peaceful way. Sending love from Tasmania, Australia ❤

That marine recruiter deserves commendation. The fact that he financed this young man's lodging for two weeks before boot camp and attended his graduation, representing his family, speaks volumes about his character. There are individuals who can endure the 'cost of war' without psychological scars. However, this does not apply to those like Grey, who will carry these battle scars for the rest of their lives. Per Wikipedia: The Second Battle of Fallujah The Second Battle of Fallujah, initially codenamed Operation Phantom Fury, Operation al-Fajr (Arabic: الفجر, lit. 'The Dawn') was an American-led offensive of the Iraq War that lasted roughly six weeks, starting 7 November 2004. Marking the highest point of the conflict against the Iraqi insurgency, it was a joint military effort carried out by the United States, the Iraqi Interim Government, and the United Kingdom. Within the city of Fallujah, the coalition was led by the U.S. Marine Corps and U.S. Army, the battle was later described as "some of the heaviest urban combat Marines have been involved in since Huế City in Vietnam in 1968" and as the toughest battle the U.S. military has been in since the end of the Vietnam War. It was the single bloodiest and fiercest battle of the entire conflict, including for American troops. Operation Phantom Fury was the second major coalition effort in Fallujah. Earlier, in April 2004, coalition forces fought the First Battle of Fallujah in an attempt to capture or kill insurgent elements who were considered responsible for the 2004 Fallujah ambush, which resulted in the deaths of four private military contractors of Blackwater. When the coalition fought their way into the centre of the city, the Iraqi Interim Government requested that the city's control be transferred over to an Iraqi-run local security force, which then began stockpiling weapons and building complex defences across the city through mid-2004. The battle is notable for being the first major engagement of the Iraq War that was fought solely against insurgents as opposed to the government military forces of the former Ba'athist Iraq. Source Wikipedia. Per Wikipedia: The Haditha Massacre The Haditha massacre (also called the Haditha killings or the Haditha incident) was a series of killings on November 19, 2005, in which a group of United States Marines killed 24 unarmed Iraqi civilians. The killings occurred in the city of Haditha in Iraq's western province of Al Anbar. Among the dead were men, women, elderly people and children as young as 1, who were shot multiple times at close range while unarmed. The ensuing massacre took place after an improvised explosive device exploded near a convoy, killing a lance corporal and severely injuring two other marines. The immediate reaction was to seize 5 men in a nearby taxi and execute them on the street. An initial Marine Corps communique reported that 15 civilians were killed by the bomb's blast and eight insurgents were subsequently killed when the Marines returned fire against those attacking the convoy. However, other evidence uncovered by the media contradicted the Marines' account. A Time magazine reporter's questions prompted the United States military to open an investigation into the incident. The investigation found evidence that "supports accusations that U.S. Marines deliberately shot civilians", according to an anonymous Pentagon official. Three officers were officially reprimanded for failing to properly initially report and investigate the killings. On December 21, 2006, eight Marines from 3rd Battalion, 1st Marines were charged in connection with the incident. By June 17, 2008, six defendants had their cases dropped and a seventh was found not guilty. The exception was former Staff Sergeant, now-Private Frank Wuterich. On October 3, 2007, the Article 32 hearing investigating officer recommended that charges of murder be dropped and Wuterich be tried for negligent homicide in the deaths of two women and five children. Further charges of assault and manslaughter were ultimately dropped; Wuterich was convicted of a single count of negligent dereliction of duty on January 24, 2012. Wuterich received a rank reduction and pay cut but avoided jail time. Iraqis expressed disbelief and voiced outrage after the six-year U.S. military prosecution ended with none of the Marines sentenced to incarceration. A lawyer for the victims stated "this is an assault on humanity" before adding that he, as well as the Government of Iraq, might bring the case to international courts. Source Wikipedia

one thing is for certain, this channel reminds me every single day how many people are hurting n alone on this planet. it makes the weight of this world feel impossible to bear sometimes. like is there any hope left? i feel so broken. my heart is with you, Grey.

My daughters dad was a destroyed soldier too. Nightmares he could never get away from... shit happens over there that changes them scarred from in the early 90s things was different during war He would never talk about what happened he would lock it all in He would have these mental breakdowns and get in a drunken fight with him self Literally fight physical harm to him self .. He'd get to the VA and he could lie and pull a fast one on them. Never committed!! One of the last drunk times w him driving him back from the VA. Was he was scared of war crimes. Idk if it was his delusional thoughts or if he was involved with war crimes... But he's been gone 2yrs now. I'm raising our 10 yr old daughter who remembers Nothing of him.. he was a shell of a man I never really knew . I loved the love we shared for the time that we did.. when I knew he couldn't or wouldn't get help.. I couldn't remain safe with him Rip jose

Soldiers videos are some of the most interesting on here. This man has an amazing voice.

A very natural storyteller

I was there in Fallujah with you.

My heart goes out to you Grey! I have worked with vets in substance-abuse treatment. While it is compounded from childhood trauma, it is not impossible. Nothing is impossible! I have found we walk through our experiences for a reason, usually to help others. That’s what helps my soul when it aches!! I have to turn it into something positive. Your story really touched me, my son is serving in the Marines currently. Bless you Grey, may you find peace in your soul❤️

That story about the little boy and the tank made me feel ill for a second.

Post traumatic stress can last a life time.The VA needs to help soldiers coming home from war torn countries with intense long term therapy. understanding the intense life threatening situations theses soldiers are are put in on a daily bases is mind blowing. I hope and pray this brave man can overcome what he has gone through.

dear lord, my heart aches for him. He is in my prayers tonight. Every single vet should be taken care of. Please Mark, use some of the donations to help Grey. Please ...

You are worthy, you are worthy, you are worthy of being fully happy .. this man needs so much help, the exhaustion he feels just talking and remembering....Praying for you Grey❤️

The grief and trauma is heart rending…. I hope he finds peace….💔💔💔

This was truly POWERFUL brought tears to my eyes. We love you MARK 💪🏿💯🙌🏾 l will keep this BROTHER in my Prayers!

i am so incredibly humbled by this man & his story. thank you for being so honest & so open about your life. your experiences. and just beinng so beautifully vulnerable.

I really wish i could give him a real hug. A hug of love respect and let him know his story is his. No one else's. Hes not alone there are thousands and thousands of our men and woman come home broken and destroyed.

Damn. I hope you find peace brother. Hang in there.

I and almost everyone watching this interview wish we could make your pain go away. You have our respect, Sir. Thankyou Mark for having him on.

Wow, Mark. Thank you both. This was heavy. His eyes hold a lot of pain.

My father is a veteran, and I thank you for your service. Im also so sorry you didnt have a family growing up. You did get good looks and bravery though. Very handsome man and i hope only the best. If we were ever invaded you would have a lot of friends and family real fast i bet. Please hang in there. ❤ to all our veterans. (Please have more Veterans w ptsd and their families. This is a great platform to get their stories out and how our country needs to step up.) What happened to that boy was horrific and you now need to celebrate his life by getting yourself together and starting a non profit for children. Do something for that child. Help children that lost parents to suicide do to war. Use your pain for these people to do something amazing. Its NEVER too late to turn it around.)

We still love you brother!!!!!!!!!!! Hang in there... Semper FI

Semper fi bro. You are not alone. And you sure as fuck are not forgotten

I hope grey realizes his worth one day, hes been through so much, but he deserves all the wonderful things this life has to offer❤

The sounds coming from his mouth(his words) hit my heart... I couldn't imagine living his reality. I hope he finds healing

I work at a bar so I don’t get home til 3am. I usually look for something to watch til I fall asleep. Thanks Mark 😊

This has to be the most real interview I've seen. Bless this Veteran. I pray he finds a good life eventually. I'm left in tears. God help him to be able to help himself 😢❤🙏🇺🇸

He seems like he’s never been held by someone who loves him and just wept for the pain he’s been through… we all need that person in our life

Grey if ur reading this brother I was there with u in 2004. We all went through this and we can’t beat ourselves up. It purely was hell and the amount of trauma we went through will live with us forever. I was put in a wheelchair and have been paralyzed since back then. The Marines made us into killers and that will stick with us till the end but we can’t beat ourselves up for what we were trained to do. Ur a badass brother and always remember that.

" It's all bullshit " that very accurately sums up my thoughts and feelings on humanity.

Out of all the things I’ve watched this has been closest to my heart. I am this man and his message.

I felt like it was very therapeutic for him to get this all out. To tell the entire story out loud and hear it for himself. This may be the start of his healing.

Ce témoignage poignant résume tout. Et ce gars l'a fait sur un ton et dans posture qui reflète une résilience incroyable. Merci Mark. Merci à ce gars pour sa honnêteté... Qu'il soit béni

Profound.. Touching.. I'm left speechless..

War has always been carried out on the backs of innocent people only to fill the pockets of those who play the war game and instigate both sides! Grey, you are as innocent as that boy, you are a good soul, please find help to see that your life is worth so much and that you deserve happiness!

Grey, know you now have so many who are proud of you and who have love for you. Thank you for your service, the cost of war is never worth it. You did what you thought was right at the time for your own reasons. No one with a good heart and sound mind holds this against you.

Damn. Very true. Never thought about that convinction. That gives me a whole new out look on war.

The opening 😢😢every word touches me

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this is probably one of your best interviews, Mark. The silence says so much more than words can.

It hurts to see him hurt so much .I wish you all the best Grey.

Broken man. 😞 He is one of many people from that war. The amount that have taken their lives is devastating. They were used and discarded after. Absolutely awful

We’re rooting for you, Grey. I wish I could write something to help you not choose drugs and alcohol, but you’re right, the choice depends on what you’re looking for. Choose the light, brother. You’re a good soul.

Had to come back and say 24 hours after watching this I'm still shaken up. Mark, if you never did anything else, this interview would be enough.

Someone out there if you are watching help this man

Man. No child deserves a start like Grey. I hope he can get help and release some of the sorrows and pain he carries. ❤

I feel for this guy.. what a shame😢