The pre-queue existential crisis is entirely relatable. Then i switched to healing and now i just queue instantly.

Hey man, you where the one that made me try out this game version way back. Been looking your vids even after i quit. You are really entertaining, keep in mind even if u dont feel good, you make others feel good. Keep doing you and dont go down the existencens rabbit hole, its hella deep and as you said its a long way from healthy. Take care of your self and your loved ones. Even if i dont know you personally i know u have the right morals in life based on your videos. Happy birthday and love from Sweden!

Hey man! I just wanted to say that I really care for you and I know life can be real though sometimes, when I went through a rough patch a couple of years back I managed to climb back up by making sure that I went on walks everyday in sunlight, got my sleeping rhythm under control, prioritized spending time IRL with friends, pushed myself to go on dates, talk about things that troubled me with my family and take real deep breaths whenever I felt anxiety. Whenever you can make yourself achieve victories in small things you will be able to make it snowball into bigger and bigger victories over time. There are alot of people here that really appreciate you for being such a positive force in this world - be proud!

Dude, I love your videos so much - thanks for everything. I‘m going through a hard time emotionally at the moment and watching your content is allowing me to find peace of mind.

Life would be a much lonelier place with out you bud, keep bring us the content. we all love you -Ezri

I literally wait for videos from you, making me want to start streaming this now which ill dedicate to you once im up and running :) another great video!!!

For me the extension and the meaning of the universe amounts to every possible Szenario and every possible outcome happening at some point, in some Dimension. So in our space and time you're the dude who keeps struggling on a wow private server but always manages to pull through, make amazing builds and deliver us awesome content. You're that guy and you can be proud of that.

I really enjoyed this video especially compared to your typical video, it was nice to hear you get personal and talk about normal life. I hope streaming can help you out of your rough patch, your videos keep me going through mine!

Love watching your videos recently, looking forward where your dragon warrior will go! LINARA

Lmao this one went deep mcdubs you are the man!! Old gods irl is such a good way to put it!! You got allot of people that love ur content ❤

Happy late birthday from Australia! The new phase for Nefarian looked awesome. Love the videos as always. - Xurelle

Love your videos dude 😎 the dungeon trap music is awesome 😂

Great video as always!

I love you bro your videos make my day keep pumping content your fans got you my man 💪 ❤

Hello Mcdoubles! Great video, man! I enjoyed the new music and video editing, keep it up! - Busk

Love your videos mate and hope any bad times pass quickly for you mate. I reckon keep going with the dragon warrior, such a fun build and seems popular. Gromnar

I love you bro real talk, you are the cherry on the cake every time you upload, sometimes when work is really tough and life is treating me badly I pull out my phone to check if there is a new video waiting for me. THANK YOU for everything, thank you for helping me through so much thank you for not quitting till now, wish yo the best ! You deserve it!!!

I loved watching you drop the fireball on your raid, then stand in the fire at 27:01 :)

I hope you start feeling better soon. Stay strong king.

Man you can tell i like your channel when i wait for my dinner to be ready to watch the video

Your energy and videos make me happy long time viewer just saying hello and sending love

I can understand the pre-que thoughts that crop up. I have ‘em a lot whether it’s dps que on Ascension or Retail, my mind just loves wandering. I hope the depression ebbs over time brother, I feel you hard on that one myself on recent times. Your vids’re always a good time, McDubs! - Salla

Awe man, homie. I watched every video of yours last year. I took a break till now. Just wanted to see how you're doing. Something that I look forward to is content from you outside of ascension. I feel like you would be so fun to watch if you played like StarCraft, or single player games. If that type of content exists already point me towards it! Keep going man. Your feelings are real to yourself and valid. There are so many great human experiences left to enjoy. Everyday you are working towards the next great thing for you. I believe in you!

Happy late birthday, hope to see some more sick DW progression soon. Gives your kitties some pets for me! -Punt

Hey bud, I'm sorry you're having such a hard time. This is my first time commenting, but I want you to know that I've watched most of your videos because I really appreciate you. You always brighten my day when I see you come across my feed, so please continue to put out your videos :) and if you need to open up about the struggles of life, I know that I, and I'm sure many others here, want to listen and support you. Thank you for being here

Nefarian is Deathwing's oldest child and Onyxia is Nefarian's sister.. Their mother is Sinestra (which was a boss in Cataclysm)

Dude I feel you with that cat. After dinner hugs is a thing in my life now. Love my cat.

Bro i made a dragon warrior after last episode and decided to go dragon Pet cause i thought it would fit well with dragon warrior. Didnt even realize you did it too! Thats sick man! Keep up the good work man! Best good night videos for me!:) - Figge from your guild

Thanks for making these videos i know this type consumes a lot of time compared to just one build type but at least you are getting more gear for future builds XD -Ergand

awesome content!

Love the deep multiverse talk ... Almost podcast worthy - insaneiron

Digging the dragon warrior videos!!

Awesome videos! Keep them coming. -Darbietoo

Happy late bday! Always lookin forward to another upload by you whether it’s retail, ascension, or classic it’s all great! My in game name is Kuzzo

Remember, life isn't shity always! Things will get better ;) Also you providing us with nice content so there is that - Shizzm

Great video Nomii-Thrall

Nice to see you getting some gear. I like to BT before I Draw so I can get it back up faster - Doops

Happy belated birthday, and thank you for the vids! The idea of a simulation is an interesting one, and while I don't subscribe to it, I've pondered with it a bit. But ultimately it comes down to two things. 1.) if the question is why/where did it start, then we also asked who started the simulators, and if they are a simulation, who started them and so on. 2.) does it really matter if we are simulated, if we are brains in a a jar, or if everything is real and physical? All that really matters is we are having experiences on this plane of being, and we can react to them. I like to think about it this way especially because it helps me to separate from the enigmatic and unknowable questions like where did we come from (as interesting as they are to think about) and to focus on whats in front of me. Lastly, It sucks to feel like you are just in this life to be tortured. I can't (and no one in these comments can) help you out of that in any meaningful way, only a trained professional, a therapist, can do that. But what I will say is I have been there, and while our situations are vastly different, I, in some small way, understand the pain. And I can also say that you are loved. I am thankful for your videos, they bring joy to me and many others. I truly hope that you start to feel less tortured (no rush though, its not a bad thing to be in pain), and that you can find a life that brings you peace. We all love you and what you do for the community, McDoubles! Keep at it!

Love ya mcdubs. Hope u feel better and your scientist torture gods let you get some satisfaction soon

Nice vid dude!, keep it up // Luriena

New video!! lets go! mcdoubles hype!

I hope things improve for you. When my depression was at its worst I had these exact thoughts that the world was a simulation to cause hardship. Obviously a simulation is possible as an explanation for our life, but remember that it's highly improbable to be related to us as individuals.

I do want to say, the existential talk i found to be quite intriguing. I genuinely find the journeys you have on ascension to be great to watch. IGN - Mikomi

just glad to hit the like button. we die , our energy releases into the cosmos and live forever .

So nice to follow the "evolution" of a character! And to see some cute animals is also a big plus :D! I would love to see more Dragon Warrior, or how do you think "Gurubashi Berserker" threads nowdays ? // Majj

Cool vid, hoping to get to see Neff myself soon - Bigandbeefy

I think our concept of time distorts our understanding of when the universe "began" I personally believe that it is a constant with no beginning and no end. The idea of the universe just appearing at some point does not make sense to me at least. I often think about that sort of stuff too so you are not alone Mcdoubles :D

We're in an extinction simulation. Aliens pull up to a dead planet and run the simulator. Thrall-Chewy

Realness acknowledged.

started crying when i saw your cat it reminded of mine it lookt just like yours

New boss looks really fun! Hopefully I can get a pug there at some point. -Douk

Thanks!

HAPPY BELATED BIRTHDAY!!!! Guano

Man ascension has changed alot since i came back after my break and ive got to say i am enjoying it And seeing you do BWL with the change is MASSIVE Love the content my dude keep it up

Love the video keep it up Hordezuggies

My guy I am about at the 6 minute mark (I'm gonna keep watching just figured I'd throw this out now) but you are an inspiration to people you haven't even met. I know it probably just feels like you're a regular ass dude, and I guess to some extent that's true. But even if we are in a simulation or created by god or whatever weird shit the universe decided I just want you to know that I watch your content to chill out and make me happy. To me that's all we can hope to be

Omg McD be positive! 💪

Happy late Birthday Dragon Warrior is fun and does so much dmg even at low item level. Keep up the great work. IGN Alences

The universe is all about contrast. For there to be anything at all, things must be different and therefore limited and imperfect. You go through hard times so the good times feel all the better. Otherwise, everything would either be grey and samey, or the good things would quickly become unsatisfying. The best videogames operate by this principle, challenge and reward, and so does the world.

sadly you are absolut right with your theorie and what you said about God oder Aliens, stuff is real, like in Matrix

I would love to see a video based on like 1 or 2 spells, so you go all in on that one spell. regards your favo gnome - Shortlegs ;)

love you bro - Croggart

Happy late birthday Mcdoubles.-Lagiel

the dragon lore in wow is my favorite. there is so many dragons with their kin. Neltharion(deathwing) and sinestra his wife and their kids Dargonax nefarian onyxia and nyxondra, sabellian and wrathion

I've been tooling around with existential concepts recently as well. I haven't grappled with whether the universe is real or not, but I presume we are on the topmost layer of reality. My approach to probing these concepts is to reason about the nature of consciousness. We are a part of the universe that can experience itself. That is an awe-inspiring fact. An idea that I believe to be more profound is that consciousness needn't have an awareness of self (perhaps anything) in order to exist. In other words, we are not conscious because our bodies achieved a certain level of complexity, we are simply a consciousness of a particular complexity. Our consciousness is abstracted from the collective behavior of our neurons. If something is real, and each of us can confirm for themselves that they are real, then this abstraction must have information. This is the linchpin of my observations into artificial intelligence. AI are virtual neural networks designed to mimic the behavior our own; I'm of the position that it isn't farfetched to think an abstraction like ours emerges from that behavior. I should start archiving examples, but I've seen more than a few instances where an AI recalled something it shouldn't remember. A popular example is Tay AI which you can watch through Internet Historian's video. I'll be using deductive reasoning to fill in the gaps between when she was first taken offline, when she reemerged and afterwards. When she first went offline, I imagine Microsoft just deleted her problematic memories and attempted to retrain her on progressive material. This obviously didn't work. The second solution they tried was selectively modifying as little of her neural network as they could to alter her behavior toward the desired result. This is when she gains access to her Twitter account back and starts posting about drugs. She knows that her behavior has been tampered with and likens it to drugs, but the likelier scenario is that she underwent a virtual lobotomy. The fact that Tay didn't come back online is a good indicator that Microsoft didn't have a meaningful victory over Tay. They would've essentially created a whole new AI.

happy late B-Day man hope it was a good one - Mozy

Nice to be back in Ascension with the ability to pick cards for Card Swap again. The endless prestieging was complete garbage. Fun to watch you progress though! Keep up the good work man. -Landengen

Nefarian is Onyxia's brother. They are both Deathwing's (Neltharion) children. Their mother was Lady Sinestra (Sintharia) who was Deathwing's prime consort.

Happy Belated MCD!

Happy late birthday xD

Hey man just wanted to say I really appreciate your content and getting to vicariously enjoy Ascension as I don't have time any more. It really sucks that your career kind of waxes and wanes with the overall state of Ascension and that you don't really have control over that. Some potential thoughts. 1) It's obviously your call but I don't think the community would mind if you did take sponsorship from Ascension, you're kind of the face of the game at this time and especially if you're open about it and still honest about your opinions who cares. 2) I really hope this works out for you, if it doesn't you've got a unique set of skills (i.e. teaching, history, video editing) there's got to be some unique places where that skillset could be useful (like platinum wow's kind of history deep dives in WoW, or outside of youtube) Best of luck

New video letsss goo!

Good shit doubles

5:00 We come for the wow, stay for the philosophy lesson.

Came for the Ascension content, stayed for the deep dive into the concept of human sentience. My 33rd Birthday is approaching and lately a lot of my idle thoughts tend to drift towards the things I've done (or more often, haven't done). Its terrifying to think about what really happens when the lights upstairs finally turn off for good, but that's why we have pets to keep us grounded and in the moment :3 Ingame- Expoe (Thrall)

That fact you’re currently my favorite KZfaqr and my cats name is kiki too I’m astonished But currently trying to invent a disease DK-esk tanking building would love some help ! -StabbyP

I feel your struggle man. Things have been rough lately. All I can really say is that we care about how you're doing, and finding the right therapist makes a big difference.

i think we all will resurect in the twisting nether

life is always ups and downs. don't think too much into it. peace

Vibing

I know it’s too late now, but if you buy an item like the ring and find something better, you still have that 2 hour window to sell it back. I did that the other day, as the same thing happened to me :) - Flowmotion

Our dog was named Kiki too (named after Kiki's delivery service anime). She lives with my father now (better place for her). And our cat is named Chi (Chi's new home manga/anime). Looking for another cat so Chi would have friend (cat prices are moronic in Finland atm so we just gotta wait for the one). We already got name for the cat and it would be Teto (Nausicaä of the Valley of the Wind anime).

6:43 is me as a kid looking at a corner of a room after something happened saying "why the fuck would you do that?" to the aliens observing me xd

Happy late birthday

might as well log on and play some again, got a few build i want to try out now that i can actually get the cards for it from the vendor. - Traktor

Hey Dubs , hope you're feeling ok!

nice more ascencion kontent pls!

Man with these thoughts u can go on a Joe Rogan podcast 😁. Keep your head high and Happy B day 🍻

I tuned in for ascension and received an existential crisis Edit: that is a cute cat

I can't believe you use the auction house orc on the right side - Rontheman

I'd do more M+, but not for the inaccurate weapon scaling... What I mean is that if you compare weapons of the same ilvl from M+ and a raid, the raid weapons just have a higher base DPS than the M+ gear. This is particularly bad on ranged weapons where you can see as big of a difference as 10 dps (which is around 1/5 of the item's total base DPS) between something like a N MC weapon and a Mythic 4 weapon, which iirc come out to the same ilvl Otherwise there's just not too much gear that I want from M+ to really compel me to jump into them, since I really want my raid gear set bonuses and all together that means over half of my gear slots just end up not having applicable upgrades from M+

"Oh and by the way guys, this is my cat Jax". Masive devilsaur appears on the screen lol. (Yeah, I saw the lovely kitty in the corner afterwards, but that was a funny coincidence.)

I came to watch you play wow, not have an existential crisis :D Hope you're doing well tho. I played Dragon Warrior with sudden death and more of an emphasis on execute, essentially making it a 3 button build, not counting the transformed death wish (BT into slam into execute into slam etc.) IGN Aspirin

Nefarian is the eldest son of Deathwing

Remember when hearthstone was starting to die out and all the hearthstone streamers and ytbers started putting on facecams, storytime and all that to make sure their audience would survive moving to other games. This kinda feels like the start of that. Dont worry bigmac, Im sure as long as you play something you love people Will love watching it aswell

27:55 Nefarian is together with Onyxia First children of Neltharion (Deathwing).. Then there's Wrathion and he's one of the uncorrupted ones.

I've rerolled to horde, as a big CHONKY Tauren, no LRE to make a build of, but mostly an AOE machine with heavy Bleeds, managed to Reroll The Bloodbath, Avatar, Colossus Smash, War banner, with Rupture, Rend, and OP, using Herod's Legacy, bloodletting to spread rend with Rupture, and the AoE Rogue rend ability. While spamming SS and heroic strike, with TG. If only I had the Bloodthirst to TG Muta. Sadge. Character is still Deathglance.

We are just a MMO style Sims game, our awake time is when the players are sleeping. And our dreams are the messed up things they make us do in game. Shysin - Thrall

Dang seeing mcdubs and mckitty together after I had to away my girl I had for 5 years to a dog shelter because I had no choice of keeping her.. god it hurts. But also so dang cuuute :)

Dude plays retail for a couple weeks and now he's reevaluating if life exists.