Clinical depression is not the same as feeling depressed, two completely different things.

I don't know how other people experience depression but when I'm suicidal I don't want to workout and eath healthy because I'm in the "I don't give a shit about myself" mindset.

What in green juice drinking chakra centering granola crunching shit is this lady saying? “Feel the grass...”...? I hope the grass has a doctorate, and can be analytical of the best treatment plan for someone’s chemical imbalance.

...it kinda sounds like she's confusing feeling down with depression. Not the same at all.

“Watch animals” 😂😂😂

Omg your "???????????????" cracked me up so much. Thanks for this excellent video!

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Yessss. THANK YOU for this video. I too, was hoping you would respond to her. In the comments section of that video, I mentioned me being depressed and suicidal starting when I was a child at the age of 7, and about me making suicide attempts at seven. After watching the video I also said that I didn't think she understood that at all. She commented back "Did you watch the whole video?" and I responded "Yes, I did- but not many people can relate to a 7 year old attempting suicide" The next twenty years I was depressed and was diagnosed with dysthymia, social anciety disorder, and borderline personality disorder- I'm 41 now and am MUCH better- I'll always be what I call "in recovery" but I live a normal life now. Oh yes just to add- her calling suicide a "crime" really angered me.

Is good food and exercise and leaving the house good to practise if you have depression? Yes. Can it create dramatic changes in some people? Yes. Is it the be all end all cure that Kristina is so sure it is? Mmmm nope 🤷🏼‍♀️ many of us in the comments seem to be living proof

I relate to this so much. I'm actually in graduate school to become a mental health counselor and have received immense benefits for depression and anxiety since learning so many new skills myself to help others someday, along with my own personal counseling (which is a fantastic requirement for students). My life looks the same on the outside but it feels like a completely new experience. I used to think about how every aggravation of life was not worth dealing with. Now i barely even notice them, and am usually looking forward to something better. I am so grateful. Yours is worth living too. Please seek out a counselor if you are struggling! It has nothing to do with your worth or character. You deserve to feel okay!

This feels like "I'm feeling depressed" vs "I have depression." The stuff Kristina suggested always leaves me (not depressed) feeling better than having not done it an hour prior. Maybe it's just social media depression where she is comparing herself to others and getting away from the screen in any manner helps. If that's her scenario, her advice helps. Calling it depression though...

good call on including Drew in the video.. he's awesome and perfectly puts into words what it feels like going through depression and dealing with mental health issues

You’re so right. No matter how “healthy” I was, how fit I was, how much I exercised and ate healthy foods, I still had bad days and still suffer from an anxiety disorder and depression. BUT exercise and eating well definitely helps. Kristina isn’t wrong though, I think self love is important and reconnecting with ourselves too, but we should also seek professional help. Mental health is so important. Please never feel alone and unworthy of help. We all deserve to be truly happy and healthy.

It's obvious that Kristina has never had depression. It's like saying to someone with an ED "oh just go outside and eat a balanced vegan diet, everything will be fine": no, it doesn't work this way. I wish it was that simple.

"A lot of us simply don't have that ability." Hit the nail on the head. When someone tells you to get over it, or you have so much to live for, think about the people you'd leave behind, you have a greater purpose... That type of perspective on depression is, imo, much different than clinical depression. Clinical depression simply does not have the ability to change their own mind about itself without intervention. Usually medication-intervention.

I ate whole foods, walked outside more, exercised and got enough sleep. My depression only got worse. Because of that I have lost friends and I have to wear long sleeved shirts at work (the kitchen is hella hot so it’s horrible) cause I work at children’s summer camp The only thing that has helped me is talking with specialist. Tbh, now I visit psychologist monthly, eat more freely and I’ve never felt better

There’s something disingenuous about Kristina. I’m sure it’ll all come out soon. I just get really fake vibes from her 🤷🏽‍♀️

This is the exact same thing that people say with anxiety. Even my PARENTS. They tell me “well just go on a walk and you’ll feel okay.”

I can't relate directly to the depression, but being a long-term eating disorder sufferer, it pisses me off to no end when people recommend self-love and healthy eating etc as a panacea to everything. Thank you for this video.

Wow, Swayze. Thanks for making a video like this. I've had seasonal depression for years and every time someone gave me the "get physical exercise, sit outside, and eat well" card I was so angry. I've learned to manage that anger now but back then...the people I talked to didn't understand that going outside just made my depression worse and that some days I really didn't want to do anything but just stare at one point in the room for hours on end until the next day came. Depression is a reality for many of us, and while improving our physical health may be a way to cope with certain symptoms of depression, it is certainly not the cure all and end all for our mental health.

I really wish Kristinia would stop spreading such a dangerous message. So many people look up to her. It's sad 😯

"..talk me out of such a CRIME" *Wat*

id like to say what Kristina is saying wouldn't help me personally in anyway. self love doesn't really affect me, it would be things outside of that like the people around me and situations I'm in. sometimes I can't take my self out of it and it hurts mentally and phycically. I am a phycically healthy person but working out only distracts you for the time being and doesn't make what's hurting you go away, but I can say seeking help and reaching out to people that care helps soooooo much it doesn't fix it completely sometimes but they can help you go through it so you're not alone. please if your considering suicide or hurting on the inside reach out to someone talk about it don't try and think ending it is the only way. PLEASE know that you are loved and wanted ❤ ps sorry if this doesn't make sense I'm not the best typer or speller

Thank GODDDD you’re doing a response to that video. I was hoping you would.

I'm so glad you made this video. I've suffered from several panic attacks and depression the last few months, for reasons that were not my fault - I had shoulder surgery, not something that diet and exercise can fix unfortunately. I am lucky in the way that maintaining a rigid exercise schedule keeps my mental health mostly in check, along with regularly seeing my therapist. But what happens when I can't do the exercises? I felt so ashamed that I couldn't. It's not okay to feel ashamed about being depressed or having anxiety. It's not okay to tell people their experience is their own fault. I am very glad that I went in to adjust my medication. It may not be at this level forever, but now I don't have to wait until I'm in "run 15 miles a week" shape to feel human.

As someone who has struggled with depression, this hit me. What Kristina promotes is a good first step. But in a lot of cases it's not enough on its on

Yep hugging trees didnt help my depression and anxiety, I got to a point where I thought I would be doing my family and friends a favor if I killed myself... nothing was wrong in my life which only made me feel worse because what right did I have to to be so down and sad? It was a dangerous cycle of self destruction and hate....I am so grateful I went to councilor and got an SSRI(Zoloft)

I've got PTSD, anxiety and long term depression, I never thought of hugging a tree. Thanks Kristina!

"Be brave and reconnect with you..." Well. Me says to jump off a roof... That's such a stupid (and harmful) statement to make to the general public.

Thanks for staying on top of this, Swayze. This woman is downright polarizing and harmful towards the vegan community, and whenever I have a friend that ends up watching her vids I have to debunk everything that comes out of her mouth. I can't stand being associated with her, I wish she'd get offline forever. I still have enormous rage towards her for saying "pills are band aids." I've been in therapy since age 5, I've been on nearly ever medication out there starting at age 11. I'm now 33 and finally on a medication regimen that works. I have no words for how truly vile I find her mental health videos to be. Thank you for being a voice for those of us who require medication to survive and be the best people we can be for the planet and for the animals. I feel like as long as you continue with these response videos, we collectively have a voice.

Thank you SO much for making this video! I've been suffering from mental health problems for as long as I can remember; Anxiety since I was around 4 years old, and first got depression at around 10. I got into therapy at 14 because my sister found out I was selfharming and told my mom, who immediately called the child psychiatric center and got an emergency appointment for me the day after. After going to therapy for about 6 months I wasn't suicidal anymore which was great of course, but I was sooo used to constantly wanting die that I didn't realize I actually still was depressed, and so I stopped going to therapy. It took me another 3 years to realize that what I felt wasn't happiness at all, so I went to a psychiatrist again and got my first ssri prescription. Turns out that ssri meds aren't strong enough for me, so 5 years ago I got prescribed an snri instead, which I'm still on today and probably will be for the rest of my life. I should probably also say that I am a vegan who eats healthy, who exercise regularly etc. It just ain't good enough for my mental health and probably never will be.

I hate listening to her voice!! ( Keistina NOT Swayze) Swayze is one of the most honest, down to earth, relatable people on youtube. Most of the people on this platform have ZERO right to give others advice. I'm like Swayze, the episodes are so hard. Now i know what meds work for me and the SECOND my self-talk gets negative, I call my dr and go get my meds. I will never ever be able to stomach these flat earth, naturalist wackadoos. So AGAIN...Thank you Swayze for being a clear and NORMAL voice amongst these self appointed youtube doctors!!

This is such a big deal to me right now. My husband has been in and out of in patient for his mental health recently because he struggled for so long being too ashamed to get help until it almost killed him. Now we’re starting the long road of finding the correct drug and treatment options. I won’t lie and tell you it’s easy all the time (for the person going through it OR the family members) but I will tell you it’s 100% worth it. Side effects do suck but sometimes can go away with time. Some days if even for a few hours I see a glimpse of my husband again through the darkness as the medicine starts building in his system. I can’t tell you what that means. Also a special note that if you’re in the military PLEASE don’t be scared or ashamed at getting treatment. In a lot of cases you can get help and get on meds and continue to serve. If you wait until you snap that might not be the case. There is fleet and family or militaryonesource where you can get therapy set up and work from there If you’re reading this and struggling you are not alone. There is help out there. Even for low income. I attempted suicide at 13 and thank god I lived. My life now at 30 is so worth it and I am grateful for everyday. I can tell you it does get better. You are worth it.

Thank you for making this video, for being so honest and open, for being rational and for taking this topic seriously and providing actual advice. We need more people like you on KZfaq.

I was nodding along when you talked about wanting to just 'not be'. That was a huge part of my daily experience for years until I finally got help (mostly from therapy but medication helped me for a bit through the worst of it). I'm always thrilled to have such a strong voice of reason like you talking about important topics. Thank you for opening up about this

I really like you. I have depression and I’m “not ready” to seek help yet, but watching your videos help because i don’t feel so alone anymore. It’s like you help me understand myself better, idk. It’s nice. Thank you

People who think depression is just some kind of...funk that a person just happens to fall into and all they need to do is sniff a flower have no experience with depression, neither directly or indirectly. Everyone gets sad sometimes. Everyone has those blue days. What most people don't realize is that depression isn't just few blue days in a row. It can be months that are *black*. It's a frightening place to be in. If Kristina's been there, then I'm appalled she would give such unhelpful, bordering on dangerous, advice to people. And she packages it all up as if she's some kind-hearted soul who just wants to help. Her agenda will get people killed.

Drew said it so well

Every time I see a new video of you, I gain a new level of respect for you. Just from hearing you speak, I finally feel understood. I was clinically depressed, suicidal, for several years, but didn’t even realise that I was ill - I truly believed I deserved to die because of how horrible my depression told me I was. Looking back, I have no idea how I stayed alive, it was through a series of coincidences, really. Most people who went through what I went through aren’t here today, and I’m not here because I am stronger than they were, but because of circumstantial events that continuously saved my life. People who talk about depression like Kristina does, make food turn into ash in my mouth. It makes it feel like I can’t breathe, that I am going to pass out. It’s just too much, knowing that even after all I went through, people still look upon my illness as something that was my fault and that I could have gotten out of myself if I had just tried more. It makes me cry over the friends I relied on during the worst years of my illness, friends who didn’t make it. It makes me feel like I’m breaking. But hearing you talk about this, so rationally, confirms the things I don’t always trust when I say them to myself; that my illness isn’t my fault, that I can get through this, that getting help doesn’t mean that I’m weak, that it means that I’m standing up for myself in a way. You are amazing, I just want you to know that. Thank you for always being the sane, rational, well-spoken, helpful and honest person that you are. Truly, thank you.

I relate to this video so much, especially the part about feeling like it's permanent when you're going through an "episode." I've dealt with depression and anxiety since I was SIX years old (I'm now 33) and I have been on different SSRI's for over a decade and struggled with trying to get off of them, going on lower doses, etc. I used to be ashamed of myself and think that I could just "WILL myself out of" what I was dealing with by exercising, eating healthy, doing yoga, praying, etc. Sure, these things help- but the only thing truly helped me has been medicine. It's definitely refreshing and encouraging to see other vegans and educated people discuss this. It's OKAY to be on a medicine that helps you and so many people have this stigma about it that just isn't reality. THANK YOU for making this video.

869 days without the recipe. Haha, what a fool. Kristina doesn't know kale seitan is the only cure for depression.

Gosh, I just love your responses to Kristina... even though I wish it wasn't necessary. Thank you!!

Wow Swayze, this video is great. Thank you. What you were describing, the whole thing about not being suicidal but just wanting to go away, is something I've dealt with before too. I always shrugged it off as not being serious enough to get help, but it totally is. I also stopped taking my Prozac (without telling my doctor) several times in my teens/mid twenties because of messages like Kristina's. I thought I could cure myself by eating better and exercising. Not only that, I got WORSE because I felt terrible when it didn't work. This is such an important video, and your message is so needed.

Thank you so much for this. As someone who has never struggled with clinical depression, I've tried hard to understand this completely incomprehensible illness. I have no idea who Kristina is, but this is a great explanation for those of us who "don't get it".

This is why i want to be a psychologist. I want to be able to help people get through these struggles and to make them feel better.

One thing I wrote down in the middle of one of my suicidal episodes was: I don't actually want to die, I just don't want to live feeling like I want to die." Granted this was back over 7 years or more, and I was at the tail end of my 8-year-long depression, but I rediscovered that quote and I think it summarizes the way my mind was working in that time. I wanted to live, I wanted to keep going, I just didn't know how to get rid of that feeling, and because it felt so permanent, I didn't want to suffer the way I was for the rest of my life. In that moment, suicide was the only way I knew of getting rid of that feeling. It was like, to be out of my pain, I had to die. Luckily, I didn't go through with it.

Thank you so, so much for this. I put off treatment for my eating disorder and saying to myself I was having periods of not restricting so it was fine. Periods of not self-harming so it was fine. Periods of the depression fog lifting partly so it was fine. Periods of the panic attacks not being constant so it was fine. Being forced into treatment as a minor never worked. But now getting to choose my psych and have a say in my meds and pick the best therapist for myself and know if I need residential again I can pick the best place and go willingly with goals to improve myself.. it makes all the difference in the world. No matter how much my chronic illnesses have complicated everything with tubes and a port and physical specialists involved now, I’m actually really glad I went through the awful care I did from 12-17 to now know what good mental health care looks like and what I need. I’m complicated, yes, and my brain is sick just like any other body part can get sick. But as my doctor says “we’re slowly working to un-complicate you.” If anyone else is having symptoms of depression or ANY OTHER mental illness, please seek help. It doesn’t mean you’re weak. It takes so much more strength to seek help when your mind is finding every reason not to and rationalizing against it, than to not. (You can also text 741741 in the US if you’re in crisis or upset and phone calls give you anxiety like me.) Thanks again for this, Swayze. Lots of extra good vibes to everyone out there dealing with mental illness. This saying is pretty cheesy but I still love it. “Everything will be okay in the end. If it’s not okay, it’s not the end.”

THIS video was an epiphany of what my depression used to be. I say I'm in recovery now and I always will be in recovery, but this vocalized alot of how I used to think and made me realize how far Ive come since then when it came to dealing with my depression. Medication saved my life but at a point it turned its back on me, and I think I'm better off trying to recover with the healthy mindset that my medication original gave me. It gets ugly some days, but overall I'm winning the battle. I have constants in my life that I enjoy and goals I try to achieve on the daily. Ive realized lately that I've been blocking or loosing alot of my memory from when my depression manifested to when I started getting treatment, and sometimes some memories come back. Its painful because they are memories that Im trying to actively avoid, but I would never want to forget them out of my existence. The video you referenced that was a wakeup call was the same for me when you played it. It made me remember what my specific relationship with suicidal ideation really was. I just didnt want to exist anymore. I didnt want anyone mourning even. There isnt a moral to this story or a good ending for this comment, but I enjoyed this video because i re-evaluted myself for once.

Phenomenal video, thank you. I relate so much and I remember feeling the same way about the Drew Monson videos you shared clips from.

“We live really good lives and we’re still depressed.” 🗣 This really spoke to me.

Just wanted to say, I’ve been going through the worst period of my life and this video really spoke to me. Thank you for your words and for making me feel not alone in this place.

Thank you for talking about this! This is exactly what I went through and it's a feeling of I just want to be at home but then even when I was home I wanted to be somewhere else and that's somewhere else was nowhere! It's strange to hear somebody else say it and for you to know exactly how it felt

If you can't access mental health help there are things you can do to help alleviate depression symptoms: -Eating healthy can help. Meal prep food so you don't have to worry so much about preparing it everytime you wanna eat -Have a routine in place so you have things to do -Find little self care things you can do, like taking a bubble bath, makeup, window shopping -Its always good to talk to someone, if you don't have anyone start a blog. You can find people who will help you that way. -Have a safe space if you need one. I personally can go on public transit to get away from toxic people if I need it. -When you can clean your space. If everything is piling up and dirty it'll make you feel worse. -If you struggle with anxiety try minimising your stuff and get rid of the things you don't want or need. -If you need something to live for get a pet or plant. It's something to get you up in the morning and something you can research. -Find a cause, get involved. It's another thing to live for and a way to connect with people. It's also a way to combat that 'Im worthless' thought by having things around to remind you you're doing something. -Unplug from whatever you need to for a little bit. Social media too depressing? Politics too much? Take a day without them. -Find an exercise you like and stick to it. Exercise helps the product of dopamine and can alleviate some symptoms. -Get dressed and get ready for the day. If you spend 3 days straight now showing, brushing your teeth, or changing clothes it'll make you feel worse. -If spirituality is your thing find something that makes you happy. I personally am finding Hellenism to help me, but that's a journey all up to you! -If you can ditch a thing that's making you feel depressed ditch it. -Once you're on your own you don't have to talk to toxic family members anymore. You don't owe them anything. -Look up emotional abuse. Learn to recognize the signs. Being mentally I'll can make it easier for someone to abuse you. -If someone says thier Dm's or inbox is always open, that means to you too. -Get out of the house, moving around can help you out of that not wanting to get out of bed depression. -Dont keep extra pills lying around. If you selfharm keep things around to treat wounds and clean any razors. I understand why you do it, you're okay. -If you selfharm try to find alternatives. -Alcohol won't fix it. Please avoid it, it's a depressant it'll only make you feel worse when you're already down. -The intrusive thoughts aren't you thier just the bad part of the mind everyone has. -Put up those quotes about how you are worthy. Make sure you can see them to tell your brain it's wrong. -Remember this isn't forever. You can get better, and you can find support. -Take a jar. Write down little things that make you happy, open it when sad. -Those lists of things to live for? Make one for yourself. -Journal things so you can remember time. -If you have a friend in a bad spot and your in a bad spot you don't have to push your feelings down to support them. You do them no favours when you can't even help yourself -Feel like killing yourself today? Make some plans for pretty soon. Plans that you don't wanna miss. Go do them. -Find things that help you.

Thank you!! ❤

Thank you Swayze. Last month I started seeing a counselor for what I assumed was anxiety. Nope; depression. You put it very eloquently. Very similar to my path. Even if you're just a little down or sad, seeking professional help can be incredibly liberating.

This video brought tears to my eyes when you talked about your struggle with depression. You are not alone. I've struggled with it too for many years, and I have yet to seek help because I am fearful of taking medication. But you have encouraged me to give it a try, thank you!

To be fair, most of the things she said *can* help with depression but as you said it's not a cure for everyone. There is *some* truth in the processed food thing. There is evidence for certain things found in food causing imbalances in the gut brain axis. So, as a depressed person, I would say everything in her video is good advice on top of all of the treatment options you mentioned. SSRIs helped me for a while but unfortunately the side effects were too much for me. 😢 Seeking help does need to be on top of looking after your physical health too as the two are so massively connected. Unfortunately some people go one or the other way, kristina on the purely physical side, some people on the other side thinking that pills or therapy will do it alone. You really need both in tandem. (I just realised how poorly structured this response was, I was writing and listening at the same time 😂)

All medical decisions should be made between you ans your pcp but i has some sexual side effects with 1 ssri which was working but was able to switch to another one that also works with lessened side effects. You shouldn't have to choose between mental health and side effects.

i can relate to this.. for the last 9 months i went through periods of being sad or not feeling anything. i wasnt interested in anything and barely left my bed. i either overslept or couldnt sleep at all. music or youtube were not pleasant anymore. food was not as pleasant. i would get drunk probably twice a week. i cried at random moments, dropping a fork or breaking a glass, even waiting for the bus or sitting in the lecture room. i thought it was ungreatfull for me to feel this way when i have more than i could ever need. i thought it wasnt serious, that it would go away eventually because nothing bad has happened to me. until i started feeling so incredibly bad i was honestly terrified. i was sure this is never gonna change, that this saddness will be my new normal. so i booked an appointment with a therapist for the next day. when i started talking to her immidiately in the first 10 min i was balling my eyes out. she helped a lot and thankfully i dont seem to need medication. seek help, its the only thing that will help you. When you are feeling this bad you cannot possibly rationalise the situation, you cant use self help because either you think you dont deserve it or it doesnt even cross your mind. therapists can help only if you really want their help. EDIT: IM A PSYCHOLOGY STUDENT. HOW IRONIC IS THAT. I WAS READING ABOUT DEPRESSION AND I STILL DIDNT BELIEVE THAT I HAVE IT.

You hit the nail on the head. Fuck. What you talked about in the second half of the video is *exactly* how I've been feeling for a long, long time. And it's so treacherous, because as soon as I don't feel as shitty as I do lost of the time I think "Oh, yeah, maybe it wasn't depression after all, I'm good now" even though I KNOW I've had 'happy' episodes before that I've crashed after. The 'happy' moments are what makes it really hard for me, because every time I feel like a cheater or a liar because "Oh, maybe I'm not actually sick? Cause I'm good right now." It sometimes feels like I'm drowning, like someones pushing my head under water and in the short seconds I get to come up and breathe air, they tell me "See, you're not drowning, everything's okay" just to push me back in a second later.

Thinking you finally see the truth when your mental health acts up ... Who else can relate? I surely do

Omg, Swayze, please do a video on your SSRI. Which one do you take? Did you take it during pregnancy? I take them too, I'd love to see what you have to tell about them. Love to you❤

Thank you SO MUCH for this video! It is so so so important. Even though I got out of a 7-8 year long depression more than 3 years ago, the example you took with the dropping glass and thinking that you don't care if you'd be dead cause it's not like you'd be aware of it once your dead anyways is SO RELATABLE!!! If anyone struggling is reading this comment, know that there is hope. I was severely depressed from age 15-22 and now at 26 I am happier than I knew was even possible.

Thank you so much for talking about your own experiences with depression and what not. Everything you said was relatable and hearing someone like you ( a person I look up to) talk about the same things that I deal with makes me feel less alone. This has given me more courage to actually start to seek help.

Being vegan now 9 years and having clinical depression and trauma now 20+ years, i am sorry she thinks that all is cured to do these things....it is ...ugh... sigh....

i tried so many things including a (short) raw phase, i am vegan for 5 years, going to the gym etc. etc. - NOTHING fixed my depression. I go to therapy, i tried different meds. I have better phases and worse. I hope it will get better one day (also cause i want kids) but i dont think any lifestyle changes can make it for me.. i ll watch the video later thx for u responds already

Love this video, so glad you have put it out there. I was medication resistant for years and finally gave in. Had to admit a week later that my state of mind had improved and has been consistantly so for over a year.

i completely understand! i just had an “episode” earlier today and it was exactly what you were describing. these constant battles can be so difficult even though i meditate and eat a couple of apples

My medication of choice is weed: it alleviates my stress, anxiety and depression and helps me focus on taking care of myself.

I really identified with this video. Im currently being treated for depression and it helps to hear people that went through the same. You could even not have included Cristina's video. We all know she is into new age crap. I really liked your own parts on the video

Thank you for sharing that. That’s exactly how I feel on my bad days. I’ve found help and I’m all set, but I’ve never heard someone explain it the way that I’ve experienced it

Thank you so much for this video. Over the past year, I’ve noticed more and more warning signs that I have anxiety/depression. And just like you, I have convinced myself that it’s not a big deal. When others question me about it I just say I’m down because of stress at work, but then I come home and just sleep because I have no interest in anything. I’m definitely encouraged to seek help and truly take care of myself and this problem. Thank you!!

you forgot about leaving a thumb up for Drew ;)

Great video. I love your openess regarding this. You do it so effortlessly and it's really admirable. Sending love your way🌿☉💛

I‘m so impressed how brave you are to talk about all this! Thank you so much. Nobody ever understood what I was talking about when i tried to describe these feelings. And it made me feel so terribly alone. It always comes in episodes as you describe it. But I know usually that it will go away again. I know that can just sit and wait for it to go away. Just feeling like a useless human in the meantime. You inspired me to seek professional help. Thank you

Thank you so much for this video, when you mentioned not caring whether you exist or not I literally just broke into tears because that's exactly what I've been feeling for such a long time in my life. I think that there are many red flags similar to this one that should be mentioned more often when talking about depression

Unfortunately I'm one of those people who is completely medication resistant. After nearly 200 Electroshocks I've been told I'm not allowed any more shocks (thank god!). For me, the only way I can get through it IS to focus on diet and therapy and exercise and meditation and sunlight and hydration etc etc. I promised my husband I'd never take my life. It's not easy. Unfortunately medication doesn't work for everybody, but I'd still encourage people to go to their doctor - just knowing there's someone on your side batting for you can make all the difference.

Too bad there isn't anything to stop my depression, i have taken drugs, exercised, eat clean, socialized, talked to therapists, gone to church, tried even just rationalizing to myself and i am still severely depressed, looks like it will just consume me now that nothing works.

This is so important. I recently sought help and started my medication, and I'm already feeling better. It's only been a little more than a month on meds, and I'm feeling drastically better.

This kind of thing really hits home for me. I was never raw, but I did get into the kind of like "natural" home remedies, fixing your problems through healthy living etc; kind of space. It made me not only feel like if I just kept trying I could fix my brain, but also that medications are bad for you because they are made of synthetic chemicals that could cause serious harm to you. Through all of this trying to fix my problems with healthy living, exercise, and mindset only I ended up getting to the point where my anxiety was so severe that I couldn't function. I had to take a semester off from college because I was having anxiety attacks pretty much every day, I wasn't sleeping regularly, and even the thought of driving myself somewhere freaked me out. I did therapy and went on SSRIs and they helped so much, and made me feel so frustrated that due to influence from people on the internet and my own bias towards natural remedies that I had waited so long to start this. I've been on medication for around 5 years at this point, and I still have some struggles and some side effects that I'm not thrilled with, but my anxiety and depression are so much better than they were and I'm so thankful that I have these tools available to me.

oh man if only i knew to trust a raw vegan KZfaqr instead of the psych hospitals, therapists, doctors, and treatments that actually help!

Is it just me or does kristina look like shes ill? Im not a fan of her but shes not looking so well.

I legit had the EXACT same experience with the water and it floored me how quickly and impulsively the depressed mind will catastrophize and reach for a self destructive solution. I've been avoiding help for a bit, but I think maybe it's time to embrace and seek something out. Thanks for this.

I can relate so much. And it makes me so guilty. Why am I so down when my life is absolutely perfect? Thank you for being so open and honest, I wish you the best. Glad you've found a way to manage all this.

Please do more videos about your depression ❤

Would you consider doing a video about pregancy and SSRIs?

Thank you for this video. I guess I am what you would call a high functioning depressed person. I’m a young professional, I get up and go to work every day, I’m regularly praised for my work performance, I have good career prospects, a long term partner, etc Then I come home and I get into bed and I don’t leave until the next time I really really have to, to go to work. I can’t bear to do much more nor do I care to. I don’t enjoy much, and I mostly feel unhappy. I’ve always convinced myself that it’s not that bad, or it’s just anxiety (which for some reason, I justify as normal because I have been anxious my whole life) because I’m not suicidal (for the most part). Watching this really opened my eyes, this is exactly how I feel. And my suicidal moments come in flashes of “well if I just wasn’t here, yknow, this would be a lot easier, I wouldn’t have to deal with this” just like he described. I’m not violent about it, it’s more of a passive feeling of not caring either way- just like you described! For some reason I have always seen anti depressants as something that “numb” you- and I already feel numb about most things so I didn’t see the point, but now I am reconsidering...

Thank you so much for this! Sharing your story was really meaningful. Talking about something this personal so openly requires a lot of strength. I really hope you realise how much of a positive impact your videos have.

Yesterday I was driving and I didn't wanted to be on earth, then I was on the toilet and started thinking about that again. But I stopped taking my pills. I must get on them now I guess.

Thank yoooouuu!!! What Kristina is saying is soooo harmful and it makes me angry because when I had really bad depressions I believed people like her and it made everything worse. It’s so strange that everything she says to me sounds like completely isolating yourself and ignoring your problems instead of seeking help and actually CONNECTING😂 with what is wrong and people who WANT to help you. That’s the most important thing my depression has taught me: it’s ok to need help. It‘s ok if you can’t do it alone. And there’s people with such awesome education able to help you in ways you never thought that were possible. The best cure for depression is help from a therapist, a doctor and/or really good friends who believe in you - in my opinion. Not a f*cking juice... please please please don’t listen to people like Kristina. It will only make you more lonely and more hurt, at least that’s my experience. Sorry for the long post. Potatoe💕

Totally agree on the Tony Robbins crap. I work for a major company and last year they brought in some people from Robbins company for an all day workshop. The message was basically "It doesn't suck working here! Your attitude just needs to change!" Then they said that "People with depression and anxiety are using negativity to get their needs met" multiple times and I just walked out of the room.

I’m seeing a wonderful trend among people I’m subscribed to on KZfaq. More and more people are talking about depression, mental health awareness, and treatment options. Just a year ago when I was diagnosed with depression and was looking for support anywhere or people who were using medication for their condition, I could barely find anything. But today, I see dozens if not hundreds of videos about these topics, and I’m so happy about this change. I want to thank you, and everyone else who is doing wonderful job of shading light to these important issues!

The next day you got to see a doctor? In Germany we wait 3-12 months for an appointment. It sucks.

She’s ridiculous

11:27 I actually broke down in tears because that is EXACTLY what it was like for me and having those exact same thoughts daily. I didn’t even know how to describe it until now. I am doing much better now, I’m on an effective treatment plan including both behavioral management and medication and for the first time in my life I feel truly like my self, truly in control, and am truly appreciative of my worth. Thank you so so so much for being so brave and willing to talk openly about your own struggles it is an excellent reminder that we are never in it alone.

the end of this video was really helpful for me. i have suffered from depression my entire adult life and much of my childhood. for a significant portion of that time i was suicidal including actively so. some of what you describe is what would be termed "passively suicidal" and im familiar with that and able to recognize that in myself. what's a lot more difficult for me is recognizing depression where suidicality is not a component. i just don't really know what it looks like to not be mentally ill. basically right now im doing better than ever before (and maybe this is as good as it will get, which i can live with honestly!) but the reality is ... i guess i still have depression. its easy for me to think "oh i haven't wanted to lie down on the train tracks in a while, i guess im cured. yay or whatever" and not seek help. but. im not cured. im still super grateful i don't want to kill myself all the time because that really sucked but ... yeah. i actually have an appointment on monday so im really glad i stumbled across this video when i did because i was fully planning on going in there and being like "i have xyz problems but im DEFINITELY not depressed" 🙃 and it... maybe would be denial. and certainly wouldn't be accurate. i am constantly terrified of ending up "bad" again and don't want to slip down that slope without knowing. and plus, to kinda realize i might be able to feel better than this is ...cool. so thank you for this, so much. also, sorry, i made this all about me. much more importantly... f*** kristina what a bunch of bull no but seriously more importantly im sorry you had to deal with depression, im so glad you found a way out of the pits, and (as a veritable stranger on the internet, fwiw) im very proud of you for coping and reaching out and recovering and existing. you should be proud too.

Good gawd, what an incredibly dangerous and bullshit thing for her to do. Normally I just roll my eyes move on with her videos but this is... not okay. My cousin is a hardcore vegan and has struggled with depression more than any other person in our family. A raw diet isn't going to fix her. SSRIs have helped though!

mountain biking and working up a good sweat helps me

Thank you for the video. The timing was incredible from my point of view. My friend has severe depression and has tried to take his life numerous times. Usually me and my friends try to watch out for him and have prevented all of the suicide attempts for now, but it was getting worse. He went to a mental clinic and got prescribed drugs twice. The first drug made everything worse, he had mental breakdowns several times a day, but right now he was given a different drug and I everything clicked, it really made a change! So please if you struggle with mental health issues and have gotten professional help, don't give up after the first therapy or first drug! The roots of the problem are different for everybody and sometimes you just need time or trial and error for it to work!

Your experience with depression is SO relatable. I just started on an ssri and it's a relief to finally realize that the things I've been going through can be treated and are not just part of my personality (as I was beginning to think) Thank you for sharing this!