It's hard to admit that you have this when your overcontrolled external behaviors are validated and rewarded by society.

Wow, so there is a split in my psyche. It is exactly like a little child that stopped growing, afraid and traumatized, shy, and shameful, no confidence or self esteem, no self image at all. And so much shame, fear around dating and sex and emotions regarding the opposite gender, exactly like a little kid would act. Nervous to make eye contact or sustain it. Masisve imposter syndrome but everyone in society sees you as perfect and over achieving. Only if the knew this pain, this storm, this war of splits and distortions inside...

I just realized I'm in a relationship with a quiet BPD woman. My own lack of boundries led to a toxic relationship from hell. 13 years of marriage and everything seemed fine. Then she reconnected with her old best friend and *BAM* ....she became her favorite person and then came the projection, devaluation, and discard. In what seemed to overnight, I went from being on top of the world to being a disgusting waste of oxygen.

U def just explained my entire life’s story

I cried listening 😢

God fucking damnit

oh man .... thank you for this video very well put hit riiiight home i really need to do something

And what other choice does one have, I ask? All of us have our crosses to bear.

Yep. oof😔