It may be selfish for me to want to say I want to go before my son, but after burying my daughter I just don't think I could handle it again. In an ideal world we would leave this earth together but its highly unlikely. I just would hate to think what I would become after losing him. I don't think I could be of any use to this world after. I hate thinking about it but it really does plague your thoughts sometimes. I hope I age out of the dreams though. They are the WORST.

@@et3network837 I just finished your third podcast and I’m not going to try to pretend to know the pain of losing a child but I can say I understand where you are coming from and it’s not selfish at all. ETA you never know your impact on a person, I’ve been listening to your pod cast and I have to say they’ve been immensely cathartic knowing that throughout the years I’m not the only one silently dying inside at a birthday party or holiday putting on a happy face. Love the podcast and hope you keep it going. Wish I had had the courage to get my thoughts out like this instead of holding everything in all these years.

@@meiaraboteau7662 Add me on FB or IG we can always just talk, I'll listen, I don't know your exact situation but I am sure I can relate on some level. I'm glad anybody is getting anything from these. and I appreciate the support forever. Nothing but love to you and your family. - Bo