... I know. ❤

You sound like me ,I'm trying to leave a abusive situation

Is she 6?

Privyet. (Hello.)

Do you know how do you say happened to yourself?

I went through discard and post-separation abuse. I sel-publoshed my story. Plus create videos on my other channel. kzfaq.info/get/bejne/bKl6nJd1xpqvdnU.html

Yes eggshells and landlines .. I’m hear with you I couldn’t escape . I had to figure out how to get him to leave .. but post separation abuse is real

Oh it’s horrible!! Yes my dad was a narcissist but my ex is a psychopath

OH SWEETHEART I UNDERSTAND. I'VE OVERCOME THIS TWICE BEFORE It takes a lil time but eventually you begin to feel like yourself again. I can remember laughing for the first time after I left the first and the sensation being so shocking. It felt great. YES INDEED YOUR SISTER IS A BLESSING. OH DARLING YOU HAVE ALL OF US.

They will never change, it will get worse.

Gotta watch out with narcs "kindness" it's covert narcs. I had to cut off a 17 year friendship with one because she was trying go control me. She was an emotional manipulator. She gave me two t-shirts and I don't even wear t shirts but I thought the fit and everything was perfect for my man and she went into a tirade about her feelings because I passed those shirts on for him to wear. There were many other red flags. They use "gifts" to control...like if you give me something then it's mine to do with as I see fit otherwise it's a loan and then I'll just give it back cause I don't need the guiltrip afterwards. Another one was when my phone broke and someone offered me to get put on his plan and I refused because it just meant he could track my whereabouts and keep on contact over the bill. I rather just not be available. Narcs love my independence because they lack it and are insecure and codependent on supply in whatever shape or form. I'm getting freer and freer the more I learn about these manipulation tactics and the obvious ones are easy to spot...it's the subtle ones where you really have to trust your gut etc. My ex husband told everyone he was wanting to work on the marriage after I took myself off of our joint bank account when he cut my phone off during work because I called him out on some stuff. The beginning of the smear campaign. I let him believe I was off the account but he never changed the login info so I could track what he was actually spending his money on. After a few charges at hooters and a strip club I decided to put everything out on the curb and I got back into trucking. They really think that they make you dependent and then they can go off and act however they want and you just have to put up with the abuse and disrespect. He wasn't disrespecting me...he was disrespecting our marriage and our covenant under God. He was demonic as all get go and so was his church going Baptist family who truly was a picture perfect model for narc families. Ofcourse I didn't know all that going into it but hindsight 20/20 sure taught me everything I needed to know to identify what I was dealing with. He tried to break my faith...and that was a big no no. He went off with the stripper after I exposed him but he wouldn't finalize the divorce. Karma came home to roost or like I like to call it divine justice. He died of a heart attack 2 years after I left. I showed up and signed him out of the morgue. The girlfriend was pregnant with twins and thought she had grabbed a cash cow. They came out mixed so they weren't his. Took me 5 years to rebuild from nothing materialistically speaking but you always rebuild from experience. At 44 I now have a 3 bedroom home and I've paid off my 18 wheeler truck. Sure I'm still a narc magnet because men's ego just can't stand when you do better than them...they just have to break you down. Fuck the vulnerable thing...the only way to get respect back is to call them out on their bulkshit even if it means you lose everything. Better to lose everything than to be a shadow form of yourself and to lose who you are and who you were before you met them. Staying in this toxic mess is teaching your daughter what to look for in a man. We have to break these cycles and generational curses so our kids can do better in the future and not repeat our mistakes.

Your videos make you look insane lol dude never even raised his voice the two times you tried to "catch" him 😅😅😅 you are clearly the issue in your relationship . Maybe I missed a video but you definitely come off as the issue

As soon as he goes out get away from there, take your kids

Big hugs🤗

Why don’t you seek therapy instead of posting this toxic viewpoint in social media.

Ok this was 2 years ago. I need to know what’s happening with you now. You are so kind and beautiful and full of light even tho he’s killing you. Don’t take in his words anymore. Don’t take anyone talking down to you ever again Praying for you. Call to Jesus

So sweet

Stay strong .....im goad you are doing better ❤

❤ I truly hope you are okay now .. plz update us ❤️

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I like the idea of the diaries to remember fogotten happy memories. I've also got 2 big drawers full of my journals since I was 15 and am now 31 and I'm starting to read them again, particularly the time I became mum's carer and the abuse started. I'm writing a summary in my specific carer's diary that carersUK sent me to write about my experience

Yes, do let us know, and also I want to leave too but like you said about having lots of stuff and the fact she knows I'm leaving her so she wont let me come back for my stuff and says she will burn it or get rid of it. Not happy as I love my stuff: cute plushies, lots of pads full of drawings, computer and my favourite poof seat and books. She won't even let someone else come and collect it because she'll have nobody in her house and I've got to sort it out before I leave, because it's messy and cluttered... no way

Lol when a cucumber becomes a bit pemply

You’re an amazing person

Honey you should feel safe in an environment let us know when you have escaped

I identify with a lot of what you said. Especially the threat of going back to his “old ways” I’m going through something similar over the past 3 years. Hang in there…

you got this beautiful.

lol ;D you got great timing , maybe try out drums and percussion , if your not already banging away ...I see potential heehee <3

I find you very fascinating. How can I know you more and talk to you faster?

How are you

Saw in east side you wishing for 5 times a week and twice a day just curious

Proud of you

Oh, Hi! That sounds kinda right...? But what about intuition then, when you don't feel comfortable around someone, we should consider that, too.

THANK YOU

The perfect example came as we were ready to get lunch and her haircut. VU staff came over and said, "That's gotta be the youngest college student yet." I thought I was going to get berated for having her here. No. It was an introduction to who we were, how similar it is/was to get our reluctant sons to college despite girlfriends, and say hi when around. That she's a precious, social butterfly and enjoy her before she goes to school.

Do you do any hobbies? Crafting, painting. Some really sound advice that helps me these days is” when the pressure is on, give” just give, cookies to the elderly neighbor, send a pretty card to a friend. Just give . God can show you .

Love you Sis!

What’s hard it seems is you really do like this man. Even if you know you shouldn’t. I’m sure it is very hard on your heart. Continue to do what you know is best. Stay strong 💐

I think guys really like the chip and dip thing. I don’t care about it but my husband loves that stuff. I think it’s a guy thing, I really do.

Do you have any temporary escapes? Art, crafting things like that?

Do you follow any Hayhouse authors? Who are some of your favorite oldies and who are you finding recently?

Do I seem a little distracted and jumpy? I found out after that he'd opened the window and could hear me (his room is behind the bushes). By pattern there's one more big one before my next move, but time will show where him hearing at least parts of this gets me.