10 MONTHS SOBER... (The Good, Bad, & Extremely Sad)

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My Story
My name is Noah and on May 18 2011, I had a rare reaction to a medication called VIVITROL and consequently, spiraled into a suicidal depression with depersonalization and anxiety. I lost 25 lbs in 4 weeks and was in full panic or near panic for 8 weeks straight mixed with the darkest most painful depression I cold have ever imagined. I immediately could not work and had to move in with my parents who, along with many siblings and friends, had to watch me 24/7 as I was a danger to myself. Eventually I was hospitalized in the Psych Ward for a week. Getting through each day seemed truly unbearable and I knew I would surely die. I have been put on many many different doctor prescribed SSRI's SNRI's Tricyclics, mood stabilizers, anti-psychotics, holistic meds, acupuncture and even a form of shock therapy called RTMS. I barely saw any improvement in my condition for a full year. It was decided I had treatment resistant depression and I spent nearly every moment in tears. Weeks after starting my newest round of medications (Seroquel & Nortryptaline) as a last ditch effort, I had my blood drawn for possible hormone imbalances and my Testosterone levels came back 200 ng/Dl and 150 ng/Dl. The average 25 year old male has 750 ng/Dl. With this discovery I had an explanation as to why I was not getting better and why I might be so so sick. The symptoms of Low T are very similar to those of major depression. I started legally prescribed testosterone replacement therapy soon after and have been checking in with the world and documenting my experience with treatment as well as giving my insight and perspective on various topics of mental health. I am blessed to say that I have slowly, over the last 6 years, been improving and becoming more stable which I never thought to be possible. My low T manifested itself in the form of Major depression, anxiety, and depersonalization/ derealization for over a year. Treating my low testosterone has been 1 HUGE part of the puzzle but I have had to continue to work hard to hold on to my mental stability with many set backs. Gaining some mental stability back is nothing short of a miracle as I was near death for what felt like forever. I do not consider myself to be totally healed yet but I am closer now then ever before and aim to use what I have been through to help or at least offer support to others in need I was able to successfully come off my Seroquel and Pamelor.
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@franknicastri9201 3 жыл бұрын

"in addiction we are dreamers not doers" so true!

@hendrxfn 3 жыл бұрын

7 and a half months sober here….DOC was copious amounts of beer (alcohol is alcohol). 🙁 Striving for that one year mark… One day at a time Man 👍🏾✌🏾…Keep up the good fight! Like you said, “It’s worth it!” 😇

@jerryseinfeld5713 3 жыл бұрын

Noah, I am going through a brutal hell of a depression and your videos are a life saver as you had some of the same symptoms I do like feeling very uncomfortable and constantly suicidal despite never feeling that way before in my life. The depression is so bad at times it’s unbelievable and makes me sick. Thanks for you all do.

@brett8074 3 жыл бұрын

I know exactly what you mean my friend, everything is so hard no, even breathing feels unfamiliar and very difficult... also walking and talking to people is just weird unfamiliar feelings... i hate this shit so much... but I’m gonna get through it. Through the grace of God. I feel completely detached from reality itself 😞

@Army1SGRetired 3 жыл бұрын

@@brett8074 Google depersonalization and derealization, they are pretty common with anxiety and depression.

@damienholland8103 3 жыл бұрын

@@brett8074 I've had depression most of my life and recognize that sense of detachment. Just do the best you can, my friend. I think diet and exercise may not cure it but I do think it helps. I force myself to exercise almost every day.

@brett8074 3 жыл бұрын

@@damienholland8103 oh man, i hurt along with you buddy.. may i ask what do you experience with your depression?

@damienholland8103 3 жыл бұрын

@@brett8074 anhedonia, fatigue, mood swings, easy to irritate or anger, even if I sleep 8 hours I feel like I slept 4, disturbing thoughts. It's not as bad as it used to be, though. After I had a blood test and dealt with the hypothyroidism and low testosterone the condition improved. I can function despite having it. But it's still there.

@jbarkerhill92 3 жыл бұрын

At first seems like being sober would be boring, not having a high and quick artificial good feelings. But being sober actually opens up the world and gives you ability to connect with people, succeed, use own strengths, and have genuine good feelings. Altho those natural good feelings are more fleeting and mild than high of drugs. But that’s good and more sustainable. Dealing with stress and hopelessness sober is biggest challenge for me, cuz difficult emotions are a trigger to relapse for me

@TheSoberWebb 3 жыл бұрын

Well said and so true!

@fonzarellyplay370 3 жыл бұрын

I don’t take klonopin (my doc) because I’m bored. I take it because I have major anxiety issuers. I wish I only take because I’m bored. It’s really bad when you have to get off the meds you really neee

@jbarkerhill92 3 жыл бұрын

@@fonzarellyplay370 that’s a good point. Not all mind altering drugs are recreational, some are psychiatric / prescribed. Those can still be abused tho. I’m not an expert in that area. I’ve used recreational drugs to self medicate depression and insomnia for years, so I don’t do it just out of ‘boredom’. But I still think that once reach point of desperation and decide to get sober, the world opens up and you start succeeding more socially and in career

@ethelwalker6621 3 жыл бұрын

This is a great testimony for this young man please keep up the good work be blessed

@markty01 3 жыл бұрын

I'm 2 1/2 years alcohol free and like you, I listen to Recovery Elevator and you too were also a resource for me so thank you for that.

@warchangeloO 3 жыл бұрын

8 months sober here, I'm still not in that place, guess you could say I'm not emotionally sober. But I'm working on it. One day at a time. All the love to you Noah, so good hearing you're doing this well!

@Dragonfly434 3 жыл бұрын

I was a marijuana addict until pneumonia and sepsis almost killed me and I spent 11 days in the hospital… I was so lost in my addiction that I didn’t even know I was sick, I ignored it and kept self medicating with more weed until it almost killed me. I narrowly avoided a tracheotomy, but if I had waited another day to go to the ER, I could be brain dead or just straight up dead. My oxygen was at 80 (supposed to be 100ish, so that’s a 20% drop even with oxygen) when I finally got myself to the ER and the sepsis was so bad that I could feel it taking over my body and I began to die. Right now I’m struggling with my first couple months without weed- it seems impossible to make it to a year right now…but hearing your story gives me hope. Next month I’ll be getting evaluated again by a psychiatrist, I’m very excited to get back under proper care. Thanks for listening

@mikaeusbznd744 3 жыл бұрын

You have such clarity of your thought process and is so honest about your feelings it is truly inspiring. Please don’t delete your videos. I keep coming back to them for guidance, and I find it. Thank you.

@trentonparrish1136 3 жыл бұрын

Congratulations on 10 months sober from alcohol! 🎉🎉🎉 🎉 Today I am 1 month clean after 14 years of drug addiction! 🎉🎉🎉🎉

@TheSoberWebb 3 жыл бұрын

Congrats on your journey and thanks for your vulnerability. It's this kind of content that will help others know it's okay to struggle and it is not a perfect journey by any means. I am four years sober on 10.1.21 so it's a great month for a journey to start. Looking forward to celebrating our sober-versery very soon!

@Thomas-qz8rq 6 ай бұрын

I made 10 months n relapsed start of the new year. The past 2 months been hell. Binge on hard liquor n ER visits. Im fighting for my sobriety again. Thsnks for your video

@stevewilliams2917 3 жыл бұрын

Congratulations on your 10th being sober...! For myself it's hard to get off these antidepressants and anxiety pills I'm paxil the psychiatry drugs they're just like cocaine or meth have you been on any anxiety pills Noah if you have was it hard to get off ???

@ethanmichael17 3 жыл бұрын

He has videos from a few years back you can check out!

@keonihuegli2463 3 жыл бұрын

Hey brother, 10 Months F Ya!! I’m keeping it simple and 1 day at a time always reminds me how simple the program can be. Relapse is also part of my story and one year is tricky cause my brain tells me that I’m cured from this insidious disease when in fact one small sip is all I need to regain my misery. Grateful I found your channel and if you ever do zoom meetings would be great to hear your experience, strength and hope?

@RyanMoore-sg4eo Жыл бұрын

Hey big now I feel your brother I lost my friend at 32 a relapse whiskey and crack cocaine my friend in 30 he died on fentanyl and whiskey 3 years ago 10 months ago I got clean from drinking I'm just glad that you say these feelings for me that I feel everyday that I want to drink when the feeling comes up it's been one of my triggers lately thank you for the podcast they help God bless you brother

@AndrzejewskiDA 3 жыл бұрын

Hey Noah I love hearing your story and I hate to say I’ve relapsed after just over six months sober

@oldschoolnaturalbodybuildi4301 3 жыл бұрын

Sorry for your loss mate! I guess if you get to the point of being addicted to something and then wanting to quit and then going for help through group sessions obviously you get to meet people who are trying to kick an addiction and you will get close to some, Unfortunately some will relapse and some will die. That being said moral to the story NEVER GET ADDICTED TO DRUGS OR ALCOHOL simple. If you do it will life time of struggle and sadness

@HeavyMetalMonkey 3 жыл бұрын

I could have swore you were over a year sober. But congrats either way!

@ponygirl9665 3 жыл бұрын

Congratulations on your sobriety!!!

@franknicastri9201 3 жыл бұрын

The year trigger point is interesting. For me it was just over a when I got to step 12. It was a fleeting moment of "oh you can drink again. Oh no ffs you know that's a really bad idea"

@BNotes25 3 жыл бұрын

Congrats on 10 months sober. But what's your thought process for the thumbnail expressions?

@Nothing-Toulouse 10 ай бұрын

Das dauert noch paar Tage bis ich die zehn Monate gemacht hab. Aber machen werde ich sie sicher. Gar kein Bock mehr nochmal besoffen und drauf zu sein. Hab ich sehr oft in meinem Leben gemacht, reizt mich nicht mehr. Bereue es aber auch nicht, ist Teil meiner Geschichte. Hab dadurch auch Sachen gesehen die ich ohne nie erlebt hätte. Wofür ich auch dankbar bin. Weil ich nie das Gefühl haben werde was verpasst zu haben weil ich das ganze Leben immer vernüftig war. Hab ich gemacht, hab ich gelebt und nun ist es Zeit etwas anders zu machen. Klar, das hätte ich auch 10 Jahre früher machen können aber da war ich eben noch nicht so weit. Was soll ich mich dafür fertig machen? Bringt auch nix, weder die Zeit zurück noch hilft es mir jetzt oder später. Ich mach das eben jetzt und das ist auch okay. Das es später stattfindet macht die Challenge ja eher größer und den Erfolg wertvoller.

@thementalninja6010 3 жыл бұрын

I here that program in you bro keep it up

@pmbluemoon 3 жыл бұрын

Hi Noah! 🙂 I have a weird question to ask you, how long did it take before your sleep came back/sleep patterns, dreams, feeling rested? I know it's not the same for everyone, but just curious. I try to stop, and I can't sleep, no matter HOW exhausted I feel. I started drinking because of anxiety from my chronic pain, I learned that habit from my parents. I did great for quite some time, only having a few drinks once every 3 or 4 months. I started smoking cigarettes. I got put on so many different meds I've lost count, and now, I don't want to stop drinking and smoking (a few before bed each night) I've been in and tested, results were "mild alcohol abuse disorder". I thought "That's not bad, I'll stop." Then came the sleepless nights. And here I sit... I don't NEED a cigarette, but when I have a few drinks, I want a smoke before bed. Vicious cycle! According to all of my mental and medical professionals, I'm still "OK" but need improvement for sure. (NONE is better than a few!) My daily life hasn't suffered, nor any of my relationships, but I truly don't want it to come to that anyways. That's my story for you tonight, stay sober my KZfaq buddy! And thank you for making these candid videos for us, they really help me realize what COULD be down the road for me if I don't nip this in the bud. 💪🤞🤔 EDIT: R.I.P. To your friend 🙏🙏🙏🙏😥😥😥😥💔 Always uphold anyone's anonymity, we understand.

@KilljoyGuitar 3 жыл бұрын

my biggest thing is self centered fear and anxiety. ive been sober for 2 1/2 months now. i get such bad anxiety when sharing. and when i speak. i had to speak at a rehab the other day infront of like 50 people it was terrifying. hoping it gets easier

@FriedBalonyPony 3 жыл бұрын

Thanks for sharing. 201 days here and counting

@pedroaparicio2932 3 жыл бұрын

Hi noah! I really need your help. I’ve sent you a video through wisio explaining my situation. It cost me 20$ too... and it’s been a month!

@alexanderespinoza6753 2 жыл бұрын

amazing

@boxingarc4109 3 жыл бұрын

Very well done big respect to you, your an inspiration. Out of interest did you ever have your bloods done when drinking heavily? Did it affect your e2 or any other sides? I’m struggling to kick the habit not had any bloods done yet, will be having them done in 4 weeks. I definitely don’t feel dialled in yet, been on trt for 3 months.

@dbodybuilder1 3 жыл бұрын

brother how much time it took for ur gastriatis/ulcer to heal? u said u had it from 4 july 2019? did u do something about it? like deit change medications? or it got resolved on its own?

@nawluck 3 жыл бұрын

Have u tried LDN?

@maiyathomas8050 3 жыл бұрын

Amen 🙏🏽 my Boy! Sobriety Rocks!♥️

@andersnenuz3790 3 жыл бұрын

Just remember those horrible hangovers.

@TheSoberWebb 3 жыл бұрын

as well as shame and guilt and blackouts... not worth it huh?

@elinmansson5535 3 жыл бұрын

It sounds like you are a big overthinker... just like me. I think many of us addicts are

@youart9797 3 жыл бұрын

Coming up on a year "historically that a trigger point" . Okay, not sure why that would be a trigger point. I don't get you. Having a father who is an addiction specialist is like having a Father who is a dentist with a kid who has rotting teeth. Or a parent who is a Olympic Swimmer who's kid doesn't know how to swim because they never bothered to take them to the pool. Or a billionaire who's kids have to beg on the street for their next meal.