you are amazing and strong ❤ and you will always have a second home in Seoul with us ☀️✨🌈

We don't need details, you taking your health seriously instead of rushing into something just because you've always wanted it is SUCH a good example! We love you!

As Yoongi once said: To consciuouly decide against something takes a lot of courage. Putting yourself and your health first is an amazing step and shows how much your therapy process already helped you. To learn to recognize those patterns and listen to your body's and mind's reaction must have taken an incredible amount of effort. Although this temporary setback might hurt in the moment, or feel like a big step back, I think it migth actually be a big step forward on your personal health journey. Take your time, listen to yourself and then try again. Nothing is lost 💜

Dearest Farina 💖 First of all, you do not EVER have to apologize for your mental health and its consequences. We love you so, so much, with every little part that makes up this beautiful person that is YOU. And that includes your trauma and your struggles. And you also mentioned the fear of letting your friends in Korea and also Dongin down, and I understand the fear, but I can assure you - everyone would rather you be healthy and happy. 💖 Will you still keep your PO Box? If so I'd like to send you something to make you feel better. Maybe more reasons to love yourself or something else. 💕 I love you with all of my heart and thank you again for sharing, I can't even put into words how proud I am of you.

we all jotatoes will continue to support and root for y’all! 💜

to anyone whos reading this : You are amazing, strong and its okay that you are struggling mentally, take your time and take baby steps to get back out there ! even basic things can seem like the hardest things to do, so dont worry! you are not alone! fighting 💜💛🤍

I have dealt with PTSD and depression for about 6 years now and your videos always make me feel better! ♥You are helping so many people with how open and vulnerable you are! I hope that you get rest and please take all the time in the world to get better! I know it's a process with loads of ups and downs but your subscribers won't be disappointed in you because we want to see YOU happy first and foremost. Sending Dong-In loads of love too! ♥🥰

Moving internationally is not easy even if you're in a good place mentally, so the more you take care of yourself, the better the move will be. Please don't label yourself as unreliable, it takes great courage to care for yourself first in the face of something so big. I hope you get the help you need and focus on you and your needs.

Farina I think you made a good decision. Even aside from the stress of major life transitions, Korea itself is a challenge. I’ve lived in Korea almost 2 years and have to say the culture is not the best environment for healing mental health. There is very little awareness or understanding for mental health struggles and the stigma is very real. Access to mental health care is also very limited, even many medications that are common in other countries are illegal here. I love it here but that is a definite downside. Please take care of yourself 💜💜💜

I didn't expect for my young adult years to be filled with anxiety. My twenties started pretty rough and now that I am twenty-five I'm starting to work things through. I'm sure a day will come where anxiety doesn't condition our daily life and we'll peacefully coexist with our trauma. We will get there. Sending you love and virtual hugs ❤️‍🩹

You summarized CPTSD so well! My CPTSD was triggered so badly at the beginning of the pandemic. I was paralyzed. I quit the master’s program I had been so excited to be accepted to. And then my mental health got even worse when I had to move unexpectedly. It’s so hard not to compare ourselves to others who seem to have more energy and fortitude to keep going. My therapist and I talk about this a lot. Sending you strength and support from Canada 🇨🇦💛

Hey Farina! This video really resonated with me and so I wanted to share that I myself also struggle not with the exact same mental illness but I do have GAD. I’ve had bouts of just almost constant panic attacks from nothing and high stress levels before and I totally know how you feel. It takes a lot out of you. Moving is one of the most stressful things I think a human can do and moving to another country is no exception. I think you’re strong for trying and you should be proud of yourself. I hope you don’t consider this a weak moment and really take time to be patient with yourself. I’m glad that you put you and your mental health first because that really is the most important thing at the end of the day. Your dream can wait a bit and will be there when you’re ready. As someone who also mentally struggles, I am rooting for you! We’ve got this :)

Liebe Farina, du musst dich für nichts entschuldigen! Deine Gesundheit steht an erster Stelle. Danke, dass du so offen über solche Themen sprichst 🙏 Dadurch hat man das Gefühl, dass man nicht alleine ist. Fühl dich ganz fest umarmt 🤗💜

The first step is to share and you did that! So proud of you sharing because that’s hard to share. We understand, your viewers, thanks, because your not alone💚A big HUG your way 🐻

Thank you Farina for opening up about your struggles

I feel so glad that Farina opened up about her mental condition recently. It's not always easy to accept the reality and cope up with all the things around us... But trying your hardest to get over it is so important

Farina you're so so strong for this! I have been going through a very rough patch myself and it's exhausting. The constant panic and anxiety lead you to self loathing and sheer stress. Just know that you're helping plenty of people deal with their own issues. We always support you. Thank you for trusting us with this information. It's not easy to talk about stuff that affect you so deeply. 💗

I struggle with c-ptsd too and it can feel very suffocating sometimes. you’ve done your best and i’m glad you were able to make the best decision for your mental health and literally just how you feel. you still have so much time to move to korea and when you feel like it. i know how c-ptsd can affect these big changes pretty harshly. don’t feel guilty, the people who care most will feel better that you aren’t putting yourself in a dark place that can feel & be EXTREMELY hard to get out of. everything is a step at a time. We love you Farina❤️

girl, i feel you! ich musste korea früher als 'geplant' verlassen weil ich einen rückfall hatte und mich jetzt davon erhole. wie du schon sagtest, gesundheit und wohlbefinden sind das wichtigste! und es ist viel besser stabiler und gefestigter nach korea zu gehen als es zu erzwingen. du bist genau da, wo du sein musst und eure koreapläne werden immer auf euch warten. vielleicht wird sich alles noch viel besser ergeben als ihr euch vorstellen könnt. you got this 🌈

thank you so much for opening up about this! I have this too and its terrifying how quickly it can take over. You are so strong, and you are safe, You keep yourself safe, Dongin keeps you safe. No matter what triggers you, It cannot hurt you.

Totally understandable 🤍 Even though I am so so sorry for you I‘m still looking forward to your content! You don’t have to be in Korea to make us watch you 🫶🏻 I know you will be able to make it to Korea one day 🤍 I believe in you and wish you nothing but the best!!

So sad to hear. You can do this! 💖 Love from Sweden!

Thank you for sharing this with us. Health absolutely does come first ❤️ You’re doing the right thing for yourself! Please don’t be sorry :( This is so real and makes me feel less alone about difficult and inconvenient decisions I’ve made for mental health as well

It’s okay some times things don’t always go the way we want to hope you still have a happy and fun life ❤

It resonates so much with me in this moment. To all of those people sharing their own experiences in the internet: thank you. Just wanted to let you know that it helps. You’re absolutely right, self compassion is hard but so important at the end of the day. Just yesterday I was telling myself that my body has been through a lot, resisting and doing it’s best to deal with anxiety. I’ve been mentally strong but the body feels it and gets tired. So I told myself that I should treat it well, spoil it a little. Just one day has passed but it already feels nice and it’s paying off 😊 It shows that you have been working on yourself, words are so true and on point. You’re not alone, we’ll go through it together 😉 I’m just learning that to be better we should accept our own limits. Recognizing the problem is the first step. We’ll work on it, and get better of course. Calmly but steady. Take care and best wishes ☺️

Aw man, I felt every word. Mental health comes first in everything - how can we be expected to give to others if we can't give the basics to ourselves. Don't worry about the Korea series or about letting anyone down. You're doing your best, and it's shows 💜 I'm still so grateful I found your channel 💜

I have been taking therapy for the past 1.5 years and it was the best decision ever. I am glad that you’re taking this step. We tend to trivialise our mental well-being a lot. I can’t imagine how hard all of this must’ve been for you. Sending you all my love. ALL OF IT. To you and to Dongin as well. 🫶🏼🫂

It’s so crazy you’re going through this- I’ve been having the same exact thing the past few weeks and am working on the same things in counseling. I had the same sort of childhood experiences which have left me struggling not to be in constant survival mode even though I’m safe. I’ve been struggling SO hard this past while and it’s SO nice to feel like I’m not alone. I’m sorry you’re having to still work through so much- I definitely understand the disappointment! But with time and work, we’ll be able to grow 😊 in the meantime, thank you for being so open and I’ll always love watching your content no matter what! You guys are one of my favorites- thank you so much for sharing your lives with us!

You are a beautiful person. Thanks for sharing and get well soon to fulfill your dreams! With patience, time and effort, everything will be healed ❤

Don't apologise 💜 putting yourself and your health first should be a priority for everyone! We all still gonna support you and Dongin, no matter what🤗

i love genuine Farina is about her emotions, her consideration for others, and the strength she has through hard times like this and i wish you guys the best

You’re so strong and amazing and immensely brave, Farina! Always rooting for you, sending you lots of love and warm hugs!! ♥️

Omg I am so sorry that it had to happen to you, but you are so strong and I am sure you'll be fine, the most important thing is staying safe! And also happy 30th birthday🎉🎉

Thank you for being strong enough to be vulnerable with us. You’re setting a great example of self love and care for so many people this, and I understand how difficult this must be. Things will happen when they are meant to. We will be here with you. Sending you and Dongin so much love. 💜

Oh Farina, I'm so sorry for you and dongin that you keep encountering obstacles like this. I do definitely understand your situation and the complicated feelings that come with anxiety, guilt, excitement and everything at once

Thank you so much for opening up, I have just found this channel. Mental health care and wellbeing is so vital, take all of the time that you need ❤

Thank you Farina for your sharing. It shows that you work on your mental health if you can even share this little. We definitely understand your reason and also it great example of mature you have for sure. Wish you the best and hope you can live your dreams as soon as possible ❤

Donging is "putting up" with those things because you offer him so many other things. People stay by our side because we also have a lot to offer them despite our struggles. And also because they are great people. Praise to a caring and understanding partner

Thank you for sharing this with us. We are here with you through thick and thin, always will be. ❤ You are a wonderful and amazing person and you are so strong! It doesn’t matter living in Korea or Germany as long as you are fine and healthy (both physically and mentally, the second one always forgotten). This shall pass too and someday you will remember this only as “something that made you stronger”, even though now it hurts so bad to the point that doesn’t let you do things that you want to do. The time will come, it always does and everyone has their own times. I look forward the content in the new apartment! I always love your videos, no matter where they are taken or what are they about (videos like this are also needed, even if they are not “happy ones”). I send you all my love ❤️

You are amazing for sharing this. I know exactly how you feel. I struggle with ocd and anxiety. It definitely is a struggle. But you are strong and an amazing women. We will always support you both no matter what. You have to do what’s best for you first.

You definitely helped more than one person by sharing, and being so open about about this. ❤ I wish you all the best, and I (like so many others) will keep supporting and cheering for you. ❤

Your such a beautiful soul. Thanks for such an open video. It really helps.

I really want to hug you and tell you how proud we are of you. You‘re so damn brave to open up abt your mental heath and prioritize yourself! I hope you get better and stay strong

im sorry youre going through this i hope you get better soon . and i appreciate that you mentioned the stigma of mental health , there are definitely still people who dont take mental health seriously 🌹 you always bring our mood up with youre videos but doesnt mean that you also dont feel down too youre also a human after all so dont push yourself take care of yourself and i hope you get better soon 🌹❤

Health always, always comes first, there's no need to apologise! I'm so sorry you've been feeling that way, and I think this is the best thing to do, even though I know you guys were really excited to move to Korea. Just know that we're here to support you no matter what!

I'm sorry to hear that you have to go through this. But as you said: health, especially mental health is very important and need to be taken care of. I hope you will take all the time you need to heal and get better. I know how hard it is, I am also trying to deal with things like this, but I don't have access to a therapist or many friends or family members to talk to. But I am sure that I will be fine at the end of the day. I am proud of you, me, all people who have to deal with mental health stuff. It is not easy and it is very hurtful, especially when people around you don't take you seriously. So keep your head up, it will get better with time c:

We love you💗and will always support you

Sending you a lot of love and thank you for talking so opening and positively about (your) mental health 💜 I have c-ptsd linked to various events, GAD, some OCD and other issues and had to postpone various projets for long including moving abroad but it was for the best and a better timing actually. Now that I’ve moved, I’m still unable to do some projects I planned to do earlier, and it’s mentally hard, but I force myself to believe it’s also gonna be for the best as well with better things at the end, plus personally my mental health tends to develop into bad physical issues as a way to evacuate if I don’t take care of it or ignore it so it’s definitely important to do things as it goes, following the flow, even if it’s hard, the best will come for sure. We love you Farina so don’t worry about disappointing anyone just like it’s ok to not tell us your past we just want you to be fine and happy 💖

Don't worry about us, your health is the most important thing right now, you took the best decision because moving is hard and moving with mental health problems is even worse, we wouldn't want anything bad happening to you. You are so strong and you'll be able to heal, that I'm sure of! You'll get there and you'll be better than ever to do whatever you put your mind into :) I send you both lots of love from Spain! Hoping to see that joyful content whenever you feel ok to post it, don't put too much pressure on you

Thank you for sharing - you do what's right for you! TG life is long and there's always another time to move so do it when you feel 100% sure ❤

Much love to you from a fellow ptsd/ocd person. ❤ You do help so much when you share. Thank you 🙏

All I have to say is that you are a trooper for going threw all the things you have and I appreciate that you want to open up to us about your mentality health. You will get better one day and I think we will all be happy with whatever you have to give us from content. You got this!!!!! ❤

A big hug, please take care. Things get better and you are amazing. Loads of ❤️

Support you 1000% It can make change and routine very hard. It is really important to raise awareness of it. It can cause paralysis in your life. SO thankful you are willing to open up and keep it real!

You talk about it so well💖 everyone’s behind you!

Thank you for sharing Farina, I have been dealing with my own mental health for years and it has its ups and downs. Look forward to the times where you are energised to keep on fighting and set up a daily reminder to love yourself! 💜

You can, you are a fighter...just think about beautiful and positive things and everything you have achieved and how loved you are. Kisses from Paraguay South America. do not worry Be Happy

thank you for sharing it wiht us! I'm glad you were pretty open about it made sure that you updated us on how you have been feeling for the past few months or even years. I'm sad that you are going through so many stuff all at once. I'm SO excited to see your next vlogs, BUT OFC HEALTH COMES FIRST!!

Thank you for sharing this. I pray everything works out for you and Dongin. I love you 😊

I am so proud of you for making time and space for yourself to slow down. You got this girl!!

Danke, dass du das so ehrlich mit uns teilst. Ich bin sicher, dass erschreckend viele mit dir mitfühlen und Verständnis haben. ❤

Farina I feel related to you. I also had a difficult childhood and teenage years because of mu family, and I am just starting to learn how to take care of myself and feel better and deserving. You are not alone

🥺💜 Hope everything will be okay

Thank you for sharing! Mental health is so important and as someone who has PTSD and lived in Korea for two years without speaking Korean I can agree that this is a good decision. Telling our story will help other people see it’s not a bad thing to have mental health struggles and seek help. I moved back to the United States and was able to find a counselor who specialized in PTSD, but those two years in Korea were very tough. Put your mental health first!!! I watch your videos because I like what you do. You could be in Germany or Korea and it wouldn’t matter. Take care!!!! 💜💜💜💜💜💜💜

This helped me so much we have so much in common. You are so strong

Thank you for sharing what you are going trough. Thank you for showing that being vulnerable is okay. Thank you for teaching us by example that health is first ALWAYS. You are a very strong person since you are fighting everyday with all you just mencioned, period. I wish you can find peace soon. I really wish you the best. Lots of love from Peru!

Dearest Farina, Mental health always comes first, and we're so very proud of you for practicing what you preach. As someone whose biggest fear is letting other people and myself down, and whose own mental health often comes in the way of what I want to do, I can only imagine how extremely hard this decision must have been, but I'm 100% sure everyone you love and who loves you would rather you make this huge change in your life when it won't be as triggering for you. Not that you need anyone's approval or permission, but you are absolutely allowed to take a step back and work on stuff that needs to be a bit further worked on, before proceeding to the next step. It's okay if you need more time. Korea will be there when you're ready. I may not know you in person, but from what I know of you I absolutely believe in you and I know you can do it, so I really hope you can take your time and work on your happiness and mental health at your own pace, and I'm sure the time will come for you and Dongin to move to Korea like you wanted 💝 I hope you'll both still be able to enjoy the encore of your stay in Germany, it's a little extension, that's all. You guys are always working hard towards your dreams, I'm sure this detour is just part of your journey. Please trust the process guys, I really believe that when you're ready and when you end up moving it will have been for the best that you waited a little bit longer to do it. Please remember to look back and put things into perspective too, and give yourself credit for the progress you've made so far as well 💕 You've been a source of comfort and happiness in my life for over two years now and I've always appreciated your honesty towards us. Having said that, I really hope you don't feel pressured to share details about your mental health with us unless you want to. We only need to know what you feel comfortable sharing. We just want you to be happy and we'll understand, regardless of how much or how little you disclose🌻 This was a brave decision and I'm sure it was for the best and things will get better. As I said, take your time. We are always rooting for you!! 🌺💗

Proud of you for making such a tough decision Farinha. It can be easy to ignore problems and try and push through. Glad you're taking the time you need so when you do move to Korea it's the right way and you can enjoy it to the fullest. Long term it will all be worth it. Jotatoes are always here supporting you 🥰❤❤❤

Thank you for sharing your story with us. Cheering you on!

Hey, ich bin noch nicht so lange dabei, aber da habt ihr genau die richtige Entscheidung getroffen… Ich kämpfe selber mit meiner ptbs - manchmal mehr und manchmal weniger!! Kümmere dich erstmal um deine Gesundheit ❤das geht immer, immer vor! Korea läuft nicht weg ❤ Du bist unfassbar stark ❤ Ganz viel liebe, Fühlt euch gedrückt

Thank you so much for sharing! As someone who has been deeling with mental health issues (depression, anxiety, panic and this past year PTSD) I absolutely understand. It is really difficult to let go some dreams, but working on yourself and feeling safe is top priority. Take care

I'm experiencing the same think, like trauma, i really feel you, therapy really helps me, and i have seen that is also helping you and thats great. Keep you always save, talk about just do you want, try to keep at the present, those feelings will be fading, step by step. I send you the biggest hug ever Farina

I soo totally understand. Take care of your self. Take it Easy. Much love.

Weiter so! Du schaffst das. Ihr schafft das! Keine Erklärungen sind needed. Viel Erfolg bei dem, was ihr jetzt vor habt und irgendwann ist Südkorea ein neues Kapitel für euch. Es heißt nicht ohne Grund everything happens how it should be and everything happens just on the right time. trust the process. Dann ist genau das eben gut für dich. Gut für euch. Also viel viel Kraft und viel Erfolg! Eine neue Wohnung. Healing und Ruhe ist doch eben richtig toll! Außerdem Urlaub kann man immer machen. Bleibt gesund und munter!

Sending you much love Farina, you're incredibly brave for being so candid. Please do not feel guilty for putting your wellbeing first, it's literally the most important thing... We all support you no matter what! Hugs from England♥

Thank you for sharing this part of you with us. I’m proud of you for making your health your first priority, it is really tough, I have my own issues and you have yours and everybody have theirs and it’s okay, we’re all gonna heal someday if we get the help that we need and you seem like you’re getting it, so take your time everybody has their own pace and you will get there 💜

Hi farina. Thanks for sharing with us. T take your time your mental health is a priority I support you. Y don't you don't need to explain further your mental health is first always all the love and support❤

It's very brave of You to talk about that. Thank You so much for sharing Your experience. Health is the most understandable reason for this decision. I am convinced that this was a good decision for You for now and that You can still follow Your dreams. Just be patient with Yourself❤❤❤

You’re so powerful to talk about this. I’m also struggling with anxiety and panic attacks and cannot talk about it.. it’s okay to take a step back from your plan for health. Your mental health comes first, hope you feel better and I know you will handle it with care, take care ❤

Ah, Farina!!! You are one of the bravest people I "know"!!! I'm so sorry to hear that your move has been postponed, but that just means more "prep time" for when that time does come!! Taking care of yourself is of the utmost importance right now. I have total faith you will work through this, and please don't forget you have lots of virtual shoulders to lean on if/when you need it!! Much love to you and Dongin!!! Looking forward to your next vlog... a new place to make your own!!! Until next time my sweet lady!!! 😁🥰❤

I respect you sooo much for telling us about what you have been dealing with lately. It takes a lot of guts to do so! I was diagnosed with PTSD last year, and so I can sympathise with you love. ❤ Your health comes first, and I applaud you for taking the time to take care of your mental health ❤

I've been there, not exactly the same but I get what takes you back from things you want to do. I sincerely belive you're gonna be all well, have a healty, keeping you happy mind and also a life that you appreciate when you look back. Dont let those things keep you away from the life you want forever. I'm most sure that you'll be all fine, its just you need more time to accept the process. But its all gonna be fine, just a little more time is all you gonna need. Dont push yourself to do anything youre not ready. I support you, I love you. Fighting!

Sending you a lot of love 💜💜💜💜💜 I know what you are going through. You're not alone , fighting ! 💜💜💜💜

Health is the most important thing, thank you for sharing your experiences with us it’s very difficult to do. I have cptsd and started my therapy 4 years ago, as you say compassion is a very important thing for people going through this. Kinda made me cry when you said that because sometimes is difficult to remember that. Thank you for your videos, can’t wait too see what will come next! ❤❤❤

Happy that’s you knew your limit and your doing your best to make yourself better! I’m very glad as you just smile and being healthy💕i’ll support you no matter what content you post as long as it is you💕💕

So sad to hear but it's the best thing to do sort health out before moving how ever long it takes. You both need each other and Korea is going nowhere it's still there and you both are still young. The move has plenty of time to happen. Anyway I'm so glad your working on yourself to heal I wish you all the best :D

We love you 🩷 thank you for being so open, sincere and empathetic. Maybe you don’t know but your channel is a real help for that. So thank you lots of love and well being happy times for you 🩵

You can do it, take your time . Good things always come

Happy birthday ❤ and take care I hope you’re doing fine

I think you made the right decision! Health realy is the most important, so don't worry because of us. You're so brave to talk about it so openly, thank you for the trust!

Your health comes first and is the most important thing. Don't feel bad about postponing things. We can wait and we will whatever long it takes so you can recharge, heal and grow ☺️🪴✨️ We love you Farina, and I'm sure Dongin thinks your health comes first too! You'll get to start your Korean chapter soon! So for now focus on being happy 💖 all the best

Och gottchen, fühl dich gedrückt, du hast es so sehr versucht, es ist vollkommen okay etwas am Ende nicht zu schaffen! 🩷 Versucht neue Erinnerungen und Erlebnisse in Deutschland zu bauen, hab gesehen ihr wart in einem Freizeitpark, perfekt ✨ Es wird alles besser 🩷

I admire you so much Farina !! What you're going through is very hard , exhausting but you are so strong you can do it 🎉 please don't ever apologize for looking out for yourself❤ thank you for sharing it helps a lot of people who are going through something similar , myself included. thank you

You don't have to be sorry for this farina! Health comes first and we love you guys and wants you both to be perfectly healthy and happy so take your time, we support you !! wishing you beautiful beautiful days ahead 😊❤️

I m glad u r doing what is good for u.

Fighting girl… always here supporting you you are so loved you have no idea. I hope you get better ❤

Oh dear...so sorry to know that( But you can do that later 💜you know you're strong! We believe in you💞

Supporting you all the way from Texas. You are strong and have a wonderful partner to help you through this. We will always support you & your decisions and content...wherever it takes you. ❤

You are amazing and beautiful and capable! I struggle with anxiety and panic disorders and these are the three words I use to help myself get grounded again. Thank you for sharing your struggles but I hope you dont feel too obligated to please everyone. Your mental health and happiness is most important. And if people really are your fans then they'd understand. I hope that one day you can live your dream but for now prioritze yourself :) I look foward to any kind of content you decide to give us!

You can and will get through this, and we will always support you. Don't ever feel sorry for prioritizing your health, we love you and if you ever want to share, we will still love you