I feel you about depression. They say whatever doesn't kill you makes you stronger but I think it just makes you look strong. Low points in our lives heals but leaves a scar and scars only have 80% strength of the health skin.

I was in a place of feeling extremely low and suicidal a couple years ago, everyday when I woke up I just wanted to go straight back to sleep because it was the only reprieve that I could get from the constant mental and emotional agony. I would say now I am definitely in a neutral state, and I like the way you described that because I have experienced this for sure. I actually believe there are some of us that are born without a shield to the harshness of the world around us. We feel everything more intensely - physical pain, emotional pain, others feelings, connection to nature, among other things. I believe this is for a reason, because we experience things at such a deeper level and understand things on a deeper level, we are able to try and show others this and therefore try and bring about more connection, compassion and understanding of each other. This is something I often think about. It's also why I think some can go through a lot of trauma and seem to be able to distance themselves or numb themselves to it because they have this shield that people like us don't. We probably have a similar soul mission!

I enjoyed your honesty and the gentleness of your voice.

Sadie. Have a listen to linkin park . Lost....it might help in someway. Hope you get better you got a lovely supporting partner who loves you please keep that bond and let it make you get stronger. You don't need to connect with outsiders. P is your answer to betterness. Take care be safe

Definitely worth cleaning up your gut health. Serotonin levels in the brain are linked to your gut health. Cut simple carbs/ sugars and eat clean vegtables and proteins. Exercise helps a lot too.

Sometime in my late 20's, in a particularly angsty, solitary moment, I asked myself, "What is the point?" I was shocked to have a practically audible response, "... to heal, to learn, and to grow..." That was several decades ago and over the years I've come to believe this really is true. I've found that as you work on healing, you can also begin to increasingly experience joy and love in addition to the sadness and depression and gradually let go of the need to control. The learning and growth do happen as result of the healing and all together facilitate continuous improvement like the ripples out that you mention, too. To heal and to learn and to grow are the three ideas that keep me moving forward.

A beautiful piece of gnosis, thank you Sadie. ❤

The timing of this video is just so surprising to me, cause I think I was at my closest to wanting to be done with life only three days ago. Feeling that close to it is a first for me. I always entertained the idea, at such young ages too, but never seriously enough to be scared. I was this time. I am kind of better now, taking things slowly and trying to keep myself surrounded by people. But the timing of this video is so peculiar that I am tempted to take your advice. Precisely because your opinions on drugs align with mine. And I haven't really delved into it too much but I have suspected that I might have complex PTSD many times, and have struggled with depression a lot throughout my life, and have been having a really hard time freely enjoying life for way too long now. If you decide to make another video talking about the "therapy" work you did, I would be really interested. I am really looking for anything at this point, because at this point putting in effort every day to fix the little things feels impossible, cause I found myself feeling this way straight after maybe the healthiest month I had this year. I kind of emotionally and mentally crashed down a week ago, after doing really well for a while. A bit over a month ago I had this moment of "I've had enough" and decided to fix my bad habits which were making my physical and mental health worse. It went well for more than a month, I fixed my sleep schedule and kept it going for 40 days, I exercised 6 days a week for 4 weeks straight, I cut junk food and I was eating healthily. Then all of a sudden it all stopped meaning anything. I decided to take a few days off from my routine. I found I wasn't getting better, I kept feeling worse and I couldn't get back to my routine even after a one week break. In fact, I found myself feeling like I was at the point of giving up on everything, so I did my best to let people know my state, they kept me company, I kind of shook off the worst of it only three days ago. I still feel fragile. I am looking for a therapist, and I want to start seeing one asap.

That’s a beautiful purpose

Hello! Please talk to P. And try to do more things together with P. otherwise she might get tired of you. You live in a wonderful country, go out and explore the nature around you. For me the best thing was getting a dog, you get out and you don't feel alone. Please hold on to P, she is the kindest and most supportive woman I know. I'm just trying to be nice. Big hug to you and P ❤❤❤

Since you are not a medical professional, you really shouldn’t be giving out advice to strangers to be trying mushrooms to help with their mental illness. You should have put a disclaimer before the video. But do not give out medical advice since you are not a physician or doctor or mental health expert. Please be aware that not everyone has the same level of depression that you may have. I wish you well in your own journey with mental health and wellness.

I can relate to this so much

I am not religious but I believe this true If you bring forth what is within you, what you bring forth will save you. If you do not bring forth what is within you, what you do not bring forth will destroy you. Gospel of Thomas Sending you energy 💜 for your storm S

For some reason psychedelics do nothing to me, except for the green nuggets. I've tried LSD many times in the past and experienced nothing unusual. The purpose of life to me (totally based on right now and my foreseeable future) is to keep someone who will stay with me, even through difficult times, and I with them. I'm in a relationship with someone who is in an Irish country (Irish country is way different than American country. Worse in my opinion.) band and a radio host for an Irish country music station. And keep being an artist. 😂

Is P out with her friends?

Big hugs to you sadie, i feel how you just describe sometimes, it's can be truly difficult periods for me I have learned through experience to do something positive with the low and depressed energy, it works for me everytime even something as little as cleaning, learning a new skill, getting a new hairstyle, helping someone etc.

Depression is a result of thinking "what about me". Get out and see who needs your help. Go to an orphanage, a senior peoples home. Go out and help someone who is in need. Stop having pity with yourself. You are too busy with yourself. That has caused your depression. And I mean well, not trying to be mean.

I agree with your purpose of Life Theory👍. Yeah been going through a bit of a depressive low in my life now and that's pretty normal for me sadly😂. But I have experienced lower lows than this in my past. And when I'm in a neutral State I can't let myself get too happy because it falls apart at some point and being happy kind of makes me feel weird or not like my real self😂. And the only times I've been happy for a short while is when I've had a couple of drinks and I'm listening to my favorite music. And no I'm not heavily dependent on drinking to make me happy. What sometimes makes me neutrally happy or keeps me neutrally happy is what I do for myself everyday. How I take care of myself no matter how big or small it is in my life. Like going on bike rides through my old neighborhood. When I care enough about my self to get my self away from people/ some family I still have left. Who try to Bring Me Down or pull my into their drama that I do not want to be a part of because it's all the same s*** and I cannot help them fix it🤷‍♀️😂. This is pretty much my life situation now and how it's been this past year or year-and-a-half. I part-time live with one of my uncles and his wife and she covers up her pain with Xanax and she seriously gets loopy. Her and my uncle get into arguments about her drug use. She goes around being depressed or angry all the damn time. And when things get too loopy or out of control I book a room for a week at the hotel that I work at for some peace and quiet🙂. And I'm seriously thinking about extending my stay possibly for a couple more days or maybe another week😉. Because I'm enjoying my own company a hell of a lot more than at my uncle's house.

😍😍😍😍😍😍😍😍😍😍😍

Best way to get rid of depression is to get rid of laziness..