뭔가 수원님이랑 잇을때는 그 묘한 설렘이 항상 잇어보여서 대리설렘...😝 염색머리 진짜 신의 한수야 너무 이쁘다구요 분위기 미쳐버렷어!!!!!!!일 너무 많이해서 과부화와도 그 결과에 뿌듯해서 멈추지 못하는 그 마음 잘알지만..꼬옥 연수님 몸이랑 마음은 챙기면서 일하긔‼️🌙 모든 날들이 평안하기를 늘 응원해유🫶♥️
@user-fz7gp4li3u7 ай бұрын
아니 언니 이 날진짜 레전드에요ㅜㅜㅠㅠㅠㅠㅠㅠㅠ 머리색이랑 이날메이크업 겟레디윗미 존버합니다…
@eunhye58477 ай бұрын
언니가 예쁘니.. 안어울리는 사람이 없네요🤍 영상으로 보니 더 빨리 보고싶어요ㅠㅠ 연수언니 항상 행복한 일들만 가득하길👩🏻🦰💗🌽
@Yeonee_10006 ай бұрын
웅니가 너무 귀여워요 😂😂 일도 노는 것도 열심히인 온니... 쏘 러블리 😢😢😢
@yyumi8887 ай бұрын
영상 드뎌 떴다… 나의 여신님 아니 근데 중간중간 무슨 분위기이지😏 진짜 플러팅 미치셨네 ㅋㅋㅋㄱㅋㅋ 저는 둘 응원해요…🥰
@user-iv2ji2yq9o4 ай бұрын
연수님!! 이 날 립 뭐에요!! 짱예뻐요 🥹💫
@user-ds5td6bq4c7 ай бұрын
염색한거 진짜 예뻐요..🫢 대리설렘 흐흐..❤🖤
@s_mint7 ай бұрын
웅니 이날 진짜 레전드 역대급 존예엿다구요ㅠㅠㅠㅠ 라이브도 키셧을때 너무 예쁘고 고급지셔서 뚫어져라 봣었던…🫶🏻
@the_worlddd3337 ай бұрын
끝에 릴스 설레임 끝짱난다..
@user-lt9um3kj3c7 ай бұрын
연수언니 머리 넘 이뻐용 새로운 느낌 🎀🧡🧡
@user-jarry7 ай бұрын
울 언니 이쁜 것좀 봐ㅜㅜ ❤️ 모든 남자가 와도 울 언니가 아까워>< 착하고 이쁘고 능력 있는 언닣ㅎ 어머머 언니 옷 가려요!!🫢🫢🫢🫢 염색 한거 너무 잘 어울려요 ㅎㅎ 룩북도 보고싶어용
@user-et6si9tq5m7 ай бұрын
두분 아주 잘어울리세요.^^
@Salted_caramel_latte6 ай бұрын
연수 수원 천생연분이네…
@user-mw6mu3no1o7 ай бұрын
아 너무 잘 어울린다..🫣
@hyun789997 ай бұрын
헉 대박 ㅠㅠㅠ 2탄 수원님이랑 브이로그 좋아요 ❤ 마지막 영상 끝나갈때쯤 보니까 진짜 동네오빠 친한오빠 처럼 보이고 두분다 편안해보여서 이런 꾸밈없고 일상 브이로그 좋은거같아용 수수연수님 2024년 좋은일만 가득하기 ❤
@honeybaby67426 ай бұрын
여자가 자꾸 뒤로 갈수록 옷을 제대로 안입는 플러팅 함 ㅋㅋㅋㅋ 춥다고 하는데 여름인줄 알았음
@slow_and_steady17 ай бұрын
확실히 다른 두분만의 바이브
@user-jk7lc8vi1y7 ай бұрын
자주 출연해주세요 너무 설레고 좋아요,,,,,아 존버 할게요 까악 ❤
@user-gw9pr9es7e6 ай бұрын
저가디건은 일부러 내리고있는거?..입을거면 입고 오ㅑ저렇게입는거예요
@seoyeonsu6 ай бұрын
보기불편하셨다면 죄송해요🥺
@Kimchiis7 ай бұрын
너무 존예🩶🩶 시간가는줄 모르고 봤네
@user-js1tr6ov3q7 ай бұрын
언니 연애할때 됐잖아 그냥 사겨줘 제발. 언니한테 관심이 없으면….이런거 부탁해도 안나와줬을거야..^^ 둘이 넘 잘어울린당…헤..
그 남친하고 연수랑 둘이 잘 어울리네.ㅜㅜ 올해도 행복만을 가득했으면 좋겠다~ 연수님도 포켓볼 잘 치시네요. 우와~ 포켓볼 언제 부터 치셨어요?
@jinsunglee59107 ай бұрын
비주얼 합 진짜 뮤슨일…🥹👍🏻🩷
@bebebedal8737 ай бұрын
플러팅 작정 룩..!
@user-gf7po7cu2w7 ай бұрын
저도 불러주세요~~~~~~ 라고할뻔^^;; 업로드영상 항상 잘보고 있습니다
@smins10247 ай бұрын
어 수원님 거기나온분이네 머니캐쳐
@h_b39437 ай бұрын
착장정보 궁금해용❤
@mlnzee6 ай бұрын
하 걍 실제 연인 하면 안대요 …? 대리 설렘 후 .. 🤍
@ibelievemeee7 ай бұрын
수수랑 수원 기염❤
@user-ke8yo6jw9k7 ай бұрын
존예❤
@user-sz1cs7sv1p7 ай бұрын
얼굴천재들의 행복한 데이트
@user-cu8so4dw6o7 ай бұрын
ㅁ ㅣ치겠다 존ㅇ ㅔ….. 머리 그냥 찰떡 ㅠㅠㅠㅠ 원래 이뻤지만 더 예뻐진듯해… 근데 엉니 감기 걸려.. 🥶😭
@user-jy3xy5gc6s5 ай бұрын
이영상에서 뭔가 바다님 닮으심
@Pennyploveme4 ай бұрын
언니 예쁜데 ..
@user-tx1zc7sb3y7 ай бұрын
어제 혹시 여의도 더현대 가셨었나요???
@minbr07 ай бұрын
@수원 걍 고백박으십쇼 형님
@user-yf2zi1vu4b7 ай бұрын
멋있어요😻😻
@ball9carrot9337 ай бұрын
4:06 もうカップルやん😂❤
@dear.se_ra7 ай бұрын
연애하시눈곤가여?.??❤
@user-qi5fp4tm0z7 ай бұрын
언니 패딩에만 시선이가요ㅠㅠ정보좀주세요오
@Salted_caramel_latte6 ай бұрын
알렉산더왕 같아요 팔에 로고가
@the_worlddd3337 ай бұрын
릴스 보러 또 왔습니다
@devinjo23182 ай бұрын
Oink Oink.. I am waiting for the Truck.. the Mail man in the truck.. I heard from the Mail Man that you told him that YOU are writing a Letter to Me.. I couldn't believe the respond that I am getting.. I thought that I would Never hear from YOU.. I been writing you a lot of Letters lately and has Been sending it Out.. Hoping that One Day.. that One day be some day SOON.. I been looking UP at the Moon.. asking if the MOON can hear me.. asking if YOU KNOW what is happening on the Other side where YOU at.. I would keep on asking that MOON.. do YOU see.. can YOU SEE.. but I never got any kind of response from the MOON.. until the MAIL MAN.. who came on the Truck and told me that HE has heard from YOU.. that YOU are writing something to Me.. I tried to sleep.. the Night I have received the Message from the Mail man.. who came on the truck stops by the Mail Box.. I was walking Out.. with the envelope in my Hand.. inside is the Letter I wrote to YOU again.. when I showed him.. the MAIL MAN the envelope and told him I wrote YOU a Letter.. I saw a smile on his face and tells me.. there is something that He needed to tell me which it was received from YOU.. and I asked him to tell me.. that YOU are writing a Letter.. a letter sharing to Me and I saw HIM taking the envelope I gave him inside is my Letter I wrote to YOU again.. It was a NIGHT I wanted to dance.. it was the Night I looked UP at the MOON.. I waved my hands looking at the MOON.. people who were walking passing by the Mail Box looks at me.. I am sure they are thinking I am a crazy person.. but I would say to them.. I don't care what they think of Me.. if you do NOT KNOW WHAT I am feeling and dealing this very Night.. I don't care.. and I would be walking back to the House.. trying to lay down on the Bed.. I am trying to sleep.. but My Heart.. my Mind.. I be thinking of YOU.. turning on my side and I am looking at the desk.. I am just picturing YOU sitting by the desk and with a Piece of paper.. with a Pen or Pencil.. I can envision YOU writing a Letter to Me.. so I would turn the Other way.. looking at the wall.. facing the Wall because I know.. if I look at the Desk.. I be thinking of YOU and I would not sleep at ALL.. but facing the wall.. and able to close my eyes.. I just could Not sleep.. I can feel my Heart beat pounding Hard.. this excitement all over my body keeps me UP and I would sit UP.. sitting on the bed.. I am looking at the wall.. I just can't sleep.. HOW am I suppose to sleep tonight but I needs to sleep to get a good rest for the Night.. but I would try to sleep.. laying on the bed.. turning side to side and sitting back UP again.. if I turn on the side towards the desk.. I be seeing you there so I rather Not see YOU through the vision.. I turn on the other side.. facing the Wall.. and I sit UP again.. maybe I needs to get something Off my Chest.. maybe I needs to speak to this wall.. things all always on my Mind about YOU.. I can't just let it sit there.. I needs to express and tell YOU.. More and more I express my Heart to tell YOU.. the More I needs to say something to let YOU KNOW.. let you know How much I love YOU.. so LOOKING at the wall.. I know that YOU are Unable to hear me on the Other side.. but I still needs to tell YOU why I just can't sleep tonight.. some nights I can sleep well.. but there are Nights I just can't when YOU are on my Mind.. when YOU sink into my Heart.. I just have to let it Out.. WHY.. I am Not sure why I needs to let it Out.. but it starts with I love YOU.. it starts with I love YOU and I miss YOU and I would say looking at this WALL.. I been waiting for YOU.. walking Out of this ROOM.. walking Out of this House.. I am looking at the Mail box.. before I go to the Mail box.. I would be looking at the Desk.. when I sit by the Desk I look at How many Papers I have left.. I needs to have plenty of papers because there are some I won't give it to YOU.. I have a trash can which it gets loaded with rolled UP balls of papers that goes into the waste because I can't put it into the envelop.. so I needs to look at the stacks of paper.. when It gets very low.. I go to the store to Buy More Papers so that I can write YOU MORE letters to send it out to you.. SINCE I am able to see the mail Man and he has became My friend who is helping me.. He tells me there is NO need to put stamp stickers.. HE is able to take the envelop.. the Letter direct to YOU.. so told me there is NO NEED to put any stamps.. I would smile.. and I would weep at the same time.. to able to write YOU a Letter.. something that I can endure.. something that I truly enjoy and Love.. a Passion that was given to me since the YOUTH.. I started to write when I was very Young.. so for a very Long time I loved to write and still do even more.. because now to share this True Joy and Passion and something that I really enjoy and love.. I can write you letters more than any other MEN can in this world.. ONE thing that I can tell YOU is that MONEY cannot By My Love.. cannot by what I am doing and what I am giving to YOU because it is because I really Love YOU.. YOU may not see it Now.. I am Not sure when YOU WILL see my Heart but I believe that ONE DAY.. SOME DAY YOU WILL SEE it.. the day YOU see my Heart of How much I love YOU is the day when YOU WILL see the MOON appear before YOU.. on the Night Your Heart will see it.. is the day YOU will realize because The MOON still be there LOOKING at YOU.. I may be gone.. I may be GONE far away.. when YOU DO see it is the day YOU will remember the Letters because I will Love you even after when I am GONE.. as I am looking at the wall in the ROOM.. I needs to see YOU.. I wish that YOU can see me.. see my Heart soon.. because the Day when YOU see me.. I be asking the Angels.. when I am gone.. can I be an Angel TOO.. an Angel who can still Love YOU after I am gone.. but I am always around.. that I am close to YOU this time to able to still Love YOU.. I may not be able to speak or write YOU Letters but I am able to appear before Your Eyes.. BY the time YOU do not receive the Letters.. and YOU know my real True Heart.. there is NO reason for you to receive Letters any more because by that TIME your Heart Knows who Loves YOU and I be able to come before you to tell YOU Not by Letters on Words but by being YOUR ANGEL.. An Angel who can always be there and An Angel who will always love you still.. an Angel WHO can protect and defend YOU and An Angel you can see NOW.. I may not be able to tell YOU.. but my actions will speak Louder than Words because of many Letters I have written over the Years telling YOU HOW Much I love YOU.. I have already told YOU.. I been going Out.. and I be standing before the MOON.. and asking this Request for a Very Long time Now.. ever since I been writing you a Letter.. telling YOU and sharing YOU and giving to the Mail MAN as the truck comes over and I would say to HIM.. there is Another Letter.. can you please take this envelop to YOU and He smiles.. I remember when I first saw HIM.. I had to show the mail Man your Picture and he did know who you were.. ever since.. HE been there for me and been a good friend to me waiting by the mail Box when I be running late from the ROOM.. I would be writing YOU a Letter.. opening the drawer to get the envelop out and folded into the half and put the Piece of Paper into the envelope inside and I would run Out of the House.. the Mail Man in the truck tells me HE saw me in the room.. and saw me writing a Letter to YOU.. and knew I was running late.. so I came out.. running and catching a breathe and gave the envelop into his Hand.. He smiles and waves taking it to YOU.. I would watch as the Truck gets smaller.. tears in my eyes because the MAIL MAN was patient to wait for me when It was me who was late to give.. but He still waited knowing that I was coming OUT and giving YOU a Letter.. as I am Facing the Wall in the ROOM sitting on the top of the Bed.. and my tears fills UP my eyes.. I wish that YOU know my Heart.. sometimes am I being just too impatient with myself.. because YOU know that I love YOU.. I love you just too Much.. from here to the MOON I love YOU.. why can't you believe my Words.. why can't you believe me and see me the way I am.. why can't I just love you as I am.. Please tell me why I can't just love YOU as for Me.. and My hands rolls into two fist and pounds on the wall of this ROOM.. and shakes.. I really really needs YOUR eyes to open and Heart to open to see me that I love YOU.. My fear is this.. Only the day I come to YOU as an Angel.. DO I needs to Die for you to know My Heart.. the day I am gone and I been Out side.. at Night when the MOON Appears.. I been asking the MOON.. where is the Angels.. Please tell me are the Angels There with YOU.. Please let the Angels KNOW I have an request.. I want to Know if I can ask an Angel for something.. I been going Out at night when the Moon Appeared.. and kept on asking and begging and Bugging.. One Night an angel did Appear before Me.. and I would have the Picture of YOU in my Hand and I would have the Letter on the Other Hand and the Angel came to Me.. and I showed that Angel my Heart.. HE saw the Picture of YOU and saw the Letter and told the Angel.. my Wish.. My request.. and I asked the Angel.. I may Not be able to be with YOU when I am on this Body.. but I think it is when I am gone.. when I die and the Angel looks at me.. and I would tell the angel.. I been writing YOU a Letter.. and the Mail MAN came to take the Letters in the envelop and has been receiving the Letters.. if I can't be with YOU when I with this Body.. I think the Only way is when I am gone.. and the Angel looks at me and said.. But I said.. if I die.. can YOU Please give me two wings.. Can I be an Angel who can still Love YOU afterlife
@devinjo23182 ай бұрын
I am trying to remember.. as I am looking at your Picture.. I am Looking in the second Room.. sitting on the top of the desk is the Empty Vase.. as I am trying to Hear your voice.. Looking at your Number.. I am holding the Phone.. the Cell Phone.. but.. there is a sticker Picture inside the Cell Phone I have.. as I am looking at the sticker Picture.. there is YOUR beautiful face.. and I know that In this Cabin Log home.. why is it that I am in this House.. I am asking myself.. if I just don't remember any thing at ALL.. I have Lost the memories of Us.. and it is just killing me inside.. How can something like this be happening to Me.. and I feel so bad that I don't remember.. as I am looking at this sticker picture of YOU inside the Phone of the Cover.. I want to ask YOU about this.. so I am looking at your Number and I would push to Hear it ring through.. putting the Phone on my ear.. I am waiting for YOU to pick it UP on the Other side.. WILL you please hear me Outs.. and I wait.. as it keeps ON ringing and I hear Your Voice on the other Side.. I hear the word HELLO.. and I would say to YOU.. I see a Sticker on the cover of the Phone.. I want to remember.. but I feel like I am still stuck here.. I went to the doctor.. because I wanted to have some answers.. and the doctor keeps on telling me that I needs to wait for the memories to come Back.. but I feel like it is taking me just too long.. and I want to tell YOU.. what am I suppose to DO.. because I think it is Hurting me More as I keep on thinking about this situation.. will you Please help me so that I could remember.. as I am listening to your Voice and what YOU would share.. YOU are telling me about a Fair Park.. going to the state fair Park.. it was me who wanted to GO and it was I who asked you to Come to the State Fair Park.. and I am standing here.. trying to remember about the State Fair park.. also I won on a contest and got the Big Teddy Bear and we took a picture of it.. and as I am listening on the Phone.. YOU are telling me that the Picture is in the second ROOM.. and behind the Desk the Picture is there.. so I would walk over to the Desk and I would bend Low and go under the desk.. laying on the Floor and my hand goes to LOOK behind the desk.. I feel something and it is the Picture.. as I pull the Picture Down and I would slowly move out and I would stand UP.. as I would be holding One hand of the Picture.. and the Other hand is the Phone on the ear.. and I would tell YOU on the Phone.. I see the Picture.. I see YOU holding.. arms wrap around the Big TEDDY BEAR.. with a smile.. and above the Picture is another Sticker Picture and it is take of me.. and I am wondering.. did I also take a Sticker Picture too.. because there is One Above stick on this Picture of YOU arms holding around the BIG TEDDY BEAR.. and I would hear your Voice.. and I would say.. I wish I can remember.. but I am Not sure of this Place.. this is the reason why I should not of called YOU because Now I feel so bad.. I see that I have taken a Sticker Picture and YOU have too because I have a sticker Picture of YOU on the Phone Cover.. and Yes.. I went to the Doctor.. asking him why I just can't remember anything.. and it is making me feel so SICK because I have NO Idea.. I have No clue about anything.. I would ask YOU.. why have you chosen this Place.. WHY did I come to this CABIN LOG HOME.. is it because YOU want me to remember everything.. and YOU do know what the doctor said right.. did YOU know that I be memory Loss and would Not remember anything.. I even heard the Doctor said.. maybe I will never remember anything any More.. when the Doctor told me this today.. walking back.. leaving the Hospital.. I broke down in tears.. I just could not take it any more because think about HOW CAN I LIVE like this.. never to remember myself or even YOU.. did YOU even know about this.. and I would wait for you to say something.. your response and I hear your Voice on the Other Line.. and I would hear you say Yes.. that the Doctor TOLD YOU that in serious condition.. the Memories may Never come around and just to prepare for me to be LIKE a stranger.. as I be hearing this from YOU on the Other Line.. I want to Break my Heart into Pieces.. WHY.. why does this has to happen to Me.. if you knew what the doctor said to YOU.. why didn't you tell me.. if you knew before Hand.. you could at least tell me so that I would Not have to hear from the Doctor.. if I broken down in tears after leaving the Hospital.. and hearing the Word Never.. I just couldn't take it any More.. I know that YOU probably don't feel the same way too.. that is why I am calling YOU on the Phone.. that is why I called you so that at least YOUR voice can help me to remember something.. If I remain silent.. I know for sure I will Not remember.. that is why I am asking YOU TO help me to remember YOU.. I needs to know.. when I saw the Phone on the table.. and I opened and saw the Cover of the Phone.. something catch my eye was the sticker Picture.. and I would draw closer to take a LOOK.. as I would get closer.. I see YOU.. I want to say I love YOU.. did I ever told YOU that.. did YOU hear the words I love YOU and I miss YOU from me.. did I ever tell YOU that.. and as I would wait on the Line.. I would hear your Voice and YOU be telling me that I told you those two words A lot to YOU.. and I would tell you on the Phone.. then I believe I can start with These two Words.. can I tell YOU that I miss YOU.. missing YOU drives me crazy and YOU be telling me that YOU are going to come to visit me.. if YOU know where I live.. why don't you ever come visit me.. since YOU know me well.. of course even though I have this Memory Loss.. I still can take a look at YOU in person.. the More I see YOU in person.. the More I can see and I feel and hear YOU.. that way can help me more right.. Only if YOU want to show UP.. only if YOU want to come so that I can see YOU.. so Please stop by and show me who you are.. and as I turn around and I would walk away from the second room.. I walk to the living ROOM and there is the window.. I would look through the Window.. and I see someone standing Out side.. and I would walk a little closer to the Window and I see a Figure.. on the Phone.. My heart starts to beat Fast.. as I am looking.. is it YOU.. but I would not ask YOU that because I would only ask myself.. I am by the Window with my Phone.. and I see someone out side also with the Phone.. I am wondering.. if YOU have come to stop By and I would watch as the Figure turns away and starts to walk away.. and I am thinking it must be YOU who came to visit.. if you came this close.. why don't you knock on the Door.. if it was YOU would was standing Out side by the DOOR.. YOU know that I would of Opened the DOOR for YOU.. and Let YOU in.. I would ask you.. Please help me to remember.. YOU know that I feel like I am dying inside because I feel like a stranger to myself of NOT even knowing who I am.. DID YOU see me get closer to the window.. is that WHY YOU have turned away and has walked Off.. as I am hearing a Long Pause on the Phone.. I wanted to ask YOU if it was YOU who came closer.. came to this LOG CABIN HOME.. I wanted to ask if It was YOU because I saw a Figure.. someone On the Phone by the Door.. close to the window.. it was Only a Knock away from the DOOR.. you could of knocked.. and YOU could of showed me your Face and I could of saw YOU first time in person.. But.. why did YOU leave.. WHY did you have to walk away.. YOU know that I would let YOU come In.. my arms are opened to receive YOU and YOU are always welcome to come inside.. is it because of Me.. is it that the main reason why YOU have chosen to leave.. as I would say something on the Phone.. I would say.. are you still there.. and I do hear Your Voice and YOU are telling me that YOU needs to Go.. so I would tell YOU on the Phone.. Next time.. all YOU needs to do is Knock on the Door.. YOU know that I will answer and I will let YOU in.. and I would hear YOU say on the Phone.. and I would say.. I went into the second ROOM.. after YOU be telling me about the Picture of YOU holding.. arms around the BIG TEDDY BEAR.. it was a struggle for me to get down on the Floor to crawl.. hand grabs and pulls behind the Desk and I find the Picture of YOU.. I saw a Sticker picture on the corner of it.. that is why I asked because some one put the little sticker picture of ME on the top corner and I would hear your Voice say.. it was YOU.. and I would ask YOU.. who is the One who put this Picture Behind the Desk in the second Room.. and I would hear YOU say on the Other Line of the Phone.. that ONE NIGHT.. YOU came over.. and after the State Fair Park.. YOU wanted to Hide this Picture.. YOU would say that I just could NOT let this Picture GO.. and that I would always look at It.. of course it drove YOU mad and angry because it seems Like I would love this Picture More than YOU.. but that is NOT true.. why would I love the Picture More.. when YOU are BETTER to love.. better to Hold and to touch and to KNOW because when I hold you close.. I can feel my Heart be beating.. the SOUND of my Heart Beat is the reason WHY I love YOU and can say.. can tell YOU HOW much I love YOU.. but.. of course I do Love and enjoy looking at your Picture too.. it is because It is YOU.. why.. do you want me to LOOK at another person's picture instead.. of course NOT.. so YOU should be at least happy that I love YOU and that is why I love Your Picture TOO.. so.. because of this.. YOU wanted to hide the Picture and has Placed it in the second ROOM behind the desk.. and YOU be saying.. I started to Miss Your Picture for a while.. after YOU hid that behind the Desk and that is why YOU put a sticker Picture of YOU on the Front cover
@devinjo23182 ай бұрын
Door if I was the One who loved YOU more.. if I can still love YOU.. I will.. if I needs to tell YOU that I love YOU.. I will tell YOU.. but YOU needs to help me first.. if you can only come back and return to the Front.. by the door.. by the window.. I know I be here.. ready to receive YOU IN.. you were so Close to the Door.. very Close.. if YOU can change your mind to return back.. I want to take you to the second ROOM.. I want to ask YOU about the Empty Vase.. it is so Beautiful.. but I want to know why is this Empty Vase sitting in the ROOM on the top of the desk.. WILL you please tell you what this is ALL about.. I want to Know.. because I been staring at it for a while.. but WHY DO I keep on looking at it.. does it has some means to it.. must be something because I would stand there and JUST look.. just stare at it like something is wrong with Me.. so Please come back.. and I will let YOU in.. as I am standing still.. I hear your Voice and tells me that YOU needs to Go.. and I would say.. WHY.. does that Means YOU are not going to come back around.. WHY are you leaving me like this Now.. if YOU came so Close.. why are you telling me you needs to go Now.. I want some answers that YOU KNOW.. because I believe YOU know what ALL these things are about.. so Please help me.. so that I can still keep on loving YOU where it needs to start again.. I just bought a New Home.. Leaving the City life into the Country side.. I am walking over the Mountains.. into the Hills and to the valley.. a Small Log House in the woods.. as I am walking through the Snow.. I stop to see.. the Flakes are falling from the Sky.. I am very close to the Log Cabin House.. Finally.. I have been waiting to get Out of the city life.. as I stop.. I am able to see the Snow flakes falling from the Sky.. as I unlock the Door.. and I enter the Small Log Cabin Home.. as I look into the Small Two bed room Home.. I am wondering.. why did I even buy a House with two rooms.. I have no one coming over.. but I know that If I prepare the place.. Maybe.. some one will show Up.. I have never met the person who use to Live in this Small Log Cabin house.. as I walk into One of the rooms.. There is a Desk.. I wonder why someone has left this Desk Behind.. something stops me before I turn to walk away.. I see something on the TOP of the Desk.. what is It.. I am wondering.. what is It.. SO I would walk closer to the Desk.. there is a Written Note.. and Next to the Note is a Picture.. of course I can only see the back of the Picture.. I am wondering.. maybe it must be the Picture of the Person who use to live in this Small Log Cabin House.. But why would some one leave a precious Gift behind.. if I lived in this House.. I know for sure I will Not leave anything special.. or Precious to me behind.. But.. should I turn the Picture over to see who this Person is.. I am standing there.. thinking of.. but I know that this is Not my picture.. WHY would I turn it over to look if it is Not for Me.. I am sure.. maybe the Person was in a rush.. and has forgotten to take this Picture.. but.. WHY would YOU write a Note for me.. I know that the written Note.. it is telling me.. giving me an instruction.. but why would you tell me something.. I can just live whatever I want.. I see the Note Next to the Picture.. Both are facing where I cannot see.. as I would stop.. maybe I should take a Look.. must be very important if YOU have written for the New Home Owner.. which I have purchased this Small Log Cabin Home from YOU.. I have never met YOU.. but Of course I do remember before the Contract.. YOU called me on the Phone.. and Got a chance to listen to Your Beautiful Voice.. Now.. I am very curious.. YOUR voice.. truly felt like I was listening to an Angel.. I know that If you sang a SONG.. I bet it would melt my Heart like the Snow Flakes.. I would stand Out side.. before I came to the DOOR.. to Unlock.. I would LOOK Up to the sky.. My hand opens.. I would watch the Falling snow flakes.. when It touched my hand.. it just melted and maybe Your Voice.. if YOU sang to Me.. My Heart can melt the way the Snow Flakes can melt into my hands.. I was smiling because I been living in apartment for a Long time.. just paying rent to rent monthly.. But.. Now.. able to purchase a new Home.. Out here in the Country side.. walking and climbing on the mountains.. just enjoying the fresh cold air as I would be walking through the Snow.. never felt so Alive in my life.. But Now.. I am here.. inside this Small Log Cabin Home.. and I just walked into a ROOM.. YOU did not take the desk.. there is a Picture laying on the TOP of the desk face down.. with a written Note facing down.. I am just wondering.. I remember when I picked UP the Phone.. and hearing your voice on the Other side.. on the Other line.. Your Voice.. it truly touched my Heart.. I begin to wonder more about YOU because of this Sensational touch.. Your Voice moved my Heart.. I felt it kick inside of Me.. and never felt that way before.. so I would start wondering.. I wonder How YOU would look.. as YOU were so happy to sell the House and even telling me Congratulation on the purchase of the New Home.. as I would share with YOU how I lived in rents all my Life.. but able to get a house means everything to me.. giving me a great deal in the purchase.. of course I wanted to ask YOU.. if YOU can sing.. because I wanted to know if YOU can sing.. can YOU sing a song so that I can listen to Your voice with my Heart opened.. but of course I never asked.. YOU probably think I am a crazy person.. as I am standing by the desk.. My hand grabs the Picture.. I wanted to turn it over.. I wanted to see the person who I just spoke with ON the Phone.. YOUR voice.. I just want to hear again.. can I listen to Your Voice.. would you let me call you on the Phone so that I can listen.. My Heart wants to listen to Your Voice again.. before I want to ask YOU.. I want to know how you look.. why are you so Nice.. why are you so kind to me.. I want to know who YOU are.. WHY would you leave this Picture behind if YOU have never met me.. if YOU have never seen me in person.. why leave me Your Precious gift.. Your Special gift.. I am nothing but a stranger to YOU.. what if I am a weird person.. some crazy person.. would YOU not be afraid of Me.. As I grab the Picture and turn to LOOK at it.. I see YOU sitting.. and My Heart jumps.. My Heart skips missing that Beat.. Just like Your Voice.. soft and beautiful.. I see your picture.. I see YOU.. YOU are so Beautiful too.. YOU are so Lovely.. feels like YOU can take my breathe way.. then what happens to my Breathe if you take it from Me.. what are you doing to me Now.. WHY leave this Picture behind and when I see this Picture.. I can feel my Breathe.. it wants to be released from Me.. I can't breathe.. my eyes wants to say I can't breathe because YOU are so Beautiful.. as I am looking at the Picture of YOU.. YOU are sitting down.. and I am wondering what is it that YOU are holding.. Why are you holding a Vase.. is it a vase for flowers.. I am not sure why YOU are leaving this Picture with Me.. what does it means.. why are you showing me this Picture for.. I have no clue.. I have no idea.. but why are you letting me see this picture.. and making my Heart to say I want to cry.. I have never met you before.. But How is this possible for Me.. why do I feel like I want to love YOU.. please tell me how can this be true because I have never met you before.. as I am looking at your arms holding this vase.. why is it empty.. are YOU not suppose to put something into that Vase.. it is an empty Vase Your hands are holding.. Please.. OH Please tell me what is the meaning of this because I want to know.. I have no clue.. I have no idea why you are showing me this.. I don't see any empty Vase.. but only this Picture.. with a Note.. so I would go over.. my hand grabs the Note and flips to look.. and YOU have written to me about the Picture.. and telling me about the Vase.. an Empty Vase.. and YOU have left it on the Other Room.. and I am not sure why YOU would tell me this.. what am I suppose to do with the Empty Vase.. I don't have any flowers.. and all it tells me to take good care of the Empty Vase.. and Now.. YOU are letting me to keep it.. so I am standing in this room wondering.. YOU are giving me this Empty Vase.. but I have no flowers to put in it.. so what am I suppose to do with this.. SO I would turn around walking out of this room.. the Other room is next on the right.. as I enter the second room.. There is another Desk.. and ON top of the Desk is the Vase.. an empty Vase sitting on the top of the Desk.. am I suppose to tell you something about this vase.. am I suppose to share with YOU what I want to do because it is Not making any sense with me a this Point.. I feel like I am Not the Owner of this House anymore.. since YOU are leaving things behind for me to take care of It.. I am not a male servant.. and NO.. I am not here to clean this House either.. I just purchased this House from YOU.. but WHY do I feel like there is a person who Owns it and maybe I am just renting this Place.. that is how I am feeling because.. I have to watch over things that does Not belongs to me.. I have brought my own bags and luggage so that NOW I can live in this house.. and I stand on the second room.. Looking at the Vase.. has water inside this Vase so it is Not completely empty.. but still looks empty to Me.. so I walk over to the second Desk.. I see a Picture with the Face Down.. so is it a Prank.. is this a joke because I am not feeling it at this Point.. my hand grabs and I turn to look at the front.. I see a Picture of a Heart.. as I am looking at the picture closer.. YOU have taken a picture of a Heart shape.. it is a Pillow I can see.. but why are you showing me this Picture.. I know that I love Heart.. but what does it means.. why are you doing this to Me
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Young.. but it seems like YOU know me.. why would you tell me this.. Maybe YOU are writing to another person.. but then knowing that it is I who just purchased this House.. It has to be for Me.. who else lives in this House.. I am the only one who bought this House from YOU.. so I know that we met before.. and telling me when were young.. HOW long was this.. How old was I when I met YOU.. Please tell me.. and I am thinking about calling YOU on the Phone.. But.. I am Not just going to call YOU and say I don't remember YOU.. so How am I suppose to answer this question because I don't remember.. I am trying to go back.. way way way back to see if I do remember you.. I am closing both eyes.. Both.. Nothing I can see back then.. why.. when did we ever meet before.. I am looking at Your Picture.. the Picture of YOU holding.. arms around the Empty Vase.. and I would look at the Picture.. WHEN was it that we meet.. I have No clue.. Please give me a Hint.. I feel like I am a crazy person.. LOOKING at the Picture of YOU and just talking.. knowing YOU are Not going to answer back from It.. that is How crazy I am becoming because Now.. I am wondering.. when and where.. what age.. what school.. was it in the apartments.. NOT sure.. but Please tell me when because I truly want to know now.. I hate it when things are so mysterious.. I want to know.. YOU are the only one who knows that is why YOU are asking me.. what am I suppose to do and how do I say this to you if I tell YOU I don't know.. it can hurt you as much it will hurt me not knowing.. Please.. tell me.. give me a clue.. give me a Hint.. and I would put the picture face down on top of the desk.. I love YOU.. do you know that these three words Hit me.. when I did Not hear from you the past few days.. the Word I love you came into my Heart when I would remember what the Doctor Told me.. he told me something that YOU have not mentioned about and I just wanted to tell YOU this from my Heart.. that I love YOU.. and all I think of YOU.. YOU be in my Mind.. YOU kept on being on my Heart and ON my Mind.. Why can't I just erase you Off my Mind.. I can't.. Please tell me How.. as I am looking at this Cabin Log home.. I want to remember what happened to Us.. You have left a Message on the Phone.. and hearing your Voice.. I would listen to Your Voice.. stop and play over and over.. trying to remember YOU.. it hurts me More than it hurts YOU because I have found another Picture.. it is YOU holding a Giant Teddy Bear.. and YOU are showing me this Peace Sign.. and it is that Smile that Get to me when I take a Look into that Picture.. where was this taken At.. How can I forget.. and YOU are Not helping me in any of this.. why can't you tell me where was it At.. I dialed YOUR number and I called YOU on the Phone.. but YOU would not pick up this Time.. I started to Beat on my Chest.. and I sat on the Floor.. Looking at this picture of YOU holding the Giant Teddy Bear.. I have the first Picture on the first Room.. and there is an Empty vase in the second Room.. and I found this Picture on the second Room.. when I lifted UP the Empty Vase.. this picture was underneath it.. I remember buying this Home.. but I do not know who it was that was selling me this Home.. Just love the Wood areas and far from the city side of Life.. just wanted to live this quiet life until I heard your Voice.. and it was YOU who were thanking me purchasing this Home.. I wanted to see YOU.. I wanted to meet YOU.. but YOU told me that it is Not the right TIME.. I remember walking into this Log Cabin Home.. the House was empty.. but there was this scent.. this smell of a perfume when I went into this Empty house.. this Empty home.. did Not know where the smell came from.. I would walk Out of the House.. looking around.. I saw no one.. but this Smell.. where does this soft smell of scent came from.. Is it that my memories are coming back slowly because I think I smelled this scent before.. I am trying to remember this smell but I know that I knew this smell.. Was it YOU who came to this Empty Home before I came.. I am wanting to Know.. so much questions going through my Mind.. I want answers.. when I first Unlocked the Door to enter.. the Smell Hit me like the thin air of cold Icy air.. it hit me in such a massive wave.. I know that someone had to be here.. because I heard that It was a New Home.. or was It Not.. does this Home belong to YOU.. or was it Mine in the past.. Please tell me something because I would like to know.. I remember after leaving the empty Home.. I would take a Long walk a long walk alone.. I was thinking about YOU.. because I heard Your Voice.. How excited Your Voice were because I bought this Home.. as I heard YOUR voice after leaving on the Message.. I would be walking.. holding the Phone in my Hand.. Placing the Speaker close to my ear.. I loved hearing your Voice.. wondering How do you Look on the Other side.. wishing can I meet YOU too.. as the Cold Breeze Hits into the Dark night.. I would see the MOON appear before Me.. snow on the Floor.. and I kept on walking.. playing to Listen to your Voice.. Is there a way I can speak back to YOU.. is there a way I can call the Number and tell YOU what My Heart truly thinks of Your Voice.. of course I did Not see your picture around this TIME.. it was the first day after I came Out of the Hospital.. waking UP to a Coma.. but the Doctor telling me that I am good to go.. that I can walk well.. leaving the Hospital I went straight to the New Home.. which I was surprised of getting a Home in the first place.. a message and a Picture came on the Phone.. with the direction to the Location.. and I took the taxi and the man drove me there.. with the key in my hands.. I think the Doctor knew something but He did Not tell me anything.. just gave me the keys to the new Home.. I don't remember when I bought this House.. that is why I feel so strange walking into this New Home.. I am looking at the walls of the Room.. the second room I am standing.. my hand touch the wall.. I don't know what to do.. what am I suppose to say about this situation.. I feel so Lost and so confused because I am standing in a new Home.. but I don't remember any one of this.. I would look at the Phone.. and I am looking at your Picture YOU send me.. and asking me DO I remember YOU.. It hurts Me.. But YOU are so Beautiful.. YOU are so Lovely.. why are YOU sticking around towards a man who has lost everything.. I don't even remember right Now.. as the Doctor gave me the Keys to the new House.. He tells me something before HE let me go.. that there was someone who was here with me.. when I was laying on the Bed.. In the Coma.. for many days.. there was this One woman who came.. and YOU sat next to me while I was sleeping for a long time.. the Doctor said that I may Not wake UP.. but Only Time will tell but YOU came next to me.. and Would Hold my Hand.. and would come to spend next with me during the long nights.. and that when He.. the doctor comes to check.. YOU would be sleeping next to me holding my hands.. the Doctor looks over.. and sees tears rolling down my eyes.. and I think it is because of YOU I just could not GO.. I wanted to go.. go somewhere far.. but it was Your hands the doctor saw and How YOU kept on coming by my side.. until the Good news came that I was waking UP slowly from this Long sleep of COMA.. that is when the Doctor told me YOU came.. every night.. holding my hands and slept next to me.. and My tears.. I kept on crying because I wanted to GO.. I wanted YOU to let me go BUT your Hands would Not let me go.. Your TOUCH.. your hands which Hold my Hand tight and say YOU can't let me go.. I remember the day my eyes opened.. I was Not sure where I was.. of course it was that Accident.. and I would asked the Doctor.. what had happened to Me.. and How did I get here in this Bed.. the Doctor says.. it was a hit and run.. but I survived that crash which could of ended my life.. someone was drunk and hit the Car.. and He ran with his car.. and the Doctor showed me the Picture of my car which was crushed into pieces.. and I know that I have an Angel who was On my side.. that Night.. YOU came after the Police saw Your Picture on the Phone.. YOU were on the front of the screen.. and the doctor tells YOU the News.. that a big damage to my Head caused me to Loss some memories.. Maybe never I will remember YOU.. after I heard this from the Doctor showing me the picture of my Brain damage.. I cried.. I won't remember the Angel who was standing next to Me.. Holding my Hands when I was laying asleep.. I can this Happen to Me.. How can this One accident causes so much Pain in my Heart.. I want to remember YOU.. and I remember looking at the Phone.. which the Doctor gave to Me.. the front cover of the screen.. Your Picture was there and I would take a Look.. and I would say.. I don't remember YOU.. who is this person.. and It broke my Heart.. But has to be someone very special for to be in the cover of the screen.. the Doctor looks at me and tells me.. the One who was holding Your hands when I was asleep in the COMA.. it was YOU my Angel who came.. when I wanted to Go.. It was just too hard to stay alive.. I wanted to rest.. I wanted to go.. But Your Hands.. it was Your Touch.. your Faith that brought me back to where I can breathe Now.. and When I heard this from the Doctor.. I would cry looking at the Picture of YOU.. my Angel.. why can't I remember the Angel who stood by my side.. YOU could of ran too.. Just like I got Hit.. and some one ran.. even when YOU heard that I have this brain damage.. when didn't YOU ran with that.. as I sat there.. listening to the doctor.. which It was HIM who saw all these things.. and wanted to tell me that I have an angel
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Situation.. it was YOU who was there.. and I wanted to say.. I love YOU.. even though I may Not remember YOU yet.. I still love YOU because I heard what you have did when I was left alone for the fight of my life in COMA.. as I am in the Second ROOM.. in this New Home.. I am looking at the new Picture I found.. YOU are holding the Giant Teddy Bear.. with a Big SMILE showing me the Peace Sign.. as I would look at the Phone.. I would press the Play to Hear your Voice.. it has been few days since you called me and left me the Voice Message.. I am wondering.. where are YOU at.. YOU told me that YOU are going to be calling me SOON.. if few days has passed by.. can I call YOU.. so I can hear YOUR voice.. I wanted to tell YOU that I love YOU.. SO.. what would you do if I call YOU.. and as I would look at the Empty Vase.. I know that I want to put something.. and I want to show YOU what I put into this Empty Vase.. what should I put so that I can show YOU.. can I put Your Heart inside this Empty Vase.. and I can take a Picture with the Camera on this Phone.. so that I can send it to YOU.. will you let me have Your Heart so that I can Put inside this Empty Vase.. I will show YOU a KISS on the Empty Vase.. my lips pressing on the Vase and Your Heart inside this Vase.. I will take a Picture on the side of it.. to Show YOU.. How much I love YOU by showing YOU that I love Your Heart.. I want your Heart close to me.. as much as my Lips kisses your Heart.. so Please consider.. as I am looking at the Phone.. I would press the Play button and I would hear your Voice again.. and I would sit on the Floor.. putting the Phone Speaker close to my ear to hear Your Voice.. it was a message You left few days ago.. but when Can I hear Your New voice Now.. I want to hear a new message coming from You.. I miss your Voice.. so will you pick up the Phone if I call YOU.. as I would send YOU a text message and I would send it to Your Number.. and I would sit and wait for Your response on the Other side.. and I get a Message.. a written text message back from YOU.. just did Not think you would answer back so quickly.. and I would call.. dial UP your number and let it ring.. few times the ring I would hear.. and I hear Your Voice.. and I would say to YOU.. I been thinking about the Day I woke UP.. waking UP from the Hospital.. and I would hear what the Doctor says to me.. that I wanted to say you are my Angel.. I wish that I can be an angel Like YOU.. so that I can be the One to make YOU smile More.. would you let me be an Angel for just One Day.. of course If you are wondering.. DO I remember YOU.. to be honest.. I am still lost.. Unable to remember YOU.. but I wanted to ask YOU something.. can YOU Please help me to Know YOU.. to find the Memory back of YOU.. will you please show me How to remember so that I can just love YOU the way YOU should be loved.. and I would pause.. and I don't hear any word from YOU.. but I do hear YOU saying.. Yes.. YOU were there at the Hospital and it was YOU who was next to Me.. but of course.. I needed to remember YOU first so that YOU can tell me More.. and it keeps on hurting Me.. it keeps on hurting me because I do want to remember.. I want to know what has happened.. about everything.. But.. if YOU are not going to help me.. How am I suppose to Know.. Please tell me.. please Help me so that I can feel what real Love.. what true Love is all about.. my Heart is beating fast whenever I would listen and hear your Voice.. but I want to love YOU and say it Like I mean it because I know that I do love YOU.. that is why I am asking YOU to help me to find the way.. so that I can be in your Heart.. and YOU in my Heart as I remember everything about us.. I am looking at your Picture.. looking at you smiling.. I just wish I can remember this Place.. I am wondering.. who is the One who has taken this Picture.. I know that someone had to stand on the Other side.. and had to look through the lens of the camera.. and just focusing on YOU.. and had to click to take that picture.. as I am in the second room.. looking at the Vase.. the empty Vase.. and looking at your picture.. I wish that It was me.. was it me who was standing on the Other side.. was it really me?? YOU told me that I was with YOU.. and that YOU asking me if I remember any of all these things.. why is it so Hard.. it is so difficult on my part because I want to go back and remember all of these things that has happened.. but the More I am trying to think about YOU.. the more it seems harder to remember these times.. and the Voice.. Your voice I hear when I am talking to you on the Phone.. when YOU call me.. and I would answer.. I am wondering How did I get into this House.. because I just don't remember.. I even saw few people walking in.. the Movers with their truck.. putting all kinds of things into this House.. how did these people got here.. I have so much questions.. but I know that it is you who are putting all these things through.. I am standing in the second room.. looking at your picture.. the only One thing that I can look through.. but I just want to remember YOU.. How did we meet.. How did I fall in love with YOU.. what happened.. I know that YOU told me I got into the car wreck.. could of died in the accident but I guess just the Life that is still in me.. I should be truly thankful to be even alive.. as I am looking at your picture.. I can hear The Phone ringing.. and I see your Picture I have put on the Phone.. and it shows me who is calling me.. as I would pick up the Phone.. putting against my ear to listen to Your Voice.. I wonder.. are you ever going to show UP.. are you going to stop by to visit me.. can you please Help me to remember more about YOU.. because YOU are still a mystery to Me.. I needs to know more.. I needs to ask More.. I want to find out more about YOU.. but.. I know that YOU don't say too much.. why are you being like this to me.. YOU are the one who calls me.. but never say too much.. WHY.. Please tell me what is holding you back to say.. I know that YOU want to say something.. please tell me.. Please tell me because I too have an ear to hear your words.. only if YOU can share and express what is deep in your Heart.. I really wants to know.. and I am looking at another Picture.. this Picture is a Heart.. a red Heart.. why did YOU place this Picture next to Your Picture.. what does this Heart Picture means.. what are you trying to tell me.. Are you telling me that YOU love a Heart.. or trying to tell me that YOU have a Heart.. or are you asking me DO I have a Heart or do I love a Heart.. I must know why.. why put it next to your Picture on the second room.. as I am looking at the two picture on top of the desk.. my hand holding the Phone.. I can hear the breathing.. can I ask YOU something.. WHY is there a picture of A Heart.. who has taken this Picture and why did it be placed in this Desk and I would hear you say.. that I would Love the Heart.. and I am standing here.. with a Question Mark.. that I love a Heart.. does that Means it was me who has taken this Picture.. I know that the first room.. it has a Bed and on the top of the Bed.. I saw a Heart.. it was a pillow Heart.. and It was Me who has taken that picture.. but why can't I remember.. I don't remember taken any picture.. and I would think back.. a little flash back.. I see you sitting on the Top of the Bed.. your arms holding around the Red Heart Pillow.. and I would hear you even tell me the same thing on the Phone.. that one night.. I came into the first room.. and YOU were sitting down on the top of the Bed.. and I would stand and I would watch YOU.. your Arms around the Red Heart.. telling me that YOU love red Heart.. and would smile as you would squeeze it.. and YOU put on the bed next to YOU.. and I would walk closer.. hands holding the camera.. and I would put my eye close to the Lens of the Camera and ZOOM closer.. and snap Shot taking a picture.. and as I put the camera down.. I would turn to look at YOU and I would say.. I want this Heart.. But I want your Heart like this.. can I please have your Heart.. would you please give me YOUR HEART because I truly need it.. I want to have It.. Have your Heart.. and I would see you smile as I would turn to walk away from the first room.. as I am standing still in the Second ROOM.. I am able to get or catch a glimpse.. I think little by little.. things are coming that I am beginning to see something.. Still I can't remember but the little pieces of puzzle like.. I feel like YOU are truly helping me to find YOU back to my Heart.. I know that I loved YOU once that is before the Car accident.. I still can feel inside that I still love YOU.. when YOU are telling me these things on the Phone.. YOU are helping me because without YOU.. How can I know.. it is what YOU know that is bringing things back.. but slowly it is taking a long time.. YOU know that I love YOU.. I have never stopped loving YOU.. only YOU can bring my Heart to be alive.. Only YOU can help me to love YOU once again because I never stopped loving YOU.. as I would turn away.. my Hand holding the Picture of the Heart.. the red Heart.. I would walk out of the second room.. I wonder if I can see Your Heart.. I want to know the color of Your Heart.. would you let me see the color of the Heart.. does it look like this Heart.. the red Heart in the picture.. would you let me see the Color of Your Heart.. because I love this red Heart.. as I would walk out the front door.. it is very cold outside.. and I am standing.. with the Jacket on.. I walk to the front.. LOOKING at the flurry of snows falling from the sky.. and my Hand.. holding the picture of the Red Heart.. I would lift up my arm.. and I can see the Picture.. I lift to see the Red Heart in the Photo.. I want to see your Heart.. I want to touch Your Heart.. I want to know and want to see the color
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Waiting for YOU.. when are you going to come.. I don't want to take the picture of the Red Heart because it is only a Pillow that is laying on top of the Bed.. what I truly want now is to look at your real Heart.. to see the color of Your Heart.. to take a picture of Your Heart.. and I want to ask YOU about the Vase.. the empty Vase that is in the second room.. I have all these Questions that Only YOU know.. only the answers you can give.. but I do not want to hear Your Voice.. even though I love hearing your Voice.. I want to see you in Person and to hear from YOU.. so that I can be near YOU.. only if YOU can come.. come visit me.. help me to know what this is all about.. because Only you have the answers I am looking for.. Only if YOU were here.. if you were close by.. and if YOU can come out side.. there are flurry of Snows falling from the sky.. it is so beautiful here.. it is so beautiful because when I see the flurries of Snows falling.. I am thinking of YOU.. wishing that It be YOU who is here and looking at the Picture of the Red Heart.. just imagining that this is You.. I am missing YOU.. only thinking that I wish YOU be here with me.. and looking at your real Heart.. I want to see your real Heart.. love your Real Heart.. can I take a Picture of Your Heart.. so that I don't have to look at this Red Heart anymore.. let me take a peek of Your Heart so that I can love and tell you how much I love you.. as I would walk back into the house.. all I wish is that YOU are here.. all I wish that YOU can be in this House with Me.. helping me to know what I am losing.. because I do not want to lose you.. I know that if I can't get the memories back.. what I am afraid is of losing YOU.. what If you stop calling me.. what if YOU tell me that YOU are moving On.. what if YOU tell me that YOU are tired of waiting for me.. what if YOU tell me Not to love you any more.. that is why I just can't lose YOU.. as I am walking into the first room.. and I stop to turn to look at the Bed.. the Phone on One hand.. and the Picture.. the Red Heart in the Other hand.. I am looking at the Bed.. I see the Red Heart.. it is laying on top of the Bed.. I put the Phone close to my ear.. I want to tell YOU.. I want to see you here.. It be nice to see you sitting on the top of the bed.. I want to see you Holding.. your arms wrapped around the Red Heart.. would you please come and let me take a picture of YOU holding the Red Heart.. I have the picture of YOU.. YOU are so Beautiful with a lovely smile.. I have the picture of the red Heart.. but what I am missing is the picture of YOU holding this Red Heart.. to fill in the missing link.. if YOU can come.. come and visit just for one day.. so that I can take this one Picture of YOU.. I want to take that picture.. your arms around.. holding and squeezing this Red Heart.. and What I will say.. DO I love YOU.. the More you can hold your arms around the Heart.. the red Heart.. I will say that I do Love YOU.. please squeeze my Heart.. Please Hold My Heart.. if you don't.. then I am going to be the one to hold and squeeze your Heart and I will tell your Heart.. please love Me.. Please can I tell YOU that I love YOU.. Please just love me.. love my Heart so that I can tell your Heart.. that I love YOU.. Now I am missing YOU.. missing this One picture.. YOU are holding the Red Heart.. only YOU can hold it while I take the picture of YOU holding it.. Please.. tell me.. give me a clue.. give me a Hint.. and I would put the picture face down on top of the desk.. I open the door.. comes into the House.. I see large boxes.. two Large boxes enter the first room.. and another two Large Boxes places in the second room.. I see couch.. I see tables chairs.. More boxes comes into the Log Cabin home.. on the Diner room and the living room.. into the kitchen.. I see the Movers walking in and Out of the home.. as I watch the movers walks.. they enter the truck and it goes.. I would be out side.. it feels so good when it is cold.. with my jacket.. I am standing out.. I watch the SUN goes down.. still the SNOW on the ground and I am looking UP to the Sky.. Night Comes and I am looking at the Moon.. I don't know why I think of YOU the most.. especially when I see the Night.. when I look at the MOON.. I start to think of YOU.. do I miss YOU.. I am thinking right Now.. Do you think that I miss YOU.. if you ask Me this question.. standing Out here in the cold.. watching the SUN setting.. as the Wind starts to blow.. the wind chill makes me shiver.. that is how I feel when I think of you.. I get these cold chills.. sending shivers down my spine because I do miss YOU.. feels like when I walk Out.. and I look Up at the Sky.. looking at the MOON.. it is how I feel when I miss YOU.. that I want to see that MOON because I know that down in my Heart.. I think of you the most when I do see that MOON.. do I smile.. I want to smile.. because all I do is smile when I know that YOU are in my Heart.. that you are IN MY MIND and in my soul.. just can't stop think of YOU.. I would look at that MOON.. I am trying to think of the past.. when was the last time I seen YOU.. that I do miss YOU.. I miss YOU more and more.. as I turn to the direction.. I am looking at the door of this Cabin Log Home.. my hand grabs on the door knob and I am wondering.. I have lost my memory.. but I want to know.. I want to know how much did I loved YOU.. YOU would not tell me how much.. if YOU knew me before I lost my memory.. would you not tell me because I asked YOU.. I asked you on the Phone.. How much did I love YOU.. I would wait for your answer.. I just don't remember because I do want to remember.. I asked YOU.. but why can't YOU answer me.. YOU told me that I did Love YOU.. I asked you the question.. DID I love YOU?? there was a short paused.. and a breathing I heard.. I asked YOU the second time.. DID I love YOU?? Please tell me that I loved YOU well.. did I love YOU the way YOU should be loved.. I wanted to know.. I kept on pressing to ask and asking YOU.. I was holding onto the phone.. just waiting for YOU to answer.. there was a short pause and I heard you telling me.. I did love YOU.. and I do remember I just could not say another word.. My Heart.. for some reason it started to Beat faster.. Like I would be running and slowing down trying to catch my breathe and when I stop for a break.. My Heart would beat as like the beat ran faster.. that is HOW My Heart felt when I heard YOU telling me that I did Love YOU.. of course I want to love YOU.. I want to keep on loving YOU.. and I asked again.. How much did I love YOU.. can YOU please tell me.. if YOU answered the first question.. I know for sure you can answer this One.. Please tell me so that I can hear my Heart beat faster when YOU give me the answer.. I heard YOU not say a word.. but why.. YOU told me that I did love YOU.. why couldn't you tell me More.. I want to know.. if YOU can remind me.. maybe I can know.. maybe my memories can come back to Me because I did hear my Heart beat faster when YOU answered the first question.. I really Really want to know.. as I am standing by the door.. MY Hand grab hold unto the Door Knob.. ALL I need to do is turn it and open the door.. I can go into this Log Cabin House.. this New Home that I brought.. before the Movers came.. I do remember One large Box came before the Movers brought many boxes.. smaller and larger into this New Home.. One Large box.. I placed into the ROOM.. the first room.. I do remember opening the top of the Box.. I saw a Picture frame.. it was YOU inside the picture frame.. YOU were sitting on the Couch that just came into this New Home.. I don't remember YOU sitting on that couch.. but YOU were holding the vase.. placing on top of YOUR Lap.. the same Vase that was in the Second room.. but there was a Stem of a Flower.. YOU were smiling and I looked at it.. I don't remember any of it but tears.. there were two lines of tears falling down from my eyes.. as I would look at the picture frame.. inside the picture of YOU siting on the Couch.. I felt so sad because I.. I want to know when was this taken.. I want to know who has taken this Picture.. was it me who was holding the camera.. It must be me because I do know that I loved YOU.. and if that couch came as the Movers brought them into this New Home.. it must been a previous time.. which Home.. whose apartment.. if that Couch belongs to me.. then was it at the old apartment.. was it at a Home.. I just can't remember.. Please help me to remember where and when.. from WHO.. I know that it must be me.. because this One Large Box came yesterday night.. and I brought it into the First ROOM and I opened it to see.. So I know that it belongs to me.. I started to cry when I saw the Picture Frame.. My Heart was shattered because I want to remember.. I want to know when and where it happened.. I know that It was me who took this picture.. why would the Picture frame with YOUR Picture comes inside this Box.. but who had this is the Question on my mind.. was this Box with YOU.. are you the one who send this Box to me so that I can remember.. I did Not want to call YOU.. I knew that YOU wanted to know something but right Now.. I just can't tell YOU because I don't remember.. as I would reach.. my Hands grab onto the Picture Frame.. I am looking at it.. my tears kept running down my cheeks.. I want to remember.. I want to know.. But I do not want to tell YOU anything because if I don't know.. the way My Heart is breaking right Now.. you can feel the say way too.. I looked at the Phone.. I wanted to dial.. but I told myself I am not going to call YOU.. if I don't remember and has NO answers.. I just can't.. if Tears are flowing down my eyes.. I don't want to imagine Your eyes with tears.. If I loved YOU and My Heart still loves YOU.. I just don't want to hurt YOU.. I rather be the one