7 days today. Just taking it 1 day at a time.

30 years today

I’m sitting in a freezing parking lot in Nashville right now watching you while my wife is in a meeting with her home group. She’s still drinking but she’ll go to meetings so that’s something positive in my mind. I can only pray because the tears don’t come anymore. You give me hope.

The “socially sanctioned addictions” line hit very close to home for me: being online too much, too many video games, and spending money on stupid stuff I don’t need. Thanks for your brave sharing, and your continued illumination and light of Knowledge.

One month clean from IV meth use. It is very hard, but am trying. Thank you for sharing your story/experiences with us.

I feel like I'm in limbo between being an intelligent human who knows what's right and someone who just wants to be numb 24/7

Man I totally understand this all! I used to put Ice, coke and heroine in the same spoon! It really took a tole on me! But I got away from it all after 20+ years of using! I feel amazing only after 3 1/2 years clean! Keep talking about it Russel it really helps! Thanks

It's so beautiful to see how humbled Russell is and how much he wants to spread the message that sobriety is the way. I absolutely love what you're doing with your life now. God bless.

6 months clean from heroin today and it is tough. Thank you for giving me something to strive harder for. Everyone tells you it gets better but I just saw how. .. and that's everything.

When my father died, I relapsed after 3 years sober. I was worse than ever, spending about $900 a week on cocaine, more if I won at the casino. Sleeping on the floor of a friends bug infested basement, somehow I kept it a secret from everyone for over a year. After 31 visits to the hospital in one month, the thought of my mother explaining to my neice what had happened to me, and my Fiance finding out I lied our whole relationship was my rock bottom. Though I still feel broken, my children and my spirituality are my strength and motivation. 16 years sober last August.

Almost 9 years off Heroin & Coke. I feel for the addicts of now that have extreme convenience working for them and against them simultaneously. I felt your words Sir. I had too many rock bottoms unfortunately. Several moments of realization that what I had become and what I was doing wasn't in my or my community's best interests. Unfortunately I didn't start living life on life's terms till my 30's. But it's better late than never. Im 40 soon with a mortgage, wife, kids. Everything I've achieved has been because my last 9 years. Cheers Russell! Cheers to everyone 1 day out of hell, and Cheers to everyone realizing today you can leave your hell for something better.

Thank you Russell. In February of 2022 I hit 3 years sober and like you I try to share my horrific story to others. Bless you my friend!

"It went something like - it was fun, then fun with problems, then just problems"

Mad respect for everyone recovering from drug addictions. You got this champ

Watched this the first time on June 24th 2021 and became my clean date from heroin and meth. Today is March 28th 2022. Nine months clean and it started right here watching this. Love you RB, you inspire people. Please never forget that.

I lost my best friend of 14 years to a heroin overdose in 2015. It was the hardest thing I've ever been through. She left this world and 2 weeks later I went into a psych hospital center so I wouldn't follow her. I very badly wanted to. I watched her try so hard to get clean only to crash and burn. And those that loved her so much are the ones left behind in the pain because she's no longer with us. Pain from childhood abuse led to her using drugs. Now I've been hurting for 6 years because those drugs took her from me.

many rock bottoms many detox's hospitals attempts at rehab hated reality.... clean now for 16 years... miracle

"Addiction beggins with pain and addiction ends with pain, that's the cycle of it" So well said!!

I was an addict for a good 10 years and never got low enough to stop. Tried several rehabs and nothing. I was lucky enough to have a moment of clarity while I was watching my sons birth. It took me a year but I have been clean since 03-03-03. If I can do it you can.

Never had addiction issue myself, but have had close friends & family. I love that you can talk about this so freely. I am sure it will save lives and souls. ❤️

I've been clean from crack and heroin for 3 years now. Respect to everyone who could get over it, and stay strong - to anyone who's in their journey atm. Amen

The morning I sat on my couch all coked up with a 9mm to my head was my rock bottom. Thank God for a mom who led a life of example for me that when that whispering spirit spoke to me and reminded me of her exemplary life and maybe I should try it was the most profound moment of my young life. It was a long hard battle but by the grace of God I'm still battling and living a very happy life.

My son just turned 23 (thank god he’s made it thus far) and he suffers with addiction. He started innocent enough with weed at around age 13 and it has just spiraled out of control…opioids, benzos, and a brief time with meth. He has all the love and support one could get. He has mental pain driving his addiction. It’s inspiring to hear stories of others who have made it to the other side of it.

Thank you Russell, for all your guidance. My 18 year old son is in the throws of Ketamine addiction at the moment and I find your channel helpful in trying to find ways on how to communicate with him. My heart is breaking for him but you bring hope and I'm trying to turn him on to your content. Thank you.

Isn't it amazing how us addicts who actually get sober are actually smart and critical thinkers!? I think one reason I dove into addiction myself was to quiet my mind & soul... Your content is the best out here! Thank you sir!

In an age of insane jump cut editing on you tube, almost purposefully, as if to re-awake the ten second attention span... To see a guy roll continuously with such fluidity is such a pleasure and a show of talent.

Needed to hear this tonight, Russell. God willing I'll have 40 years in a few months, but the last 2-3 years have been tough (pandemic just an excuse). Solitude -> isolation -> desolation -> despair...all self-induced. Still, I have countless reasons to be grateful to be sober and alive; just needed a timely reminder! Thank you.

About 11 years clean now. Couldn't be happier or more grateful. I actually owe it to my late dog, Cam Shaft. It's a struggle but I'm so happy we made it! And yes Russell, YES, God help the kids of today; these are dark & dangerous times indeed. ❤️💪🤗

He explains exactly how I feel about my addiction. I checked into rehab for the first today. 🤞

Once I had the realization that being drunk and high didn't actually feel good everything changed. Being messed up it a terrible feeling. Then you feel even worse when you come down. So much time wasted just being drunk or high and doing nothing. Be sober, create, love, explore, observe. The world is a beautiful place even if modern society is trying to destroy it. Step out of your house. Go outside. Be grateful that you are here.

Thank you for sharing this part of you. I’m a recovering meth addict. Starting using drugs at 14 then found meth at 18-19 and that was my main drug until I finally got clean in my 40’s. I didn’t think I had a problem for the longest time because I could put it down and walk away from it over the years. I thought I hit rock bottom in 2002 when my home state kicked me out LOL it’s funny now not so much at the time. However 9 1/2 yrs later I relapsed hard. I hooked up with the most meanest brutal man ive ever known and I lost my kids to the state at teenagers. I was only out for a year and a half but man in that time I completely destroyed mine and my kids lives🥺 july 20 2012 is my clean date! I went into treatment and I’m a proud member of 12 step community. It’s saved my life. I’m coming up on 10yrs clean and sober and I’m beyond proud of myself. For me I had to get past that 9 1/2 yr marker for me to be proud of myself. But here I am and I’m so thankful for the life I have today. My kids are in my life and I’m a whole new woman. Along with drug addiction I’m also bipolar and I suffer from chronic wide spread daily pain. But even so I keep going because life now compared to my using days is absolutely priceless. Before recovery and working on all the ick inside from my childhood and my life of insanity I hated waking up every morning being pissed off at god for not killing me already. Not today!! Today I’m happy for the first time in my life I’m genuinely happy and grateful. I’ve always admired you because of you being in recovery and being so open about it. Thank you for leading the way. Love you friend💖💖

You can't ever reach that imaginary nirvana you're trying to find and look for with drugs. Being a drug addict for over 25 years I search for something unattainable. That's NOT the answer. We have to feel the pain. Thank you Russell. May the gods bless you

5 years 6 months and 8 days clean today. Greetings from finland

His fist words are what's terrifying about addiction. He's 18 years clean, but knows that it's still there. That all it takes is one bad day or whatever, and it swallows you whole all over again.

I am 51 and I wouldn’t know you tube if it weren’t for my son. I have never said this to anyone “famous “ or who has a channel. But you not only are helping to get help but making me feel it’s ok to have different opinions and still respect people. Thank you!

Ive passed by this video so many times. Watched it for the first time and wow. I am an addict, been clean 6 years now and am still in recovery group Once a week. Thank you Russell for being so candid and open. You really are helping people, don't ever forget that sir.

Don't take offense because I mean this as a compliment. I cannot believe how beautiful and thoughtful your channel is. I always imagined you as a sort of an Amy Winehouse (poor girl) type of party guy. I never would've thought that I'd hang on every one of your words but I do. We now live in a world where Russell Brand is a voice of logic and reason in a world of turmoil and distrust. Thank you, I'm proud of you, and I love you. God bless.

As an ex addict I remember being kind of jealous of other addicts who had people forcing them into treatment and rehab. I think if you have people who care about you enough to do that, you are very blessed.

The extremes we go to to soothe that inner void. That hunger to appease the poor trembling self. All anybody wants is to be loved accepted cherished and to be without aforementioned is when the bad habits set in. Your intensity ,passion, plight for truth and transparency is so refreshing.

14 years clean and sober...still working everyday to stay that way...only someone who has been through the nightmare of drug addiction can understand And clearly you've been there brother..it's this honesty in discussing the pain and fear of addiction that is so liberating as an addict...no more excuses...no more denial...no more blame...you gotta want it..you gotta fight for it..and y gotta OWN IT... otherwise you're doomed..you'll never make it out

Shout out to all the people battling through every day. 🙏

My addiction ended on my way to federal prison. It wasn't the intervention I wanted but it was the intervention I needed. In prison, the happiest man I ever met who had already done 35 years behind the fence told me you can get better or you can get bitter, you can't do both. Been clean over 13yrs now. Its simply a choice to live versus a choice to die slowly. I did it. You can too if you haven't already. Farewell my friends. Don't let life get in the way of living Edit: Thank you RB for sharing

I appreciate your looking back and going through the crazy, embarrassing things you did and maintaining your composure because it shows you have completely accepted, understood, and forgiven yourself for having done those things. I still feel extreme shame and it physically hurts to think about some of the crazy things I pulled. Thankfully, to date, apart from using itself I've never engaged in criminal activity nor have I ever hurt anyone. I've been betrayed and hurt by many though. I need to make peace with that part of my life. The nightmare isn't over though. This is year 13 of my 2nd bout with meth. The first lasted 5 years then I had nearly 3 years of sobriety. This 2nd era of meth addiction started in May 2009 and, I kid you not, it has been daily usage nonstop since. I'm as much addicted to the seedy fast life and all its quirky characters and all the lustful and erratic feelings and sensations that fluctuate within me constantly as I am to the drug itself but I know there is more to this life. I dream about it often.

Thank you for opening up to everyone and giving your story. You can tell by reading the comments under your videos how much your helping others so thank you for bearing your soul to us. Thank you for showing us how human you are and showing us how low it got. Because seeing how far you have come aswell I'm sure is helping so many. We need more people like you!

This version of Russell brand is so much easier to like. He’s a natural leader and he’s finally contributing positively. Good on you mate.

Bless you Russell and bless everyone watching this who is fighting their demons....

I have given up drinking and smoking after 25 years . I have it up 2 month's ago , l did it for myself and feel great . I feel more confident. STAY STRONG

i didnt know anything about you at all when i found your youtube channel my first thought was this man is a true freedom fighter and is standing up for whats right and tries to see both sides it may not mean much but i dont think anything less of you at all i think you are a great person and nothing is going to change my thoughts of how good of a person i think you are i am happy you have recovered and thriving had no idea you did comedy either

24 years sobriety so far. I also have bipolar syndrome.

6.5 years without alcohol and now at a point where I'm able to say I'm 'sober' with pride. Not just "I don't drink". I'm proud of all of us, whatever day we're on. ♥️

So much love to those who are struggling in their addiction and those who have come thru to the other side. We just all have to keep going and learning and digging deeper and doing the best we can. Spread love ❤

I made the mistake of thinking my son had a choice to get high. I didn't realize he was sick and didn't have a choice. He died in the driveway in his van where I made him sleep. I was dead wrong and will pay the price until my end. Take your loved ones the way they are and be thankful you have them alive. Thanks Russell

Even in the wild and wrecked days, this erudite, clever, funny man struck me as a diamond in the rough. So often, people tried to squash this soul. I’m glad he was all the while expanding to bring us the genuine and open goodness of his brilliant and beautiful work

"It's a kind of crystallisation... a lot of you dies and fades and withers, and you're exposed to the pain that you've been trying to avoid." This was immensely helpful, thank you Russell.

I've definitely hit a low....I think possibly rock bottom. It's scary, sad, humbling. And I never thoughti could cut out alcohol forever. But watching Russel Brands videos about sobriety makes it sound attainable. More than that, he makes me actually desire it. I just got out of the hospital after a suicide attempt and this is the closest Ive ever gotten. Now I'm binging your videos because you articulate yourself so well, and I feel like you've stirred up a change in me. God bless you and thank you for all your work 🙏

Sober 2 years. I didn't pick up until I was 40 years old. Crazy right. I am 58 and finally, ... finally...., finding value in life. Figuring out, what I was running from, and figuring out what brings me joy, true joy. Than God for second, third, forth, chances.

I just quit all substances myself and when Russel said “my youth and my whole life had been defined by addiction” I’ve been smoking weed or trying to get high since I was 13-14 years old, I’m 24 now and I’ve forgotten what it’s like to live life without substances and watching these videos really makes me feel better about my decision

"Starts with pain, ends with pain" 💯 true

12 years clean from prescription pain pills, especially Oxy 80’s. I had never taken any drugs until I was involved in a car wreck that almost killed me. Became physically addicted from long term use and finally got sick and tired of being sick and tired. Checked myself into a 30-day rehab program and never looked back. Also made a full recovery from my injuries which consisted of over 60 broken bones. I am truly blessed.

This is all relatable and it's sad how much time I wasted early on. The self destruction. The insanity. The running around in circles. The yearning. Being untethered. I didn't know how to love myself. But somehow the universe was looking out for me. So I try to pay it forward. Being of service to others feels really good. Having empathy. Helping others to grow spiritually.

empathy is the most powerfull weapon. and you're wielding it heroically

I used to hate seeing the old Russel on screen HATE THAT GUY. AMAZED by this man. INSPIRED

Beautiful. As an addict in recovery for 6 years it helps to remember we are in this together. Truly love you for sharing your pain and triumph.

Captivating. When asked the question "If you could have dinner/conversation with anyone in the world, who would it be?" I could never think of anyone until now... it would be this guy. Smart, funny, authentic, intense, deep, thoughtful, alive. Incredible.

I see this guy who has educated himself on why he abused...much like as an abuse survivor I've become educated on my abuser. The best teacher is a survivor.

August 8th , 2018 is the last time I stuck a needle in my arm.. much respect and love to everyone on here, clean or not, keep fighting. It gets better I promise. I went from no car , no girl, renting a room at a sober house, bullshit job, no money, paycheck to paycheck... to a 2020 car , an amazing gf who also happens to be baby mom to a beautiful 4 month old boy, still a bullshit job but better than the last , we rent a 3 bedroom house looking to buy next year , and I have a lil more than a months worth of money saved aside. The thing most people won't tell you , is you have to work on yourself, spiritual and emotionally and the rest will just come with it. You have to get extremely uncomfortable with yourself to get comfortable. Most of yall (in active addiction) didn't get to where you at now overnight did ya?

How is it a try later, over 1.3 mill views and only 57k likes? You're touching more than just those 57k people's lives Russell. Thank you for your strength and vulnerability. May peace be with you always and God bless you for what you've created here for us to share in and be apart of! Sending love from Idaho boyo!

8 months sober from alcohol and extremely heavy cannabis concentrate use, as well as compulsive sexuality. This is way harder than I had ever imagined having to face the pain and emotions I have stuffed down for 22 years of my life. The most random painful things and memories pop up and it hurts so fucking bad it seems unbearable at times. Yet, I am proud of myself for being on the path of recovery and have an exceptional amount of respect and sympathy for those who choose to get and stay sober. It is not for the faint of heart, but shows you are using your heart to guide the way and to heal. These types of videos keep me sane. I wish you ALL the best whether you are gay, straight, old, young, democrat, republican, anti vaccine, pro vaccine, black, white, Jewish, satanists, christian, introvert, extrovert, rich, poor, dog lovers, cat lovers, alpha, beta, vegan, carnivore...none of that matters, we are all truly one fulfilling our role on this planet. I love you and you deserve to be the best version of you!

18 YEARS! Thats so inspiring Russel thank you! 8+years personally and not judging MYSELF so harshly was the hardest thing for me to recognize as a problem. thank you for sharing Russel.

I have to say man, when you first came on the scene I wasn’t the biggest fan ( my ignorance I apologise)but you’re metamorphosis into one of the beacons of honest, fair and true media, which we need now more than ever! Thank you and god bless ✌🏼

I’m proud you were able to overcome your addiction. It’s so sad when one succumbs to their addictions. Best wishes to all those who have beat theirs. And prayers for those still in their addictions.

My level of respect for who you are, what you do, and the way you’re able to convey your story has grown ten fold. Your story resonates with me on multiple levels, especially when you touched upon your spiritual breakthrough. Praying for you as you continue your walk. Greater things have yet to come.

When your using just to feel normal was when I got close to rock bottom then my 97 yr old grandmother said she prays for me every night. She was the only family member that could tell I was killing myself, I was excellent at hiding my addiction, and she asked me "Why are you paying someone to poison yourself???" I had no answer. I got so pissed off at myself, so I got help and on her deathbed I told her her prayers worked and she need not worry, she smiled and said she already knew. Been 4 yrs as of 2days ago and life has gotten better and better!

His use of language is addictive. Well done. Stay blessed and sober.

I know from my experience that I came to the conclusion that Rock bottom has a basement and from there on out I've been clean 5 years, keep up the good work Russell Brand much appreciated

Having watched and enjoyed some of your more free-wheeling videos, I am moved to tears by this understated, honest, open sharing of your own journey of recovery. It's clear from the comments how many you've already touched and helped. Blessings to you, and best wishes for the continued enlightenment of all of us.

I quit WEED this month at age 74. On my birthday, I got a message that my lungs could not take any more.

I've been sober more than 20 years. Much respect to you Russell for your courage in talking about difficult experiences. I wish you well. And, thank you for continuing to speak plain truths to power.

Thank you for sharing! This heart felt video brought tears to my eyes. My addiction wasn’t drugs, it was to dissociation. I had no idea until I hit 58 and my ex left and I hit rock bottom. All the anger, fear and rage from the past hit me in the face. It’s hard work, so bless you for being here completely.

Thank You for sharing! People need to hear this. I have never been an addict but I know some people who are. You have helped those of us who want to understand the dynamics of addiction. It’s so difficult to try to help someone when they don’t want it. My heart hurts for them. Their stories break my heart ❤️

So glad you found your path Russell. My youngest daughter never did and left this world in 2016. Thank you for being so brave and giving us so much to admire and appreciate…

This is beautiful. I’ve got 5 1/2 months, Russell. I’m on the journey, and I find this so inspiring. 🥰

I had to watch this, because you've mentioned your recovery so many times, yet seem to be very well adjusted. I applaud your success and hope you continue to hold this valuable thing to the end. I ran across your video accidentally, found your "news and information" an incredible value, interesting, amusing, and you make is so easy to listen to, while keeping it straight. You are doing a great job, for a whole lot of folks who take it all in. Thanks for all of it.

Thanks for sharing your recovery story. I'm in recovery, if I can do it anyone can, they have to want it. There is hope, don't give up!!

I was a really a hard core alcoholic, starting at age 14 up until about 25. I know it might sound funny or unrealistic to some, but at age 15 I'd already get so drunk I'd have about 0.3 blood alcohol content at least once a week. Black outs lasting up to 8 hours. During summer break naturally I had a lot more time to drink, so at age 17 I got drunk for about 60 days straight during the summer. Started smoking weed and hash when I was 16, then took my first LSD trip a week after I turned 17. Couple all this with the fact that I was also a gaming addict and got absolutely no physical exercise, didn't give a fuck whether I ate or not and regularly stayed up until like 10 a.m. , whether gaming or drunk and was also addicted to porn, at age 18 my body was so broken it's hard to even comprehend for a normal person. I began having overwhelming insomnia, was insanely tired all the time, could barely stay awake during any daily activites, was suffering intense anxiety during the most trivial of daily interactions with people who've been around me for years (class mates etc.) which eventually became full blown panic attacks. Then after high school I kinda started taking it easier with the alcohol, still drinking all the time but not getting drunk that severely. Started doing LSD & ecstasy about once a month at the age of 20. Naturally, I dropped out of college after 2 attempts at the 1st year. Eventually when I was 22 or so, I hit some kind of a peak on one of the trips and realized I needed to purify myself from all this shit, including all the underlying negative emotional/behavioral patterns that caused it all in the first place. Then when I was 23 one of my best friends, who was very similar to me regarding addiction, got murdered by a guy we used to hang out with over literally like 15 dollars worth of weed money. As I already wanted to get clean anyway for a while, this was the catalyst that sprung me into action. I was also on the verge of committing suicide due to unrequited love and just the general sense of having no idea what to do with my life. Even though I kept using for about a year after my friend's death, at this point using made even less sense than it ever did so I eventually got a job as a cook and started working. It was a pretty intense job, so after a while I realized that I would simply feel better and be in less pain while working if I stopped using and drinking completely. About 6 months later I stopped working there but I was left with the realization that I will actually feel better if I quit using completely. So I stopped abusing substances, stopped watching porn, started having regular exercise and eventually started learning programming when I was about 25. It took me like 4-5 years , but I eventually fixed my body and now I can say that I'm in better shape than most people. I also got my first IT job last year, then got fired due to COVID, then found a new one which I started working at this month. I'm still trying to make sense of what the fuck the point of all this shit is supposed to be, but at least now I can sleep properly, feel and look physically decent and have a comfortable job, not being dependent on anyone economically. But in conclusion I don't think it was ever the drugs that hurt me that much, if anything they sort of made me understand how insane I was. It was the more mundane and socially accepted things that ruined my health completely - alcohol, porn and being a couch potato (or more like a potato chip, since I was actually very skinny due to all this shit).

“Ego not being the dominant driving force” is huge for recovery.

I was in that cyclonic type of life for many years. Methamphetamine for 18 years and heroin for 12 years. And every other drugs I could get my hands on. Heroin became my life though! Today by the grace of God and hard work I have 47 months clean and sober! Thank you Russell for being so outspoken about this disease and the life that goes along with it.

33 years clean for me. Every day is a gift I didnt deserve, but cherish.

Two weeks sober here and loved to hear this, thank you

I hit rock bottom 3 years ago, not from drugs but from a mental illness coming out from my traumatic childhood. PTSD, I was suicidal I couldn't work I had no family to turn too because they were the abusive party and I didn't want to go back to that enviroment. Then I went to the Mind charity and got help, and my friends who are my extended family kept me going. I am back at work now and still receiving treatment. Your video gives me hope of leaving my childhood behind and finding happiness and health. Thank you for the upload Russell. You have done so well in your recovery from your addiction. Xxx

I've been to rock bottom & i'm so thankful I've overcome that & moved on to peace, happiness & gratitude.Thanks RB & congrats on your sobriety you're an inspiration to all & should be so proud of yourself❤

Thank you for sharing your story. I am 9 years sober and I share my story with anyone who will listen( and some who don't want to). I have been a fan of yours for a very long time. It's so good to see the real you!

There is no such thing as rock bottom. Hell is a bottomless pit. It only gets worse everyday until you quit.

You are a brave man. Although more people realize that people use drugs or alcohol for stress; there is still a stigma to addiction. People should know the traumatic backround of addicts before they judge. You're helping other people by telling your story.

It’s also important to remember that it’s not that easy for everyone to access support that easily. But it’s nice to hear from someone who has so much support , and is using it for good purposes.

I am thankful for your recovery. Your wisdom and wit is such a gift to us all! I love you, Russell! I nearly lost my niece to alcoholism last year, but thanks to great doctors and the power of prayer, it looks like she has a chance. She lost both hands and both feet, so she is literally unable to get a drink, which may be the thing that saves her. Ironic that a tragedy can be such a gift!

I’ll be going through opiate wd for the last time starting tomorrow. Getting my life back after all these years of waste

A man that is self aware,has dove deep into his soul and speaks with the clarity that you do, is lovely to see!✨

Oh my goodness...this was so touching..I've never been a drug addict but we've all been addicted to something at some time as you mentioned...this was so transparent and true. It's the pain that we run from or try to dull with the wrong things. I don't know the source of your spirituality but when you see the beauty of a story like yours I think could it have been an attempt to silence who you were meant to become that the enemy of our souls threw everything he could at you and that is not at all to negate our own choices that lead to the wrong paths but the mercy of the One Who loves us no matter where we've been is so amazing. Anyway thank you for sharing this...being vulnerable is hard but necessary and proof of a process of healing that is continuing. Can I tell you that I am soooo proud of you for choosing to go through the difficult process daily to love your self and do what is best for you...bless you.

One year sober from alcohol. 3 months sober from weed. Now I’m dealing with my caffeine and sugar addiction. It’s hard to really face this life sober. But I won’t stop till I make it. Thanks Russel.