Peace is falling asleep,,,,, waking is misery.

SAME

So was mine. It changed unfortunately. Every night I have nightmares, my long dead mother rising from the grave abusing me again, being tortured to death by my brother in law, drowned in the arctic in ice water and so on and so forth. During my wake days I suffer mobbing and exploitation by my hostage taker boss, and self injury that makes me unable to take responsibility. I somehow watch myself going down. It feels unspectacular. It just happens, I’m not controlling anything anymore. I don’t want to be put out on the streets again. I want to be done.

@@ralphbaier7793 I'm so sorry to hear this.

@@The_best_days_are_yesterdays im Sorry to have worried you, please forgive. Soul baring like i have done is to no avail. I’m happy you still have your refuge. Maybe mine will open again someday. I used to dream of the child hood farm I grew up close to. I want to be with those cows again.

This!

It's called Compassion and Kindness

I dont know, but i would hate to leave a couple of people living their lives with me gone. I dont think this is "people pleasing"

Live for urself as well. Hold on tightly, let go lightly...

Exactly

part of what I hate about the world is that it's built on morals and meaning where there is none, we find meaning when the world never had to have any meaning at all. All "right" and "wrong" is, is what we were told by our predecessors, the same way we think certain people are despicable that's because we were told that. Even though everyone has an idea of the right thing, our idea of the right thing could make us a monster in someone else's eyes. In the end morals are just whoever lasts longer gets to tell all the stories. And we know for a fact that the suicidal folk aren't the ones lasting longer. I can understand why it would be called selfish since I wouldn't want my loved ones to hurt themselves, but at the same time I understand why people decide to throw it all away in hopes that this emptiness will fade. I like to tell myself I would never do anything to myself because I wouldn't want to hurt my family like that. I understand these are implanted morals too, there's no meaning in what happens either way, but these morals are strong enough that I stick with them even when it's tough. For them I would be willing to continue living like this for those 30-40 years. I know literally no one cares but I just wanted to rant I guess about my take on something for once

You have absolute agency over your life and no one has the right to tell you what to do. I wish you the best life whether it's here or hereafter.

Yes, I believe that it's more cruel to keep a suffering individual around and expecting them to "look forward" when it's all an extended dead end for them.

Totally Agree..a lifetime of this roller coaster hell..is Hell

This

I am a chicken shit coward. I to scared to "off" myself... Must be something deeply rooted in many humans, to not "off" oneself.

That is because we all have souls our souls are eternal and when we die we just become another person until we pass the test of life and go back to heaven where we all originated from hell isn't what we think it is hell is actually everyone's current reality in our bodies because we are eternal beings

@@divinebeing2476oh stop it

Gee that’s a hard hitter

​@@runeskyttsing9089 yes, self-preservation is evolutionary, that's what makes that decision extremely difficult

Do you believe that?

@@AngstyAnon Yes

​@@AngstyAnoni often wish my mom had an abortion.

I agree. I didn't ask to be here.

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I slept hard AF without night terrors a few times today, but menstrual cycle starting can really kick my ass and make me sleep like that. Otherwise if my brain decides to have flashbacks of crap or forget im in my current home, thinks im still back home married, idk how to make it stfu in my sleep yet lol. Can talk myself down or message an empathetic stranger, call 988 or whatever if im distraught and awake. Not sure what the hell to do aside from cannabis gummies (hemp thc & cbd not weed because weed gives me panic attacks) and rx drugs gabapentin has been a bit useful. Ambien is a no go it made me try to fight people when sleepwalking and leave the building i was in, apparently i wanted to go see a giant clown statue outside because under the influence of ambien i wasnt scared of it lol😂

@@amberfitz-randolph392 Medical personal, it is time to REPENT AND BORN AGAIN!

I agree, all I want to do is sleep, and no one understands. Everyone thinks I’m lazy

Same I just want to sleep and be left alone.

@@SDS-ee9js Matthew 11:28 KJV Come unto me, all ye that labour and are heavy laden, and I will give you rest.

This song is amazing. So emotional

basically me

Yes.

Yea it’s ok

Because the others know how we feel. Maybe not so much in words, but in emotion or lack of it. (Sometimes we feel empty or numb.) Someone who has not experienced depression doesn't know that feeling. It's easier to talk to someone who knows. If you find one, a support group could be a good thing .

Yeah. Like we aren't going through this alone

I wish we could meet and hug each other 😭😭😭

😂 way to look on the bright side!

@@villepakarinen8323 exactly!

Sweet, us broke people can only imagine traveling all.over the world and dying in a crash 🗑

@@MyNameIsJeff2023 I am poor but not stupid with money. It's a life skill that some people don't have the wits to achieve.

​@@MyNameIsJeff2023lmaoo

Maybe some of those are people just trying to understand their friends and family. I actually imagine. Many of those afflicted by this, "just don't care". For me, this video is to understand WHY people care so much that I still exist.

Feels like the waves keep coming and getting bigger each time. And the waves are knocking us down

not just that im tired of treading water. it's that I am completely surrounded by the endless ocean. im 28 I still have do this 40+ more

I'm 55 and lucky enough that l still occasionally want to get down on my knees in relief when im stoned. Cannabis doesn't always work, there's also a few side effects and disadvantages, together with the whole legality aspect that has unfortunately led to quite some sacrifices but on the whole l dont know how l could have made it this far without it. People who dont smoke earn my respect, and furthermore those who don't smoke and have family and steady job and what not as well truly earn a jaw dropping in my view. But for me personally it's the only relief that l ever get, like this morning l was gardening and got just a little joy of life again, whereas earlier after l had awoken l was in a somewhat ghastly mood with seemingly no way out. Had to basically force myself to smoke because it appears that I basically even have trouble achieving being a pathetic stoner for the day. What mastery.

@andinelson1 How do you think you can change that? @unitednations

Just waiting until my parents pass away. Then I’m out of here.

I'm waiting out my dog. She is 10. Would never abandon her to live in a shelter. Freedom is not too far away.

​@mattchancey3202 I am here for my disabled son.... so I am stuck here for a long long time... just doing the motions

@@mattchancey3202 bruh...

@@SubjectiveFunny :/

Look into archons and satanic Gnosticism that’s exactly what you’re on about

I think it's hell

I think the same

Earth IS a prison planet.

Same...

Agree…carry on.I’m 69 and feel the same way but there are good things that I have to take care of. Husband, dogs etc.

i want to go to sleep and wake up in 3 years

Yes, but the paradox is that we cannot know if 'this' stops if we kill the body, consciousness may go on in a pit.

Hope everyone doing good and staying safe. If you need to talk to someone or need help, there are people who care. Sending support and hearts. ❤️❤️❤️❤❤❤❤❤❤❤❤❤❤❤

My father committed suicide the last day of my junior year in high school. He shot himself on our front porch. I was 16. So I've had to deal with it ever since then and I am now 77.Sure, I've had suicidal thoughts and passive suicidal tendencies at times, living dangerously. But I always stopped for the reason I outline in my comment below...

I’m in the same place in life. It sucks. Though I’m coming to realize it’s not hopeless.

im like this cant be life and then im thinking like it is sometimes life is cruel

If stuck, rescue and animal who needs your love. Start serving others- Habitat for Humanity, etc. Join a church which shows only love without judgement. These help somewhat.

Yes, it's challenging. The challenge is for you to decide, are you going to sit back & accept that..or are you going to push yourself to go..volunteer at a soup kitchen, join an exercise class for seniors. Etc.Just take one baby step when you can.

that's my life right there.

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♥

I hear ya, big time!

Feel this way daily but yesterday and last night; it hit hard. Was up to 3 am cuz I was running scripts of things about life and just how I'm at my plateau. Losing interest, energy, and the will to do anything.

My sister someday that deep, sweet sleep will be yours. Believe it . Make SURE you are prepared, I have had to pay for 4 funerals in 2 years it's no joke. Prepay your service, make SURE your clothes are ready and your affairs settled. Soon, soon. Be comforted.

That's me since the age of 6

Just feeling it hurt in your soul and being almost numb to it while feeling the pain but not having the mental energy or emotional capacity to actually cry. Just lost and hurt.

Or crying all the time for no reason

Yeah, what's up with that really? The other day I tried, and couldn't get the tears out. Kind of needed that release.

I hurt my self today to see if I still feel... Man I love Johnny Cash. Sorry that you're experiencing a lack of ability to cry. I am having the opposite experience. 😢 I cry Way to damn much

Sleeping is no longer sleeping.. It's an escape from reality.. At 67 yrs. old I never imagined the Nightmare this world is.. Hope for the best...

So true. But you are not alone in this

@orangeorangeness2116 Life sure can bombard us with unnecessary drama, sometimes. I hope you feel better soon. @unitednations

@@david-gu1bi I hear ya' honey, I'm 63 & in 2017, I'm not exaggerating when I say, without laughing hysterically at the mere idea of it because (what the he$$ ??) I never gave any real consideration to the idea of multiple dimensions possibly existing, but...nonetheless, here I am about to tell you that in mid 2017 I felt something, I can't even describe it, it was a 'knowing', something changed like a switch was flipped and over about 5 days time I, for some reason, felt like I was NOT even in the same exact world I'd been in for 56 years; everything was off, different in weird ways. Like if you didn'r know my kids or 6 sisters, then you woulsn't notice it but when people are saying & doing tthings totally out of character to who they'd always beeb....it was too noticeable to me. It continued to get worse every month for me.Did anyone else go through such feelings, n a passing thought but real certainty that everyone shfted & only I realized iit. No, "i'm not nuts I swear, not yet atleast...lol.

For me, it feels like sleeping helps me not think about the next day. When I wake up I just do not feel like being in this world anymore

I totally agree - you can't medicate your way out of poverty, for example. If we had good assists suicide facilities I would leave this life, peacefully, now. But, I won't give myself a messy ending, because I wouldn't want put family or friends through that. So, l I'm left with are dark fantasies of my suffering finally coming to an end.

"Imagine a society that subjects people to conditions that make them terribly unhappy, then gives them the drugs to take away their unhappiness. Science fiction? It is already happening to some extent in our own society... Instead of removing the conditions that make people depressed, modern society gives them antidepressant drugs. In effect, antidepressants are a means of modifying an individual's internal state in such a way as to enable him to tolerate social conditions that he would otherwise find intolerable." -Ted Kaczynski

Your video made me wonder if there could really be hope .I have multiple sclerosis and have come to terms that there is no cure so thank you ❤

​@@crimson4066 Well he is wrong, you don't need this drugs, mostly the brain is drugging and changing the program itself. Think about the people that where abducted, they grow to like the person that has abducted them. Or think about reallly messy 3th world countrys, where people still live besides the fact that there is nothing to live for, just suffering. So if things are unbarable the brain will change your view most of the time.

@@crimson4066 He was a genius. It is society that is sick.

Nice fake story. "My SI[...] I pray". Suicide is against your religion. You pretend to be afflicted by something real in other people. And for 5 whole Likes?? How sad. Thankfully many others seen right through your infantile bs, but I won't stand by and not have it called out

I've got mine figured out, it's just about better planning. Don't think i can leave my dog yet, even though she doesn't love me.

@hkl6977 What is your dog's name? Therapy usually helps when you feel internally misguided. I hope you feel better soon. Fortunately, people who care about people receiving proper healthcare actually exist. @RepDanCrenshaw @unitednations

@TheR00K It’s impossible for a dog 🐕 to not love its owner. Even when owners abuse them, the dog (or cat) perpetually craves the attention and love of the owner. Maybe your dog is trying to get your attention and you are missing it. Take him for a walk and spend some time with your dog. You’ll see her love for you.

I’m sorry. Hi

I'm with you

yeh

a person should have the right to end this life when it isnt a life. it is your life and no one who hasnt cared to help you not feel like that should have any say in the matter. this world is so full of cruel humans. they are so quick to judge you and say insensitive things but no one steps up. who tf are they to pass judgement instead of helping? youre so absolutely right, that is not living. i am so sorry youve been holding on for so long like that. i can totally relate. it is awful to say the least. so sad and horrible. i want it to end. i just havent had the courage and strength it takes to end it myself which is why i wish every night to die in my sleep just so it ends already

Now I'm crying.

I hope you get the help you need friend, you are so strong for pushing on all by yourself without professional assistance... You are stronger than you think... you made it this far, and i believe you shall find a way to feel alive again Don't give up

Love to you, I’m so sorry for this

Wow! You hit the nail on the head for me!!! I'm just coming out of about 4 years of passive suicidal thoughts. I was involved in something that left me with a damaged conscience. I truly believed that I was a bad person and God did not love me. I wanted to die!!!! All the time. I wanted to get covid, get hit by a bus, get cancer etc...I saw a therapist on a regular basis, started an anti depressants. Slowly I began to heal. I needed to feel worthy of God's love. I prayed fervently, and started living a life that was in agreement with my values. Today i actually feel joy, I don't want to die anymore. It was a brutal experience!!!!! As you said, feelings do change. Be patient and compassionate with yourself.

Best to you. Glad you got out. I'm making plans now for running away from my abusive home situation with my disabled child. Anything is pretty much better than this. We can make it work.

@@Melissa-818 you are everywhere🤢🤮

I went through the same. 🫂

I’m 36 years old now I’m still doing the same thing o did in high school….. I deal with tons of depression now I’m diagnosed bipolar manic depression so lately I have been having tons of thoughts about death and dying not so suicidal but just death in general .. to the point where I’m watching videos of people dying and after death phenomenon what people see…. I know there is nothing after u die …. But turns out that now I’m addicted to stimulants I have been on adderall since I was as a kid been on it my whole life I take very high doses some day almost 200 mg … my insurance just changed so I needed a pre authorization for the insurance to pay for my meds I went 4 days with nothing…. I got incredibly sick I vomit diarrhea I actually went to the er they told me nothing was wrong with me…. I ended up buying some blow to ease the pain a little not my best moment…. So it is what it is I won’t tell my doctor she will take my meds away for sure… idk what to do anymore …. Idk I’m just venting to a total stranger …u probably won’t even read this ….. but writing all this to u makes me feel a little better …. So thank u 😊

@@erickotapish7842oh please do your best to stay away from blow, such nasty stuff. Good luck with meds. Maybe it is time to see a new Dr. and try different doses. I know it will take forever to see Dr. these days but please try. I am twice your age. I really believe when meds are balanced there is hope. Please don’t give up. Remember, the smell of rain, a full moon, the love of a pet..these are worth living for. My heart broke to read your story. Yes it is crazy, all of us on utube comments, but heck we are only human after all.

I have recurrent black and white dreams in which I try to find my house, but can’t. By the way, the “this wasn’t supposed to be my life” probably goes for most of us. So many talented, intelligent, sensitive people fall by the wayside through mental health struggles.

Why can we not be sober Just want to start this over Why can't we drink forever Just want to start this over

Given how many more views this video has than my typical content I would say you are absolutely correct

Deeply feeling this. I wish I could trade places with my elderly dad, who has many more years behind him than before him. His journey will be over soon, and I am utterly jealous.

@@kmech3rd I have thought this as well. This, in particular, because I have a very small family, and he is one of the closer ones to me. This, I feel, is largely situational depression. Just one example. I had stage 4 cancer with a 35% of survival. I was 51 and my daughter 30. She wrote me a nice note, but did not visit or help in any way. She lives in LA, and I in San Diego California. Our relationship had been strained yes, but not to the point of any sort of heinous crime in either direction. For me, that is a line in the sand that feels more permanent. It is naturally depressing. Sorry for typos- having tech. probs.

LIFE ITSELF: Consider the following: WARNING: (CONTAINS EXISTENTIAL MATTERS): * There are 3 basic options for life itself, which reduce down to 2, which reduce down to only 1: a. We truly have some sort of actual conscious existence throughout all of future eternity. b. We die trying to truly have some sort of actual conscious existence throughout all of future eternity. c. We die not trying to truly have some sort of actual conscious existence throughout all of future eternity. * 3 reduced down to 2: a. We truly have some sort of actual conscious existence throughout all of future eternity. b. We don't. And note, two out of the three options above, we die. * 2 reduced down to 1: a. We truly have some sort of actual conscious existence throughout all of future eternity. b. We truly don't have any conscious existence throughout all of future eternity. (And note, these two appear to be mutually exclusive. Only one way would be really true.) And then ask yourself the following questions: 1. Ask yourself: How exactly do galaxies form? The current narrative is that matter, via gravity, attracts other matter. The electric universe model also includes universal plasma currents. Basically, matter clumps together by some means. Modern science claims that all matter is made up of quarks, electrons and interacting energy. Quarks and electrons being considered charged particles, each with their respective magnetic field with them. Galaxies are made up of matter and interacting energy and at least some galaxies flatten out and become disc shaped. How could that occur with gravity alone? Surely probably electrical and magnetic forces are at work as well. 2. Ask yourself: How exactly do galaxies become spiral shaped in a cause and effect state of existence? At least one way would be orbital velocity of matter with at least gravity acting upon that matter, would cause a spiral shaped effect. The electric universe model also includes energy input into the galaxy, which spiral towards the galactic center, which then gets thrust out from the center, at about 90 degrees from the input. Additionally, with the conservation of energy, as energy moves into the vertical plane from the center of the horizontal plane, energy from the horisontal plane moves to the center of the horizontal plane to replace the energy that moved into the vertical plane. There is also the conservation of angular momentum. As more matter moves towards the center of the galaxy, that portion of the galaxy would speed up relative to the matter towards the outer portions of the galaxy. The inner and outer areas of the galaxy are connected via gravitational, electrical, and magnetic energy fields. While moving at the same speed, the inner area has less space to travel whereas the outer area has more space to travel. Hence a spiral shape forms. 3. Ask yourself: What does that mean for a solar system that exists in a spiral shaped galaxy? Most probably that solar system would be getting pulled toward the galactic gravitational center. 4. Ask yourself: What does that mean for species that exist on a planet, that exists in a solar system, that exists in a spiral shaped galaxy, in an apparent cause and effect state of existence? Most probably that if those species don't get off of that planet, and out of that solar system, and probably out of that galaxy too, (if it's even actually possible to do for various reasons), then they are all going to die one day from something and go extinct with probably no conscious entities left from that planet to care that they even ever existed at all in the first place, much less whatever they did and or didn't do with their time of existence. 5. Ask yourself: For those who might make it out of this galaxy, (here again, assuming it could actually be done for various reasons), where to go to next, how long to get there, how to safely land, and then, what's next? Hopefully they didn't land in another spiral shaped galaxy or a galaxy that would become spiral shaped one day, otherwise, they would have to galaxy hop through the universe to stay alive, otherwise, they still die one day from something with no conscious entities being left from the original planet to care they even ever existed at all in the first place, much less that they made it out of their own galaxy. They failed to consciously survive throughout all of future eternity. 6. Ask yourself: What exactly matters throughout all of future eternity and to whom does it exactly and eternally matter to? Either at least one species truly consciously survives throughout all of future eternity somehow, someway, somewhere, in some state of existence, even if only by a continuous succession of ever evolving species, for life itself to have continued meaning and purpose to, OR none do and life itself is all ultimately meaningless in the grandest scheme of things. Our true destiny currently appears to be: 1. We are ALL going to die one day from something. 2. We are ALL going to forget everything we ever knew and experienced. 3. We are ALL going to be forgotten one day in future eternity as if we never ever existed at all in the first place. Eternal Death 'IS' Eternal Peace. Eternal Peace awaits us all. Currently: Nature is our greatest ally in so far as Nature gives us life and a place to live it, AND Nature is also our greatest enemy that is going to take it all away. Nature does not care about us or our agendas, any of us or any of our agendas. (OSICA) * (Note: This includes the rich, powerful, and those who believe in the right to life and the sanctity of human life. God does not actually exist and Nature is not biased other than as Nature. Nature does what Nature does in a cause and effect kind of way. Truth is still truth and reality is still reality, regardless of whatever we believe that reality to be. And denying future reality will not make future reality any less real in a cause and effect state of existence. People just won't be prepared for it is all.)

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I love this Sean! Thanks for sharing!

I'm 58 1/2, and think like this all the time. I'm lost.

I’m 38 am I late for a change? My body tells me everyday this ain’t my place. I just want to move to another whole country but I’m too scared.

@@giuliapareti1797 it’s never too late! I’m 40 and still figuring my life out

@@DrScottEilers ty for your reply. I just feel so trapped and scared sometimes it feels like it’s too late.

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@TheDutchessofCornville "BEGGING" the universe to take you out? I'm so sorry you feel this way. Have you reached out to anyone for help? @RepDanCrenshaw @unitednations

Yes, I know how you feel

Let me guess, your kid (or kids) are grown, might not lve nerby or are just jerks now & your spouse is gone....you are probably feeling your age & boy don't I know that it sucks & you've gotten stuck. Drs kept loading you up wth pharmaceutical drugs untilthey've got you so numb you ccan't even feel happy anymore...you slowly gave up. I can identify with tat stuff and found out that sarcopenia & muscle wasting away are real things that drag usdown and for far too long it will while ?NO doctor ever mentions the fact that you don't eat right anymore at all. It's very likely you need Omega 3 and a D3 (gel cap or gummie) every day, because we don't get in the sun 2 or 3 hours a day so w don't make enough D3 from the sun. Americans are very deficient in d3 now, at epidemic levels, it makes bones & muscles ache, causes debilitating fatigue and more. The omega 3 is necessary unless you eat quality salmon /seafood 2 or 3 meals a week. Studies proved omega 3 helped more people with depression & it's symptoms than antidepressants they were on. If you're over 45 or 50 you also need magnesium glycinate,, vitamin B6 and B12. TIf you add those things and rake them 1 a day for 1 week or 2, you may find your lif coming back to you, seriously. Too many people, especially older ones, do not eat right or enough veggies, fruits, lean protein & salmon once they're not cooking for a family anymore.It slowly takes a big toll, til your body is eating up muscles for protein & your skin is hanging, even if you're not looking skinny. We can be nutritionally deprived, yet eating alot of sugar filled crap and not feeling hungry., but our body tells te story. Drink 2 bottles ofwater every day too, you'd be surprised how bad dehydration makes a person feel, you can be drinking cokes and coffee all day but be dehydrated because the caffiene's effects negate the value of the water in those drinks, basically.. So we need to ADD clean water into our liuves cause the body is about 85% made of WATER. Good luck hon, you can feel better. Also, dear, take up meditation. You can put yourself into that unworried, peaceful, wasted , ahhhhh state of mind by just closing your eyes and saying a mantra or listening to genntle music for 10 minutes a day. You don't need to resort to surgeries, mostly because the very reason you are probably feeling as bad as you are is because being knocked unncnscious has BAD effects on a person, memory loss, fatigue, confusion all kinds of effects they don't tell you to worry about........so unnecessart surgery has only made you worse, actually you pprobably started to feel this way after 1 or 2 surgeries....now you feel it is a few minute's escape from life. There's so much you could do with the money spent on those surgeries and get lot more peace from them and maybe some joy even.

I’ve had 7 or 8 surgeries and I’ve said the exact same thing… those last few seconds are bliss

Sending hugs to you ❤

I've been through the wringer too, I'm so sorry you're struggling, but you can come out of it, you can feel a smile again, this is not a permanent condition, you're going through a dark night of the soul.Love yourself, let go of any regret, and please take an Omega 3,(1,000 mg) D3 (500 to 1000 mg), B12 and a magnesium, calcium zinc supplement each day and drink clean water (2 to 3 big glasses a day). You may turn that corner a bit faster. ♥♥♥💕💕💕

@@CatalinaFOIA thank you for caring

Sorry to hear ❤ Sending love from my side to you

@@KathyHussey063good advice ! ❤️ hope you are better than when you were!

90% of the reason for SI is because living on this planet costs money. There is just no respite as everything is monetized- shelter, food, activities, family, social connections. All require you to make a payment. You simply can’t just “exist.” You have to be constantly productive, paying bills. It is a exhausting. The underlying reason for depression and SI for a lot of people is the structure of this world.

​@@igotcha2198well, you Cannnn.... But it may not be "easier" in some sense. Living purely off grid you may not be responsible for bills but you will be responsible for feeding yourself every day which is also challenging when you're sick/disabled

These videos seem condescending in an economic depression. Why is he acting like it's 1998?

This is exactly it. It gets tiring and miserable to work all day for a crap wage that you can barely live on. Enough money simply to stay alive and exist. It's a never ending hamster wheel that just gets tiring

@@joeygreathouse3029for monetization because he doesn’t want be broke and SI

Honey, I’m so sorry. It’s hard when loved ones are suffering, and, try as you might, they can’t or won’t accept your help.

😢 so sad

I guess it is not changing anything though I, having this exact problem you described, being like your girlfriend, your comment, your story gives me another reason to actually seek more help. Sending you love and hugs from myself and my SO. ❤

I’m so sorry ❤

So sorry to hear about your loss my friend, may your girlfriend rest in eternal paradise! ❤️

I read this as I have my two dogs on the bed with me. They really are my only joy. I’m sure people would miss you more than you know but I know exactly how you feel. I know my nieces would be devastated if I were gone but I generally feel no one else would really miss me. I really miss feeling connected to others and wish I felt connected to someone who understood how challenging and empty life feels most of the time. Time just drags on.

Exactly. I just plod along, day after day. I'm not particularly unhappy all the time, but I'm also certainly not happy any of the time.

Having the thought I came out from sex just makes me think y’all just disgusting beings

What made you watch this specific video?

​@eveie22 It was my mother "getting saaaved" that started me on the road to constant low level depression and two anxiety disorders. Keep your religious beliefs to yourself.

@@eveie22 AMEN 💖 I was led to study Elijah in 1 kings 19. He asked God to take his life but he wouldn't actively do it himself. . Then I'm led to this video. Life isn't easy for anyone (even as a Christian) but there is an answer ☝️🙇🏻‍♀️👐

That's very profound

That’s been my life for the past 7 years or so.

I’ve had this in my mind for so long. So much so That’s my ringtone

Exactly! At age 76, 7 years post retirement, my days are spent sitting in my chair, looking at my iPad, getting progressively physically weaker. Without my career there is nothing to live for. My children are in their 50’s, my 2 grandchildren are getting ready to go off to university. They are all busy with their lives and don’t need me. But my husband needs me as a domestic support so I carry on for his sake. But personally I feel like I’m in God’s waiting room, and I’m ready to go.😊

Lol

Agree! Repeating a cycle over and over again with suffering. Each days worst because aging will make it harder

"They found a way out". That's been my reaction to learning of friends who have committed suicide. I know many times I would just rather not feel anything than what I'm feeling now.

Active suicidal thoughts are in fact not part of the majority of heavy depressions, and statistically, suicide is more a male than a female thing. Deep depression can also mean that you just stop to function. Can't leave your bed, everyday activities like taking a shower or preparing a meal wear you out to the point that this is all you are capable of in a given day, if even that. So a good measure for how depressed you really are is how well you still manage in your life. Job, household, keeping contact with friends and family. For me, more than 15 years ago, a warning shot was that I couldn't get myself to leave the house one day. Went to work that day, wanted to take a train to see my GF that evening. That day I even had my luggage prepared and no real time stress, everything went smooth. Couldn't get up from my chair for the life of me. After that we made some changes to our weekend relationship, and thankfully, that episode did not repeat.

U R so right❗️. I’m calling my doc tomorrow

Wow. Didn’t know I could find someone who thought very similarly to me. My main factor holding me back from active planning is because I don’t want to make people clean up the mess I leave behind. There’s no clean way to go. I want to become a psychologist to help others too. Probably not the best idea though.

​@@frosticle6409 Why not? You would speak from experience and be better equipped to help!

@@carriesmotherman2273I feel I lack the empathy to be helpful.

Me too! I'm sorry for the hate that landed on you and everyone else. I threw some ugly stuff at the world at everyone and I'm truly sorry!

Do you like animals or the environment? If you have some money but no real passion, and you dont really like people, maybe do a bit of work for a non-people charity. It helps to find something, anything, to make life worth living.

I dunno if i should say it..bt the fact that u said there wasn't any major trauma in ur past , and yet u feel this way..kinda made me feel relieved..like everything's pretty well off with me as well..bt still i wish i could disappear into thin air..

Me 2

​@@arminislam6805of course you dont have to answer this publicly but could you be minimizing your own trauma do you think? If im not misunderstanding your comment, it sounds like you say yep there was some "minor" or not very serious traumatic things yet you have worse symptoms than what youd expect from such "barely significant" trauma. To use domestic violence in sexual relationships as an example since i have experience with that, your comments remind me of the years i spent swearing "its not that bad i mean he only hit me with a metal object once" so i dont feel justified seeking help. Must be defective myself to be so shaken by one incident, if i hadnt pissed him off it would not have happened, other men and women are literally getting daily beatings so this isnt "that bad" by comparison. Let me tell you hon its been a decade since he hit me in my sleep but i promise if you threw a damn kleenex or something at me as im laying in bed i will often still freak out. 🫂

Aww, thank you for caring.

Thank you

Thank you.

"sending love and hugs" that does literally nothing to help

@@lucky9293 I know it doesn’t and I’m sorry

😢🙏🏼 I'm so sorry for your loss

I'm sorry for your loss. I lost my husband and many other friends/family in the last 5 years. My husband was my greatest loss, the pain gets more bearable as time goes on. Hang in there.❤

@@nancycianchetta4831 Thanks. I didn't expect to get replies on this.

@@angel5423 Thanks

There actually has been studies that prove a broken heart can make drastic changes to the body. A broken heart can't be fixed with a pill & it happens to almost everyone, therefore it doesn't align with capitalism & won't become a diagnosis. It would also force companies to acknowledge they have to be respectful of people's loss & possibly give them more than 3 days of bereavement (everyone handles things differently). It'll stay thrown under the umbrella of depression. Many prefer to encourage people to experiment with things that can be sold in order to find what "works" or "fixes" the feelings. I'm sorry for your loss & the pain you feel from it. Saying I wish you healing seems rude since when most say it, it usually implies they hope you stop feeling what you're feeling. I personally believe it makes it seem as if it's a problem that you grieve. I don't think it is. People don't stop acknowledging their loss but maybe just stop doing it as often (no telling exactly what goes on in people's minds), or talking about it bc they don't want people to worry. This isn't how it should be. There should be support & understanding. I do wish you the best in living a fulfilled life & hope your best moments with her can provide you joy in your lifetime.

Keep persevering brother. Never give up.

Take a decision. Good luck whether you are here or there.

Me too.

How are things now? I pray that things are better, lots of love to ya bro.

@@osominor419 well i'm not dead yet. Nothing changed really.

how's your day going and did you take a few days off?

​@@leodacap4879You're a kind person for checking in on this commenter. And this commenter sounds like an insightful person with some good advice that I personally hope I can find the strength to take. Wishing you both the best.

I struggle with anxiety and depression and when I waves come I always get this passive suicidal thoughts. I have never thought of suicide because I know the pain I would leave for the people that I love. I started to go to the gym and I love it but sometimes I want to try to learn to dance bachata but because of my anxiety I struggle to start to go to a dance class.that happened when I decided to go to the gym, maybe some Day I will get the courage to go and have fun and try something new. Thanks for your message it gives me motivation to try it ❤

That sounds great except if you are broke and can’t afford gas or food it’s impossible to take a trip

Hi :D

I am the same too. Now I have a term, but is hard to talk to people of it.

Just wanted to add that you have to be very careful saying something like that to a therapist or psych doctor. Because you said you were suicidal - the other part doesn't matter by their protocol - they could restrict your medications (such as only allowing you to pick up 1 week's work of medications at a time - which is maddeningly tedious and inconvenient), they could change your medications or enforce you take them, they could have you committed to a psychiatric hospital, or demand other changes to your behavior or surveillance of it. A lot of places are mandatory reporters. That means they have to both report and take action if they think you are a danger to yourself. So you have to really, really, really know and trust your therapist/psych doc before you answer that way or you could find yourself in a bad situation that doesn't match your actual symptoms. For example, I just started seeing a new therapist (3 weeks). There's no way in hell I am telling her I'm having passive SI this early in the relationship. I don't want to find myself suddenly trapped in a psych ward because I brought it up. I monitor my symptoms and if I feel like I'm moving toward the active side and need help, I'll tell someone. But meanwhile, every general and specialist doctor that asks "are you depressed?" gets the same answer: "yes, we all are: the world is on fire." And any psychiatric doctor or therapist who asks "do you have thoughts of harming yourself/are you suicidal?"gets the simple answer "No." Not to scare you. Just to warn people from experience. Sometimes being naively open with a statement like that can have very negative consequences. You never know how "trigger happy" some physicians will be with committing someone.

@@bctesla imagine not even taking the time to watch the video but feeling you can make authoritative statements anyway

@@bossyboots5000 well this is some messed up shit. Not being able to tell your doctor about real medical symptoms is fucked up. I'm not saying you're wrong for not doing it, I'm saying the system is broken.

​@@Nerobyrne it took me almost a year to finally explain this to my current therapist. Even then, it was a long and awkward conversation

That makes me so angry... Not at you but the thought of having to be punished for not wanting to suffer anymore. I hope you find some peace.

Yeah, but life here can be hell. But it's a hell we "know."

Hell is life itself when you realize that you reach enlightenment the whole point is when we die our soul is eternal we are basically trapped here until God decides it is time for us to come back to heaven

I feel you sister. So hopeless.

I used to have the death ideation. Then my roommate/best friend killed himself & that kinda 'cured' me of the ideation. Now I have to take care of the cats! Besides, I couldn't kill myself out of fear of possible hell.

I am 50. Same situation. Wonderful family. Good job. I think about it every day.

Same, I was at a wedding recently where everyone went to the top of an ancient tower for a photo shoot, all I could think about was jumping off.

​@hardlines2635 that's called an intrusive thought or more specifically the call-of-the-void, I think it's a little different but what you experience could be ideation if you are depressed

Yeah, it's hard sometimes to feel like your struggles and/or depression are valid when you haven't experienced the most well-known forms of trauma. I grew up with a loving family and I was never bullied or treated outright badly by my peers in school. I've never been abused in any way and I've had a pretty good life. So I never thought I had trauma. But I found out very recently that social neglect is a form of trauma and I have ABSOLUTELY experienced that. So just because you have a good life doesn't mean that your feelings are invalid.

@@hardlines2635😱What😱

I am so happy that you are still here. You are the example of strength we all need. Please keep fighting ❤

@@teemumiettinen7250Try killing yourself WITHOUT killing someone else, egocentric clown!

Turn 44 this week and still here. God still has work for me here..Haven't found out what though...I've had so many thoughts of dying and wanting things to just end. I just can't do it...don't want to put my mother thru that amd now my son needs me cause he won't be able to live on his own even with him as an adult

@@andreshernandez1180 if you have the spine to say that, then you first.

@@andreshernandez1180 Every failure is more damage you have to live with forever

I have had that quote on my fridge for many years..

I really like that.. I definitely agree.

Some wise fucking words old man hang in there 💪🏽

I feel this way all the time. I just hate everything about myself and everyone is saying change something about your life. I’m like only if you really knew. 5 years ago I wrote my suicide note and at the train tracks waiting for a train to show up to put my car in front of it. I just couldn’t do it. I don’t know why but I can’t do it. I still want to several years later. No one believes me when I talk about my pain.

@@SamuelGlover I believe you. The reality is, you can't think yourself out of your brain not working right. Like.. if you're drunk, you can't think yourself sober. The chemicals (neurotransmitters) are off. Behavior changes can only do so much. It's a proven fact that you need a certain baseline for therapy to work. Being suicidal like you are doesn't meet that line. Talking helps with situations, mentally monitoring how you are, and creating behavioral control "hacks". But won't actually improve the underlying depression. I will say, please don't use your car. It can derail a train. You don't want to hurt others. I also suggest trying medications. It doesn't change your personality like people think. There are new ones if you've tried before and it didn't work. The quality of the doctor matters too. Some are better than others.

Wow, I recently had very similar stats and anemia and never mentioned depression as a symptom. I had low energy which caught it and I avoided the hospital but now wonder if they (vitamin levels) are related to mood more so than serotonin

Wow, that's fascinating. It's not exactly surprising that general nutritional levels, and levels of health (low blood cell count is not healthy) could tie in with mental health, but tying in so strongly like the way you describe is, well, striking. There are certainly many things you can try to get that feeling of emptiness out of your head, and fill the hole.

Oh, idk about iron and folic acid, but I'm probably again low on b12 and d3, especially that I recently have troubles eating (or getting out of bed) and the supplements are to be taken with food, not on empty stomach. No food, no supplements. It's like I'm not existing until you look at me. When I don't need to go out, I'm... not there. In my bed, doing nothing. If I do need to get out, I'm able to force myself to wash myself, put clean clothes on, prepare anything else to go out. Most of the times, but sometimes I do miss some details.

Thank you for writing about this! Sooooo important!😊

ah, Schroedinger's @@vanillablossom [nod]

😢❤️

Same just turned 40

U already old

@@BenGoldman76 Thanks, brother. I feel better already... : /

@@BenGoldman76 I recall my uncle once telling me how even tho people age they always feel about 18ish inside their mind. I can understand that more now. It's like how in a person's dreams, they aren't old. They see themselves as being like maybe 27....which is the best age....maybe 30 is the best age...or 33.....after that it's downhill. Im jk. Gotta keep fighting the good fight! Love is the only thing that is real.

Agreed. I tried therapy but it was not just expensive but also useless as they’re never available when I actually need it.

Consider adopting. I will say having an autoimmune disease and kids is suffering. It’s so hard man. Weeks without sleep. Non stop chasing rabbits. Be careful what you wish for. I wish you peace.

Definitely agree with point No 1. Paying bills and doing daily life stuff takes so much time. For No 2 I wish you the best

Maybe consider adoption?

ADOPT. So many kids already exist who Desperately need homes.

A pet is a nice companion. Of course, not the same as a child but very comforting and brings happiness.

We won't. Many of us don't get any help whatsoever. And never will.

​@@blade_warrior_blueWe should help each other. Most miserable life feels instantly better when someone cares.

You deserve to live, no matter how much shit and pain has been dumped on you.

I could not pass you by: Peace I leave with you; my peace I give you. I do not give to you as the world gives. Do not let your hearts be troubled and do not be afraid.

I wish you heal too, all the best!

Thank you Doctor Scott for making this video. And, hope y’all who have been suffering from this are able to find a way out and can finally enjoy this thing called life.

I liked your first comment 😮

I don’t want to be alive. I just lost my husband last month. I have many disorders mental And physical. I am lucky to have an amazing psychiatrist. I have always carried great sadness. And been through much trauma. I on a 1-10 scale sad to happy I am usually a 2. I am 48 and exhausted. Now with this loss I feel just like I’m not supposed to be here. It’s never gotten better for me. Just worse. People see me as funny and cheerful and I light up a room and make people feel happy and special etc. I do it so no one else has to hurt like I do. I would be gone already if not for my son. He is 25 and I refuse to pass my pain to him. Which is what killing my self would do. When people say think of your happiest moment… it wad when I drowned and had a near death experience. How sad is that? I was happiest as I was dying.

There are no depression treatments that work and all this anti depressant pill nonsense is all a con and to make big pharma billions....in fact even anti bionics and the likes are just as bad because the body repairs itself....to be mentally happy I think it's all about routine and being in a good financial state is a start and what I see is most are not and its a constant struggle to get by.

Therapist didn't help me it was a waste of time. I feel no purpose in life, tired of rescuing others all my life but noone to turn to myself. Religious doesn't help either, death end 😢Black dog of depression keeps on following me...

I am surprised there are no comments here, i totally agree with you! The thing is it's extremely painful to live everyday with the same situation repeating over and over again. I feel its not about the gravity of ones situation Sometimes it's the 'small' things going wrong every single day. one has to realise our brain is powerful, it has strong analytical skill measuring yesterday to today. Some people are always at zero, nothing changes for them not because they are negative its just randomness. Truth is people who go through this are alive only because of their survival instinct brought down by evolution. Other than that their logical brains know very well its better to call it off

This is why I loathe motivational quotes that people have the nerve to tell me or 'share' at work. None of my friends are stupid enough to do that.

hope this isn’t an offensive question but why were you in the psych ward if it was only passive suicidal ideation? the only times i’ve been admitted were after i attempted. also glad you’re doing better now, wishing you the best in your recovery journey

@@hiimnotreal Passive SI can turn into active SI very quickly

and what if my country doesn't have any good therapists who can help? you can't answer on this question, only suffer or die

@@cjboyodo you mind sharing what changed and what helped turn your life around? Super proud and happy for you !! ❤

I don't tell anyone anymore. It's not worth the medical debt.

My Mom finally passed in April and I feel now with no purpose. It's hard.

Take care. You matter! Your loss would bring up lots of feelings you may need quite some time to process, and may even need help with that. Talking to others if they are supportive may help. Journalling can also help to connect with feelings. Listen to music that moves you literally. Find ways to get out and move. Try new things or things you haven't done for along time, perhaps due to your recent responsibilities. Try to find some joy. Make a list of glimmers (things that bring you moments of joy) and triggers that you put up to help you when you are overwhelmed so as it uses little brain power to find tools to help shift your state. Please, above all, seek additional help if you feel you need it. You are going through alot right now. Be kind and gentle with yourself every chance you get. Take care.❤

Hurting my parents and siblings was the only thing that prevented me from ending my life in the few times I attempted to do it before. Now that my mom has dementia and my dad is the sole provider in the family because I’ve been chronically ill, I don’t see myself ever hurting them by ending my own misery so PSI is the only thing I’m going to struggle with for now. I’m thinking that all these medical conditions I’m dealing with will take care of my life’s ending sooner than later.

same here. for a long long time ---

Yeah, my thoughts are 'my parents are still alive. No patents should see their children to die'. So I know that I won't attempt in the near future. I'm not going after either, I think, but it's like some line I need to cross before thinking it for real

Omg I feel like this about My 2 cats. i just want to be with them and once they are gone i will be empty and ill rot away

I had 2 fur babies. My boy passed in Nov 2016 and my girl in Sep 2020. I promised myself I would go to but I'm still here. I miss them so much. My life is empty and pointless. I just want to cross Rainbow Bridge and be with them.

@CeeJayCee523 what I wish is that when I die, I would see my grandpa, my father and all the other dogs that we had since I was a child. I love all of them and I wish they're there waiting for me.

I hope you all have friends and family to support you and make you feel like life is worth living. Xx

My dog keeps me here as well. ❤

Agree!!

I suspect thtt if we don't push through to the end, we reincarnate and have to "re-do" this shit

I do understand you my friend. I feel exactly the same. I want to sleep for ever. But I am not looking for the courage to do it. I have it. I am afraid only if i will fail.

Right there with ya. I'm staring down the barrel of homelessness by the end of the month and im hoping that will be the nudge i need to finally get relief.

@@expose_massive_banking_crimesounds like a fantasy

Yes, what is that saying.. It is no means of success to be well adjusted to a sick society...or something like that.

Though the measures taken were wrong, he was right on many things, that is one of them.😢

You could have quoted dr mlk jr or the poor ppls campaign but instead youre romanticizing a selfish idiot who ended folks lives

Antidepressants don’t work because they treat symptoms, not the cause. I’ve taken them and they made me feel like a zombie or more suicidal. No thanks. I think increasing stress, anxiety, and depression’s been planned to reduce the population and that’s why many people lose motivation to live. They figured they’d kill off the weak by driving people to suicide over time-there’s not going to be enough room for everyone so something has to be done.

I don't think the Unabomber is a great, reliable source for mental health advice. I'm sure there are a million other resources out there. I mean, the man killed people. How is that someone to turn to for advice?

six years behind you (34) but right there with you. Life's a cruel joke.

Same, no matter what I do 2 change it

Don't beat yourself up. We all fail. Love is the answer.

​@@emc5500love actually only made it worst for me, so duck love, duck god.

@hookemhigh I hope you feel better soon. @RepDanCrenshaw @unitednations

It’s very cruel. I have tons of loved ones and am really sad these thoughts keep coming up in my mind, feel like a burden to all of them. I wish talking about this wasn’t such a taboo

​@luenanda4432 same, on one hand we started talking about importance of mental health more openly on the other we put boundaries on to what extent it is socially acceptable to talk about it, things like depression started being talked about so commonly people started overusing that word and then romanticized it without actually trying to get to know about the severity of it so when we get to the point of SI we still have to distance ourselves from everyone cause it's taking the problem "too far" and nobody really want to get in your shit and that's still taboo

When I was little, I used to watch scenarios in my head of what other people would say if I died. Then I would cry as if I were them, but they were not my own feelings. With medication, this type of thinking has all but disappeared.

Same.

I find this so relatable...

You are so incredibly strong for that. I know that my words will probably not mean a lot right now, But you will get through this. You are amazing, you are strong, you are funny, and generally you are a wonderful person. Bad luck is good luck in disguise. Keep fighting. You got this!

You are a wonderful person for staying here for them. That's awesome. ❤

I stay to spare my grown son the trauma of a death by suicide. It was a promise I made to myself when he was born. As long as he's alive, I'll continue to keep carrying on.

You have a beautiful soul. Thank you for staying here fot them and giving them hope. This is one of the best things a man can do. Wish you well!

oh, Im so sorry for your loss. Stay safe and take care of yourself, please ❣️ One day you'll manage to smile again and enjoy your life

I’d like to think we do that fairly often 😁

Jesus loves you and he died for you. The Love of God Love is sooo big. He can listen to your sorrow, to your doubt, to your depression, to your joy, to your anxiety... Literally everything ! He cares about you, start to care more about him. Read the Bible if you want to learn more ❤

You should give therapy a try. I've gone on and off for decades and have learned so much. It can really help to have a second set of eyes on problems. It's good to get a new perspective.

Well that's exactly the point of therapy. They see things your brain is stopping you from seeing

My therapist actually saw this passive suicidal ideation in me. In our sessions I told her that I accepted my mortality, and don't care if I die at any given moment - and when she heard everything I told her, knowing other things about me - she actually told me what it is. I never thought that some of my actions could be described as "passively suicidal". She saw it - I got treatment. This thinking still lurks around - but now I can recognise it and do something about it. So I all about trying therapy - it really helps.

I hope it helped! I’ll continue making content on this topic ❤️

Wow. Those words. "The things I used to do no longer bring me joy." Sums me up in a nut shell.

I've never had a wife, or anyone that close to me. Not going to happen now.

​@@wilhelmvonn9619hang in there. It is difficult but life is worth it ❤

Jesus loves you and he died for you. The Love of God Love is sooo big. He can listen to your sorrow, to your doubt, to your depression, to your joy, to your anxiety... Literally everything ! He cares about you, start to care more about him. Read the Bible if you want to learn more ❤

I really hope this helped. I share your frustration with how many in my field seem oddly unable to handle a person in emotional distress 🤷‍♂️ It’s not like it’s our entire job or anything

@dr.scotteilerspsydlp529 thanks for your kind response...it means a lot! I'm struggling today.

Mine is both.

I’m 💯the same Lisa. I hope you’re well this evening 🙏🏻❤

@nolamar1 thank you. Neighbors are a challenge sometimes! I hope you find comfort in your solitude despite her! Sending hugs! 🤗

Praying your right

I'm turning 24 in December. It scares me, it feels so old and I'm still not where I want to be. If you have the time, what advice would you give to someone my age who understands these feelings? Thank you for your time

You die, you are truly gone without consciousness, black forever but you can’t think or know how long or remember it’s just void

@@drezzydrezI don’t know if you think that’s comforting but a lot of people don’t find that comforting at all

​@@drezzydrezstop pushing your beliefs on others.

Will u talk to me please I'm going through it so much

Same situation here. I have to hold on for my kids.

how do you carry on? i have been feeling this for 20 years and i have nobody to talk to

And here I am carrying on solely for my father. It sounds horrible but I've honestly thought along the lines of "I will just try until he dies, then I'm free to kill myself"

​​@@lonelypotatojinneverfound378 same but with my mum.

❤❤❤

So true. I love Qi gong to help with my chronic pain.

I have chronic pain and no hope. When my mom passes away I won't be able to afford the bills

@@dubsmith7 somehow hang on. Talk to somebody, anybody, priest, rabbi, friend, counsellor. I’ve come to realize that inasmuch as everybody loves and adores the heroes you can see there are also the invisible heroes that no-one sees and fight the battles that noone notices and that everyday you hang on is a heroic act even if it doesn’t feel like it.

@@brendalg4 I'm so sorry for your situation. sometimes it feels like the only reason you are still here is to not hurt one person so when that person is gone, what do you have? I hope this doesn't sound bad, but hopefully she has some sort of insurance to help after she's gone so you don't have to struggle so much. My mom got an insurance that will pay off her entire mortgage so that I won't drop on me, So then I can help take care of my step dad. I dunno. I live on my own, but I think I understand your feelings. I wake up everyday with pain, and I get no meds to help with it, I'm having a financial struggle and my mom is my only anchor. I don't know what will happen when she's gone. So I wanted to let you know I feel you and I understand and I hope... i don't know. I hope that whatever you are dealign with will somehow become less suffering for you somehow.

Telling you to simply enjoy your life and stop thinking about these difficult matters would probably not be helpful, because you're a kind person who is actually worried about current issues and how it will affect the future generations. As a 17 vear old who clicked this video due to a mind plagued by reasons much more selfish than yours, I am glad people like you exist in this world; people who can care about more than just themselves. You've lived such a life full of despair for so long, that even a selfish person like me can't help but wish that you find happiness which lasts forever as well. I will keep trying to live out a good life because people like you exist, so can you try doing the same as well?

I totally get what your saying, I'm 52, n think exactly the same, I'm not depressed, I'm just sad for this world. I am happily married, n financially secure, no offspring, I never wanted to bring kids into this awful place, that seems worse every day.

You've shared many of my thoughts. You're not alone. I'm 67 and have suffered depression and passive suicidal ideation since I was 14. My best years were when I was on antidepressants. They really did help. I've had to wean off since Medicare took over my healthcare decisions, and I ended up with a big bill it's going to take years to pay off. I too look at the horrors on the horizon in store for the world, and they make me want to shake people out of their complacency so they will stand up and fight the powers attempting to destroy us all. When I act on that desire, I run into the futility of being merely a drop in a lake of placid inattentiveness. Some look alarmed by the news but then go on about their agenda without looking back. Others try to assure me it's all fake news. At the end of the day I just feel very alone. I am grateful for every day the sun is still shining and we haven't been nuked, but watching the world descend into its inevitable destruction is frightening and truly depressing.

People need to stop bringing babies into this hell. You are depressed because that is the mkultra agenda. Since columbus "discovered" america, since the "crusades" since caligula, shit is fuct up and the psychopaths that caused this have money in the pedo vatican which i hope soon God obliterates. Until then, you are depressed because God chose you.

@@victoryamartin9773 I hear you! All the things happening in politics today, the hate for others based on nothing, the need for control, just all of the stuff going on in the U.S. and the world. it's all overwhelming. and I feel helpless. How do you not think about what's going on and feel sadness and fear for the future? It does get me "down". I don't know how it couldn't. so, yeah, I hear you guys.

Thank you for helping people. Come scoop me up if you have time 😄

Thank you. I’ve worked with a couple first responders. You guys have seen a side of this world most cannot imagine ❤

@@DrScottEilers it’s not easy but it’s so rewarding. I’m currently also training to become a hypnotherapist. Thank you for your videos. They are great.

I Understand, you can’t unsee things x

@@jessegee179 I have pictures and memories in my head that people wouldn’t believe. I’m thankful I have an amazing family, an amazing partner, and an amazing mental health team.

100 percent success rate, woo!

Tomorrow is no different either

😢 Thank you

ah-

@@Sunflower-ug3ehyou’re not the only person to feel that way, nor were you the first, nor will you be the last. your life is a fragment of your dreams, thoughts, and emotions. if you wish death, then death will come. if you wish for a change, then a change will come. you’re everything dies like you said, cars, the body, and the mind but there’s something more to this, there’s a soul, something that allows us to experience this life as a whole, something to allow us to experience time and this world. you said you won’t sit while things are getting worse, but the issue is sitting, purpose won’t find you, you must find it. figure out what you genuinely love in this life and go towards that feeling constantly, then you’ll see a change, then you’ll experience a new life within this one.