"Freed from delusive hindrance, and rid of the fear bred by it..." This is a beautiful line from the Heart Sutra. I think the subtle obstructions, and beliefs...that keep the 'selfing' structure operating at a distance from life itself... Is what feels like the struggle against life, suffering (when striving, fixating, trying to attain etc, is acted upon.) It feels like effort and therein lies the discomfort; when instead of being able to fully be alive to life, and enjoy a simple moment... there's something internal pulling you away, and you're sucked back under that pressure cooker, of constantly feeling a sense of having to fight upstream against the flow of life. It feels so alienating, and uncomfortable (like you can never truly let your guard drop, or relax; hide yourself.) There's a sense of having to constantly try to achieve something, figure something out. The sad thing is an entire life goes wasted, unnoticed, unappreciated...because, it's so hard for the mind to detach from the spider's web of entangling self-identifying/referencing thinking loops. It feels like a trap, or a maze. Patterns of reactivity, triggered, and getting re-lost in mind. Struggling to enjoy life (being on edge) IS feeling disconnected/alone/ out of sync... with life. Like a stranger here. "Touching from a distance, further all the time", as Ian Curtis sang. I always remember that lyric. "Fear is an ancient driver - - fear of failure to conform, driving the selfing mechanism to figure out a way to alleviate the pain of suffering. What I'm finding is that everything seems to be connected - there's a playful aspect to life (aka the greatest teacher I've ever had 😂) and an impulse to just simply stop everything I've been doing, a complete standstill, and an easing off the pedal, a complete rest. It feels glorious, to just relax, and appreciate the little moments in my everyday life. I've realized that I've been more dead than alive, and almost blind to being alive. I've wasted precious life trying to crack the puzzle of my life, and trying to solve my worldly problems, but they were problems only because I believed that something fundamentally was wrong with my life, and that gosh, there must be a mistake here. "I didn't ask for this." This is the belief I held onto. "I didn't ask to be born." Real victim mentality, which is self-defeating, and a complete waste of energy, and a futile belief to drown in. What's been most helpful is actually simply enjoying my life, as twee as that sounds. Being attentive and engaging with everyone I come into contact with. I've been learning alot from my nieces and nephew about how to have fun again, and how to enjoy life like I remember when I was a kid. It's been revitalitizing being around the kiddos. I remember this feeling of carefree joy. It really was freeing. I remember playing, exploring, laughing and having fun. Everything was wonderful. I loved being alive, I remember going to bed satisfied, and waking up excited for a new day. It's about living in the flow of life. Life is a precious gift. This is the true miracle here... the miracle of our life, and experience of BE-ing. It's the true joy of being alive, simply because we are. Trusting in life's impulse to show me what I need to see, and feel and trusting my own instincts to rest, and allow myself to merge with the... 🌊... to embrace what may come 🙏🏻 💛☺️

I wouldn't say I'm entirely awake. However, lately I've been experimenting with sodalite on the heart chakra. It's decreasing emotional hyper sensitivity, and making me feel much less attached to problems, anger and irritation. There is greater emotional peace. I'm going to keep going with it. It's clearly smoothing out emotional issues.

Dear Angelo! You are such a support with this undoing...many thanks for explaining it so clearly and thorougly...you bring this whole business home by laying it out for us in such an evolved way of guidance...not just an angle or level but all the way through to to the core...I thank you deeply for it...if you go on like this it will soon be taught at universities...

You people better put this on repeat. This is gold.

,,,in a way i feel more separate from the worldy affaires,from concepts which drives humans,,,,,but i am more closer to me and to my body sensations(,,,tell me a lot about the human condition) and looking at with an amaze curiosity

It happens when it happens. Certainly we can impede progress. Don’t try to hurry low-tide, nor an astronomical eclipse. Peace.

Before this terrible Depression I was happy without knowing anything about this. Now, I'm suffering beyond imagination and all I can do is to listen to videos like this. I want this to go away but how?

The logo of this channel is very similar to what i saw in my first mystical experience. A shiny void was in the center, and for a few seconds, I experienced extreme spaciousness. i was a beginner then and had no idea about non-duality or anything beyond the mind. I was just meditating and did the 'Who am I?' inquiry without realizing it. I hope for it to happen again someday. Currently, I'm still experiencing an identity crisis, just like I was back then

Gratitude.

Your videos really help. Please keep making them. Your authenticity is healing. Thank you.

This is just what i needed, learning about fixations. Now i can see my patterns in another new light, thank you.

I heard you use the word fixation in another video. Gave me an ah ha moment in conjunction with examining my relationship to certain experiences. ❤❤❤. This is super super good stuff.

You're doing a fantastic work. I see my path to full realization a real possibility with your teaching method

Thanks for the sharing your love of truth, to guide us. Love and courage to all to come home to IT.

Thank you I needed to hear this.

Thank you brother, for sharing for realizations and anointing with us! 👊❤️🙏

Words are clumsy. You do a good job at saying what is difficult to convey, or Even impossible at times. 🌩🙏🌩

Thank you Angelo ❤

Thank you so much Angelo ❤🙏✨

I also thank you deeply Angelo! Vida said all that I feel about your guidance❤

Calling it fixation is a helpful word to tune into the suffering for me

Thank you

To me it feels like seriousness and a great sense of self-importance.

It seems like there might be 2 natural modes. Naturally falling into the illusion as well. As I progressed through my disentanglement, a natural question arises. What are the mechanisms of why 99% of humans fall into that default mode and are trapped in the illusion of self. Understanding those conditioning moments from the time you are born to the time your 15 years old are likely the sources. The very act of learning words, learning mathematics, learning how to communicate, labeling everything that you can be aware of, appear to create all of those beliefs and lock them into position they seem immovable. Until you take large amounts of LSD then you can naturally let it fall away. I wonder if seeing the source may help others disentangle. Fantastic videos!

My current feeling is that there is suffering, selfing, resisting, doubting, and doing... but I no longer feel that "I" am doing it, nor do I worry that "I" need to intervene And now I'm laughing at loud at myself for even writing this and trying to put it into words- what did you do to me Angelo 🤣

I struggle to know whether I’m making breakthroughs or not. Occasionally, I will have an experience while meditating that feels like a breakthrough, but I struggle to find that perspective again, making me doubt whether the experience was a step in the right direction or another distraction in itself. I’ve been intrigued by non-dualism and practicing, but I’m not sure how to make that first step happen.

The separate self and consciousness are illusions. Even the illusion is not not real. What is it, then? This is it, without knowing. For no one.

The statements that start with "I" usually create suffering. This natural human tendency to go "I am like this..." "look, I'm this kind of person..." "my true core self is..."comes from misleadingly destructive urges. It should be observed through Buddhist methods and understood,to trancend the suffering it creates. It feels like a loss at first, the idea of being without it, but human life without it is free and easy.

After an hour of group meditation, the monks hear questions and many questions sound like a struggle to frame ideas about self into a question about the dammha. Maybe those ideas and feelings recieve new resistant energy after meditation because weve made some progress against it.

YES more work 💪🏽 bring it On 🙌🏽🙌🏽🙌🏽 😅🤣🤣🤣

Can awakening happen gradually (without a big sudden shift) for some people? Does liberation happen gradually or is there a sudden shift that finalizes it?

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Do you have any tips for looking for teachers/retreats online?

About the topic of retreats, does it matter what kind of retreat it is? Vipassana or zazen or any other method?

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This is where I am now. How can I arrange a one on one session with you?

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Angelo, EVERY time I do self-inquiry my body tenses up like it’s bracing for something. Is this just anticipation and not really a fear barrier?

This is so helpful. Im curious to ask Angelo, is this message of fixation relevant to the saying "if you see the buddha on the road, kill him"? Thanks!!!!

Who is he talking to, if there is no separate self? If I don't pay my rent does he get evicted? If you get cheated by someone you trusted, does he lament? If I am not at the drivers seat which implies I don't know what I doing, why should I be listening to you? How are you any different from me?

If there is no separation, no separate distinct self or entity... who is investigating and for whose benefit? Also, you cannot show me Consciousness or Awareness without a separate self to point it out, conceive it and perceive it. Consciousness and Awareness are already part of the dream along with the "I". Unborn without knowledge.

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