WOW!! The transparency is this is inspiring

Straight talk. "Talking about a present trying to masquerade it as a past". Straight talk. Marinating. Wow.

I'm born & raised in Cali. I wasn't really taught the right way. I didn't understand the sexual sin like that until I was deep in it. & being molested, having told twice but nothing was done about it, the void I was tryna fill with toxic relationships. About to be 42 next month & am still having my eyes opened to hypocrisy I've committed unknowingly & coming to grips with my level of rationalizingmy sins being an unintentional hypocrite. I try, because I understand the need for positive examples. Since I never had one, it's a whole struggle. I never got introduced to God as love until my mid 30s. I'm tryna release my distrust & unbelief in Him & myself (due to poor decisions I made as a result of my innocence being repeatedly robbed from me). It all sound wonderful, but my struggle is real, been real for years now. The info is overwhelming & I really don't know how to surrender & apply this Word.