The Stigma of Addiction | Tony Hoffman

The Stigma of Addiction | Tony Hoffman | TEDxFresnoState

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5 жыл бұрын

There is a stigma which many assign to drug addicts, even long after they have overcome their addiction. Tony discusses how his first time smoking marijuana led to his eventual drug addiction, homelessness, prison, and finally redemption. Tony Hoffman is the Founder and Director of The Freewheel Project, a non-profit organization that mentors thousands of youth through action sports: BMX, skateboarding and after-school programs. After paroling prison on December 13, 2008, he started living out his dream, with his addiction behind him. Tony is a Former BMX Elite Pro and placed 2nd at the 2016 World Championships in Medellin Colombia in the Masters Pro class.
Tony has dedicated his life to bringing awareness around the country by describing the dangers of prescription pills and heroin, as well as advocating a shift in thinking towards current addiction-recovery processes. This talk was given at a TEDx event using the TED conference format but independently organized by a local community. Learn more at www.ted.com/tedx

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@peninahnjoroge689 4 жыл бұрын

Great story. the 32 dislikes are from people who have no idea the amount of effort it takes for an addict to be even 1 hour sober.

@stevejenkins9984 2 жыл бұрын

Fact 100% smart woman

@jasonwilson3475 2 жыл бұрын

10,000,000 × the truth

@mrboombastic4664 2 жыл бұрын

💯. 🤛 ~ And to piggy-back upon that genuine fact/sentiment(s),... why would anyone choose the infamous “thumbs-down” icon when there is always the more optimistic, positive, genuine option(s) which can correlate [and ultimately transcend] into Manifest Destiny?!! ~ From the smallest of details to grander ones... let’s change the damn world, my peoples! Always lift-up; never tear-down. Much Love, Respect & Blessings! 🙏🇺🇸🙏👍

@nicknewman7680 2 жыл бұрын

I ear that! So true..stay safe god bless 👍

@zannamitchell4723 2 жыл бұрын

Exactly!!

@monicarussup8498 4 жыл бұрын

As a person in recovery, i can totally relate to this talk!! I've been homeless, in jail, and i have used puddle water, and toilet water. Today, i have 2 years and 5 months clean, I have my ceritification as a Recovery Specialist, and I have a job in a coffee shop that is a non profit striving to break the stigma and normalize recovery in my small town. People can and do change!! I am living proof!! Thanks for this talk!! You're awesome.

@TonyHoffman 4 жыл бұрын

THANK YOU! You are a miracle and your community needs you, even when you feel like they don't. I'm proud of you! Continue to be a light.

@danielandy9342 4 жыл бұрын

great job. thank you for being role model for many.

@Boulos-cb2un 4 жыл бұрын

Thank you ❤️

@diomonds4ever 4 жыл бұрын

How long till you felt normal ? I can’t take this hopelessness I tried subs for about 4 days I was clean and even on subs I couldn’t function in regular world how long does it take?

@GailOwens 4 жыл бұрын

Bless you; you should be so proud !

@matthackenberry1603 3 жыл бұрын

I am 4 months sober and it’s a fight I’m gonna fight everyday but I am staying strong! Hopefully everyone watching this stays strong!

@skole03 3 жыл бұрын

Here’s to hoping you got a year!

@paulamoors 3 жыл бұрын

Still drinking

@SohaNoha 3 жыл бұрын

Stay strong 🌈

@christieburkett1607 3 жыл бұрын

Hope you're doing well. Proud of you.

@paulamoors 3 жыл бұрын

Five weeks sober!

@jjxartist 2 жыл бұрын

Some of the most Amazing people I've ever met in my life are recovering addicts. You don't know who you can become until you take the first step.

@seniorvenusdigital3904 5 жыл бұрын

Tony visited my school and it was the best speech ever and the most inspirational. It definitely wasn't one of those generic speeches.

@maxthememedog4841 4 жыл бұрын

Ya he came to ours to

@daveprice3095 4 жыл бұрын

@@maxthememedog4841 whats up max - I sat next to you in math class

@timothydulude2899 3 жыл бұрын

@@daveprice3095 its funny its at fresno state where chris herren went and if i close m eyes he speaks exactly like chris maybe he took chris style which is ok powerful but if you like this ted talks go see chris herrens ted talks

@SA-pt6ki 3 жыл бұрын

In order to free yourself from addiction you must find within you that which fills the void that you have been trying to fill with your substances.

@jds6964 2 ай бұрын

I have so many void's in my life right now, I am not sure if I will ever get over my addiction to alcohol.

@SA-pt6ki Ай бұрын

@@jds6964 you can, it’s possible, even when it may seem impossible. And you don’t have to do it alone. I would consider Alcoholics Anonymous groups. They can be extremely beneficial and help you work through your troubles while being able to relate to the alcohol abuse. You are more special and valuable to this world than you realize, and the flame within you is still there. Keep hope, seek guidance from others, you will be surprised by how much love and understanding there is to go around.

@lalax124 4 жыл бұрын

Wow I have never been an addict but my best friend was. She sent me this link I watched the whole thing and I am amazed. I’ll never think the same about addiction. Thank you

@gw593 2 жыл бұрын

You don’t become an addict, you either are or you aren’t.

@tncsmom1999 5 жыл бұрын

I never get tired of hearing your story...I've never did a drug in my life. But almost everyone I've loved has. I share your story in the hope that it just helps one person.

@tron.44 Жыл бұрын

You've used OTC medications right? Drugs. Medication, prescribed from a doctor? Drugs. Certain chemicals in the things we eat, drugs. Drugs are everywhere.

@e-rocworldwide8731 2 жыл бұрын

I am an addict as well and I have found that the best part of recovery is realizing that once you truly decide to recover and take that hard road to pursue it aggressively, you can focus all of that addictive energy towards getting better, educating yourself about this condition and helping others along the way and it becomes your new way of life almost entirely as though recovering and learning is the new addiction.

@TonyHoffman 2 жыл бұрын

BINGO!

@jasonwilson3475 2 жыл бұрын

1 of the most influential videos i have watched on here so far , recovering from heroine, and fentanyl i have 6 months clean and found this very helpful and inspiring.... thank you very much for the opportunity to hear you speak

@morenooscar63 5 жыл бұрын

I have friends going through what you went through that I wish would understand this message. you’re breaking the stigma that many others don’t believe could ever be possible. respect man

@JinxMarie1985 2 жыл бұрын

Word. I'm so sorry about your friend. I hope that your friend is okay today. Dec. 16 2021

@JohnJames-td9bi 3 жыл бұрын

He is by definition: here for a reason.

@fearlesssoul9408 4 жыл бұрын

This story and that quote he read on the wall in jail was amazing bro

@phylliskennedy3615 7 ай бұрын

Such a powerful message! I am so very grateful for my 29 years sobriety! I love life and feel so free. I notice the stigma of addiction when a few work colleagues will go out after work and I'm never invited. The stigma that sober people are unable to have fun or enjoy gatherings is hurtful.

@alika207 7 ай бұрын

What? What a terrible thing to say! I’m so sorry! If I knew you, I would invite you to chill with me!

@pascalstraetmans5598 5 жыл бұрын

You reached me man. Bless you.

@youngdylan5083 2 ай бұрын

What a great story and great speaker. Amazing!

@bordercollie1140 11 ай бұрын

Most of the important people in my life have completely blanked me because of addiction. It just makes me feel like never stopping.

@jennifercraig942 7 сағат бұрын

I used to feel the exact same way. Then I thought you know those people left for a reason ! I am sick and tired of people telling me who I am supposed to be etc. Then I thought you know my addiction I need to let it go, I am sick and tired of my addiction telling me how to behave. One problem took care of itself, the others always telling me what to do. I got rid of the other problem, addiction telling me what to do. Now I feel completely free! And I am loving my freedom!

@bordercollie1140 Сағат бұрын

@@jennifercraig942 You should be extremely proud of yourself and your attitude. At the moment my sole goal in life is to be exactly where you are and I fully believe that I can. Thanks for the lovely words of encouragement, it's very much appreciated.

@enternalgr3y 7 ай бұрын

"When you walk through the door and find out you're an addict, because you don't get to choose whether you'll be an addict or not, you cannot just walk back out through the invisible door you didn't see yourself walking into because you think you're done." This hit home. I never saw how bad it was until I was at rock bottom. Still trying to cope with the fact that I will have to fight against addiction and relapse for the rest of my life. But hey, I've got 34 days sober from opioids right now and that is all that matters. Tony's story is incredible, impactful, and inspiring. I will never forget this and will definitely be rewatching when things seem impossible.

@TonyHoffman 7 ай бұрын

Keep learning and growing for those relapses, they aren't eternal and you can come to a day where you never pick up again. I'm grateful you're still here, still making an effort and doing what many can't do, get 24hrs.

@NDGGUY 5 ай бұрын

I admire your courage ! Keep going, it gets better and easier.

@justinsmall8489 3 жыл бұрын

Not everyone has the skill set, family, friends, and mental health to pull through. I’m tired of losing friends. I’m tired of the stigma. Not everyone is created equal. Addiction is proof.

@TonyHoffman 3 жыл бұрын

this is one of the biggest issues. Many of my 'full' talks explain the failures of parole systems that lift my story up as the, "See, if he can do it so can you." Not everyone can self start, most can't which means society has to fill those gaps and be the helping hand with programs that can teach these skills in safe environments that don't make it so easy for them to slip back! I'm sorry about the loss of your friends, I know that loss all too well

@jennifercraig942 6 сағат бұрын

Thank goodness we are not all created equal! You're stronger than most. Handed an addiction so you can beat it! Most people never have the opportunity to beat something this difficult, you should feel honored.

@theverdantwolf5402 4 жыл бұрын

I hate talks like this, inspirational BS....but this one was good, real walk, real talk.

@scottsnow2921 4 жыл бұрын

Thank you for standing for us that aren't ready to do it ourselves. The stigma is what keeps me from building new relationships which is what most addicts actually need.

@birddog3956 2 ай бұрын

I am trying to be sober, again. This video was great. Thank you for sharing!

@TonyHoffman 2 ай бұрын

Don't give up. Keep trying, keep growing.

@trickylights4380 Жыл бұрын

I wish I could like this one million times. This is such an important talk. Thanks Hoff

@TonyHoffman Жыл бұрын

Appreciate you!

@jackmurphy1081 2 жыл бұрын

They showed me this video in rehab. It stuck with me so much. I put the quote about being careful with your thoughts, words, actions, etc on my fridge because it is so damn important.

@TonyHoffman 2 жыл бұрын

I can't tell you how much I LOVE reading this. One day at a time Jack!

@jackmurphy1081 2 жыл бұрын

@@TonyHoffman Thank you man. After 1 year and 8 months, I still come back to this. This was the first time I was introduced to the idea of discipline and what it can really do for a person. Training for the Olympics by making your bed and brushing your teeth was an idea that blew my mind. 1 year and 8 months, I've seen that type of thinking transform my life into something I never thought possible. I hope your recovery is going well and that you continue to speak. The wisdom you shared not only saved my life, but it made my life as well.

@nativeb.9718 3 жыл бұрын

Drug/medical properties stigma is almost the same as mental health stigmas at a lesser degree, and it’s terrible that it’s a thing. Blesses & love to all of those who suffer either. 🥺

@sawyerpaddock8626 4 жыл бұрын

He spoke at an event called Pillars Of America in my hometown and it was so inspirational. I have family members that are going through this and this gave me hope.

@reaganalvarez8308 2 ай бұрын

You are truly an inspiration, Tony! Thank you for telling your story and teaching the grave harms of being stigmatized. No matter anyone's past dealings with substance abuse, every person deserves dignity, respect, support, empathy and second chances !!

@TonyHoffman 2 ай бұрын

Thank you! Doing my part!

@rosemariethomas1057 2 жыл бұрын

This is a beautiful and uplifting story. I'm not an addict but I work in mental health and I give 100% support to those to try to lift themselves out of their situation.

@steverice7546 Жыл бұрын

I’ve been in recovery for more than a few 24 hrs, and I was always told (and it worked FOR ME), to be grateful, mindful, and above all HUMBLE. The Rooms taught me to never give advice, or judge others, but to freely share my experience, strength and hope with those who will listen. If I can help you, please reach out. One day at a time.

@Uberlitt 2 ай бұрын

I've watched this 50 times since last March while in rehab.. almost a year clean and it's a gift that keeps giving

@TonyHoffman 2 ай бұрын

F yah! That's what I'm talking about!

@ambientartphotography2245 5 жыл бұрын

Tony is an awesome speaker with such a powerful message. Thanks for helping others with your story and heart.

@bridgetwalker925 9 ай бұрын

Im 4 years sober, eerily enough i find this video, when im actively trying to become an addiction counselor. So if nothing else i can be there for people, like no one was there for me.

@TonyHoffman 7 ай бұрын

We need you!

@bernadettewesolowski7281 4 жыл бұрын

Oh my gosh, this was an absolutely amazing TED talk. His story is just like mine, how things started, how it ended up, the trials and hardships in between and the stigma I faced and still face because of my past. EVERYONE should watch this video. There is so much stigma Across the Nation that it prevents people from getting better. They have a lack of education and are so consumed with their opinions that they can't see anything else besides that person's bad because they're a drug addict. We need to change the way of thinking in America and instead of looking down on addicts help lift them up help them rise and become better. This video was amazing and completely inspiring.

@venomius 7 ай бұрын

This should be broadcast worldwide...as someone with clean time 1 year 9 months off H...after 21 years with a habit this really hits home...great job

@TonyHoffman 7 ай бұрын

Big big! Proud of you! One day at a time

@venomius 7 ай бұрын

Wow can't belive you of all ppl left a nice comment...I always knew ..I wasn't a bad person who wanted to be good , I was a sick person who needed to get well. Thank you for the kind words keepup the good work

@TonyHoffman 7 ай бұрын

I was exactly the same! "I'll never get it right, why can't I be like everyone else" then things became more real when others opinions of me were also bad. It seemed like I had to live to their opinions, like I had to confirm to myself and them that they were right. We've escaped those chains & now we get to define ourselves in a new way with new actions and over time we experience the freedom we've always craved. Love you my friend.

@venomius 7 ай бұрын

Everything you just said is spot on...I remember brushing my teeth in the shower because I couldn't look at myself in the mirror...I hated knowing other ppl didn't trust/ like / want me around....the best thing about being free from active addiction is changing how ppl feel about me...but even better is changing how I feel about myself....thank you...the world's a better place because of the messages you share...

@mementomori5374 4 жыл бұрын

Warrior !!! I am fighting off those stigma’s too i’ll never give up i know i am worthy and i know ive abused myself but it wasnt by my own will or choice that was gone stay strong never quitte on believing in YOURSELVES thats the most important thing and hey really life is one big joke !! ❤️🙏

@ThrifterPickerShipper 4 жыл бұрын

Oh Tony you have no idea how perfect the timing was on this. I have let stigma rule and ruin the better part of my life. I'm SO done! Thank you for this, beyond grateful.

@TonyHoffman 4 жыл бұрын

We have to truly believe in who we are and who we've become in recovery to withstand the stigma and opinion of others. They say sticks and stones break bones but words never hurt and honestly it's never been that way. Words hurt me, I just don't believe the ones that are negative and stifling anymore. I'm not perfect but I don't have to be somebody less because someone else says so. Keep moving forward!

@JoshPerryBMX 5 жыл бұрын

Yes, Hoff! This was amazing and so inspiring to a fellow Pro BMX Athlete with a mission to help others. Thank you for sharing and all you do.

@PaulaONeill-pz2kj 2 ай бұрын

absolutely wonderful and inspirational story and life, you are fantastic well done and keep up the inspirational work 🙂

@TonyHoffman 2 ай бұрын

🙏

@UnusShahid 2 жыл бұрын

Love the ending. Love the story. May you get all the power you needs to break those stigmas every single day. 🤍

@scotthammond8145 3 жыл бұрын

This is priceless, thank you so much for explaining how we felt..

@hughiedavies6069 Жыл бұрын

Great story and I'm so glad he accomplished what he did against the odds 👏 I love his passion to educate about addiction and stigma surrounding it.

@laurabellap.h.d.inpsycholo5087 3 жыл бұрын

Great story! You are a winner! Оne of the most important factors in the fight against any addiction is the support of close people and family, their help and care, their acceptance of us as we are. The lack of the necessary support at the right time also contributes to the aggravation of a particular addiction, especially when loved ones are in trouble, difficulties, or crises. In such moments, we need to receive assistance from the family because the family is our basic sense of security and the source of unconditional love. That is why it is so important for us as Mental Health Counselors to hold sessions not only with addicted people but also with their families to teach them how to support each other properly. This is the most reliable way to understand because it can be challenging for clients to understand their emotions and experiences.

@katm7851 3 жыл бұрын

Powerful...Yes we as addicts will have the Stigma follow us the rest of our lives.. I am a recovering Addict..I have learned that it doesn't define who we are as a person but sadly We will be judged by Society.I Thank God everyday for my Sobriety and I live One day at a time. Thank you for Sharing!

@Goddessattractor Жыл бұрын

Beautiful story. Courageous, strength of character and you are no doubt one of the most real and beautiful souls I’ve heard talk. As humans we are so quick to slap a label on whomever we can. The truth is, we all have “labels” of one kind or another. Those that say they don’t, probably aren’t aware of it yet. They say we see and judge in others when it’s often about our own fear and judgement going on. Keep doing you… I believe in you. You are inspirational beyond any words I could write. I will come back to this talk often. God bless🙏

@estellekellegher4675 3 жыл бұрын

Absolutely fantastic. Keep breaking them down. Well done!

@james66872 Жыл бұрын

You rock brother. I’m glad you’re back. I’m 50 years old and I still ride my bike on vert ramps

@dummy_god67 4 жыл бұрын

Hats offff...... I'm so impressed. U just trained ur brain well n helped yourself live longer.

@margolee79 2 жыл бұрын

My husband is really been going through this for many years and this was presented in our recovery church recently we've been separated a few years now and hopefully his recovery is long standing this time but I'm up for the future and helping him fight it.

@donreinecke8214 2 жыл бұрын

Such a great empowering story of the power of will,discipline and grace.Thanks Hoff 🙏🏻

@doctordove Жыл бұрын

THANK YOU (On behalf of those who are in recovery). I loved the line when you said “stigma says… “. Also, although I’m a complete stranger, I’m proud of you.

@lilyzhang6849 4 ай бұрын

So inspiring man. You are a warrier

@taylorelizabeth7812 4 жыл бұрын

this is the best motivational speaker i’ve ever seen.

@LlamaLaQuiff Жыл бұрын

I imagine we're all here for similar reasons, knowledge is nothing without implementation. Everyone hear is more than capable of overcoming whatever addition they're battling. Stay strong

@traciesharpe4169 3 жыл бұрын

Thank you for sharing your experience, strength and hope.

@kamugishathierry7653 2 жыл бұрын

I almost cried. But thank you tony. You gave me the morale I didn't have. I am going sober myself from today.

@beautiful7610 Жыл бұрын

I cried during this. Thank you.

@kayleyva 4 жыл бұрын

This is so inspiring and I cried almost the entire time watching this

@khairuliqbal433 Ай бұрын

From my perspective, the moral values that I learned from this great man Tony Hoffman are "optimism". Do not let other people thoughts influence yourself. From what Tony said, if we want to transfrom ourselves 360 degree. We should not let people's negative thoughts and beliefs about us effects us in the process to become a better person. Additionally, Tony also said that we must show and proves to the world that we can do it when the world are against us. This moral value are categorized as "Confidence". It is because, the best revenge to serves for this kind of people will always be the success.

@jazzstone2430 9 ай бұрын

ABSOLUTELY ONE OF THE BEST VIDEOS I'VE EVER WATCHED ❤

@TonyHoffman 7 ай бұрын

Thank you!!

@NDGGUY 5 ай бұрын

I fully agree. I watched this almost 4 years ago when I started my sober journey and it had a huge impact. Still sober today, one day at a time. Still devote time daily to sobriety whether it be KZfaq, reading or connecting with others.

@mrferno9798 4 жыл бұрын

His confidence looks so good well done brother

@mikhaelraymond7585 3 жыл бұрын

Amazing story! This is the insight many people need to develop a better understanding.

@carmencarrion7072 Жыл бұрын

This was fantastic! thank you for sharing and educating so many.

@onefrmtheheart 3 жыл бұрын

Thank you Hoff. A really important message for all suffering from this disease.

@TonyHoffman 3 жыл бұрын

Trying to do my part!

@RecoveringAddict 4 жыл бұрын

Addiction is a very hard thing to go through. Especially if you don't know what is going on. Its sad that there is a stigma behind addiction. Some of the best people I know were addicts. I am a recovering addict.

@kcstorytime4898 3 жыл бұрын

Thank you Tony. You are a beautiful person.

@CEVATUNAL 4 жыл бұрын

amazing story. bless you bro!

@evan4014 2 жыл бұрын

He came to speak at our middle school today. Really good speech.

@snowman2727 2 жыл бұрын

Tony might be the most inspirational BMXer to ever live. His story is very inspiring.

@logan4856 7 ай бұрын

This really hit me hard I struggle everyday man I just want to be sober I seem to have a very hard time with it 😕 but this is a amazing video thank u for posted it

@TonyHoffman 7 ай бұрын

Don't give up! Surrendering everything you think you know is the key. We gotta give it to someone who knows how to do it and take their suggestions

@logan4856 6 ай бұрын

thank u man @@TonyHoffman

@bowieshowie6378 5 жыл бұрын

Thank you.

@chrishess7443 3 жыл бұрын

So much I wanna say. good things, ignored things, bad things, and the complexity of addiction. mental health, physical health, genetic dispositions, trauma/abuse/neglect, social norms/expectations/stigma/beliefs... a system that's so deeply engrained in society to chase more and more $$$ to achieve financial embederment but sacrifice solid healthy foundations and relationships....

@douglasbunnell2701 2 жыл бұрын

I identify with your story of an 18-year-old who was curious even having the knowledge and warnings of family members educating you about the dangers of family/genetic disposition for addiction. I think back now, three years after going to treatment following15 years of street research and a 5 D.O.C. sentence myself, what if my mindset at that critical moment in my life's history would have been "What happens if I like this?" as opposed to teenage curiosity. My truth and journey don't have that question built-in, but i appreciate you sharing your message. It made a difference in my recovery today and thank you for honoring the struggle by sharing your story.

@carlashapiro1749 3 жыл бұрын

Bless you Tony. Thank you

@leesober3798 4 жыл бұрын

Amazing brother,, thank you

@BA-og2eh 2 жыл бұрын

Wow, what a story. God bless you Hoff

@mayamuivah8358 3 жыл бұрын

powerful indeed...God bless you Tony

@johncody2209 2 жыл бұрын

I needed that. Thank you

@RikoPeveri 4 жыл бұрын

Tony is such a legend!

@heatherj4555 4 жыл бұрын

You truly are an inspiration

@cheriseroot2386 3 жыл бұрын

Amazing story, so much respect your way sir!

@eduardo_Skywaller1032 4 жыл бұрын

Truly inspiring and relatable

@ryanhtpark Жыл бұрын

Amazing, thank you for the speech

@MissUnderstoodasAlways 2 жыл бұрын

Thank you for this 🙏🏽

@lotusinthemud1452 Жыл бұрын

We need to hear more of the positiv stories such as this! It is possible to brake the stigma! Thank you!

@koffeewithkuda6177 3 жыл бұрын

Sitting down with people who have lived experience as been a life changing for us on our channel. Addiction is tough, but I believe we need to do better as a community and ensure that we defeat stigma, as well as support people so that less and less people turn to addiction.

@tinaperez7393 Жыл бұрын

Get up every day and: 1) make your bed, 2) brush your teeth, 3) organize your stuff. Repeat.

@TonyHoffman Жыл бұрын

Amen!!

@tinaperez7393 Жыл бұрын

@@TonyHoffman thanks for saying hi Tony, you're an inspiration. Yours is one of my favorite Ted talks / KZfaq videos on addiction & recovery. 👍❤️🔥💯

@montywoodside 5 жыл бұрын

I had the privilege of hearing his story when he went to my high school back in around early 2015 I believe. Inspiring stuff 👏

@Penjuree 2 жыл бұрын

Love your story. Thanks very much for sharing.

@VentureCreek 2 жыл бұрын

wonderful video ! thanks for posting !

@hola-munecas 5 жыл бұрын

Amazing story.

@hazelelloyd 4 жыл бұрын

Thank you Tony, you are an inspiration!

@adpickers1612 4 жыл бұрын

You do it brother. You got this.

@willbone74 4 жыл бұрын

Wow.....thats powerful.....point blank period.....Awesome human being...

@Michelina22 Жыл бұрын

Well said man. I’m on Percocet now for 6 years, chronic back pain , 3 chronic pinched nerves. I’ve reduced this past 2 years, and I still have times when I start running . And we don’t want to be in pain, we need to sleep, trickling out and still a slight withdrawal I’ve been through. Had a liver surgery in my 20s, had pain meds, never got another refill. Had 3 kids, never had a refill, no addiction. My back surgery and chronic pain, I needed that med. My doctor was a heavy hand too. So I’m at that point right now where I’m out of med, I’m not feeling great yet I am mentally. Percocet makes me feel agitated, not high ! I do feel judged at times, I will say