The love I'm getting from people on the comment section is unbelievable. Thank you so much for everyone sharing their thoughts and experiences. I've been gone for KZfaq for a long time because my life has just been super hectic. I'm beyond inspired from everyone's comments here. I want to come back but I want to ask you guys if there is anything specific you'd like me to film. I have so much free time during this whole pandemic so please drop comments down below what you'd like to see. Stay safe, we will get through this together.

“And when you come home everything seems like you never left except everything is different, your friends just aren’t the same anymore. you are not the same anymore” SOMEBODY FINALLY SAID IT thank you

i got sent home early bc of coronavirus and never got to say goodbye to my friends, havent stopped crying

My family has been hosting exchange students for about 9 years (I’m 16 now) and we have had 16 exchange students. I’ve basically grown up with having a new person in the house every year and it really is an awesome experience. I honestly highly recommend hosting to anyone considering. The relationships I’ve had with each and every one have helped me to grow as a person and learn so much. I’ve gone from being a 7 year old little sister to being an older sister. We have had hard times with the students for various reasons, but we always manage to solve the problem and learn from it. I don’t even know who or where I would be today without all of my siblings around the world and I love them all so much and can’t wait to continue hosting. Leaving is always the hardest part and I cry every time because of the relationship I’ve created. It’s like having a sibling, but also a friend living with you at all times. I wouldn’t change anything for the world.

My exchange ended a month ago and i can't stop being sad... That video made me cry so much... You put everything I'm feeling into simple words. It was the worst feeling I had to have to leave and think that I don't even know if I'm gonna see them again... And , even if I see them again, it will never be the same, it will never be the same life, "daily" life that I had. And also, that's true, when you're back, nobody cares about what you lived but that's the moment you need the most to talk and there is no one to talk with about it. Because no one around you know what it is to litterally have to leave a life behind you.

And now I'm super scared and I'm going to Finland for an year (as an exchange student) in 9 days AAAAAAAAAAAAAH

I’m crying even if I’ve never experienced it :(

Everyone's crying 4 their exchange year and I'm crying bc I missed my one chance of having one and now I'm too old and I know I'll never know what it feels to have it

I went on exchange to Italy about five years ago. Just want to pop in and say how truly sorry I am for those exchange students who had to come home due to the Coronavirus. I’ve been thinking of y’all lately. 😔

yes its 100% true:, but at least you didn’t get send back home because of coronavirus edit: omg thank you for the likes (I feel sorry for every exchange student, bad things happen and this sucks. I hope everyone stay strong and stay healthy. Maybe you can spend more time with your host family if you’re still at your host country but if you get sent home I felt so sorry for you, I also get sent back home bcz of this. Guys corona issa bitch 😬 but yeah always keep yourself positive (virtual hug) 💕 💫) sorry for my grammar Im suck at it

I'm currently in Finland as an exchange student, I don't wanna return home ever

Her: you are going on an exchange this year. Me: was, I was going

the part about coming back and everything’s the same but it’s also not hurt me so much when i came back from my exchange, before i left i had the most amazing relationship with my best friend, we’d spend every day together, no secrets, endless support. and now, we’re kind of distanced and it hurts so freaking much but at the same time i just shove it down and tell myself that that’s just how it is even though i am deeply sad. i’ve never talked about this to anyone and i just realised it actually feels good to let it out, even if it’s just in a comment on youtube...

"And everyone gets so tired of listening to you talking about your year". Man, I really felt that

The blessing and the curse of living a year as a exchange student. The "new normal" is hard to shake off......it takes awhile not to feel like a visitor in your own home, more or less your home country. A woman of two countries...now...the world is not enough.....your Finland reality is normal...and that is the problem. The slump after a exchange can last a year after.....some put on a brave face and move forward with school or work...and some go back to school or work and think, how did I live like this before????

I so wish I had an amazing year like most of y’all apparently had. I lived with two 70 year olds without any kids, after one month I figured out why they seemed to be forgetting things I was telling them in the evening. They were addicted to drinking. My host dad was serving in the Vietnam war and was suffering from post traumatic stress disorder. When I told my organisation they were like : well it’s normal in Louisiana people drink and party a lot. But it was not just drinking, it was alcoholism and for me it was scary. For me it was not the best year of my life, it was one of the hardest. The day I got to go back home was the best day of my life seriously. This year was actually so hard on my psyche that I was admitted to a psychiatric hospital three months after returning to Germany. I am very happy for everyone who had a great year ! It is just not like that for everyone.

I'm not even an exchange student and this made me cry!! I've spent weeks convincing my mom to let us host someone forever, and she is saying for a semester. It's my last year being in high school and I really want to make a new friendship. Our only problem was that she didn't think we'd have enough money for someone else in the family, especially around Christmas. But I am really hoping she'll let us for the 2020-2021 school year, so I can make friends with her as my last year. But of course I am still scared because I don't know if she will like anything we provide her or not.

To everyone thinking they're too old bc they didn't go in high school: No, you're not. There are still people hosting "older" forgeiners and if you're adult, you even might be allowed to do more (like drinking if you're over the legal age in the country or going on longer trips with friends) or if you're in college you can spend a semester abroad. Of course you can't go to prom or something similar but I believe everything has their own advantages. Let's just hope everyone stays safe during corona🙏

Got me crying in the club right now

I just wanted to say not everyone is having a good exchange year and companies always put the best exchange years as as example and trick people

This made me tear up. I've been in America last school year and I miss the people and the life so much. I am planning on visiting them in June but because of the Coronavirus the flight might get canceled and it breaks my heart. It was what kept me going this whole year.

this made me cry. i had to return back home from ireland five days ago because of the coronavirus. i felt bad for not wanting to come home because i love my family and friends here but i just didn't want to leave my life behind in ireland. especially without saying goodbye to most of my friends i met there. i can relate to this video in so many ways. xx

People will change no matter what. I moved to the USA and when I went back to my birth country (Brazil) everything and everyone was different. My best friend of 10+ years had new best friends and that hurt me so bad bc even tho I was away from her I didn't make a connection with someone like she did when I wasn't around. My family completely changed, my cousins were different people, more mature, my house and the streets were different. Another year went by and when I got to visit my country again and my friends were separated, different schools, new friends, they became strangers and I was just there in the middle of what we used to be and what we are now, and it was so sad to see it and not being able to do anything about it. People will change and there's nothing we can do about it.

When I finished my one year abroad, I was done with it, I was just so hommesick, I could not wait to get home, but since then, I miss it, now it hasn't been one week where I don't think about, I miss the small things, but I miss most how I felt there, free. It's five years already, so much happened, but still, I wish someone could take me back

This didnt help this made me scared of going on an exchange :((

I am from Denmark, and at the moment, I am making an exchange year in Chile.... Everything is so different, but at the same time, it is the same. You create a new life. You have two worlds. You are trying to combine the two worlds and trying to find a balance between those two lives. Sometimes you feel like you are loosing home, and that you have forgotten your life in your home country. You feel bad about it and are scared of losing the people at home if you do not have contact with the people at home regularly. You put much pressure on you - to “be there” in the moment and at the same time give the attention to your home country, On the other hand, you know that you only have a year here and want to live out every moment that you have. But that is hard. Fucking hard, actually. You are desperate to obtain all the things you see with your eyes. Sitting in the bus or the car, looking out the window and thinking about that in some time; this experience, this life, and this normality will never be the same. You are desperately trying to remember all the things you see because you know that it will never be the same afterward - even though if you return to the place/country someday. But still, you will never regret having done this experience. Never. That one year will make you a different person, yes, but that is not something that should mean something terrible. Everyone changes over time. We just do not realize it, because it usually takes a lot of time to change, but we are changing drastically in only one year. And when you have not seen people in real life for one year, they will, even more, notice your change. But again, it does not mean something terrible that you change. It may seem difficult in the beginning when you return, and kind of feel that you do not “fit in” that well anymore. But life goes on, and even though everyone may not be there for you as you hoped it, some people will still have your back, and they are genuinely your time worth to spend on afterward. Remember that....

As a diplomat kid this is way too true. As soon as you feel attached to where you live you have to move yet again. Moving every time breaks me. It’s a slow pain. A dull pain. Until it all hits you.

I’m crying because I recognise this feeling, it’s a different situation though. I stayed three weeks in UK and went to an English school. I mean a school just to learn English. I visited tonnes of famous places and met new people, people who I might not gonna see the rest of my life. So, what I take positive from that experience, is that from each of them I learn something that is gonna be part of me forever. Yeah, I changed after that, but to become a better version of myself.

I reaaaaaalllyy want to live a year in America. But I’m afraid that the people won’t like me, that I’m too shy to talk to them🥺🥺

I came home in January after spending a year in Germany. Everything felt so unreal the day i reached home, as if i just woke up from a really really long dream . Your video reminds me so much from my exchange and i still miss everything in Germany. :(

That was such a good video! Right now I’m in the middle of my exchange and it is true that I appreciate much more all things of my country; let’s see If don’t want to come back when it’s time to return.

i’m currently in Korea on exchange and there’s nowhere else i’d rather be. the day i leave is getting so close and it’s terrifying

Girl you were able to describe incredibly a whole year in just 4 minutes! I love and I identify with every single word you said. I’ve been an exchange student three years ago but the emotions I still feel are the exact same you’ve described. Thanks for reminding me through this video how lucky but also strong I’ve been.

I was on an exchange in France from the start of February and was supposed to return home to Canada at the end of April. Ended up coming home March 21st because of Coronavirus. However it was a truly memorable experience and I am grateful for the opportunity of a life time

When you started talking about leaving I burst into tears because it reminded me that my best friends are exchange students and will have to go back to Japan in 223 days. It hasn't been long since we met but we are already so close and I love them so much. Nanami ななみ and Moe もえ, I love you so much and I will try my hardest to come visit you in Japan.

i got the opportunity to go on "exchange" for 3 weeks i wish i took it

Currently in tears. This is so accurate, it hurts? I’ve dreamt of visiting my host city again, but will that place ever be the same? Am I missing the grocery store, or the memories I’ve made with my friends there? Am I missing my high school hallways, or the memories I’ve made with my teachers? Am I missing my neighborhood, or all the days I’d come racing home worried that I had missed my curfew... it’s all memories now, and we’re stuck in the past...

I would love to go on an exchange year to the USA, but it is too expensive for a pupil like me and a little too late because you can‘t book for next year anymore and after that I fear I can‘t catch up and have to do the school year again.😞(Sorry for mistakes I‘m from Germany and not the best in English)

I‘m crying. I’m currently in Finland for a year and this is exactly how I feel. I started to live this life as my normal life. I met amazing people and my heart is just breaking if I think about going back home in 5 months. I don’t know how to leave. I can’t say goodbye. This video is just what I try to put into words all the time but I never can. Thank you for that

I really feel bad for those who sent home earlier because of a damn virus... I hope they could go back one day. This must be the worst feeling ever...

this hit me hard...I’m from the USA and I lived in New Zealand for just two months but this video describes EXACTLY how I feel. The pain of coming home and wondering when/if you can go back. And then back home everything does feel the same except for the little random things like what you missed out on and people getting tired of me mentioning NZ :(

kind of sad now because my parents don’t allow me to do an exchange year

At least you had the opportunity to experience the whole exchange year... I didn't even get the chance to say goodbye to my friends because lockdown rules. I would have given everything to have had the opportunity you did even ask for

Man I’m an exchange student right now and I was boutta sleep when the realisation hit me that I’m gonna go back, and I can’t stay forever.

I was crying at that intro those twilight songs be hitting hard for me 🦗🦟😻

Feeling this 100% so accurate... still makes me emotional 4 years after my exchange

my exchange was over a year ago now but this still got me in my feelings. best time of my life and i miss it so much

I rly want to be an exchange student in America, cause I'm sad that I wasn't bored therey because their school program and all school activities, and prom, and boys there are si different, so better, they're all hanging out together. Like I waa crying cause I want that so bad and I'll need to fight fir this and work hard so I can live in the America in the future and go to their school

I only went on a language trip for 3 weeks and made so many good friends I can only imagine how hard leaving would be after a year!!

One of the best quality videos I’ve seen on KZfaq. Pretty much tops some of those emotional videos with hundred thousand dollar budgets

That part about things having stayed the same at home is so true! I got back and it was weird, because same people at work, same people at the grocery stores and at church and school and literally nothing had changed when it felt like every thing should have been different.

Made me cry. Thank you. -Exchange student 2017-18

This made me cry, I didn't get sent home yet but all of my friends left and now I'm just waiting for the horrible email to be sent 💔 this is truly sad and frustrating):

Ok this video is just the most amazing I’ve ever seen, I love the way you talked about it and I can’t wait to experience all of that, thank you!

This video puts feelings I've never been able to express into words in such a powerful way. It's so happy and so sad, I love it, thank you so much!

I felt exactly the same way!! thank you for expressing all this emotions in one video, it has been amazing to recall all of them 💙

This was the best video. The ending is so heartfelt

Literally, you made me cry... thanks:) it's so great

omg so true! went on an exchange and at fisrt I didn't want to leave home at all, but when my parents told me I have to come back home because of corona, I was just crying for a really long time and the worst was saying goodbye to my new friends. the worst is nobody at home is actually caring about your experience because of corona and online school

I've been watching your videos for hours and i cant stop, i love your charisma, your stories and the way you express yourself in every video. Keep up the amazing work, you are gonna be big.❤

the end part was extremely accurate. also, when i said goodbye my parents told me that i might return again, and my friends had so much faith in that, that our goodbye was half hearted...but, i never went back. and those people were the first real friends i had that shaped who i am today. it's been a year.

i’m french and i was supposed to leave for my 3 months exchange in australia in a week but it got cancelled because of corona... i’m literally so sad i can’t stop crying :(

this is the best video about being an exchange student i've ever seen. i'm crying a lot!

Captured and told so well! This is so true and only those of us who have been on exchange/ studied abroad can truely resonate with this!!

Swiss to Japan in 13/14. Going back home was the most difficult thing I did until this day. There is not one day since then that I don't think back to those times and having a thought about what my host family might be doing. Exchange is an extremely precious time in your life, no matter to which county you went.

Now I’m very thankful that I got to go to Minnesota for my one-year exchange three years ago! I will always remember every moments there❤️

This was a geat Vid Jewls! you really touched on the emotions involved. good job!

My heart goes out to all the exchange students who had to leave early because of the corona virus. I was a exchange students in the USA in 2017/2018 and I can't believe that I've been back home for almost 2 years now. It was the best year of my life and I miss it every day. I was hurting for a long time when I came back home. Cannot imagine what you have to go through. Just know you're not alone. Even though your year ended a bit earlier than it was supposed to, keep in mind that no one can take away the experiences you gained ans the people you met. It will get better❤

this made me cry, i’ve never even went to an exchange, and probably never even will. amazing video ✨💕

Falling in love during my exchange rlly fcked me up tbh.

I felt the same way when I moved back home after being in the US for 5 years. I practically grew up there. I miss it soooo sooo much but I also love it where I am too. Somethings are just like that and I want to go back and visit but I know I will just end up missing here as well :/

Omg this one hit me so hard bc it's soo true! I felt exactly like you and I had to cry whenever you were talking about leaving. I went through the exact same emotions and even now 3 years after my exchange I still think about all these memories and get so emotional about missing everything!

Truly incredibly inspirational!!!

Thank you for being so real. Loved this video

I was an exchange student the last year and i felt this sister...

so happy that someone finally put this into words!!!! Thank you!!!

Dang, you deserve more subscribers. Keep up the good work. 👍😀

I'm so glad you made this video and it's coming on peoples recommended you deserve the recognition cause this is so beautiful & emotional ♡

Thank you so much for this video, it’s been 2 years... it’s so hard and now I feel that I have someone to understand me. ❤️ beautiful video!

I could never relate to this video as I am not an exchange student but this really caught me in my feelings. Very well done, and an amazing reflection 👍🏼

I can't decide if I want to go in exchange or not now. I'm not very good at coping with sadness or stress, and I'm very introverted, but the whole idea of exchange sounds a m a z I n g. Idk what to think now

This is absolutely amazing! I love this video and feel all the things you said

I love this video!!! The vibes!!! The atmosphere!!! And the thought behind each detail within it. Great video!!!!!! 😁😁😁🙌🏼🙌🏼

This made my whole heart hurt 😭

That was such a good video! Right now I’m in the middle of my exchange and it is true that I appreciate much more all the things in my country; let’s see If don’t want to come back when it’s time to go back

I love this video!!! Honestly, it’s soo true!!

this made me cry

this is so true.. it hits really close to home. i came back from ireland 4 years ago and everything was still the same at home but also not at all? i remembered where everything was in the house of course but it still didn't feel real. like a dream you had.

awwww I hope you’re good this is really sad. we💗 you so much and we give you all our support. i feel you too much.

You have me sobbing right now. This captured it all and I really haven't been able to express it. Thank you so much for making this video. So so much. It hurts like hell to miss it all and not be able to talk about it. A quote one of my teachers said the night we returned home: "You will never completely be at home again, because part of your heart always will be elsewhere. That is the price you pay for the richness of loving and knowing people in more than one place." -Miriam Adeney Again, thank you so much for voicing this and sharing these thoughts

I was once an exchange student in Italy and I know exactly how you feel, it's really hard to leave your friends and your host family bc in the time you stayed there they did everything for you and helped you in the best way. Well I hope someday I'll return to Italy, I loved that country and all the people were so nice to me :)

It's definitely a little scary leaving but it's even scary going back home. But it's so great! And everyone who can should really be am exchange student!

I'm not an exchange student but I definitely understand the change of scenery and leaving everything behind because I had to move from my country half way across the world and sometimes I miss where I came from and sometimes I don't..

i've been planning since the beginning of my first year to go on exchange this upcoming september, selected courses strategically for the past 2 years so that i could go on exchange for a year, come back and still graduate on time! wasn't planning on returning for the upcoming academic year, so didn't make arrangements for living on campus. won't be going in september anymore and it's likely that i won't be going second semester either. i'll be doing a thesis in my fourth year, so most likely won't get to do exchange during my undergrad which kind of sucks! but thankful for my health, happiness and loved ones during times like these and i'm sure i'll get the opportunity to travel again in the future.

I've been an exchange student in Japan for 2 weeks and that experience is one of a kind I meet a lot of friends from different countries even tho we are back in our countries we still communicate each other.

This video is just so beautiful🌸🥺

Now I want to cry for an experience I never had

I have been on a one week exchange in Finladn and Spain and i honestly can't imagine how hard it is to say good bye to people you spent a whole year with i couldn't stop crying after just a week.

My hearttt !! That got me real chills

So sooo sooooo true! I know this so much! I can relate to this so so so much! This horrible feeling of leaving the place and feeling so helpless to have to do it. But for me, the worst, is to leave the people behind... because I might go back, but even if I do, will it be Worth of it since my friends might not be there anymore. People think you are strong for going abroad, to study or work, but that is not true at all. You are strong because you had to lealve it all behind after a while and pretend everything is as it used to. Even though nothing will ever be, not you nor your home and what you knew before.