Have this mind among yourselves, which is yours in Christ Jesus, who, though he was in the form of God, did not count equality with God a thing to be grasped, but emptied himself, by taking the form of a servant, being born in the likeness of men. And being found in human form, he humbled himself by becoming obedient to the point of death, even death on a cross. Philippians 2:5‭-‬8 ESV Then the mother of the sons of Zebedee came up to him with her sons, and kneeling before him she asked him for something. And he said to her, “What do you want?” She said to him, “Say that these two sons of mine are to sit, one at your right hand and one at your left, in your kingdom.” Jesus answered, “You do not know what you are asking. Are you able to drink the cup that I am to drink?” They said to him, “We are able.” He said to them, “You will drink my cup, but to sit at my right hand and at my left is not mine to grant, but it is for those for whom it has been prepared by my Father.” And when the ten heard it, they were indignant at the two brothers. But Jesus called them to him and said, “You know that the rulers of the Gentiles Lord it over them, and their great ones exercise authority over them. It shall not be so among you. But whoever would be great among you must be your servant, and whoever would be first among you must be your slave, even as the Son of Man came not to be served but to serve, and to give his life as a ransom for many.” Matthew 20:20‭-‬28 ESV Google doulos vs diakonos ezraproject

I believe..

I think I know what you mean. I think we need to trust, and rejoice. Jesus overcame the world and is greater than our sin. We have a reason to rejoice. We need to trust, believe, and rejoice, because the Lord is good!

There’s a podcast from John piper about dealing with such thoughts , I think the name is “ dealing with lustful thoughts “ , it will really help it’s not easy but it’s a daily practice whatever the thoughts are . Philippians 4:8 Joshua 1:8

Share with love❤ and hope😊❤ in Christ to all❤❤❤❤❤❤❤ in Christ❤ Jesus(😊1st❤) in Jesus'name, i pray( Romans 8:28❤). Amen. Hebrews 9:15-28 "15 For this reason Christ is the mediator of a new convenant, that those who are called will receive the promised eternal inheritance-now that he has died as a ransom to set them free from the sins committed under the first covenant. 16 In the case of the will, it is neccesary to prove the death of the one who made it, 17 because a will is in force when somebody has to die; it never takes effect while the one who made it is still living. 18 This is why even the first covenant was not put into effect without blood. 19 When Moses had proclaimed every commandment of the law to all people, he took the blood of calves together with water, scarlet wood,and branches of hyssop, and sprinkled of the scroll and all the people. 20 He said, " This is the blood of the covenant, which God commanded you to keep." 21 In the same way,he sprinkled the blood with both the tabernacle and everything used in the ceremonies. 22 In fact the law requires that nearly everything cleansed with the blood , and without shedding of the blood there is no forgiveness. 23It was necessary, then, for the copies of the heavenly things to be purified with these sacrifices, but the heavenly thing themselves with better sacrifices than these. 24 For Christ did not enter a man- made sanctuary that was only a copy of the true one; he entered the heaven itself, now appears for us in God's presence. 25 Nor did he enter heaven to offer himself again and again , the way the high priest enters the Most Holy Place every year with the blood that is not his own. 26Then Christ have had to suffer many times since the creation of the world. But now he has appeared once for at the end of the ages to do away with sin by the sacrifice of himself. 27 Just as man is destined to die once( physically, but not spirtually death for those in Christ) and after that face judgment, 20 so Christ( Jesus) was sacrificed once to take away the sins of many people; and he will appear a second time, not to bear sin, but :) to bring salvation to those( those of us ) who are waiting for him."( Hebrews 9:15-28 Zondervan NIV Study Bible speaking of " ...waiting for him( Jesus, our Lord( Luke 2:11and Revelation 19:16b) and our savior( Luke 2:11) and our King( Revelation 19:16) in Christ. May Jesus' love dwell in all of us who trust in Him. In Jesus'name, i pray for others' healing for their both physically and spiritually health by Jesus. In Jesus'name, i pray( James 5:14-15; and Romans 8:28) Amen.

The fact you can't shows that you have a problem. Time to repent and believe in Jesus Christ.