I feel like there's something missing from my childhood. I went to public school from Pre-k through 2nd grade, and after that I was homeschooled basically until late middle school. Within that window I lost all my friends and was secluded for a significant time. My only friend was the next-door neighbor's which was 3-4 years younger than me. That time was when I was supposed to develop my social skills, but I didn't. My siblings were autistic to a significant extent. I say all that to say that to say that I didn't know what it was like to be around normal people, and today I struggle with talking to people, it gives me great anxiety to as much as relay information. I'm very quiet and with the few friends I have now are not normal, they're like me, loners struggling with porn addiction and are chronically online. Watching this video made me remember of simpler times for those few years when nothing seemed wrong even if they were. My parents at that time were coming out of poverty and we ate on food stamps. Hell, I didn't even know that until a year ago when my mom brings it up in a casual conversation. Simpler times, when I would play with my dog and my sister. I remember coming home from kindergarten and grabbing a plastic cup to snack on marshmallows deciding to play Mario Kart DS or watch PBS Kids. Now I spend most of my time on KZfaq watching content I don't really like. There's no second chance to have a childhood. I'm now 18 ready to head to college. I want to write stories through television and film. That's probably a horrible idea financially but it is something worth living for. I'm realizing now that I will never be able to capture that magic of being a child, seeing the world in rose-tinted glasses. There's nothing much I can do but experience a life, for better or for worse. God, I wish I could be able to communicate with other people more effectively and to not be so callous. I want to care for people, but I am just not wired correctly. I want to understand and feel empathy towards people. But I just don't. This video makes me feel sad that I couldn't have a childhood in a way most people do in which it benefits them.
@nnshinee8 ай бұрын
guys, I will be very glad if you subscribe and like. I will post many different videos with and without music. Thanks everyone for your support! This is just the beginning!
@s0c8d8 ай бұрын
I'll sub to help:)
@HeatherFeFiFo7 ай бұрын
Real
@goosegeese97796 ай бұрын
Subbed. I like ur content very cool
@NaylaDLC6 ай бұрын
Bet
@Raexai2 күн бұрын
U should credit the artists that are able to be credited if possible
@EvilSnips7 ай бұрын
Someone else commented this on the other video but the first and last part really sounds like a clock ringing.
@ryderr47024 ай бұрын
almost like that was the sample used 😱😱😱😱😱😱😱
@tarajilogan5762 ай бұрын
@@ryderr4702no need to be a jerk smartass
@astrofizzy1530Ай бұрын
@@ryderr4702don’t be negative they were only pointing it out to those who didn’t notice
@user-tu5xk5ys8eАй бұрын
@@ryderr4702💀
@XxxAhsokaxxX20 күн бұрын
Wassup fellow ahsoka profile user
@Darksyyyy3 ай бұрын
Feels like childhood trauma
@vladimiredinov602 ай бұрын
это повседнев мысли, просто не замечаешь
@Darksyyyy2 ай бұрын
@@vladimiredinov60I do notice if I didn’t notice I wouldn’t be able to make that comment or that observation..
@WASTELANDBBY6 ай бұрын
It fit when I was a kid :(
@jayisanangelАй бұрын
Dreamcore vibes
@NaylaDLC6 ай бұрын
Nostalgia ❤
@kLyppxАй бұрын
Idk y but the song sounds comforting
@joseenriquelauracondori08 ай бұрын
HERMOSO
@NaylaDLC6 ай бұрын
Estoy de acuerdo
@lecrapchap_6060Ай бұрын
it fits when its a kid
@irinalovescats3 ай бұрын
Real.
@Mariya-vc3qf4 ай бұрын
Кайф песня
@Suriji_22y5 ай бұрын
Audi❤
@negrila14882 ай бұрын
я хз как, но мне больше всего нравится эта: нунунунунумууу. объясните пж
@johnlogomasiniII6 ай бұрын
Ahhhhhhhhhhhh
@user-pl7fb9hs1mАй бұрын
😢
@aloneditz1185 ай бұрын
Is it the backrooms?
@Starlightkaii5 ай бұрын
yes it is !
@ugly_larva2 ай бұрын
@@Starlightkaiiit's f'ng beautiful
@lucascustodio46572 ай бұрын
porque vcs colocam coisas assustadoras em musicas crystal castles como se eles fizessem musicas amedrontadoras?
@rouarkadotohotinicneni782Ай бұрын
where can i find this song but not slowed or speed up or remix with liars bro i need this in normal speed T.T
@Bonfgggggg393Ай бұрын
Put the video speed to 1.25 It will sound like original