I'm only 26, but I relate so much to your story, Sam. I grew up in neglect because my parents were always away for work as we were poor, and they were quite cold as people, and I am very likely neuro divergent or has ADHD which makes me very difficult to understand even until now. I couldn't bear myself so badly at certain points that I couldn't touch myself to take off my clothes or take care of myself. I also felt out of sorts in my own skin for so long which possibly caused me to develop body dysmorphia and eating disorder early on. So, I've always felt like I was actually a boy because they had all the freedom and fun. Where I am, we're very conservative; girls have to sit still and straight and look pretty, have good manners, dress in very specific manner, know how to cook and clean and clean up boys' mess, listen to men's orders, victim blamed a lot, had no equal rights. It just was more advantageous to be a boy. And I was usually known as a cool type of person, somewhat mysterious and unfazed. So, a lot of girls and boys would roleplay or treat me like a boy. Some of my friends would act like I'm their boyfriend. By middle school, I thought I was lesbian, then by highschool I figured I was bi. Then by uni, I understood that I was trans FTM. It was a hard fact to accept as that was the hardest thing to even sort out especially in such a community. So, I finally accepted myself as a boy and stop dressing as a girl. Told my mother who was extremely disheartened and against it. Thus, I finally accepted myself as a boy in my head who was just dressing up as a girl to appease my mother. At some points, I met a guy who's a really sensitive soul, and he talked to me till I fully comprehend my situation. I felt at peace with myself even if I had to live in secret. That's when I found the courage to search it up and found studies saying that the brain and hormones are still unstable up until 25. Thus, if I'm thinking of doing drastic changes, I should wait till I'm at least 30. I also found a lot of studies on how trauma causes dissociation that can lead to trans shifts. Thus, I waited it out. And by 24 and after a lot of therapy, I started to shed all of my traumas. It's like a weight was lifted from my shoulders along with the heavy boy coat I had on. I felt empowered as a woman. I fit in with myself. I was centered, albeit still shaky. By 25, I was really stable especially with the help of that lovely soul (he's still my friend, btw. Shoutout to you Afi). I'm glad I waited until my cracks started to fill in, till silhouette forms right, till I'm done cooking, till I'm able to decide for myself, till I'm able to fight for myself, till I'm comfortable with my own skin. Love to you, Sam. Thank you for the video, it is eye-opening. I hope you're at peace with yourself forever. Tl;dr: to all of you, please wait till you're at least 25 or check if you have any traumas or PTSD before transitioning. Learn and allow yourself to love yourself before you try changing anything.

"If you are not seen as a child, you don't even know you're real."

"Do not mistake the consequences of abuse for who you are". Wow.

As a therapist and a human, I am overcome with gratitude and respect for what you've shared, and how you've shared your experiences here. Your honesty, insights, and self-awareness are a rare and phenomenal gift to the world. Thank you, from the bottom of my heart.

"I clothed myself in my mother." That's a deeply profound and revelatory statement.

It takes real bravery to reach this level of self-introspection.

There’s a young boy like Sam in my neighborhood. His violence repulses me. His energy amazes me. His eyes break my heart. From now on, I will look him in the eyes and let him know “I see you. I love you. There is nothing wrong with you.” I was so wrong to look away. Thank you for waking me up.

It just hit me that this is not a simple message of detransitioning but that of enlightenment. This is to the core of our being. Thank you

This is a person with tremendous courage who has suffered greatly. It's a miracle that Sam survived.

This might be the most honest thing anywhere on the internet. This is what true strength looks like.

I am a 72 year old grandma and I am sending you a giant hug. My adopted son was a badly abused as a child and he has a hard time trusting even after 40 years of love. ❤ Be healed Sam, you are precious in God's sight.

I wish millions of people could view this. THIS is what I desire for society - to understand the deeper meanings behind people's actions.

This grandma wants to pull you in and give you the BIGGEST hug for all the suffering.

A boy tossed about by neglect and abuse grows into someone astoundingly beautiful as everyone here is witnessing and attesting to . Sam I have never seen someone so real and finally self accepting.

Thank you for sharing. My son at age 4 was abused by an older boy. He began sleeping with a slip of mine, then onto stealing my clothes. Therapy, non judgement and love gave him the healing he needed without going so far down this path. He’s a happy/healthy adult male and my heart ACHES that our society and the people around you…cheered you on but didn’t inquire deeper, didn’t provide a soft place to be nurtured and heal. I’m so thankful you’re sharing. This is so inspiring.

“Come home to who you are”. Amazing. God continue to bless, protect and heal you. Your story will rescue many. Your life has tremendous value. You are a true man.

I have no idea why you are in my feed, but I am grateful, this was terrifying and profoundly moving. This is beyond a TED TALK. Much love and tenderness to that boy in you that is now a man. It is a wonder that we survive our childhoods.

I'm sorry. We're supposed to protect our children. My mother didn't protect me either. You're a beautiful soul. Never forget that.

Sam, thank you. I am a 75 year old woman, not trans, who has fought the battle of being an invisible child all of my life. Almost everything you say is bang-on true for my life, too, and I could probably write a book in response to your talk. Thank you for your bravery and your honesty.❤

Your story is excruciating, heartbreaking, and heroic. And your eloquence as a storyteller is staggering, astounding, and dazzling--full of peace and pain and power and profundity! I am in awe. God bless you, and if He nudges you to write a book, go for it!!

To take away a child’s innocence is the most evil crime.

When we are given no guidance as children, we cope however we can. When we do not heal the wounded child, we cope however we can as an adult.

Hello Sam, Greetings from Montreal. I am an older man now next month I will be 57. (And I am still alive) I grew up as you did. When my parents labelled me "the mistake" and shut my light off, I become invisible. We share many common threads. I've been living with AIDS alone for over 30 years now. I have been married for 19 of those years to my husband. I'm not "Seen" by many people. Your message is Profound. And I think, even if you are in transition, or, de-transitioning, whomever you are, your message should be required listening to. My gay life has been fraught with difficulty. but I am not my story. Anymore. Thank you for your honesty and care. I am touched by your message today. I am sending you all my love and hugs today.

There aren’t words to convey how much this moved me. Thank you for sharing your truth and light.

Dear Sam, I am a 70 year old woman who has never experienced the suffering you have !! I want to tell you I LOVE YOU. If you where my Son I would be so proud of you for your courage. Compassion, & love. God bless you, & know he LOVES YOU!!❤❤❤

"Don't mistake what you lived with as a traumatized person for who you are."

"The truth will set you free"! I'm so glad your SPIRIT IS FREE.

I want to leave a comment but I find myself speechless. 😢Sam, you are a beautiful soul!

My husband is a beautiful soul who was also neglected and not protected. I see the scars in him, the way violence and screaming in the home is so normal to him, the way he finds love and kindness unusual. . He has come a long long way, but i see his wounds. Lord give me the strength to help my darling man heal

Bravo! I am not trans, I'm straight and recovering cptsd. Every word you spoke, Sam, was a gold nugget to me. Thank you so much for your eloquent, touching, intelligent address.

This is the most brave, truthful, self realization video of one's self that I have ever, EVER watched❤

Sam , I never have seen "labels" on people, I just see their souls. In you I simply see a beautiful human being.

38 year old straight male here. I would call myself a man's man. Right wing conservative politically. You have shown me the meaning of strength. True strength. I am inspired by your raw, unabated and pure strength. Strength of character and wisdom to make anyone envious. If you do not see it, I am here to tell you that it is there. Your honesty, through KZfaq no less, is astonishing. You have cut through every millimeter of your mistakes, your false perceptions, your justifications, your ego and discovered the truth of yourself in a way that I envy. Men live entire lives and do not come to the realizations you have come to. Some men experience far less trauma and pain and give up. But not you. And to do that, after ALL the terror and pain you endured.. to do that after 25 years of living in your comfort zone of of false safety.. just amazing on every conceivable level. You exude strength. When you talk to someone, you can pick up on these things. You have been tempered by the flame of battle and you have emerged strong, sharpened and ready. You have been tested and found worthy. Honor and virtue, are yours. You have mastered yourself. I only hope, that I can be as strong as you have clearly shown yourself to be. That I can walk through the fires that lay ahead and come out stronger than before, as you have done. I bow to you, in respect. I pray and I wish that you never err on your path forevermore. That you find true Peace, Forgiveness and Happiness for the rest of your days. A great reward awaits you in the afterlife, of that I am certain.

Wow, I got so much from this video, which I wasn’t expecting, if I were to be honest. What I heard most is that we are all “detransitioning” on some level, from our own stories of unkindness that we tell ourselves about who we think we are. All that negative self talk which was instilled at a very early age, that brain washing. When you said, “Stop coping” “If you cannot give yourself kindness and tenderness, where else is going to come from.” That just slayed me. With the added admonishment of not seeking it in others, but then tempered with the warning that those who you keep close had better be the right people, the ones who see you. Thank you for that. You pierced my soul. So much wisdom, even if over such a difficult and wandering journey. I see that you are still in a process of transformation, as we all are, and you still have a ways to go. Somehow, I don’t think the work is finished just yet. You have reason for hope, and you have given me some as well. Thank you for sharing some of your time with us. I know that you don’t want to keep telling your story, as you say, but I’m very grateful that you did. There’s power in your story, so don’t discard it without understanding its value for the rest of us. I wish you Godspeed and many, many blessings. May your soul find comfort and healing. May your journey continue to be washed with kindness and tenderness. 😊

Like most, I have seen hundreds of thousands of videos on KZfaq since 2006. This is the most profound video I have ever come upon. I came out of 27 years of homosexuality five years ago. Everything you say is true concerning healing and our childhood trauma. I am forgiven and a child of God by His grace. Thank you Sam, across the miles, for your testimony and truth.

You are remarkable. Thank you for sharing your journey from heartbreaking abuse and neglect to self-acceptance. There is something for everyone in your words. With love.

You are fearfully and wonderfully made.. - Psalm 139:13

“Not isolation but solitude.” I’m 59 and yes, very well put.

I worked with severely emotionally disturbed teens for 28 years, and I saw this sweet, lost soul's situation so many times. The boys who allowed me in showed me a pain that was no words for, and some did seek an alternative way out. I can say that it ended well for all. Then what one would consider as being well is just accepting this is all it is. I'm still praying that they find acceptance and peace.

As a transman I thought this was very insightful. It shows how important it is to have a proper support system and professional help and diagnosis before transitioning. It was heartbreaking to hear your story and hope you dont think lesser of the trans community. It is important to hear the voices of detransitioners just as much as the succuseful trans stories. I hope you find solace and happiness.

I am a 68-year-old grandma, and I am sending you love and all the hugs and tenderness you did not get as a little boy. And I am sending love and hugs and respect to the man you are "standing" before all of us, sharing your story. You have moved me so tremendously that I am bursting with pride for you. And I am humbled. You are Sam. ♥

You were never delusional. You used whatever coping skills you could muster. I know you don’t think so, but you are the bravest of soldiers.

I weep for the little boy that no one saw, he deserved better. Thank you for telling your story Sam.

You are not alone because "we are not meant to do this alone." Thank YOU Sam. Your strength, resilience, thoughtfulness and love is palpable. ❤🙏🏼

The wounded masculine can be a dark and terrifying place. But you can be an expression of the divine masculine, kind, loving, compassionate to self and others. You get to write the script and define masculinity on your terms and make it beautiful, powerful, and strong. You are a pillar of strength for so many who face complex childhood trauma. I am proud of you and I see the light within you. So deserving of love and acceptance. Thank you for being exactly as you are.

I'm amazed by your profound experience as a boy. Growing up female, being continually molested, raped, and worse, I always had the perspective of how difficult it is to grow up female. But then I became a mother of two precious baby boys and really began to see how this world attack and tries to destroy boys. So, yeah. I really do see you, brother. Thank you so much. So much. God Bless you, Continually. May you keep drawing closer to Christ. Walk With God! I Love you

I listened to your heartbreaking story and I want to thank you for sharing it because I work with abused children as a nurse and this reminded me to never get hardened to a child because of his behavior. Thank you Sam. Thank you. ❤

“To inhabit the truth of who you are.” Most of us flee this truth for all of our lives. We spend our whole lives running. You have had the courage to stop and feel and to hear that still small voice of calm. It can be the hardest thing of all - to just stop and sit with yourself.

This really hit me. I thought about it a lot. My whole life had been one train wreck after another. I was abused as a child. I deliberately sabotaged myself with bad people because I thought that’s what I deserved. Thank you, Sam.

I was an abused child and I had to learn to parent that broken little girl because I was self destructive and self loathing but now in my 60s I feel like that child has mostly grown up and is at peace.

As one who is detransitioning after 20 years post operative, my sympathies, my respects, and love in Christ to you my brother. Many blessings to you.

As a Christian grandmother of a little boy this breaks my heart that you went through all that!! It's terrible that our brokenness breaks children and impacts their whole life. I pray that you do find self acceptance and healing.🙏🏻

This is one of the most beautiful, authentic, vulnerable, shares I have ever been privileged to listen to. So much growth in this life time. What I see is a beautiful human being blooming in self-love, embracing self- truth. Beautiful. Beautiful. Beautiful. Thank you for sharing your journey.

Had this video played in a crowded movie theater, I believe everyone would have given it a tearful standing ovation. What an incredible video to oddly show up in my YT feed. I can't relate to any of Sam's life story, but the lesson is in the epiphany... an eventual conclusion many of us can relate to. And isn't it as sad as it is wild, that we slow our minds enough to ponder these insights in the latter years of our life journey? Sam, at 67 yrs old, I give you a tearful standing ovation, if only from my dim laptop glow while in my bathrobe at 2 am.

Wow, what a powerful video. I so see you. Your young boy is so lucky to have you reparenting him with such clarity and tenderness. Your message of radical self love applies to us all. We are not broken, we are not our stories, but instead we are made of pure essence, pure love. The more we connect to that, the quieter our minds become and the more we can identify with our soulful self which knows that the stories are just that. I am on the same path as you walking home to my true self so I deeply resonate with your words. Such love to you. ❣

I see you Sam. Your beauty and wisdom are proof that humans have a capacity for wholeness no matter what. Your invitation to Self compassion and Self awareness is a great gift🙏❤️🙌

Sam ....I have only a few words to say after your openess and honesty , you are a beautiful human being .

'No one noticed'...profound and so very sad for this little boy. Hug your little boys, mom and dad. See them and love them beyond imagination.

A beautiful and insightful talk, explained intelligently and captivatingly. Man, you have a talent for drawing viewers to your side and your story. And you chose a beautiful scenery 💖

You were fearfully and wonderfully made by the hand of God as a man . Trauma always leads to a place of deep confusion . You so bravely expressed that . May the one who made you continue to lead you to wholeness , body soul and spirit . You have a message of hope rooted in real Truth .❤

Holy Cow... How this got in my feed...I don't know...but this Sam has REALLY examined himself with a fine toothed comb...what work and consistent commitment it would take to go where this man has been to "heal" himself...THIS MAN 💥 SERIOUSLY 💥 WANTS TO BE FREE... This just proves the resilience of the human spirit...God have mercy on this man, meet him right where he is...thank you Jesus...Father be Glorified💕amen and amen.

As a therapist, I agree with you. This is bravery. You’ve honored us. Edit: You we’re forgiven before you asked for it. He has a plan for us all.

So many children suffer as you did in total silence because they don’t have the capacity to fully understand. I admire you for telling your story as painful as it was I pray this helps someone see a light in themselves that they haven’t before!

Sam thank you. Detranstiming currently. I am try to heal from my trauma pre trans and post trans. My trauma started at birth. Extreem abuse and gender based violance. Then was abused after coming out as trans. When i went inward 2 days for surgery God found me in a broken state and begged to die. It was this experimce i repented for my tans and decided to detanstion. I am trying to work through this mostly alone. I also became violent and disturbed. My mental health had crashed and had to find God. I needed something bigger then myself. There is much i could say about my abusevie life that it would take away from the fact God has saved me and i can now begin to heal. I am now a medical enuich. Mulated body and broken hearted and lost and broken relationships. Even 3 kids who are torn apart. I pray more pepole will hear our stories to open up the conversations to expose the truths of trans. I was also prayed upon and thought i was a lesbian. When in truth i wasnt i was just sexually abused and confeused about sex and attraction. I am sorry you had to experince simular experinces. I had to hid in a masculine shell thinking it would help me find love only to be abused repeatly. I am now approching 47 and living in a rv in solitude and found inner peace. Much love . ❤ my you be loving to yourself and find the love of God you so needed. ❤️🙏🏽

I was also severely physically and sexually abused and defiled as a very young child to 16 year old. I’m almost 50 and struggling daily to even know who I am. I both empathise and understand aspects that you are mentioning here. I’m so sorry for your loss of yourself and your innocence. Your bravery and courage are truly the real man that you are. Thankyou for sharing your story.

As a detransitioner myself, I had to learn some very valuable lessons but from the opposite direction. This is so beautiful and well spoken and I'm so glad that you have found more of your way and are feeling more whole and better. Thank you for sharing. Trauma and abuse are terrible things but you are so right that we are more than a story and more than the things that have happened to us. Much love!

"you cannot be something you're not"!!!

The truth really does set us free. Thank you for sharing your story, which will surely help countless others heal from their personal trauma.

FTM for 13 years until 8 months ago. Thanks for reminding me it’s about healing.

As a cancer survivor, I have had double mastectomies with no way to have implants due to deep gouging during surgeries. I have been to several plastic surgeons who either refused to do reconstructions, as they would not match in any way or they discouraged me from trying. I also had a complete hysterectomy, 12 years later, because of endometrial cancer. Hormone therapy was not an option either as my first cancer was Triple Negative breast cancer. Then, along came colon cancer.five years after that. None of my four cancers were metastasis. Even without female parts, I have felt no less a woman. You have experienced terrible abuses. Sadly, you now understand and speak to the hearts of all of us who have been hit by heartbreaking circumstances.Thank- you, Sir! 💖💝💞As an aside, I too was abused as a child. My first cancerous tumor was exactly, EXACTLY, where the thumb of my step-father's hand began to violate me. Finally, 66 years later, I am finding myself. May God bless you. Always.

I have tears in my eyes watching this video. I want to reach out to you and give you the biggest warmest hug. You have been through so much pain. It's so beautiful to see you now so open and honest about your life. I wish you every blessing in the world. ❤❤❤

Thank u Sam! Your openness & frankness is so inspiring! I wish you peace & healing on your journey in this life ❤ Many of us have a difficult past of trauma & self hatred; seeing you speak your truth is so powerful & I’m so thankful I found your story as I go thru my own “spiritual”detransitioning from an abusive cult I was raised in. I am now 5 years free from the religion (I’m 54 now) but struggle with so many feelings of who I am & where I belong! Thank u, thank u, thank u! Everything you said struck a chord & I hope you see how much your strength & courage has & will continue to help others on their own path of self discovery & self acceptance. You are a beautiful soul 🥰

People who abuse children make me so angry, but also sad for them. This world needs healing.

As an ftm person who does just enjoy hearing others perspectives and is comfortable with the possibility I may detransition one day, this video was a great watch. Your self introspection and personal thoughts were just…. Really got me thinking. The idea anyone would hate you for speaking your story just because they are still transitioning is bewildering to me. Thank you for sharing, will def be checking out more of your videos in the upcoming weeks

Some useful advice here for anybody in terms of "stop trying to fix yourself". People are often their own worst tyrant.

Omg this was so powerful. You literally painted a picture with your words Sam. Eloquent, articulate, skillful. I didn’t just hear you, I felt you. You captured my heart immediately and I know you said you did not want to keep telling your story but soooooo many need to hear it. I was a hopeless drug addict set free in a moment, never to be the same. I did not want to continue telling the story. I think God had other plans. Invitations to share kept coming and I finally concluded that was my purpose. 30 years later I’m still telling it, giving hope to hopeless addicts. Brother you have a gift and a story , TELL IT…LOUD!

I was reared in a family that was clinically dysfunctional. I am the oldest of eight. I will not describe what occurred. What is important for me is that I had to except that my reaction to that life was effected by the situation I was in and how I as a child tried to deal with it. Without knowing it I was trying to survive mentally. I have a photo of myself at the age of 17 and I look like I just left a death camp. I left home at 18 and spent the next 35 years fighting depression and all that goes with that; three marriages, many, many jobs, and no real direction in my life. At a point I realized I had chosen to let my parents keep me in their grip. Once I dropped that I found life manageable. The need to destroy my parents in my head went away. I attended ACOA meetings for years and remember (just like many others) that at first I knew that if I told how I felt I would start crying and never stop I had surpressed so much for so long and it made me feel safer that I had locked it away... I knew it would kill me/ I did cry and and I did not die and the tears did stop one day. How hard it was to understand that my "normal" was the chaos I lived as a child and that I actually worked to recreate that well in to my adulthood. They were victims too. I have learned to trust in God and His Son and to live with an intention to heal a little everyday. My faith holds me up. Thank you for sharing where you are in your journey. I am sure that it helps many. If I may, in the end we are in charge of how we react to anything. Nevertheless, trauma is trauma and everyone cannot find relief the same way. We do not know what went on in other peoples formative years and it is hard for some to believe that a human can have their person hood, their ego, destroyed by the age of 2-3; some of us never recover. I wish you well. Continue to nurture that precious and tender "inner child" because that is the real you. Others took that away from you just as did my parents. I have forgiven them. God Speed Sam!!

Although different, my childhood was very similar to yours. 🥺 I can identify with (so clearly) what you went through. I am 52 years old. There was no internet or support groups., when we were kids. I was raised in rural Montana and felt that I was the only one in the World like me. Alone, isolated, terrified, profoundly sad and confused. That was my childhood. All I wanted was my mom and she was dead. I didn’t fit in with the “boys” and was an outsider with the girls. I am so, so sorry that you had a similar experience as a child. I’m sending you the biggest mental hug right now. 🥰 We made it. 🥹 We are alive.

This is one of the most beautiful and well expressed truths I have ever heard. Much wisdom in here that can apply to anyone.

"Truth....nourishes, informs us, welcomes us....and living a lie means we are never there/here. Be who you ARE. ..." Amen

"I'm a man with a strange history that's informed me and educated me. That's what our story does." -- You're journey and story brought me to tears. While I do not share your story, the first 49 years of my life was wrought with abuse and misery. I went from a painful childhood straight into an abusive marriage. Now, I am finally whole. Thank you for sharing your life with the rest of us. It will bring courage and healing to the journey of many people!

I’m a 77 yo woman who learned to nurture the child in me who suffered. I became my own friend. You are brave and you are here. Hugs.

You are seen. Your level of vulnerability is astounding. My prayer is that you will continue your incredible journey of healing. Thank you for sharing your story.

Thank you Sam. Yours is the story of humanity. The human wounded spirit every human possesses. Different layers of hurt and trauma for each person, but you have so eloquently expressed that healing can be found with love and grace and valuing our essence, our true self. May God continue to bless and guide your path. Thank you from the bottom of my heart for sharing your story. You have touched my soul❤

"But now I come home to myself in truth. I'm a man." There are so many profound statements here. One after the other. You're like listening to one of the best books ever written. You are a very special human. Thank you for making this. You are healing US. X

Surgical self-harm. Annihilation of the shame. The annihilation of disgusting boy. Also, the annihilation of my father where he lived in me. I am SHOOK. The mom in me, wants to find you, wrap you in love and hugs and kindness. I think you are the bravest soul I have ever seen.

YOU ARE NOT BROKEN...GOD ONLY MAKES PERFECT IN HIM!

This is the most beautiful, bold, and helpful thing I've listened to in some time. Thank you.

I like the ppl in this comment section omg…this video just brought out the compassion and kindness out of ppl that we should always have on a daily basis with everyone. It’s nice to see it here, just try to be like this more often and the world will be a better place

Yes Sam….abuse leaves scars deep deep in our being….its the most cruel violation of one’s psyche and damages one for life. We survive but never really heal because for the rest of our lives….at times it resurfaces and you are taken back to that moment. I suffer severe depression at times….just a small trigger perhaps and I’m back at being the abused little girl. Yes…it did make us stronger, wiser,, more aware and empathetic. We celebrate the richness of our age and wisdom.

“I’m more comfortable with dogs and true friends.” ❤❤ I think that’s true for all of us. ❤

YOu have immense courage Sam. I am so glad you shared your story. Thank you for taking a chance with us. God's blessings and protection be over you always 💗

Hey Sam, it’s 230 in the morning right now, I’m 29, and I’m going through the same thing right now, finding myself again, because of my trauma I tried to hide myself and become something else than who I was, the trauma destroyed me as a person as well, I went under the knife to remove every bit of evidence that that prior person existed, I tried to bury my pain and scars by being someone else I didn’t recognize when I looked in the mirror, only last January did I start realizing that that isn’t who I am, I’m a man, a grown man who’s been hiding for 11 years, I don’t want to hide anymore, it feels like a façade, so I’ve been seeing a psychiatrist and experimenting with psychedelics as treatment, to let me be myself, without an ego, to let go and love myself again, that’s my life goal, to just be happy, and live a fulfilling life, sure missing a few parts now.. but those parts didn’t make me who I was, neither do the ones I have now, it’s in my heart and soul that makes me, me.

I am a mother to 2 boys and I want to hug the little boy in you 💔 ‘If😢 you are not seen as a child; you don’t even know you are real that you are here’.

I'm glad you found your way , I hope everyone does ,how they choose. AND respect everyone's journey to become who they are.

I am so struck by your wisdom, grace, gentleness, and compassion. God bless you!

When I first came across your videos I thought "is this person male or female?" And I felt within seconds of watching you that you were male. It is very obviously there. If you were female you would have been a masculine female to me. But rather your are clearly male with a feminine touch which is a lovely thing because it means, to me anyway, that you are sensitive and loving and caring and not afraid to show it. For a man to be like that is a beautiful thing. You are an extremely special man. Be thankful for re-discovering your self. What a treasure you are. A blessing. And thank you for sharing. To put yourself out there is an extremely brave and courageous thing to do. You are amazing to be here as you are, having gone through what you have. ❤

I've been a KZfaq user for many years, this is one of the most inspirational, open, honest, and profoundly real videos I've ever had the good fortune to come across. Bless you, and thank you, Sam. Sending you masses of love, light and peace.

Thank you so much for sharing your perspective and experience with us. You are so brave and strong. I'm keeping you in my prayers, and wish you the best in your healing!

Wow, thank you so much for sharing this, it really helps me understand why at least some people want to transition in the first place. I wish you peace and love, and I love the place you chose to film this, it is beautiful.