Whatz It Feel Like: Losing your child to stillbirth

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Whatz It Feel Like

Whatz It Feel Like

5 жыл бұрын

Ashley sat down with us just 10 weeks after losing her third child, Ben. She delivered him at 32 weeks. His heart suddenly stopped. Ashley bravely describes the day she learned Ben had died and how she said goodbye.
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@sanyuhope
@sanyuhope 2 ай бұрын
This pain is something you can never be able to explain to any one, Because it hurts so deep... You can't heal from it... You just learn to live with it.. I know what it feels like to loose a baby... I know what it feels like to go to hospital and come back empty handed.. cyber hugs to all mums going through that...
@motelkitty
@motelkitty 4 жыл бұрын
this ripped my heart out of my chest....praying for her :((
@mimosamark1718
@mimosamark1718 3 жыл бұрын
This was so painful to watch as I lost my daughter Dorothy Zendaya (37weeks, 6days) two weeks ago on the 23 October. The experience of having a stillbirth is devastating as you will never know what their cry sounds like or see them open their eyes or hear their breathing or heartbeat as you hold them close 😥💔😭 May all our angel babies be at peace and happy in heaven ❤
@TazhalivinLIFE
@TazhalivinLIFE 8 ай бұрын
All I can do is cry. I miss my Son..
@user-wc2tu4ov6e
@user-wc2tu4ov6e 5 ай бұрын
Same here
@gt8349
@gt8349 4 жыл бұрын
May God bless you! I had a stillborn baby at 15. No one understood the hurt and trauma it caused. I started drinking heavy and for years blamed myself for failing him! I am now 37. I never got pregnant again but opened my heart to it only to be told fibroids have taken over my uterus and I will be having a hysterectomy in December. This is not a sob story. I trust God and I am thankful for every kick and movement I was blessed to feel. My mom was an addict. Never around. I noticed that the baby wasn't moving but, didn't know what that meant. The day I finally went to the hospital I delivered a deceased baby. No one even knew I was pregnant ,out of fear I had kept it to myself.
@teesense5502
@teesense5502 3 жыл бұрын
I’m so sorry for your loss 💕
@astheticlemon5312
@astheticlemon5312 3 жыл бұрын
I’m so sorry you went through this, God bless🤍
@michele21auntiem
@michele21auntiem 2 жыл бұрын
I am so sorry.
@FoolishMasquerade98
@FoolishMasquerade98 4 жыл бұрын
I lost my son Oliver in June, he was stillborn as well. This is the worst pain anyone could ever feel, my heart goes out to this mother.
@astheticlemon5312
@astheticlemon5312 3 жыл бұрын
Aw I’m so sorry for you loss, God bless🤍
@gypsybellydancer
@gypsybellydancer 4 жыл бұрын
This was so hard to watch . Nobody deserves this kind of pain. God be with them
@rush182link3
@rush182link3 11 ай бұрын
Yesterday my sister and her husband lost their baby at 36 weeks we are in shock and sick to our stomachs. We ask you all here to please send your prayers 😢😢😢 his name was Maverick
@JessicaaBrooke
@JessicaaBrooke 4 жыл бұрын
Hugs 😭😭😭 I lost my daughter Elena after an emergency c section back in October. I wish that this didn't happen to any parent. 💔
@WhatzItFeelLike
@WhatzItFeelLike 4 жыл бұрын
I am so very sorry.
@julial.5945
@julial.5945 Жыл бұрын
Thanks for sharing your story 💖. I lost my twins in week 23 and know how you feel when you watch this video
@sharonsiekay4966
@sharonsiekay4966 11 ай бұрын
Me too.... I lost my babies 1 day ago 😢😭😭😭. My twin boys were 23 weeks. Very devastating experience
@gogina9186
@gogina9186 4 жыл бұрын
My heart is extremely broken. I lost my baby boy at 26 weeks and 2 days. I know this pain oh so well and it’s awful. I have no words, but I am so sorry for all the mothers that have been through this.
@kaitlynsites3928
@kaitlynsites3928 4 жыл бұрын
I could not imagine this type of pain. I’m 35 weeks, and my sons movements have slowed down because he’s running out of room but he still kicks regularly. I worry so much about this. I see people all the time saying losing your child in the beginning is the same as a stillbirth and while both of these things are life altering and soul crushing I could not imagine having to deliver a near full term baby who has already passed on. After feeling his kicks and listening to his heart beat, seeing him month after month growing like a weed. The two should never be compared but I would have to say stillbirth is absolutely worse. My heart is shattered for all the women who have ever experienced this type of pain and suffering. I could not imagine.
@VioletEmerald
@VioletEmerald 11 ай бұрын
"losing your child in the beginning" meaning miscarriage being compared to stillbirth?
@jimkennedy5644
@jimkennedy5644 Жыл бұрын
While my stillborn son (our oldest of four) died in 1990…..32 1/2 years ago. He has never been far from my heart since the horrendous, life altering event, but I was recently super triggered by meeting a 32 year old nice young guy. He could been Andrew, my son. Everything you describe is EXACTLY what we experienced, except my wife delivered vaginally. The pain fades, but he has NEVER been forgotten. Holding and loving our boy is a memory I have cherished through life, as are the pictures. He is no less my child in this life experience than my 3 gifts, who have seen me to the ripe old age of 62. I am sorry for your loss. Only those of us who have experienced this particularly cruel and hard to comprehend loss can understand.
@VioletEmerald
@VioletEmerald 11 ай бұрын
Sending hugs as a 33 year old woman born in 1990 myself with a Father who's 60 years old himself. It is surreal to process what could've been.
@queenc8280
@queenc8280 Ай бұрын
Extremely sad. I'm a mom of 3 & I was always obsessed with movement. I'm sorry 😢 to her & all the women who experienced this.
@mmathapelo5490
@mmathapelo5490 3 ай бұрын
I just lost my baby girl at 30 Weeks on the 7th, unfortunately I couldn't hold her because she was badly wounded 😢😢, my heart is broken 💔😭
@tracy-ux8bm
@tracy-ux8bm 4 жыл бұрын
My heart aches for you🙏🏼 I've had 2 stillbirths, one in 2008 at 26wks and recently October 9, 2019 at 28wks 4days.. it's hard but, I have faith and hope that one day I'll have my second rainbow baby and so will you🙏🏼
@WhatzItFeelLike
@WhatzItFeelLike 4 жыл бұрын
I am so sorry to hear that. Prayers for you!
@arieswife8926
@arieswife8926 4 жыл бұрын
Alicia what was the reason did they tell you why it happened?...they still havent told me ..im desperate i lost my son at 29 weeks pregnant about a month ago I just want to die..
@tracy-ux8bm
@tracy-ux8bm 3 жыл бұрын
@@arieswife8926 the autopsies didn'tgive me any answers, Dr said it just happens sometimes, it still hurts
@simphiwephiri5255
@simphiwephiri5255 2 ай бұрын
It takes courage to share your story and I admire everyone who has done so. I lost my baby girl at 35 weeks in December 2023 and having to live with the love I have for her and the pain that comes with losing her has truly not been easy but everyday I choose to let love win and although her life was short, she changed my life and I’m forever grateful to my Skai. She and all other angel babies are forever loved and remembered ❤
@ksidkloulechad2905
@ksidkloulechad2905 4 жыл бұрын
I had a stillbirth to a really cute chubby, baby boy on New Year's Eve. It was incredibly devastating but I can see you are strong! It's one of the worst things to go through but it can be overcomed. I am happy to have an angel that I get to celebrate his birthday every New Year. New Year means new hope.
@WhatzItFeelLike
@WhatzItFeelLike 4 жыл бұрын
I am so very sorry for you loss.
@daughterofthemosthighgod1889
@daughterofthemosthighgod1889 7 ай бұрын
❤❤
@briannal7808
@briannal7808 2 жыл бұрын
Omg tearing up.. lost my baby girl 4 month ago at 31 weeks I was sick with covid for two months and she just couldn’t fight anymore 💔 I miss my precious Lovella Lawrence.. forever 🕊
@daughterofthemosthighgod1889
@daughterofthemosthighgod1889 7 ай бұрын
❤❤
@carkrueger
@carkrueger 4 жыл бұрын
You are so brave. God bless you.
@trinalenay3525
@trinalenay3525 4 жыл бұрын
my heart breaks for her
@taylori4195
@taylori4195 4 жыл бұрын
Oh boy this was hard to watch. Sending her so much love.
@nasimakay9429
@nasimakay9429 3 жыл бұрын
I lost my daughter at 21 weeks and I know this pain all too well.
@madisoneady405
@madisoneady405 4 жыл бұрын
This is so painful to watch...I feel so sorry for her. 💔
@leannetalbot8588
@leannetalbot8588 3 жыл бұрын
We lost our son at 38 weeks, I feel the pain every day, now suffer with ptsd ❤️
@kkgaming37
@kkgaming37 2 жыл бұрын
I lost my son at 38 weeks, 6 days. The pain is immense! We were 8 days, 8 DAYS!!! from his due date. And no explanation of what happened. He was just gone! 😭
@queenc8280
@queenc8280 Ай бұрын
​@@kkgaming37😢😢😮omggggg 💔💔💔💔💔
@bworthy861
@bworthy861 3 ай бұрын
Almost the same story but I was 37-38 weeks... so sad to hear still. My doctor didnt hug me, but the nurse did. I had seen the pair since the age of 14 and I was 34 I thought they would feel or react. Them not wanting to tell me and me knowing she wasnt hiding was traumatizing. I regret the time not spent... I only held her once and feel guilty. I didnt look her over enough, I should have spent more time, I didn't think to make 3d prints or take a locket of hair, two pictures.... I was in shock... I needed to hear this because I could never find the words. Doctors and nurses are not properly trained for this. I was blessed with one human soul that was empathetic. Her hug is what made it all real but also allowed me to express and deal. It is more than an outer body experience. For me it has been a silent death if you will. No one wants to talk about her. Im thankful most don't understand and pray for all who will or have. ❤
@astheticlemon5312
@astheticlemon5312 3 жыл бұрын
I’m sorry for your loss 💔God bless your heart🤍
@samgarciaa9175
@samgarciaa9175 3 жыл бұрын
I lost my son Alexis on nov 23 2020 , rest in heaven son
@ramonab9004
@ramonab9004 3 жыл бұрын
I’m so sorry for your loss 😢 If you don’t mind me asking what was the reason?
@adrose006
@adrose006 4 жыл бұрын
My heart hurts 💔
@Hollywood-yv3qy
@Hollywood-yv3qy Жыл бұрын
I am SO VERY SORRY!!!
@TheLauraGabrielle
@TheLauraGabrielle 9 ай бұрын
Im so sorry mumma. I lost my baby Teddy at 41 weeks. Nobody should ever have to go through this.
@mrsdutchess15
@mrsdutchess15 3 жыл бұрын
This is my life and I remember telling them I’m sorry I know I’m bothering you guys ... then when they look and don’t hear anything it’s like wait what’s going on why isn’t she moving .. where is her heartbeat ? My daughter was so excited to meet her little sister ... I was literally scared to tell my daughter having to call him while he’s with the kids and his confusion... my doctor crying bc we all knew I loved my daughter so much . I was so prepared for her . I’m so hurt I’m numb numb numb and angry and heart broken ... to give birth to your baby knowing there won’t be a cry .. the quiet of the delivery room after feeling every moment ... I gave birth to my beautiful daughter November 4th,2020 and she was my third as well I understand exact what u mean . I had her blessed prayed over her sung her the song I would have when born like her sister . I was hurt by my fiancé not wanting to hold her but it hurt in the inside ... but I havent faulted him or told him how to grieve all J do is look at her pics and cry I would have a one month old almost and it hurts ... I hope u were able to push thru bc at this point I don’t feel like I ever will
@karungirainbows7714
@karungirainbows7714 10 ай бұрын
This is how I feel right now but I hope in 2 years time I'll feel better
@604Beanz
@604Beanz 4 жыл бұрын
I just lost my Daughter Ava Anne Marie on April 29th 2020. It sucks, my son is 7 and I have no idea how I will even explain his baby sister is gone :'(.
@604Beanz
@604Beanz 4 жыл бұрын
I have 4 older children. 7, 5.5, 4.5, and 2. My youngest baby recently passed. I dont know if they will really understand. I've heard "Dont tell them they wont notice" and "They will notice you should say something because they will know your sad."
@arieswife8926
@arieswife8926 4 жыл бұрын
I lost mine 30 March 2020...Im devastaded..
@ramonab9004
@ramonab9004 3 жыл бұрын
@@604Beanz I’m so sorry for your loss 😢 If you don’t mind sharing what was the reason?
@ramonab9004
@ramonab9004 3 жыл бұрын
@@arieswife8926 I’m so sorry 😞 I can’t imagine how hard is must be If you don’t mind me asking what was the reason
@elainebird58
@elainebird58 4 жыл бұрын
Its not your fault...honey trust he is alive in Christ ❤❤❤
@brothertn708
@brothertn708 4 жыл бұрын
Elaine Bird huh? The baby died lady, show some respect! 😢
@arieswife8926
@arieswife8926 4 жыл бұрын
God is so unjust...
@preciouskangwa5224
@preciouskangwa5224 6 ай бұрын
This was so painful 😢it happened to me just last years on 13th March 2023 when i last my son the pregnancy was 7 months I don't even know what happened I felt very strange in the morning I woke up my breasts were big as if I was placed feeding so I decided to go to the hospital where I was told that the baby was not breathing😢😢 after doing a scan I really felt so bad as if the whole world scrambled over me so, I really feel your pain I'm sorry about that😢😢
@MsTenna91
@MsTenna91 4 жыл бұрын
My heart is bleeding
@agnessngambi4664
@agnessngambi4664 7 ай бұрын
I just lost my baby Nachi kasanda a week ago 😢
@teniyahthomas6587
@teniyahthomas6587 4 жыл бұрын
Not even gonna lie my face is wet
@Xrrr548
@Xrrr548 Жыл бұрын
We found out one of our twins passed away two weeks ago when we visited our doctor for a routine visit. She was doing well for 32 weeks and suddenly she was gone .
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