Working Through Emotional Trauma

Working Through Emotional Trauma | His Grace

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The Church of Jesus Christ of Latter-day Saints

4 жыл бұрын

Will emotional trauma ever go away? Addressing it with a professional counselor, praying to God, and talking with trusted friends can ease some pain. In this video Brittany shares her experience with God’s grace and her emotional trauma.
When Brittany was a young teenager, her parents got divorced. The feelings of abandonment were overwhelming. Deeply hurt and longing for acceptance, she ended up in an abusive relationship. Alcohol, starving, and self-harming were just some of the ways in which she tried to cope. But everything she did took her to darker places.
Brittany never felt good enough or lovable enough. It was as if she deserved to be left alone. But one night, while her friends partied, she realized she could not deal with her emotional trauma alone. Alcohol hadn’t helped in the past, and it wouldn’t help now. A thought occurred to her that the Savior, Jesus Christ, could help work through the pain. She wanted to change her life and take the Savior’s hand.
It took time for Brittany to understand her value. Regular therapy visits, prayer, and talking with loved ones helped. Now Brittany consistently works through her trauma in healthier ways.
Hope, healing and support can come in many forms and from a variety of sources, including through the Atonement of Jesus Christ.
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@samhallowsdc 4 жыл бұрын

Love love these incredible, real stories of people like me struggling through life and finding their way. The Savior brings me hope, He is the answer, He is the way and He shows me the way. 💙

@churchofjesuschrist 4 жыл бұрын

Thanks for sharing your testimony, Sam.

@gifeechick9939 4 жыл бұрын

Love it. He picks up the pieces. The Savior. I deal with depression and the savior is the only way with medication..

@churchofjesuschrist 4 жыл бұрын

Thanks for sharing your experience and faith in Jesus Christ. For you or others struggling with mental health challenges, we would encourage you to visit mentalhealth.churchofjesuschrist.org/ for helpful information and resources. Take care!

@allyciak4068 3 жыл бұрын

I think this is the most relatable video I've ever seen. I'm still looking for the light at the end of the tunnel but seeing someone who has gone through these same things as me and made it out gives me hope.

@hdb80 4 жыл бұрын

"I wanted to belong to someone that didn't want to leave me, that wouldn't leave me." I relate to this so, so much.

@brittanybreedborgersen4259 4 жыл бұрын

hdb80 ❤️❤️❤️ They leave out in editing what I think is the most poignant part of it all actually. My dad left after the divorce and I didn’t see him again for more than a decade. Then I had my abuser even leave me. But the Savior never left and He never will! I’ll always belong to Him! ❤️❤️❤️

@mammamathews 4 жыл бұрын

Therapy is a huge blessing that god has given us. It is important to lean on god but therapy is an important part of the healing process.

@brittanybreedborgersen4259 4 жыл бұрын

Melanie Mathews Yes!

@bonnieyoung4037 4 жыл бұрын

Thank you God for saving her

@bretthardingtelford8043 4 жыл бұрын

Poor lady. My heart goes out to u and those that are in that situation.

@naturefleur2062 Жыл бұрын

❤ I could feel so deeply her conviction, the reality of her experience with Jesus Christ. I very much also experience Grace as the Lord being near me, not carrying me or taking away pain, but just being with me through it. His gift of love and strength is immeasurably powerful and enlivening.

@Xpyburnt_ndz 4 жыл бұрын

Thnx for this...I went thru some similar family things growing up and the scars are deeply hidden now 45 yrs later, but they do surface from time to time and all the hurt is still there. I too always try and turn to our Savior for help and comfort. Thank you again

@pitarawaibula9877 4 жыл бұрын

Thanks for your great testimony that we can be healed....blessings upon you and your family

@amh9641 4 жыл бұрын

I love this so much - thank you Brittany for being so raw, willing, open and vulnerable with your experience; it brings hope to those in need for sure :) ❤️

@jennifermunoz9758 4 жыл бұрын

This was beautiful! Thank you for sharing such personal experiences - this will help more people than you know!

@lemongrove57 4 жыл бұрын

I have been in a similar place. The good news is that, with faith and prayer and the amazing resources available today, trauma DOES heal and resolve, and you can live an even better life and do more good in the world than you could have without those experiences. The other good news, I'm so excited about today, is that so much I've learned about preventing and healing from emotional trauma is the basis of the new child and youth program. In working on those principles, along with many from positive parenting, mindfulness and sensory integration, I almost can't believe how much better I feel. They made us to be able to recover and thrive again. They know we need this support now as much as ever. Wishing you all well.

@churchofjesuschrist 4 жыл бұрын

Thanks for sharing your experience and encouragement!

@gifeechick9939 4 жыл бұрын

Hes there holding our hands you said and its so true thank you sharing

@gabriellemanier2223 4 жыл бұрын

Thank you Brittany. I went thru the same experience. Youre worth it.

@brittanybreedborgersen4259 4 жыл бұрын

Gabrielle Manier ❤️❤️❤️

@Downlinx 4 жыл бұрын

I can totally relate to this, thank you for sharing your message, I hated the feelings of waiting for someone to leave me.

@psivast8007 4 жыл бұрын

That was a beautiful message, thank you for sharing it. Stay strong, we need people like you.

@brittanybreedborgersen4259 4 жыл бұрын

Victorious George Oh thank you so much! ❤️

@scottgoobie7507 4 жыл бұрын

The therapeutic and healing power of hearing and seeing others who have endured terrible emotional and mental pain and then found solace in Jesus Christ, combined with recognition of the many other steps we may need to take is so very, very real and life changing. Hearing and watching brings the miracle of healing to those who are in desperate need of hope and relief from severe pain and trauma. Thank You!!!

@churchofjesuschrist 4 жыл бұрын

We're glad you appreciated the video, Scott. Thanks for watching!

@PapaKryptoss 4 жыл бұрын

What a powerful message. Thank God our savior is here for us. Peace

@Gies89 4 жыл бұрын

This video means a lot to me,very inspired me.I was like the girl in this video ,always meet the wrong guy , toxic relationship,emotional trauma wont easily be heal unless there is Jesus.My heart was 10thousand times broke by someone that i love so much,i tried using alchohol to relieve all the pains but none of them working.Every night i cried ,and sleepless night.I tried to begin a new relationship and move on...but still,i wasnt 'there'.How the girl felt in this video really describe how i been through .It is all because of false hope.

@nahadnahad6364 4 жыл бұрын

Heleluyah-haleluyah- adoore his name bread of life amen 🔥🔥🕊🕊

@whitetigermeow 4 жыл бұрын

I can see in her eyes her Pain, I want to comfort her if shes in my side . EYES IS THE WINDOW OF OUR SOUL

@brittanybreedborgersen4259 4 жыл бұрын

WHITE TIGER Oh you’re so sweet! But I’m happy because of the pain I’ve felt and not just in spite of the pain. I know joy because I’ve known sorrow!

@leekit6099 4 жыл бұрын

Isn't his love light wonderfully strengthening and healing💕 Thank you for sharing such truth.

@therusfosterson238 4 жыл бұрын

Thank you for sharing this message of truth and the hope and joy that comes from the Lord.

@mamarcelo21 4 жыл бұрын

It's amazing to know that Christ can help us in a way that nobody can. Because He went through everything in a way that we can't comprehend. But He comprehends us.

@zaramarland8402 4 жыл бұрын

I was the same, i didn't feel accepted at church and my mom encouraged me to not follow the commandments. So at 16 i went inactive, got into drugs, drink n by 17 i was living with a young man and was pregnant. At my son at 18, soon after he was born, the lad i was with began hitting me, telling me i was fat n just knocking me down. By 21 i had my 2nd child, by then i was using drugs n staving myself. But 1 day, i rook my son up to school n my daughter to nursery, n 1 of the workers said oh Susan wants to see you upstairs. So i went up, n she was like Zara your going to have to leave him of loose your children, so that day with just the clothes we had on back we where taken about 35/40 miles away. N i remember having this awesome feeling don't get your children in the bath, n so i listened, next thing i know im waking up in hospital being told that id had a stroke n that i needed heart surgery. Just then i said to myself what would i have done what would i have said that even alittle justified my actions over the past 5yrs. So then i made the decision to go back to church. Straighted myself out, n that was the best decision I have ever made. Now 12/13 yrs on i am active, n clean. That life seems so far away from me now, i have a calling which i love, i love serving in the church. I have never felt so close to my heavenly father.

@churchofjesuschrist 4 жыл бұрын

Thanks for sharing your story and testimony of Heavenly Father's love, Zara! We're glad to hear you're doing so well. Thank you for your service in the church. Take care!

@yellowyosh470 4 жыл бұрын

Thank you for sharing! ♥️ It's beautiful to see how the Savior just picks us up and helps us if we're only willing to change!

@zaramarland8402 4 жыл бұрын

@@churchofjesuschrist not a problem at all, thankyou for allowing me to do so.

@brittanybreedborgersen4259 4 жыл бұрын

zara marland You are AWESOME!!! ❤️

@chinfupaloma7619 4 жыл бұрын

Felt comforted. 😊 Like it if you agree.

@gifeechick9939 4 жыл бұрын

Thank you for your testimony. It reminds me when we pray the savior is there for us. And is holding our hand

@elifrancom50 4 жыл бұрын

I'm glad she learned to rely on her savior. I know my Redeemer lives too and that because of him there is hope, no pain, suffering, trial, sin or weakness need be permanent because of him. everyday is a brand new day. I hope others can hold on to that hope and keep going. Ether 12:4

@valmiller2020 4 жыл бұрын

This helped me appreciate the Atonement of Jesus Christ more fully.

@frandanco6361 4 жыл бұрын

Brittany, thank you for sharing this with us.. I am so sorry you had to go through it. But look, you have come up from where you were! Our Saviour, Jesus the Christ was there, is Always there, extending his Loving Arms, to help us lift ourselves up.. I am so glad that you are in a better place now.. My Ex got into bad things, then found all those awful, hateful, blogs of Church Haters, and decided they were telling the truth.. She left our Temple Marriage, left the Church, took those beautiful step-kids, and went her own way, without me.. I so missed being their stepfather.. I cried every day, every night, for almost a year.. I cried myself to sleep reading the scriptures every night.. Everyone was so tired of me, I can't blame them.. I was an emotional wreck.. My family was taken away from me , and there was no chance it was ever going to come back. One night, while I was sleeping, He came to me! He was wearing a white robe.. He put His Loving Hand inside me, took my heart out, and I could see there was a part of it missing, it was raw and bleeding. That was my Family that was taken away from me.. He then put His Loving Hand into His robe, and took a part of His Beautiful Heart and joined it to my broken heart, and put it back into my chest.. I was immediately Healed ! I no longer felt that awful hurt, I no longer cried every day and night.. I will always miss my Family, but I know, He has seen this entire situation, and He knows I will be better and I am ! He loves you so much, Brittany ! He sees the beginning to the end.. He knows what you can manage, what you can experience so you can grow, and then someday, be able to help others; He ALWAYS comes to You, to Us !!! He has the most, beautiful, tender, loving, voice, in Eternity.. I testify to you, Brittany, that everything I have said to you is Truth !! We love you ! Have Extreme Faith ! This alone can move mountains ! Prayers for you and yours..

@brittanybreedborgersen4259 4 жыл бұрын

Fran Danco ❤️❤️❤️❤️❤️❤️

@rdancranston 3 жыл бұрын

Of all that my favorite part was this....There's always the Savior. I couldn't agree more. Thanks for sharing!

@karinaklucia 4 жыл бұрын

Thank for for being brave and discussing your depression and history of self harm. I feel these things are often swept under the rug.

@brittanybreedborgersen4259 4 жыл бұрын

Karina Lucia We have to open up or others will never feel comfortable reaching out for help! Silence doesn’t do anyone any good!

@Vibes12349 4 жыл бұрын

I agree to what she is saying I am alone and I feel lonely no friends or sorry for saying a boyfriend in my life and sometimes it 😧hurts to be or feel lonely and alone and I hope and pray to God the he can bless me with a friend or sorry for saying a boyfriend😢💔.

@amh9641 4 жыл бұрын

You've got this girl! God is by your side! Please feel free to reach out for help and it will be given to you!! ❤️❤️

@therusfosterson238 4 жыл бұрын

Delores, I’m sorry to read your post. Feeling alone is a hard place to be. I was there for years but was blessed to get to a better place. For me, the only one I could, at times, feel was there was the Lord. Thru singing hymns, reading His words, and prayer He helped me get through the toughest hours and days. I came to know that Jesus also was alone and at times was abandoned. He knows what our sorrows are like because He also had them. I pray God will bless you with feelings of peace and a knowledge that He knows you and loves you. Better days are ahead. Trust in Him.

@jaclynjoseph720 4 жыл бұрын

I love how real this video is. Thanks for sharing your story!

@p1nakitto 4 жыл бұрын

Luo kenyan friend once said, our scars are our stars..! If that makes sense at all.....

@brittanybreedborgersen4259 4 жыл бұрын

Priscilla Nakitto Amen! I call those horrible years “my pearls”! What treasure I’d never have, had I never experienced those years.

@gifeechick9939 4 жыл бұрын

I know he did suffer for me and everyone

@claudia.mal34 5 ай бұрын

It's sad when some people decide not to respect or love their own family. But God can help us feel like we have a place in this world. Thank you for sharing your story Brittany!

@kylethedalek 4 жыл бұрын

I keep praying for my parents to accept and just allow me to go to church but they are against it. I pray everyday I ask for this, but I don’t seem to get help or guidance. I don’t know what else I can do? Also I had a run in with a few missionaries, they asked some pretty weird and out their questions, and their attitudes changed. I got the impression they didn’t want to talk to me anymore. They have moved away/ back home now and they have never been in touch since. And every other missionary sent me a nice text telling me bye. And one of the ones I think hates me just got another missionary to say bye. And one of the missionaries I got on well with, I feel is now acting weird (we still talk on Facebook.) I Donno if it’s because I’m not a member of the church or what but I honestly have been questioning it all all because of my experience with the missionaries. I could give more details but this would be even bigger than what it is.

@amh9641 4 жыл бұрын

Have you spoken with other members or have your encounters been JUST with the missionaries?

@churchofjesuschrist 4 жыл бұрын

@kylethedalek, thanks for your comment and for sharing your experiences. First, we're sorry to hear about the opposition you face from your parents in attending church. Even if it feels like your prayers aren't being answered, know that your Heavenly Father is there, He loves you and cares about you, and He will guide you as you continue to reach out to Him in prayer. There are many resources online for you to continue to learn about the gospel of Jesus Christ, like these videos, and we hope you'll one day be able to join us! As for the missionaries, we're sorry for your experience. Missionaries do move often and eventually return home, but they love those they teach and do their very best to help them. We invite you to reach out to the missionaries in your area again, sharing your experience and your hope to learn the gospel: www.comeuntochrist.org/contact-us Take care!

@kylethedalek 4 жыл бұрын

The Church of Jesus Christ of Latter-day Saints so sorry for the delay! I really appreciated that thank you!

@kylethedalek 4 жыл бұрын

Aisha M Hurst yes spoken with other members of the church and the majority seem fine. Though one member who was supposedly my friend hasn’t spoken to me in year and they know about my health issues and such, they also talk to people who bullied. So I’m on the fence if it’s right to say they are a friend?

@kylethedalek 4 жыл бұрын

random man I get that but I don’t get how anyone thinks it’s ok to say that?

@turremuniz 4 жыл бұрын

Impossivel não chorar com uma mensagem tão maravilhosa como essa, me traz consolo e paz saber que o Salvador nos ama e ja pagou pot tudo que fizemos, apenas precisamos andar RETOS

@MichaelGroenendijk 4 жыл бұрын

if you stand up one more time then you are beaten down, you are a winner!

@brittanybreedborgersen4259 4 жыл бұрын

Michael Groenendijk Yes!

@pamweinberg1212 4 жыл бұрын

Thank you for sharing your beautiful relationship with God. He is there for us. I’m so grateful we have that open line of communication to talk to God. Your wisdom and knowledge will not only help others but, also touch hearts of lost ones. You inspired me. Thank you 😉💛🙏😇

@davidglover5255 8 ай бұрын

I know I can trust Him 100%. He is always there for me. On my left & on my right, He goes before me & He has my back. I love Him.

@miainelom1104 4 жыл бұрын

❤️❤️❤️❤️❤️

@koffishegs5882 4 жыл бұрын

Our Heavenly father is always there for us and will always guide us i hope this video will help others who are feeling the same way😇😇

@saishete8649 4 жыл бұрын

God allways bless all those wonderful souls who r looking for the real love in life,only he is the one who can give us the true love&happiness👌🙏🏻👍💖

@billjensen51 4 жыл бұрын

Great video but I shouldn't have watched this at work. My coworkers might wonder why I am a bit misty eyed.

@atyehatyeh6257 4 жыл бұрын

Lots of tears

@mykal145 4 жыл бұрын

Amen

@XRPVenture 4 жыл бұрын

There always the Savior!

@akesaalipia2688 4 жыл бұрын

👌💗🕊

@coltonross9114 4 жыл бұрын

Thank you for this message

@elizat3892 2 жыл бұрын

The passion and testimony of what has been shared is absolutely beautiful.

@Saint_nobody 4 жыл бұрын

*"victims, aren't we all?"*

@brittanybreedborgersen4259 4 жыл бұрын

Gothik Extravaganza Yep! And so God sent His Son! ❤️

@Saint_nobody 4 жыл бұрын

@@brittanybreedborgersen4259 amen. 😉

@carriesutter1165 4 жыл бұрын

I love this ❤ I can relate.

@KD-zh9wp 4 жыл бұрын

You should probably do a piece on how to deal with the emotional trauma caused by the your church.

@susancluff9371 4 жыл бұрын

ok, that's great. you take this story of this girl's pain and her testimony of the Savior and use it to slam the LDS church. Mature. Not,,,,,

@heatherluna5075 4 жыл бұрын

Thanks for sharing your experience 💜💚❤💙💛🧡

@tpbarron 4 жыл бұрын

Thank you so much for sharing your story. You are an inspiration.

@MariaGonzalez-ff2su 4 жыл бұрын

I love your message. God bless you🤩🤩

@thekolobsociety 4 жыл бұрын

Truth

@vickygill8402 4 жыл бұрын

God bless you all

@carrie8643 4 жыл бұрын

Thank you for another great video. I am wondering if someone in the church could create a series of videos and support to specifically help those who have suffered through narcissistic/antisocial abuse (maybe not particularly on this channel?). There are many secular resources online but I really haven't seen much from a gospel perspective, other than a few other Christian opinions that people with NPD (or worse) have a Jezebel spirit. Many therapists don't even know how to adequately treat the victims of this insidious abuse, even though there is a reported increase in occurrences of this type of abuse due to the growing number of people who are becoming this way in society and because the survivors are learning to identify and label these destructive behavioural patterns. Thank you for your consideration.

@wendyadams7662 4 жыл бұрын

Yes.. Narcissistic abuse would be sooo helpful for so many.

@churchofjesuschrist 4 жыл бұрын

@Carrie Bagley, we'll pass along this feedback. Thanks for your comment.

@BonJournal 4 жыл бұрын

Thank you for sharing this video. It was great. And I loved that the "background music" was in the background so that I could concentrate on listening to her and I could hear what she was saying. : ) Thank you.

@lovebecca7772 2 жыл бұрын

❤️❤️❤️

@johncanaan 4 жыл бұрын

Thank you.

@dee8388 4 жыл бұрын

Lovely piece. Thanks for sharing

@tovahmary4793 4 жыл бұрын

I am divorced and my kids are fine. We, meaning the father and I, have always put the kids first as it should be and we kept our issues separate from the kids. Relationships are hard but they should be respectful and based on common interests.

@paragibhatt1628 4 жыл бұрын

👍

@redsreds6598 4 жыл бұрын

Trust in the Lord Jesus Christ AMEN x

@joycejaker5769 4 жыл бұрын

Inspiring!

@lego_-po4fr Жыл бұрын

Hello sister I'm shawn a proud member of onkapringa ward sa Australia I've been through a lot of trauma in my life did you know 1 in 6 people has been through 4 or more trauma in thire life every time I tried for help either friends or the bishop something in me just doesn't want me to ask for any help I even prayered to the lord for a better life and he granted me that blessing but I still think I'm not done dealing with my all the trauma I've experienced. Everyday I always think of the good things in life and helped others just like the jessus would, I've even help the people around me dealing with thire trauma and they are always thankful for that. But every passing day I feel sad and all alone even because no one helped me with my trauma I sometime think to myself "am I putting others first istead of myself because the Lord tought us that" all I need is someone right beside me and talk to I don't know who I tried talking to jessus and even our dear heavenly father about this. I want someone that experienced as much trauma as me to talk to I hope you enjoy your life because I can never live life to the fullest

@josewagnermiguezbrandao7587 4 жыл бұрын

Thank you

@josewagnermiguezbrandao7587 4 жыл бұрын

👍

@paullewis3204 4 жыл бұрын

God Bless

@GrantButler 4 жыл бұрын

Way to go Brittany

@REDFANGDALLRED 4 жыл бұрын

Nice video.

@TheGr8Ninja1 4 жыл бұрын

Please pray for my wife McKenna

@churchofjesuschrist 4 жыл бұрын

Hi brother, we know God hears your prayers of faith, and we hope you will feel His love and comfort as you seek His help for your wife. If you'd like to learn more about prayer, see the link below: www.comeuntochrist.org/site/god/how-to-pray-v2

@irinas3513 4 жыл бұрын

Thank you for sharing your story! It helped me!

@justinsanabria4127 4 жыл бұрын

Thank You For This Gift of A Testimony.

@michaelgunnell5869 4 жыл бұрын

I never though I'd ignore my savior but it did happen to me. Not anymore cuz I know how it is live a life without a savior. Its is just too deep black sorrow hole

@lynellez3070 3 жыл бұрын

Amen.

@arminasvainauskas7288 4 жыл бұрын

I love what you say

@MarleeCraig 2 жыл бұрын

Thank you for sharing your beautiful journey with us ❤️

@xiaomei3137 4 жыл бұрын

Jesus had never suffered and sacrificed for us. It was people that decided to kill him at that time and sadly became his fate. We have so much emotional trauma and pain and have not yet released. God is helping us all the way, but first, we need to have faith we can do this alone. God creates us with the ability to cope, process, and heal our fear-based emotion alone----and that's self-responsibility. I have learned so much from Divine Truth from reincarnated Jesus. He has videos on youtube about how to heal your own emotion and it has worked out for me.

@lynellez3070 3 жыл бұрын

I love your videos Keep up the Good Work!

@lacastesantosnoelmhickeepa1862 3 жыл бұрын

salms 68:5 A father to the fatherless, a defender of widows, is God in his holy dwelling. God sets the lonely in families, he leads out the prisoners with singing; but the rebellious live in a sun-scorched land. Isaiah 26:3 You will keep in perfect peace those whose minds are steadfast, because they trust in you. 1 Peter 2:23-24 When they hurled their insults at him, he did not retaliate; when he suffered, he made no threats. Instead, he entrusted himself to him who judges justly. "He himself bore our sins" in his body on the cross, so that we might die to sins and live for righteousness; "by his wounds you have been healed."

@coolhluke8089 2 жыл бұрын

Is this Mormans?

@churchofjesuschrist 2 жыл бұрын

Hi, thanks for your question. Our current prophet, President Russell M. Nelson, has emphasized the importance of using the full name of the Church. You or others interested can learn more here: www.churchofjesuschrist.org/study/general-conference/2018/10/the-correct-name-of-the-church?lang=eng We hope that helps!

@dr4391 4 жыл бұрын

Abuse is NOT okay. Check out Leslie Vernick.

@LadyEllesmere 4 жыл бұрын

🙄 I've heard stories about yalls way of handling situations.

@basil4825 3 жыл бұрын

I’m just gona say E

@davidglover5255 Жыл бұрын

I spent, like my forefathers, 40 years wandering in the wilderness. I joined the church in my early 20's. I was embraced by some wonderful people, one of which I am still very close to today. Soon after my baptism I went on a mission. After returning home, 2 years later I was married, not in the temple immediately, even though my friend suggested strongly to wait till I am ready to marry in the temple. We did eventually get sealed, however our children were not born under the covenant. My faith was not fully firm. At age 45 I was arrested & sent to prison for downloading underage pornography. My membership was withdrawn at this time also. I did not become angry & ask Father why me, I knew why, I had ignored the warning signs & did not listen to the voice of the Spirit. I had 15 years to think about it. My wife divorced me & my children will speak to me. Upon returning from prison, I took along hard look at myself. I knew I had turned away from the Lord. Now broken hearted I was ready to humble my self before Him. I had not done this before. I believed excepting Him once was enough. I understand now I must except every day of my life. I must repent ever day of my life. He is my Saviour ever day of my life. I am so grateful for my father's love every day of my life, He has made me whole again, & it only took 40 years to achieve, but my life is a success now, because of Him.