Dear Graham and Hazel you are not alone you have over 15000 friends. Feel the love and support. Model Railways saved my life when my wife and twin boys died. It was hard but I managed to pull through with Mental health team and tablets lifting my spirits. Don't let the B's get you down. Your layout and car is Fantastic. A lot of people are jealous. You Your Lady and Family are the most important and precious people in the world Graham. I send my best wishes and love. Take care Richard Canterbury

You Sir are a brave man. For anyone to bare their soul as you have done is incredible. Everyone has a breaking point, everyone, the key to surviving it is how you look at yourself, how you treat yourself. Your a strong man Graham, a skilled man, anyone can see that, I personally can only aspire to the layout you have created, but I will, because you did. Have some time away, right away from social media, lets face it, there's nothing social about it. Kind regards to you and your lovely wife, I hope you can find a way back. Thank you.

Graham, we are with you. For the record, modellers everywhere have been very grateful for you time, effort and skills. This is a hobby that grows through sharing of our individual journeys. How anyone could be anything but grateful for another's contribution to that pool of knowledge just amazes me. The fact that you have gone on sharing your wisdom through times of personal difficulty is awe inspiring. Thank you again for what I have learned from watching you and I wish you and your wife absolutely the best for the future. Bye for now, John

Graham, your modelling skills are an inspiration, and your layout is a work of art. I've always enjoyed your videos and learn so much from them. I have very much appreciated the time and effort you've put in to sharing your layout with the world. Take care of yourself. There are a lot of us on your side.

Sir I have watched and enjoyed your videos for quite some time now. I've never commented before but feel compelled to do so tonight. I do not know you personally but I must say I love you for the strength you've presented going through the trial and tribulations of the last years. You are not alone. I will pray for you and your loved ones.

Seven years ago my lovely wife was diagnosed with a terminal brain tumour, she died after an 18 month battle and at that point two lives ended, that was five years ago. When she was ill I stumbled across your channel I had no knowledge of model railways or any interest in them however because of that your channel has been a complete escape from reality and has been extremely beneficial to me at those times when there is only darkness at the end of the tunnel. Thank you.

Speaking from experience, I totally get it. You’re both in my thoughts. Please take your time to do what you need to heal. I’ll be here that is for sure. I love this channel and the Gentry. Please, please reach out and ask for help. Everybody’s needs are different and so too will be the help you receive.

Thanks you for the wonderful videos! Your modeling and skills are very inspirational, thank you for sharing!

Hi Graham so sorry to hear of your current situation please take as much time as you need to recovery your family and friends are always there for you. You bring so much enjoyment to thousands of your subscribers we all look forward to see you in the near future best regards Paul & family

Bonjour Graham vous êtes très fort vous devez continuer à parler sur KZfaq cela vous libère de tout le poids des choses de la vie. Vous êtes vivant et très courageux de rapporter votre témoignage ne vous laissez pas envahir par la tristesse, vous êtes quelqu'un de très sensible cela se sent mais encore une fois vous êtes un homme extrêmement généreux Graham. J'ai perdu une maman il y a 5 ans, au bout de 5 ans j'ai eu du mal à retrouver mes esprits, mais maintenant et grâce à mes amis cela va mieux. On vous ❤ Graham.

God bless you Graham and Hazel there is a lot of love and compassion to you both on here. You have bought a lot of joy to all of us especially during the dark times of COVID. Best wishes Chris

Graham, please know that there are many that appreciate you clever creativity. I have learned so much from you and admire your skills and perspectives. As far as your man hole cover, I think it's great and have since you made it. Good luck to you and be well. I look forward to seeing you soon . Most sincerely, Larry Tucker New Mexico USA

personally I think you have the best layout I have ever seen, details lights, trains, buildings. blood sweat and tears. I am truly amazed. have been over many years.

Bless you Graham. Look after yourself first and foremost, you are a great modeller and exceptional chap. Make sure you take all the time you need and find the small things that make you happy sir. Sending support from South Africa. On a personal note I have loved watching your videos and found them always so informative and interesting. Take care sir

Keep well Graham, I look forward to you appearing again on my monitor. From down under in NZ

Thanks for your wonderful videos. It's allways a joy to see you have a new video and I immideatly look forward to see it. Sad to hear you are not feeling well. But we are many who appreciate you, the beautiful layout and your skills. Best wishes to you. I look forward to see you soon again. You have allways a great sense of humour in your comments. It's there in you. Don't be afraid to get help. You understand so much allready. Best wishes from Norway. Ronny.

Hi Graham I have been in the same position myself recently and all I can say is it does get better I promise!! I don't blame you for taking a break from making videos. I have been doing the same thing myself. I love your channel and the content you create!!

you sir,, to me are one of my idles here on you tube, and this video tool balls to post. I understand and I know what I say don't really mean squat. you do you, take the time, ALL the time needed, and make life , hobby and Hazel a joy again. I love ya,

Hi George , thank you for your honesty , you are so real and i can see you wear your heart on a string. Your warkman ship is as i said previously, is truly a labour of love . My good advice to you , is to try to take no notice of these people . These peole are looking depress you and bring you down . I would love to see these people try to even attempt to make this intrecate layout as you have done . It is truly amazing , and the manhole is so so good , wanderful thinking . It all adds to the authenticity of this amazing layout . My housband is so bowled over with your layout , he cant stop watching your videos . Please , please , please , do not stop making these wanderful videos ,as they give us both great joy to watch . Many thanks 😊

Graham, it is your layout so have what you want, where you want!!. Please take as long as you need as your mental health is the most important thing. You are an inspiration to all of us fellow modellers and if our layout is half as good as yours I would count myself lucky. We will all be here for you when you feel ready to return. Please take care of yourself, all the best Jon & Hollie.

A very emotional and heartfelt video Graham and one that brought back memories of my own moment…. Now thankfully quite some years ago. I like no doubt a number of your other subscribers don’t have a model railway and whilst into modelling both look forward to and in wonderment at the world you and other You Tubers have created and continue to develop. Your imagination and the modelling skills that you so freely share give so much inspiration to many. I do obviously watch a number of your colleagues and their layouts and it seems that as an outsider looking in they to seem to have been plagued by both ‘the gatekeeper’s’ the obsessive rivet counters and the inept. We all know that many of these individuals seem to fit a certain profile and whilst in better times their statements are treated with the contempt they deserve, when we’re either in or slipping into a dark place the comments can have a disproportionate impact…..they do say that a negative is stronger than a positive. For what it’s worth you have a great channel great skills and a lovely way of putting it across…..15,000+ subscribers kinda says it for me. Your subscribers will be here for you when, and only when you feel up to returning…….your personal health and that of your good lady is the most important. Graham, keep safe and enjoy the step back. Kindest Regards Gary

Be strong Graham as best you can, you and Lakeside are an inspiration to us all, your attention to detail is second to none as you take us on these fabulous journeys of miniature railway life. Take your time and have a break, reset yourself and we'll be waiting for your return when it's right for you. God bless and take care.

Hi ! Take care and all the best to you 😊 It is a really nice layout you have and I enjoy watching your videos ! Best Regards Pär Stockholm/Sweden

Hi Graham, as someone who suffers terribly with depression and got to a point where I needed help both counselling and tablets, it helped me so much. please there are people out there that can help and will get you though this

We are all with you Graham!

Hi Graham, please take care of yourself and Hazel that is all that matters, everything else is by the way. I have enjoyed watching your videos, if and when you make some more, I will be ready to watch them. Best wishes, Michael.

Hello Sir - I have watched your videos for a long time (I’m 34 and live in Texas; I hope one day to have a layout the size of yours!). I just wanted to tell you that I’ve always very much enjoyed them and am grateful to you for sharing your passion. I am terribly sorry to hear of your struggles and truly hope life soon reminds you of how good it can be. Keep steaming on and I very much look forward to your next video, whenever it may be!

Hi Graham, So sorry to hear how your feeling, and all I can say is I wish you the very best, as for your railway Its one of the very best and so inspirational, your modelling skills are second to none. Ive watched and studyed your layout and have taken so many ideas on board for a future layout. All the very to you and Hazel, Please take care, and you will be back making your amazing railway. Kindest Regards Alan.

Hi Graham, all I will say is you both must stay safe my friend, and take care. Cancer is horrible, which affects the whole family. My wife still finds it difficult accepting my cancer. I will be thinking of you both over the coming weeks until you are back, but only when you feel better…Simon

Your channel has always been an inspiration to me and has played a great part in getting me into the hobby and building my own model railroad. You once told me that you didn’t know how you would have coped if it hadn’t been for Lakeside. That was a very honest statement to make so publicly and I take my hat off to you for always being such a stand up guy. I know we are all, in the main, only KZfaq subscribers to your channel but we are all collectively a Lakeside community who only wish you well.

Graham - my heart really goes out to you. You have always said it's my railway and it's not prototypical. There are a lots of people out there that take great pride in critizing other folks efforts when they have never attempted to build a layout on the scale you have achieved. To argue about a manhole cover is absolutely rediculous - after all if it pleases you that's what matters and it is your layout and ideas after all. Maybe they are not to scale - who cares - you are providing inspiration to countless genuine modellors out there and giving them ideas for their their own layouts. The varied aspects of Lakeside I am sure are an inspiration to other modellors - it really is a pick and mix of ideas from the the canal scenes to the castle then to the village to the High Street with moving vehicles and onto the vintage yard and steamers. Take care of yourself and seek advice wherever appropriate and just remember that most of your subscribers love and value your contributions to the modelling world - my layout/my way. After alll - who paid for it - who built it - who enjoyed it - YOU - and that's what really matters. Eric from West Wales.

Understood and nothing but support here. Take care and do what is best for you.

I love your videos Graham. Thanks for sharing. Take your time get well and don't worry about what people say. You are wonderful person and an artist.😊❤

Graham my dear friend, life does get you down at times, what you have been through over the last few years, i wouldn't wish it on anyone. Depresstion is a terible thing to have, sometimes you need to stop, and take time out. Don't let people get you down, take a few weeks off. I wish you all the best my friend, take care, and don't let the buggers get you down.

Stay strong Graham. It's what you want to do with your railway. Don't let the haters win. I use to film my railway and put videos on Facebook only to get mocked for them.

you are not alone graham i my self suffer from depresion and i had my low in february and it all began last fall when my mother passed away in a hospital bed. thanks to contacted my carecenter and got in contact with a therapis and a gp. i am feeling better thanks to medication. a tips contact your local gp or a therapist to get the mutch needed help . i know my self it takes some time to climbe up from the low place . i like your manhole cover. graham don`t care about those gatekeeping trolls i know it is hard when you are feeling low. i wish you a good recovery from your low period. 🇸🇪🇸🇪🇸🇪🇸🇪👍👍👍👍👍👍👍

Take it easy Graham. Always remember a huge number of your subscribers are so interested in what and how you model, and the overall impression. Wish I could model as well as you do.

Hi Graham your a man for detail. The stuff you do is very inspiring.It's your railway nobody else's. I have watched you for a lot of years now. I do understand what you are going through as i was there when i split up with my wife after 25 years of marriage thought no fault of either of us. Talking does help. Please speak to someone it does help. You and Hazel have gone through a lot in the last 3 years. Look after each other, give her all our love. I wish i could put an arm around you and say you will feel better about things. Gary from County Durham.

Hope you bounce back quickly you’re a brilliant modeller, best wishes to you both.

Graham, you have over 15K subscribers here and I'm sure every one of us wish you well & will be still here on your return, however long that may be. You look after yourself and do what you feel necessary to get around the corner. Best wishes to you and Hazel.

I empathise with you, depression can be a pain in the head, Hazel is your soul mate so stick by her she needs ❤️ at the moment

Be brave and look after yourselves. Take a deep breath and come back to us soon. Thinking of you❤

Watching your videos has helped my mental wellbeing..... Looking forward to catching up on updates from yourself and a few others on KZfaq such as Al and Everard junction is one of those 'small things' in life that's actually one of the important things. God bless, catch you when you're back

Graham, thinking of you and Hazel. You have been a huge inspiration to my own layout efforts...oh, and the manhole cover looks great. I've had issues with depression myself over the years so get how flat you must feel and concerns for the future. What helped me was my faith as well as getting dirty with a spanner. That beautiful Gentry must be needing some attention?! Give me shout if you want a cofree sometime. Keep strong Graham, you have so many friends and subscribers supporting you. God bless

Hi Graham All that matters is Hazel and you Physical and Mental Health. Your'e caring and strong man do take your time and come back to your hobby when your are ready. You have been a great inspiartion and we are modelling skills are amamzing. I am confident you will return back when you are ready. Take care. best wishes to both of you.

Hope you can feel better as soon as possible mate, during a very bad time for us and during the lockdown period you kept us motivated and at times our lifeline to the world. We cannot thank you enough for all you have done to keep our spirits not just up but alive. I wish I could offer some advice and help, in the way you have helped us develop our hobby. Please take care pal, with best wishes and love to and Hazel.

All the love and care there is. I'm 76 in October, unfortunately I totally know and understand you my friend Hope we both get through this somehow. Love and respect your work. Rodge David Kidderminster UK 🇬🇧 ❤️ xx

Dear Graham only a brave man can share this with his YT friends !! You are an inspiration for me and i think alot of friends that follows you. It's your railway and your funny and pleasure with it nobody else but I can understand your chioce. Think about your self and take your time THANKS for all your craftsman ship journey you have shared with us. I will keep following you and hope you find your pleasure back.

Hi Graham. Fully understand your situation. Make the most of your ‘sabbatical’ away from the layout and social media to relax and, incessant rain permitting, make the most of sunnier days. Now I can’t get distracted watching your own magnificent layout hopefully I’ll use the time to get stuck into mine which has been in limbo for far too long! You might find simply talking to other people - friends, family, anyone who’ll listen down the pub - will ease your depression considerably. All best wishes, Will

Hi Graham, I have watched your videos for several years, and enjoyed them very much. Your model is to be admired and you ought to be proud of it. I really love your Christmas videos and have shared them with friends who are not model railway fans, and they too have been impressed. Please take your break away from KZfaq in your current mood, as further unwarranted criticism will delay your mood changing to a more positive one. I will miss your contributions to the hobby sadly but you need to put your self first at this point. Take care, and I hope you find the resilience and strength to return one day to share your great modelling again. Rule 1 - it is your model! Thanks again, David

All the best to you Graham.

Graham, so sorry to hear of your mental health issues. Take as long a rest as you need. As someone who has similar problems I would say that having a chat with your doctor is the way to go. They can pass you onto the professional’s who were a great help to me. You have told your viewers now tell your doctors. I understand your fear of the psychological hospital but very few people will be admitted. Take care Graham, hope to see you back with your layout in a few months or however long it takes. George.

Graham... modelmaking is what brought me to KZfaq and there are some wonderful people like you here! So sorry to hear what you are coping with and wishing you and Hazel all the support you need, with time to focus on yourself. ❤️

Graham these people are not worth the air they breath. I know what it’s like to be depressed, I personally went through three years of depression. I recently had two heart attacks in the space of 6 weeks and now I struggle to get to my layout . I don’t do videos because of the reasons you talk about . The people who are knocking your manhole cover have no imagination and are probably of the rivet counters in this hobby .I know it’s hard but try and let it not bother you , it is as you say futile . Take care and God bless you .

Well done for having the strength to share ( and acknowledge )how you feel, I hope the local NHS can offer help, you have been through a lot but you aren’t alone, ( i hope the rivet counters are pleased with themselves!) Take very good care and keep going! (And i hope there is a flurry of apologies forthcoming.)

Graham, watching your videos and seeing your layout has been something that I really enjoy. Limiting your KZfaq output is sensible, there's always a risk of burnout.

Hi Graham, so sorry to hear about how you were feeling. I hope you feel at least a little better. One day at a time my friend remember your never alone. All the best

Hi Graham, your channel has brightened my Days when i've been down in the dumps, you do what you have to do, your health is more important than any think else, i hope you get the help you need, see you in the future.

Graham, I love your modeling skills you are an inspiration to so many. I understand your frustration with the KZfaq comments I sometimes feel the same, that’s why I stopped posting videos for a while. Hope you feel better soon and come back with your amazing content.

Wow Graham, you’ve got me in tears. I’ve been following you for a very long time. I’m saddened to hear that these people get a kick out of upsetting you. This railway is your railway and no one else’s. What you do is up to you. When I first watched the video about the man hole cover - I thought omg, what a great idea. Graham you’re the one for great ideas, like the canal, the lift. Take some time out mate. We’re all behind you. Take care. Best wishes to you and your wife. 👍🚂

Hi Graham am so sorry things haven't been good for you and the things you have been through, you have done better than most would have under the circumstances, do what ever you need to do to get your self feeling better and take all the time you need, your viewers will be here for when your back, i've said it before and always will keep saying it your one of the most talented people i've seen on youtube and you have always inspired me with your different projects, your layout is amazing and i have always enjoyed seeing your other projects on facebook with your garden and especially your pond a few years back, take care of yourself and look forward to seeing you back with a new project 🙂 Tom

Stay strong mate been where you are but with friends you will get through it stay safe

You are very brave mate. I’ve had depression myself in the past and I was hyper sensitive. I found no interest in all the things I used to love. I was scared to go to the doctor and take tablets initially but I would recommend it to anyone. It’s the biggest cliche of all but time is a great healer- look after yourself and sod the haters. Don’t let other people ruin what you love. It’s a manhole cover for you- it was a teaspoon for me. Keep that manhole cover on and don’t compromise with idiots! Like you I was scared but even just talking to the doctor helped me very much- please get some help mate. 👍🏻

Graham, my thoughts and best wishes to you and Hazel. I have always taken inspiration from your videos and your skills as a modeller are at a standard which I can only dream of getting close to.

Over the years I've come to realize that all Hobbies are mainly about wonderful charismatic people, you are at the top of that list Graham and an inspiration to us all. You are 100 % right to take as much time as your need for yourself and get your mental health back. Take care of yourself , I wish you well - Paul

Graham you are one of the real nice guys on Facebook and you tube there is not many about and you are one of them

Thankyou for all your fantastic videos Graham hope you ok mate and hope to see you soon All the best my friend Sion

I think that talking about it with us is all part of the process of get through this period. Stay strong and stay positive, you’ve a lot of chums out here.

Hi Graham. I know from personal experience that sometimes you have to ask for help. I lost my dad and sister during lockdown within 7 months of each other. This sent me into a spiral of depression and eventually led to me seeking professional help for depression. It takes a real man to admit he needs help. Depression cannot be dealt with alone. And yes, it is a chemical imbalance in the brain that causes it. I wish you all the best, sir.

Hi Graham, I cannot believe that people would mock one of the best layouts on KZfaq. I live in Australia but absolutely love your modelling ability and attention to detail. I hope to replicate some of your ideas once my own layout is up and running. Hope you are not away to long, but obviously mental health first. Hope to see you back soon. Take care.

Hi Graham. I feel badly that you’re having difficulties. There is no way to explain to people who haven’t been where you are, just how you feel. I know all too well. As a registered nurse, I would get so depressed over the situations I’d be put into. Please do get some help. Generally, to address your concerns, the only way that you would be hospitalized is if you are a threat to yourself or others. You do seem like you were in a bit of an overwhelming situation, and recovering from that takes time. I sincerely hope that you find your way, either with another’s help or through your own means. Take good care. Brooklyn

I very rarely comment on the content i watch but you sir have prompted me to say, I believe you are a much stronger person than at the moment you probably believe yourself. To feel you have to explain yourself to people you dont even know shows a strength you must have deep down. Please take care, get help and get better, sod the rest of the world and get into a better place were you can feel able to show us more of your wonderful layout. All the best

Graham, I have never felt the need to comment on any video before today. The work that you do on your channel is an inspiration to a lot of people who like myself have not got the same skill level as you. Sending love, Please look after yourself and Hazel. And see hope to see you on here soon. ❤

you've made the first step by recognising you have a problem. your doctor is your best to talk to first as thy can advise you better. thank you for your sharing

Your not alone Graham.Bless you and Hazel .Avoid any Negativity if you can.and enjoy your Railway.We are slowly getting into spring so hopefully you can put into your wonderful Garden .Take care lots of love Michael

Hope you feel better soon, don't let the key board warriers win. I have only recently come to this hobby and will always be thankful to you for the Platform build as this is how I have done mine and very smart they are too. Go and talk to a professional and if you need medication short term so be it - it will help you. Thoughts and prayers with you.

Wish I was half the modeler you are. Keep your head high and keep doing what makes you happy

Hi Graham I just want to send you good wishes and to let you know that I suffer from depression it has become so debilitating for me that I had to give up work. Anyhow I'd like to say when I get like this I take myself off in my campervan with my dog. My friend I would personally seek professional help I have been ill for 10 years and never been in hospital firstly go and see your Gp tell him /her how your feeling, worries and your wishes. Ilove you channel and think your layout is fantastic watching your videos really inspires me to get on with my own layout as and when money allows. My friend you don't have to reply to me I just want you to know that I understand and appreciate how you are feeling right now. My parting advice is take a holiday with Hazel forget KZfaq have a lovely time we will still be here us die hard subscribers. Best wishes my friend Ian

Hi Graham, I’m sorry to hear of your situation regarding close family and friends who have passed, please stay strong mate, your videos are great and inspirational to many modellers who love the hobby, those who mock have nothing better to do and are more than likely jealous nobodies with very little intelligence, let’s hope they get the Karma they deserve however it’s served, if you decide to post short videos you can turn off the comments, thinking of you and the family mate, many thanks for sharing with us and take care. ☯💯⭐

It's good to share. I hope all goes well for you both. Keep strong.

You say KZfaq doesn’t help … however, here you are pouring your heart out … which is cathartic … … on top of this you describe why you’re so low … your spouse and your close friends and family … … You give us joy and a break from OUR LIVES when we watch your videos … this means YOU ARE HELPING ALL OF US TO GET THROUGH OUR LIVES … we are ALL living through life day to day and trying our best … people such as yourself are living beyond that because you share your wonderful ideas … … finally, when we are low we ALL GET MORE TOUCHY AND SENSITIVE … because, all of a sudden, you’re more open to the world … and that can take time to adjust to, especially when we begin to reassess our mortality … it’s UNDERSTANDABLE … plus … the world is making us all miserable … I’m really, really hoping this poxy manhole cover isn’t the end of you … … think about what I just said … a manhole cover leads to the end of a man’s life … or rather a throw away comment about biscuits and fruit pastilles etc … ITS NOT THE MANHOLE COVER … Graham, it’s other things that are clearly on your mind … take a break or keep working selflessly or … getting closer to the rest of your family and friends … or take the dog out for more walks … ANYTHING … whatever you decide WE ARE BEHIND YOU ALL THE WAY

Hi Graham, I've been watching your videos for several years and after seeing this one felt I had to login and comment. I enjoy seeing your layout and your down-to-earth approach is refreshing (I don't get much time on my own layout, but I run whatever trains I like... hobbies are meant to be fun)! Speaking up on what you've been going through takes great courage - just a thought, but perhaps see if there's a "Men's shed" or something similar near you? Sending you very best wishes, Rob

Hi Graham hope your ok, stay strong my friend. If you ever need anyone to talk to, please reach out. Watching your videos have got me through some low times. Don’t let the haters get you down they aren’t worth it. Take care pal

Take care of yourself Graham and i will look forward to your return to health and to your love of modelling.

Graham, love your videos which are inspirational and have helped me with my layout development, wish you all the best and when you are ready to post another vid, will be watching out for it!

Sorry to hear about your troubles it is hard to live with depression know all about that stay strong you're layout is great wish my layout looked as good keep safe and look after yourself and your family thank you for sharing

You're right to take a break, mental health is your main focus Graham. I've long been a supporter of yours and will continue to follow your channel. You have been an inspiration to many over the years, take inspiration from us and take a long ass break and focus on yourself. A wee holiday away somewhere is always a good start. Take care and wishing you all the best. Brian @ The Angels

Well done Graham for sharing your thoughts and I’m really sorry you’re going through a bad time at the moment! Take your time and get the help you need and hopefully you will be back in the future fit and well and rearing to go! I thought you’re last videos were as brilliant as usual! Keep well, we will be here when you want to post again! Best wishes to you and Hazel!👏👏👏👏

Hi Graham, really feel for you at the moment.

Graham your a wonderful person.. I completely understand I lost 2 very close family members within a year 1 was my father and its still an every day battle at times I feel like I've lost so much but I keep trying to live on (this to shall pass)but it is very hard... I know I will miss not only your model building skills but the stories to go with your layout... keep your head up and try to keep traveling down the higher paths in life though it is very hard at times ...I do believe some people are just jealous or can't help but hate others on social media

Hi Graham, thanks for your courage in sharing. I'm so sad. Your channel, like many in the hobby becomes a community, where we feel safe to enjoy the love of trains at our level whatever that may be. Your skill has given so many of us encouragement and much enjoyment. I've not been following your channel long (joined when the lock was going in), but you've inspired and entertained me. Sod the rivet counters, your layout is amazing. It's time to look after yourself, your lady, and enjoy your layout your way. I'm more than happy to talk off the channel. Try to keep your chin up. Your friend and admirer, David 🙏

You are a great narrator and model layoutbuilder, true to life explanations of reasons for any particular scene on your layout ..Brilliant! Just think you need a long break from modelling and you tube. It is normal to be afraid but talking to a professional will help you AND the last place they want to send anyone is to mental institution because that means they cannot help you. Good luck and when you are out of this you will be 100% stronger

Good luck Graham, you take as long as you need mate, we’ll all be waiting here for when you come back to us. Take care and you’re doing the right thing by putting yourself and your family first. ❤

Graham, I too am 75 years old and recently lost my younger brother and two other family members. My wife too had a long heath problem (she is very much improved now). And yes, I too have had to think about my mortality, and how I look forward to seeing my grandkids grow up. So I've got an idea of where you are coming from. My best wishes to you and Hazel. I would think that as a 1st step would be a long chat with your GP to try to find a road to overcome this temporary issue. That said, Lakeside is truely a superb .layout and is an inspiration. Your Mastr Modeller award was not given for no reason. You do need to step back and look to your own well being. The layout videos can wait and your followers will understand and wait in support. Again best wishes for you anf Hazel. Arthur

Hello Graham, hear, hear, I agree with every word you've said, try not to let them get you down, many of us support you, stay strong and take care , Allan

Hi Graham am sorry to hear your news I haven't been following your channel for a while now you aren't the only one there's many people in the situation your under just now your not alone I'm going through a bad time also please look after yourself and take care.

Best wishes, Graham. Take care of yourself.

Hello Graham,taking a break sounds like a very sensible option at the moment, so that you can concentrate on getting better.when you come back you will enjoy the hobby and be refreshed.Life throws as some bad times but I find personally that better times are always around the corner,take care and I look forward to seeing your excellent channel at a later date,best wishes to you Andy

Hi Graham, don't give up on the modelling - it clearly gives you purpose. Just let the videos go for now. I have been through something similar with losing close relatives - it's stressful. Have you taken time to grieve? Take time out for yourself and Hazel and enjoy the nicer weather that is on the way. You are a smashing bloke with incredible modelling skills. Look forward to being in touch when you have dealt with the gremlins. We are all pulling with you. Take care both. Ta ta for now.

Graham, you always talk from the heart, that’s not being a miserable g*t! The first step to getting better is recognising you have a problem. I’ve learnt a lot and been inspired by what you share with us on a regular basis, free of charge! I hope you can access some support and get better soon, I look forward to seeing those bikes flashing round the village again soon (which is the single most whimsical thing I’ve ever seen and probably will on a layout). Take care pal!