"I need to be sicker" That feeling that you want to reach out for help but dont think its bad enough to do so
@my.fav.no..is.12.point.95 ай бұрын
i have a friend who used to have an abusive father. she would vent to me. once, i said something casual about my situation. she sat me down and explained to me that just because she was in a ‘worse’ situation than me, doesn’t make my feelings any less valid. the severity of her abuse doesn’t make mine any milder. that was the first time i had heard that. now whenever i casually drop trauma dumps, my friends become genuinely concerned for me and want to help me. this is weird.
@Its_Julianna2222 ай бұрын
When i was like 7 i was really sick at school and i told my teacher she said "no you will be ok your mummy is at work u dont want to disturb her" i was so sick that i was crying the teachers dident care when i got into my mums car i told her i dont remember what she said bc this was years ago and when i got home i threw up
@i-hate-my-name1Ай бұрын
Exactly. Felt that one in my soul because my mom thinks my emotions are invalid and everytime i try to express anything negative to her she threatens me and brushes it off because she has it worse. Sometimes on really bad days I feel nauseous at night from stress and crying, my life has fell apart since about 2022.
@i-hate-my-name1Ай бұрын
@@Its_Julianna222omg I'm so sorry that happened that teacher is terrible
@Its_Julianna222Ай бұрын
@@i-hate-my-name1 its ok i was crying bc it dident hsppen earlier thaen i would have went home
@SmitteaKat4 ай бұрын
"I am not sick enough" hits me on a deep level. Because I don't feel like my life is bad enough for anyone to care for me.
@Xw1llowsX4 күн бұрын
I agree with you so much.
@liliththefirehawk7962 жыл бұрын
I’m 21 now. In high school, I was a victim of grooming. Starting my freshman year- my biology teacher blurred the lines of healthy student/teacher boundaries, and for four years I adored that man and thought of him as a mentor, someone to look up to. He asked me to stay with him after class all the time to talk, and he constantly helped me with my math homework. I confided within him some of my most private secrets, including things about my depression and eating disorder. He was arrested 2 years ago for sexual crimes against minors. It still hurts to know I was just another girl he had lined up.
@Neeerdddd6 ай бұрын
I'm so sorry
@kde-jy4uq5 ай бұрын
my respect goes to him. based
@Snow_Skitter5 ай бұрын
@@kde-jy4uqYou should be in jail too just for saying that
@kde-jy4uq5 ай бұрын
@@Snow_Skitter being wise is not illegal sorry
@TomsColdAnkle5 ай бұрын
@@kde-jy4uqyou’re not wise you’re disgusting and don’t deserve any support in your life if you continue talking like that.
@iseeyou_05 ай бұрын
the worst feeling is when you are too scared to ask for help
@audreypena-l5x24 күн бұрын
plz ask for help. I never did, and instead it got discorvered. They won't judge. They will be concered.
@zoombeanie2 жыл бұрын
⚠️TW: physical/emotional abuse, alcoholism, violence.⚠️ don’t read if you don’t want to, it’s just to vent. Be comfortable and safe my friend :) For as long as I could remember, maybe 2 or 3 up until I was 12 I was physically abused by my mom, I was even almost suffocated. She still emotionally abuses me and manipulates me to this day and it’s been really tough to cope and come to terms with it, since I never thought anything was wrong until recently. My dad is an alcoholic and lives across town and he was never really there for me, but he’s trying a lot more nowadays. He’s still pretty immature though so it’s not always easy to be around him and I don’t really feel that cared for, he’s more of a friend than a parent. The only other person that lives in my city is my grandma who’s usually busy and my mom made me feel terrified to tell anyone about what was happening and ask if it was wrong until now. Fortunately I have more family on my side, that I was finally able to tell, that are helping me heal now and make a plan to move in with my grandma. Stuff like this has kinda helped me process everything and in a weird way has kept me kinda grounded in reality. So thanks for posting it and helping people like me :)
@mr.incognitoyt22356 ай бұрын
Hopefully you make it out. May God bless you.
@tyscm75954 ай бұрын
安心しろ。日本人がお前を守る、そしてお前の親をギッタギタのメッタメタのぼっこぼこにしてやる😊
@Mrseriousdude12 күн бұрын
Okay and???
@BiggyCheese-sf8pm8 күн бұрын
Hope your okay
@senapi61482 жыл бұрын
"nobody remembers me but i remember everyone, im a ghost"
@Crowswhat3 жыл бұрын
0:59- is kinda relatable in the sense I try to be there for all my friends and family but it feels like they’re never there for me- (Ik that part is probably worse then it seems, and I hope the people who feel this way find people who will be nicer to them)
@xo_willow3 жыл бұрын
i know how you feel..it really hurts to feel like that. it could just be for thoughts, don't be scared to speak up
@Crowswhat3 жыл бұрын
@@xo_willow I’ll keep that noted, thank you! ^^
@xoxoemy_3 жыл бұрын
Everytime I watch these, I start crying
@xo_willow3 жыл бұрын
hey..i'm sorry. it's safe here, and its ok to cry!
@majoroverdensity55252 жыл бұрын
good
@0-bee-02 жыл бұрын
@@majoroverdensity5525 wdym-..
@majoroverdensity55252 жыл бұрын
@@0-bee-0 i mean good, you deserve whatever happened
@elizabethcarrillo45002 жыл бұрын
@MajorOverdensity be a bit more respectful. People here really do have trauma.
@lirye-menhera4 ай бұрын
TW: SA, disturbing stuff I relate so much with the image at minute 0:06 on a very personal level. I have a cousin who is 6-7 years older than me (I will call him J.), and since he was a child he always had very incorrect behaviors for his age. His mother and the entire family normalized children (mostly boys) to know about sex and to show inappropriate behavior from a very young age, even allowing them to see adult things. That cousin knew me since I was born. Eventually I ended up paying for all that hypersexuality that he had, he made me touch him and he also touched me, he made me give him oral sex many times and sometimes he made me have sex with him. It only stopped when I was 11 as his mother had died and our families went their own ways, but he continued to harass me. Eventually I realized what he did, and it hurt like you can't imagine. At first I thought that his abuse started when I was 5 years old, because I remembered very vague things, but time passed and I remembered MORE things and the age decreased, 4, 3, and now I don't even know if he did it since I was a baby. That would explain why I normalized it so much the "first" time he touched me. His abuse brought me problems, by this I mean that I used to behave sexually with other people, older or younger than me, I became addicted to the feeling of pleasing other people. My mom only scolded me if she saw me doing things like that, she never realized how serious it is for a little girl to be that way. I even behaved lewdly with my dad's friends and even my cousin's husband, I was out of control. I got in trouble once, when I was 8 a 15 year old girl touched me too, I provoked her, but in the end she did things that hurt me and I tried to push her away from me but she just said "wait a second" and continued. It was the first time I cried in a situation like that. I had another cousin who was a year older than me, as I already said, sexual behavior was very normalized in my family (and even incest between children, for God's sake) and he was the one I was most involved with after my cousin J. , he was like my best friend, but I remember perfectly that there were times when I was afraid of him because he threatened to tell my parents secrets that I told him if I didn't do what he wanted. Currently we are fine, I forgave him (he was just a child, he didn't know better) and we each move on with our lives. I didn't forgive J., I would have if he had stopped at some point, but he didn't, he continued doing it until he came of age, and he even sexually harassed me after that. I could never forgive him. I'm currently going to therapy, but I feel like I'm getting worse every day. My last 2 years since J. left the country have been horrible. My behavior seems like that of a little girl more than that of a 16-year-old teenager, I take refuge in cartoons and cute things, giving myself the classic excuse of "you're still a child, you're 16, you can still enjoy your childhood like a NORMAL child." but I know that's not the case. My body is my prison, and no matter how hard I try to cover everything that happened, it will never be possible, I will be condemned to carry this dirt until death, and I hate myself every day for that.
@pabhadalee584819 күн бұрын
I'm very sorry As someone who has never experienced any of that I don't think I can understand or relate that much But it is still very horrible I hope he gets arrested for what he did such a disgusting thing You were just a child you never deserved it don't hate yourself for it You didn't know anything you didn't know it was wrong it wasn't your fault I hope that one day you'll recover and your life wil be great I'm on your side❤
@Mrseriousdude12 күн бұрын
Ok and??
@unlimiteddream79211 күн бұрын
Remember, death is good sometimes
@ArissaHaque8 күн бұрын
@@Mrseriousdudethats disrespectful
@Mrseriousdude8 күн бұрын
@@ArissaHaque no it's just venting is fucking annoying
@Saturnz_dragons77Ай бұрын
One of my friends showed me this and said, “this describes me.” I gave her a huge hug, and told her that she can come running to my house whenever things get bad, and she has, my parents are like parents to her, I try always try to make things better for her even if she’s already damaged.
@MLie_L17 күн бұрын
you sound like an awesome friend, i'm glad you helped her
@lauvayed3 жыл бұрын
I feel uncomfortable in my own body
@xo_willow3 жыл бұрын
I’m very sorry for what happened to you.
@lauvayed3 жыл бұрын
@@xo_willow th4nk you
@Mental-Breakdown-Club3 жыл бұрын
😭 haha me too
@fishboi60513 жыл бұрын
Same
@lauvayed3 жыл бұрын
@It’s pronounced Caramel don't apologize it isn't your fault thank you for caring, though, I really appreciate it :)
@apolloandrews44322 жыл бұрын
0:13 this hit to close to home for me, I was forced to grow up to fast because my school was one of the really smart schools that cost a lot of money, I was always praised for my academic status and maturity. I know those are good things but I lost a lot of my childhood because of it. I don’t want to be mature for my age, I just want to be normal ( I honestly don’t know if this counts as trauma, but this still hit real close to home.)
@fluffybun18582 жыл бұрын
That first one reminded me of when I was around 10. I was raised in a Christian household. I prayed for my dad to stop being abusive to my mom and I, but even now he's still abusive. A little less since we've learned how to be perfect for him, but still. I'm 18 now and I've lost any trace of faith I had for multiple reasons, but that's one of them. He's the most devoted Christian I know, but he's the most abusive, hypocritical, sexist, misogynistic, racist, anti-LGBTQ+ person I personally know, and he's the worst victim blamer I personally know too. Even if he were the perfect person I still wouldn't be interested in Christianity anyway since I hate a lot of it. I'm sorry this was just me ranting about my dad.
@whatisthis19582 жыл бұрын
I lost my faith too. For me, it was cos of a mix of reasons. A big one is I was raised Christian, but was SAed in my Christian primary school when I was 6 to 7. No one did anything to stop it despite staff knowing, they put the responsibility on me and told me to "just stay away from him". I would pray to god for all the pain to end but it didn't. I realised relying on god was useless, and I will have to advocate for myself. There were other factors, but that was a big one.
@Seally3103 жыл бұрын
0:04 hit hard
@IsaGarciaLascano3 жыл бұрын
Yep Even I don't take myself serious
@idk_whyi Жыл бұрын
mm yep👍🏻! ://
@cherry_bleeds4 күн бұрын
God i renember one day when i said i wanted to be back at the hospital because i felt more taken care of :(
@lucky282895 ай бұрын
POV: you’re always in trouble, after your younger sibling was gone you became ugly and unwanted, everything is your fault and they don’t care who started it unless it was you who started it. You hide under your covers and pretend you were a baby again and try to get yourself into the mature headspace again when they knock on your door
@trixielulamooon2 жыл бұрын
I'm sorry as this was posted so long ago, and I'm just spitting stuff on here, but I relate to the second image. I want to be sick, I would rather have physical pain that mental pain because at least then they would see how much I'm suffering just being alive. Maybe then I would actually be cared for and hugged and maybe then I would finally be happy, because at least the pain is always there and not someone that slowly creeps up on you and pounces when you least expect it, then it hides away and the cycle goes on and on and on. I want to be in the hospital because then they'd understand how bad it is to be trapped in a different hospital bed called my body, unable to move, unable to live normally. (Sorry for the rant today has just been so horrible)
@xo_willow2 жыл бұрын
You’re loved. Even though what your going through is hard, I hope you can feel better soon.
@dreamy_nanah88882 жыл бұрын
I wanna suffer
@idk_whyi Жыл бұрын
same i would rather have been physically abused then uhh so that way atleast ppl would see the wounds he left and maybe i would be more loved and cared for and maybe i wouldnt feel like i was js being dramatic bc other ppl have it worse and i wouldnt need to fake smile and run to the bathroom when i was crying and maybe i wouldnt be bullied by ppl and js maybe js maybe i would be less insecure and less childish and less weird i always wanted the pain to be physical then js emotional or mental but i nvr knew why until i read this comment i had completely forgotten abt that feeling until i read this comment
@hvnsl2 жыл бұрын
I don't have any trauma but I have so much empathy that I can feel the whole worlds pain. Then I just want to lock it into a deep dark place where it can be never found. Due that, I sometimes don't know how to react to person being sad and then I just sound emotionless. I don't like the reality, it hurts too much :(
@Wcnd2 жыл бұрын
I am literally crying I am so sorry for everyone who experienced those things I am so sorry 😟😟😭😭😔😔
@mutant_munchiez3 жыл бұрын
All of these are relatable
@xo_willow3 жыл бұрын
Yeah same. I hope you're okay.
@mutant_munchiez3 жыл бұрын
@@xo_willow ty you too🖤
@nobodyhear88943 жыл бұрын
Same.
@lauvayed3 жыл бұрын
Yeah
@kikydivky4 ай бұрын
When I see the operating room, I feel traumatized because I was treated for years in that operating room
@Zax_lilt2117 күн бұрын
SONG: -Choking on flowers- by Fox academy
@tr0u6l3m4k3r5 ай бұрын
My heart breaks for you. I’m so sorry this happened to you , and I hope you’re doing better because you deserve to be happy
@yumeno87762 жыл бұрын
maybe if my parents didnt hate me when i was younger, i wouldn’t end up like this today?
@idk_whyi Жыл бұрын
i feel like that all the time
@idk_whyi Жыл бұрын
but then i start feeling like i dont deserve to feel like that bc they tried they're best but then i think of anna (my bff) and she did better then any of them and she still is and shes 11 and im 12 im older and im supposed to be more responsible and the one taking care of her bc thats how it works and always does not the other way around
@cyberspek89965 ай бұрын
Even tho it's been two years are things good? Or still the same?
@sweetplush47903 жыл бұрын
loving you made me so sad, but i loved being hurt, feeling an emotion after not feeling for seventeen years. it's all i ever know anyway. love is pain. i'll scrub my own skin and body down to the bones if it means getting rid of you, you're all ingrained deep in my flesh
@xo_willow3 жыл бұрын
i'm really sorry for what has happened. i hope it's got better, has it at all?
@sweetplush47903 жыл бұрын
@@xo_willow Hey I really appreciate you reaching out, I was thinking nobody was going to read my comment, but yeah things have gotten better! I’m getting professional help and I’m going to be medicated soon and working on better mental and emotional health. I’ve been able to have positive emotions recently instead of being apathetic and/or negative all the time, and to be honest, even after being in multiple abusive relationships, I can look back and actually kinda.. laugh, I know it sounds weird but their pathetic attempts to keep me with them after all they’ve done is degrade and abuse me just makes me laugh and smile knowing that they don’t have control over me anymore. Thanks Muffihn for asking if I was alright, I really appreciate you :)
@xo_willow3 жыл бұрын
@@sweetplush4790 I’m so glad to hear that! I’m happy you have got the help you need, you deserve it :D it seems you have moved on, and I’m proud of you! Also, you don’t need to thank me, I’m just happy that you’ve recovered :)
@sweetplush47903 жыл бұрын
@@xo_willow Thank you so much you’re so sweet for reaching out :) How are YOU doing?
@xo_willow3 жыл бұрын
@@sweetplush4790 hey, it’s ok! :D Ah well, I’m some what okay, I’m trying to do things i enjoy doing again instead of worrying, leaving the house was a big thing for me to do but I’m slowly going out more :)
@Vi_Zii7 күн бұрын
1:28 "I can be your little boy again" Makes me feel smth for some reason
@midnightsarrow1602 жыл бұрын
It was at this I realized I might actually have a problem if this stuff makes me feel more at home than home itself. .
@xo_willow2 жыл бұрын
It’s a good way of comfort, but don’t be afraid to seek help if you are having problems. If you need something comforting you can also try comfortcore (:
@deerecoyote2040Ай бұрын
I feel bad and stupid for being here because my mom physically and emotionally abused me and my sibling my father was never there to stop it. And when he found out he laughed at me. And now that he knows he blames me and helps her when she verbally abuses and manipulates me. When I call her throwing me against walls and screaming and calling me names abusive he laughs and mocks me and tells me I deserved it and it was my fault. He used to be the safe parent but ever since I came out as trans and lost my faith in Christianity and called out my mom for destroying me he just helps her keep making it worse. I have a recording of an argument with her where she compares raising a child to training a soldier and uses the operant conditioning scene from Brave New World as proof that her idea of hitting and screaming at someone until they stop misbehaving is based in reality and made sense. I'm autistic. She would scream at me and hit me and hurt me for having meltdowns or messing up my tone, or just not acting "normal." I didn't know what I was doing wrong. When my boyfriend got drunk and cheated on me two weeks ago it reminded me what it felt like to be a five year old sobbing and shaking on the kitchen floor while my mother screamed in my face and threatened to beat me. It reminded me how confusing it was and how betrayed I felt that a person who was supposed to love me hurt me for a reason I didn't understand. Me and him have worked things out but when he did that it made me remember and it was scary and I came out of an age regression episode a few minutes before writing this and I'm really tired and it's scary and I'm confused and I don't understand why people keep hurting me. I'm still trapped here with my parents while they gaslight me and I've reached out to therapists and support groups and friends and they all try to help but when CPS came they didn't believe me because my mom doesn't hit me anymore and hasn't ever since I got strong enough to hit her back. She makes me disgusted with my body and hate it all the time when we fight because I'm a trans girl and want HRT. I'm naturally androgenous and pass in public with some makeup and recently my dysphoria is better because my friends and partner have helped me realize that I don't look horrible and super masculine like my father tells me. I can actually look in the mirror and smile sometimes. But my mother ruins that when she makes me feel like an abomination for being trans and she calls me disgusting and filthy and an abomination before God. It's always God, it's all she ever talks about. She loves her imaginary friend more than she ever loved the child who she threw to the ground and kicked for crying. More than the teenager she accuses of manipulating her and being a terrorist and destroying her life since I was 5 years old. I feel broken and awful and destroyed. I almost stabbed myself today. And even after all that I feel like I'm not sick enough and not hurting enough for my feelings to be valid. My sibling is hurt much worse. My mother abuses her a lot too. A few weeks ago she was yelling at my sibling and they were crying and I told her to stop and she didn't so I slapped her in the face and knocked the lenses out of her glasses. It was wrong but it was the most satisfying thing I've ever done. Nobody hurts my sibling like that, they're the kindest person I know and my closest friend. It's the second time I hit my mother. The time before was a month ago when she made fun of my self harm scars and shamed me for wanting to transition. She looked at the scars on my arms and said "You did THAT just because you don't have breasts and a vagina?!" With the most disgusted tone ever and I slapped her just like she hit me. I don't want to live here anymore. I can move out soon thankfully. It all hurts so bad and I'm sorry for the rant and I know I'm rambling about random shit and there are people who have it so much worse than me. I just feel bad now because other people had real trauma like SA and grooming and severe physical abuse and other people cut themselves deeper and worse than I have and other people hurt more. I want to be in a hospital bed so bad. I want to be sick and hurt enough for an adult to care and help me. But nobody will because CPS said they can't prove she physically abused me so they won't pick up my case. When I was 18 months old my mother took me to my dad's old airplane hangar to open the big overhead door every day. One day I put my hand in the winding mechanism for the door when she wasn't looking and she pulled me away when she heard me crying and my thumb came was ripped off They took me to the hospital and they couldn't get it reattached. CPS investigated but she lied and told them it wasn't her fault and I don't know what she said but she never should've had me near dangerous equipment and I got hurt and CPS closed the case and she got away with it and kept hurting me in other ways. I hope I kept the wording readable I'm exhausted. I feel bad because I'm usually a good writer but I'm scared and tired and don't have time to make the language sound eloquent and sophisticated and I hope somebody reads this someday and understands. Sorry
@bestwaifu18643 жыл бұрын
I haven't experienced anything as bad as what's been displayed in this video. I know that if you're watching this and you have had any similar traumatic experiences, you may feel uncomfortable all the time and you might want to commit suicide. I'm so sorry. I know that me saying to not give up hope and keep going may sound condescending. That's not how I'm trying to sound. You may feel like ending it all and I just hope that you don't. Please don't. That's why I'm writing this. I know that you don't know me, but maybe if no one is telling you this, at least me telling you will be enough to motivate you to keep moving on. You may hate that I'm saying this but it will get better. From experience, when I have been in a really bad place, it always shifts. Whatever happened, it's not your fault.
@sweetvanillagf2 жыл бұрын
Thank you, that’s exactly how I feel. But I know I’ve gotta keep going
@hiiloveu15213 жыл бұрын
WHY DOES THE SECOND ONE HIT SO CLOSE. I wish I had some terrible condition, some kind of mental illness, I wanna end up in an endless cycle of therapists, doctors, hospitals, medicine and appointments. If it happens people will pay attention to me. I want attention. Edit: hey everyone I think I might have ADHD😁
@xo_willow2 жыл бұрын
I know what you’re thinking, I’ve had thoughts of it too but, there’s other ways of getting attention then being hurt. I hope you’re feeling better since this comment, sorry I took a while to reply
@Kyrou06 ай бұрын
I don't know if this is the same thing but I just wish I could find anything wrong with me like a mental illness so I can at least explain to myself why I act the way I do.
@xxchristoffxx2132 жыл бұрын
the fact that i always *almost* relate to traumacore vids is just sad but damn i deserve this HAHAHAHAHA🤣
@momoka01232 жыл бұрын
...
@miikid192 жыл бұрын
huh?
@swigswineyourorgansaremine2 жыл бұрын
THATS CALLED UNHEALTHY COPING. GET A THERAPIST
@zannaxz3 жыл бұрын
life is so scary
@paichuumi2 жыл бұрын
i really can't tell. are you using me? or am i burden to you? do you feel inclined to take care of me? or is it just as simple as us being friends? i want to just have a friend without overthinking it all man
@DuccEnthusiest5 ай бұрын
When I first found out about traumacore a little while ago I started crying because I just felt so bad for people who create this stuff. To cope, I talked myself through it by and asked myself questions as if there was another person in the room, and then I felt better and told my mom about it later.
@tr0u6l3m4k3r5 ай бұрын
Thank you for sharing ❤
@SWEETHEART279973 жыл бұрын
The first picture of this very video. Hits hard 🙁
@xo_willow3 жыл бұрын
i hope you're doing better
@SWEETHEART279973 жыл бұрын
@@xo_willow thank you
@crystallized_crow2 жыл бұрын
Some traumatic incidents of mine lol: -watched my friend bash her skull open (I’ll never forget that mental image) -my dad. just my dad. -few teachers who weren’t ready to teach me because my adhd is heavy so they decided to give me a panic attack in the hallway as their next move (I’ll never forgive you Coach Russell) -when I was ten my grandfather died. He has hooked up to a dialysis machine 24/7 and it was painful to watch.
@whyarewestillhere47812 жыл бұрын
I clicked bc the thumbnail omg,, i related way too much when i was starving myself and had bulimia ☠️
@xo_willow2 жыл бұрын
I’m Sorry about that. I hope you can get through it
@nobodyhear88943 жыл бұрын
0:13 and 0:07 hit hard for me.
@xo_willow3 жыл бұрын
i'm sorry what happened to you, i hope everything gets better for you. i am here for you even if you don't know me :)
@tmp.76223 жыл бұрын
0:41 i relate so much to this
@xo_willow3 жыл бұрын
i'm sorry for what has happened to you.
@Eeveeswhimsicalwonders2 жыл бұрын
I remember my mother and step father saying really REALLY nasty things to me (shit, I almost successfully unalived myself one night cause of them), and then after their nasty tirades, they would go: “NEVER tell anyone at your school what we say to you. You don’t want us to look bad, do you” Whatever hell we’ve all been through, I’m glad we persevered.
@Murkmereslover2 жыл бұрын
The first one literally speaks to me because i used to get bullied in kindergarten through 5th grade, i used to pray to God so the bullying would stop. It never worked.
@magnusq90713 жыл бұрын
0:26 and 1:20 :/// i dont know why these types of videosmake me feel better or calm, it's so strange...
@xo_willow3 жыл бұрын
i'm glad it's helping. it's a good coping mechanism, i guess it's working for you.
@odhomiclips32232 жыл бұрын
0:45 im crying so much.
@xo_willow2 жыл бұрын
It’s okay to cry, are you ok?
@idk_whyi Жыл бұрын
same i want to cry but i cant
@LostWaving2 жыл бұрын
Bro, the fact that my mom is the only person in my whole family that really cares about me and it's there for me makes me sad and worries me... all the other people in my family are just hypocrites that pretend to care about me but when I really need them they won't help. This pisses me off overall because my mom it's not feeling very well right now...
@auxrella4 ай бұрын
i need to be sicker is when i was addmitted at the hospital at 11 because i had an ed but i felt that i wasnt skinny enough because i was bmi 15.1 and not underweight and i wanted to be skinnier.
@marnicusmaximus2120 Жыл бұрын
These images have no right to be so relatable.
@itstraumakid25273 жыл бұрын
0:34 that remember me When a ''friend'' was very mean to me.. now she is not mean Now but i still remember what she did...
@xo_willow3 жыл бұрын
Hey, I’m really sorry for that. I’m glad she’s no longer mean to you
@luxpompurin2 жыл бұрын
!tw vent, sa! 0:36 hits hard for me. when i was 10 years old, my parents got into a argument and my dad was drunk. i was in my room and i heard my mom yelling "YOU'RE HURTING ME STOP STOP" and i ran out of my room to see my mom on the floor with my dad literally kicking her. i screamed and cussed at my dad to stop (yes i started cussing at a young age) but he didn't pay any attention to me. i grabbed my mom's phone and ran into the bathroom wanting to call 911 but never did. i cried in there for about 10 minutes until i finally texted my moms friend. she told me to go to my room and lock the door. after a while they were yelling at each other again so i texted my moms friend again and she told me to stay in my room and it will pass. so i stayed in my room for like an hour and my mom apologized to my dad and went to bed. i was too scared to go to sleep so i played games on my moms phone and when i did fall asleep, i had a nightmare about him hitting my mom. the next day i was completely traumatized and terrified of my dad but they both acted like nothing happened. i had nightmares about him a lot and whenever i hear him raise his voice slightly to me or my mom, i get nervous. i also used to lay with him and watch tv when i was like 6 and we were watching a movie and he was drunk and sa me.
@iiaiaiaiaii5 ай бұрын
I’m so sorry, I hope you are okay now hun
@CalebplaysGT5 ай бұрын
Womp womp
@thalialol2863Ай бұрын
@@CalebplaysGT your disgusting
@BiggyCheese-sf8pm8 күн бұрын
Hope your okay
@misscarfy15593 жыл бұрын
I hated waking up to her crying
@xo_willow3 жыл бұрын
i'm sorry for what has happened.
@cheemseburgar2 жыл бұрын
the second pic (0:04) is so relatable...i probably understandt this wrong but there is this stupid wish to be in much, much worse mental stage...i just feel as if my ploblems with mental health is nothing and i actually do not have any dicease but im still feel so horrible all the time
@cheemseburgar2 жыл бұрын
and the pic on 0:32...its just me right now i constantly feel like my bff going to leave because im getting more and more boring and nasty despite that fact that she hasnt showed any signs....it feels horrible
@cheemseburgar2 жыл бұрын
and 0:49...i dont think i even have say anything about it i just feel disgusted even at memiry that i have face and my body exist in a real life
@inhhoangvu36343 жыл бұрын
0:48 i can relate to this it hurt to see myself sometime
@xo_willow3 жыл бұрын
you're beautiful, even if you don't see it :)
@inhhoangvu36343 жыл бұрын
@@xo_willow thank ur i feel a little better now
@xo_willow3 жыл бұрын
@@inhhoangvu3634 it’s ok!
@ankagedzga33522 жыл бұрын
You didn't even see them👋😂
@idk_whyi Жыл бұрын
:/ same
@kawaiixjenny49003 жыл бұрын
I feel I should take a nap after watching this...
@xo_willow2 жыл бұрын
Then go for it (: but if traumacore is effecting your health, take a break
@shark1boi2 жыл бұрын
!Trigger Warning!-- S3xu4l'abuse,Em0tional'abuse, m4nipulat10n and stuff.. When i was young 7-10 my dad my father sexually harassed me, for years, i cant remember if he goes(idk how to spell it-) too far because my trauma memory's usually are cut in half. I just.. i hate him, and i hate his mother for saying 'hes was such a good father' 'he gave you so many presents!' he manipulated me by giving me presents, making good food for me... But i knew something was wrong, he forced me to hug him, with violence, my arms and body hurt so much when he did that, and he..he forced me to kiss him.. :(.. and still she said 'he gave you so many presents, because he loves you' I FUNKIN HATE YOUUUU- LIKE HE MANIPULATED ME- HE LITERALLY ABUSE ME EMOTIONALY AND FISCALLY!!- um.. so, I remember the day I stopped him. my mother helped me and he dint talk or saw me for years, but there was a day that I had enough of the messages he sent to my mom, I just said him to stay the fuck way from my family. and yet, I still have nightmares about him.. I don't think I'm gonna recover from the traumas he gave me.. because i puke every time i eat food that remembered me of the food he used to make.. omfg im just.. angry. im angry about that people says that im like him, that i look like him, that he was a good father- HE WAS NOT! I KNOW A REAL DAD-, and hes good, not like the sick disgusting I used to have.. hes a good person, and I'm happy for being his son because he is the dad I never had.
@itzfranni5 ай бұрын
i would be a better person if my life isnt so depressing and bad ty for the vid
@claudiarodriguez95403 жыл бұрын
0:07 (also a lil vent?-) owa owa owa owa owa owa owa.. (i relate to this..but..i cant express it..im trapped in my body..and i cant get out....)
@xo_willow3 жыл бұрын
I know how you feel but, stay strong :)
@xo_willow2 жыл бұрын
I’m sorry to everyone is if I am unable to reply to your comments, I didn’t expect this video to get as much views as it did, sometimes KZfaq deletes comments that mention certain topics. So I apologize, I hope all of you are doing okay ❤️
@2whitesleeves3062 жыл бұрын
0:07 I feel that way harder than I thought I would. I'm Trans, and I've been uncomfortable in my own body for so, so long. I feel weirdly comforted by that.
@brookemcpeck48172 жыл бұрын
"I feel uncomfortable everywhere." Honestly, this is very relatable. I don't feel safe anywhere, even at my own home. I feel unreal. I feel non-existent. I feel like someone or something is going to come around any corner and kill me. Or hurt me in another way. Eat me. Stab me. Kill my family. I have a bit of trauma, but I don't know if it's that bad... I traumatize myself by imagining things. I feel fake. I feel like I'm dreaming. This world is too cruel to be real. The only time life is real is when I'm with my friends. I hate and love those images that everyone feels like they've been to, but never have. It makes me feel scared and relieved. Sometimes I just sit down and think, 'huh, what a strange world my brain came up with.' :/
@neonneo1432 жыл бұрын
it's getting bad again... the flashbacks and terror won't stop. please help
@iheartblink182_2 жыл бұрын
hey are you doing ok now?
@Cakebunnz3 жыл бұрын
I remember everything all of the tourture.. and yet they still refuse to believe
@m3ltd0wn852 жыл бұрын
0:15 I just wanna feel safe I feel more safe at school, but not much I tell myself "I wanna go home" even when I am home I don't know what I mean by "home" I really wanna escape my parents but I'm so scared
@hatronaut2510 Жыл бұрын
pls pls pls I’m so sorry the way they say please has removed every shred of seriousness it initially had for me 😭😭😭
@Just_random_mimi4 ай бұрын
The sone fit so beautifully to the traumacore I love it❤(it’s very comforting)
@Wcnd2 жыл бұрын
Thank you so much for posting this video, it really helps to cope with my problems too, even tho it‘s not that bad like s3xual abuse trauma ( I was neglected emotional, grew up in foster care since I was a lil baby but when I was 16 I got kicked out by my foster parents bcz I was a gaming addict and since then they‘ve changed alot and I realized that they sadly are not what parents really are, it feels like my whole childhood was a lie in, general like my whole life). I always finding a hard time to cry with music, but with this song and the innocent and helpless kitten avatar it helps me out alot accepting my trauma and to allow myself crying about it. Edit: I mean by that, that I imagine myself as the innocent avatar
@kaoru61942 жыл бұрын
I’m anxious and stressed out and I want to cry
@xo_willow2 жыл бұрын
It’s okay to cry :) try drink some water, look after yourself. If you’re stressed out you can always sleep or take a break!
@FelipeTheRedEngineNumber104 ай бұрын
I feel Incredible Sadness When I see these Images, I wish good luck to those who made those images and that they are well
@GinaGomez-bu7rd2 жыл бұрын
ok i'm not crying only the dolls are the characters that get scared
@xo_willow2 жыл бұрын
That’s not true, it’s normal to cry, ok? I hope you’re doing better
@Localearthling1432 жыл бұрын
0:31 I relate to this on a personal level
@theballsdealer3 жыл бұрын
1:12 damn, really hitting me like that?
@xo_willow2 жыл бұрын
I’m sorry for what has happened. Are you feeling ok?
@theballsdealer2 жыл бұрын
@@xo_willow no,,, thanks 4 asking tho! :)
@xo_willow2 жыл бұрын
@@theballsdealer I’m sorry, I hope it gets better for you
@Soldier-Cat2 жыл бұрын
I’ve never had much bad things happen to me thank god but 0:41 makes me think about how I know a lot about my peers in school yet I realize they don’t know much about me because I was selective mute and can’t make friendships last :( I feel like I’m ghosting my old friends when all I want to do is get along with them but I’m too afraid to be venerable and talk to them. I just want a friend :( I’m very lonely
@TheStreakBreaker5 ай бұрын
All of it is familiar and personal. I wish it wasnt
@apricot8414 күн бұрын
these kinds of videos make me reflect so hard
@thecozycrow91182 жыл бұрын
He would drink too much and sometimes he would leave me alone with a babysitter even though it was HIS weekend 😞or sometimes he would drink and stare at me …….. other stuff too I don’t want to get into it I sometimes still think it’s my fault 😞
@idk_whyi Жыл бұрын
0:45 i always o get angry or/and mad whenevr ppl/characters in shows or movies dont say srry and evryone js automatically forgives them idk why maybe it reminds of the past when i got in abused ?
@RiannaRizz3 ай бұрын
I don't want to be an adult and faced more problems than actualy
@Allluvfordal6 ай бұрын
Why is this so relatable ?
@shekharadhikari84162 жыл бұрын
It feel like I don't belong in earth I feel I belong where I was in other world I also say that " why do I exist here? WHY DO I BELONG HERE!?!"
@dinodimitra19553 жыл бұрын
Somehow I feel satisfied when watching this
@August56769 ай бұрын
makes me cry
@Averifiedperson77125 ай бұрын
0:04: me before school everyday
@iiaiaiaiaii4 ай бұрын
Not funny
@arielmcclanahan50173 жыл бұрын
I feel rotted and icky gross and disgusting. I’m my own body I don’t know why but I do
@xo_willow2 жыл бұрын
I hope you can get help. You’re not disgusting, you’re just hurt. I Believe in you, stay strong (:
@nathminegirl29336 ай бұрын
Some of these are extremely relatable for me
@ieatchildrenskneecaps58632 жыл бұрын
The second one hits me harder
@MaiaSouza20073 жыл бұрын
0:18 ....... I was just a child.....
@xo_willow3 жыл бұрын
i'm sorry, i hope things get better for you :(
@IsaGarciaLascano3 жыл бұрын
0:03 !! 0:07 0:16 0:21 0:51 !! I just... Auch
@xo_willow3 жыл бұрын
i can relate to how you feel..i'm so sorry. i hope you're doing okay!
@IsaGarciaLascano3 жыл бұрын
@@xo_willow thx
@v1nny_v1ncent5 ай бұрын
Dude I cant believe in 2021 I was obsessed with traumacore when nothing disgusting even happened to me when I was younger what the hell 😟 But I cant really blame myself cuz I didnt even know what traumacore was back then, I feel sorry to those people in the comments tho I hope y'all are alright
@Tworandomidiots455 ай бұрын
I feel like I haven’t gone through anything bad enough to feel so depressed
@n4d1az3 ай бұрын
0:04 this is always how i emd up back in the hospital
@Enzoremusic2 жыл бұрын
1:06 hit hard for me
@xo_willow2 жыл бұрын
I’m sorry about that, I hope you Feel better soon
@Enzoremusic2 жыл бұрын
@@xo_willow thank you. I got diagnosed with an anxiety disorder and it sucks
@SVIERGOT2 жыл бұрын
1:07 MOOD
@dakara_motto-WANDAHOII4 күн бұрын
0:54 why is this one funny tho
@RATSCORNERx6 ай бұрын
0:48 .
@gabs32552 жыл бұрын
0:08 is relatable to me
@Demibat5210 күн бұрын
I relate to the wishing to go back to being a kid again.
@rapunzel90242 жыл бұрын
1:06 i relate to this a little bit too much
@ArissaHaque8 күн бұрын
1:00 unrelated, but this looks tasty af
@nhg12237 күн бұрын
I’m autistic and look at these even tho I’m young.I’m also sensitive to sound,so every time I react to something I don’t like hearing, I think about it and it makes me cry.Also,I don’t experience anything like this in my life.I’m a storyteller that like playing/using toys as the characters.In some scenarios that I made with these was actually related to this video.But I like this tho ❤
@OLD-SPORT575 ай бұрын
0:28 yo why is this kinda funny bro💀
@davelogmao4 ай бұрын
you're a psycho for laughing at that 💀
@OLD-SPORT574 ай бұрын
Idk it sounds funny in a way idk why
@naazriin2 жыл бұрын
WHY CAN I RELATE TO THE THUMBNAIL
@iz.patb_fan3 ай бұрын
1:07 the feeling of think the food u ate is going to make you throw up is just awful
@marathecrayon75652 жыл бұрын
Content warning: hinting at history of abuse by older adult and unresolved issues The person who hurt me is still an employee. He got in trouble but was never fired. He has a history of hurting others but they will not fire him. I know there are others who have this same issue, why does it feel like they never get charged? Just hurting still