Beginning of the song is Luka's voice saying "Joking, I love you! Forgive me." They called me a dummy cuz I had said good morning instead of good afternoon and then immediately sent that afterwards :') LMFAO so cute. The ending of the song is a clip of the last voice memos I sent to them while they were admitted in the hospital. Luka never got to listen to the recordings. We used to go back and forth between who loved the other more. They would tease me and tell me I didn't love them because they knew I'd go on a whole speech about how much I did. And now I always will. I miss you, Luka. I love you. Rest easy.

Whenever I first heard this song I bursted out crying cause I had never heard a song so heartbreaking and beautiful. I know that Luka is so proud of how much you have accomplished and is smiling down at you and wishes you the absolute best ❤️

My heart truly aches for you. Although it gets easier to live in a world without them, youll always love them the same. Im sure Luka is so proud of you for being strong and for pushing through these terrible times. This song beautifully shows the love you have for them and the pain from losing them. Im sure they are loving this song and cheering you on wherever they are ❤

“this isn’t real, you’re heart’s still beating” I’m literally sobbing, you made an amazing song, and I know that they would love it

fuck that recording at the end was heavy..im so sorry for your loss..Im sure Luka is watching over you, proud as fuck of you. Keep grinding and i Know youll get the recognition you deserve, youre an amazing artist with an amazing voice!

in my country, the word "luka" mean "wound" also "pain" even though you probably don't know it, your song is the excellent way to describe it

I discovered your music through Spotify's random radio, and one morning, while driving, this song came on. I knew it was going to be something heavy - it's an absolutely beautiful and chilling song. I'm so sorry for your loss. Even years later, I'm sure it's not much easier. Congrats on kicking off your tour this month - I'm not sure if I can make it, but I'd love to see you and the band in NY!

Man your songs really make me feel like i never want to stop listening to them, you have radically gigantic potential, and the story behind this song omg 💔 i really hope you reach high

I feel this in my heart. I lost two of my best friends to suicide, and this song to me shows those emotions perfectly, a whole that can never be filled.

I seriously hope you get more and more popular, your songs are legit so good 😭💕

My mom died when I was 14 this song hit so hard and I feel guilty that I’m glad you made this song Bc it’s shitty something like this happened to you but it made me feel so heard and happy and confronting that someone feels this and not only that but the screamo with girl vocals is so amazing and beautiful thank you for making this song it means a lot

This story breaks my heart for you but you have so much emotions in your music I’m in love with it. Keep going and you’ll definitely go somewhere with music someday

OMG..... I'm speechless, thanks dear Vira, for this tune from your heart to our beloved Luka, we're sharing this grieve forever. Thanks again I'm in tears to hear his voice and your cry.... We love you so much!

I’m so sorry for your loss… This is a beautiful song.

This song is so relatable, I have lost somebody(not to death, thank God) and I TRULY loved them, this song is so beautiful, emotional, and it makes me cry everytime I hear it. Thank you Violent Vira for making this song, I truly love this song, it's super emotinal. Thank you❤

Conocí a la mamá de Luka y su hermana por azares del destino, y ellas después de verla un par de veces me contaron acerca de lo que le pasó a Luka y me dijeron de ti y me llené de muchos sentimientos, porque se que no es fácil la situación cantas precioso y trasmites tanto

i love every song u makeee they're all amazing, I hope you get the recognition you deserve one day!

I'm not even a person that's touched by songs nor am I someone who is emotionally connected to things that don't pertain to me. Nor have I ever lost someone close to me but something about how you portrayed your feelings in this song moved me in a way I cant describe. The melody and the way your voice adds to the color of it just jerks tears out of me. I can't help but feel your emotions. I am truly deeply sorry for your loss.

Vira you have a talent for being able to vocalize and encapsulate the most raw, gut wrenching and tear jerking emotions. I'm checking out your music and I'm in love with it

The intro and ending in spanish took me by surprise. Genialosa canción, it reaches some sensitive spots for me, lose someone is something oneself never really recovers from, but just learns to carry with.

this song hits really hard I’m sure Luka will always have u in their heart

I’m sure Luka would have loved this so much as we all do. Much love to you and I hope you continue to rise as an artist 🫶

I listened to this song a couple times before my mom passed and it made me tear up abit but now everytime i listen to it i start sobbing. She passed away march 31st of this year. Easter. I didnt make it to the hospital in time. I just wish i was able to get there to say goodbye before she passed. I miss her so much.

I can’t express how hard these lyrics hit and honestly it’s one of my favourite coping songs, you’re honestly a great artist your voice is one of the most beautiful things I’ve ever heard and I’m patiently waiting for the day the world sees you, which is the day I can proudly say I was there from the beginning

When you started saying I love you at the end it made me fold and start crying

I felt sorrow and lost too , when i hear your songs i feel like someone it's singing what i have deep inside, thank you very much for begin my voice in this song.

я реву. вы достойный намного большего, ваши песни потрясающи, а вас голос это просто нечто, я переслушиваю ваши песни уже несколько раз, и хочу продолжать и продолжать. ваш голос просто супер!!! продолжайте в том же духе! я буду надеяться, что вы достигнете огромной популярности!!!

My boyfriend killed himself last September this song brings so much heart ache but also straight chills thank you.

For some reason i think of Grandma, Grandpa, and Granddad, whenever i hear this, for some reason. The woman who taught me to love and trust, and the two men who taught me the two sides of faith and science. I know this is more of song about the loss of a lover, but the mention of those departed prematurely ultimately pulls my thoughts to them. Thank you.

Honestly when I first heard this song I could straight away feel the emotion coming from it I was not paying much attention at the time but I got goosebumps it the feeling from it was so familiar. Ik I might be late but I hope everything is going great for you now and I can’t wait to see you soon live :) I really enjoy the song and feel heavy connection for my own reasons. Lot of Love from DC

I used to love this song when it first came out so I named my cat after it. He was with me for 8 days. He died and there's nothing I could do. Still can't accept the fact he died and I always wake up thinking he's here. I even started to chat with his ai, telling myself it's him, who texts with me. I've made such a good choice naming him after this song, after all I can relate to it now. Thank you Vira, take care and remember you're not alone.

Very few tracks in this world can wrench my heart out, this is one of them. Phenomenal song, you have my thoughts

I randomly found your music off Spotify and when I was listening to your songs on KZfaq shuffle and it has to be my all time favorite by you. The raw emotions are surreal its beautiful and tragic at the time. I lost my sibling 4 years ago and I stopped caring about my life for ahwile and I slowly started to pick up the pieces again and move on. But it's hard knowing they aren't here anymore.

Idk what it is but there is something in your music that just touches me in a way a lot of music cant. The emotion and the feeling that I feel for you is just incredible. I’m so sorry for your loss and I can’t imagine how much pain you are feeling. Keeping living on for him and continue to make such wonderful beautiful art.

I'm binging all your songs since finding "I don't care" and this one is tearing me apart, I love you and your music. Thank you for all these beautiful songs you've given us to listen to

This song sounds like it came straight out of the anime Nana. So damn good!

Vira, I'm listening your songs daily about a couple of weeks now, and I really like how emotional you get your vocals on those. But this one, this one make me search about you, to see who you are, cause it touched my heart deeply. My mother tongue is portuguese (BR), which is very similar to Spanish. The audio in the end of this music, the, you repeating "te amo", is just so beautiful, cause (I think) it's not your mother tongue, but you use it in a way to show your care and love to them. So heartwarming, and heartbreaking at the same time. I'm so sorry for your loss. I hope they are in peace, and that your heart, even if slowly, can be healed one day.

i cried hard asfff when she played this in DC. RIP Luka & My Auntie Jo.

This is heartbreaking enough just to imagine, but it makes me want to cry knowing this is the pain my father felt after my mother passed. He’s still holding on but it’s obviously not easy. It wasn’t easy for me either of course, but sometimes I get glimpses like this of how much pain he’s in, and I wonder how he bears it all. I just hope my love eases it even a little.

I'm so sorry for your loss, Rest in peace... it's awesome song 💖

This isn’t real your heart still beating got me crying

Tbh this song is relatable in a different way to me, i see a lot of people in here explaining their experiences with relation to this song so for me its not about a lover its about my father, he’s not dead he just left me on the hospital bed while i was passed out, the lyric “that I had truly wished that I could’ve died by your side that day,” really hits harder, because my reasoning for hospitalisation was an attempt, and like i said he just left not knowing if i was gonna die or not, this song is amazing as are all your songs and i love how artist’s music can be interpreted and related to in sm different ways, i love you sm vira you’re everything to me, a giant inspiration

This is giving vibes from mcr first album I love it so much 😭💕

Your songs are tearing me apart. These emotions in your voice and lyrics are everything. It's like I'm back in my teenage years, feeling the same broken heart, with the same strength. Please, create more and I hope you're fine!

This song and all your music has so much emotion it is absolute obsurd. Your definetly one of my favorite artists and its because you just put so much soul into your music. Your lyrics alone make me tear up let alone the end of the song. Hope your feeling better since its been some time.

A friend of mine showed me this song and the story behind it and when he left I heard it again and I had to let out my tears I'm so sorry about Luka it's seriously hurts I know what it feels when you loose a loved one It hurts so so so much I lost my grandpa when I was 8 years old and I never went to the funeral this song is the only way I can remember him from now on

I cried hearing this live in San Antonio the other day, love that i got to see you Vira and you were very caring about the crowd, i hope your last 2 shows this tour are amazing 💜🤘🏼

U are so underrated and so talented. Whenever somebody asks me for a good artist, I always include u cuz ur the first that comes to mind🥺 keep going I promise one day you'll get the recognition u deserve and become a star!❤

Thank you for giving so many people an outlet now and in the future. He was only 18. Couldn’t face going to jail, for drug charges that are legal now in Oregon. I hope someday we change our viewpoint on addiction. Not a moral issue.. a disease. Love you Colton.

Your voice is very similar to Lacey Sturm from flyleaf. Loving your music, I heard your newest song on my release radar on Spotify. Keep it up! You're awesome. Love the nostalgic vibes I get from your songs.

Love this song because the part where you sang "this is not real your hearts still beating" i wanted to say because my grandma and my mom passed of cancer

I watched my dad pass away, almost a year ago :,( this song really helps me, thank you vira if you ever see this.

I feel the pain and I am listening. This song is very emotional for me too because I had lost a best friend of mine at a time of now 5 years ago and I would feel like she had run away and really wasn’t gone….

this is beautiful, like truly beautiful, thanks for sharing your feelings through art, a way we can all feel it like you do, we love u vira🤍🕊✨

These are the type of lyrics that I connect with so personally that it almost feels like I wrote them. It’s too hard when you have to face a loss that is so unfathomable, so you don’t want life to move forward. Life moving forward means accepting that time will continue to pass without them. As long as you stand still, the beast that is reality can’t see you and you don’t have to accept it. I don’t have words of comfort, because I don’t have a solution myself. I only can say that these lyrics were heard and understood.

Was Luka from Argentina?

This touched me deeply, I lost my grandmother in the hospital. We knew it was coming but just didn’t know when, I went in after school dropping all my activities to visit her after not seeing her on Thursday, I spent longer than I felt I shouldve, saying my goodbyes before letting my dad in to see his dying mother, I bent down to kiss goodnight as I did so she too said her goodbyes and calmly took her last breath. I love you

like many of is here, i found you through ‘i don’t care’ about a year ago. since then, i’d been developing an intense, burning passion for rock and metal music, discovering new artists (yes, including mcr) and subgenres but never forgetting your masterpieces. it wasn’t until a few months ago when my girlfriend broke up with me that i began to truly listen to your songs - the beautiful, bittersweet, maudlin meaning behind each and every lyric. i learnt what it feels like to hurt. when you lose someone you love infinitely, when the person you trust most in the world grows to hate you, you gain a sense of worthlessness and emptiness that gnaws at your sanity and humanity. you become a ghost, a shell, a spectator; not living, just existing, lost and trapped in the past, longing to see and feel and hear that person once more. you feel more alone than ever, despite being surrounded by friends and family - but nothing matters without “them”. you never forget all the sweet things they told you or all the fun and romantic memories you made together. you never forget the small things, either, like the way they’d laugh or the faces they’d make. your songs gave me some peace, at least. not only as a powerful release of anger and anguish, but as a reminder that i wasn’t alone in my experiences. your songs resonated with me, especially those about obsessive love like ‘god complex’ or ‘collar of truth’, and this incredible song. i know i cannot truly imagine your pain. while my loss is immeasurable, yours is irrevocable. nothing i or anyone else can say will bring him back. but know this: we, as your fans, are so proud of you. in the face of adversity, you remained strong and produced a beautiful tribute to luka, and never pushed your audience away. with your talent, you have touched countless lives, including mine, and you will continue to do so. from the bottom of my heart, thank you for everything. i know this might be cheesy or cliche, but your music really did save me haha stay determined vira, we’ll always be here for you - you’ve got a bright future ahead

you sound like i would love your music in middle school but i love it now and my inner child and me are pleased thank you❤️❤️❤️

I think I just found my fav song of all times. i love this.

My friend, then-ex left the planet 6yrs ago and took a majority of that for me to get out of this state. Even though Im virtually okay these days, this hurt deep. Im sorry you lost Luka.

I love you, thank you for sharing this with us. he is still with you.

I’m so sorry for your loss Vira, your so talented and made such an amazing song to listen to!! I know as artists grow they have the freedom to change their style and stuff but this grunge/punk guitar rhythm and amazing vocals and powerful lyrics are such a great combination so pleaseee make more music like this, you’ve hit a goldmine!!! I love you!!!

You are so amazing with wording things and writing it down as lyrics. You seriously did a great job at expressing all of your emotions into words and lyrics and making it sound really amazing. I am in love with this song all over again after like 2 years

I am so sorry for your loss

I get mad flyleaf vibes from this song and a few of your others too...I like what I hear!

This hurts my heart sm but I love your songs and I know you’re gonna be famous one day:)

all of your songs SLAP, I am sorry for your loss. This song truly touched my heart.

i'm so sorry for your loss. this song is amazing.

I just listened to your songs and wow.. I’ve never related to all of someone’s songs. Your songs are amazing, you’re gonna be huge I know it❤️ im sorry for everything that’s happened

another insane song 🔥 you can hear the emotion in your voice so sorry for your loss

I started listening to your music yesterday because i found it in bloodborne, and you really quickly turned my world upside down, youre definitely one of my favourite artists already, and im very sorry that this happened to you, my heart aches for you and i wish your tour is gonna give you the success i deserve fr dude. Much love.

I'm so sorry for your loss, this song is so beautiful i can really hear the emotion in your voice ❤

This really hit me right in where my heart pumps blood to my eyes, i really teared up, i didn't know you had to go through this, the audio clip at the end was so... so... i cant just describe it in words, you're an amazing artist, i listen to u almost all the time, your my main inspiration to become someone big, be strong, he is so proud of you, I'm really sure of it, keep pushing thru this, you got this.

Love you're music, we can't wait to hear more! Keep up the good work 🤘

This song literally reminds of my girl best friend who I had big feelings for (she did too but our times never crossed to date each other) and she did a lot of self h4rm and she ended it with a kitchen knife bleeding to death in her bed. I miss her so much and I've been grieving since the 26th of May. At first even though I went to her funeral I still didn't believe she was gone and this was literally how I felt.

When I first heard this song I started crying, I felt the pain between every word. Feeling the pain is different from experiencing it. Im so happy that I found this beautiful song 🖤🖤🖤

Never stop making music please. Its so healing for my trauma❤❤❤ Love from California❤

Your voice is so beautiful I could listen to your music all day

I started listening to this song a few days ago and was really touched by it, just the way you expressed your feelings and emotions and listening to the pain in your voice singing this song, truly is beautiful to me and i relate to the pain on losing someone who you loved deeply.. it's the type of lyric I connect to so much, it's really hard to face loss. i lost a friend who i grew up with since elementary and was the first person i truly ever loved, he passed away 6 years ago..I wished that everyday that I could one day see him again, after knowing he was gone i didn't want to believe it.. I miss him every single day, i just wish i got to tell him i loved him..

i love your voice sm and i’m sorry for your loss 💗

Wonderful song. The way you express your feelings is insane ! I got goosebumps all over my body. He would be proud

I love you sm vira you voice is absolutely beautiful and you make alot of people happy you make the most amazing songs ever and i am so sorry for your lose.luka was amazing i lost one of my cousins and its very painful to lose somone but we love you so much thank you vira.❤

I have never seen a song that can hit so hard to my heart and even seeing the meaning of it all makes it even closer.

Im crying i love this

I absolutely love the mix on screaming and singing. screaming really helps accentuate the importance.

I just came across you and your music today for the first time. This song is so powerful and touching, you can feel the raw emotion immediately. Thank you for such a heartfelt work of art. ❤

Finally raw talent

My dad passed when I was really young and this made me cry and and miss him so much thank you for expressing this in a way I never could it’s so beautiful and it will always mean a lot to me❤

Lol I don't know how to describe this piece of art, her voice is so WOW!💐

I discovered her music recently, and ever since that day I have fallen in love with each of her songs! ❤❤❤

Душераздирающая песня, которая заставила меня плакать. Очень тяжелая ситуация😢

I bet if he hears it he will come back to life as you revived my heart

This song always brings me back to when I lost one of my best friends; although it's been six years (and her 23rd birthday is tomorrow), it's still hard to believe that she's actually gone. I used to spend the night at her house and we would be up for hours just talking and laughing, even more so with our other best friend (who I'm thankfully still close to). I'm so, so sorry for your loss- I know that they're always gonna be *so* very proud of you 🧡

I always feel sad when I listen to this song. I feel so bad for you, even though I've never gone through what you have, you convey your emotions so well its like I'm in your head. The ending always brings me on the bring of tears.💔😔

This song always reminds me of the relationship me and my older sister had before she passed away, it hits so hard whenever I hear this song

This broke my heart. Take care Vira. The song itself but now I know the story behind

This song is so heartbreaking, hope ur doing alright luv. much love from cali

The first time listening to this song I truly started tearing. Absolutely beautiful

Just discovered the song today and I already listened to it 5 times cuz it’s so good (cried everytime). It got me thinking that I should put more effort into working on my mental health (especially in terms of suicide/sh) to prevent my girlfriend from having to go through such pain. Thanks for sharing that beautiful and heartbreaking song with us