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Narcissists are a horrible nightmare. They're always angry because they hate themselves and need others to blame. Thank you, Danish 🙏🏻

I saw them for who they are. Actions spoke louder than words. Narcissist will forever be angry at the world even in death. Nothing can satisfy them. No contact

NARCISTIC KNOWS WHAT THEY ARE DOING THEY KNOW THEY ARE GUILTY THEY WILL PUT THE BLAME TO YOU

My ex-boss used to explode into violent rage and cussing in a split second. Thank God I no longer work there.

Sometimes the anger is in fact fake. My dad used to display fake outrage in order to start an argument so he could get out of taking us somewhere or doing something. Three year old trapped in a mans body. I still can’t get my head around the fact he was my parent 😂

Oo oo me, let me try.... A narcys anger really means he hates himself and he takes his anger out on you because you got what he wants to possess

Their anger is painful to be on the receiving end of.

The NARC I live with is angry from the minute they get up till they finally go to sleep - it's the only emotion they have, every other one is somehow converted into anger. Fear is ALWAYS converted into anger and lots of it. Anger is their happiness, when you understand that you understand them.

Danish, I'm so sorry that you grew up that way.🙁 I felt that in my heart. Now that you are a narcissistic abuse professional and have a nice following here on KZfaq, and I'm sure a successful practice in a "brick & mortar" building elsewhere, you're now confronting that raging bull and taking it by the horns. That takes courage, my friend. You came out of the abuse with flying colors and you continue to help other people. We appreciate you!❤️

when you call out a narcissist, remember that the more angrier they get, the more they know (and that's your cue) that you're right. the narcissist is also telling you that they don’t know how to resolve/manage conflict. cheers from southern ontario, canada 🍁

Narcissists are good at choosing people who don’t have friends and family who don’t care for them. They know to fly

Narc anger and rage is terrifying and goes totally out of control...its a nightmare to be close to. And when its combined with borderline and psychopathy traits its like being with the devil...they can explode faster than the blink of an eye and go crazy if they see and think their partner is blinking the eye in the wrong way..narcs are the most fragile and anger abusing persons in this world even the believe they are strong as steel and are never wrong and hurtful

I can relate to this. It's a terrible experience.

Wow! “Stop crying or I’ll give you something to cry about!” 😮😮😮👊🏾

Anger is their favorite emotion. Other emotions in them are undeveloped

Narcissists face karma and their entire life will be failure, poverty driven and failures. Nature and time have their own way of judgements and punishments.

Please make a video on how narcissistic parents sabotage their children's development and how we as children of narcissists can recover from the sabotage

For being a narcisstic abuse coach , you deserve to receive an award , for helping all this emotional damage ! You are a messenger from God !

Yes their rage is just a way of covering up their fake self....but it is ferocious, I say..needs divine power to heal..

The only way is to get out from their hell and try to live withouth them to have peace somehow

It’s amazing that you went through that and did not become a narcissist yourself.

I’m so very sorry You had to live with such Trauma and Abuse ! I can relate , Both My Parents were Demon Possessed 👺and one of my brothers! They all hated Me because I’m always happy 😊 They tried always to destroy My Happiness! My Mumster is 86 and still as Evil as ever ! I’ve recently went no contact! At 64 I’m staying Happy 😊 I’m done with My Narcissistic Family 👺

OMG!!! When you talked about having a fight one night, they have said things that hurt you. It hurts you deeply. Yet, the next morning they act fine and "normal" Wow! I love these videos, because they show me spot on, what I have been dealing with. This is one very painful thing my spouse does to me over and over again. I get up the next morning, there is no apology, not even a single shred of recognition that anything was wrong. And god forbid I bring it up! Then, I am met with more anger and hatred. So, every cruelty he throws at me, I just have to keep stuffing all my hurt, anger and frustration inside myself. He will not allow me to have a voice. I get so sick of it. I'm ready to fly!!! I would not wish a narcissistic partner on anyone!!!

When they are reminded of their inadequacies, it manifests as anger. They vent it on their most convenient supply, even if that supply is not the source of their shame. It’s their psychotic need to feel powerful again and the only way they know how to reboot and recharge is by making someone else feel powerless, inadequate and insignificant.

this is exactly what my husbnd is. i suffered a lot. before i didn't have idea about narcicist 😢 more than 10 yrs of marriage 😥

THEY KNOW WHAT THEY ARE DOING THEY KNOW THE GUILT I SWEAR TO GOD THEY KNOW WHAT THEY DOING . PLEASE DO MORE RESEARCH I HAVE EXPERIENCE WITH THAT ALL YEARS STILL TODAY . THEY KNOW WHAT THEY DOING

Silent treatments are a pleasant break from their constant demands.

any anger causes me instant PTS . my dad was a very angry man untill he was half drunk . then i marry a gal with extreme anger issues that i thought i could fix by “ turning the other cheek “ it doesn’t work. i tried for 40 years. if your in that spot … Run !!! you can not help them or change them 😞

And the stare... He thinks the stare scares me. And when I laugh the anger gets louder and so does my laugh. 🤣 (working on escape plan, no worries)

Wow! So true. This is what I experienced many many times with my husband who is now my ex. I was even still kinda friends with him up until about 4-6 months ago when I told him nicely that sometimes we have to make amends to people in our lives and I mostly meant his kids and his one sister who no longer talks to him. His sons rarely talk to him, our oldest because at his wedding his dad got super drunk, though my sons groomsmen all told him not to drink (he’s an alcoholic) and was hitting on a young woman who was working there and the older woman, her boss, cut him off. Anyway he was an embarrassment like he always is when he gets drunk. Our middle son talks to him once in a great while. Our daughter lives her dad, even forgave him for choking her out one night when he was super drunk. Well after I said that he switched in a second, started screaming at me that he didn’t have to answer to anyone except God who loves him unconditionally. He called me a bitch and told me to get the f out. I did and told him before I left “dude, you’re messed up”. That’s when I decided (way past due) that I would not talk to him ever again. All the years I was with him, close to 30 (yeah I can’t believe it either) he would always go into a rage if anyone criticized him or confronted him on his wrong behavior. Never takes responsibility for his actions, always blames others, acts immature and insecure. It was so dysfunctional I can hardly believe I stayed so long. I actually kicked him out so many times I lost count, but kept taking him back even after he cheated on me in our own bed (I found out years later he bragged to my brother and my daughter that he cheated on me many times besides that), hoping he’d grow up, be responsible, quit drinking, quit doing drugs, quit wanting to party and blast music, which he did at times but it never lasted. There were so many problems in our marriage, too much to go into here. And I’m not saying I was not at fault. I never appreciated the good things he did. I always found one thing he didn’t do and complained about that. Maybe I never loved him like I should have, unconditionally like a biblical wife should. He even said he was never good enough for me. He was illiterate as far as he couldn’t spell and always acted childish and goofy which embarrassed me or he’d get jealous for no reason. I never wanted to go out with him in public. He did things to make me happy, built me furniture, made our yard really nice cause I wanted a nice yard, found the house I still live in that we bought though he didn’t ask or tell me about it beforehand, only told me we were buying it. Anyway I could go on and on but I’ll stop now. I just can relate to what you are saying. I pray for him and really do wish him the best. I hope he has an epiphany or that God speaks to his heart and mind and soul and that he’ll realize all the people he’s hurt and ask for forgiveness. I hate to think there is no hope for these people cause that to me is the saddest thing. Need his willingness to admit and wanting to reach out to God and God’s help after that.

Thank you so much for being strong enough to share your story and give actual support to people. My parents were both narcs. Finally I feel happy and free after years of their ingrained abuse and neglect. Freedom tastes so good!

I believe my father is covert, but he has massive rages. My mother is the more overt, grandiose narc, and she will just get angry and rage and run into her room and slam the door and throw a temper tantrum(but she also will give the silent treatment, not want to talk to you, etc, etc). Dad will explode and get in your face like he wants to fight you. One day I will most likely not be able to hold back and will push him or hit him. One time I got so angry while washing my hands I thew soap at him, and he was saying how "Childish" it was. IT was better than me punching him in the face. I don't even remember what it was, but i was so angry. These people are so rage inducing.

Yes, for myself, I became a big people pleaser and as a kid I think I was always fawning as a protective mechanism

Danish, I'm so sorry you had to go through that kind of suffering growing up as an innocent, loving boy. I wish I could have been there to protect you from your father's physical and mother's mental abuse. I too had a malignant father and covert mother and can relate to him smashing things, the blood, and sheer terror. Thank you for giving millions of people a better place to live. Much love and respect.

I didn't understand why they were angry until this video. I tend to give people the benefit of the doubt...thinking maybe they are having a bad day, personal issues, or there's a misunderstanding. Now I know better...it's one of the many ways they use to control and manipulate you. Thank you Danish for another insightful video.

Thank You Danish, this video hits home just like ALL of your videos do. Thank you for telling us what goes on behind a narcissist's words and actions. For many years, I thought my sibling's arrogance and hostility towards me was because I was the lowest person on earth. She & my mom have such a vicious, vindictive, aggressiveness towards me. They went out of their way to inculcate the false narratives that I believed for decades about myself. They present themselves as superior & all knowing. They are monsters who love inflicting pain. They tried to destroy me, but failed because thanks to your information about narcissism, I am able to know how to deal with these sick people. Your malignant narc dad is a monster who tried, but also failed to take you down. It was /is wrong for them ( your parents) to abuse you like this. Thank you for freeing us from the false narratives the narcissists create out of their envy and insecurities. I am empowered and no contact for almost 2 yrs now. Thank you Danish😁

This morning it happened🎯

Your recommended proactive response at the end of this video truly works. I found it by trial and error by myself years ago, but it actually helps tremendously. Thanks for so effectively equipping and validating the rest of us.

Thank you for sharing what you experienced from your horrific NPD experiences and allowing the rest of us to glean from that knowledge in our own healing journeys.

How about the road rage...I had years of it, as a passenger in the car and with my small children. It was terrifying.

A demon comes out in fact!

“ if there is ANYTHING that every narcissist has, it is anger “ That is an absolutely true umbrella -an absolute! Rage. Irresponsible screaming.

I don’t know Dinesh. The “insecure” as I define it, doesn’t jibe with the vicious attack - animalistic (a rabid animal- BC most animals have a reason to attack you!) .

When the narcissist is quiet, not arguing and exploding in a rage makes me think that the narcissist is not feeling well.

You don't mess with me is the exact words I heard. I thought to myself. I'm a Narc warrior. U don't mess with me

My mother was angry all her life, all the time. She even didn't know to laugh.

Thank You Danish for being a Healer from GOD. Turning your suffering from your tramatic life into global help for educating countless people about the diabolical disorder. I had two narcissist's for parents, & others out of my life now.Double Blessingsto YOU.

Danish, this one is PERFECT. I listened as I drove to work and it truly was as if you were speaking to me. SO accurate. I love knowing that I am not going crazy. My EXISTENCE is not the problem. This is just such freeing truth. Still so unpleasant dealing with the seethingly angry narcissist in my life, but it's HER problem, not mine. Thank you for all you do!!

When I mentioned losing our baby partly due the stress he was sending me through (mind you, the baby he initially set out to intentionally get me pregnant with because when we first met I was animated about not having any more kids and when I first found out I was pregnant he was excited immediately called and told some of his family and friends but I guess once his former fiancé/discard, current re-idolization/supply gave in and started entertaining him and eventually started sleeping with him, he no longer wanted my baby and told me to choose between having him or having my baby and when I chose my baby, he still stayed but only up until 2 1/2 weeks after I miscarried my baby.) But the day when I said he was part of the reason why I miscarried my ex covert malignant narc eyes went black and he lashed out with vengeance at me.😕 and I knew it was because it made him feel a smidge of guilt or shame.

I have been battling CPTSD from my mother’s narcissistic rage. She is at her end of life now, and I didn’t realize how her rage had impacted me until she had to go to a care facility and I had to start managing her affairs. Ugh! I tried to power through the freeze response and the shaking episodes, but thinking of who she is behind the rage seems like an insightful solution. Thank you Danish! 🙏🏽

Your description of the parental silent treatment is chilling. This was used against me specifically when I called out the parent’s behaviour - the ensuing ice forcing me to capitulate and apologise.

He’s grumpy and angry all day everyday. I can’t take it anymore. This gives me some hope thanks for the video❤

this is spot on, my mum is also the queen of silent treatment, its been almost six months now since she spoke to me and she's just in the room next 2mine...

I recently had a confrontation my neighbor due to his passive aggressive conduct to annoy me. He frequently waits until after my gardener has just finished cleaning everything up, then gets out his leaf blower to blow the leaves from the front of his house into my yard and driveway. I asked him to stop doing this previously about a year ago and he stopped but started again recently so I waited until I caught him in the act. He initially backed down but a few hours later sent a misleading text to all the neighbors that mischaracterized the situation in order to triangulate them against me. I responded by diplomatically putting the situation into its true context which exposed his hidden agenda to our he neighbors. That triggered him to respond with narcissistic rage and exposed his malign intent for everyone to see.

THEY ARE BROKEN

The rage is like disassociation. Very scary to witness.😢 Then they say "I love you." You realize they have no clue what love is.

Dear God, thank you for Danish’ journey and his testimony to help us. Thank you for keeping him alive, safe and for healing him. May his journey continue to be a blessing for others lives. Amen 🙏

You never fail to amaze me, Danish! Such stamina u have! Could u talk about the anger expressed by the narcissist versus the reactive anger of the victim that is inappropriately imposed on innocent others in relationships. This out-of- proportion reactive anger leads to deep shame felt by the victim all due to the abuse he or she suffered at the hands of their narc parents. Hope that's clear. Thanks for all! 😊

in my case, the horrific anger ...is that the whole family freezed me out.... the hidden anger behind the fake facade, in my opinion, is the real horror.

Yes, the angry facial expression my mother shows when I say no or call her out on the lies, she's trying to sell. The lip biting and brief change of tone on her skin shows her anger. Now that it doesn't scare me anymore, she tries snide comments and raising her voice.

I feel, have lived and am still living with your kind of pain.

My heart goes out to you, learning what terrible abuse you have had to go through.

Your parents are lucky. Despite of the abuse you that you went through, you still became a good son. So sorry Danish, I could relate to your problems. Thank God I made it through as well. God bless us.

The thing that he said that made me grab what I could and leave... "violence is my demon"

Danish: Excellent Video.. Thank You. It's remarkable you have managed to Survive your Narcissistic Abuse & become such a Help in Enlightening others.

I saw and felt the split inside the demon, so scattered feelings in him, I felt sorry for the narc person who had that inside of him.

What about those of us abuse victims who are angry? I think that it really depends on case by case. I get ANGRY at the narcissists, my parents.

You are so spot on Bashir. Thank you for turning your pain into power. Your speaking about it so accurately is bringing liberty to many. Thank you

I am so sorry for everything you have gone through, you should be extremely proud of yourself. I cannot explain to you how helpful you have been for me, I watch your videos for quite some time, and slowly I am taking steps to protect myself from the demon I share a child with. From the bottom of my heart, thank you

Danish, The way you described your father sounds very much like the doubling down that narcissist do. Instead of feeling guilt and remorse, which they can’t deal with, they continue the abuse.

It’s like you’ve been in my house. Especially the all you do is blame me, stonewalling for weeks, just fucking sucked being punished for caring about our relationship. It broke my heart. I finally gaining the courage not to go back after being discarded and stonewalled for confronting him for cheating and living a double life. It’s been very helpful finding these channels to help me see the abuse that I have been enduring and I didn’t know it. We have been going to separation counseling now and he’s been saying that I’ve been terrible to him, I wasn’t safe and all kinds of things, I was starting to think I was a crazy narcissist myself but my own therapist said there is no fucking way., my friends and family also said I am not the kind of person he’s been saying I am. But wow, literally questioning my own character is insane.

Danish, I appreciate your personal anecdotes during the videos. They make the information more relatable. Unfortunately, the best therapists in this area seem to have gotten hit with the worst luck in life via NPD parent/s. Thanks so much for sharing your experiences and what you've learned!

Danish, Im so sorry you went through all this. You are a very empathetic, kind, genuine guy (besides of being very handsome, as well), you definitely didnt deserve such a treatment, and, even worse it came from your own family. LOL. Wish You the best. You are such an inspiration and honestly, a very needed medicine for all of us out there - survivors of narcissistic abuse. 😍🤩🥰

My father was the same as yours Danish with the bulging eyes, clenching teeth and fists while beating my mother, brother or myself. I thought that his deep rooted anger derived from being drafted into the Vietnam war. I am sorry for what you have endured Danish😢 I have seen that intense level of abuse with my own eyes and the frightening shouting with my ears. Especially toward my brother who was a well behaved intelligent kid that never did anything that bad at all. He was projected onto so badly. Over what? I could never understand. My brother has fallen off the deep end long ago as he could no longer remain strong and became a very broken person😢 I am saddened by the tragedy over my family over narcissistic abuse. Now I have to deal with the narcissistic cult with my in-laws. The three oldest women in my husband's family. My husband was/is the scapegoat child. It pains me to watch him be their doormat. The narc cult has tried to groom me into being their doormat too. During the pandemic, I realized I was playing along due to my lifelong people pleasing tendencies. I was so much happier with my life social distancing because I was not around the in-laws. I have distanced myself as much as possible from them since and that loss of control over me drives them crazy.

They make me sick!!

Thank you for making these videos. I understand the feeling you had as a child. I was raised by an abusive alcoholic stepfather from age 5-15 and my mother was a victim and could not protect me at that time. He was very abusive and controlling and scary. Walking on eggshells my entire childhood. I am not sure if he was a narcissist but definitely toxic and demonic, especially since he was consumed by alcohol. Thank you for sharing your experiences, your videos help me tremendously ❤

so much informative.. thank u brother Danish . U r being blessed everyday coz u r helping others to find a way out.. n u urself was a victim . Feel sad wen hearing ur story. . but the most important part is that only good endings count ... U r loved by many . Stay honored n blessed

My mom who I believe is a covert narcissist just had a medical scare. She had to have a biopsy on her breast to see if she had cancer. To say it terrified me would be an understatement. She already goes on god hates me rants if the simplest things go wrong and I knew if it was positive my life would literally be over. Thank goodness it was negative. I’ve never prayed for something that hard in my life. She then said things on social media saying god is good but then as soon as our tv died she went right back into her ways. I’m so sick of it but I can’t leave cause I’m disabled and telling her she needs help will make it worse .

Dear Danish, I'm sorry about your parents. They sound like my parents. I'm very sorry. My father was physically abusive (I don't know, if he was a narcissist. He was a mean alcoholic.) I believe my mother was a covert narcissist, but I didn't understand for yrs and yrs. My mother lied about most everything. I didn't realize how much she lied until I was 28 and married. My husband helped me understand, plus he supported me and was honest with me like no one in my family ever was. I'm currently 65 and live alone. I moved (10 mos ago) next to a violent, controlling, narcissistic woman. I'm barely acquainted with her. For 6 mos she's been vandalizing my property and harassing me. I've ignored her so far. I thinking about security cameras although i have a feeling that will insight her. She doesnt seem to sleep. She's destroying my privacy fence and denting my siding. I don't know this woman. We met briefly, 6 mos ago? I follow the the videos and i avoid her. Shes escalating. I guess i have to move? Thanks for all replys!

You're a true Warrior of The Light Danish..You are helping so many. Bless you ❤

Funny how the narcissist flips it so YOUR the narcissist never takes accountability. Peace to all! Thank you

Danish you are genius man.

Danish brother you nailed it....100% correct...I am living this every day....

This is so true 😐

This is so true: this guy kept saying we are installed lanes and I would say so you want to break up and then he would ask me what are you talking about! Finally the therapist said to ask hi. Directly. He then said he did not want a divorce. I just had to end this.

My parents were both narcissists and a lot like your parents. My dad was often in a rage, yelling for the least reason or for no discernible reason at all. My mom was a covert narcissist and would pout and give silent treatments for weeks at a time.

I got out of a relationship 80 days ago. I miss her , to tell the truth. But when l remember her anger, her paranoic jealousy, her control of what and how l must say it , how to behave . The fact that l had to lie to her when l was spending time with my children from an other marriage because she had literally prohibited that to me. Lies only to keep her calm. An entire year of pure hell. Only the sex was good. Actually awesome. The unique moment of tenderness and happiness. I loved her. Because at the beginning she had a total different character. When l realized that sth was wrong, l started to lie like a coward because l couldn't stand her anger and her silent treatment. God enlightened me and gave me the courage to leave her. At the beginning she agreed too.With rage of course. But after 2 hours she called me and told me not to leave. And if l leave, it will be my fault not hers. The last thing she said was "and now how am l going to pass my nights?". Needless to say that in the mornings she was waking up furiously and cursing everyone she knew and was going to her mother for coffee. If this is not narcisstic female, can anybody please tell me , how else can it be?

Sadly I've allowed myself to become an angry person after 40+ years married to what I now realize is a narc. Now that my eyes are opened I can no longer tolerate the behaviors of my narc or his flying monkeys. I'm weary of being a miserable angry person. I used to be optimistic and it made me part of the problem because I kept trying to be his 'problem solver' so that things could get better. Nothing ever got better. There was ALWAYS something, and usually the same sh*t over & over again. I was a narc enabler. 😢

Resonate totally with the facial distortion,clenched fists etc. Even my dads hair and eyebrows would stick up when he lost his temper. I saw him wave a clenched fist at a toddler of a complete stranger in a supermarket with his face screwed up with rage. That was when it finally hit me that he has got a mental problem.

Danish ur my favorite Narcissistic Abuse awareness channel.Thank you for everything you do for your viewers❤❤❤🕊🙏🥲🥰🥰🥰🥰🥰🥰🥰

Spot on.🎉thx for sharing.

Danish- you are always so spot on! Bless you Sir.

It's kind of sad because you talk about "Stonewalling" people and that's what I've been doing TOWARDS my parents. It's the constant abuse, and then they want to be friends again, especially my father. With my mother, she always needs attention and ignoring her, being mean to her, etc, etc results in punishments, and dad raging at me, because he is her puppet/attack-dog. But if I get angry at dad, don't talk to him, etc, etc, he doesn't do anything. He will try to talk to me, and I will just ignore him and walk past him. It makes me feel bad, but I'm tired of it. Every time he talks to me it's always like a game. I feel he's either trying to get something from me, get me to do something, etc etc... For instance, he will come to my room and say "hey sweety, good morning," I wil say hi, and then he will start complaining about everything that's an issue, usually things mom tells him, but sometimes things he wants too. I just CANNOT DEAL WITH IT. Overall, It's beyond upsetting. Both having to deal with it, but also ignoring him and just being mean and such. Isn't that what we are told to do... "Gray Rock" vs these Narcs? But it sounds like the exact "Stonewalling treatment" that you're saying Narcs do to us... So how is it any different? Is it that we are doing it towards our abusers....? While they are doing it as a punishment? Maybe they see it as we are the abusers? Maybe it's really the same side of the coin? ------------------------- I don't want to act like this, I just don't want to deal with their abuse. I HATE MYSELF for how angry and mean and everything towards my "Father." But learning that the man who I thought was my everything, the center of my universe.... etc etc, is actually an abusive sack of sht... It does something to you. It causes rage beyond what ANYONE should ever have to experience. The amount of RESENTMENT I have towards him is something I don't know if I will be able to heal from. I've realized over the years.... You just don't do/act this way towards your child.

My exwife declared ' I'm a feminist' on our first date. That should have been our last date if I was smart. She had this anger in her that made me slightly wary at first ,trying to figure out why she had it. But she was simply beautiful in looks. That affects a mans judgement. We married and very quickly she showed her true self. Within a year I did not want to go home after work. Sometimes I'd sit in my car and cry than face the loneliness and abuse that excisted in that house. She drove me to a nervous breakdown. Then dumped me. That was a long time ago. I'm very happy now.

The same stories behind closed doors.... i am speechless

This describes my ex to a T.. We always blamed it on the fact that he was a recovering addict and this was typical addict behavior. He was also a sex addict. After 23 years together, 13 of those years he was a active in N.A. He left me for an affair that had been going on for 10 years off and on. She ended up marrying someone else. A few years later he sought therapy and it was very intense and lasted for a few years. It changed him completely and he treated his new girlfriend totally different than when we were together. Next month he will 40 years clean. He moved back to our city and all I know is that she wasn’t really into him and after 14 years with her it has ended. I always heard from my kids that based on what she says, he only raised his voice to her once. It was practically a daily thing when I was married to him. From what I can see the few times I’ve been around him he’s much calmer. They say narcissism cannot be cured, so maybe he was just displaying addict behavior, and was not happy in our marriage.

Truth! Great video! 👏👏💯💥

Keep doing what u do, Danish. Wish u'd bn around many years ago. Took some of us many years to realize & recognize these traits. Believe me, u will help many, sooner than later

i just dont wanna end up with a bullet in the back of my head