4 years later, i still come back to this

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This hits different if you put your mouth up to the speaker and cover your ears

Okay but add the distant sound of people cheering (-never in the chorus tho) and you have a sad song about feeling alone while drowning in your own fame

There's something wrong with me... idk

very calming music(i can't speak english well, so sorry if my grammar is bad)

im gonna rewrite the story of my life on Gods hand, im in love with my baby girl and if im not there with her whos gonna love her, whos gonna give her kisses, whos gonna love him for nothing, she is the best thing that happened to me.

I've always loved this song.. even after almost 7 years, it has an eternal hold on me.

But you are in and empty arena.

Hey i just wanted to make this comment to share something that i think that a lot of people will understand so first off I have Autism and I had a terrible childhood with my biological father I never had a proper childhood that every kid deserves I was abused until i moved out of that situation my evil biological father had told me lies about my mother and her side of the family and my Brother in law just died today I've lost so many people in my life it's unreal because I'm only 18 I am a huge fan of Billie Eilish and I love her so much she saved my life by her music I am also a 2 time suicide survivor becuase of Billie Eilish it is my dream to meet her and tell her how much she means to me and how she saved my life

oh my fucking GOD?! you deserve a kiss on the mouth for this

Fuck off. I'm exhausted.

its 5:01 in the morning.....the thoughts of past me being depressed haunts me......but who needs sleep anyway?

Ascended to the fucking heavens 1:05

*okey*

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The depression is suffocating me, but no one really cares…..And that’s lovely…

alrighttt

I cannot cry. I have no idea why, but I cannot. It's not that I am mad about it, it's never been that I forgot... I don't know better. I haven't been able to cry my eyes out. Never. I believe beauty comes from the most horrid, yet I can only see in grayscale and every story is still as putrid. Earth, you are my one exception, so damn you. Damn. You. We rip our own skin out for a coat, cut our lungs out for a pretty note. We believe, as kids, we were dumb, yet the carcass that now speaks feels only numb. We have no freedom, that's but a niche, we owe it all to the machine. Am I condemned, to be a decaying vessel for memories? I want to cry about it, tell you, please. I would have been better off with the crows, end all this, but it's too late to close my eyelids. These are my real thoughts, this is the genuine me- Yet still, you won't believe me, will you? I cannot cry, why should you? In all honesty, bottling everything up is one of the most horrible things that you can ever do to yourself. All that pain you felt is not going anywhere, it's only... Dormant. Until you feel like shit again, then you feel even worse. I have made the horrible mistake of not wanting to worry others my whole life. I hate myself for it, now I can't cry, I am scared of it. I will only cry when I die. Depression, anxiery, a bad moment, whatever it is. A bad mood is contagious, but only so much so. If you can, tell someone you at least somewhat think you can trust. You have something in your power I envy. Whilst you can, go on. Please. Cry in my stead, even if at me.

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It's been two years since someone commented something....how is everyone??

This hits different when it’s 5:57 AM and you have school in the morning-

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what u hear at the gates of heaven

This unlock a long forgotten memory

waiting on next video📍

awesome I think Im crying Its that engaging

It's slick not just sublime

Wow Flawlessness

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Top Notch 🌷

i was not expecting this holy

i'm so unbelievably tired. no matter how hard i try i'll never be good enough. i'll never do enough. i'll never feel happy enough. it's never just enough but i wish it was. i wish so damn bad to be happy with myself, with others, with my position in life but i'm not. i feel deprived of my parents love, in the aspect that they just don't take my words seriously. i bring up mental health issues i believe i may have and i want to get diagnosed with and they simply brush it off, saying, "no, you don't have that, worry about a job", "worry about school", "worry about something else". i'm so unbelievably tired and over it, but i don't want to die just yet because i fear there being something after life... i also fear that there's nothing after life, and if there's nothing then what's the purpose of living now for? is it the torment? the torturous hours we've spent at school dealing with people, with teachers, with classmates. crying over not understanding the homework, getting angry with yourself because you feel there's something wrong with you, but if there is you'll stand out? what's the point of all of that? why are we here? why am i here? why do I need to be here? when i speak of wanting to finally rest it's, "no don't, people still love you, people still care about you", but who? who would? why do they care? sure there's a few people i can think of but without them, what's left? nothing. nothing is left. no one is left. i think we're all exhausted... but as of right now, i feel absolutely drained of energy and life itself. no matter how much i sleep, it's not enough to make me more awake. no matter how much i eat, it's never enough energy. nothing fixes this hollow feeling in my chest anymore, nothing aside from my dog... but once she goes, i think it'll finally be my time too, because i'm sick and tired of being invisible. if i'm so nonexistent, it shouldn't be a problem if i go. it's simply not fair to call someone selfish for wanting to finally be at peace, is it? is it fair to judge another person for being tired? i don't know. overall, i'm very, very tired... i hope everyone in this comment section gets some type of help they need, no matter what. rest easy, loves, sorry for the rant <3.

🙏 I like your Videos

Thank you

OMG! Khalid's voice 🔥👌

just rediscovered your channel again, you really got me thru quarantine

It’s 2022 just wanna leave this fir the future!!! 😍🥰‼️ N it’s no mistake I found this song !😮‍💨

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pov: finneas is preforming this song with billie on a abandoned rooftop

Can I ask how you make it

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I'm not here Psychically

amo

Thought I found a way...🤍

I'm listening this in the last three minutes to the day after my bday... The most depressing one

this song it's comforting but it's a bit sad, don't u guys noticed or is just me?

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one of my favorite songs to exist 💜