Round and round in circles. I've been so close to the edge 😢

Glad I'm not the only one feeling depressed and having very dark thoughts. I'm going to make an appointment with my GP because it has me worried.

Seriously, I wish I knew what normal was like without medication

Shit I just wish I knew what normal is period

Agreed. Diagnosed at 5y... Almost 40.... My life is a complete f up.... I'd rather not have it at all....

1000%

I’m 56 and it first became noticeable after 6 grade when school became more structured . It’s been downhill for me ever since. When I see my friends with homes and great families i feel broken . Evictions, repossessions, lost relations, failed businesses. I’m alone in my misery and am holding on to life by a thread . Even sadder everyone praises me for my artistic talents and all my creativity . Little do they know there is a silent battle going on inside of me everyday.. Before I leave this world I would love to know what normal feels like , even if just for 1 day…

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They dint want to treag me i was treated since 15 years i ferl myblife is gone.

O had meds since 15 years they removed it since im the most sad person. K really tried without meds im af the rnd of my rope. They ruined my life i jyst needed my meds in may not Now niw but i lost hope no doctor give ne back my medd im tired.😢😢😢😢😢😢😢😢😢😢😢😢😢

​@@karineaudet6270 hey mate. Hope you're doing ok. Hang in there!! 💪

you might have adhd but with all the effort you have already put in your definitely going to live a successful life

I was on so many antidepressants and genuinely think and feel from my experience, they only made my life greatly more difficult and harder to understand. It did nothing to change my unbearable emotions and just made me feel more okay with shit life syndrome.

Your experience is very comparable to mine...it frustrating as hell to get a doctor worth a shit these days that know anything!!!!

"antidepressants are like sugar pills" this! and then when you go through several, they don't work, and your life continues to get worse. You're left feeling burnout, guilty, and exhausted as if there's something inherently wrong with you when really it's just the doctors and psychatrists that refuse to listen to your symptoms and take them seriously

This is why it's called a disability. It's a fucking nightmare that never ends. It makes you depressed and hopeless and yet you continue to do the things (like impulsive spending and procrastination) that cause you to be miserable. I'm getting my evaluation in January it's like the only thing keeping me sane, but even then I have no idea if I can afford meds that I desperately need.

I understand the frustration and the difficulty linked to ADHD... However, I must say that it has nothing to do with growing up in a wealth family! I grew up in a VERY modest family and struggled most of my life. Went through drug addiction, alcoholism, developed other co-morbidity, never could stay in a relationship or keep a job for very long, etc. I just had no idea I had ADHD (I come from Europe where most people don't know or believe in it). Now that I understand better my own brain, I do tend to believe it should be called a "trait" rather than a "disorder" and that is actually could be an ASSET. You might disagree, fine, but I am one living proof that the wealth of your family is not directly related with how you will manage your ADHD. I guess, what I mean is : "There is hope for you too! There is!".

@@nadiab.8869 Hi, I do get frustrated but intended no offence. I’m from the U.K. and grew up on welfare life is tough at the bottom but this is even more devastating as most people here do not believe in it or think it’s for children. As you said yourself holding down a job is very difficult and relationships are very difficult and then throw in co-morbidities like depression anxiety OCD and your going to have a hard life. How would you describe this as a trait and not a disorder. For me a trait is blonde hair or a sense of humour. I believe disorder is not a strong enough word as it implies this is a minor thing not something that will potentially ruin your whole life. I think of it like low level autism that’s more what it’s like in my opinion. As for it being an asset please tell me how it could be an asset I would not wish this on anybody. Again no offence intended! 😉

Agreed! Went from employed and having a side business at 27 (which I had been doing for about 8 years). To unemployed and broke at 30. I was super productive and more successful than my peers already at 23 but at rock bottom at 30… Don’t know how I should aim my life from now on… Probably try to take a simple low paying job and rest my personal life away. It’s a bit sad to go from super productive to underachiever

This is a fucken curse

@@phamelaafriconglo4821 Agreed.

I'm 56 & in same situation, it doesn't get easier unless, maybe creativity?

@@Domdeone1 Yes. After a year and being in a much better state of mind, ADHD takes some effort to get used to. It's a good mine for creativity and I know some really great artists who have it.

@@UncleMyers37 lt can stop you from starting new projects & focusing, while feeling locked up in my own head

HEHEH , BUT ADHD IS OUR SUPERPOWER , RIGHT ?

Hope you're okay bud. Keep going

check yourself into a mental health facility and get a diagnosis. you are ill - they will help.

Sheeet. Me unemployed lazy ass, if I don't change myself somehow beat this superpower I will also be homeless

cause they choose not to, maybe because they're too embarrassed to have a family member with mental disabilities like my family.

good thats youre getting help so soon. some people screw their lives up and find out the problem way later on, like in their 30s or even 60s. hope everything works out :)

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24,same boat.

Omg same here! Literally they ruined my life and don’t care but scold me and i used drugs too to help cope

youre not ruined - u have lots left - 20 is just the beginning. go to a doctor - they will get u the meds u need/treatment. they can even help you get off drugs but u need to be honest with them. all the best.

@taxisslaveryboxing1347 Yes, but sometimes they can sometimes take you to psych hospital and that’s scary for some people (especially me and that’s why haven’t gotten any help)

Sometimes You can get all the help in the world and it still won't matter:(

same here. 40 and a mess.

I have also never been diagnosed with ADHD, I am 38 and since i was young tried to overcompensate it with fulfilling the expectations of others in my family in beeing what they wanted me to be, high functionalty I guess. Now I have a highly paid job, a family and a house, but this "desired normal" life is soo exhausting and painful. But everytime I try to be a little more of my "real" ADHD Self I immediately get the feedback to not be like that. It is a damn curse I wish for absolutely nobody.

@@freddiemehrcurry428 that's the problem. I'm 40 now. I was a super happy child until I became an adult. Then it's like my life stopped and never really happened. It's like I've lost 20 years of my life somewhere and cant get it back. My aim now is to become my real "me" as 20 years of depression and suicidal thoughts is enough. It may cause more damage along the way but will bring happiness in the end. Living someone elses life I may have never been born as well, although I count my childhood as a happy part of my life worth living on it's own. After that all there was is just fitting in behaving as I was told as it's all I ever knew. I'm sorry to hear other people have to go through it. Hope you'll find the way for the real you to come back to life one day.

@@BXLrules sorry to hear that. :-(

@@user-vc9sh9hz8n I'm on it. getting diagnosed, I've found a group, started meds. Now I've got to learn to be more gentle towards myself. Take care✌️

I'm sorry this happened to you. You're right. This has happened with other meds also. Are there brand name meds?

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I'm not sure what to do or say except to suggest the Surrender Prayer kzfaq.info/get/bejne/iJuajK-Dl96dmn0.html And nutritional psychiatrist Dr. Chris Palmer kzfaq.info/get/bejne/ac1kmst8qdm6iGw.html

Its just how the diagnosis is made, the treatment is no different for someone who is hyperactive vs non hyperactive

​@@dogguy8603 The treatment is the same. ADD = ADHD inattentive. There are 3 types of ADHD Inattentive Combined - hyperactive & inattentive Hyperactive. They're all grouped together because as dog guy said, it's the same line of treatment for all of them. They are also all tye same, their presentation is different with inattentive being internal and hyperactive being external

Bingo! Same here. Diagnosed at 40. I will never remember what temps/ time to set an oven for anything. Saying that. You would want me on your trivia team when it comes to music and cars. I have unlimited ram for that shit.

SSRIs can help with ADHD but definitely aren’t the preferred treatment. You need a stimulant. You could also try bupropion, atomoxitine, gunafacine, or clonidine

Same here

The only medicine for depression I’ve heard of working for adhd is Wellbutrin and it’s not fool proof and if you can ask to switch that go for it

i prefer ssnri

Please don’t

Yeah nothing's better than an entire minute of talking about something to sell what was the video about I couldn't focus

That's tough... I can easily imagine how that could happen...! I hope you're treating yourself well now and getting better! Courage!

Can you please tell me how you get over it? My life has become a living hell

Hey Salina. You have caught me at a very good time, as about 2 hours ago I was not in the place to deal with anything - couple of hours later in hyper focus and I can sit down and reply to you 😊 For what it’s worth, I don’t think we ever get over it. It peaks and it troughs. I never realised my neurological traits were associated with ADHD until after I had beat addiction, in a non-conventional way for what it’s worth. So if any part of fixing any component of your life scares you. Don’t worry. You will have the tools to create your own path. A couple of things I’ve found to be really helpful, albeit quite hard in the short term are; Own it: You may not know this, but the people you have had in ur life already accept you, even though you’ll have a realisation that some of what you do, say, and behave like at times may be off putting to others. They people are gold dust, when you talk to them. Whoever they may be, they will already know a lot of this stuff about you. But remember, they’re still in your life because they accept you regardless. 2. Get used to saying sorry and being truthful. If you lose attention mid conversation, or haven’t paid attention to something important. Acknowledge it, apologise. Refocus and try again. This goes a long way in building trusting relationships, anybody that doesn’t accept that. 3. You will notice that you can handle some situations that others will there find extremely challenging, sometimes it’s worth taking note on what these are. And becoming an expert in that area. For me, one of these is in my workplace - I realised that working with young offenders and people with quite the chaotic lifestyle is kinda easy for me when the going gets tough. Try not to follow the ‘conventional’ methods all the time. The balance between chaos and order is one that we will find difficult. Have a mental dumping ground, whether it’s a whiteboard, a book, a page, a clipboard, whatever it is. Anything you know you’ll forget to deal with. Stick it in there. It’s like magic, it stops pinging around your brain almost instantly, it’s filed away safely. I use a wee colour code, so I’ll go back to this book of madness when I feel relatively regulated. Purple dots - super important, green dots, important but can wait. Red - I hate red for whatever reason, so to force myself to do something u I hate. I’ll use red. Just to get it away asap. A little blue dot for me signifies something that I should just remember. This can be something affirming, or something you’ve found works and it reminds you to try it again. For example, if I find myself in a sort of paralysis by analysis situation. What I do is, put my headphones on. Put some music on full blast. And just go. See what happens…. You’ll probably forget most of what you’ve achieved. As no doubt I will by the time I drop this phone and go back to doing whatever I was doing. I know this is written adhdAF. But I s’pose that’s me 😊 And if any of this is helpful, even a tiny bit for you. Then for me. It’s been worth it 😊 And if it hasn’t, I’ll remember my intentions were pure and genuine. We can’t really choose what we do, so just know that the fact I’m writing this. I do care about your struggles and I hope and believe in u 😊 carve your own path. Good luck Salina (sorry I had to check back because of course, I had forgotten your name 😂, own it. It’s fine 😊 see)

@@St4tune thank you so much for this support and advices i really appreciate your effort.This is the first time someone understood me. I hope you keep fighting take love 3>

I am from a middle class background, with a university degree , postgraduate qualification, it is tough but not hopeless. I think , I was from a poorer background, it would be much much worse .