You may feel like you're alone in your struggles, but you're not. It's common among autistic people to not be 100% cis gendered. You need to find yourself an online community. A place with autistic people. A place with trans people. Might be the same place, might be different places. Listen to other peoples stories. (Not all at once, just as much as you can take.) Ask questions. Find others like you. Because they are out there. We are out there. I'm 45 years old. Autistic. Tired. Socialized to be a woman, but unsure what gender I actually am. Not hating myself, just curious and want to find the right words to describe myself. I hope you find who you are, and learn how to love and value yourself. Because you are valid, and you deserve to feel that love.

Thanks for the garbage...I have a compost pile out in the back...you can throw it in there. but religion often poisons the whole garden. so throw it in the "special pile"

There's an area where I live that's loaded with them, and I've seen quite a few around NY. Guess it depends on where you live?

Basketball american THATS NUTS

That has been studied. Slightly less monotropic than autists for adhd alone.

Scattered! with 2 different strategies working in conflict

seems super reasonable to stick with that and give it a lot of time. I felt gender dysphoria for a very long time (15 years starting around 14?) and at the end of my 20s/beginning of my 30s pretty clearly came to the conclusion that I am cis but genuinely mentally ill and that most of my unease is my mental illness. I am glad I stuck with the "not knowing" before doing anything too drastic.

it's valid to say your issue is "gender dysphoria" itself as a condition, without it meaning that you actually have to change anything. I am pretty certain if I had changed gender I had felt as gender dysphoric about being the other gender? If that makes any sense.

I feel the same way inside. I'll never understand it but it feels right to me.

I don't feel connected in any way to gender too, but i used to think i must be a girl (I'm afab btw), because i hated how i looked in clothes typical men wear and didn't desire to look like a boy, but now I know that i just hate how i look in boring, ugly clothes and i personally I find men's sections in stores and the way vast majority of boys in my school dressed like very unfashionable. There is a thing that when men's clothing gets even a little bit more creative than usual it's labeled as effeminate and gay, with makes all my fits either feminine or gaymannish just because I refuse to be boring with them. I don't think the way you like to dress or in what clothes you feel good wearing can determine your gender in any way, and that it can in turn prove or disprove any identity, maybe you just don't like to show off or feel that you can express yourself better with a masculine style. The case gets different if you feel body dysmorphia, ( I assume it's not gender dysmorphia if you don't expiereinece gender), then i think you should talk with a specialist about this to understand yourself better and decide what to do with that. Idk if having top surgery without gender dysmorphia would be worth the costs and risks associated with it, you would have to think it over very well.

I wouldn't think risk is worth it unless quite sure, but people already accuse me of making my shape look wrong, giving them dysphoria. I'm oblivious even to beatings for not fakeyflaunt body parts for their tittlation. I will never be able to comprehend paradigm much less comply to their special need. What concerns me is the pressure to do reshaping for the Other's social demands rather than ones own internally sourced joy. How much is externally forced to 'fit' and how much seems internally motivated, but reality is internalized compliance with external norms? All that imputation of dysmorphia and dysphoria is the experience of the Other. I am expected to adopt feelings as mine for their comfort. Autistic neurology is what i believe prevents me from internalizing.

they're literally autistic lmao ?

That can be an autistic trait so probably not really helpful mentioning and could easily be perceived as unnecessarily aggressive.

@@NElectronicSoulya we were gonna say lol