My ugly truth about Adderall: My Adderall addiction story and the day I decided to end it.

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My ugly truth about Adderall: My Adderall addiction story and the day I decided to end it.

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It is Mental Health Awareness Month and I thought it was so important to share with you all my 6 year addiction to Adderall and ultimately the day I decided to put it to an end. It cripled me. I lost my sense of self. I didn’t know if I could ever function as a high performer ever again. I am well aware that there are people that truly need this drug…I was not one of them. I believe this drug is overprescribed in our society and is handed out like candy which is why there is an Adderall Shortage. It’s highly addictive and I know I’m not the only one who has suffered from Adderall addiction.
I hope my story gives you hope and let’s you know you are not alone. If you are struggling with addiction to Adderall, I want you to know how strong you are. Your struggle is your strength and there is a light at the end of the tunnel.
On your road to recovery, please please please seek professional support and outside support from anyone you can confide in. Getting outside support was so helpful in my journey to becoming Adderall Free. Below are resources I’ve linked from past podcast episodes. I hope this helps. You got this. I believe in you.
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I am not a medical professional or doctor and am not prescribing any medical advice.
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Adderall free after 17 Years on Medication with Sheeva Rouhanifard:
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@kbike79 Жыл бұрын

Congrats, Tori!!! I LOVE that you are sharing your story!! I’m 18 month into a life of FREEDOM from a TWENTY YEAR(20 effing years?!?!) adderall addiction. Adderall controlled my entire life and even tho I was prescribed by a doctor…( I never needed it in the first place)… I ran out two weeks early every month. I plan to start a podcast… I just want someone to start the podcast with. *BIGGEST HUGS*

@paigecarpenter2001 Жыл бұрын

I can totally relate .. I kicked my adderall addiction in 2017 and relapsed recently.. I’m on day 3 without it and it sucks .. but I do know that it’s worse to think that you can’t do anything without it . Good for you and it really helps to hear your story .. and know that life can be good without Adderall!

@MeghanBean 11 ай бұрын

I’m going through something similar.. never taken other substances so the hook caught me off guard & ohhh my brain wasn’t ready for what came lol. Thank you for sharing, it’s so great to see someone on the other end of this chipper & pretty & healthy & productive enough to decorate and make a cute video 🫶 I’ll get there!!

@jasmine9064 7 ай бұрын

How are you doing now?

@MeghanBean 7 ай бұрын

@@jasmine9064 soooooooooo much better! I'm working with a really knowledgeable psychiatrist whose balancing me all out. not perfect, but feels like I have me back :)

@paligap8097 Жыл бұрын

I haven’t watched the vid but I’m awake at 3:39 am cause of this drug. I was without it for 3 years . Then i got back on it thinking it was manageable . I was dead wrong . I wish this drug was harder to obtain

@mrhyd388 Жыл бұрын

Same here, but I know the solution. If you really wanna cut off the access to addy talk to your doctor and tell him you been abusing it, and whoever you get it from either a friend or dealer be honest with your friend that you wanna stop. If you have a dealer then just straight up tell him to f off or anything to make him not respond anymore. Give yourself 3-5 days to recover. When ever you think about hitting someone up for addy take the money you would spent and put it in your savings. Make a goal to get more steps in a day. Talk to someone make sure you aren’t telling yourself you need it anymore. You got this

@paige8956 11 ай бұрын

omg ur the only person i’ve ever heard talk about adderall and eating disorder me too thanks for sharing ur story

@bxtemp Жыл бұрын

thank you for sharing your story great job and I'm currently clean almost 20 months from alcohol, Xanax, heroin and I feel great and I keep my darkest days in front and never forget where I was and how much I hated myself.. to whoever is reading this if you are struggling it can be done and it will get better... thank you Tori much luv from NYC ❤

@ToriNishino Жыл бұрын

wow congrats to 20 months clean and thank you so much for sharing your story. So inspiring!!

@richardford5755 11 ай бұрын

I am proud of you. I have never been an addict, but I was right on the edge. I got lucky.

@SuperSarahkathryn 8 ай бұрын

So very honorable to post this. I’m 30 days “sober” no longer abusing my meds. I never wanted to get clean but realized I couldn’t keep burning the candle at both ends anymore. I’m so scared to speak about my journey. Here’s to 30 days and here’s to your recovery as well!

@jeremytoon8106 4 ай бұрын

Thanks for sharing your achievement! Did you notice an improvement in your day to day life?

@davidsuminski4243 Жыл бұрын

Thank you for explaining that life is hard at times and yes one can overcome its trials and tribulations!

@ToriNishino Жыл бұрын

Of course Dave. I'm going to share more of these vulnerable stories in hopes to help others know they are not alone. :)

@davidsuminski4243 Жыл бұрын

@@ToriNishino your story hits home with me , im glad you were able to overcome it . The struggle is real

@crnutsmotorsports Жыл бұрын

As a recovering addict, I understand and appreciate you journey and commend you on your willingness to share, 👍👍

@ToriNishino Жыл бұрын

Thanks and i appreciate this. I only hope my story helps others

@normanmallory2055 Жыл бұрын

Tori , I’m very proud of you ! You made this happen and are a better woman for it !!

@ToriNishino Жыл бұрын

Aw thank you so much 🫶🏽🫶🏽

@beckypappas5570 6 ай бұрын

thank you, I'm a few months off and it's seriously sooooo hard. thankful I found your video!

@amayalaurenb Жыл бұрын

Thank you for sharing this. Currently struggling to quit myself ❤️✨

@Theyoutuberpolyglot Жыл бұрын

The nightmare is the tolerance. I take a lot of stimulants and they don’t work anymore. If you stop taking them, you’ll sleep the whole day.

@sarahhayes861 2 ай бұрын

after 18 years on it, I stopped taking it a year ago. I wanted to be a better mom for my son. It has been so hard rewiring my brain but I have no regrets. I relate to this so much, especially about finding passion.

@brazenbridget1955 Жыл бұрын

Thanks for sharing I just quit taking it about a month ago after being prescribed fifteen years.. yes the pharmacist will even say there are no side effects of not taking it and I’m like uhhh not true lol there is NO INFORMATION on this .. this is so encouraging thank you so much for sharing ❤

@ToriNishino Жыл бұрын

Wow congrats on stopping it after all that time. You got this girl!!!!!! It is crazy how there’s no information on the negatives of Adderall but I’m so proud of You! Rooting for you!

@jimlaheyjr5409 5 ай бұрын

Thank you so much for sharing. After 15+yrs on 60mg, I had enough. As you mentioned, there is minimal clinical information. The best source I have found is from courageous youtubers like yourself. Still very little substantial information the length of the withdraw effects. I am 32 days in and I feel like a zombie. I 'm sleeping 10-12 hours a night and still struggle to stay awake until bed time again. I know there is a light at the end, thanks to my fello youtubers (Tori). TY🙏

@andrewbass4944 3 ай бұрын

Proud of you

@user-pk8rx2vp8t Жыл бұрын

Awesome video, I can relate to a lot of what you said…I do the same thing, cutting them in half to make it last longer lol. Been on 50 mg adderall or 70 mg Vyvanse for over a decade and it doesn’t even have any positive effects anymore. I’m 42, my body is worn out from working too much and I can’t focus on anything… Anyway it’s time to quit and get back in shape, thanks for the video 👍

@yoqiu_ 10 ай бұрын

The reason it's so easy to get Adderall is because almost anyone can qualify for a diagnosis as 'mild' add/ADHD by the dsm-5 by checking off at least 2 symptoms. Very easy to do if you tell your doctor/psychiatrist you think have ADHD and say you can't concentrate, have a busy mind, etc etc

@anatacer Жыл бұрын

Thank you so much for sharing your story Tori! You are really a light in the world and a huge inspiration to me 😊💫 I work in the medical field so your story is also interesting to me from this perspective! While I love your shorts, I’m so excited for more deeper content like this! 💪🏻

@ToriNishino Жыл бұрын

Of course Ana. More content like this will be coming out for sure. Although I don't work in the medical field, since I've come out about my story years ago I've gotten so many messages from people who are fully addicted to this drug like I was and it's so sad. While I know it is necessary for some people....It's something that can be easily abused and is overly prescribed in the US and really should be held to a higher standard before being prescribed. Not sure how it is in your country but it really is a crisis in the US.

@anatacer Жыл бұрын

It’s indeed a problem here as well, what I find worrying is that the age limits for ADHD/ADD drugs are dropping so fast and there are so many teenagers and even children on them now. It’s great that you’re sharing the message and I’m sure you’ve been able to help many people who are struggling. And I appreciate your story too because I’ve always believed that as a medical professional, you do have to possess the neccessary knowledge, but there is so much to be learned from people’s real-life experiences. We can learn some things together for sure. 😊

@kenbrown4603 6 ай бұрын

Thanks Tori! I overcame addiction 4 years ago. I had to go to treatment. Nothing was worse than being non social and not fun. All that was fun was cleaning the house and ignoring everyone. It was awful. I follow you on instagram and was like whoa I’m not alone. Thanks for this

@maxnjan528 Жыл бұрын

I remember this period of time and so proud of you for choosing health and freedom! Love you so much

@ToriNishino Жыл бұрын

Love you mom ❤❤❤❤ you were so helpful during this time

@RN-of2fq 2 ай бұрын

Do you have any advice with the withdrawals? I’m struggling so bad I’ve tried to quit so many times. I have nobody. Three little kids and I’m an RN who works 12 hour shifts. Anytime I try to stop I lay in bed with my body aching and crying. No motivation. Not caring if I get fired from my job. Not caring about anything at all. I need help and I don’t know what to do.

@memyselfandi8 4 ай бұрын

Thank you. Im just starting the journey. Did a cold turkey 2 weeks ago. Still going through it.

@mickeydrago9401 Жыл бұрын

Adderall is a combination of amphetamine and dextroamphetamine, two central nervous stimulants that improve focus and reduce impulsivity by increasing dopamine and norepinephrine levels in the brain."

@electricnirvana3499 9 ай бұрын

Thank you so so much for sharing your beautiful light & story. I needed to hear this! 💜🙏

@lizbeth212 11 ай бұрын

Loved that you talked and opened about this, but I wish you elaborated a bit more on your experience with the negative side of adderall use. I don’t think this part gets talked about enough

@salaisabap Жыл бұрын

Hey Tori, it's good to know that u completely discontinued the adderall, actually adderall is a habit forming and addictive one, it should be used only as a short term acting course. For anxiety there are lot of medications, such as fluxoteine, Zoloft, welbultrin, buspar, amitriptyline, nortriptyline, hydroxyzine, that can help u increase the dopamine the happy hormones. Yes, mental support from family is more important to treat depression and anxiety. Don't feel alone, I'm here to support you as an overseas friend. Good to know about u Tori Nishino

@ToriNishino Жыл бұрын

Ahh thank you friend. It’s still insane to me how easily and overly prescribed it is… as with many habit forming and addictive medications.

@MandyB-jx4zm Ай бұрын

Thank you so much for sharing, your story is powerful. And you're Beautiful.

@donnataylor980 Жыл бұрын

I'm so happy that you quit. Adderall is a very addicting drug. Thanks for sharing I hope this will help others. I love your dancing and your cute little pooch y'all make me smile😊❤😊

@MonicaGuerra324 Жыл бұрын

Hi Tori🤗 You are a great inspiration and a beautiful lady inside and out. Keep being real and don't change for anyone stay safe and keep reaching for the stars. God Bless you😊

@Mr.character.shuaib2 4 ай бұрын

Yea see I’ve been doing 75mg daily not prescribed just addicted like hell to it.

@timmytwotone65 3 ай бұрын

Same here, 75mg a day and the addiction is insane…

@jasonc.5366 2 ай бұрын

⁠@@timmytwotone65same here, let’s stop

@shwingler8871 Ай бұрын

Never try methamphetamine it’s way stronger and way cheaper. I had a problem with it because I was self medicating my undiagnosed adhd and now I got diagnosed and I take adderall and it’s way safer and helps me stay sober from everything else

@shwingler8871 Ай бұрын

@@timmytwotone65^

@dazmiredwards2628 Жыл бұрын

This is so relatable. You are inspiring af for telling this hard reality of your life. So happy you overcame. i put them thangs down too.. that and alcohol was my poison

@MB-fe8zx 5 ай бұрын

thank you same kind of story so dependent on it and glad to hear there is life after it and watching this gives me hope I can get through this

@richardford5755 Жыл бұрын

Very proud of your victory. You are blessed.

@ToriNishino Жыл бұрын

Thank you Richard.❤

@koeberle 24 күн бұрын

Have a friend that's doing it illegally. He goes into a paranoia and his lasted almost 2 weeks. Took me a while to figure out what he was taken. Then I figured it out and he left it slip what he was taking to another person. It was and still is really stressful to me, because I really care about him.

@idaUnchained 10 ай бұрын

Love this video, and hey, you can totally be your own support system!!

@Mathh34251 17 күн бұрын

they gave me adderall when I was 7. That’s all I knew and I started abusing in college. Once I stopped for a while, I realised I was actually meant for a trade lol The hardest thing to quit isn’t the euphoria, it’s the high achiever personality and mindset you must give up

@Mathh34251 17 күн бұрын

Literally been stuck in a monthly cycle of binge where the first week i take 130mg xr, barely sleep and the next 3 weeks im fried. I also kept taking them for the sole reason that I don’t feel any interest in building my business when I’m off them. I will force myself anyway now

@liceous 11 ай бұрын

I’m doing the same thing. Alone and struggling

@jasmine9064 7 ай бұрын

Same here. How are you doing?

@nuyorican91st Жыл бұрын

As long as you are happy and healthy Us in the comments love you. Keep slaying girl

@ToriNishino Жыл бұрын

Aw thanks so much, appreciate YOu!!!

@nuyorican91st Жыл бұрын

@@ToriNishino no problem Your pup is the bomb too

@anthonylocke3366 Жыл бұрын

I became addicted to crack from 99 to 2000 fortunately I got banged up and used prison as a drug rehab,bear in mind I was still raving so xtc lsd speed coke and crack were used,I came out of prison stoped seeing ppl who dealt with crack plus few friends,i carried on raving till 2010 now I jus smke weed,as tori said with her struggles she gave up her addiction so yh despite help out there if ur strongminded u can beat it

@ToriNishino Жыл бұрын

Wow congrats on all that you’ve overcome and been through. I’m sure your story can also help so many people. 🫶🏽

@Kui-zz1tc 3 ай бұрын

❤❤🙏😁😁 May God be with you! 😁😁

@Starfox46 8 ай бұрын

If you know, you know. I quit too after 6 years. Similar story. Keep it up, gorgeous ❤

@johnnhb1 9 ай бұрын

Hello , first time here , im currently on 60 mg ir a day for about 13 ish years … i think I’m ready to stop , i never abused the drug , i may have missed my send dosage but never noticed . Recently i purposely chose to skip my second 30mg dosage , i really didn’t notice that i didn’t take it but i ate so much for the 2 days i didn’t take that second dose …. How do i go about it and once I’m off what can i expect ? I got on subs and addy around the same time , it seems like after that i stopped wanting to do things and have fun , i slowly turned into a homebody .. for ten years i was thinking it was the subs but recently I’m starting to think it’ was the addy and not the subs …any comments ?

@visionvixxen 5 күн бұрын

How do you do it. I be only been on 10 mg Adderall switching to 20 vyvanse for the past four years but start drinking tea and energy drinks to make it work more- but I cannot function without and didn’t function well before. I do have depression and inattentive add so that makes it harder to figure out- are the meds helping hurting and what is the long term way to keep all the benefits without diminishing returns?

@MeghanBean 11 ай бұрын

Totally relate to the not finding resources or validation online early on! Kinda helps gaslight ya into staying w it.. So crazy how it’s not more recognized-(or even outright casually denied)-as having any addiction potential, given my experience. Especially w its history 1940sish everyone was taking it, and they banned it BC it was known to be so addictive. Totally disparate narrative now.

@_Roasted_Marshmallow 22 күн бұрын

Man if I don’t have my adderall I literally can’t function but I’ve been taking it since I was a kid. I don’t abuse it tho, I still only take 20mg xr daily. But I’m scared to even try to quit because I’m at a higher risk of addiction when I don’t take my medicine. I hope everyone who wishes to quit is able to tho!!

@danieldonnelly4935 4 ай бұрын

Thank you for this. 🙏🏻

@keetzb2615 5 ай бұрын

Feels hopeless. Keep trying to ween and that doesn’t work! It’s a vicious cycle. I’ve quit everything else smh

@johnpeddicord4932 Жыл бұрын

CONGRATULATIONS, TORI sleep ing alot better now special shout-out to GARRETT thanks for being there for Tori 😊

@ToriNishino Жыл бұрын

Aw thank you John. Garet was definitely instrumental in me quitting

@johnpeddicord4932 Жыл бұрын

Sorry about misspelling, GARET

@jaydendrelinger4304 2 ай бұрын

You are a sweetheart and good person , thank you

@35mmonica 5 ай бұрын

thank you for this video. i really needed to hear this so i don’t go down the same path. this drug has a little too much power. but it’s in the same vein as meth, just veiled by the social acceptance pushed by big pharma

@samuellnoronha 3 ай бұрын

Hi Tori, im seeing your video now…you said that u got to take 180mg day (did you take this in a unique dose)had you have some symptoms of overdose, or feel like fainting, heartatack feelings like? Im having issues on ritalin. Hugs from brazil

@user-ip5fu5mi2q Жыл бұрын

One day at a time Toni. Really on Bon Bon and good people in your life

@martinasilver690 2 ай бұрын

I’m on 3 without it, I’ve just been using it for my adhd for 2 month but woooah! The was I’m soooo tired, sooo tired… just after 4,5h when it’s going off, I became like drunk tired… Madness. Day 3 being soo down, nothing fun, like feels like life have always been like this bad.. sooo scary!!! I wanna start again, but no… It would be so sick… but woah, how much I got done with it, it helped my adhd paralysis but 100% NOT WORTH IT!

@martinasilver690 2 ай бұрын

*day 3 without it

@aashirwadkhabya Ай бұрын

@@martinasilver690 wish u luck