what now?

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Y'all better be nice. Discussing the current (and past) state of my mental health and how that stupid D word nearly destroyed my life. More importantly, showing you some of the steps that I took to build myself back up after a tough year.
"success is on the other side of vulnerability"
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- timestamps -
00:00 - Intro
01:15 - Morning routine part 1
02:15 - Let's go to the beach
03:40 - Dancsition
03:51 - Cold Plunge
05:12 - Dancsition 2
05:36 - Life update
06:40 - Big Brother + Depression = yikes
08:15 - The worst year of my life
09:00 - Relying on myself
09:30 - The end of my relationship
10:12 - Battling my inner demons
11:32 - Feeling confident again
12:10 - The people that brought me back to life
13:03 - How making new friends helped
13:35 - Tricking my brain intentionally
14:05 - So what now?
16:00 - My priorities
16:45 - Plans for my new channel?
17:09 - Ty's back.

Пікірлер: 692

@avsolsunna372 Жыл бұрын

Theres a reason why Tyler won Americas Favorite his first time on Big Brother. And we are seeing that old Tyler back in action. We notice it Tyler, u are shining so bright its like u were in a cave before, u seemed unhappy. You are back to your old self & we see it 💗💗💗 thank u for sharing with us, i will support u everywhere

@ericat3354 Ай бұрын

I never liked Angela and Tyler was my fave.

@amyv3989 Жыл бұрын

oh tyler we just love you. forever my favorite person to come out of Big Brother.. you shine and have such a beautiful soul. i hope you never change

@bianca60_ Жыл бұрын

I teared up watching this. I got out of my relationship 7 years ago. I gave my everything to him and always put him first before myself. I thought I was doing it right until I talked to someone that it wasn't right. I should've put myself first before anyone else. I was such a people pleaser that I thought if they're happy I'm happy too. I realized it at the end of my relationship that I lost myself so we decided to separate and work on ourselves. It was really hard to let him go but I'm glad I did it. It took me about 1 year to finally found myself again and 2 years after the break up we found our way back to each other again. It's true that we have to feel alright as ourselves and the rest will come. Now 2023 we're happily married with one daughter ☺️.

@The_Wavelength Жыл бұрын

🥹♥️🙏 thank you for sharing

@sarahtesney7137 Жыл бұрын

Your first BB appearance is what made me a fan. You are such a down to earth person and that’s the type of person you are now. Keep thriving and stay true to yourself

@alyssameyers3593 Жыл бұрын

Looking forward to following you and seeing what the future holds!

@jacobbcastillo7193 Жыл бұрын

Thank you for sharing. I am so happy for you and excited to see what's ahead.

@mbf7543 Жыл бұрын

I love the version of you that relies on yourself. That’s when you shine.

@kaitlinmoore9726 Жыл бұрын

Super proud of you Ty! So glad you’re healing 💜 All amazing things to come!!

@Vls80 Жыл бұрын

You got this Ty! 🙏 Saw both Big Brothers and you are an amazing person 💙

@jazminet5500 Жыл бұрын

LOVE and best wishes to you, Tyler. You got this! ❤️

@debbytaylor6182 Жыл бұрын

Yes 2022 was a really tough year to get through. I’m glad you nurtured your mental health and are healing. ❤❤

@amyblindsay Жыл бұрын

Good for you!! Couldn’t have been easy! Proud of you, for taking control of your life ❤❤

@keaunnacox9245 Жыл бұрын

Thank you for sharing this with your fans!! ❤❤ we really appreciate it 😊

@rallytay Жыл бұрын

Thank you for normalizing the importance of mental health care and thank you for being vulnerable. You are guiding by example, and the impact on those who struggle who look up to you, who will now undoubtedly take those healthy next steps as a result, is invaluable. What you’ve done is not an easy task but you did it in a way that felt very real. Welcome back. ❤️

@kimberlylovelace2974 Жыл бұрын

Love this Tyler. I too share similar struggles. Thank you for the encouragement and the vulnerability you shared with us. ❤❤

@lynncrosier7017 Жыл бұрын

So glad to see you happy & on the right track for YOU! Wishing you so much success & happiness!! Thanks for this update. Much love! ❤❤❤

@hkristin0710 Жыл бұрын

So inspiring! I'm so glad to see you back to your "old" self! Best vibes sent!

@kellylinderman6948 Жыл бұрын

I’m so happy you gave us this update. I’ve been praying you were ok and now I know you are. I’m so happy Ty is back .

@Georgianahaven684 Жыл бұрын

We are all rooting for you tyler! You were my favorite HG on your season, wishing you all the best!!!!!!

@staciewyatt8360 Жыл бұрын

I think it takes a very strong person to admit they are going through some stuff! So good for you!! Much love!!

@ahmunique Жыл бұрын

One of my favorite Big brother contestants! Keep your head up and moving forward.

@JohnnyBoombatz1119 Жыл бұрын

Thanks for the video Tyler! I've been in a similar boat and am just now starting to getting out of the rut, so your message really spoke to me and makes me want to fight harder to overcome and thrive. Glad to see you are doing much better, it really stinks when you lose yourself for a period. Thanks for being a real one and cheers on 2023 being the best year yet!

@patrickdeady410 Жыл бұрын

Glad you are doing better!! You are a good guy and deserve good things happening!!

@georgiapeach80 Жыл бұрын

I’m rooting for u. U got this, keep bringing the heat. Welcome back Ty!,

@pamelalawson7080 Жыл бұрын

This is the Tyler that made me a fan of yours. So happy to hear you are putting your mental health first! No doubt you will reach your goals and your dreams and you are starting off on the right foot! I wish you the best.

@znecbsrua Жыл бұрын

Rooting for you. Happy to see that light is the result of your darkness. Nature is so therapeutic and hiking has been my saving grace for the last year. Totally get how much your morning routine is helping you. LFG!

@katywiggins5428 Жыл бұрын

Not worried about you! You’re amazing! Always been a fan! You got this!

@joannmaggio2932 Жыл бұрын

You will always be one of my favorite humans - nothing but love & support to you!! I struggle daily - self doubt - regrets etc. It takes work. We are constantly learning, changing and all that good stuff! ❤

@kaneeshaserjue Жыл бұрын

You were/are one of my faves from BB! Thanks for keeping it real!

@lissalodeon Жыл бұрын

Love you Ty!!! Welcome Back!!!! You are on the way!!! Great to see YOU!!

@el_ocin8005 Жыл бұрын

I love seeing the old Tyler. I do hate that you had to go through such a hard time though. I'll be rooting for you Tyler!

@cjgolds4034 Жыл бұрын

Tyler, this is great to see you are doing so well right now! This is Christian G who went to school with you and lived a few doors down from you growing up… You should be very proud of yourself and how far you’ve come! After knowing some of the really tough stuff you’ve been through in your childhood you never let that get between you and your accomplishments. I love your story and watching you grow and think you’re a bigger role model than you realize! Keep focusing on yourself and always know your friends and family love and support you through it all!

@The_Wavelength Жыл бұрын

My brother!!! 🙏♥️ hope you and the fam are doing well I appreciate this so much

@amygerrish938 Жыл бұрын

2022 was a rough year for my daughter and the D word. Thanks for being so honest and authentic. We are true fans and are so happy to watch your journey and for being so inspiring.

@jennifer-marie Жыл бұрын

Tyler💕 Thank you for sharing. I'm so glad you're doing better, and did not let it get you. You are loved and you're inspiring! Keep going!

@jaimeerindy4573 Жыл бұрын

Happy to hear that you are doing better and I hope you continue to find peace and happiness ❤

@j_pars1833 Жыл бұрын

Ty guy the freakin man! Was very saddened hearing everything last year and now hearing how incredibly difficult it was for year. Very glad your back and feeling confident in yourself. Excited your back and glad to be with you on your journey🙏❤️

@jengonzales24 Жыл бұрын

Your true authentic self looks good on you! I love that you're doing this for YOU. That's when you have the most success achieving your goals. Thanks for sharing your story and being so relatable to others. Wishing you nothing but success and happiness!!

@dkitty143 Жыл бұрын

I'm sorry for your struggles Tyler but so glad you're in a better place now! Wishing you all the BEST in the coming year. Excited to see what you do! You are a wonderful human being and deserve great things!

@lindacalderone3162 Жыл бұрын

Thank you for sharing! ♡ Sending you positive vibes and energy!!!

@shannonthomson7998 Жыл бұрын

❤ you Tyler. I’ve been rooting for you from the very beginning. Glad to hear you are doing ok. Here’s to 2023 🎉

@lacie7844 Жыл бұрын

I'm very glad you are moving into the next chapter in your life with a smile. Pulling for you!

@brennenmcdonald5 Жыл бұрын

your amazing bro! loved you on bb. glad you are doing well!

@TinaM-mj2gk Жыл бұрын

Thanks for your vulnerability and honesty. Much appreciated!

@karenhoffman8627 Жыл бұрын

I can't tell you how helpful this is. Also, I am so glad to see you happy. You deserve it.

@shellisapp Жыл бұрын

This made my heart so happy! Cheers to fellow south carolinian! Keep being you! Yiur positive spirit is so resilient. Man your such an inspiration.

@incognito459 Жыл бұрын

Tyler you are absolutely correct. You have to do what makes YOU happy. What makes YOU feel like yourself and surround yourself with people who love you for YOU. I am happy to see you are focusing on what makes you feel good now. I wish only the best for you and I hope you have a fabulous year!

@Rojuarez5888 Жыл бұрын

Hi Tyler, thanks for sharing. You are loved. Keep being yourself and staying positive . I’m looking forward to seeing what you’ll be doing in 2023 and beyond.

@destinynz9315 Жыл бұрын

I’m so happy to see the old Tyler back. You look happy. I hope 2023 brings you everything you want. Sending love from New Zealand 💕

@bistrobuzztv9226 Жыл бұрын

Very inspiring Tyler! It’s amazing how many of us you may be helping and you not know 😊 it’s baby steps, but I feel a step further after watching you, and you sharing your story! Thank you for sharing your story!

@Nat-en2tk Жыл бұрын

Thank you so much for sharing, Tyler! Great to see you getting through, and to keep going.💛

@MistysMystery Жыл бұрын

I love how you opened and closed this out, btw. Right where you need to be!!

@ggpink9044 Жыл бұрын

So refreshing to see/hear the Tyler we got to know again. I'm happy for you! 🙏

@roadhog4582 Жыл бұрын

So happy for you Tyler! This mom with kids your age was worried about you. I can’t wait to see what’s next in your future. You can do anything! Thank you for being such a great role model for young people. Love & prayers to you! ❤

@stephaniegillam20 Жыл бұрын

So glad to see you happy and thriving! And especially happy to see you back on KZfaq. Can’t wait to follow along. Been a fan since day one of your BB season. ❤

@robinhuffman4956 Жыл бұрын

Soooo proud of you! Seeing that sparkle back in your eyes is awesome. So happy you are you- you are awesome.

@The_Wavelength Жыл бұрын

Thank you so much!!

@chrischicago4246 Жыл бұрын

This seems like the most real and heartfelt you’ve ever been. Depression and anxiety can kill. Childhood trauma can really cause havoc in one’s life. I’m glad you’re coming out of it. It’s rough.

@desireepearson2896 Жыл бұрын

Thank you for sharing your experiences -- vulnerability & honesty are the first steps we take in letting our authentic selves shine again. I can definitely relate to your 2022 experience & I also went through a similar time of just fist fighting ALL of my demons seemingly all at once. The good news? We made it out to the other side & we get to live each day rediscovering who we are & who we want to be. Always been a huge supporter since BB20 & I'm rooting for you on this new journey! ❤

@londaw3773 Жыл бұрын

That sparkle in your eyes, smile, and positive vibe is what drew me in on BB 20. You had a drive to make the world a better place. It was inspiring. So glad you have found yourself again. Thanks for sharing. You really made a bad day turn around and put a smile on my face!! Looking forward to your journey.

@jessicataylor1651 Жыл бұрын

So true! Our lives are lived from the inside out. If we take care of ourselves internally then everything else will come together. Loved you on both seasons of BB you were so down to earth and cool!😎 praying for you Tyler ❤

@EllieK23 Жыл бұрын

Went through divorce a couple years ago. There is something so beautiful about finding yourself again. Happiness will come for you!

@kqueen1221 Жыл бұрын

Absolutely love your story. I'm an "OG" fan since I first saw you on BB20. By far one of my favorite seasons, everyone on there were great. Keep inspiring through your story, it can be your therapy, and at the same time helping others deal. You are truly inspiring ❤❤

@nathancheek1234 Жыл бұрын

Much love to you Tyler. Such a great guy and a big inspiration to me and humble on top of that. You’ve got our support ❤

@robinlance1714 Жыл бұрын

So proud of you, Ty. You're loved more than you will ever know. You're future is so bright my friend. ♥️ The beach is the best!

@Jlb2233 Жыл бұрын

you always gave off incredible energy and loved you from the very beginning of big brother & you’ve always been that person :)) nothing changes ! Anyone would be lucky to b with you! stay strong and remain who you were from the beginning !

@rialequay1787 Жыл бұрын

Great video Tyler. Thanks for the update. I'm so happy you're doing good. ❤

@melissalemasters1021 Жыл бұрын

I have always said you can fake happiness but your eyes will give it away. You have happiness in your eyes now and it’s amazing to see. I’m so glad you are taking the time to figure yourself out. You seem to be such a genuine and sweet soul, I hope you are blessed in all ways this year! ❤

@crazylicious85 Жыл бұрын

Thank you for sharing your journey because mental health is so important and so many struggle with d word (myself included). Wishing you the best 🙂

@lyndsiejobson337 Жыл бұрын

You’re my favorite bb cast member ever. So glad to see the sparkle in your eyes. Your light is showing! Love your honesty and happy that you remembered how great you really are. 😊

@victoriaw5668 Жыл бұрын

You’ve always been my favorite! I felt something was off, so happy you’re back to being authentic, taking care of yourself, and starting to realize your goals! Welcome back Ty! ❤️ Never give up, because now you know! ❤️

@robertathompson7191 Жыл бұрын

You are true inspiration. These skills will help you through your whole life . Your a class act !You deserve the best !

@courtneybautista3372 Жыл бұрын

Thank you for being vulnerable & sharing with us. We are rooting for you!!! Love your heart!!! All the best!!!

@k.d311 Жыл бұрын

Love this! Wishing you all the best moving forward :)

@Pitufo9483 Жыл бұрын

It’s nice to see an authentic video. Sorry to hear that you have had a rough few years. Make sure to focus on yourself and get your mind right because you can’t be there for others if you’re not there for yourself first. Reconnecting with nature is always beneficial. I wish you all the best Tyler. 😎

@noradonnellan5477 Жыл бұрын

Always one of my favorite Big Brother players ❤ thank you for sharing!

@Amy-hl4rx Жыл бұрын

I had no idea you had a KZfaq channel! It is so nice to see you and hear you are putting your mental health in the front seat. Life can be tough, but if we work hard on ourselves first the rest will come to us. It has been a rough couple years across the world, so proud of you and this journey you are on. Love & Light Tyler. Your dad is smiling down on you, seeing all that you do and so proud.

@chelsc2198 Жыл бұрын

I’m so happy to see this video! So glad you’re doing what’s best for you and putting you first. Keep it up and always know how awesome you are! I love your light and positivity. ❤

@janneymakowski1209 Жыл бұрын

You were so fun to watch on Big Brother!! You are a great guy!!

@davemn105a Жыл бұрын

Your amazing Tyler!!! Take care of yourself and everything will fall into place. You are loved!!!

@amandazucker Жыл бұрын

We love you so much Tyler! You are such an incredible person and you have so much support around you❤

@samanthasalonis636 Жыл бұрын

It’s really nice to see people open up more. People don’t want to talk about things. I did a live not long ago about mental health and checking on your friends. ❤ 2022 was almost the worst year of my life as well. But 2023 I’m choosing to make changes as you are. Thank you for continuing to be an inspiration. ❤️🙏🏼

@judithtucker3239 Жыл бұрын

So glad to hear from you. I can tell you are in a better place now than when you were on Big Brother the second time. I was so glad you won America's Favorite Houseguest on your first go around. Take care of yourself. I love your home on the beach, it all looks so beautiful.

@AngelAndrea68 Жыл бұрын

So proud of you and can see the real growth. 💯.You got this 🧡

@rjw4159 Жыл бұрын

Sending you so much love and positive energy. You have so much to look forward to and I am excited for you. I have struggled with depression and the first big step to overcoming it was accepting that mental health is important and reconnecting with friends and family.

@The_Wavelength Жыл бұрын

♥️♥️🙏🙏

@user-tt3ft5nu3p Жыл бұрын

I absolutely love this ❣️ You got this! 🔥

@Gizmo72710 Жыл бұрын

I am so proud of you! Growth leaves scars, and those scars build strength and character. Always be you..GOD put you on this Earth for a purpose, let HIM lead you on your journey. Find what you love to do, and do it, as it is a huge part of your purpose. Thats what I tell my 32 year old Son. Find what makes you happy. For him, it’s socializing orphaned animals, to ready them for their forever homes. The riches he gains from that will sustain him, not financially. But every other way. We all have a purpose! Carry on Tyler….be you! GOD bless!

@vickismith162 Жыл бұрын

Stay strong Tyler.. Praying 2023 holds new adventures and joyful life experiences.❤️🙏🏼

@cyndiwells4583 Жыл бұрын

My son is struggling with issues and this will be his year too. He has to learn to love himself first and is working on that. I’m finally seeing my old son and it makes me smile. With that said, I’m pulling for the both of you to have the best 2023! Be happy and be yourself. We’ve got your back.

@dgator3599 Жыл бұрын

So glad to hear directly from you. Keep striving to learn how to listen and trust in yourself. Please know that good always overcomes evil! Happy seeing you on Instagram hanging out in Nashville...my old stomping ground! Take care, northeast Florida loves you!!

@sharlynprettyman712 Жыл бұрын

I'm Happy to see you Happy!! You got this!!!

@DarlinNikki1999 Жыл бұрын

Keep pushing through Tyler! I been suffering from the Big D since early in my 20's it can be awful at times but I keep pushing forward myself. I live with a lot of regrets! The should-da, could-da, would-das but I didn't-ts. I know you're not supposed to think about the past but that's really hard! I'm glad to see you're doing great! I live in SC too. Sending Prayers to you for a successful life ahead.

@janeenadams Жыл бұрын

You have such a kind and gentle way about you but you have the heart of a lion. 💪🏻 Wishing you all the best in the new year!

@angiesunkins8953 Жыл бұрын

You don’t know how happy I am to see your handsome, smiling face!! I am so thankful that you found yourself again and that you are back!! You look amazing!! I am praying for you! I was really worried for you for quite a while. I have loved you since BB and you will forever be my favorite! I am pushing through my depression right now as well so thanks for motivating me!! I can’t wait to see what’s next!!

@caitlynbolton03 Жыл бұрын

Woooo for time stamps!! Excellent video, props to you ❤️👏

@The_Wavelength Жыл бұрын

🤝♥️

@kaylalee3577 Жыл бұрын

This has been super inspiring to me. I have been lost for a while and I really need to focus on me in 2023. Thanks for sharing Ty!!

@The_Wavelength Жыл бұрын

You got this!

@mollyobrien8531 Жыл бұрын

Sending you tons of positive vibes Tyler!! You’ll forever be one of my favorite players, big brother has gotten me through some of my toughest times so I am happy to see you are doing well 💜

@The_Wavelength Жыл бұрын

I appreciate that! Thank you :)

@allisonwoods7405 Жыл бұрын

The greatest BB player ever!! I love this and how you are overcoming yourself! I hope you are doing well!! I love your channel and will continue to watch every video you post!

@sonyafeigen3570 Жыл бұрын

Thank you for this! 2022 was the most challenging mental health year for me as well and I love your thoughts about making it a learning experience. I agree!! 🎉take care!!

@The_Wavelength Жыл бұрын

We got this! Thank you 🫶

@kimberlyb7536 Жыл бұрын

Keep your head up Ty. I didn’t know you are struggling. Please stay consistent with therapy. I love you💕

@Cherise403 Жыл бұрын

I really resonate with this video.. 2022 was the toughest year of my life in so so many ways. And for the first time I’m actually going to therapy and “sitting in the mess”.. been avoiding these D words for years now and your right .. wish I would have done this sooner but things have a way of working out the way they are suppose to. Trying to have faith in the universe. Anyway I’m a huge big brother fan and I don’t know you in real life but you inspire me.. this video really inspired me. Thank you. Wish you nothing but healing vibes and sit in that mess my dude. You got this. I loved how you said everything else will follow, gotta get your mind straight first and then the right path will present it self ( not in those words but you get me?)