I made a really lame attempt at a joke and left it in this vlog to show that even in the hardest of times, we were still attempting to keep our humor. There is nothing wrong with Walmart or people who shop there. The reason I said not to say I went there was because I'm a huge Target fan (something that has been discussed in the vlog many times). Walmart and Target have a huge rivalry (at least where we live), so it was like saying I went to the competition. I'm sorry to those who were offended by my lame joke. But I do have to say that if you choose to focus on a silly joke rather than the rest of the heartache shared in the vlog, that is quite telling. Either way, just breaks my heart a little more. But again, I cannot reiterate enough that there is nothing wrong with shopping at Walmart. (We quite regularly frequent the Marketplace by our house.)

Your one job was not failed! Your job was to love him! And all he EVER felt was love! Don't forget that.

I just celebrated my baby girl who was stillborn 17 years ago yesterday. I went in for a checkup and found out I had preeclampsia. They induced me and when my water broke, her umbilical cord tore with it and she bled out before anyone knew there was something wrong. I was not hooked back up to fetal monitor after using the restroom. We celebrate every year and know she (Katelyn) is always looking down on us. Hugs momma ❤️❤️❤️❤️

Please, don't blame yourself. You said something towards the end that I've said before, "I had one job to do, bring him into the world safely." I lost my son 22 years ago, he was 20 months old. This is NOT your fault. I know as a mother it's natural when there is no one to blame, we blame ourselves. I don't know if you have been told but please seek a grief counselor. I unfortunately did not have one and no one advised me to do so. I spent 6 years in despair over the death of my son, 3 failed suicide attempt because of the depression & guilt I had piled on my self. You are a loving, caring mother who DID NOT FAIL BECKETT! Always keep that in mind! I'm sure you may have heard this, but I will repeat it: "An Angel in the book of life wrote down my baby's birth, and whispered as she closed the book; 'Too beautiful for earth'." I promise you, the pain gets easier to handle as time goes by. Just know, you are not alone in this, there are mothers out there in the world who are on the same path as you are now, we've just been walking longer. Much love & blessings

Aimee, sweetie, you did everything right. What happened isn't fair, and it was completely out of your hands. When my grandparents lost their baby girl, they were able to get the white teacup rose from my grandfather's boutonniere to take root. That little teacup rosebush is now nearly 80 years old. My grandparents have both passed on, but I am now living in the home that they built with over 75 years of love, and I treasure and care for that tiny rosebush as a memory, full of life, of my grandparents and their precious baby girl. Perhaps you can plant a little teacup rose bush for Beckett (even if it's in a pot) and place some of his ashes in the soil. Loves from Draper, UT.

I had 7 miscarriages and I know it's not the same as a still birth, but I blamed myself for all of them, thinking it was someone somewhere telling me I would be a terrible mum. My daughter is now 11 years old. No-one told us why I lost so many babies, in the UK they call it sub fertility as it took me about 2 years each time to get pregnant. And my lovely, you did keep him safe inside you, he had the brain haemorrhage inside you because he was poorly, which from what the doc says would have happened anyway and not because of anything you did or didn't do. He died in the safest place he knew best, with his beautiful mummy keeping him warm and loved and now he is on your necklaces close to both your hearts xxxx

As a pediatric nurse, I want to reach out and hug you both. I can see how blessed your son was to have you as parents. He has so much love from you and your family and that makes him a lucky boy. From his very beginning to forever, he is loved, and I have seen that not every child receives that. You are amazing parents, you absolutely kept him safe. It's horrible that some things cannot be predicted in life, there are no warnings for some things. Does that mean we did something wrong? Not at all, but even having those thoughts shows you the depth of your love. Children deserve unconditional love, that is all they need, and your son will have that forever. You should feel proud to be that caliber of parents.

I really hate to like this video. I wanted you to know that my daughter was deeply, deeply connected to Beckett's story. She is 8 and just the most caring gal in the world. Anyway, I told her about #givebackforbeckett and she insisted that we get going on this immediately. So, in the last week, I pumped 68 extra ounces of breastmilk and have donated it to the OHSU (Oregon Health Sciences University) NICU to make it into the hands of families who need it. We are so proud to give in Beckett's sweet name. Blessings to your family.

My father had a brain bleed, (aneurysm) when he was 41- They told us we're all born with stronger and weaker blood vessels and you can't tell unless you have a bleed, or ct scan looking for it specifically. He survived but was in very bad shape and died years after. My mom gave her whole heart and life to take care of him. This past year she got an infection that went to her heart- broke off and went to her brain causing a stroke and subsequently she died. Strokes are awful no matter how or why. They steal the most precious people on earth and leave a path of pain and grief that we have to sift through. I have been praying and following your story- now I feel even more connected. You both are amazing parents who are doing such an amazing job honoring your sweet son. I know these videos will help with someone else's grief. I will continue to keep you all in my prayers. I know I don't know you personally or know your grief, but you are both people I am rooting hard for as if I did.

put his blessing ashes in a potted plant and grow roses..you will have a reminder of how beautiful he is..

my sister had 3 heathy kids and then lost one at 40 weeks and then had 2 heathy kids after so don't give up on your dreams of having a child

Mommy and Daddy your little Beckett was beautiful. I am so sorry for your loss and I know Beckett will always be with you. He was just perfect.

I had a high school friend who died 3 wks after graduation, from an aneurism. No1 knew why, no doctor had been able to predict it or prevent it. Her parents kept her safe, loved & nurtured for 18 yrs & one day she collapsed & was gone. It's easy to blame ourselves but the truth is no1 knows why these things happen. Even if Beckett (ur beautiful baby boy) had been born alive, who knows if this wouldn't have happened, a week, a month, a yr later due to some unforeseen complication already present in his brain. A grief counselor mite be a good idea, because blaming urself will not help u or those who love u & least of all ur baby. Thanx for sharing, good luck!

I hate to "like" this video but I really just want to spread your awesomeness. Love you guys. I truly am feeling so close to you guys and Aimee - you absolutely give me inspiration and motivation. And little do you know that your (and melody Mainville) strength helped me pull myself out of being on the verge of depression recently.

May God bless & comfort you both! I'm so so sorry for your loss of your precious baby Beckett!

My condolences Guys. Years ago I was a labor and delivery nurse. I never understood the aching grief until our unborn daughter died. It took me years to come to a place of resignation. But today I realize that she gave me the greatest gift. Those months that she lived in her mother's womb, were the most joyous I've known in my life. She would be twenty three in December. I still remember. Take care

It will be 3 years and yet your little boy is still making his presence known. Beckett is alive and well❤️

I don't know if it helps but I know that a lot of women who go through this and do not have any answer to why it happened feel like their bodies failed them. You're body did not fail you nor your child. Like your doctor said, a brainbleed can happen any time to anyone and even for people if you get them on the table and operate right away, depending on how severe the bleed is, there is nothing that can be done. Your baby was still in your belly. I don't think anyone could have saved him. I know this is so hard to accept but it's also comforting. You did nothing wrong. There is nothing wrong with your body that caused this. It was a terrible thing that just happened. Bad things happen and it is no one's fault. Your son would not want you to blame yourself and get lost in grief and guilt. There is a time to grief and to be sad but there is also a time to heal and to allow healing. I wish you both strength and comfort in knowing that you did absolutely nothing wrong.

I'm so sorry this happened to you. Watching your videos has brought me back to when I lost my daughter in 2012. She had Turner Syndrome and survived for 24 weeks inside of me. Even though I knew the odds, it didn't make the loss any easier. I bought a doppler and was obsessed with listening to her heart beat every day. That weird feeling you mentioned, I felt that too, and it was at that time I couldn't find her heart beat anymore, just hours after I checked and it was there. She passed on 11.16.12 (my dad's birthday) and I delivered her on 11.18.12. The pain will always be there and it does surface at times, especially around this time every year, but It has gotten much easier over the years. I hope this is the case for you and your husband as well...nothing feels worse than the loss of a child.

I came across your vlogs recently and my heart just absolutely cries for you folks. Thank you so much for sharing a very difficult time of your lives with your viewers, every nuance of every moment. Your experience is helping other parents of stillborn babies, who are asking the same questions, going through the same feelings of guilt and despair. Your strength and great love for your beautiful son will teach others that it is okay to grieve freely. I believe in the afterlife and I firmly believe that one day in your distant future you will see Beckett again.

I'm so sorry and heartbroken for both of you. I cannot imagine the pain of what you have been through. Your love for your son and love and support for eachother is beyond inspiring. I am humbled by your graciousness to share such an intimate story with the world. you have every reason to be proud of your son and the precious moments you were able to spend with him. I am grateful for being allowed to share them with you in viewing them on KZfaq. I pray that peace will grow and prevail in your hearts knowing that your son was and still is the meaning of love that holds your hearts and the universe together. thank you for sharing. Peace and strength in the days ahead.

Bless you both. Honey, you DID keep him safe, and get him here safe. We are all here for different times, some long and some not as long. For the time that he was blessed to be here, you loved him and kept him safe, you brought him safely into the arms of those waiting to say goodbye. I'm so sad for you that he was here only 26 weeks, but for that time you did a wonderful loving job as a mom and dad. You gave him nourishment, and a name and he heard your voices, felt your touch and heartbeats. We never know why some of us are here for so long, and others not but never forget this. He may have been here a short time, but ALL of that was wrapped in joy and love and comfort. Hug to you all.

I just found you and your story and my heart hurts so much for you two. My mom had a daughter before me who wasn't still born but she passed after only being alive for about a day because of a serious heart problem. It's really rough I'm sure. My parents ultimately decided to have another baby and here I am! Later they had my little sister. I respect whatever decision you make, but there is definitely hope for having more children in the future. I hope and pray for the both of you

"Don't tell people I go to Walmart..." This made me smile You're so sweet. I saw someone saw life is fragile and it's so true. It just simply is. I really d understand why you would blame yourself, it's natural, any of us would do it. But don't do it forever. You aren't to blame.

You both are amazing people I just came across your channel and I'm so sorry for your loss and the struggles you go through everyday ! This is definitely not your fault you did everything possible to protect and love your sweet little angel ! I am sending you deep love and prayers!

Love that you guys are willing to be so open. Love you guys!

Hi guys, I'm so sorry you're going through this ): I know it must be so hard. I just wanted to add my story... earlier this week a (19 year old) friend of mine passed away after suffering a brain hemorrhage. It came out of no where while he was at work and there was nothing anyone could have done to prevent it or save him. I know my friend's death doesn't do anything to lessen the pain of losing your baby, but it's so true that these types of things can come out of nowhere and be very devastating. He was rushed to a hospital as soon as he collapsed and it was still too late to save him because the damage to his brain had already occurred the moment the blood vessel ruptured. When my friend passed away I was comforted with the knowledge that he passed suddenly and painlessly with no suffering. He was such a happy person and he had a great life. Your baby had a short but very comfortable, happy, and pain-free life, and it's very clear to me how loved he was by both of his parents. Beckett will live on forever in your memories

I am SO sorry for your guy's loss. You are handling this with such grace and poise. I've been reading your responses to comments, and you're kindness towards others (especially those in ignorance, who genuinely don't understand) is so inspiring and humbling. My prayers are with you both as you process and heal.

I was brought to your channel from the recommended videos feed. First of all, my heart breaks for what you have been through. Second, you are two incredibly strong and courageous people to share your journey as you are walking through it. Every life has a purpose, and with your story you are helping so many. Becketts life and story is touching so many hearts. You are a beautiful family and wonderful parents. May each day being another step for peace and healing. Thank you for sharing your life and being so incredibly honest and real. Bless you both.

Hi Tyson and Aimee! I'm an Aimée, too...dont see many that spell their names the way we do! I stumbled upon your channel accidentally last night, and have been pretty much binge watching, laughing along with you both as well as feeling your pain, heartbreak and crying along with you both as well. I can only imagine your pain. My first pregnancy was a stillbirth, but he wasn't nearly as far along as your Sweet Angel Beckett. I since have had 3 healthy live births...all boys. you never know what the future has in store for you- just like Beckett was a surpirise! Don't give up hope...be a Mommy and Daddy to Gator and Chloe while you both grieve and heal, and lean on one another during this time. You both are so brave already to have opened your lives to us. I will be tuning in, keeping you both...and Beckett...in my thoughts and prayers! 💓💕💓

LOVE YOU GUYS!!!

I can't image the effects of an experience such as this on a mind, a heart, a relationship, or a life. I wish you all the happiness you desire, and a future full of love. How you are still so willing to share this part of your life with your viewers is an incomparable demonstration of strength. You have my endless support.

I am a new subscriber to your channel and just wanted to say how sorry I am for your loss. I don't know what else I can say to bring any comfort to either of you. It takes a great deal of courage and a huge heart to open your lives up about something so personal. I had a miscarriage just over a month ago but it was early on and I don't feel that I can relate at the same level of loss you two experienced. My heart goes out to both of you. You seem like wonderful people and your beautiful son Beckett will never ever be forgotten. He is very loved and will never suffer any pain. He will watch down on his parents and all of his family from Heaven and he will smile and always love his mommy and daddy. Don't give up hope. Take time to heal, physically, mentally and emotionally. I have faith you will have a healthy full term baby in the future. ❤️❤️❤️

I can see the pain and sadness in your eyes. The emotion is raw and real. I'm not a mother (yet) and my heart goes out to you both. Don't blame yourself. This was not your fault 😞 Bless you both 🌸 You have my support.

I am so sorry...After reading some of comments, think that if Beckett were sick, it would be easier for some to accept that he died from being sick and that's human nature. It seems unfathomable that baby died from a cerebral haemorrhage and yet, he did. This happened because it happened and it's not your fault. I hope you decide to give it another go and if you do, you will have so much support and love...thank you so much for sharing these painful things. It is a gift you've given the world and the world better accept it with grace, peace and love. 💗💜💙💚❤️

Just found your channel today on my feed tonight. Sending prayers your way, I'm so sorry for everything y'all have gone through and are going through. Y'all are so so strong and I hope you continue to find happiness in everyday, as hard as it may be. 💙

So sorry for your loss, a good friend of mine lost her son at 20 weeks and it was a beautiful thing to witness the love of a mother and her child. As a mother I can't imagine what you are going through, the grief and guilt must be an inevitable feeling, but just know he was in the most comfortable and warm place when he passed, listening to the beat of your heart, and you were keeping him in the safest place in the world up until it was his time to go.

I have no words of wisdom but you're never far from my mind. Massive hugs to you both

I've never come across your channel before. I've just watched a wee bunch of your vlogs. You are so, well...simply amazing. VLOG on you gorgeous people! Stay strong!

There’s nothing more sweet or kind with the KZfaq community surrounding one another being there and supporting each other best feeling with communities.

So from one person to another,I lost a two children,I had a placenta abrupt ion with one ,he was born at 7/months,very tiny,taken to a special hospital where he had a hemorrhage to his brain,he passed ,extremely painful,went home to an empty crib,I never really questioned why ,I knew deep down it just wasn’t meant to be,something I had to go through,I cremated him and took his ashes to a special hiking trail I frequent where I visit him on the weekends,my advice to you is to stop asking why ,stop looking for an answer,accept it for what it is and celebrate his memory that’s all you can do,believe there are no accidents

your channel came up as a suggested video to watch. I have not been searching any kind of videos, so it's pure fate that I stumbled upon your channel. I have subscribed and I hope to be able to learn from you and attempt to help you and encourage you in any way that I can, even though we are strangers. I'm praying for you. much love to you.

I just want to say thank you for all the women out there that have had to go through this....nothing will take away the pain, but knowing your not alone is always somewhat of a comfort. I am a mom of an amazing little bit who has a severe genetic disorder, so while totally NOT the same...the more moms I meet that are in similar situations, the more I realize that I'm not alone...I think that is really the only thing that helps when you are going through something so painful and crushing.... All the best to both of you....

It was so strange how I just came across your channel. This September 8th my son Christopher would been 27 years old. He was born sleeping at full term. My heart just breaks for you both. I wish I could hug you and make you feel better...but from experience I know I can't. The days do better get but your life has been changed forever. Know that he is an angel and was too perfect for this earth. You will never forget that beautiful boy you were blessed to carry. God bless you both and grieve how you need. I will be thinking about you and your beautiful Beckett. God bless.

I just came across your vlog. I laughed with you, I cried with you, and I've felt that same guilt. Just know that you are not alone. Thank you for sharing your birthing vlog and Beckett's Story!

I was listening to you guys thinking how much I just wanted to give you both a hug and then you said the WalMart thing and I started laughing so hard haha!

I understand your pain. Sending you my love. 1 1/2 years after my lost, we were blessed with a healthy, beautiful and sassy daughter. You are not alone in your pain and confusion. For unknown reasons, this happens. You are not to blame!!!! This happens to many people. Anger is normal, feeling that you are at fault is normal, but you are not at fault. Grieve, cry, talk to each other and stay positive for another blessing. Sending you my strength, faith and love.

I watch your videos occasionally and something told me to watch this one this morning. As a daughter who cared for her daddy after his first major stroke I took my job very seriously. It was my job to save him. Unfortunately God knew I would’ve done anything in the world to save my daddy, he had a silent stroke in July this year while I stepped out of his room for all of ten minutes. When I went back in his bedroom (he lived with me) I just screamed and grabbed his hospital bed rails! I did all his care for 2.5 years and his end of life care (33 days in in home hospice care) When I read his autopsy results I just cried, I felt like I let my daddy down and quickly blamed myself. My grief therapist tells me it’s something I couldn’t have prevented, his body was tired and he was ready to go. I hope you’re doing well and I hope things have gotten some better. Much love from Georgia.

Watching this I can say You two are definitely made for each other. Certain situations I know I have my husband for a reason. I couldn't do certain things with anyone else but him. You guys have each other for a reason. Hearing Tyson say that you said you didn't deserve to be married to him is natural. He takes care of you. That's his job.You take care of him. That's ur job. Right now you might not feel like it but ur his rock too. It happened to you directly so to speak so you feel differently a little and I get it. But you two are soul mates. I feel it thru the screen watching all these vlogs. It happened to you with Tyson for a reason. Like things happened to me while with Joe for a reason. Bc we got each other thru to the other side. I just went upstairs and kisses my daughter who just turned 2 last month and hugged her and just stared at her in amazement. If you two choose to You'll get that someday and do NOT feel guilty if you do bc it's physically NOT Beckett. That's not fair to do. He will always be ur baby boy. Ur first. He wants you to be a parenting mother. If you decide to go that route I'll be here cheering you on. Love you both and again Ur Beckett made my 13 year old stepson have a moment of silence at his playoff game. Tyson said to tell him good job on the win on Twitter and when I told him he was soooo excited you guys knew about all that.

💖💞💕 Aimee this might be the best advice you ever received. Take care of yourself as if you were your own treasured child now. With the same love you would have bestowed on Beckett. xxx

I love you guys so much. Thank you for allowing us to be a part of your lives, the happiness, the sadness, all of it. The strength you have is an inspiration and you are in my thoughts every day. ❤️❤️❤️

Hello again ... I heard all you said about what you two have been going through, the emotions, the guilt, etc. Just know that it's okay! The hardest part about grief is finding your way through it. It is good that you are talking about it, whether it be thru sharing it with the world or with each other in private or with others who have gone through similar circumstances. I hope that things are a little better each day. It is true that we never really "get over it," but we learn to cope with loss in our own individual way. I am glad you were able to find some answers as to what happened to your son, Beckett. By the way, I like the name. Not sure what else to say except for thank you for sharing your story.

you both need to continue to be anchors for each other.. communicate.. cry.. cuddle... write letters.. to God, eachother, or in general. ..

I hope that you are soon able to have another child, this makes me so sad, when I get mad and want to run away because of how frustrating my one year old can be sometimes.. I realize it isn't so bad.. It makes me want to wake him up right now at 3 am just to give him a hug. I'm so sorry, I can not even imagine how hard this was.

I know that no words can take away the feeling of guilt. Beckett would be so proud of you for raising awareness and spreading good in this world. Continue to live your lives for him, he would want to see his parents enjoying the world. Know that so many people love him and that he won't be forgotten. My friend lost her 4 week old little boy and she struggles everyday with the guilt, the what ifs, and the idea that he will be forgotten. He passed more than a year ago and not a day has passed where I haven't thought about him. His death was awful, but through his passing we have all become involved in infant loss charities, taken the time to appreciate each other more, and made the most of everyday. I like to think he would be proud of the difference he made to us all. Every child has an impact, no matter how long they are with us.

I just watched this after watching some of your other vlogs of your sweet baby boy. I just wanted to send you both all my love and to say please don't blame yourselves. I can't even begin to imagine your pain and I understand the first thing you do is blame yourself because there is nobody else to blame but please don't put that on yourselves.You carried him for all those months and helped him grow into the beautiful boy you gave birth to.I really do pray that with each day that passes both of your pain eases away. Sending all of my love xxx

It's not your fault, Aimee. You did your best. Hugs!

Don't tell people I go to Walmart! Lol that made me laugh. ❤️

Thank you for sharing this with all of us. It takes a lot to have so much vulnerability. I know your story will help and bless so many people.

Don't blame your self amy this is the cruel world that we live in God had plans and that was his plans for you guys my prayers

I lost my son at 2 months due to a blood clot in his heart. I blamed myself for so long. and it's by far the hardest thing I've ever gone through. my deepest condolences to you two. I wish you peace and healing!!

I wondered over from Cory and Kristens vlog where they mention you guys. I have been in your shoes and I wanted to offer to you what helped me. My son would be 14 next month, he wasnt still born he passed shortly after birth. He had a condition called bilateral renal agenesis (he didnt develop kidneys when I was pregnant with him). I am so sorry you are going through this. It is something I would not wish on anyone. We all blame ourselves and think if I would have done this different. I hope this poem helps it has been in my memory box for 14 years.... I thought of you and closed my eyes, And prayed to God today. I asked what makes a Mother, And I know I heard him say: A mother has a baby, This we know is true. But, God, can you be a mother, When your baby's not with you? Yes, you can he replied, With confidence in his voice. I give many women babies, When they leave is not thier choice. Some I send for a lifetime, And others for a day. And some I send to feel your womb, But theres no need to stay. I just don't understand this God, I want my baby here. He took a breath and cleared his throat, And then I saw a tear. I wish that I could show you, What your child is doing today, If you could see your child smile, With other children who say: We go to earth and learn our lessons, Of love and life and fear. My mommy loved me oh so much, I got to come straight here. I feel so lucky to have a mom, Who had so much love for me. I learned my lessons very quickly, My mommy set me free. I miss my mommy oh so much, But I visit her each day. When she goes to sleep, On her pillow's where I lay. I stroke her hair and kiss her cheek, And whisper in her ear. "Mommy don't be sad today, I'm your baby and I'm here." So you see my dear sweet one, Your children are Ok. Your babies are here in My home, They'll be at heavens gate for you. So now you see what makes a mother. It's the feeling in your heart. It's the love you had so much of, Right from the very start. Though some on earth may not realize you are a mother, until their time is done. They'll be up here with Me one day, And you'll know that you're the best one!

Beckett has the most loving and caring mommy and daddy anyone could ask for and he will forever be with you both in your hearts... I hope a light shines brightly over you both and I pray to God that you never have to experience this pain again. My sister lost a baby similar to you and it's heartbreaking. I'm sure Beckett is flying high and watching his mommy and daddy with pride. Stay strong the both of you!!

Heads up you two, it doesn't make it easier BUT..let me remind you, God creates each lovely soul to fulfill its own destiny, some destinies last long, some short, we do not orchestrate this beautiful symphony, our Creator does. Amy darling, you were blessed to be that boys mother, no one but you could have fulfilled that, please put the wonders of "what if" behind you. Consider planting a tree of life with his ashes, an with that I'll close by saying, thank u for sharing your story, God Bless

Prayers for you guys. I could never imagine! We almost lost our son when he was born and then a week later we almost lost him again it was the worst thing we've ever been through. I know that doesn't take the pain away but from a mom to a mom a mother's love is the same whether we lose our child or not and we as mom's understand that love. I had such a smooth pregnancy and if I felt like something wasn't right I had a fetal doppler to check his heart beat. If you guys decide to have another one maybe that'll give peace of mind to have a fetal doppler.

You guys are always in my prayers. I know it wasn't your fault Aimee and you didn't fail Beckett, you kept him safe and warm hearing loving voices. You did do your job. I hope you find some way to be at peace and know that he lived in a happy place. You both were wonderful parents as long as you could be. I've heard that babies become 2 if they are younger when they go to heaven. All he will remember is your love xxoo.

I know there are no words that anyone can say to help you through your thoughts of it being your fault, but know you did the best you could while helping Beckett to grow. In a time of grief it is easy to blame someone, in this case yourself. I pray you guys are able to find comfort in the time you shared with him. I adore you both. ❤️

Oh No!!! lol That was just hilarious... "Don't tell people i go to Walmart!" were the same way too... But if Target doesn't have it, then its off to Walmart... lol but it was good to laugh just seeing you guys Videos in June till now.. God Bless..

sorry for your loss i lost my babt also last february 19, 2017 it's so painful to loose him

I don't know how I stumbled onto your page... but I watched most of your videos on beckett.... I am sitting hear bawling my eyes out. I have one year old son, his name is Dexter, when I was pregnant with him, losing him was my worst fear... you guys lived my worst fear.... and your doing it with grace and dignity.... you guys are so strong and so amazing.... and beckett is so lucky to have parents like you guys... you guys will always be his parents, thats something that lasts forever.... thank you for sharing your story and thank you for reminding me how lucky i am

just discovered y'alls channel very heart warming to see how y'all were very strong I've gone thru 2 ectopic pregnancies n till this day is been hard n still grieving after 19yrs of my first child I had hope for another child seeing these videos just helping me take my grief..thk u guys n hope you guys blessed with another Angel... n it's not your fault

PLEASE please please go to counseling Amy. It has helped many women in your situation.

We are tested This life time . but i know for a fact when god takes some thing away from you for a reason you will get blessed double .

You break my heart. I'm sure there are no words that anyone can say to either of you to make you feel better. I have to praise you for your strength to share yours and your baby's story because I am sure you are helping so many people who are, sadly, feeling exactly what you're feeling now and you are letting them know that they aren't alone. You are both such amazing parents, it's awful to see you so sad but it's so beautiful to see how much your baby is loved. He knew that, I'm sure of it. You kept him safe and comfortable and when he passed away, he was being hugged by your body that held all the love for him. He wasn't alone, he wasn't unloved and he knew that. I'm sending many prayers up for you and your family/friends, as I'm sure this is a loss for everyone who loves you.

I just came across your channel and I'm heartbroken for you guys. Just know that you did the absolute best you could for your son. The best way I've found to grieve is just always surround myself with pictures, clothes blankets anything that was his and take your days one at a time. I know its totally unfair and cruel to have someone so precious being taken away from you so suddenly. Take your time and grieve. Even though you will, please try not to blame yourself and don't be so hard on yourself. You did everything you could. Your baby had the best mom he could have asked for

Aimee baby doll. Listen to me carefully. You do not have magical powers. There is no way in hell that you or anyone else in the world can prevent medical things from happening. Doctors, who have professional training..can't always fix it either. Medical situations are completely out of your control. I know of a woman who did drugs on purpose and did everything she could to end her child's life when she was pregnant. She succeeded. YOU are not a criminal, nor did you, or would you ever do anything to hurt Beckett. You really must take that guilt out of the equation. It would be an excellent idea if you were up to it, to join a support group for women who have been through it if you wanted to, or to get involved with therapy. You might be surprised how healing that can be for both of you. Hugs to both of you and wishing you much, much brighter days ahead.

My son died of the same thing... You have all my love

Bless the both of you. I had a stillborn daughter, no matter the reason it’s the hardest thing you will ever endure. I’m so sorry for your loss and pray for you both.

so sorry for your loss, as I'm laying here late into the night and for some reason your channel popped up my heart is breaking for you both. I just lost my mother to a stroke causing a brain bleed on Friday Aug 19, 2016... & it happened so fast...laying her to rest tomorrow... my heart is breaking for your beautiful little boy.. may he rest in paradise

i have never wanted so much to come thru this screen and hug you so tight. im thinking of you so much none this is your fault. rest in peace beckett. xoxo

I know why you feel the need to place blame Aimee but it wasn't your fault. You could not have known what was going on....nobody could. I know nothing I can say will change the way you feel, so I'm just sending love and hugs xxx

I've been watching your videos all day today. As a mom, my heart pains for your loss. Prayers for a healing heart as your son watches you walk through life. Life for him. ❤️

You two are an incredible couple. The support and love you give one another in the face of such heartbreak is awe-inspiring. Bless you and may you find peace truly knowing that you not only did everything "you were supposed to do as a mother," you truly honor his memory being so good to each other.

One important thing to remember is that even IF you had gone to the hospital when you felt weird, let's say they got him out while he was technically alive. Not that I think they could have, but hypothetically. Even in that case, it was a catastrophic brain bleed. Although I know you would take him in any condition if only he was alive, the reality of that event is that he would have had such extreme brain damage that he was not there. He would have been unlikely to have been able to so much as breathe on his own. He would have suffered immensely. Right now that knowledge probably doesn't help, but I hope that as you heal you are able to let go of your guilt with that in mind. He died a quick death without painful medical interventions which would have been futile and served the best interests of those grieving his loss than his own. Perhaps one small comfort is that you did not have to watch him suffer and make decisions which led to his death such as withdrawing life support. This is not your fault and I pray you will know this in time.

"Don't tell people I go to Wal-mart" hahaha 😂😂 Aimee you are my soulmate. I am truly so sorry for your loss. He was a beautiful boy. You both are so incredibly strong, and I love you both ❤

Today is my stillborn daughter's 39th birthday. There was no reason the autopsy could find for her loss of life. It is very hard not to blame yourself....but please take comfort in knowing, you were providing him with everything you were absolutely suppose to. Especially your love! His little body just fould not over come the hemorrhage in his brain. It does get easier, the hurt you learn to deal with and incorporate into your daily life. He chose you to be his parents and loved you from conception. All you can do is the best you can and I fully believe you did that. I am glad you have an answer as to why...not having one is very difficult. Hugs and my love to you both of you.....

I just want to start off this post by saying I am truly sorry for your loss and I really appreciate you both sharing your story. I never really thought I would ever be able to connect with my mom on an emotional level about my sister who was still born, but after watching your videos, I am able to see what my mother must have gone through. I just wanted to also say that I am studying nursing, and your video on the birth of your son has given me the courage to become a labor and delivery nurse. Thank you for touching me on such an emotional level, not sure if you will be able to read this, but I wish you both the best of luck in the future. Also, I am keeping you in my thoughts and prayers.

I just have to say, Beckett sure would have had a good life with you guys...so sorry.

1. There's no shame in going to WalMart, just as long as you were not wearing pajamas and house slippers when you went :) 2. It probably doesn't make you feel better, but at least you know that it was not anything you did or didn't do. Blame is part of the grieving process, when my brother died I blamed myself, I wondered if I would have checked on him if he would have lived through his seizure. It took a long time for me to realize that when God decides it's time to go home, there's nothing going to stop it. I don't know why God decided to take Beckett back home so soon, I wish I did. I like to think that there's a puppy in heaven in need of a little boy and Beckett was the most qualified for the job. :) Sorry, I'm rambling and probably said 15 things not to say to someone who is grieving...so I'm going to find my box of Kleenex.

I so just wanted to hug you watching this . I know no one's words could change how you feel but your baby only ever felt love and comfort. Your job as a parent is to love your children and you do/did that hands down flawlessly and effortlessly . ❤️

Aimee, you are a good mother. It takes so much love and courage to parent a baby you can't hold in your arms. I hope the feelings of guilt lessen for you soon. Both of you remember to hold yourselves as gently as you held Beckett. You deserve it. This isn't your fault. Thinking of you both, as always.

I didn't get the Walmart joke!

hang onto each other it is rough I know a woman that is 600 lbs and has 3 kids at the time she weighed this much while pregnant just hang onto each other no blaming and hey i go to walmart lol

You both amaze me so much. Despite a terrible tragedy happening to you, you show so much kindness and grace. You both are truly amazing and the definition of strong.

My heart goes out to you guys! DO NOT blame yourself. Beckett wouldn't want you to blame yourself you kept him safe and warm. You two make a great team stay strong!!

You share your whole life with us. But don't tell people I go to Walmart!

Please please don't let that report make you believe anything was either of your faults..life just happens..and some times things happen we can't explain. I really hate that they would even allow them to suggest blood pressure or weight. I have seen 300lb women who have had healthy babies..and super thin people with unhealthy babies. Larger does not mean unhealthy..thin does not mean healthy. Please don't listen to that ridiculousness. My heart hurts to think that you had to read that nonsense. Sweetie I have special needs children..medical and developmental. I did everything "right", complete with natural birth. None of that mattered...things still happened the way they happened. I know it is easier said than done, but please don't think you could have done anything different or better. You did everything you were supposed to do...despite what anyone else may think. Most people just go through pregnancy and things play out and a baby comes along..so no one scrutinizes their life, their decisions or their size. Don't let anyone do that to you...love and hugs..

This breaks my heart. I am so sorry for your loss, but because I just have came across your page, thankfully, I am also grateful that I am now able to say congrats on the new Baby! This story from your lives really touched me, it had me crying, and remembering my miscarriage in 2009, (which I feel was probably easier for me to handle considering the feelings I am having seeing your horrible pain) you are strong, and I am sure that you and everyone around you knows this! Yet no matter your strength, this definitely will knock anyone to their knees in torment of losing a child. We all blame ourselves, I mean who else is there that had our job? So I totally understand your struggle, and wanted/felt like I had to reach out and tell you that I am grateful to have come across your page! Take care of that beautiful family! And just know, Becket (I really hope that I spelled his name right, sorry if I did not) is still here with all the rest of our gone, but never forgotten, little angels!!!

So many of us who watch your you tube wish we could take away your pain. Thank you for sharing your experience, and I am sure it helps others who have lost their littlest angels. Sending prayers of comfort and healing to you and your family

I don't know you at all, but I love you.