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I had postpartum psychosis, the channels opened up naturally through birth and bringing another soul into the world. A lot to take, but now I look back and realise I have come out more self aware. It was part of my spiritual journey and I hope I can go onto help others 🙏🏽

I’ve lost the witness after eating 5 grams of psilocybin during the full moon on august 12. I decided to do it alone while my parents were on vacation. Once those channels started to open up I started praying and visualizing and affirming guided by drum music. It was a beautiful experience. The hours after doing this manifestation work I was singing and dancing and honestly just having a party by myself. It felt like I was allowing my heart to open after a lifetime of burying it under concrete, letting my light shine so bright that I became the sun. I felt extreme well and acting in that feeling of well-being was wonderful because It showed me a side of myself that was able to do amazing things and I felt hopeful about my future. But then it took a dark turn… because I lost a sense of time and space I thought this would last forever and that this place is some kind of simulation and that nothing really mattered and so while walking around the house and doing all sorts of acrobatic probably dangerous stunts I just grabbed everything In my sight and destroying it while laughing maniacally… vases, pictures, 3000$ flatscreen, vine bottles!!! I’m not sure why I did it. All of a sudden I felt a sense for chaos because material things didn’t matter anymore. Like I could create new things just by thought tomorrow. But that tomorrow of course never came. That tomorrow was like waking up in hell. I ended up blacking out at some point and woke up naked in a carped full of shards. I thought I just threw my whole life away. Almost jumped off the roof because the feeling was so unbearable I felt so empty and lost and alone a confused… but then I heard a voice that said “You’re going to fix this! And with it everything that’s out of balance and order in your life” over and over again. So I started fixing. Still paying the off the tv but my parents didn’t put me out and they no longer think I’m a maniac now. They forgave me. If you read till here I’m thankful but what I want to ask is if you know what made me act out in that way? Was I experiencing psychosis and have you ever done anything similar to that?

I started an awakening and I've had two episodes of psychosis related to the awakening. Now I can see looking back my ego needed to be Essentially broken twice in order for my body to adjust to the more awakened state. I'm grateful for both experiences now I'm balanced.

I really like the perspective you share here about having access to different perspectives, when you are awake and not in psychosis. While awake you can see the game you are playing, the state you are in and also the game others are playing and the state they are in, and based on that the wisest decision is made. While in psychosis you might think you are awake, you have access to different planes of existence but you lost touch with the common energetic reality.

This is 1000%. Even glimpsing into the infinite without euphoria can be extremely terrifying. It's all up to your state and how grounded you are, through self work like you said. I opened a bunch of channels way too fast and had a psychotic episode where I felt like I would lose control, while high on cannabis. Not a good equation.

This is what happened to me. I took 10g of psilocybin and became awakened spontaneously. I had an extremely bad trip and I had accidentally ascended my ego. Became aware of who I am and who we are, what we all are and what nature is. All me but cuz it was spontaneous, all my trauma came up, I felt like I was going insane, was in deep fear, felt existentially alone, super depression came up. Still there now fighting everyday to survive. People say its part of the process so I have hope.

thank you for this video. back in 2012 i smoked DMT and iv'e heard a terrifying voice telling me "DUALISM" and i lost my mind, i have anxiety and some times i dont want to live anymore. iv'e also heard a voice asking me "how would you feel if one day you'll wake up alone". im glad you're here man but i still have trust issues.

Yes this happened to me from doing energy healing for a physical ailment. I already was very dissociated/nervous system imbalances etc and it blew up my mind. Took me 3 years to heal and I’m still healing the physical illness but it did expedite my awakening pretty rapidly bc I was suffering so much. I definitely agree tho, awakening is better integrated when it is gradual. The consciousness knows how and when to clear blockages when the time is right….we just need the ego to relax and surrender into that. 🙏🏻

I was diagnosed with schizoeffective disorder after having two psychotic episodes in one year which were very severe. I've never taken any drugs before, but days prior to the first event I underwent this experience of feeling a lot of energy throughout my body, it was so powerful. However, thanks to those psychotic episodes I was able to continue on my spiritual journey, so I guess they were divinely planned for them to happen. This happened two years ago, and I'm still trying to make sense of it. The only odd happening prior to these events was when in 2008 I had a partial ego-death. I was consuming a lot of spiritual texts and philosophies that my mind shattered and my sense of self dropped when I became overwhelmed by all this knowledge I had. It was horrifying and unbelievably painful that I repressed all those feelings. I suppose everything is connected in a way.

The Direct Spiritual Experience sober that come Directly from The Creator will always be more Powerful. Its like I tell people, one doesn't need to look to something outside of themselves to have A Spiritual Experience. All one needs to do is look Within. Plant medicine can help people to change their Lives and it's beneficial for many but when one takes a substance, they by-pass all The Important Life Lessons and the things that lead to The Realization of Awakening. All physical reality is in a state of impermanence. All experiences come and go like clouds that appear and vanish. What doesn't come and go but only 'The Now'. This Moment is Truth!

Thabk you so much tor this video. This will help me heal my actual borderline psychosis. Ive had it since i was 8. My mind started breaking open. Did a dark turn. But now i know that if i can recover the witness, I can come back into sanity. That is what holds me up when i nip it in the bud. Sorry for the lack of context, hoep you understand if youve read this far.

I’ve experienced huge releases over the past 6 months. But recently as I’ve feel more aware, I’ve also become aware of a particularly vile voice who attacks my connection and love. I became afraid of this voice and after a huge eruption of energy through my crown I thought it was gone. I stupidly decided to smoke a small joint last night to relax and enjoy a meditation as I was feeling really connected. It turned into me becoming lost within the experience. The voice became very loud and was asking me to do awful things. It terrifies me and the thing that pulled me out was love. I’m still shaken up but I think it’s time I put the cannabis down. It was a great medicine initially but seems to be too much for my system. The irony is, I felt good before I smoked it so why did I roll it up? Be kind to yourselves. Be clear on this journey as it can turn worlds upside down just as you think you’ve got a handle on it ❤️

6:34 - “You lose the witness and the woman who had psychosis from staring in the mirror” This anecdote immediately brought to mind the myth of Narcissus. Staring into the abyss so deeply, you lose awareness/traction of your surroundings. The abyss is to give you a surface for reflection…the ability to see not only what’s in eye view but also what’s behind you…360 awareness.

I had my second psychosis a few months ago, it has ended now and just had an awakening last Friday, I had a bad day and was sitting in the garden to relax, I felt my spirit(for lack of a better term) start to expand and expand to a gigantic size, like 3 stories high, during this time my anxieties and worries melted away and I just sat peacefully looking at the insects in the garden, it staying like that for a while then shrunk back down to the size of my body again, I still feel more at peace and less concerned with things and less negative after that experience.

The 3 month path towards my awakening was (at times) extremely disturbing, like hardcore brutal, lol… I seriously struggled to deal with the intensity of events that were unfolding whenever I was approaching a shift in consciousness. Hallucinations, delusions, anxiety, fear, confusion and disorganized thinking which would put my brain in total overdrive, absolutely scary stuff that shook me too the core of my being. Luckily i never lost the witness and was living alone so I could come back to my senses whenever I got out of the mental grinder, lol. I personally believe I had to go through these extremes to allow my brain to rewire itself by dismantling the old programming or something in the lines of that, lol. I also believe one can somehow get stuck and damaged mentally if circumstances aren’t playing out right, anyways, absolutely great topic, you rock! ❤🤘

You explained this extremely well, thank you so much

What an extremely helpful and insightful video 🙏

Thank you for this, I really needed to hear this

Yeah I have had those moments where you feel you are becoming crazy but they don’t last and I always come back right. The awareness is still there. And now the episodes are getting less strong...

Are you familiar with the experience of having an underlying feeling that everything is wrong even though nothing should be. But then the thought of reassuring yourself that nothing is wrong also feels wrong. So there seems to be no solution other than to accept that your whole life has always been a lie and it’s inevitable to turn your mind inside out?

to fast exactly my story all at once doing elements ❤😊 the deep dive into self phycosis only the strong survive my friend❤😊

Fucking hell i just came out of psychosis. I experienced a 10g mushroom trip PLUS smoking weed.triggered an awakening due to an ego death but also a full blowm psychosis from the weed. I understand that were all one but i domt rly see myself as the trees and the houses anymore. I know its all me, but i dont experience that anymore. I also experienced solipsism on my psychosis hence why i was always commenting about aloneness all the time 🤣. There are still feelings of incrediblie loneliness sometimes but ik its just the ego. Ur videos helped me alot tho so i appreciate it yash thank you ❤💪💯

Thank you, finally a good explanation! 👍🏻👍🏻🤩😍☺️😎😘

Man.. I love hearing you speak about plant medicines. 🙏

I love this guy ❤️ (You.) thanks for sharing your wisdom 😌

i've got be honest, i think i lft my body a few wks ago, i (the person speaking) feel like i've 'lost the witness,' as you say--this is the only time this has happened to me in my life, i'm 53 & my HD astrologer says that this is saturn's second return & many don't make it. i am the opportunist role model so this is perfectly timed, mere little bit of hash & i've realized what a strong visualizing tool this is, as they say?? but mostly lucid dreams & deep, painful abstinence phases of my virgo process. so it's both 'strong' but slow unfolding . . . for me. i think something has 'walked in,' i actually know where my body is, usually walking upside down above me or near me. there definitly needs to be a guiding force . . .

Thanks Yash. Hearing you talk about these various altered states of consciousness was really interesting. Wondering if some day you could make a video about the different states of samadhi and why/how certain people are able to experience them. I know it's important not to ask God for specific experiences such as these because that is usually just the mind looking for more "proof" of the higher dimensions. However, I am conflicted over this because I still feel that I have a deep seeded desire to experience some of these profound higher states.

Spiritual concepts are as thin and fabricated as secular concepts. Experiencing something beyond mind is rare, holding to that is extremely rare. No rush ❤

What do you recommend to someone whose channels opened up too quick (and lost witness) during plant medicine, and did not do work before or have a lot of trauma? What are the best ways to heal?

Thanks Yash

Thank you so much my son had a spiritual Kundalini awakening with the energy of flame 3.7 years ago do you think I can talk to you? he never did any drugs maybe smoke weed a few times. the first 2 years were dark night of the soul and the last 1.7 years meditation inwardly but he is not functional.

I have had a few episodes after smoking dab and was diagnosed with schizoaffective disorder. I had bizarre experiences along with hearing voices and I did research that made me believe that I was in psychosis.

My 3rd eye is about to be balanced, how can I prevent psychosis? I had it years ago after my spontaneous awakening and now I'm afraid I'm going to have it again or worse , I haven't done a lot of intentional shadow work but none of my issues seem to affect me anymore, I've been working through a lot of stuff as exposure therapy. I'm just worried there is stuff in my subconscious that I cannot see that yer to be resolved. Urgent advice potentially needed yash I love your teachings mate and appreciate you

Can I ask, when you mentioned everything being one, seeing yourself as the trees, the universe as myself at the same time. I dont percieve myself as actually feeling what the animals feel or anything like that. I see me and 'other' as speaking to ourselves as we are one. I havent lost the witness so do you think this is psychosis or awakening?

My awakening started with psychosis. AND depression at the same time. Then I got a whack of the mania with psychosis. Then I was stable again for a while. Then when I finished college I got a whack of depression and fatigue in 2019. I'm better now but still get fatigue. I was also taken into hospital by police in 2016. Stayed there for like 3 weeks. And the funny thing is these states were anything but regular, totally spiritual as well as medical. But what doctor are you going to tell that? I've had a lot of suffering on my path. My experiences started when I was 26, I'm 36 now. Like I'm definitely going through awakening if that's what you want to label it, but it never stays when I reach an enlightened state or feel like a master. It'll be gone a few hours later or when I wake up in the morning. So far at least anyway. Peace Yash

During a spiritual awakening. Is it normal to feel like your LITERALLY losing your mind? Like a feeling of pure insanity running through the body. Coupled with the existential depression due to the aloneness/oneness of reality. Seeing everything as yourself/consciousness? Even getting suicidal urges rly bad for some reason. The suicidal shit is wrong ik that but is this all part of the process? The awakening process? The insanity, depression etc? It

Do you think it would be smart to quit alcohol? It helps me to quiet the mind and I honestly feel better and can manifest faster… I did DMT once and it just made me super fucking anxious. I gotta resolve this shit

which means that when you're aware of that astral dimension when you're about to break-through on DMT, you're just chill 🤔

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How do I regain the level of empathy, connection, and awareness that I had before a so claimed "psychosis" without being so overly sensitive where everyone's pain hurts me more than they do? What happened to me was that I had heard one of my younger relatives hurting and so I stepped in and some conflict triggered my trauma as a kid so then I started to break down and eventually threatened to unalive myself so they sent me to the hospital and later claimed it was a psychosis. I eventually got diagnosed with bipolar disorder 2 and have been on mood stabilizers ever since. Although just as recently I have thought that perhaps it's a thyroid issue because on my dad's side of the family there's thyroid issues. I also was so traumatized from that experience that I buried all of the things relating to that spiritual awakening. It made me feel like I had to start again from all my interests and things I loved. I was extremely depressed and it really sucked. I've been meditating a bit more now as well and reading more books, so I hope that helps my mind, body, and spirit to grow stronger.

what do you think iof Gajai Ágnes Mágnes ? Awakened or maniac?

its the little me that wants recognition that feels hurt and threatened when someone cant remember us especially a close family member that is a foundational reference for its identity.

when i shit even my shit had a smile on it❤😊no lie

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I got locked up for being to drunk and became fully awoke while in jail 4 hours later, God that was fucking dumb however other drugs never interesred me. You'll correct being totally fucking happy is blissful ignorance 🤣

"Soon I discovered that this rock thing was true Jerry Lee Lewis was the devil Jesus was an architect previous to his career as a prophet All of a sudden, I found myself in love with the world So there was only one thing that I could do Was ding a ding dang my dang a long ling long"

There essentially is no difference between a spiritual awakening and psychosis other than the level of unconsciousness present in the individual.

What do you think about marijuana?

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I keep coming back to this video. I’ve lost my mind when I’ve smoked dmt. I’ve lost the witness I didn’t know it was plant medicine. I pray to god to help me resist temptation and be a better useful human being. I’m jerking off to pornography since childhood but after my awakening Ii can’t believe I’m precipitating in that g-d forsaken industry