Same:( im 12 and i tried to end my life. I added a comment of me talking about it

Same ​@@Artwith_ilafo

Avichii.

You know whats? I experienced suicidal ideas, depresión and loneliness, my mum tried to kill me, my dad left me, the rest of my fsmily dissapeared, my brother IS always shouting, people leave me behind and alone everyday Since i was born, i have no Friends,kids in my school bully me everyday, people in my school always leave me alone. I really cant handle my life anymore, i really want to kill myself and stop seeing shit

​@@Artwith_ilafo hey buddy I'm also suffering with depression and suicide thought as a 13 year old

m sorry u feel dat way, i wish i'd something more uplifting to tell u. but i feel u so much, so deep at dat. m 26 now, and just 16 years ago i thought maybe dis would all pass, and it doesnt. it all stays d same after all.

Don’t let your mind play tricks on you. It can tell you that it’s pointless and worthless. But I discovered this (Healing myself who’s feeling broken typing this) You’re loved and important coz you bring stuff to this world that no one else can So hold on If all you did was breathe today I’m proud of you Your past self and future self is happy you’re still here I’m happy too. Don’t give up on yourself I know it’s hard to not give up on yourself But you will be okay in the end There will be a golden sky ahead

ngl but same

I had many suicidal tendencies as a kid(7-11 I think) and no one would listen to me when I would mention it. Just would pass it off saying i am okay and it will be fine. By the time I was 9 I had many mental breakdowns and would secretly get ready to kill myself(and I still don’t know why I never did). And it eventually just turned into things like this like I hope that car runs me over or just praying to die in your sleep. I am fine now but if you ever hear anyone say things about it take it seriously it caused me much more pain than I already had that I wasn’t important enough for anyone to listen to me.

​@@AlvorKey I dont know about others, but what you're saying feels patronizing. Not hating, just saying 😅

Agreed. Then there was the regret that none of my previous attempts actually worked.

Life has always felt like that to me.

@@sirg-had8821 as a basic human Id have to say I'm glad you're still alive. As a depressed person, I'm sorry you're still alive.

@@ZonoC-mk3rl waking up in the morning do be feeling like a great dissapointment, I tell you.

this is what i feeeeel

Or telling a starving person how mich food there is.

Wow. Well said! It makes COMPLETE sense now...

Or telling someone with asthma, ' why do you have asthma'? There's so much oxygen

Truest comment I've seen today :)

Someone I know at work has a tendency to repeat certain things often, one of them being "Life is beautiful"... needless to say, I cringe internally whenever I hear him say that subjective affirmation 😮‍💨

Dang, this one hit hard...

Exactly and it’s too late…no one cares anymore, the way the world is now people are struggling and can’t make time for others as they are stressed out themselves..another reason is the internet and cell phone invention, people only care about their apps and social media , they have no interest in looking someone in the eye and making a friend,they’ve forgotten how to do it..

I am telling my family & my man no it takes me seriously they painted me as an "emotional" person as a small child. I have four kids so I can't really talk to no one about it or they will take.my.kids. I would never harm them ever. I want to protect them but I feel like a ghost.

​@@TyraBanks-gn4wfSending huge hugs

Yes. Saying, "if only he told me" "or me" "I was his best friend, he never said anything" Alot of people saying how they could have helped him but never saw the signs and were never there for him.

whats the solution

Tasty….😋

Who knows brother? It's a difficult one! ​@palestinabaddie

Try talking about this with people online, I believe it's going to help :)

In my opinion, the worst thing is when you are pessimistic, depression, and Self-criticism.

I agree with you. It's a challenging subject, which is precisely why we must address it, even if it means facing potential censorship. This particular mental health topic is among the most stigmatized and often considered taboo. I urge you to share this video; it could make a significant impact in saving lives or encouraging someone to seek help.

You have no idea.... I've tried explaining my issues one time to my university clinic (I'm in college) her response was if you ever feel suicidal again, I'm going to have to call UPD and have them take you the hospital..... At that point, I was shocked....

​@@Psych2goThank you for being brave enough to shed light on this troubling subject. God bless you. 🙏🏾❤

It's most probably because we can't seem to trust anyone with depression and I haven't even said anything because if I did nobody would believe me or just think I am joking even though it's not a joke and is a serious thing we all need to look out for.

That is because they ARE locked away and shunned. No matter how much people talk about this topic, the reality is that society hates suicidal people and will do its best to shove them to one side, maybe give them some short-term advice and then throw them into the same circumstances they were in beforehand. "You just need to talk about it" is a huge lie that covers a fundamental problem, that many people are alone, lonely and shunned, and many of them have practical problems that could be dealt with with a little bit of practical help, but no one wants to do that.

Same i feel you❤

I know. People think they can just say one thing and everything will be okay, even though it isn’t. I can relate. I’m in absolute pain all the time.

There is something or someone that will save you be sure of that .

I understand how it feels because I am in pain too and I am a little tired. And it's the time when I realize I need to get medicated. So I made an appointment with a counselor and another to a psychiatrist. There is peace in thinking I don't need to be here but I have a little sister. And we are orphans and I did not want her to go through the bigger pain of losing me. My dad, when he was alive, told me that I have a choice to find my peace but also what about the ones I will leave behind, he said I'll sentence them to a lifetime of pain because while I'm at peace, I'll be giving those left behind a very difficult burden to carry.......anyway, I hope you all find courage, and I hope you can stay and get strong❤

I hit the chart for this yet still carry on each day 💀

crazy how i did all these

hey mom look i passed a test woo!

4/5 .... I'm not ok am I? (I'm not giving away prized possessions)but I'm more worried about my friend because she has done 4/5 as well

​@@couchdoggo💀

I’ll share it without everyone I can before it gets taken down I promise !

Oh no! I will share it with everyone!

Thank you for helping! @@AliceTheBaddie2.

I’ll share it (just shared it with my friend)

@@Psych2go Np!

I also have ADHD and I completely agree! Hang in there! Church helps me when I feel alone ❤

"Hotlines tend to be seen as a threat to the suicidal." Because they _are,_ it's just a trap and spider's web...

@@SuperVladdrakula can you guys explain more please?

​@@elllikesmusic nah 🤎 If I'm in crisis, the _last_ thing I wanna do is seek a random stranger for a trauma dump. I want a friend or family member to listen first.

Yeah, I called the hotline and said, "Sometimes it just gets too hard." .... They called me a pervert and hung up

Don't go to hospitals either, my nurse friend told me they will strip you and make counter measures on ways to prevent commiting suicide. I've never been there, nor have I tried but, I could imagine that it would be like a prison that you can't escape until you feign happiness. I could be completely wrong, sorry that I was, I could have gotten completely delusional at the thought of it.

It hurts so much more to hear this to

The saddest part about it is when your mother takes it as a funny joke.

I have been told to get over it and I am the problem. I wish I could just let it go

​@@lateshabrumfield8171dont give up,keep moving forward

I was always told to get over it. Still haven't

Its draining 😢😢

@@varshini-1000 Thank you for your words 💗 I am proud of you ❤️ because you're still waking up everyday and still making efforts ! Be proud of yourself mate.

@@AlejandroHenriquez-sp2fz may be u can drop the email and later delete it!

I understand, so many times, I feel the same way. But, But, don’t give up, the tide will turn. One day you will be glad you did not “ Do it”

It’s exactly how I feel. I’m exhausted of waking up to this reality.

OMG exactly

Too real.

I tried twice, both times I was send to the waiting line. In those moments I just found it so ironic that when I really wanted to reach out no one was there

Yeah, its the hopeless feeling making such thing seem meaningless anyway. Like seek help, have done many times myself, or trying to talk to even friends, when nobody listen anyway I started being more silent. Of course ppl would say if one died, oh why didn't she say something bla bla. We Didn't see any signs bla bla. They know damn well.

I was asked if I could be put on hold for a bit... wtf... I hung up

@@nicknio9836 Yep. I ran out of anti-depressants when I moved. My new doctor asked how long had I been without; I told him 2 months and he said; "well, you seem to be doing fine". I simply left the office.... True story.

Stay strong. ❤

You were lucky to have people that cared. I've been dropping hints for years and absolutely nobody has given two shits about me. No one has even cared to ask.

@@philphilips1020 You can love yourself if you believe no one else does. Be your own friend. You deserve to be here just as much as anyone else. Your worth does not require validation from anyone else. I know it’s not easy. But, you matter.

@TeaPea-jq4ib Thank you for your response. I'm not sure that I matter, though. Actually, I'm pretty sure that I don't. Been unemployed for 3 weeks now. Three phone interviews so far but no takers. It sucks when there's proof that nobody wants you.

@@philphilips1020 You have innate value as a fellow human being regardless of who you are, what you do, or what you have. Please don’t give up. The fact that you are still trying to get a job is huge. It means you still have drive to push through and survive. You will succeed, by pressing on. We’ve all been through not having a job. It’s nothing to be ashamed of. Keep trying, I know if you’re tenacious, you’ll find where you belong.

Can you help with the reliable source I would really appreciate it. Many people talk about mushrooms and psychedelics but nobody talks about where to get them. Very hard to get a reliable source here in Australia. Really need!

Yes, dr.sporessss I have the same experience with anxiety, depression, PTSD and addiction and Mushrooms definitely made a huge huge difference to why am clean today.

I wish they were readily available in my place. Microdosing was my next plan of care for my husband. He is 59 & has so many mental health issues plus probable CTE & a TBI that left him in a coma 8 days. It's too late now I had to get a TPO as he's 6'6 300+ pound homicidal maniac. He's constantly talking about killing someone. He's violent. Anyone reading this Familiar w/ BPD know if it is common for an obsession with violence.

Is he on insta?

Yes he is. dr.sporessss

Having been in "treatment" for suicidal ideation and depression in the past, it doesn't work to speak out about it. Whoever you tell, they just either ignore it or they offer you a bunch of worthless advice.

@@andymanaus1077 I am very sorry this was your experience. It can be hard to find a good therapist. Most people, without the training, don't really know how to react. They'll try to brush it off and hope you're not serious, or panic and try to help, but they have no idea how. Good therapist really makes a world of difference here. And so does medication. Please don't give up. I know it's hell, but it *will* get better. Do it for me ❤️

​@@andymanaus1077i wish you success and happinness,dont give up,i wish you a happy life,keep moving forward

I generally don't tell anyone close because I honestly don't really want to put in the effort to improve so it'd be better to not worry people over something that I won't ever change

@@TheLethargicWeirdo985 dont give up my friend,keep trying,keep moving forward

It wasn’t your fault so don’t blame yourself. Your aunt knew you loved her. But she went through with it, because I believe she thought it was the best option for her, however misguided. Please be kind to yourself. It’s obvious you are a kind and compassionate person. My condolences for your loss. I know your aunt has found peace.

@@TeaPea-jq4ib thank you so much. I try to be kind and forgive myself for what I didn’t know nor fully understood at the time. It just pains me that everyone else failed her and let her slide through their fingers. I tried my best and have to realize that I wasn’t too late. It just takes more than me. She needed a team not a super hero. I just hope that she is peaceful. ❤️

I’m so sorry you went through such a traumatic experience 😢🥺 Allow me to remind you that it was not your fault, that you did the best you could with the information you had. Sending a comforting virtual hug❤️

I’m so very sorry for your loss it must’ve been so hard, especially having the funeral on your birthday :(

So? Just be proud on yourself you tried. You did more than other people. Very difficult to save someone if they don't want to be saved. It is not your fault.

Did the teacher ask how you are?? Or why the topic?

@@UpFromUnder6he was joking I think

..no, this even happened to me with my French class assignment

@@meowuwu11 Oh.. well then teachers are interested in suicide I guess

is it just me or is this actually 7 months ago

please help me feel less lonely

​​@@couchdoggo Tell me about yourself? Who are you? What do you like? Dream of? Goals? Please open up if you can. This is the best I can do from here.

@@Thomas-jl3gntooooo much, you gotta ease into someone wanting help. Can’t just run a quick autobiography on them lol

@@couchdoggostay strong fam, loneliness isn’t the worst thing. You’ll find and meet new people as life goes on. Trust me : )

@@Kahleetovlogs I take your advice into consideration. I offer this in exchange. You do not know until you try. Different strokes for different folks. There is no one solution for everyone. I will not be made to feel bad for trying to help someone. Especially, someone I felt really, really needed someone to make an effort. I've been where this person seems to be. I have experience with it. I threw a broad net on purpose.

Can you help with the reliable source I would really appreciate it. Many people talk about mushrooms and psychedelics but nobody talks about where to get them. Very hard to get a reliable source here in Australia. Really need!

Yes, dr.porassss. I have the same experience with anxiety, depression, PTSD and addiction and Mushrooms definitely made a huge huge difference to why am clean today.

I wish they were readily available in my place. Microdosing was my next plan of care for my husband. He is 59 & has so many mental health issues plus probable CTE & a TBI that left him in a coma 8 days. It's too late now I had to get a TPO as he's 6'6 300+ pound homicidal maniac. He's constantly talking about killing someone. He's violent. Anyone reading this Familiar w/ BPD know if it is common for an obsession with violence.

Is he on instagram?

Yes he is dr.porassss.

I agree, that's how I responded to how are you questions too and I was indeed tired of life. I'm still alive and doing a lot better, but some days are harder than others.

Tired can mean a physical sensation or an emotion. If you pay attention you can usually tell if someone is tired in the sense of needing rest or tired in the sense of being tired of living. But most people don’t pay attention.

I’m proud of you and I’m glaaad that you’re still here

True I've been tired of life since 2017 dude everyday is people people humans

​@@user-kl8ef2fu7qsame

Glad you’re still here ❤

I'm thankful your still with us I love you

Thank you both for reaching out to comfort a complete stranger. I'm not yet sure I'm glad to still be here. I might be writing the end of my story soon, I don't know. But I'm working on it. One day at a time.

⁠@@briancrowellit’s not the end. no matter how bad it gets, i ask you to keep pushing for a better life.

You got this, Brian. Your comment after watching this video shows you're already moving in the right direction.

Can Dr.pores send to me in UK?

How can I help u?which type of help u need?just tell me,I am always here

Open up to someone my friend, help is there!! You can always get in touch with someone, you are not alone!! I'm sorry its been a dark time for you, but I hope, in time, things will shine bright again!!

You can chat here. This comment section is a safe place. Vent, express your feelings, tell us your problems, whatever helps, we are here to listen and will try to help in anyway we can.

here's an exercise, think of one thing that makes you smile and mentally/physically make a note of it. do it each hour after each hour. ❤

It is for attention. But the attention the person wants is help.

Glad you are both doing better

I just want the humiliation to stop as well. I always think about ending things aswell

Why man what’s up

I’m glad and happy you guys are still here I just hope you and her don’t let your minds plays tricks on you You guys are not what your mind says to you You’re loved and important coz you bring stuff to this world no one else can So hold On Your past self and future self will be so happy you’re still here

Sorry to hear you lost your mom

You have my condolences. I know it won't change anything, but I hope you've found healing. That wasn't anyone's fault, please understand that. I'm sorry.

If you could go back in time, Tell her about your struggles in your life. She may genuinely want someone to relate to. Maybe she's scared of being alone all the time. Let her sleep with you for a while. She has to know that there's someone there to back her up.

idk about other people, but you can't really help someone who doesn't want to be helped, if for me at least. I doubt I'll ever kill myself because I'm too lazy for it, but I'll never talk to someone in my life about it or go to a professional ever, I'm kinda just biding my time till I gather the courage I guess. Maybe some other people think that way idk

@@TheLethargicWeirdo985 Suicide is more cowardly than you think, there's no "gathering courage" to self-delete so you don't have to suffer through the rest of world. You just wait until you get scared and hopeless enough to decide to stop fighting. As a lot of people look at it: the easy way out. Looking at suicidal people as people that don't want to be helped is harmful. And you're talking about it on the internet, so you do, in some capacity, want to be helped in some way. Even people that don't talk to anyone want to be helped, they just don't think they deserve it (which is why they suffer silently.) People with heavy depression have been hurt a lot, whether intentionally or unintentionally, and to have the mind broken so much that it attempts to override the survival instinct is so horrifying that whether you realize it or not, the body will look for ways to reach out, which is why depressed people, no matter how they try to act, always have some part of them that looks off or in need.

@@TheLethargicWeirdo985That's exactly what I feel. Very accurate. I never expected to find someone with the same thoughts.

I hope all the best for you ❤ stay strong

@@michaelfisher7159 thank you

That's great! I'm rooting that all goes well for you and your future!

@@timinator900 thanks. I really hope so too.

I was suicidal many years ago, I remember how it felt. Thank you for sharing your pain. I am sooo glad you got through the critical hours. Keep in contact with people, things will get better.

I had the same feelings I was close to ending it last year. I went through some traumatic events and it changed me and I wanted to not suffer anymore. I'm glad I didn't do it

I'm glad u didn't do it either

@@kill3rclown690 I’m sorry to hear you went through such a challenging time and glad you found the strength to keep going. Hoping things will get better for you.

Same almost ended it it's like you can't get a break​@@kill3rclown690

Same, I don’t know how I’m here now, there was just a sudden mood change, like I’m suddenly smiling more in 2024, but I still feel suicidal now, I just don’t look as depressed as I was before.

The worry is that this might make things worse since the (maybe only) person they trusted broke their trust, and after that they might not open up ever again and distance themself even more. This can be made worse if the family or people around them are toxic and they find out from that. It ban be a lose-lose situation sadly

Sending hugs rn while crying 😭❤❤❤❤❤

I'm glad you have Jesus. Jesus has really helped me with my suicidal ideation

Wish for better days for you. But don't attach your hope to just religious hopes. Don't get me wrong. I'm religious too but as I have experienced dark hopeless days too sometimes I became soo hopeless that I was unable to have or keep faith. Depression should be approached In every aspects. From Brain chemistry to religious ways and psychological and lifestyle aspects. When you treat them all in best way, peace is so much more real and more permanent. Hope for better days for you again 🌺.

SENDING HUGS

I don’t know who you are but sending hugs and prayers, wish we could’ve been friends in college. Keep faith in Jesus, He will see you through all the way. Deuteronomy 31:8 says, “It is the Lord who goes before you. He will be with you; he will not leave you or forsake you. Do not fear or be dismayed.”

I was like you when I was younger but my friends turned out to be my bullies. Please hold on, school doesn't last forever, have at least one trusted person, but most importantly is care for yourself in terms of mentally and physically- that will always remain my biggest regret.

How can I say this.... I didn't necessarily have bullies.... but I had individuals who got on my nerves and would tease me to join them. I would pretend to be ok with their tactics but I never really enjoyed any moment of my time with them. That said... I'm glad to be in college now, where I don't have to meet up with the same people anymore.

Karma is real. Those bullies will go through the same pain you felt

Honestly I am in the same situation but ten times worse. They talk super shitty behind me and then when I say "What are you saying?" they just say "Oh not something important" why the heck people are so bad god damn it let me live my lonely life and be happy why do they even enjoy this? I always ask myself if I did annything wrong I never find an answer how am I gonna escape from this hell I dont wanna kill myself I just want to disappear at this point.

@@Melody_014 one of the trauma i felt was in one of the school days this month, bullies usually would leave me alone after i left to rest out of the class, but this one fateful day was when the bullies wouldnt leave me alone and try to cyberbully me every 5 minutes or so and then the part where i was at peak anxiety i screamed and self-harmed. at this point it was where i needed to go for another therapy session and i didnt want to go to school ever again all we wonder is what happened to them, but i want to know why they turned to becoming this

Back at you my friend ❤😊

Thanks

Thank you.

Thanks❤

Thanks

Completely understand ur case, same here I’m too scared of physical pain, especially if gods choice is meant for us to stay n don go, I would cause myself a permanently disorder or a scar that I would live with forever …. But u know ! Our fear of physical pain makes me think that we r not into the suicidal thoughts that we think we r in

Need to talk to someone and then go to your Doctor medication can help been there myself trust me your irish friend from Dublin😊

On the contrary, and I'm not trying to sound sexist, but men are more likely to commit the action of suicide, than women. There were times when I self injured myself as a coping mechanism to help deal with stress I had from what my roommates did last academic year. I'm in college so.... First year at a new school with terrible roommates, it wasn't my best year. I threw temper tantrums whenever I was sure I was alone, even though some have heard me talking to myself in college. All that.... You could say my mentality was all out of place...To top it all off I was unable to get any good sleep from my roommates. Thank God, second year is somewhat peaceful, and I'm able to catch more zzz's

@@timinator900 I’m happy u r able to sleep now, as not being able to sleep is a different level of torturing .. good luck dear with ur college years ,, enjoy it as much as u can before u get into real life and business world .. much love from Egypt 🇪🇬 💚 btw talking to self is healthy what is not healthy is hearing the objects replying to you:) it’s a well known phrase from a very well known therapist.

@@timinator900 Using that statement does, in fact, make you sound sexist and like you're trying to downplay women's suicidal tendencies. My recommendation would be to just rephrase it like "more men struggle with suicide than women" I think this is less likely to be misunderstood as "men have it harder" and could communicate better that men simply have this problem more often rather than worse. But why on the contrary? The OG comment said nothing about men vs. women, they were just sharing their struggles.

Dont give up,keep moving forward

here's an exercise, think of one thing that makes you smile and mentally/physically make a note of it. do it each hour after each hour. ❤

No matter what happens, just put it off until tomorrow. You're too tired today. You don't have what you need. You'll need a plan. You're not ready to do it just now. Then tomorrow, put it off until the day after that. You've got too much to do. The plan you have won't work/you don't have all what you need to do it/you don't have the money to do "that". Make the plans very detailed. Plan out EVERY detail and every contingency. Then, put off enacting that plan for just one more day. Go over it, and make sure you have every intricacy and every contingency planned for. ...Then you're too tired. You don't have everything you need. Put it off just one more day...

I care keep going

I get it, I’ve been through something very similar and I know it’s so hard to even get out of bed and everyone around you seems to downplay your emotions but there are people who love you 💗

If I’m being honest right now which I am, I think you need to make new friends and try your best to break away from the toxic friendships/relationships

If there was one phrase I absolutely HATE it’s “why can’t you be more like (insert person here)” because that just shows they don’t care about you. They just care on how you act.

Thank you. I am very sorry for your loss. May she rest in peace.

I am sorry for you, I hope you feel better now, may she rest in peace

@v.m.e.6641 thank you, it's been really rough. If you are suicidal please don't do it. You're pain does not define you.

@ButterpinkStudio._. thank you so much. Honestly the pain won't go away, but I appreciate your kindness.

God bless you and your words, I apologize for your loss. Hang in there.

How can you be depressed knowing you've been blessed to live, breathe, eat, experience life for another day?

@solidussnake2567 because sometimes just being alive isn't enough. There is so much hurt, and just living isn't enough. One must thrive, and I'm not talking about money 😪

@@c.c.dorrie5795 I suggest read The Quran, it always helps me when I’m having a rough day

⁠​⁠​⁠@@solidussnake2567being “blessed” to breathe, eat, and experience life is the fuckin problem. im sorry but i hate when people say dumb shit like this

@@humanoidshrek5524 you're just a negative Nancy to the point where you even look at the positives as negatives. Life is a test, and it only lasts about 70 years

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No doubts shrooms are 100% blessings from nature. Indeed nature's little miracles

Can you help me with the reliable source 🙏. I'm 56 and have suffered for years with addiction, anxiety and severe ptsd, I got my panic attacks under control myself years ago and they have come back with a vengeance, I'm constantly trying to take full breaths but can't get the full satisfying breath out, it's absolutely crippling me, i live in Germany. I don't know much about these mushrooms. Really need a reliable source!! Can't wait to get them.

Yes sure of Dr.benfungi

Yes very sure of Dr.benfungi. Ive done shrooms last month in my house. It taught me how severely traumatized I was from alcohol. I healed from many mental traumas from my past and was able to forgive, let go. Shrooms to me is a remedy not a vice. I even felt more refreshed the morning after. So no hangovers. No depression mood for days. No anxiety.I now have a more calm mind

How do I reach out to him? Is he on insta

I hope you are ok😢

@@motivationalpictures3236 I will never be ok.

@@zachduplechin8352 what's your problem ?🥺🤗

I started drinking when I was 16. I would drink at parties, but I also started drinking alone because I was unhappy, and I was in a lot of emotional pain all the time. My mom was very aggressive when I was younger, and my brother hated her and so did I. He started hanging out with shady people, he started failing all his classes, he was never home, and my parents fought all the time. I also ran away several times. I was always trying to figure out a reason as to why I was here or what the purpose of life was. So, I started looking at different philosophies, religions, and beliefs. When I was 18 after I was hungover, I got on my knees and I prayed for the first time. I asked if God was real that he would show me he was real because I couldn’t take it anymore. I was crying when I prayed for this. At that moment I felt a presence come over me like a wind. It was barely noticeable, but it was unlike anything in my life I had experienced up until that point. I was surprised when I felt it and I remember saying “what was that?” after that experience I pretty much forgot what happened and kept partying, until my senior year when I got arrested. After my arrest, my parents lost all their trust in me and I was expelled from high school. I was told never to come back. At that time, I felt afraid and hopeless. That’s when I started looking for God, and I prayed that he would reveal himself in my life and that he would give me signs. My prayers began getting answered so consistently that I couldn’t deny that God was doing something. It was mysterious and compelling. I ended up in Church and started reading the bible hours a day. I stopped hanging out with all my other friends because they were continually getting arrested. I was able to forgive my family and myself and to ask to be forgiven. I noticed how at Church people were judgmental and how they formed cliques but were afraid to be around anyone else different from them. It increased my faith because I realized Jesus was not like that and ever since I was young, I saw people as people regardless of who they were. After a while, it’s like I could see God's presence was in my life and then it felt like he wasn’t, and then he was, and then he wasn’t. One day I woke up and felt more depressed than I ever have in my entire life. I felt like I was dying on the inside. That night I prayed, and I said, God, I don’t see my life five years from now I'm going to die Jesus save me Lord, please save me. I was weeping when I said it and when I asked him to save me, I felt a presence inside of me like a heartbeat, and I felt it once like a pulse, and I said Lord please save me and I felt it again even stronger. It was like radiance. When I woke up the next morning, I had transformed everything felt brand new like I was a kid again. All my fears and all my racing thoughts everything was gone. I looked at my hands, and I said this can’t be real it’s impossible. When I looked at myself in the mirror, I saw a different person. I started praying, and the holy spirit became entirely real to me it was washing over me and inside of me. It was total love and peace, and I heard a voice but not an audible one, it was an inner voice. It said I am with you; I love you, I will never leave you, it’s done it’s finished. That was May 3rd, 2009, and ever since then I’ve followed God, I have seen many things change and many things I know wouldn’t have changed without faith and belief. I know what it’s like to be lost to feel you have no hope. Don’t ever think you’re stuck, or life can’t change because it can. My mom is a Christian now, Its night and day. Some of the things that went away during that period were severe anxiety and my addiction to alcohol. I’ve seen and experienced so many things that are miraculous and seen how God has worked in my life. When we ask God to forgive us for what we’ve done and turn away from our sins and wrongdoings and we believe in Christ's sacrifice everything changes. His word says if we confess with our mouths that Jesus is Lord and believe in our hearts that he died and rose again we will have eternal life but not just life after death but abundant life in the present. Our sins are erased not only past, present, and future but our burdens and fears are lifted also. Our thoughts, our minds, our hearts, our souls are transformed and united with God and we know his spirit lives in us. If you seek, pray, and knock you will know JESUS IS KING!!! HE LIVES! "Come to me all you who are weary and burdened and I will give you rest" "For with God nothing is impossible" kzfaq.info/get/bejne/e76Berd607bUiok.html

Bad cops😢

What did he say that made you reconsider?

I'm glad you are still here.

@@ricardogarcia427at least you are happy, right?

@@Moghaddam_alirezahow

Stop 😭 I'm reading myself in the comments already you gotta be quieter

I have tried to commit suicide twice so far and I am scared of what I can do again😭

Real

STOP GIVING AWAY THE SECRETS

R.i.p, I guess I’m the exception 🥲

You value your life on the brink of death.

Dont give up my friend

Dont give up,life is up and down,like a rollercoster,dont give up

@@RedaReda-vl9ff thanks,I needed that

I'm happy for you, keep going like that, you're doing a great job :)

See, it's friends like that that make me wish I had someone to talk to. Best of love to you. I'm in college, but I must say last academic year.... I was in a very similar path like yours. I had been my worst year in college. Apart from the rigorous classes I took, I dealt with my roommates shennagans the entire year. Him being a girlfriend, him having you know what, and him having the most obnoxious snoring known to man. I wish I was kidding. Anyway, it took a toll on my mental health. It got so bad I attempted to self injure myself and purposely try to get close to cars as I crossed the street, to get hit and die. There's also a very high railing not far from the dorm I stayed in that I glaced upon ending my life. I was inching off by touching the gate, which wasn't that high. The University clinic wasn't much help as they told me if I attempted to commit suicide again... I would be sent by UPD to come take me to a hospital. At that point, I was going crazy... internally. Externally people would find me weird to talk to as I was also mumbling and had eye bags around my eyes, as a sign of not good sleep for days. 🥺😔

something similar happened to me last year. i had burned ALL of my diaries (from 2003 to 2022) that day and got the rope in my hands, contemplating. i even wrote an "if i die" note, with contacts and stuff. i was so determined to do it. until my best friend called, asking if we could play a game together. i chose not to tell her what was about to happen, instead i just enjoyed the moment with her. in that moment, i thought maybe i have some reasons to stay alive. i'm happy you have someone like your bff, and i'm proud of you for staying here

Same. He was a super cool guy. Taught me how to white water kayak. He ended up giving me one of his boats and I knew the sign but didn't notice it. Damn.

First message: You. Are. ENOUGH. Get that in your head. If you have to say it 100 times to day to get it in your head, then so be it! You are worthy, you are enough, you are good. You're doing your best, you're not a failure, you're not weak, you are human. And that in itself is amazing! But also hard. Being alive is hard, especially when there's so many unnecessary rules put on top! Trust me, as a fellow human, you're not doing nearly as bad as you think you are. People like us that have depressive episodes are the most critical of ourselves. Related to that, you aren't alone in your struggle. Even though, obviously, there aren't a HUGE amount of people that can relate to your severity, but once you realize you don't need to follow through with the pressure of being the most perfect unique flawed person there ever was, I think you'll at least be less stressed. Hey, speaking of stress, have you tried to help yourself relax? Life's busy, make sure you're taking care of yourself. Maybe try soaking in the bath and just thinking about your favorite things instead of throwing yourself in the shower. Your pruny fingers aren't gross or weird, it's a cool part of human nature! You're beautiful, no matter what you look like, because you are the only you. And yet you share so much with everyone else. Isn't that cool?? So many similarities, but we're still our own people! For me, Idk if I can say I have suicidal depression because the only symptom I have is invasive thoughts that nothing matters (and I have had urges here and there that I was able to overcome probably easier than others...) but I'm still really scared of dying. My depression is more like feeling like I'm floating in the void with nothing to ground me, except for my favorite hobby and my friends! So my recommendation from personal experience is: at the least, find something you like to do to distract yourself when you're desperate. Really only when you're desperate and can only think about that, maybe by distraction, you'll teach your brain that you can indeed think about other things. Practice self-love (differentiate between actually taking care of your health and just trying to escape your thoughts) find something that gives your life meaning and whenever find yourself struggling with the meaninglessness of life, go back to what you use to define why you're here. What I decided I wanna do while I'm alive is bring awareness to people, what struggles everyone faces. I want to help people and give them what they need to know in order to improve their lives and the lives of those around them. Not quite as noble as like FBI or teaching or any of those, I suppose, but the way I'm planning to go about it is probably more ambitious than most people kinda just trying to get by. Find your reason, basically, and focus on that while keeping yourself healthy. On the other side, definitely try to examine your thoughts and figure out why your thought patterns are the way they are, see about trying to discover why you think life is so bad and see if you can remedy it! Lack of human interaction could be something. Make sure you're drinking enough water and taking good care of your body, get good sleep, remember to take breaks just to rest your eyes. Maybe just lay in bed in the middle of the day and let yourself fall asleep or try to make your brain stay empty a while. Or just close and cover your eyes to see if you can at least partially get rid of that headache! Have I mentioned water? Lol. Have a wonderful and low-stress day!

Dont give up

I wish you a beauthifull life,dont give up

If you're referring to something like someone with a degenerative disease like a muscle disorder or Alzheimer's wanting to use euthanasia or something similar so they can go out how they want to instead of their body slowly stopping functioning, absolutely. And while depression can stick around for a very long time, it is indeed still a temporary and treatable condition! Crazy how the world can care so much about human "lives" (aka just wanting to prevent death for as long as possible) and yet do their absolute freaking best to heighten and ignore people's suffering. The heck is up with that??

@@astraamarante6233 yeah Like what the is wrong with you,HUMANITY,HUH???!!!!!!!!!!😤😤😤😤😤😠😠😠😠😠😠

@@astraamarante6233 Terminal/Untreatable diseases/conditions that absolutely wreck any semblance of a normal, happy, productive life are indeed what I'm mostly talking about. As to why the medical 'Industry' strives to keep people alive for as long as possible? I hate to say this, but it's just the simple truth: Money. The longer they can push meds, pay Caregivers, the more 'They' make. The absolute bottom line which is both obscene and hypocritical. I've seen it happen far too many times...

You aren't alone. There are people that care about you. You don't your mom if she doesn't care about you, it'll be okay. I know life is scary, but you have a lot of life left in front of you that you get to decide what you do with it! It'll get better, okay? It may not seem like it, but all tunnels have an end, you can't have darkness without light.

I am very sorry about this news

Yes, I did. I’m doing better now.

sometimes its not self harm. Its more like a a coping mechanism because junk food is usually addicting

Yeah, definitely

When the hours are long and my mind begins to wonder where it shouldn't.

Yes it can be