It’s difficult to imagine how one can grow up in a constant state of fear and deprivation for 18 years. Fear of rage, physical and mental abuse, starvation, freezing - with no one and no place to go for comfort and safety. Abuse leaves one with a hidden disability. The victim has a very difficult time with relationships as one is unable to trust. The world and others are seen thru the lens of distrust and automatic defensive thoughts kick in. I too was a victim of abuse but not nearly as extreme as Senne experienced. My heart goes out to her. She’s clearly getting the help she needs and has a keen understanding of what happened to her. She’s a beautiful young woman (inside and out.) I wish her the very best.

Sooner or later that abuse kills you.

so very true

I couldn’t agree with you more. My mother was unbalanced to say it kindly. Growing up was tough. I am now 74 years old and still have nightmares. It has affected every part of my soul. This young lady is so brave I have nothing but envy for her strength.

THIS!!!!

Glad I wasn't rhe only one

OMG Me too . But I thought more like a haunted house fetish type situation ... lol

My exact thoughts. Three minutes in and I’m already worried for what’s about to happen

Same

Same

I remember things from a very early age ! My mom asks me all the time how do I remember certain things,she use to think someone told me, until I told her something that happened and only me and her was present and she never told anyone!!

Yes, it’s very hard to follow. Poor girl, she can barely get the words out

This is very true. It also speaks to her memory as early as 2 years old. She can’t recall the details but when her body feels the same threat she recalls the experience.

That’s made up BS

A lot of people have memories from that young but mark feels the need to voice his doubt and invalidate people every opportunity he gets

I have memories from the first couple years my councellor was shocked but it just sticks in your head for some unknown reason, for me, no emotion towards it. Like it wasn’t me. Odd. I understand why she remembers I don’t think he disbelieves her just was shocked at the age she remembers

I can clearly remember warmth, love, woman other than my mother cooking and other kids laying. We were one and a half years old, certainly not more than two. Next, quite complex memory is from home and the way to hospital when brother was born. Both are very positive, quite a bit darker times came later..

Mixed in with a whole bunch of scammers, bs artists and self promoters

Also, watching these horrific stories shows me how awesome and wonderful my situation is. Comparatively I am blessed beyond belief!!

Truth

@@bruce274always got that one

I mean what could a person with zero background in psychology possibly learn from this. It’s just drama you enjoy drama and that’s ok. It’s like that family he used to have on here, people just gawk and pretend to be intellectuals who are learning. You want to actually learn take a course

The little girls voice is very common in women that were abused at a very, very young age.. as soon as I heard her voice, I knew there was a lot of sexual abuse in her past. It’s a telltale sign.

Not necessarily true. It's quite common in Asian cultures to have that juvenile voice late into adulthood. Let's not play KZfaq psychologist over every little detail.

@@youdyed go look it up… It’s a thing.. As soon as I heard her voice, I knew there were sexual abuse in her past.. and well I wasn’t wrong was I? Does that mean everyone with a little girl voice was sexually abused? Of course not but it is a telltale sign.

Oh i was wondering about this...​@@Solitaire427

This does happen. But It’s quite possible also that she is like 5’0” tall.

100 percent. There are sick individuals out there!

I didn't. Sleepovers only at my home. One trusted babysitter and very few trusted immediate relatives. Once my son was old enough to have a girlfriend, I was shocked at how many parents dropped their 15 year old daughters at my house never even meeting us.

​@@mrs.beasley1979u sound like my mom. She was so protective yet it happened. She trusted no one except her parents. Well her dad touched me

So sorry to hear that:(

Sadly - nor your grandparents

Same! Or the children you were t to school with that became drug addicts or alcoholics, even the addicts/alcoholics who came from what seems to have been a great home life. Maybe that home life wasnt great after all.

​@@jrahn66exactly 💯

I remember a kid in my grade showed me the cigarette burns on her arms and a scar where she was burned by an iron. Coming from an abusive household myself, I remember thinking oh she has it worse than I do. It wasn’t until I was much older that I realized I should have done something to help her. I still wonder became of her.

Same for the 90s too. I remember in like 3rd grade, this set of twins moved to our school and they were extremely aggressive towards ALL the other kids. Like a level that I couldnt comprehend at that age. I was terrified of them. I think back now in my thirties and wonder what kind of home they must have experienced up until that point to be so aggressive as such young kids. Breaks my heart.

U read my mind. Thats exactly how i think remembering those kids from my class and i just hate it that i was not mature enough to try to get close to them and figure out whats wrong with them. Too late, now. ((

Dear Father in heaven, you could have prevented it.

Amen

You Christians are something else 😂 You're the one in control of your life.

@@easypeasy837 Thank god there's no god! There's only good and bad people and everything good and bad is only human's actions.

He knows... thats why Jesus had to come, take into His body all the sins that happened to her, you, me...everybody. He was perfect and gave it to us. He knew her trauma and tragedy still decided to come for her. Thank you LORD.

She is lying!!! There is no true emotion here. How can you people not see this? She is for sure here to promote her OF or something....

SAME COMMENTSEVERYTIME .MOST OF THESE PPL ARE LYING LIKE A RUG . FOR ATTENTION AND MARKS MONEY .TF

​@@travisanderson8771That's because 95% of the people Mark interviews have been abused in childhood, what tf is wrong with you? Don't you have any empathy? 🙄

@@travisanderson8771 I understand. Sometimes it does become repetitive. But it's because each person like Senne is equally amazing. If you've watched SWU for any length of time, you know some of the most damaged of society are mired in drug and alcohol abuse, homelessness, and s@x work/p0rn. Senne, and others like her, rose above seemingly impossible obstacles, not only surviving circumstances that would break most people, but coming out whole, willing to be in the world, working in it, making it better. And each are, in my humble opinion, worthy of admiration.

​@@travisanderson8771 You were not there! Please stop judging. Blessings x🙏♥️

Sadly it is their culture, I am pretty sure I know which religion, but other religions of the sub continent have similar vile standards. What a cruel existence you had Senne, nobody deserves such treatment.

I was thinking the same thing and how there's no anger towards her mom.

God bless this child 🙏

well we trust our families

@@michelemiletich7540 in this case, that was a big mistake

She sounds very intelligent too. I hope she’s doing well

same. i am having a really hard time listening to the story. i keep uttering “scum bags wtf they at”. i have so many questions!

I think it’s because of the trauma she went through at such a young age

Hearing her voice break in between words😢

Her voice is reminiscent of a young child, but yet somehow holds the power of all the ancestors cheering her victory in unison.

"God bless you"

Best comment yet thank you so much for saying this to this brave beautiful soul. Sienne, I’m so very immensely sorry for the abuse you went through. You are a survivor thank you for your bravery and your story and for raising awareness for victims of abuse. You are very strong and brave. My thoughts and prayers will be with you. Hoping you are in a better place now. I send you my Love and Compassion. Lauren. (((HuGs))))~*~*Blessings to you and may your life be blessed and way better moving forward I hope you find the love, validation and support you need and deserve. May you find peace. 🕊️

Agreed

Beautifully put

My heart goes out😢❤

"The only time someone listens to me is only when I cry" wow... This line cuts to the bone. I'm so sorry for what you went through, friend. I'm glad you're still here. 🌻

And thank you for sharing yours. It's incredible how much pain people can endure and especially for how long.

I am so happy that you are doing well these days. You deserve to enjoy every day for the rest of your life, and even better to have dogs as your family showing you so much love. Be well.

Survivors are a remarkable type of species!

Thank you 🙏🏼 ❤ beautiful poem! And…I understand.

Yes and the mother said "dont talk about it." she need to talk about it!!

We’ve been doing corporal punishment for thousands of years and things are still as fucked as ever. Maybe it’s time to try something new.

Most people aren't vile, abusive or depraved. As in the vast majority of the human race is not like that. You just don't hear the everyday good news stories that abound because that doesn't sell. Don't lose your faith in humanity. There is a lot of good to be found if you just look. Peace ✌🏼

Absolutely but I can't help but wonder if maybe she would be better served to deal with her trauma in private therapy and come to terms with it a bit further before sharing it all publicly in an effort to help others. As the saying goes, you've got to save yourself before you can save other people. .

​@doomrat I hear what you're saying ... but everyone is different... anyone who talks to Mark actually might be taking the 1st step before they can be enclosed in an Office with a Therapist ... it could actually work both ways. Being brave enough to speak out on ANY platform I think is in the ' First Step ' phase of liberating, Coping, and Healing.

Can you imagine how much progress she's made to be even able to discuss it like this.. let alone to have fully digested it all.. we're talking years and years of constant therapy and working on herself .. now idk if youtube is the best place but she did an incredible job I was in tears not even because of how sick these people were to her but at how strong she was to be vocal about it.

If you listened to the entire interview, you'd have learned that she did do therapy.

​@doomrat I've been thinking that the entire interview. I think she needs a LOT of support, and loys if unconditional love, and encouragement and validation....this poor baby....my heart is just broken for her. How does a child process such complex emotions all while being told not to feel. She is stronger than she knows.

Considering how she grew up being forced to parent her brothers, idk if that's something she'd want to do. I think she should be supported throughout life and I hope she finds her life passion 🙏

Exactly, and when you try to talk about it the stress responses are activated (fight/flight/freeze) and as they become activated the language center of the brain starts shutting down. When this happens for me I end up talking in really strange patterns with big gaps between words, I’ll keep repeating the same word over and over because I can’t work out what word I’m trying to find that’s supposed to come next in the sentence, and I start to stutter as well (when I don’t stutter at all normally). All I can say is, I feel for her because I know I get so frustrated and I WISH I could just spit the words out, but it’s not possible…

Exactly! Plus when Mark does interviews with people who struggle to speak like her, I just turn the playback speed up faster. I heard her interview in a way that it was faster than most. Not because I didn’t like her way of speaking. But because it’s hard to find the time to watch an almost hour & a half long video.

I think she's dissociating as she tells what happened.

Spot on and I'm glad you clarified that for those that don't understand trauma and how it appears. 🙏

Yes…she speaks in a child like voice because as you said, she is emotionally stunted. She is verbally stunted too because of the emotional damage done to her. She speaks at about the age when the majority of the damage was done to her. That’s my humble opinion. It’s almost like an alter.

Monsters are human

@@loririley4354human are monsters

Maybe you too

Your neighbors too, and even your partner.

You are also a monster

Interesting, I too have a similar memory at the same age, being left alone in a strawberry patch while I watched my parents walk to the car. It was the realization that i was not within 3 feet of my mother anymore, and it is seared in my mind.

❤

I & my younger brother ( 4 & 2 yrs old) were left w relatives, all I remember was my days were filled with such a loneliness, empty, devastating, scarcity. Im still struggling with insecurities & abandonment issues in my old age...Mom's response until this day is, I should be grateful that she didnt threw me away instead...I have no words.

I know that Japanese mothers will lock out children from their homes as a form of punishment. I’ve seen in it Japan and it happened to me in BFE, Ohio. It wasn’t uncommon for my mom’s gen to be punished by moxibustion…a hot burning poultice that left 1 inch burn marks on my beautiful mom’s back. She is 76, from Hiroshima, her war trauma and old-school Japanese discipline raised this woman (me, an only child) to be fiercely independent, taught me to fiercely hate myself, blah blah blah…it took a pandemic for us to sort things out…she battles hoarding, albeit a very organized one who could feed an army with her food stocks…and it passed down to me. But I fight it and I am changing it. Soon to be 55 and I feel like the pandemic helped me come to life. Shifting paradigms…it’s mighty frightening, but it’s hella worth it. Senne, thanks for sharing your story. Your voice may sound weak, but it’s only perceived as such by those who cannot listen. Fight the good fight, live and love with all your might!

I’m sorry 🫂

Thank you for posting this book/podcast. Oh My how valuable for those of us who have gone through trauma.

This. The Asian daughters of this generation are going to break the curse for good. Stay strong sisters ❤

Sending blessings ur way fam. We on this road to healing together. I tend to forget often that we are not alone that's why I watch these videos to remind myself

The body keeps the score ,is also good 😢😢

@@TaylorLee you’ve given me more energy to keep healing. Thank you.

🫶🏻 beautifully said Holly. ❤

lol shut up 😂😂😂

@heatherb9588 best part of you dripped down the Crack of your mommy's ass

​@@heatherb9588BOOOOOOO 👎👎👎

Omg how lame

Myself also. And I’m in my 50’s

A solid mental evaluation wouldn’t hurt and financial stability for that matter

I always found it strange you need a license to go fishing but no kind of checks necessary to be a parent

You tell em Golden child. You Hypocriter you.

@@Steph-zo5zk Spoken like a true taxpayer and a well balanced hard working 50+ hr working patriot. Parents still married and dad opens the doors for mom kinda of guy. Mom brings dad his slippers and paper and calls him yes dear.

@@tee5345 Sounds like you are all Corporate. May you carry wipes and always remember to wash those hands.

She's a BPD. All BPDs claim to have had a toxic family, when in reality THEY were the toxic one!

Shøt.

Many more sick families out there like this.

Before we arrest the world, let's hear from the family too. This lady definitely looks in need of help, granted.

I only see a few lose screws...🤣😂🤣😂

Right these people are disgusting and have no manners

Facts I thought the same

Thanks for spelling out what must of us are thinking

Those are Karens in the comments. They are jealous of her

Poor girl. This is so horrible

Hello, I am a clinical psychologist and wanted to reach out to you as another professional in the field. I definitely believe without doubt that this woman has been through terrible abuse in her life, however, I wondered if you picked up on some embellishment or a few things that didn’t add up while listening to her story? Obviously, these can be symptoms of her diagnosed BPD. Either way, it is great that she is under good care now but I genuinely just wanted your take on this. Thank you.

@@elisabettamoretti-mx5hkAbsolutely. There are a few I have watched where the stories don’t add up. I respect you for the work you do! ❤

@@Datbishh33 same to you!

Yikes-I’m a LCSW that specializes in trauma and I’m really grossed out at the stigma and ignorance in these comments from yall as professionals. Anyone with a basic understanding of trauma knows that survivor narratives are not cohesive-stigmatizing this as a feature of BPD, which it is not (there is no symptom criteria that reflects lying or embellishment), is really disturbing, considering the majority of those with BPD have a significant trauma history. Yikes.

I went to grad school for clinical psychology. Left the program after 4.5 years towards PhD. My experience was that psychologists were the most stigmatizing towards mental illness. I enjoy learning about psychology and human behavior but it wasnt for me.

I want to give her a hug!

I’m feeling the same way, I’m currently pregnant and just want to hold the little girl within her. No child should ever go through this! Drives me want to be the most excellent mother for my baby.

Amen.... Same 💕

Where's your husband, and the kids dad. 🤔

@@bentheredonethat-lx6nh my kids are grown now and he was never involved.

@@veronicamariek1 Right

My parents were poor but thank God we were never abused.

💔

the statute of limitations is so effed up.

I agree thank you mark for your kindness

I am a therapist and I am wondering if you have done any EMDR? Or a therapy called accelerated resolution therapy? Often times with this type of trauma we need to reprocess the brain because trauma causes your brain to store these memories in a fragmented way. When we use a certain Eye movement it helps our brain process the trauma and help us heal. I hope you get freedom from your trauma. I am sorry you had to endure this during your life.

How do you know she's not making it up? She said she's diagnosed with BPD.

@@jojobee42it is very detailed in ways that aren’t likely lies. Very possibly lies in the story, but abuse happened. That’s where the bpd came from.

@@jojobee42what kind of question is that?!

@@jojobee42 Yeah honestly, in my experience when someone tells you EVERYONE in their history was a monster, they are often delusional and insane. It is totally different if they were abused by one or two people, but when it is simply everyone... they are the common insane denominator.

@@DogmenHardcastle I hate to say it but the way she is dressed also ?

💯🕊️

It’s not that they’re trying to preserve it. They’re frozen in it, psychologically, mentally and emotionally.

Brittney Spears too

It's age regression, happens with trauma, dissociation, and bpd, I will go back to different ages if I am stressed. My voice and posture will change and my mind will go back in time. In no way trying to preserve childhood.

Yea Michael Jackson's victims probably speak like this too?

yeah

I hope you and your brother are living your best lives now. Good thing your brother did what he could to try to prevent you from visually having to witness the abuse taking place.

@@LittleWhoo we were separated when we were both removed, but we were reunited as adults. I remember how he hugged me so long when we met.

@@stacirizner4461 God bless you both. Wishing you the most happiness and stability possible

I really hope some of the people in this comment section don't see your comment. They think this poor girl is lying because she was abuse by multiple family members. F-ing sick fu@%s. Why tf would someone make this stuff up? God people are the worst. Im just in disbelief right now that people think this girl is lying. I'm sorry I hope you have not had to ever experience anything like the monsters in this comment section after the horrors you already had to experience. Prayers 🙏🏼🙏🏼🙏🏼🙏🏼

Ugh I’m so sorry to hear that! I totally understand though. I wish you peace of mind and healing.