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11 ай бұрын

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@MeghanRienks 11 ай бұрын

ur comments are making me cry ty 🤍

@chantalconti849 11 ай бұрын

Just know that no matter what your mom does or has done you can still trust other people. We need to start normalizing talking about our trauma and not holding it in on our own

@kaitlynnsingletary5638 11 ай бұрын

Meghan, I cut my mom off 10 years ago at 13 when she decided to choose men, and drugs over me and my siblings. She’s lived a sad life since then- homelessness and drugs everything in between. On March 6th she was a pedestrian in a hit and run, she died on March 21st. I was no contact for 6/7 years. And the bandaid got completely torn off when it was me who had to take the phone call. I wish I had someone who could understand the hurts

@samanthateixeira6869 11 ай бұрын

I don't know your situation. Megan, but I know I had to cut out my sister from my life. Because she was volatile, selfish, uncaring, and cruel towards me and my family. I no longer feel love for her, and this causes great internal grief. She chooses when it's relevant or in her best interest to try to barge back into our lives, not caring about anyone else but herself. I want you to know you are not alone. And I don't know your situation, but I hope you read this. You realize you're not alone, and I understand being tired of explaining your situation. I now just tell people I only have one sister because it is too taxing to explain the situation

@myydulcea2718 7 ай бұрын

You got this girl ❤ stay strong 💪

@YourRav 11 ай бұрын

My therapist reminds me of the 3 Cs. Cause, Control, Cure. “I didn’t cause this, I can’t control this, I can’t cure this”. Stay strong, Meghan ❤

@MeghanRienks 11 ай бұрын

i love this ❤

@blumoon3100 11 ай бұрын

Those of us with shitty parent experiences are with you. We don't have to have identical trauma to be able to support one another through pain. 💜💜💜

@laurenjett4822 11 ай бұрын

This!!

@lydiaweinberg12 11 ай бұрын

As someone who has an estranged relationship with their mother I completely understand needing the boundaries you have put in place my best advice is to remember family is never equivalent to blood, family is people who love you unconditionally and support you through everything in life, so surround yourself with the people who make you feel the most loved and happy. Sending lots and lots of love

@cassidym.7687 11 ай бұрын

The way you speak about your mom is both really healthy and mature and unfortunately relatable. What you said about wanting a friend who gets it and the isolation of it all is almost word for word what I've said to my partner. I'm very lucky to have a friend now who does get it and I hope you're able to find one soon as well. Those of us with abusive parents understand what you're feeling and wish you the best.

@lalathekido 11 ай бұрын

The way you talk about the complete double-edged sword of "you don't want the people you care about to have to have gone through this, but having nobody who understands it is terrible" is just the most accurate relatable thing of my life. For what it's worth, you talking about your mom makes me feel less alone.

@agirlwithajournal 11 ай бұрын

As someone who has been no contact with their diagnosed narc father (who also has a rare uncurable brain disease) for years i want you to know that youre not alone. And i am really glad that you spoke out about it. It's such a horrible feeling knowing you might have their genes and inherited that disease. Or realize that you dont care about their health anymore. But thats okay. NC was the best thing i ever did as well. Sometimes we don't have another option.

@lornatw 11 ай бұрын

This describes my ex incl the brain (injury) who is also in no contact with his kids. :(

@MeghanRienks 11 ай бұрын

sending you so much love

@sugabutterfly87 11 ай бұрын

I relate to this!

@sgrant1 11 ай бұрын

I went no contact with my mom 15 years ago. No one gets it bc she’s always the best person around them. It’s behind closed door that’s the real truth. 15 years later and I still cry about it. It still hurts. I miss the mother I thought I had. I get it. Hugs. ❤

@Fluxcin 11 ай бұрын

I feel you

@MoonlightLily101 11 ай бұрын

Meghan, as someone who has an incredibly difficult relationship with both of my parents-I never related more to having to defend yourself to friends who have the luxury of not understanding why there is little to no contact between me and my parents. I know you feel isolated, but you unloading these thoughts made me feel less alone. And I hope you feel less alone knowing there’s other people in this world feeling the same exact feelings you are. Sending you love ❤

@Xomgxkaterinax 11 ай бұрын

Sending you love and positivity. I commend you in setting the boundary with your mom. I feel in the thick of it now, and it’s hard to to set that boundary for me with how enmeshed my family dynamic is.

@abbyhoffer 11 ай бұрын

ugh we need a fb group for ppl who come out of dysfunctional families. i’m so sorry you’re going through this meghan, i’m sorry that i relate, and i’m sorry to everyone else who relates.

@amelie5285 11 ай бұрын

Absolutely!

@thebeautyoflife327 11 ай бұрын

I’m so sorry, I get it. My husband went no contact with his toxic abusive family 8 months ago and it’s been so hard for both of us. A few months into it they told my family that his dad has cancer - although refused to say what kind or any details unless he contacted them himself. He didn’t. I’m so proud of him for holding up the boundaries, even though it means he has no idea what health issues he himself could be facing one day and doesn’t know what to look out for. But like you said - it’s still the best thing he’s ever done for himself. He wouldn’t be here today if he hadn’t put himself first and cut them off. Proud of BOTH of you. ♥️

@itsonlyada 11 ай бұрын

Something this & Jeanette McCurdy’s openness has done for me is validation. The honest discourse of holding firm on boundaries and toxicity can come from parents is freeing. Having your boundary broken by being told information you didn’t ask for is infuriating. And the feeling, as I’ve experienced, of unfortunate news about a toxic parent is unexplainable. I know I’m meant to feel sympathy but in fact I do not and no one can make me or judge me for it. xx

@cassiewinchester3917 11 ай бұрын

It’s so comforting to know that you’re not alone.. I’ve had to cut so many family members from my life for the most insane reasons and seeing other people so close with theirs makes you question yourself, and the choices you made to remove them. But we all need to do what’s best for us always. hearing you say the littlest details about your situation and comparing to mine has validated my choices and feelings so much. Thank you for this.. it’s never ever an easy thing to have to go through as young adults, however it’s so much better than living with the vindictive, evil, manipulating people we thought we had to keep in our lives because “they’re blood”.

@ashleybrantner 11 ай бұрын

You are so not alone. I cut contact with my mother as soon as I went away to college nearly seven years ago. She has never given up. She does not leave me alone. People don't get it unless they've been through something similar. I've been pushed by nearly everyone I've told about her to make amends. I am not interested in making amends. She is no longer part of my life. She does not get the privilege of knowing her child as an adult. What my mother put me through has impacted nearly every other relationship I've had in my life. It is incredibly difficult. You are not alone, Meghan.

@kalushucrew 11 ай бұрын

Thank you for talking about your mom. Thank you. Seriously. I needed to hear all of it. It didn’t all line up with my experience with my mother, but it lined up enough. I’ve never had a worse year emotionally.

@ashleyconnell5987 11 ай бұрын

I'm so, so sorry you're going through this and feeling this isolated. A toxic or harmful relationship with a parent is just heartbreaking and so very difficult (and I commend you for taking that step in protecting yourself). Sending you nothing but love ❤❤❤

@beanybean000 11 ай бұрын

I'm so sorry you're going through this, I'm sending love your way. Also never apologize for crying, you're human and allowed to feel and react however you want to❤

@suru01 11 ай бұрын

Wow, Meghan. I am no contact with my mom for 7 years and she has the BRCA gene. I found out she was positive when I was 16 and it took me until 28 to have the courage to be tested. Through the help of my therapist, I finally did and to my surprise it was negative. Years of anxiety and anger got better. It was the scariest thing I've ever done. I'm still no contact with my mom and it's so hard. People who haven't been through this don't fully understand (if at all), so I just want you to know you're not alone. I will be praying for you. Thank you for having the courage to talk about these difficult issues.

@vinayshah120 9 ай бұрын

Has anyone asked Meghan Rienks a question on that creator connection website ThoughtSpace AI where you get instant answers to questions and can watch where he discusses it? Ok, was just wondering.

@AliVanSickle 11 ай бұрын

As someone who's always had an unstable relationship with a parent, it gets easier the day you decide to choose yourself. Over what anyone else says, family is NOT always blood. Family is just a word, until their actions above all else, prove otherwise. Thank you for being so vulnerable and opening up about this. I also didn't know you wrote a book, so I'm excited to read!

@MatteoJerry 10 ай бұрын

Hello how are you doing today?

@ManaSmith 11 ай бұрын

I’ve had to go no contact with so much of my family, and I get it. The fact that you try so hard to take control back and heal and be happy again and they still manage to affect you in so many ways. There’s a whole town I won’t set foot in just because they frequent there.

@regina-gracemackin920 11 ай бұрын

I've been watching you for over a decade, and I am always drawn back to your authenticity and transparency. I feel like I've grown up with you! Parental relationships and their repercussions are SO complex and confusing. However, the way that you talk about her is SO healthy and mature. Protect your peace and know that you are valid. Sending you all the love and light you deserve, Meghan.

@jordannnps 11 ай бұрын

Sending you all the love and light. It’s really brave that you’re telling your truth and this is an unfortunate bump in your healing and coping journey. Give yourself grace, you deserve it.

@nkayla12 11 ай бұрын

Wanting someone to understand what you're going through but never wanting anyone you love to ever experience these dynamics is exactly what I have been feeling lately!

@sallydavey8477 11 ай бұрын

Thank you for sharing that and being so vulnerable. As someone who really struggles to fully open up and communicate these things I wanted to say you’re amazing! I hope you give yourself some grace and time to just fall apart the way you need to. Sending you so much love x

@allieshotwell6037 11 ай бұрын

I’m in a similar situation with my “mom”, and today was a really hard day for me. Watching your video and you explaining how isolated you feel really hit home for me. It made me feel less isolated in my hard time, and I want you to know that you’re not alone either. You are strong, even when you don’t feel it. This situation is hard and awful, but you are brave for going through it and protecting yourself from her. Lean on the ones you love, feel the feelings, and take care of you. Sending lots of love ❤

@NicoleAmber 11 ай бұрын

Thank you for being so open and sharing about this. I can’t relate to your trauma but I do relate to desperately wanting someone who understands/shares the same trauma despite being happy that no one can

@Jerrica8123 11 ай бұрын

sending so much love and good health, Meghan! as someone who has also cut off a parent, I completely understand. I’m so sorry about the scary and stressful situation that you now have to deal with hearing about the cancer news, I truly hope everything turns out well. ❤️

@valentinaalemann 11 ай бұрын

u’re so strong. it’s so big that u are even sharing this. sending u so much love. i’m so sorry this is happening. dealing with things & healing is difficult & u are doing u’re v best

@MsDoodle334 11 ай бұрын

Thank you for being so vulnerable, sorry to hear what a tough time you're going through. Hope you find someone who can understand and support you. Lots of love from across the pond

@SavannahKerbaugh 11 ай бұрын

Meghan, thank you. Thank you so much for sharing what you’ve been going through. I relate so much. You are not alone ❤

@lbridge2010 11 ай бұрын

I’m so sorry you got that all thrown at you. It sounds so upsetting. I can’t imagine how you’re feeling right now, and I know that’s exactly the problem. Don’t worry about “dumping” it on us, we’re here to support you and cheer you on when we can.

@JasmineDannielle 11 ай бұрын

The way you spoke about your mom made me feel less alone because I’m facing the same things and it feels very isolating. You’re not alone.

@gmm711 11 ай бұрын

I needed to hear this so badly. You have put into words everything I have been feeling for the past year and a half, including the strained mother relationship and having to defend yourself to people. I hope you know you are not in this alone.

@Fluxcin 11 ай бұрын

Thank you for sharing what you were going through and how you were affected by your mom even though its been so many years since you tried to remove her from your life. You know you are doing what's right for you even if there are few people around who understand. I am low contact with my narcissistic mom and have even had a therapist that didn't fully get it and encouraged me to empathize with her and develop a better relationship with her. Sending love and support

@maplelump 11 ай бұрын

I get it, narcissistic sister and aunt who literally turned my entire extended family against me. The only NC that I initiated that was successful was with my dad. You're not alone. Wishing you love and healing during this time. Thank you for sharing with us.

@paulinemuscatvlogs 11 ай бұрын

I'm sorry you're going through it, you're not alone... i too have been dealing with so many health issues piled on top of one another for years, went no contact with a parent & got life altering family stuff dumped on me this weekend that's left me paralyzed. we just need a moment to breath & enjoy life, i hope we both find peace as well as anyone else watching this who's struggling ♡

@sharimissmanmiller1185 11 ай бұрын

Sending you massive hugs!! You are not alone. Totally get what you are going through. Hope you feel better soon! You're an amazing human!!

@jeniffergarcia1278 11 ай бұрын

Your strength is admirable. And I thank you for being so open with your audience and I want you to know that we are all here for you and support you to the fullest. In the good and the bad times. Sending prayers your way ❤️🙏🏼

@meganshomebakes 11 ай бұрын

I’m so sorry this is happening, even though you cannot physically see me & probably a lot of your subbies/fans we are here for you, even if it is through a screen. Everyone’s experience is different with parents, I’m glad you were able to cut ties and feel better for it. Because some of us just can’t/haven’t found the strength to. Thankyou for opening up x

@LecheVitrineUK 11 ай бұрын

Trauma is just so hard and when it's with family and complicated by illness it makes things worse, sending hugs you are not alone ❤

@katherinethomas5097 11 ай бұрын

Cutting family out is so hard, in so many ways that are impossible to grasp if you haven’t lived it. You’re not alone ❤️ and you are so loved ❤️

@Lau3464l 11 ай бұрын

Love you Meghan. I’m so sorry to hear that you’re dealing with the complicated nightmares of all this. Reading your book was so enlightening, as someone who’s followed your content since we were both in college. You inspired me to get mental health care when I didn’t think I could, and im so proud of how far you’ve come. Keep taking care of yourself and doing what you need to do ❤

@lolakaukass 11 ай бұрын

There's something so gut wrenching but validating about watching this video and reading all of these comments of people who get the pain of difficult parental relationships. Seeing all of these people articulate the pressure our peers put on us to mend our relationships or the weight of this societal idea of "but she's your mum, you have to love her" brought me to tears but gave me a sense of warmness that even though it feels so lonely it's not.

@miahealy9060 11 ай бұрын

I don't often comment on videos but I have followed your channel for many years now and I wanted to add to the many people that understand some of what you are going through. This year I went no contact with my father, I am now 21 years old and with my adult brain I could see very clearly that it was no longer healthy for me to have him in my life. I found out about a lot of things he did when I was a child and it hurt deeply to come to terms with what he is truly like as a person, let alone a parent. Estrangement can feel so isolating when you feel like no one else understands what it is like. You have to grieve for the relationship you never fully had with the person who is supposed to love and care for you most in this world, which is a hardship every day. I am wishing you health and peace of mind, we all support you! Thank you for sharing your story, it helps others feel much less alone. ❤

@beautybecomesher 11 ай бұрын

It’s hard to get people who didn’t grow up in toxic, unhealthy, or straight up abusive households to understand cutting contact with family members. And even for those of us who did, we can sometimes feel guilty for cutting contact or jealous for not, but none of that is for other people to judge or punish us for. We do the best we can for OURselves and OUR safety and mental health. Sending lots of love and healing to you. 💜💜💜 On a lighter note, happy SP TV release weekend! 💜☂️💟🦄♑️

@MatteoJerry 10 ай бұрын

Hello how are you doing today?

@Witchy_Woman55 11 ай бұрын

Meghan, I’m sorry that you are having to go through sorting your feelings out over all the information you were just given. Please know you are not alone, you have a tribe here behind you. We would all be honored to be your friend because we understand the trauma and pain you are going through. Sending you Good Vibes!!!!!

@ashleybarss766 11 ай бұрын

I just wanted to say thank you for sharing. It helps the rest of us who have similar issues with their mother, feel less alone. I hope that you get a similar feeling when you read these comments 💗

@sarahblue8453 11 ай бұрын

Thank you so so much for sharing. For us folks who do not have good relationships with family it can feel so isolating and I really appreciate you voicing it. Especially not having friends who actually understand

@samztown 11 ай бұрын

I'm so sorry you're having to deal with all of this, Meghan. Sending you good wishes in hopes that you will feel much better soon. ✨ I've had similar feelings of isolation and needing to come up to get air lately and my therapist is helping me to understand that not everything needs my attention or my energy. I'm definitely trying. Hang in there and remember how strong you are. 🤗♥️

@isabellavanmeter5764 11 ай бұрын

Thank you for sharing this. I know it’s a lot to bring up and show the world but you talking about it in this video shows me that the situation I am going through doesn’t make me feel so alone with mine. I just cut contact with most of my family for a multitude of reasons and I’m just glad you shared because my friends don’t understand sometimes as we all walk different paths.

@annerosaliebr 11 ай бұрын

I've gone no contact with a narcissistic abusive parent too and I get how isolating and heartbreaking it can be. Sending you love and light ❤

@laurencass6449 11 ай бұрын

I cried with you Meghan. My heart breaks for you. you are so courageous for just getting through this day by day. I hope you do whatever feels best for you. keep following your intuition ❤️

@JennieSh1986 11 ай бұрын

Sending you so much love. My trauma is different but I understand the difficult decisions we have to make because of it. You are brave and good and deserve to live above the surface where you can breathe. I hope you get that soon and in the mean time please know that you are not alone xx

@lucymagali 11 ай бұрын

I'm so sorry for everything you're going through Meghan! I too don't talk to my mother for over 10 years now. In life, I've learned that blood does not equal love. Surround yourself with people that you love and makes you feel loved. And please do take a test just to make sure you won't get sick in the future. I've been watching you since the beginning and I always pray for your happiness! Much love ❤

@siricamille 11 ай бұрын

Thank you for sharing and being vulnerable. I hope you're starting to feel better ❤

@amandapatterson5986 11 ай бұрын

Meghan, you are so brave for sharing this and for that I admire your strength. I have been no contact with my father for going on 6 years, I can understand the trauma that comes with having an estranged parent. You are not alone. You will find the strength to work through this tough time, as you always have. I am so sorry that you have to endure this challenge but you can be confident in the fact that you are not doing it alone.

@jessicaharrison3828 11 ай бұрын

Thank you for being so vulnerable with us ❤

@HJ-ul6mr 11 ай бұрын

I’ve had a difficult relationship with my mom pretty much all my life and can completely understand where you’re coming from. Any time I’ve tried to open up about it with anyone besides my siblings they’ve never understood and that can definitely be a lonely thing. Keep your head up and I’m sending you love ❤️

@brianaluvenia 11 ай бұрын

As someone who learned the same thing last year about their mom last year healthwise, i completely understand. I’ve only been no contact for a few weeks, and it’s hard not to make myself feel guilty for that. But then i remember that i was the kid and she was the parent. It’s nice to hear someone else talk about this and process it.

@cassandraheusinkveld5661 11 ай бұрын

As someone who too does unfortunately "get it" the mom stuff is so hard. I get so jealous of people who can have normal relationships with their mom but know at the same time like you said it was the best thing I ever did for myself to cut her out. Thank you for keep that part of the video in. Know you are not alone in this and it helped me feel that way hearing you speak on it too. I always go back to the fact that she has her life and has chosen to do this with it. I want better for myself and must just keep moving forward. You're doing great. I know it is hard but I am so proud of you.

@andydv27 11 ай бұрын

The beginning reminded me so much of when you did Vlogmas for the nose surgery recovery!!

@natasha8117 11 ай бұрын

thank you that is the first thing I want to say. Sometimes having a toxic parent makes me feel alone and you sharing your experience. Its nice to finally feel that I'm not the only one. You are amazing and you are loved we'll all battle the toxic people together. x

@miahelenjolly6742 11 ай бұрын

I'm so so sorry this is happening to you Meghan! I was seriously brought to tears hearing you share your story! I have chosen to cut communication with my father for the last 7 years and I was in the middle east traveling when I got the news that he was going to have emergency quadruple bypass surgery. It totally wrecked me inside in a way I was not expecting. Everything you shared about friendships that don't understand trauma completely resonates with me. Finding a friend who innately understands trauma like this is a dream for me too. Know you are not alone! Sending all of the good vibes you way!

@alliewithbooks 11 ай бұрын

Thank you for being so honest and raw with us ❤ I don’t have exactly the same experiences as you, but I get it in a different way and I hate that you’ve had people in your life who invalidated your feelings and choices. Dealing with family like that is enough without all of the outside judgment.

@brynnlynnbeauty 11 ай бұрын

Sending love🤍 proud of you for setting boundaries. Also, I have been watching you for years and as you have grown up I think you look so much like the actress from gone girl and pride and prejudice! So pretty

@darrynhammond9841 10 ай бұрын

Thank you for sharing, I’m so sorry you’re going through this

@angd6578 11 ай бұрын

I'm no contact with my parents and so is my sister, I'm always so grateful to have someone that i don't have to explain it to and didn't think I'm a monster when i don't care if they're in the hospital, or sick etc. There are support groups. Thank you for sharing it makes me feel less alone.

@bryanaperry8760 11 ай бұрын

It's ok to feel your feelings about this. I am glad you are taking time when needed to rest. And i understand the friend thing too. My therapist is trying to get me to be more social, and it is so hard when you have trauma. Trusting people in general is hard. Especially when the people who are supposed to always be there and be your support. For myself, it leads to me gaslighting myself using their words. But lots and lots of therapy has helped me with the ole neual pathways.

@MrsJMatthews 11 ай бұрын

Don't ever apologize for unloading. I'm so sorry you are going through what you are. I totally understand that this year has been difficult and for very different reasons I feel like I can't come up for air either. I do trust that we will get through and better times are ahead though. I'm keeping you in my thoughts and hope things get better for you soon.

@CattyKittenQueen 11 ай бұрын

Sending so much love Meghan. Like you, I'm also nowhere close to being close with my mother and lately things have gotten worse there as well. It's hard to talk to people about it because everyone always says I should love my family no matter what but they're either too brainwashed or privileged to believe that. Following you has really made me feel more okay about my decision to not be close to my mom. And all of us will always be here to support you. We got this 💜

@kassidydeason6942 11 ай бұрын

I’ve watched a lot of your videos and seeing you share your vulnerability in this way really gave me hope for creating my own content, because all I want to do is share vulnerability but it really takes guts. So thank you so much for being brave in this way.

@marissariley7319 11 ай бұрын

We love you, Meghan 💜 hope this year gets better for you soon.

@emilymorton2253 11 ай бұрын

Meghan, I want to say that I am so proud of you. I cannot imagine the toll that drama has taken on you and continues to. It was so brave of you to speak your truth and leave some in the vlog. I hope that the healing process goes well because you deserve all the happiness in the world! I have watched you since pre-Olivia so I want you to know your growth is clearly evident ❤ All the love

@spurton017 11 ай бұрын

sending lots of love and support your way. Its never easy dealing with family stuff, but don't forget to just take it one day at a time.

@bashfulnath 11 ай бұрын

I know you are not a hugger and neither am I but seeing you talk about the situation with your mother really made me want to give you a hug or at least take care of you in some way. You are so incredibly strong and you don't have to explain yourself to anyone. Your experience is just your own and noone else with have the exact same one. I really hope your whole support network is there for you and giving you what you need. You are allowed to feel anything you need to feel

@leacreaven8522 11 ай бұрын

Hearing and seeing you lay in bed, tears in eyes, absolutely exhausted and defeated, saying you don’t know what to do anymore has brought some sort of comfort I didn’t know I needed and can’t explain. Neither of us know the extent of the shit going on, but I truly do understand how that feels. Since New Years Eve I have not known any peace. A breakup, several deaths, friendship issues, toxic workplace, etc. every week something new. Last week I experienced what felt like my final push, not being able to process it all, handle it and be strong and functioning. It was so scary and so fucking exhausting. I know it is so annoying and cliche to say it gets better, because it really does. But god fucking dammit, I understand that feeling of constantly having something new and traumatic happen every week and just finally being at a loss of words and truly, deeply not knowing what to do. It is a lot, just a heavy lot, and that’s all I can say. Love you and thank you ❤

@beautycfw 11 ай бұрын

I’ve got a really complicated back story too. And it’s just so painful. Unfortunately I’m kind of trapped in it, and have made my own peace with it. But like you I’m just fed up of always being the bigger person, being called “mature for my age”, or dealing with the mental/emotional baggage it’s caused me to have to “fix” in my adult life. No words of wisdom but I stand with you x

@alyssatyra2284 11 ай бұрын

My heart is with you. A few weeks before my 31st birthday this year my mother dropped on me that I was previously diagnosed with PTSD but she saw no need to tell me or help me get treatment. She literally feels like I have no right to be upset with her. My husband went NC with his mom in 2012 and it has been a battle ever since. I’ve been a fan of your since day one and have always felt connected to you💖

@hconf 11 ай бұрын

I’ve been dying to be there for you during this time! Thank you for finally saying some of your piece

@mille1690 11 ай бұрын

Thank you for sharing your struggles with your mom. I’ve felt misunderstood, and had to explain why I have no contact with my mother many times and it’s hard every time. Just know you’re not alone ❤

@Ovaroe 11 ай бұрын

as somebody that has this kind of family and is low contact with them, I completely understand. you don't want to let them hurt you any more than they already have. but I also know how cathartic, but scary, it is to speak about it. I am so proud of you for speaking about it though. remember, she has no power over you. People like that are so afraid of their real personality getting out to other people. it will get bad for a bit. but they will run out of steam eventually. you are so much stronger that she is and from one hurt daughter to another... I am sorry that you have had to be as strong as you are. thank you for sharing. it makes me feel less alone as well.

@sasscam 11 ай бұрын

More people than you realise understand exactly what you're going through. You aren't alone xxxx

@PAHGirly 11 ай бұрын

I’m so proud of you for talking about it.

@kaliebeee 11 ай бұрын

You are so strong. We love you so so very much and support you however you cope with the situation.

@rach9110 11 ай бұрын

As someone with an incredibly awful mother, I understand how frustrating it is to be constantly putting up boundaries just for them to get ignored and abused. I'm so sorry that you have been through all of this. No matter how many times people say it, it's so important to remember that family isn't about blood. I completely understand the way that you feel toward your mum and how hard it is to explain. The pain in the realisation that you no longer feel enough toward the person that birthed you to cry at their funeral and the anger and frustration in the fact that people will always be ready to say "but shes your mum" unless you unload years and years of trauma. I'm sorry that you now look down the barrel of this awful disease but just know that youre not alone. My mother has shared with me similar genetics. All you can do is take it as a blessing that you have forewarning and use that to your best advantage. Youre an incredibly strong woman and Im so thankful to you for sharing this because you have made me feel so much less alone. All my love goes out to you ❤️ I'm keeping you in my heart. Just know that you

@lizbailey94 11 ай бұрын

As a person who decided to go no contact with my father and go low contact with my mother I totally get it. I tried to explain to a co worker why I went no contact and she just didn’t get it and it’s so frustrating that family trauma is so often dismissed. Like I didn’t make my choice of no contact lightly, but I did it to better my life. I’m so sorry your going through this, just remember this will not feel like this forever. You’re so strong! ❤

@meg.hart28 11 ай бұрын

There are no right words for any of it, but I am sorry that you’re going through this. I send my love 💛

@sarahrchdsn44 11 ай бұрын

Meghan thank you so much for sharing your story, because you are not alone ❤️ I have said to myself multiple times that blocking my dad’s number was the best thing I’ve ever done for my mental health. How unrelatable is that? I don’t like the phrase “everything happens for a reason” but I do believe that what doesn’t kill you makes you stronger. I’m glad you have a wonderful partner like Mats to support you through this ❤

@kelsey5596 11 ай бұрын

Sending hugs to you Meghan. We’ve got your back ❤

@nikkikrishka-lamb7950 11 ай бұрын

I feel this so much. Just know your not alone. ❤

@corneliaandersson8858 11 ай бұрын

I really hope this gets better for you. I think you have a while community of people online who sadly do get it and I hope you can find friends who do, too. That sounds like a good thing to have in your life. Just remember that even though you’re handling this in a very adult way to leave some room for your emotions to be what they are. Feeling the hurt that is probably more linked to your child self is also allowed! So that you’re not always keeping it together and in that problem-fixing mode. Feeling the emotions for a while without knowing how to fix it right then can also be a version of coming up for air. Feel better ❤

@xoviolet32 11 ай бұрын

I appreciate that you feel comfortable enough to be vulnerable about your family situation. I’d say if silence isn’t working, might as well air her shit out as long as u know your bases are covered in terms of possible lawsuits (which shouldn’t be hard but better safe than sorry). sending u love 🖤

@VelociraptorKristin 11 ай бұрын

You are not your trauma and you are not what your Mom thinks about you. I am sending you so much love and support thru all of this. Your feelings are VALID.

@clairegeri123 11 ай бұрын

Thank you for sharing with us Meghan, I hope you find the support you are seeking.

@mandibruni2154 11 ай бұрын

You’re not alone, so many of us feel this way. Any choice to protect yourself is always a good choice. Know we love you and you have community with all of us. ❤️ sending you love and a thousand hugs!!!!

@MatteoJerry 10 ай бұрын

Hello how are you doing today

@Kelliemarie126 11 ай бұрын

As someone who would love to have no contact with their mother but has settled for low contact (once a year at holidays) for the past 8 years, I am so sorry you are going through this. I hope you find someone to relate to in this. I found a couple of friends who are a part of the "shitty moms club" and it is sooo unbelievably validating. Sending you good vibes

@paigejoustra7699 11 ай бұрын

I went no contact with my mother (or birthgiver as I tend to call her) a year and a half ago. My little sister is still in contact and this happening...I totally get it. I'd feel the same, the frustration that they can keep hurting you, the exhaustion. I hope you find that friend that gets it. Sending love x

@ThespianGabby 11 ай бұрын

I understand what you are going through. It's hard to explain or for anyone to understand. I don't have friends for this very reason. It makes me always feel like the bad guy because of how I feel about certain things regarding parents. It's exhausting and I could never wish feeling like that to anyone. Sending you lobe and know you aren't the only one. I don't have a lot of advice on it as I still struggle woth this, but being alone isn't fun.

@misswalls94 11 ай бұрын

Sending love from one Meg to another ❤ Just know you have a whole corner of internet peeps who are ready to go to bat for you babe. Thank you for sharing the things you feel comfy with, (and please don’t apologize for it).