being alive shouldn't feel this exhausting.

eating a hot dog in a car it’s so good

Me everytime: Sarah Ru- Brain: *so u fell into my trap*

the intro to sarah feels like being happy and being sad at the same time i just cant describe the feeling that well

sarah but she never stops running

I just want to enjoy my teenage years but I feel like they are drifting away fast. It’s so hard to enjoy them when you’re sad so often. This song makes me think of that.

I feel the nostalgia, so desperate to make me feel sad that I'm growing older everyday

this makes me think of 2009, homestuck, Scooby-Doo snacks, skate parks, flowers, ohshc, my gran. where did it go wrong ://

every person in this comment section seems so warm and kind and i dont feel alone anymorenreading some of you guys' stories.

can't tell if I wanna fall in love to this song or sob my eyes out

every time I hear each strum of the guitar my heart hurts even more

A girl from my middle school died a few days ago, she ran away from her abusive household and hid outside in freezing weather until she fell asleep. I didnt know her personally but a lot of my friends do. I follow her on social medias and from what I see and heard, she is a bubbly and positive person, and in no way deserved what happened to her. Im kinda sad right now, and this song perfectly captures how it feels. Someone died but life always goes on, I keep looking at her latest picture on insta to see people saying goodbye in the comments, she posted that a week ago and there will be no newer post, someday it will say “posted 2 years ago”. It’s just hard to take in. I hope she found peace

as someone with autism I feel like I'm growing slower then everyone else, I'm 17 but I still feel 11, everyone is growing and changing, moving on, driving, finding their soulmates, and I still feel stuck, I cant move on from the past, I cant grow and change. that's what this song feels like to me.

Makes me feel like the main character exiting the front door of my childhood home and smiling looking towards my inocence and memories one more time before becoming the adult version of myself.

permanent teenage purgatory

It's ok. After four years, it's ok. I can find peace in here. It's raining outside, and I love it.

It's Thanksgiving day and I miss you so much. No amount of sunlight, flowers the colors of a thousand sunsets, gold trim around the fireplace, and the smell of cinnamon candles, pumpkin pie, and hot maple toddy will warm up a room like you used to. I love you.

hello to anyone reading this if you’re like me, you might be listening to this song with longing, regret, nostalgia etc and I’m here to tell you that everything’s gonna be okay. seriously. life is crazy. a big deal of ups and downs. but you’re not seeing this by accident. this is a reminder that you’ve gotten this far. and that is something to recognize and be proud of. and you’re going to make it past this too. no matter what I’ve been through, who I’ve lost, what I’ve lost, in the end, it was okay. I’m okay now. and I know that even if it might not seem like it, you will too. you can’t change the past. but you can take that sadness of not being able to change what happened, and fuel it towards changing the future. check on your friends. take care of yourself. you deserve to be happy. it’ll come. you can do this

listening to this as i clean out my childhood bedroom while heading off to college is a unexplainable feeling

I come back and cry to this because I am so in love. I posted this on your birthday.

I'm finally free, running away into the forest with a big smile on my face, barefoot while wearing a flowy dress and as I entered the woods I saw goblins and fairies so I danced with them with this playing in the background. What a life.

This is literally what being a teen girl sounds like. 15, messy room, insecurity, crushing on boys, new emotions, sad sleepless nights, fun sleepless nights, online friends, harmless fun. In fact, I listened to this a lot when I was 13. It was the peak of my existence.. sneaking out, messy everything, rebelling against my mom, and that amazing feeling of being free.. 2021 shaped who I am today and I wish I could go back. It was an incredible time. Update July 20th 2023 10:32 pm: just had my first kiss.. and it was with my childhood best friend!! Update march 17th 2024: I forgot about this comment damn, but he dumped me back in November, I think it was the 29th or 30th I can’t rlly remember 🥲but it hurt like a mf but I’m ok now

the pain will never subside and I’m starting to enjoy it

this song feels like a long day at a lake with your friends and family doing whatever you wanted all day, fishing, swimming, jumping into the water, eating junk food, and the best of all, driving home while the sun sets

I just wanna be a kid again. That feeling of pure innocence. I didn’t know what anything was, I was clueless. All I knew was to play. Play with my dog... my cat... my friends... my parents... my toys. where did they all go? my dog is so old, my cat passed away, my friends left me, my parents treat me differently, I abandoned my own toys. why do all good things come to an end...

this song will always be special to me because it’s written about an abusive relationship. the narrator, describes sarah as someone easy to manipulate, and then goes on to call her a dog; meaning she’s loyal, and will always come back. the narrator then explains how they wake up every morning and feel guilty for putting sarah through this; but never guilty enough to leave. they question if they’ve made a mistake with the relationship, but they’re too far in to end things, and so the cycle continues.

someone said this song makes them feel nostalgic and suicidal and i couldn’t use any other words to describe it.

I'm an antisocial outcast who seeks only to be loved but at the same time loneliness feels like home

LOL THINGS ACTUALLY SUCK LIKE FR

I had a 15min cry it helped a lot

this part of the song reminds me of glitter; in the sense that the little harmonica sounds represent just little random dots of glitter and the acoustic reminds me of just darkness/black. the darkness representing life in general and then the glitter representing the small little things we often miss, but are so important and make us the happiest.

I have never felt this way before, so wholesomely infatuated with another person.

this made me study and not procrastinate :) thank u

I turned 21 & I’m still.. feeling like this. I don’t want to, all my friends are enjoying there life

this was the shit when i was 17. i'll soon be 20. i lived such a romantic life back then. reality intervened

i love how many people here share a part of their live or fun facts or encouraging messages that's so nice while listening to the sound, it's a safe place

I know we’re not meant to be together but I still love you.

When I hear the beginning of this song I just see myself in a loop of my everyday life. Wake up, school, home, sleep 🔁

This comment section is the most heartwarming I've seen in such a while. Your all beautiful people and you all make up the wonder that we experience. May you all be blessed with love

Feels like when your in the car from a day at the pool in 2018 and ur with your cousins falling asleep in the back seat

i love this comment section so much you don’t even understand

I have a memory from the summer between seventh and eighth grade where I was particularly depressed because of my abusive home situation. It was a warm night past sundown, and I was looking out my window as I was lying down in my bed. The neighbor across the street (who played a memorable role in my childhood and is now deceased, makes me think of the death of my childhood) lived in a house with a giant tree in front of it, in summertime the leaves were such a dark, luscious green. As I was lying down I would stare intently at that tree and at the surrounding night sky, and I would wish myself to be at the top of that tree, and have the ability to fly up above any of my worries that involved my mother's house or the surrounding area. I just wanted to be away from it all. This tune makes me think of that. I hope everyone in this comment section is doing okay, and if you're not, you're not alone. I wish I could give you all a hug and a comforting conversation. I love you all. 🌹

listened to this song every day on the bus ride to school for 4 years, now every time i hear even the first few strums of the guitar a pit forms in my stomach, ive just finished school and swore i would never miss it, yet I do? take me back.

this song feels like growing up crunchy and playing in mud, opening your window on a summer night to smell the air, watching bad movies nobody's heard of from a blockbuster, watching tv while your sister goes to school, and spending the summer at your grandma's house eating sandwiches every day and knowing your parents still love each other.

There will never be a time like this ever again. Enjoy it while it lasts.

does anyone else's brain do this kinda stuff all day long?

this song stabs me in the chest every time. sad nostalgia

this feels like the last day of elementary school, its sunny, warm, and filled with laughter from ur friends

i’ve been in love with the same boy for a year now. I’ve tried everything i can to distract me from him, I’ve tried speaking to other boys, I’ve tried distracting myself with running, walking, pilates, dancing, weight lifting. In this past year, nothing at all has worked, he’s always managed to catch my attention in one way or another. I met him at a campsite that we were visiting with school. That was when we had our first ever conversation, I was plucking up grass from the floor and placing it in a line on his leg, he’d pick up the grass and put it on me. It made me laugh. Eventually, the last piece of grass I put on him, he said he would keep it. In the night at camp, we all played capture the flag. I partnered myself with him, I held onto his arm all the way down the hill, and he made sure i didn’t trip over in the dark, and he always made sure I was okay. I held his hand, he held mine. I thought about him all night. there was nothing i could do to get to sleep and even though I’d never met this boy before he ended up being the only thing i could think about for the next 3 days of camp. On day two, his friends told me he spoke about nothing but me, they thought he liked me a lot. On day two, we had a sword fight with sticks in the, he gave his stick to me. On day two, we played hide and seek in the woods but he was sick and he wanted to sleep, so i didn’t get to play hide and seek with him, his friends said he was really excited to be my partner and he was really sad he couldn’t play. On day two, i held the stick while i slept. On day two I couldn’t bare to be away from this mystery boy. When i woke up on the last day of camp, i was absolutely distraught. i didn’t know if this was going to be a silly camp fling. Our final day together was so cute. I woke up in the morning and went over to his side of camp and ate breakfast with him. he told me about his family and his aspirations, he told me about his hobbies and his friends. I listened, so much, that even 10 months later i remember exactly everything he told me. every single word that came out of his mouth was cherished by me, i wanted to talk about everything he liked, and i just wanted to listen. We went on walks together in the woods, and he picked up a rock and gave it to me, i held our rock, and I held his hand. On our bus ride back to school i stared out the window and thought about what would happen to me and mystery boy when we got back to school. We started to hang out in school, and then we hung out outside of school. and then i texted him, asking him out. he said no. For the next month, mystery boy became a memory. There was never a space of time to think about anything but mystery boy. this is what this song sounds like.

pov: my friends and i are thick in the forest together. Free and wild, doing thatever we please. the soft dew of the morning and chirp of animals makes us grin slightly. We jokingly sing along to payphone by maroon 5. Life is perfect here in oregon. towering mountains dwarf us as we spin and run, making sure we dont trip on the roots of trees that touch the sky. thats all i truly want

it’s been 6 years now. i don’t think anything’s actually going to change because it would’ve by now. and i think everybody’s lied to me

sarah has to be one of the most comforting songs i’ve ever heard i put it in my eighth grade music project bro anyways it brings me back to my childhood, kinda. and how a lot has changed since then i don’t wanna be old

This song feels like knowing you've lost a friend but you would still redo everything even if you knew how it ended

Songs like this make me feel something. i was and still am a glass child, the first 5-6 years of my life were in hospitals and staying with aunts or grandparents= because my parents were with my little brother whos two years younger than me, my youngest brother, three years younger than me, spent his first year on the bend next to my brothers hospital bed. by the age of 4 i could recognise when my brother was getting worked up for a meltdown, or the signs of a siezure, by 6 i could get him in a safe position and keep him from choking before my parents were in the room. i recognized bad situations at 7 and figured a way out for me an my 4 yearold brother. i parented my youngest brother and taught him how to find his way in the world, and that put a bridge between us, and im still trying to repair it. by 8 i could've been a nurse with the medical expierience i had. when i was 8 my older cousin got a mentally ill girl pregnate, and that little baby boy lived at my house 3/4 weeks a month for 6 months. i changed his dipers, fed him, bathed him, held him, became a parent to this precias baby boy, we created a bond, and suddenly, that only comfort was ripped out of my arms by his biological mom. for almost two years i didnt see him, my family never talked about the baby that lived with us. My mom got sick a few months later and almost died, and i was instiled with fear, everymorning was “is mom still alive?” grabbing new tubes and helping around the house, it was like i was 6 again, after about a year or so, she got a little better, but that innate feeling of parenting, helping, was still there. The week before my tenth birthday, my cousin got custody of the little boy again, turns out he had been violently abused and put into a foster home that hurt him more, when i saw the dosile, shy little two year old that weekend, i k n e w, this was my baby, this was my brother, that entire weekend we played with his two little cars in the dirt. A few weeks later my cousin asked if we could “babysit” him, a week turned into 2 and 2 into 4 and slowly his third birthday rolled around and i stayed ip all night decorating for that little guy with my mom, when we woke up, he saw the paw patrol decorated living room with a cupcake that had his name on it, wanna know who he ran to to thank? Me. my mom was heart broken, but me and this little guy had a bond, he got me out of a state when i thought i was only meant for helping. His third birthday, he got scared and ran to my dad screaming “daddy! Daddy the monster!” and ran into my dads arms, after that, his bio dad asked if we would adopt him, we agreed, and a few weeks later we got custody of him. I had never been so happy, i was finally with my little guy, every movie, every tuck in, every scare, he sat next to me, and it made me feel loved and appreciated. I didnt know how a parent could love their child so much, until i held him in my arms that random day. Even though i was happy, i was happy, i wanted to die, i picked my hair and bit my nails til they bled, and has my privacy of notebooks destroyed constantly. When i turned 11 we moved across country, a whole new start, whole new world i had to adjust to, and i did not do well, i had to leave the comfort of the small home i knew and loved with trees and a homemade treehouse in our small town to a big house in the middle of a busy yet rualish city, it was alot, and i struggled to make new friends. I began to have a huge mental health decline, and started cutting myself, 6th grade was rough. I was mocked for being “different” like i always was in school, for how i didnt understand if someone was joking or not, for making weird face expressions, i eventual just didnt talk to anyone, and isolated in school. 7th grade was gonna be different i thought, with a tiny bit of hope, that would soon be destroyed. A new school again, more kids, more sounds, more lights, no breaks, i was stressed. I failed most of my classes, even thought i studied the first part of the year, but the teasing and mocking and talking behind my back got to me. The “different” kid, the one who didnt understand things was mocked more, and told to kill myself, that i was worthless, i got into the wrong crowd and fell deeper, i stood up for the people that wanted be dead. The person i thought was my best friend sexually assulted me and i didnt even put it together until recently. It made me rethink alot of my friends from when i was younger, i was obvious, didnt realize people were bad or didnt like me, just thought everyone was nice. It made me realize the “games” they made me play werent games, just sexual assult,and it destroyed me on the inside. I ended up hurting myself really bad and got admitted to a behavioral health facility, i was scared, it was new, and i didnt know what i was gonna do. The staff there were not trained at all, they didnt care, they gave us food that werent supposed to be in there, they let multiple kids get beat by other patients, and placed bets on if the person would fight back. The place i went to has 10 year olds with 17 year olds, sharing rooms. They kept trying to extend my stay and on the fith(?) day i got beat up by a girl, and was horified, because i thought i did something wrong, a few patients managed to get her off me before causing bad damage while the staff sat and watched. The next morning at breakfast i got attacked brutally, to the point i passed out, i was out of it for an hour or so, they didnt let me call my mom, or get out of the “tv room”(a bare room with a boxed tv and six plastic chairs, and an ice machine) because i was “bound to get killed” if i got out. At 12 i was able to sign papers that said i knew i was being released and acknowledged i got help there(i didnt get help, but i wanted to leave so i signed it.) at 1 i was able to get my things and get to the lobby, there i saw my mom and grandma, i ran to them and almost broke down, they figured the stuff out and got me out. They looked at me horrifie the rest of the day, why? Because my hair was matted into a knot in the back, my face was bruised and had dry blood on it because the staff didnt give me anything to clean up with. When i got home my dad went “its a shame you got hurt, but you probably did something to make them want to hurt you, you dont have a filter and your mouth is probably what did it.” i was horrified, how could my dad saw that, the day i got home? It took me three days to let me mom untangle my hair, and when i tell you i lost a lot of it, i did, i had bald patched from the places it was ripped from, and i had to get multiple x-rays to make sure my nose didnt get more messed up(its slightly deformed in the cartilage) and it was a bad experience overal. Al over the course of a wekk and a half. When i opened my phone and email? One person asked where i was. And it was a kid i barely knew. I didnt go back to school the rest of the year and the next i did online, i could bare it, it was to scary. The time i spent home, i unmasked , i was able to be weird, and flap my hands and jump when i had to much energy, and rant about the things i liked, i got comments from my parents like “youre so autistic” and “i swear youre on the autisim spectrum” but i just ignored them, i was okay. Kinda. Until i slipped again, over the course of january to february i tried to kill myself with pills three times, i cut myself horibly, and no one found out, and its still something i hide to this day. Its now the sumer after i was online, and im better now i think. my parents have told me that i actually am autistic, and that aparently all my teachers and therapists have thought so too, they just didnt want to get me officially diagnosed because it would “go onto your record” and that i “already have so many diagnosis”. When they first started mentioning it i brushed it off, they were joking, werent they? After a few days tho i started to think about when i was younger and all of a sudden a lot made sense, so i agreed with them, with the words “mother, after extensive thinking, i have come to the conclusion i accept your diagnosis with great saltiness.” /facepalm. But im learning how to cope with my mental health, and am finding some good ways to fidget and stim without attracting attention for when school starts in a few weeks! I spent a month with family from where i lived before i moved and loved it, i spent time with my younger cousins and they convinced everyone everywhere they went(and themselves:) that i was their sister! Im nervous but excited for school, so wish me luck lol! Thank you for reading my story- its alot i know- (also, i realized my parents deny every parentizing me or putting responsibility on me when i was small, so thats coming up to my therapist lol)

The beginning of this song feels like late nights during summer with your friends 🥲

Man an actual smooth loop, a lot of props to you! I also love how this comment section has sort of become a place for confessions. I wish you all the best.

this song makes me realise how worthwhile it is to live my life. i play this song after a minor inconvenience and it always helps me calm down. i cannot describe how much this song means to me at this point, it's truly the most beautiful song i've ever heard. this whole comment section feels like a warm hug, i hope everyone in this comment section is doing well and i want everyone to know that they're are so worthwhile and that they are special and loved. i don't want anyone in this comment section to feel the way i have been feeling the past couple of weeks

I just turned 17 after having a terrible yr at 16. I hate listening to songs like this because it makes me think of the teenage years that were promised to me. Hangin out with friends, staying up late with them, going to skate parks. I didn't get any of that. Instead I got quarantined, and by the time we weren't anymore my friends already got summer jobs and had no time to spend with me. Not to mention one does sports that shes very invested in and the other is studying to be a paramedic and works part time as a firefighter. Now, 2 years later, I'm getting a job like them, and getting a learners permit to drive like they've already done a year ago. I feel like I've wasted what people have told me are the best years of my life and I don't know what to do in the time I have left to make up for it.

pain.

POV you made a banger instrumental loop in the studio and you're just sitting there listening to it loop over and over again endlessly

This is the song that will play when I drive through my hometown once I’m an adult, remembering everything and longing for the past

this reminds me of a life i know i'll never have. driving with the windows down and music blasting with my best friend in the nice summer evening, sitting around a fire at 10 pm with my closest friends while laughing at everything and nothing at the same time, sitting on the roof and watching the sun rise, swimming while it's raining as the sun tries to fight it's way through the gloom. just being the teenager i wish i could've been, but never got to be and will never get to be

Who ever is scrolling through the comments, I just wanted to say how much you mean to this world, your valid no matter your race or sexuality your all valid I don’t know who you are personally but I love you for carrying on look how far you have made it! Your so strong for making it this far and this goes for everyone no matter how old you are 13 or 30 your strong.. your amazing and you bring joy to this world I don’t know what it would be without you ❤

the beginning of this song is so lovely its like flowers n that

Whenever I hear this song I have to cry so hard because of the first time I ever heard the intro. It was on TikTok and the video was a slideshow about how misunderstood sharks are and sharks were my favorite animals when I was a child. For some years I had pretty much just forgotten how much I loved sharks and how cool they are. Now I'm again deeply into that topic but it has become pretty sad and depressing because sharks are nearly dying out and guess why? Us humans are hunting them, stealing their food and pollutioning their habitat and we still claim that sharks are dangerous monsters though they're cute and so important for the oceans for example in coral reefs they eat the sick animals so deseases can't spread that much and they also let little fish clean their teeth and eat the dirt stuck in their mouth isn't that cute? I really really love sharks and hope that one day if I have kids I could still tell them how great sharks are and not how great they used to be

This song feels like the begin of summer break where you and your partner go have a picnic at sunset and then just run in the field together, teasing and being funny with eachother

Sorry for the bad english is not my main Language I have been going through a bad time, the economy is very bad my family too and my mental stability is declining very badly. This song is comforting and makes me feel like a kid again, I would like to hear this song again for the first time. Also the comments of this video are heart warming you are amazing people ❤️

People make life so completed. It's embedded in our brains throughout our life when something feels wrong we say its anxiety, its depression, its ADHD and then we go get external help with therapists and pills to solve what can be solved within us. They start to push that there are things wrong with us purposely to make us feel like we can't anything which just makes us all the same, an average life just passing the time. Everything can come from within and you can totally fix those problems that maybe don't even exist with yourself. They make it seem complicated to keep you in control. Everything is simple but we over complicate it because we feel as if that is what is needed. Take a second to breathe and process everything that has happened to you today. Ask what has brought up certain emotions,, understand yourself its how you find peace

i told him that he makes me feel the same way this intro does, in peace.. its gonna hurt when he leaves

Edit: I wrote this during a very bad time in my life. I’m doing better since, luckily. Hopefully anyone who reads this is doing ok too. :) I’ve been crying to this song all day and I hate that. It makes me think of all the things I missed out on and what could’ve been my life had all the things that had happened to me never had happened. If I wasn’t forced to adult so fast and become the only voice of reason in my household, if I wasn’t living in fear 24/7, if I wasn’t as corrupted by the internet as I was, if I was just the same awkward but happy and energetic and creative young girl I was before 5th grade, but no. It’s too late. I’m entering my junior year in HS, already more than halfway through my teen years, and haven’t had one singular fucking teen experience I had hoped for back in middle school. I was going through the worst days and it was the only thing keeping me hopeful.. and I ended spending almost the entirety of it locked behind a screen because of the great epidemic of 2020. It’s all wasted. I’m never going to be a part of those clubs and events and all that stuff. I’m never going to make all those friends I wanted to make. I’m never going to experience that cheesy teen love the media seems to make out to be so great. I’m just.. never going to be a teenager, and it’s all because of the shit I went through that forcefully occupied my brain. I never felt like one, anyways. Oh well I guess.. It’s already 11PM where I live as I’m typing/editing this. Morning me is gonna hate myself lmao. Later to anyone sees this. Hopefully your day was much better than mine.

I have so many memories attached to this song. I am so grateful I stayed in this world so I could make some more. I first heard this song when I was scared to live. I can't believe two years have passed and I'm just starting to live the way this life deserves to be lived. (tw) A year ago I tried to kill myself. Today, I'm excited about each breath... Thank you for this wonderful video, Alex G helped me breathe.

i would trade in every person on the planet just to feel this song’s nostalgia again

I told myself “i will never be able to listen to this song ever again without crying if she leaves me” i was right. i miss her and the memories we made.

makes me nostalgic for comfort and memories i never had

tysm for this !!! i’ve been replaying the song just for the intro :(:

I wish the world were as nice as this comment section...

I feel like I'm falling apart. I used to love life so much, but now I can barely get up in the morning, much less go outside or hang out with those I love. I'm going to be 18 this year, but I feel so much older. I know my youth is slipping away, but I can't bring myself to care. I'm just so tired.

this reminds me of my childhood how much i never cared about the little things until like did and it all fell apart preschool to 4th grade was it i wish i didn’t need to care so much i need to be peaceful and content again like how it used to be

It. Just. Doesn’t. Stop.

This is the song that hits me the most. Ive been creating a story for a long time now. The OCs I have in there, are with me since I am 14/16 years old. My oc grew up with me and day by day they change as I change. The main idea of that story is a group of friends who found each other. Whenever I hear this song, images flashes in my mind- with my ocs having a fun time together as friends. I never got to experience it, specially in my lonely years, but now I'm over it now. I'm just so glad that music can make me feel and remember things that I don't even experienced. Fake memories that I made to cope with my reality that turned into nostalgia.

i hope you realize this is one of the most perfect loops i've ever heard of any song ever, excellent work

I could listen to this forever

for anyone who may come across the comment, i want to let you know something. for those of you going through a rough time in your life, i just want you to know that it gets better. it truly does. maybe not in a few days, or weeks, or months even, but i swear it does. i highly doubt the dark point in my life comes anywhere close to what some of you may be going through, but when i was in it i felt like i had absolutely no one, but i made it out. it took time and it took patience. A LOT of patience, but it's okay because it was worth it in the end. keep pushing. i swear, it is so worth it. and if you or anyone you know feels like harming themselves in any way, shape, or form, please get them/you the help they/you deserve. never suffer in silence. and just in case you haven't heard it in awhile, I'm proud of you and how far you've come and i wish you nothing but the absolute best.

im so tired. every night im so sad and theres nothing i can do about it. i don't even know whats stopping me from ending it all

nothing can describe how much peace this gives me.

I hate that after 4 years I'm pretty sure I'm still depressed. And I hate that it comes and goes in waves, I feel better and think it's over and then it's not, and it comes crashing down again. Having depression on your birthday fucking sucks. I hate that I have to lie to my friends and family.

If I don't walk down the aisle to this song I don't want it.

this song to me is the sound of coming face to face with your crush while you both gaze into each others eyes as you slowly lock hands on the beach

This song makes me feel so calm. Im finally at a place in my life where everything is amazing but im afraid it may end. Soon ill be 14 and time is flying by so fast, if there’s even just one more change in my life im not sure I’ll be able to handle it. In only 4 years me and my friends will be heading off to college, going our separate paths, and im not sure if I can bear that. But isn’t that what life is all about? Change and being able to adapt. I just hope i can figure it out.

this song is one that would play when remembering your old childhood days filled with nothing but happiness and fun. The longing you feel, the melancholy, nostalgia and so many other similar emotions, maybe even regret. When I'm an adult, I want to be able to listen to this and just think about how happy I was as a child, and not how sad and lonely I was. I want to remember going to skate parks and doing tricks on my board, I wanna remember having a bunch of friends to skate with and stay out late and get stoned with. I want to remember dancing in the rain with my girlfriend and after taking a warm bath together and then watching movies. I want to have my gf and our friends over to hang out and do stupid shit together. I want to have that kind of childhood. But if I continue to stay cooped up in my room and do nothing but wither away and mope about how I can't get good grades, then I'll never have that type of childhood and I'll never truly have fun. It's too bad my parents probably won't let me anyways. I want to get in trouble and do hella dumb shit for the fuck of it, to stay out until 2am, to sneak out of my room to go party, to has disputes with friends, to actually do something outside of home, outside of school, outside of my families watchful eyes. I want to be me, but so far, I haven't been able to be. Not only because I won't ask to be, but also because I would be turned down when I would ask due to grades, getting in constant trouble and so on. I don't hate my parents, no, quite the opposite actually. There are moments where I think I hate them, but ultimately that's just me being upset in the moment, despite me being upset most of my life. I just wish I were given a little more freedom. My dad was given all the freedom ever so he doesn't want me having that, and my mom wasn't given any freedom at all, so she says she wants to give me what I didn't have, but she still won't let me go out places and do things because of small reasons like having one D or one F. I just want to be able to breathe without being choked by their grip on me. I can't wait until I can finally do that, if I even can. I want to be a free spirit, and I want my friends to be as well. I want us all to have a lot of fun in each others company. Why can't I just have that? I'll probably ask them if they want to do something fun with me outside of school then ask my mom if I can go. She's more likely to say yes than my dad, but there's also my grandma to consider. So I might just end up asking my dad anyways, even though I'm scared of asking him for things. Anyways, if you want to have fun as well, go have fun! Don't let the limits placed on you stop you from living your life, and not just surviving it. You might regret it later in life, but you'll regret it even more if you don't do it. Sincerely, an all-too-knowledgable-15-year-old. Love y'all

back at it again, thinking about my dog and that kid i only met once who died how i thought i would. i don't think i can mourn normally. i miss my dog.

I'm about to graduate high school, and this song makes me think about all the awesome times I had. But because of COVID and shit, I didn't really get to have the senior year I wanted at all. I'm crossing my fingers that I can let it go fast but I think it'll be tough. This song helps me remind myself of all the lovely times I had, but also that there are more of those to come. Here's to hating and loving being in high school. Cheers.

it’s my birthday today, i’m currently crying to this. happy birthday to me i’m finally 14 edit: just want to say thank you so much for all these replies i hope whatever ur going through will get better

mannnn this shart reminds me of my dad playing the guitar around a bonfire. I always wanted him to teach me how to play a few songs. He took his life last week, and this song feels so calming 🥶🥶💯💯

i blink and ten years have passed. there is nothing before nothing after. im just living day by day and i cant remember anything

This song is so weirdly comforting. Especially this part. I just make's me reflect on life in general. There's no word to describe it, its almost as if its homely.

i hope everyone here finds themselves and becomes genuinely happy one day, yous are all such beautiful humans with amazing souls pls never forget that, i love you gorgeous stranger 💗❤️

it was beginning of junior year when i first heard this song , i was in the back of the car after just visiting the place where i'd be studying for the next two years. majoring in subjects i was unsure of but knew that i had no other choice. and little did i know it was just about to get terribly worse from there. im in my senior year now, a few months away from graduating, also a few months away from writing the biggest exam of my life for college. currently absolutely burnt out and hanging by a thread. i cant get shit done, havent done much with the vast syllabus, its just there waiting for me to get started with, but i cant bring myself to. when i first heard this song i did not know what i was getting myself into at all. i wish someone just told me, that it would be this intense and draining.

this gives me the vibe of having a comforting friend group that will always go on forest adventures with you and are just supportive. I need that in my life because my current friend group is just not my vibe. I can't fit in with them

i love them so much i don’t want to lose them😐😐